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irregularnctzenn-blog · 6 years

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dreams’ heartbreak hotel (angst)

welcome to dreams’ heartbreak hotel. here you will have the opportunity to meet seven boys by the names of mark, haechan, jeno, jaemin, renjun, chenle and jisung. seven boys, seven days to win and break your heart. a warning in advance: this never ends well for you. be careful darling.

day one: mark (coming soon)

day two: haechan (coming soon)

day three: jeno (coming soon)

day four: jaemin (coming soon)

day five: renjun (coming soon)

day six (listen to them): chenle (coming soon)

day seven: jisung (coming soon)

#nct angst #nct dream angst #renjun angst #mark angst #haechan angst #jeno angst #jaemin angst #chenle angst #jisung angst

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shoulder gangster renjun

#nct #nct dream #nct jeno #nct mark #nct 2018 #nct jisung #nct jaemin #nct renjun #nct chenle #renjun

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irregularnctzenn-blog · 6 years

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not okay pt.2 (angst) - optional bias

a/n: i did a second part to ‘not okay’ on a whim. it’s a little shorter than i normally write (i say that as if i’ve written a lot but i really haven’t lol). you could say it’s kinda poetry but kinda not at the same time. idek. i hope y’all like it. i wrote this whilst listening to ‘blue’ by lolo zouaï. again, feedback would be wonderful. until next time lovelies - panda <3

word count: 195

(italics are lyrics from the song)

You were so done.

You wanted everything to fade away.

So the pain could stop even just for a moment.

Every time you thought you were okay, emotions flooded you once again, bringing you near tears too often for your liking.

Blue. All I see is, all I feel is blue.

You missed them.

The small conversations you had during the afternoon.

The long talks that went on until 2am.

The way they made you feel safe in their arms.

How they smiled at you that you thought was the most endearing thing.

The way they never failed to make you smile even on your worst days.

Even just a little.

Blue. All I see is, all I feel is, all I know is blue.

You had no motivation.

No one asked if you were okay.

At the same time, you didn’t want them to.

Afraid that your friends would soon tire of your problems.

Your friends had their own things to deal with anyway.

You knew that without them, you should be okay.

You were fine beforehand.

Why was it different now?

You knew the answer.

Maybe you just didn’t want to accept the inevitable.

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irregularnctzenn-blog · 6 years

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not okay (angst, optional bias)

summary: you are forced to break a relationship because your mum prioritises your studies. it’s been a month since you told them that and things aren’t really great for you...

word count: 578

You weren’t yourself today.

School was okay. That was it. Nothing more, nothing less. Just okay. You had been like this for a while ever since that happened. And every day, you dragged yourself to school, worked through the day, talking to your friends, going home alone to shut yourself in your bedroom until you forced yourself to go downstairs and start your homework that was most likely due in for the next day. It was routine now. You weren’t particularly motivated to do anything but school and ‘working’ was a distraction. A distraction from the person you thought about daily; the person who you wouldn’t see anymore; the person who you had to break. But obviously, that didn’t change anything.

It’s been a few weeks or so since you told them.

DATE: 02/09/XX

You: I’m sorry. I don’t think I can do this. We can’t meet up. Now that you’ve moved school, I won’t be able to see you regularly like I used to. I’d love to see you but my mum prioritises my studies meaning she won’t allow me to see you. And so please find someone who can be with you and can actually give you their time. I’m sorry. You don’t deserve this. – SENT: 10:47

READ: 17:39

Them: Fair enough

READ: 17:42

You hadn’t spoken to them since and yet they didn’t seem to leave your mind. That conversation constantly replayed in your head. Your mind constantly wondering if you could have somehow made it work again. If you had replied and not left them on read. If they replied in a way that explained how they were feeling instead of being blunt and putting up a front that they was okay. If they knew that you broke down after he replied. If you had the courage to talk to them once again instead of just reading your previous conversations where all that mattered was that moment in time where you were happy and perhaps innocent and naive, not even giving a thought to the future.

But now everything was dulled. You didn’t realise how much this would affect you. You haven’t been eating as much or as well as you used to. You were distant, prone to being more aggressive and being all extra at school in order to hide your broken self from the world. You knew your friends were concerned about you but you didn’t want to speak to them about it as you had already told them about your breakdowns that happened for two weeks straight after the incident. You didn’t want to constantly dampen the mood so you just shut yourself out from them.

You felt so alone. You felt so broken. The world around you that used to seem bright and vivid with roaring colours that made you smile now seemed to have an underlying tone of grey and everything around you seemed so muted. Every single day, you never stopped thinking about how you had to break yourself and them. Whether they were okay or not, you didn’t know. You couldn’t bring yourself to ask them. You didn’t think you were in any place to either. But from what your friend said, he wasn’t. Neither of you were. You both were just in pain constantly and now it was just numb and you had to get on with your lives. But maybe they thought the same. Maybe, just maybe, they wished things had turned out differently too...

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a/n: hello wonderful people i am back!! um lol not really, i just got sudden inspiration to write again. i literally wrote this in one go and i’m not really sure if it makes complete sense but ah well, just thought i’d share it with y’all. any thoughts and feedback would be appreciated. i hope you guys like it!! - panda <3

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