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I'm in a bad mood today

I'm not doing well at school

I burned my dinner

and everything hurts from my shi11y bed

I want to stop complaining to my boyfriend about my problems so the only place I can do it is tumblr

#tw vent #i want to cvt #cvtaddict #baby cvts

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someone tried to scam me for money and my mother only cares whether she wants a blue or green bowl for the living room 🙂

I need to move out or I'll go crazy

#tw vent

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I keep forgetting that my mother doesn't really care who I am or what interests me she just wants me not to cause problems and she doesn't care about the rest

#tw vent #i want to cvt #family trauma

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my boyfriend is too good for me

I couldn't control my emotions today, I kept crying and getting angry at everything, but he still loves me

I don't know how he puts up with me

now we're watching bojack and making pancakes

#tw vent #tw depression #tw self destruction

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I called my mother because I was supposed to call her every day because she was away for a week

and of course she had to criticize everything I said and explain the obvious to me, even though I'm 20 years old and I know these things but my dear mother thinks I'm so stupid that I can't think for myself

I just wish she wouldn't treat me like an incompetent 5-year-old, but like a normal adult who knows something and can have her own opinions.

#tw vent #i want to cvt #family trauma

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I feel enormously guilty that I'm not going to my uncle's funeral

what if my family hates me for not attending the funeral and not supporting them during mourning?

I can't sleep...

#tw vent #overthinking

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My uncle d1ed and I feel absolutely nothing

Every time someone in my family d1es, I don't care at all and it terrifies me

Am I a bad person?

#tw vent #i want to cvt #tw depression #sh things #cvtaddict

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Well, it turns out that my mother doesn't even know what I'm studying in college

Cool, thx for listening to me mom 🥰

#tw vent #i want to cvt #family trauma

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People who make me mad today:

-a teacher who did not explain the material well and demands knowledge about it from us

-a friend from school who thinks he knows everything just because he's a guy

-a mother who considers herself the most intelligent person (I take after her a bit, but I'm trying to fight it) and thinks everything I say is stupid, irrelevant, and it's best if I don't exist at all

No reason to be pissed off 🙂

#tw vent #i want to cvt #tw depression #self h@rm #sh things #cvtaddict #tw self destruction #sh tumblr #baby cvts #family trauma

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If one more person asks me a stupid question or says something stupid, I will explode

(I mean people who think they know everything but dont know sh1t)

#anger issues #people suck #stupid people

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I did all the programming assignments for school.

Despite mental breakdowns, I managed to finish them <3

#mental health #school #mental wellbeing

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maybe my friends aren't that good?

today I met my friends for the first time in 6 months and I'm exhausted

they laughed at every word I said so I just stopped talking

now I feel even more lonely than before

#tw vent #i want to cvt #tw depression #self h@rm #sh things #cvtaddict #tw self destruction #sh tumblr #baby cvts #bad friend

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I bought new flowers today and they are so beautiful that I have to show them to you.

I had to google how they are in English and I didn't know that the flowers in Stardew were the same ones I bought

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2 days ago I couldn't even get out of bed and today I'm dancing macarena at 1am 🥰

#tw vent #i want to cvt #tw depression #self h@rm #sh things #cvtaddict #tw self destruction #sh tumblr #baby cvts

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i rel4ps3d

i forgot how good it feels

like all my thoughts just around my s h and not thinking about my problems

also im drvnk so my posts can not make sense in english

Hope u guys feel well

If u relate i hope will feel better

Love u

#tw vent #i want to cvt #tw depression #self h@rm #sh things #cvtaddict #tw self destruction #sh tumblr #baby cvts #family trauma

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why is life so difficult

I would like to be a robot who doesn't have to feel emotions

#tw vent #i want to cvt #tw depression #self h@rm #sh things #cvtaddict #tw self destruction #sh tumblr #baby cvts #family trauma

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It's stupid, but I burst into tears because my boyfriend ate my last instant noodles and I don't have the strength to cook anything

#tw vent #i want to cvt #tw depression #self h@rm #sh things #cvtaddict #tw self destruction #sh tumblr #baby cvts