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When I used to the think about love, I thought it was like a hurricane. Coming in screaming, upending everything. And it was something that controlled you and you were under its will. But I don’t know if it’s something you necessarily fall into. Because loving her doesn’t feel like falling at all. In fact, I feel like Icarus except when he gets to the sun, it doesn’t melt the wax. Instead, a breeze comes and ruffles my feathers. It’s saying, “I’m here and I love you”.

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Guys guys GUYS

I am in love 🌻

Turns out I’m a U-HAUL lesbian 😂

#wlw #lesbian blog

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This is a journal entry about my gender identity/expression¿

I want to be a pretty boy 🌺. i want to be pretty in the way my little brother is. I want to wear skirts and feminine things, but I don’t want to look like a woman. I’m not a woman. But I’m not a man either. I want to look like a boy in a dress. I could take T. Definitely want top surgery.

It’s weird talking about top surgery with people. It’s weird thinking about top surgery in general. But it’s all I can think about. I question myself and then I’ll spend an hour starting at myself in the mirror making it look like my boobs aren’t there. Even if I could make them smaller, I would rather have top surgery because I don’t want my nipples. Does anyone else feel this way? Gender is weird.

I think about the way shirts would feel with a flat chest. How cute tanks would look on me, and literally anything. I could even go shirtless! A deeper voice would be cool. Maybe a little mustache? More piercings and tats for sure 😈 it sucks it’ll be a while before I’ll be able to get it.

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It’s a surreal feeling when I keep comparing her to him expecting to find similarities, but all I find is what I’ve been missing out on. This feels like living.

#wlw #nblw poetry

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She appreciates the parts of me

That I’ve yearned to be appreciated

And she’s so hot

So divine

Too

Good

To be

True?

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I don’t know about love

But something unexpected has

Happened

She reads my pages

And loves every single one

Wow

This is only the first chapter

#wlw #nblw poetry #sapphic

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i stared into their face

a face so familiar

so new

they comforted me

haunted me?

had I seen them before?

in a dream?

a past life?

or maybe in the streets

by sweet happenstance?

i would never find out

Death leaned in and whispered

“Rest.”

so i did

~azg

#my poem #original poem #death #poetry

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If I were a security guard for a person who’s being targeted by assassins I simply wouldn’t devote my entire attention span to every single noise I hear.

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who else wants to be sent away to a boarding school so they can meet a mysterious girl who writes poetry and smokes cigarettes and fall in love with her

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I have such a huge crush on my boss’s daughter 🥲 crushing on women is so much different. When I would “crush” on men, I could never remember their facial features, it was just a blob in my memory. But I can remember so many details of her face and her smile. I can’t believe I’ve been missing out on this shit my whole life.

#girlswhokissgirls #wlw culture #girlswholikegirls #lesbian blog #wlw love #sapphism #queer #dyke #wlw pride #nblw #baby gay

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Crying is good and a healthy release of your emotions and literal brain chemicals. It is not something to suppress or be ashamed of.

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if you have had to drop out of college or school for any particular reason, be it financial or health related, i hope you know you are not a failure. i know many people have put an unbearable amount of pressure and emphasis on education and having a degree, but that is not a direct measure of your worth and your story as a person. it doesn’t make you less than anyone else and i can understand it is tempting to think otherwise, but it’s not shameful or wrong to take a break in your academic life to focus on other aspects of life that also need your care and attention.

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sexy fanart make brain go brrr

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#girlswhokissgirls #wlw culture #girlswholikegirls #wlw love #sapphism #queer #dyke #wlw pride #nblw

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the queer urge to have an intense homoerotic friendship where neither admits their feelings

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Now that I’m starting to fully accept myself as a lesbian, obviously I’m questioning my gender identity. I’m pretty sure I’m non-binary but I’m scared to accept it because I know how frustrating and exhausting it’s going to be telling family member and pronouns and ughhhh. Same reason it took me so long to realize and accept myself as a lesbian. I wasn’t ready for the hassle and frustration of being a gay woman. Sometimes I think it would just be easier if I was straight but then I remember ew I would have to keep dating men. 😂 and I would also be giving into this fucking heteronormative society and that 🤢 ew.

It’s exhausting. To all my alphabet mafia, y’all are strong as fuck. Keep going ❤️

#lgbtqia #gender crisis #girlswholikegirls #lesbian blog #wlw love #dyke