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liviakomtrikru20 · 3 years

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Just a question, does anyone ever skip to the last chapter or most recently updated one to make sure the story didn’t abruptly end or to see if it’s even worth reading the whole thing based upon the ending?

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I would love to see some more Michael Gray content from the Peaky Blinders. I’m not finding a lot on tumblr, Wattpad or A03. He’s such an underrated character I feel like. I hope he becomes more front stage and center the next season. Oh and he is very easy on the 👀. Those eyes though😍

#michael gray x original female character #michael gray #peaky blinder #peaky blinder fanfic #polly gray #tommy shelby #arthur shelby #john shelby #finn shelby #aberama gold #bonnie gold #isiah jesus #ada thorne #gina gray #Johnny doggs

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liviakomtrikru20 · 3 years

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all i do is sit and think about imaginary but extremely detailed romantic scenarios

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I Love You, Gypsy Eyes Chapter 2: Aunt Esme and Uncle John’s Friends

“Mummy? Who are they?” Aurora asked quizzically. Well I was not prepared for this. Everyone is silent, watching anxiously, looking back in forth between Aurora and I then back to Michael. Esme jumps in and tells Aurora with a forced smile, “They are just some of Auntie Esme and Uncle John’s friends. They came to pay us a visit love.”

“Does mummy know your friends?” She looks between Esme and I for an answer. I can’t find the courage to speak. I can’t lie to my daughter. I told myself I never would, not after all the lying I have endured from those who I've loved.

Michael watches us intently, with a furrowed brow. You can tell he is trying to do the math putting two and two together. I can’t look at him right now. I have to focus on Aurora.

Another figure barges into the den through the back door. Great who is it this time? “Esme, where the fuck is…?!” He looks up abruptly and notices everyone standing about silently. John sees Michael and furrows his brow, then narrows his eyes towards him. Taking notice of the blonde-haired woman on his arm.

“Uncle John!!!” Aurora squeals jumping towards him. John leans down and picks Aurora up, holding her on his hip. “Hi my little princess,” he says with a wide smile. She gives him a little kiss on the cheek. “I missed you. Where have you been all day?” Looking a John’s bloody knuckles and smelling his whiskey breath, I would say he’s been at the Garrison. I can’t look at Esme, I am sure she is fuming.

“Uncle John, you and Auntie Esme’s friends are here,” she points. John looks at Aurora then to Esme and I with a raised brow. “My friends eh?” You can see his jaw clench and lips purse tightly around the toothpick in his mouth. He’s is getting angry and trying to restrain himself for Aurora’s sake.

Polly steps away from Michael and puts herself between John, Arthur and Michael. Trying to keep the two brothers from coming any closer to Michael. She knows they are angry and rightfully so, but she can’t let them hurt her son. “Alright, well I will take Auntie Esme and Uncle John’s friends to their hotel so they can rest since they have had such a long journey,” Polly commands.

“Nana wait! Can I come with you!?! I want to ride in the car!” Aurora pleads. Usually Polly would give in to her, but she knows it is not what's best right now. “You can ride in the car on the way to Nana’s house tonight. We are going to have a girl’s night my nepoata.”

I look towards Michael during this exchange, his face is emotionless, and I am quite sure he is holding his breath. Gina’s hold is tightening on his jacket.

“Can we get ice cream too!?” Aurora says with a devilish grin. Polly teases Aurora, “Only if your mummy promises to have fun this weekend.” Polly looks at me pointedly. “Mummy please,” she begs. I roll my eyes and finally resign to myself, “I will try my best,” I say with a weak smile.

“Then ice cream it is love. Now let Nana take Aunt Esme and Uncle John’s friends to their hotel. I should be back shortly,” Polly explains. Aurora nods her head with understanding.

Polly turns around and tries to lead Michael and Gina from the den. She gives you a look over her shoulder, a worried look. ‘Wait!” Aurora yells. “Wait!” She runs up to Michael and asks, “What’s your name?” with the sweetest smile. Michael looks down at the girl. He looks speechless. Michael pulls away from Gina and crouches down towards Aurora. He takes her little hand and gives it a small kiss, his eyes never leaving hers. “My name is Michael. It’s a pleasure meeting you princess Aurora,” he says with a smile. A smile that reaches his eyes. Oh that smile. Oh how I've missed that smile. My knees involuntarily go weak and my heart warms seeing the two interact. Their encounter is abruptly interrupted by Gina clearing her throat, “C’mon baby, I am tired. Let’s go.” You can tell she is trying to act unbothered by the whole scene, but her impatience shows otherwise.

Michael rises to his feet, still looking down at the little girl with a smile. He can’t take his eyes off her. Gina physically turns him around to leave. “Bye Michael!” Aurora waves.

Michael turns his head back around briefly. He nods at Aurora with a small smile while he leaves the den.

#peaky blinders #peaky blinder fanfic #peaky blinder #michael gray x original female character #michael gray #polly gray #esme shelby #john shelby #arthur shelby #gina gray

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I Love You, Gypsy Eyes Chapter 1: Welcome Back to Birmingham

My eyes hurt. My brain hurts. “Jesus Christ, Polly I think…no scratch that, I know that Arthur has mucked up the books again.” I walk back into the betting den still staring confused and frustrated at the mess of numbers in front of me. I am met with stillness, then I hear someone say “Liv?” I look up for a second and then back down to the books. Whoa! Wait a minute! My head snaps back up and there in front of me was someone I never thought I would see again. Michael Gray.

Polly, Esme and Finn are standing around him, all dead silent, watching at me. I take notice that there is a girl standing next to him too. A tall, slender, blonde haired woman with porcelain looking skin. She really is beautiful and glamorous with her fur coat and designer handbag that she is carrying. I look at her and “see” something off about her.

My “sight” always shows me a person’s aura. I’ve had the gift of “sight” since I was a little one. It came in handy when meeting strangers while on our travels across the land. My mother was blessed with “sight” as well. My older sister Esme, not so much. She is like Polly, she can read one’s palm, see their future. I’ve let her read my palm, but I told her not to tell me what she foresees, good or bad.

I continue to stand there, still, shell shocked almost. I really did not think I would ever see him again. It has been almost five years since he abruptly left me here in Small Heath with no word or explanation. He just disappeared off to America, never to see or hear from him again. I was so angry with him. Angry with Polly and Tommy for sending him off without telling me. Tommy refused to give me his contact information initially and I thought about making the trip over to the Americas myself to find him, but in my condition at the time it just was not possible.

My pregnancy was miserable. I was violently ill for most of it. Eventually I became very swollen and dizzy with high blood pressure. The doctor put me on bed rest for 3 months. The bedrest on top of the stress of losing Michael finally gave way and I had a breakdown.

After Aurora was born, I was not myself. I loved my beautiful baby girl, but I was just so low and numb. I could barely function, let alone take care of a newborn. Luckily, I had the Shelby family to help me through that first year. Their love and support for me and Aurora is what truly kept us both alive. I still feel an extreme amount of guilt for the way I handled everything during my pregnancy and after Aurora was born.

I was so scared when Michael left, I found out I was 12 weeks pregnant and it was my worst nightmare. I always figured we would have children sooner or later, at least until after our wedding in October that year, but the wedding never came.

Polly begged me to tell Michael that I was expecting, but we both knew I couldn’t. Yes, the family, especially Tommy, was furious that Michael had not warned Tommy about the trap Luca Changretta set up for him. The whole family felt betrayed. Not that I blame them, I did too.

Michael was ultimately safer in America. Away from the Peaky Blinders life and I knew that. He could go to America, start over and live the life he was always meant to live. Michael being happy and safe was all that mattered to me. I loved him and I wanted what was best for him even if it hurt like hell to let him go.

After Esme and John were married, I decided to move to Birmingham with my sister to help keep her company and watch over her. I had never been without my sister before and could not imagine us being separated from one another. She initially felt guilty about me having to move to Small Heath because of her. She knew how much I loved the outdoors. How much I loved the traveler life that we had lived as children. Never knowing where we would be this time tomorrow. Just focusing on the here and now. However, I loved my sister dearly and ended up following her to Birmingham. Initially, there definitely was an adjustment period, but the Shelby’s had made the transition much easier. Especially once Michael finally came around.

I am standing there soundless, still and I am fairly sure my mouth is hanging wide open catching flies. Was this really happening? “Michael?” I gasp out finally. I had only dreamed of this every night before I went to sleep for years, but something feels off. The aura I am seeing doesn’t seem right. Looking at Esme’s face confirms my suspicions.

Michael looks just as stunned and flustered as I do. His eyes wide, nostrils flared, jaw clenched. Words both escaping us and apparently everyone else in the room as well. Well great.

Finally, I can gather my thoughts, “Hi,” I say with a forced smile. Hi? Really? That is all you could come up with. “You’re here? When did you get here?” The blonde stranger speaks now, “Just now. Been traveling for 15 days to get…here.” She looks around with disgust. Who the hell is this woman?

“Hello, I’m so sorry I didn’t catch your name. I’m Liv,” I say with a sweet, but forced tone. The woman is now hanging off Michael’s arm. She arches her brow at me, then narrows her eyes. “I’m Gina. Gina Gray,” she pronounces smugly with a smirk. And just like that all of the air has been sucked out of my lungs. Great, he is married. The love of my life is married.

I feel my heart drop. I want to throw up. Tears threatening to sting my eyes. As if this day cannot get any worse. Arthur’s mucked up the books and Michael has finally returned, but with a dream trophy wife. The tension in the air is thick and everyone in the den can feel it.

Eventually, Polly goes to say something to break the silence, but all of the sudden a little voice happily exclaims, “Mummy!” A dark-curly haired, blue eyed girl comes running through the door towards me. “Mummy, look what Uncle Arthur got me!”

The little girl dances and twirls around in a beautiful, green floral dress, grinning from ear to ear. I crouch down to the little girl and embrace her, kissing the side of her head. “You look so beautiful darling. How nice of Uncle Arthur.” Arthur enters the den with a big smile on his face. He adores Aurora, even though him and Linda have their own child, Billy Shelby. I can tell Arthur has been wanting another baby for a while. A baby girl.

“Eh, Liv,” Arthur states bashfully. He knows Aurora has him wrapped around her finger. “We was just taking a walk and Rora wanted to go to the toy shop, but I told her that you wouldn’t like me buying any more toys for her. That she had enough. So Rora asked if she could get the pretty green dress in the shop window down the street that we had seen earlier instead. Everyone needs clothes right Liv?” He smiles. I could tell Arthur was a little nervous. He knows how I feel about Aurora being spoiled. It’s fine in small doses, but she has so many people that love and care for her that sometimes it is just a revolving door of gifts. I taught my daughter well didn’t I?

“She looks beautiful Arthur, really. Thank you.” I look down at Aurora, she is now grinning from ear to ear at Arthur. It warms my heart to see her loved so much by her family.

Finally, Aurora looks back over to me, points her finger in the opposite direction towards the two strangers and says questioningly, “Mummy who are they?”

#peaky blinders #peaky blinder fanfic #peaky blinder #michael gray #michael gray x original female character #polly gray #arthur shelby #esme shelby #john shelby #finn shelby #gina gray #tommy shelby

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liviakomtrikru20 · 3 years

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She a bad bitch ⚔️ 🔥

Can I just say that Octavia Blake in season four has the absolute best costumes? The ponytail, the vest, the badass leather pant details??? A lil dagger? Perfection.

#the100edit #octaviablakeedit #octavia blake #the 100

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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🔥 hot damn 🤤😏

Bellamy Blake fullbodyshots - that’s what I live for (｡♥‿♥｡)

#bellamy blake #bellamyblakeedit #the100edit #the 100

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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VOTE!!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

Final Round Voting is Open!

Voting in the Final round for the Bellarke Fic Writer Awards 2020 is now open.

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#bellarke fanfiction #bellarke #bellarke fic #bellarke fanfic #bellamy blake #clarke griffin #bellamy x clarke #clarke x bellamy #bellarke fic writer awards #finals

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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https://www.tvfanatic.com/2020/10/looking-back-on-the-100-john-pyper-ferguson-on-cadogans-impact-o/amp/

Great interview! He is a real Bellarke/Beliza cheerleader ❤️ AND he totally expected B + C to get together and be together at the end 😭😭😭

#the 100 #bellamy blake #the100edit #clarke griffin #bellamyblakeedit #bellarke #the 100 spoilers #vindication #i feel vindicated #jroth sucks

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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My heart just exploded and my knees gave out 😍😍😍

The Bellamy Blake makes my knees go weak meme [426/∞]

#bellamy blake #the100edit #bellamyblakeedit #the100 #mybellamy #the 100

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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I would love to see the original scripts...😍

And there we have it, bellarke was written and played romantic: confirmed by Bob Morley himself

are my ears decieveing me or did he really say “we’re supposed to be until the script changed”

#no one gets to gaslight me #the 100 #bellamy blake

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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That smile 😃

“we didn’t die.”

“no. no, we didn’t.”

#bellamy blake #the 100 #bellamyblakeedit #the100edit #the100daily #emori

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tw: depression/mental illness hi sam, excuse me if i’ve over stepping my boundaries here, and if i am, feel free to ignore this. you’ve talked about your own mental health issues before and i was hoping you could give a little advice. i’m in a really bad place in my life right now, like probably the lowest i’ve ever felt. i know i need help but i don’t know where to get it. where/who/how did you reach out to get help? i’m really lost on where to start, especially since i’m feeling alone in this.

Hi love. First off, you’re not overstepping at all. I’m so glad that you feel comfortable reaching out and I’m so sorry for what you’re going through right now 💙

To start, I’ll say I can only speak from my experience, as an American with healthcare and with family I generally felt comfortable opening up to. I’d never want to assume that people have the same resources at hand as me and I’m absolutely okay if you want to reach out to DM and talk more. I also want to make sure it’s clear that I’m not at all a professional talking about these things, it’s just based on my own experiences.

In the short-term, my advice is that you don’t have to struggle alone. You are loved and valid, even if your depression or anxiety tries to convince you otherwise. If you are feeling this low, please please reach out to a loved one - parent, sibling, friend, online friend - whoever you feel comfortable opening up to. If you don’t feel comfortable opening up to someone you know, that’s okay too. There are hotlines available - this is a good resource, with a lot of different options available if you’re struggling with a specific issue. The hardest part is acknowledging you need help, and reaching out, but it’s very important to do so. Know that although you are feeling alone, so many people struggle with depression. The fault is that we don’t talk about it like we should, but you are absolutely not alone.

In the long-term:

I’m a huge advocate of seeking out a therapist for any struggles with mental illness (and actually believe that everyone could benefit from it). Even if you have friends to talk to, I think that it helps to have someone objective to talk to that you can be completely honest with. If you have insurance, you should be able to search for them via your insurance website. If you know someone who has seen a therapist, you can ask them if they have a recommendation. I’m coincidentally going back to therapy next week for the first time in a year and a half and found mine on yelp. Finding a therapist can be daunting - it often feels like dating with trial and error - but it’s worth it.

If you have a primary care doctor, let them know what’s going on. They’ll be able to tell you if medication is a good option for you. There are varying opinions on medication - whether it’s a good option, whether they should be taken only short-term, etc. All I can say is that I’ve been on anti-depressants for three years and found what works for me. They help me immensely - they are not a band aid or automatic cure, but they help me enough so I’m able to complete other actions that further my mental health, like 👇🏻

I hate to use the term self-care. It’s really not correct in what that word seems to mean now, but yes, it is taking care of yourself. I notice a huge difference in my mental well-being when I stick to a routine - when I start my days with a walk in the sun, when I drink enough water, get a good night’s sleep, am intentional about my goals. Eat something nutritious. As someone with severe disordered eating, I’m really hesitant to blame food or say it is a cure, but I think it’s rather obvious that if we eat pizza for a week, we don’t feel good. It’s not about calories or any of that, but just making sure you eat some foods that make you feel good, if you can. These are small things and take time, but they’re worth committing to. The hardest part about these things is starting them.

If you are able to, get a pet! Two reasons for this - one, it’s proven that animals are just plain and simple soothing. They’re adorable and they love you unconditionally, on your worst and on your best days. Second, as I’ll talk a little bit about below, it helps to have someone to take care of, especially if you live alone.

Regarding all the above, I want to be clear it isn’t easy and that as someone who strives to do all these things, I am as imperfect as everyone else. I should have been in therapy a year ago and I’m just going. I’ve been drinking during the week which I usually try not to. I didn’t go on a walk today like I should have, etc etc. It is a long process, a journey. There isn’t an end point, it’s just taking one day at a time and doing your best. We’re living in a global pandemic and so many things are acting as external stressors right now. Try to be patient with yourself as you’re healing. These things can all help, but the last thing I want is for them to have the opposite effect if you’re beating yourself up for not doing them or for having a bad day here and there.

These are some anecdotal tips that are small that I hope help you. Some I read about online or elsewhere, but they’re little things that help me. I’d definitely recommend doing some googling because I’ve gotten great advice from just searching through some articles on tips on dealing with depression.

Separate yourself from your depression. It can be easy to let it consume you and for it to feel like it’s just part of who you are. You have so many beautiful qualities you get to claim, so many pieces of yourself that people get to love. Your depression does not own any of these parts of you.

Take care of yourself as if you’re taking care of a younger child - whether that’s you as a child or someone else. This one might sound strange, but if I’m feeling low, the thought of brushing my teeth or showering sounds impossible. I try to think of myself as a kid - would you ignore these needs when caring for someone else? No. Take the shower, even if it’s not something you want to do, but because it’s something you have to do to take care of that kid. I think it comes down to it being easier to care about another person than it is to care about yourself. So if it helps to think of you as a different person, then do that. Once you take these baby steps, no matter why you did, you start to feel better, and those actions build on one another.

Remember that no feeling in the world is permanent. Not happiness, anger, grief, despair - none of it is there forever. No matter how you’re feeling, or what your depression tries to convince you, there are always better days ahead. Maybe not immediately, but they are coming, and they will be glorious, and they will be all yours.

The five minute rule. If you’re feeling low, simple household tasks probably feel insurmountable, as does going for a walk, let alone doing a workout. The five minute rule is making a deal with yourself that you will do X task for five minutes. If you still don’t want to after the five minutes are up, you can drop it. But more often than not, once you find the strength to start - to put on your shoes and walk out the door - you don’t want to stop after the five minute mark. The hardest part is almost always starting.

Journaling. I used to journal everyday throughout high school and sporadically in college. I’ve been terrible about doing it lately and it’s something that I keep telling myself I need to start again and haven’t done - so I’ll tell us both, journal everyday. Even if it’s only five minutes, being able to unload your stream of consciousness on paper can do wonders. Truly say what you’re feeling - it is for your eyes only. Don’t worry about grammar or spelling or handwriting, just write. Be messy, and authentic, and you. Given the situation I was in growing up and in high school, and given that I wasn’t on any medication and probably should have been, I’m still convinced that journaling is how I stayed sane.

I really hope some of this made sense and helps in any way. Like I said, my DM is always open if you’d like to talk more. But I just want to reiterate that the most important thing for you to do right now is find someone to talk to and be honest about what’s going on. Nobody should ever have to struggle alone, and yet so many silently do so. Sending you all the love 💙

Please, if you have additional resources to share, reblog and add them.

#tw: mental illness #tw: depression #mental illness #the 100 #bellamy blake #clarke griffin

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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Hello to all the 100 rewrite authors and readers! As I complete my own 100 rewrite series, I am now ready to read the other incredible rewrites that are being posted to tumblr! Unfortunately, I was finding it rather difficult to find a complete list of all the rewrites out there. Because of this, I decided to make my own little rewrite directory, and I thought maybe you guys would be interested in seeing it too!

So below the cut, you will find a list of authors and rewrites, all tagged and linked, in no particular order. Each rewrite includes a little information of what the pairing is, whether it is complete or in progress, and any other info I think might be relevant! I plan to update this list frequently, so if there are any rewrites or authors that I have missed, or if any links are messed up or broken, please please please reach out to me and I will fix it! If you are on this list and want to be removed, just let me know. If you are not on this list and would like to be added, please let me know! This list is as much for me as it is for you, so I want it to be as accurate as possible!

Okay, I think that’s everything. Thank you to all the authors that have created this great content for us, and thank you to all of the readers that support us and keep us going. Happy reading, my friends!

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liviakomtrikru20 · 4 years

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