janasdiary

[janasdiary]

online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't think anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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they should invent a life that is liveable and a sleep that comes easy and a winter that doesn't feel like decay and a spring that doesn't feel like the past and a head that doesn't hurt and a heart that doesn't sit in your chest like a rock and a body that doesn't hate you and a hometown that doesn't make you lose your mind and a university that won't kill you they should invent a me that is normal I think that would be really neat. ok good night I love you

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from rayne fisher-quann’s latest substack post

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an accidentally mild coffee, reading about the cold war in south asia and listening to the new hozier ep

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you will get through this. i don’t like to say you’ll “look back and laugh” because you probably won’t. but i will say you’ll look back at your past self with a gentleness and fondness, rather than shame. and that is a far greater reward.

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sorry I wasn’t in the mood to be a person today, sorry I forgot to keep a conversation, sorry my soul needs ironing. give me a moment, a day or a so. it’ll be good. I’ll brush my hair and change my clothes. I’ll laugh a lot. I’ll say important things. it’ll be good.

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8.3.24 | golden hour in my favorite cafe getting some writing done 🌞

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This is the kinda year where I need to pull myself up by my boot straps and do everything I’ve been avoiding and focus on long term health and wellness even if it doesn’t provide me w insane dopamine and euphoria instantly. È difficile lo so ma devo farlo

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ok universe i’m getting out of bed i’m drinking water i’m making breakfast i’m trying please have something kind in store for me ok. i need a win

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sleepy moody romantic afternoon work sesh

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Once you learn something, make sure you stay up to date.

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shaking myself (very gently) . being in pain takes a lot of energy!!!!!! being in pain is exhausting!!!!!!! you are not lazy or weak because you need to spend so much time resting, this is your body coping with how much pain you’re in literally 24/7!!!!!!!!!

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rare occasions when my roommates are out and I get the whole house to myself

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i do like a good little note taking session in a cute café ☕️

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not enough secret gardens and hidden passageways and bookshelves that open to a mysterious library these days. get working on that girls.

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life lately

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life lately

#meet one of my bunnies: winter <3 #oh and her sister toffee is on the picture in my journal hehe #so: meet both of my bunnies lol #journal #journaling #coffee #aesthetic #studyblr #bookblr #cafe #bunny #my post #janasdiary #matcha latte #cozy