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Under the stars

Lorenzo Berkshire x reader

A/n: Hiiii! I havent written anything in so long and this came to me after my ex drunk texted me :/

Summary: Enzo and Y/N finally have a conversation after ending their year long relationship

Warnings: Tom Riddle is the fanon character, discussing past love, ambiguous ending, extremelyyyyyy short, i think thats itttt

“Do you think you ever truly loved me?” You asked looking at the stars, the idea of looking at him felt like it would destroy all the walls you’ve been putting up. 

“I think it’s impossible not to love you” Lorenzo said while looking at you, the idea of looking straight at the stars made him feel like he wasn’t being honest enough. “I don’t know if it’s going to be possible to stop loving you”. 

“You better not” You said, cracking a joke always brought a feeling of safety, lighting up the environment as much as it could be. A small chuckle left both of your mouths before silence fell on top like a heavy fog. You had words on the tip of your tongue and he definitely knew, looking at you with expectation but they were grasping at anything to be kept in. After a while you were finally able to fight them “I will never forget how it feels to love you, its unlike anything I’ve ever felt”. 

Enzo smiled, bittersweet feelings resurfacing. “Do you think we’ll find something like this again?” He paused for a moment, contemplating how to continue “because I don’t know if I want to. I don’t know if I want to be that happy again or keep those feelings locked away just for you” He was able to get you to look at him, proving your point. Looking into those same eyes that looked at you with love, lust, sadness, trust and so much more for years truly is difficult. 

“I don’t think I want to have something like this every again. I don’t want to be dramatic but I’d rather never experience this again than replacing it with someone else” A small smile grew on your face, thinking of what you were able to have with him and how grateful you were for those five years. 

He moved the hand resting on his thigh so that it was facing up, a sign that you had become accustomed to after many years. Your hand gravitated towards his, a force pulling you towards it. As soon as your hands touched there was a feeling of familiarity, like finally jumping into bed during a cold day. 

“Maybe we are being dramatic, but I think we have an excuse for it” Enzo smiled, truly smiled, like you hand seen in a while and it brought a warmth that you had missed. 

“I think Tom would agree and he'd probably add that we are always the most dramatic in the room” The same smile grew on your face after being lost for a long time. No matter what happened Enzo was the only one that always managed to help it find its way back. 

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Take my heart with you

Pairing: Jason Todd x reader

Author's note: Hellooo, this is the first time I've ever written for Jay so I'm sorry if the characterization is off😭 But I really like how this turned out so I hope you enjoy

Summary: You can't keep playing this game with Jason

Warnings: Angst (no happy ending), English is not my first language, mentions of sex, small amount of swearing, emotionally damaged Jay, very short and not graphic description and talk of injuries and blood

“I can’t keep doing this with you Jason” you say as you watch him come in through your window, covered in blood. You asume it was a mix of his and from someone he beat up on his nightly patrol. He looked at you through his mask, you couldn’t look at his expression but reading his body language wasn’t hard for you, understanding Jason Todd wasn’t hard for you. “You can’t keep ignoring me and then appearing in the middle of the night when you need someone” walking around trying to find the first aid kit you’ve started to refill much more often. 

Jason hadn’t moved since you started talking, staying seated on the window sill, he really didn’t know what he was waiting for. He wouldn’t be surprised if you kicked him out but he knew no matter how mad he was you would always let him sit on your bathroom counter and tend to the injuries you could. He just silently took his mask off, leaving it on the coffee table. He wasn’t faced when you walked towards your bathroom without saying anything else, he followed you, some grunts leaving his mouth from the pain of a cut on his side. 

“Take off your shirt, I need to see whats wrong this time” you couldn’t even meet his eyes while talking, too embarrass you told him off but couldn’t find it in your heart to make him leave.

“You know I don’t just come here so you can fix me up sweetheart” his voice held some humor. It was quickly replaced by a hiss after you started cleaning the gash just under his ribs. 

You sighed, contemplating the injuries, and grimacing at the ugly cuts you assumed came from a jagged knife. “It seem like you do, I haven’t seen you in three weeks and you’ve barely answered my calls. I even considered calling Roy to see if you were still alive” you quipped after a long silence filled by Jason’s grunts. 

Jason didn’t really know what to say, he really did appreciate the help you gave him after a difficult night but he liked more than just that. He liked the way you two would read in silence, how you’d cook together on a lazy summer evening, how you’d comfort him but never pushed him to tell you things he wasn’t ready to. He stayed up at night wondering why he pushed you away after it started feeling too good to be true. “I’m trying to protect you sweetie” even he would’ve been mad with that answer. 

“That’s just bullshit Jay and you know that” you said finally looking up to meet his eyes “You know damn well you giving me all of the love you have and then pulling it away without any warning hurts more than any harm that could come my way because of your profession” now it was his turn to look down at the floor, embarrassed because he knew it was true. 

“Look I’m sor-“ he started but was quickly shut up by your finger going up to his lips. 

“No, don’t start this Jay. I can’t have another night were you apologize to me and act all sweet and you fuck me until I forget I was mad but then as soon as I fall asleep you leave and the cycle starts again” your voice trembled a little, it was the first time you said this to his face. At some point everyone has had enough. “I’m not someone you can do that to, we’ve been friends, or whatever this is for you to try and fool me like that. I know I deserve better” by the end of your small rant some tears ran down your cheeks, you didn’t want to have to come to this but the night you’ve spent in fear not knowing where he is, you can’t take it anymore. 

“I know baby, you don’t deserve this” he pulled you in by the back of your head, falling into his chest when more tears started to come. “I don’t deserve you” you immediately back away and look up at him, sipping your tears. 

“No you don’t Jason” you start packing up what was left of your first aid kit. “You truly don’t, so please I beg of you if you don’t- or can’t do this with me just leave please” after the last word came out of your mouth you paced towards your bedroom. “You don’t have to leave through the window, just lock the door on the way out” you yelled while you changed out of the bloody clothes. 

Jason sat on the counter for a minute, contemplating what to do. He did want to stay but he couldn’t do that to you. He did love you, like he had never loved anyone, you’d been there for him when no-one else was. So why couldn’t he be there for you? 

He stood up and made his way towards the door, only stopping to pick up his helmet and then in the kitchen to leave ‘I really am sorry love, don’t stay up waiting anymore’ written on the whiteboard you have on your fridge. He opened the door, making sure the lock clicked before he left. His mind was everywhere as he walked away, his stomach twisting in a way he hadn’t felt before. He left knowing his heart was left in your hands, resting on the cold side of the bed. He deserved this, he couldn’t love, maybe it was a punishment for what he has done. He hoped you would be able to find what he would never again, someone that felt like home. 

You watched from the window as he got on his bike, turning around to look at you one last time and giving you that rare but beautiful smile. Tears fell down your red cheeks, this hurt more than you could bear even though you tried to convince yourself it was for the better, you would be able to grow instead of waiting for a ghost. As you lay in your bed the fear that he ripped out your heart and took it with him was the only though that bounced around in your head. 

Maybe in another life Jason Todd would be able to love you in the way that he want and you would be able to live the life you wanted with the person you cherished the most. 

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Silent treatment

Pairing: Theodore Nott x reader

Author's note: Hiii! This is the first ever fic I've written and English isn't my first language so be warned :)

Summary: Theo and you have been best friends since you could remember until he randomly starts ignoring you, maybe he just needs to work on his communication skills.

Warnings: Very small amount of swearing, kissing (but not graphic at all), I guess angst with happy ending, friends to lovers, probably grammar and spelling mistakes sorryyy, reader is implied Slytherin and pureblood

Theodore Nott was a man of few words. Even when he was with his friends he mostly listened to his rowdier counterparts, never feeling the need to be the center of attention in any way. 

No one was surprised when he sat on the train on the first day of fifth year and didn’t say much, just a quick greeting and some strange sounds only his friends understood when they asked him something. It wasn’t weird to them, but it was weird when you sat down beside him and he barely even looked at you.

You and Theodore (or Teddy as you called him) have been close since you could remember. Your families being close always meant you were at the same boring events that he was obligated to attend. Ever since you were five years old and you bumped into each other on the balcony at some tedious christmas dinner you had been inseparable, it was hard to find one of you without seeing the other. When you turned 12 your parents had started to tease you, claiming there was love in the air and promising the pair would wind up together at some point. You would always look at each other and laugh every time someone mentioned this, how could you ever be in love with your best friend? 

You hugged the boy expecting something in return, but you were disappointed when he barely even moved. You felt your heart break a little bit but chose to ignore it, maybe he was just tired or something. Even if he didn’t hug you there was no reason to ignore him.

“How was the party yesterday? Sorry I couldn’t go, my mom wouldn’t let me until I finished packing my bag and you know how long that takes me” you said with a giggle. Theo looked at you and gave a thumbs up and a tight lipped smile. You wouldn’t have been surprised if he had given the answer to anyone else but he was never like that with you, all of your friends were surprised, looking at you expecting a better answer while Theo turned towards the window. You decided to turn and talk to Pansy, if Theo doesn’t want to talk why would you make a one-sided effort? 

It had been two weeks since fifth year started and Theo still wasn’t talking to you. You were extremely hurt, you had been fine, you hadn’t had a fight, you’re wondering if you did something wrong but can’t remember anything, no one understands his sudden change towards you. Pansy was mad at him, she had spent a lot of time talking to you and comforting you at night. Mattheo has asked Theo multiple times what his problem is but he wouldn’t give a straight answer. 

You thought your friendship was over, your dearest friend was ignoring you and it hurt, it hurt more than anything. You had given up hope, tired of giving and not receiving. You were sat at your desk finishing some potions homework when an owl flew through your window and dropped a note on your desk. You were surprised not expecting anything at this hour of the night. 

When you opened the not you were surprised, you could clearly tell it was Theo’s handwriting. ‘Meet me at the astronomy tower’ the note read. You quickly put on your shoes, willing to be caught by Filch it didn’t matter at the moment. You told Pansy you were leaving and then quickly left your room. 

You rushed to the astronomy tower, you were out of breath with how fast you were running up the stairs and the three times you almost tripped on your way here. 

“Did you run a marathon on your way here” Theo snickered after seeing he state you were in. 

You resisted the small smile that wanted to break out on your face after hearing him joke like that again. “I’m not in the mood for jokes Theodore” you managed to say with a straight face even shocking yourself by using his full name. 

“Wow, are we back to full name?” He tried to joke again, but after seeing your face he stopped “Sorry, no more jokes” 

You looked him directly in the eyes, fighting back tears that you couldn’t tell if they came from hurt or anger. “I’m glad you’re done ignoring me but what do you want”

Theo looked a bit shocked at how serious you were but understood why you were acting like that “Look I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring you” he said while walking closer to you. 

“Sorry isnt really enough Theo, you’ve ignored me for two weeks without any reason” the tears you were trying to hold back were threatening to spill “Did I do something wrong?” 

“No no no, you didn’t do anything wrong” Theo quickly responded, feeling guilty he was the one making you feel like that, he was used to comforting you instead. “I promise you did absolutely nothing wrong, its just me” after a pause he added “I don’t really have any reason to give you, I’m just terrible at expressing what I feel, I’m really sorry” his eyes bouncing around the room while he talked, not being able to make eye contact. 

“What do you mean? Talk to me, I’m supposed to be your best friend not someone you ignore” Your voice cracking at the end. 

Theo looked at you opening his mouth a few times but never finding the right word to start with. “I don’t want to be your best friend anymore, I can’t handle just being that” he looked at you and your confused expression “I want to be more, I really like you and I have for a while. I can’t stand when you talk to me about another guy because I need you to be mine. I preferred ignoring you than feeling the pain on not being enough for you” he said quietly finding your glossy eyes at the end. 

“Theo you are so fucking dumb” you scoffed while he looked at the floor “How could you ignore me just because you like me, huh? You should have talked to me, I know its hard for you sometimes and I don’t blame you but you can’t just run away because you assume I don’t like you back when I clearly do”

“You like me back?” he looked back up at you with a smile

“Is that really he only thing you took out from what I said?” you said with a laugh, that beautiful laugh that Theo had missed for a while now. “You have selective hearing don’t you?” You asked while closing the space between you and looking into his eyes. “I really do like you Teddy, but you have to promise you’ll talk to me from now on, I will not stand being ignored, I’m here for you for whatever you need”

“Yeah, I know” his hands moved automatically, one hand towards your cheek and the other behind your neck “But I really do mean it, I want you to be mine” 

You just smiled and leaned in connecting your lips your hands wrapping around his shoulders “I guess I can be yours Nott” you whispered before going back in for your well deserved kiss. 

Maybe Theodore Nott was quiet and it was hard for him to express his emotions but in the end your parent were right, you would find your way to each other no matter the circumstances and hardships. 

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