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LITTLE WOMEN (2019) dir. Greta Gerwig

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being 23 is so awesome cause I can bring a Cola can into my room before bed and nobody makes me put it back in the fridge! *realising i sound like a loser* i mean uh being 23 is so awesome cause I can take the bus to go have a sleepover at my best friend's house and we can stay up as late as we want! *getting visibly nervous* and then later... we have sex with eachother. *checking for audience reaction*

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before spotify wrapped comes out i have to establish that i am not mentally well and cannot be held responsible for my listening habits

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man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

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minimalism is cool but have you ever had all the things you love in your room

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The more empathetic and kind men I meet, actually, the MORE I hate bad men. It’s like I’ve seen it proven you don’t have to act this way — I know for a fact that it’s not coded into your biology to disrespect women or be aggressive or be emotionally stunted — you’re literally just a shithead.

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girls when they go utterly insane every summer

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who up grieving the unlived life on a tuesday

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would love to follow the advice of “don’t stay in your head too much” but that’s made rather difficult by the fact that i LIVE in there!!!! where else do i go!!! get me OUT

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you (smooth-brained, incurious, dull, feeble): my studyspiration is Gilmore Girls

me (brain with a structure more complex than the Magna Carta, academically adroit, an intellectual virtuoso): my studyspiration is the 2009 point-and-click single-player adventure game "Nancy Drew: Warnings At Waverly Academy", developed and published by HER Interactive

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sorry that its been a week since I’ve replied to your message. I was held captive by the 20 something urge to do both everything and nothing in life.

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take a photo dump as an apology for temporarily abandoning this account !!

Recap of things that happened before I graduated: caffeine!!! won an award for best undergraduate essay in the history department!! was nominated as the distinguished student leader in the history department (red dress)!! was inducted into phi beta kappa honors society (blue dress)!! turned 21 (an extremely stressed and existential time I wish not to revisit!!) thank you to the coffee that led me to these moments!!

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5/20/23

I KNOW THAT I DISAPPEARED FROM THIS ACCOUNT BUT IT WAS FOR A GOOD CAUSE— I GRADUATED FROM UNI IN THREE YEARS WITH A 4.0 GPA AND A DEGREE IN HISTORY !!!

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