kkeutluv

[kkeutluv]

not the best but i'm happy bc it's my first time actually taking fasting 100% seriously, i wanted to make it to 3 days but i actually felt so sick

#like my heart kept jumping and i got such a bad stomach ache #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #tw ana shit #ana bllog #🕯️as a 🪶 #ed not sheeren #wannarexic

[kkeutluv]

trying not to scream because i gained 0.6kgs from eating a pocky stick without thinking, drank a can of coke and 2 glasses of water

#i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving #ana bllog #ed not sheeren #ana rant

[kkeutluv]

life at the moment is literally just me st4rving all day during school, eating 400-600 cals after school, crying about it, and then st4rving again.

#idk and also i like studying sometimes and watch f4mily guy #ana bllog #ana rant #ed not sheeren #pro for me not for thee #⭐️ving #🕯️as a 🪶 #@nor3×14

[kkeutluv]

my mom won't let me get the dress i really want bc it'll make me look fat. i know i did this to myself. it's not her fault that i'm fat. i hate myself so much.

#cw weight #tw ana rant

[kkeutluv]

he's so pretty...

i need to see him in my room tonight

#schizoposting

[kkeutluv]

i just want someone to validate my delusions

#schizoposting #schizo spectrum #<3

[kkeutluv]

I don't care if it's problematic, just validate my delusions.

[kkeutluv]

i haven't felt happy since september. i'm so sick of living. i wouldn't even call this living. all i do is wait for the next day to come. any time i talk about how i feel i get told that im ungrateful or that i have something to look forward to. honestly, i don't really care. i just know death is for me and i'm sick of waiting~~

#tw sui vent #cw vent #cw sui thoughts #tw depressing thoughts

[kkeutluv]

hey <3 (with intention to give you head until you’re shaking and whining for me)

[kkeutluv]

i'm so sick of being judged. asian culture is so ruthless, i feel like an outsider all the time. i'm never good enough, i'm never smart enough, i'm never skinny enough, i'm never pretty enough. i just want to be accepted and envied.

#cw vent #cw weight #i hate it here #i wish i was white so bad #asian problems

[kkeutluv]

literally no one cares about me. like i'm not even being dramatic i told 4 people that i wanted to die and no one cared. and i didn't even tell them an attention seeking way. i was genuinely panicked about it. i matter so little.

#like how obvious do i have to be? #i feel like i literally have to die for someone to help me #that's kind of how it's always been for me. #i'm literally the only person that cares about my life #cw vent #cw sui thoughts

[kkeutluv]

why am i invisible to everyone? why does nobody text me? why does nobody care about me wanting to die? why does everyone leave me alone when i want to die? why do they trust me?

#cw vent #cw sui thoughts

[kkeutluv]

i hope his dick twitches when he thinks ab me

[kkeutluv]

i would kms but i don't want to die fat

#tw sui vent #tw disordered eating #ed disorder #tw ana shit #disordered eating thoughts

[kkeutluv]

i'm genuinely obsessed about weighing myself it's so unhealthy ugh

#the worst bit is that it works #like i am losing weight pretty fast #cw weight

[kkeutluv]

i always thought my first time drinking would be fun and special but idk here i am

#i ruin everything

[kkeutluv]

i think my friends hate me.