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Wow fuck shitty friends but yay for wonderful daddies that make you feel better🥰🥰

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I don't think there will be anyone to love me.

I don't even think I'm deserving of it anyways.

Every time I start to like someone and get close to them they leave. Just straight up disappear and here I am left wondering again what I did wrong.

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Wow.

Definitely didn't mean for my relapse post to really get any response but I am very grateful for those who have reached out.

We're in this together and if any of you ever need someone to just vent and talk to (I know it's hard) I'm here!!!!

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It's been years since I last cut. Like I'm talking at least 7 years. I thought I was going to be able to make it the rest of my stupid fucking life never doing that again.

Instead here I am relapsing and fuck did I miss it.

It's the good kind of sting that I've missed so much.

It's so comforting and I know how awful it is, but I can't help myself.

#tw #trigger warning #self harm #cut #cutting #tw self harm #I don't feel better #just not so numb #depression #lonely

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Peanuts, November 1, 1950

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This isn’t a dinosaur fossil; it’s a mummy. Scientists think the 110 million-year-old nodosaur was swept to sea by a flooding river, sank, landed on its back, and was pressed into the ocean floor. It’s so well- preserved that it still has intestines and weighs 2,500 of its original 3,000 lbs. Source Source 2 Source 3

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I hate my friends. They're such shitty people.

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It doesn't feel like people want me around.

I spent the weekend with 3 friends who I wish I could call my closest friends especially since I've known them for the last 10 years.

But all I felt this weekend was that I was a fourth wheel and I would've been better off staying home.

I didn't fit it. I don't fit. I'm not wanted there. They don't seem to value the friendship I thought we had. Actually, it doesn't even really feel like a friendship anymore when I know nothing about their lives because no one talks to me.

I miss the real friends I had. I miss feeling like I was a valued friend.

But most of all I hate the person I've changed into because of these friends.

They always talk over me. They always hang out with me. They always exclude me.

I guess I'm hanging on to something that might not be worth it.

#friends #friendship #sad #lonely #depressing #depressed #I don't have real friends #I don't belong #I'm not wanted #I just shouldn't be here anymore

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It's really my own fault that I constantly act like I don't need people and that I'm always fine.

I can't remember the last time I was genuinely happy. I'm always hiding and pretending so that people won't get too close because it seems everyone in my life is just temporary.

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I'm so desperate for human connection that I'm hanging on to friends that I don't feel really care or value me in any way