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This ramble is short but gore warning under cut because I like typing out how Nana kills

Nana tearing out someone's throat with her teeth. Her face is covered in their blood and her mouth practically splits her face in half with how large it is.

All the bandits watch in horror and fear as she stands over the gurgling dying body of one of their crew. She puts the pathetic sounds to a halt as she casually jams her foot into their chest, cracking their ribs with the ease of crunching a chip as her foot crushes their heart between her sole and the ground and they finally go limp.

Her spitting out the chewed up remains of what used to be her victim's jugular in the direction of the bandits that ambushed her and Jack is enough to send them all screaming in terror.

Meanwhile Jack stares in awe and his chest is pounding heill hard since his heart is full of love because wow he really adores when his girlfriend has no mercy and is dripping in the blood of people who were trying to kill them just mere moments ago.

#scenario #tw gore #tw blood #jack #nana #tw death #red beans #beanstalked

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curiosity but what are the 'beauty standards' in Mostrum society? Hope they're not at toxic as the ones we have on Earth

Monstrums and Humans have different social status. So Monstrums don't care about skin color, body hair, gender, or even weight.

That doesn't mean they ain't toxic...I mean they used to not be. Lord Vile sorta fucked that up.

BASICALLY, Monstrums put strength above everything else. And sometimes this doesn't have to be physical like in battle. If someone's strength is their brain and they are smart as hell, Monstrums also swoon for them. Just like if a Monstrum is a hella good cook because that's their strength. If you squint, traditional Monstrum beauty standards used to be "what skill do you shine in and does this impress me?"

It's just really common, after Lord Vile's reign (where he tossed out all traditional Monstrum values for his own beliefs), for physical strength and a victorious track record in battles to be the big attractor for a Monstrum. That's where the toxicity comes from as many Monstrums focus a lot more on battle strength after his reign that it's more rare for some to admire other strengths.

It's partially why Bitterbat fell so hard for Sweetheart since she was the first person to kick his ass since he was undefeatable back in Umbra.

Of course, there's more reasoning as to why Bitterbat felt a specific attraction to Sweetheart. He wasn't about to give his heart away to just anyone that bested him in a fight. Buuut I'mma save that bat tidbit for later.

#monstrum #ask #glitter and guilt #lord vile

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If sweetheart and co never become heroes what would be different?

Them not being heroes, for one

REAL TALK THOUGH...they would just be doing their day jobs like they do now, with Sweetheart probably being a volunteer for the Decking City Defense Force since she still has ties to heroics thanks to her family.

Sweetheart ain't escaping her soul mate though so Bitterbat would still show up back when they are kids and wind up getting obsessed with this random girl who is just tryin' to live her life and figure out what to do with it.

Amara would enjoy the company though since life is pretty slow for her...or at least as slow as it can be in Decking City. So she'd wind up falling for him as well.

And I imagine the Flavor Four would be the ones to actually defeat Lord Vile because they are too fond of their human halves that they betray him just to stay with them.

So you'd have tired college student Amara with Bitterbat trying to wife her up and bring her back home with him so she doesn't have to be some side character civilian and instead be the "Queen she's truly meant to be 💜".

#civilian au #sweetheart #amara #bitterbat #licorice #ask #glitter and guilt

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So, speaking of Civilian!Amara, would Freebird still be trying to woo her??

Sadly, Amara cannot escape the winged fuck boy.

(warning, this answer gets LONG winded bc Freebird's dynamic with Sweetheart and Bitterbat is one of my fav things to write)

It's a bit harder for the two to cross paths compared to canon since Amara ain't that much of a public figure. She occasionally helps with hero events and the such like setting up convention booths for the annual Decking City Hero Convention. There's also the times he visits the Decking City Defense Force Headquarters to deal with international hero stuff where they have a chance to run into each other. She knows the building like the back of her hand though so she is very good as skirting around him.

On the bright side, Freebird can't come on as heavy as his canon self since Amara is a civilian and there's different social standards for how a hero can flirt with a normal human before it gets creepy because of the uneven power dynamic. BUT that doesn't mean he doesn't flirt with her whenever he gets a chance to. He calls her the typical things, like "Cutie" or "Dollface". He occasionally asks when she gets off work to see if they could do a date. Amara is quick to hit him with "I got a full schedule today! You know how it is trying to keep track of you heroes."

Plenty of the other people she works with thinks she's lucky to catch his eye and should give him a chance. Who wouldn't want the chance to be the Lois Lane to a Superman? But Amara is happy with Bitterbat...she just can't tell anyone that she's dating one of the biggest villains in the city.

What sucks though is that Amara is basically stuck in customer service when she is working for the DCDF. Thankfully, her customers happen to be heroes and many of them are nice and polite to her.

But when it comes to Freebird, poor girl has to put him down even more politely than canon due to the risk of getting fired since Freebird is the #1 American hero and it wouldn't look too good if one of the workers for Decking City's main hero force was rude to him and ruined his opinion of the city.

Thankfully, Freebird typically has his hands full with hero stuff so he's not as annoying as in canon but that doesn't mean he's free of Bitterbat.

If anything, he's in even MORE danger in this AU because Bitterbat in canon is held back by the fact Sweetheart is his designated hero. No matter what he is doing, Sweetheart is the one called to deal with him if she ain't already on the scene. It makes their secret relationship easy to maintain because no one is butting in.

Bitterbat killing Freebird would lead to him being marked as one of the #1 biggest threats to America as Freebird is basically a living icon. This means that Bitterbat would have every hero and the American military on his ass which would take his alone time with Sweetheart away. And he can't just go on a rampage because he doesn't want to make Sweetheart upset due to the rising body count of honestly innocent people who are just trying to do their job because they don't know the full story of him and Sweetheart.

So the guy is basically on a short leash in canon.

But in the civilian AU, Amara isn't a hero. She just works with them. And girl is tired since she is still a workaholic. It's not that she's heartless in this AU, it's just that her morality scope has shrunk since she isn't in charge of people's safety-just her own and some paperwork. And Bitterbat is basically a full villain in this AU instead of him being partially evil in canon. Yeah, he and the Flavor Four killed Lord Vile and saved Earth from him but they only did it so their beloved civilians wouldn't get hurt. They have no loyalty to the rest of the human race.

And being a villain means that Bitterbat can basically do whatever he wants because ain't nobody strong enough to stop his ass. Truthfully, the only reason the city is still standing is because Amara likes Decking City being in one piece since she has to live and work there. So you have the same situation in canon where Bitterbat behaves somewhat. But he's still dropping some "But wouldn't it be nice"s and "Just say the word"s and hoping one day Amara quits her job and comes with him to Umbra to be his queen.

And Bitterbat behaving in this AU is a lot different than canon. He has a higher body count for certain and his "yandere" vibes are cranked up. In canon, he is transparent with Amara. In this AU, there's a lot of shit he keeps a secret from her since she's just a mere human in this universe. And he doesn't want to scare his beloved queen away.

So this is all a long winded way to say that the second Bitterbat learns about Freebird's advances on his Sweetheart, Freebird is fucked because that bat is either going to slaughter him dead and string up his body nice and pretty where everyone can see it as a warning to stay away from Amara...or just tear his wings off and make sure he never spends another day as a hero again.

Yeah, he's gonna be listed as a high level security threat. But Bitterbat doesn't really care. Nothing matters save for Amara and her happiness. And if he has to take on an army because some people don't like the fact he broke everyone's favorite pretty boy birdie, then he's more than willing to add some more bodies to his list.

As for how Amara feels about this...she has no idea how truly down bad Bitterbat is for her. She's very aware of the danger he carries with him and she still finds it very alluring just like him dripping in blood is attractive as all hell. It's basically her knowing he can and will kill for her, but not knowing just how many he already has.

#civilian au #ask #glitter and guilt #amara #freebird #bitterbat #licorice

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All this talk about the civilian au got me thinking about a role swap/species swap licorice au where their personalities stay mostly the same — except the funny part is there wouldn’t really be a plot because the *second* monstrum queen sweetheart would ask bitterbat (or ace / beloved boo as he’d be in this au) to be her king, that man would fold IMMEDIATELY and abandon decking without second thought.

I've brought up a swap scenario before where Bitterbat and the Flavor Four are Beloveds while the Beloveds are Monstrums.

Except Sweetheart is trying to be a villain but her hero is really cute and distracting her from her mission but she is trying so hard to stay focused.

And Bitterbat, aka the hero, won't stop flirting with her and trying to make her drop the villain act so they can go out.

It's the only way there can be a plot because no Bitterbat can turn down queen Sweetheart.

Bitterbat keeps sharing his vows to her during their battles, picks the most revealing poses for his super attacks, drowns her in the double entendres, blows her kisses, the list goes on.

Sweetheart always has to tactically retreat because her willpower keeps weakening.

God help her when she arrives to cause havoc and Bitterbat shows up on the scene and hits her with a "Wifey".

Everyone thinks he's just taunting her, even though he bluntly stated during interviews that he's trying to wife her up. Many just think he's joking as all his attempts have been unsuccessful.

But Sweetheart is back in Umbra in her room covered in Bitterbat memorabilia counting the days til she finally snaps and makes that damn Beloved Boo hers.

#swap au #sweetheart #bitterbat #ask #glitter and guilt #licorice

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Gonna be honest with ya, Rocky. If I was in Decking City, I'll probably die because the moment I see one of the bad guys not doing anything particular, I'll ask for an autograph or at least a photo with them. (I won't last a minute in Decking City but I'll die happy!)

I mean, some villains do just roam around-especially the cocky ones (or the ones that think they are super bad ass and evil but really are minor nuisances that typically get slaps on the wrists because their crime was super minor like asking for a cup to get water from a soda machine and getting a soda instead)

But not every villain is just out on the street. Slayerback hates Earth and stays in his ship up in space until he needs something, for example.

Hail-Raiser and Fairest are the best folks can get with big names, especially Fairest as she loves giving autographs and has been known to do it while in the middle of battling Cherished.

And Hail-Raiser is a little twerp who tries to go on rampages through the city but everyone keeps calling him cute and pinching his cheeks and he always tactically retreats.

However, Decking City is very used to its villains and has special protections in place to cut off civilians from especially dangerous villains if they are having a stand off against a hero. There's even big ole chunky fines for civilians who cross the warning boundaries put in place by the Decking City Defense Squad as they count it as obstructing justice. The city doesn't play around when it comes to its "Villain Stans". But you can't really blame them as villains are very unpredictable.

So...chances are that you won't really die. You might just get a big ass fine you have to pay.

#ask #glitter and guilt #fairest #hail-raiser #slayerback #cherished #decking city

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What’s a silly story about Sweetheart and Bitterbat when they were younger? Like the sort thats definitely getting brought up at their wedding to gently embarrass them.

Probably Sweetheart attempting to win at a claw machine during a visit to the arcade and failing so Bitterbat took a swing at it to impress her only to fail as well.

He refuses to take defeat in front of his future girl tho so he just climbed inside to snatch up the plush she wanted.

And then got stuck.

And the two began to panic which led to Redhot, Sourpuss, and Rocksalt to show up since Bitterbat released a distress signal as a plan b.

And out of all of them, Sourpuss was the one to suggest "Have you tried poofing out?"

And then he did.

There was a solid minute of silence before Bitterbat demanded no one talk of the incident ever again.

#glitter and guilt #sweetheart #bitterbat #sourpuss #halite #red-hot

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why is nova mean to pluto :(

There are many layers to this reason but the basic run down is that all the insults or teases you see from Nova or Pluto should be viewed with a big fat (affectionate) added at the end.

The bigger breakdown is this:

Pluto thinks it's funny

Nova wouldn't be calling Pluto any names or insult if Pluto didn't express they were okay with it. It's similar to having a friendship where you both roast each other but know none of it is serious. This is exactly how these two interact. Nova is also smart enough to know where boundaries lie so she knows when the vibes are align that she can roast.

Also Pluto can be an ass often so they match in energy tbh 

Pluto isn't human

Pluto is one of the most dangerous being in the city due to them being an organic life form merged with alien technology. They could drop you quicker than you could blink. They are also very intimidating just from a glance since they are pushing well over 7 feet, have sharp teeth, eyes that glow in the dark, and a hella deep voice.

They're used to people fearing them.

Nova is the only person they've met in this lifetime who isn't afraid of them or afraid to talk shit TO them. It's a humbling experience. It def may seem weird to others but having Nova swear at them makes them happy since it makes it clear she isn't afraid of them and she sees them like any other human.

Nova's Past Bad Experience with dating

Nova used to be a rather bubbly and cheerful catgal (she still spoke her mind tho). However, she had one other partner before Pluto and he was a trash human being. Literally used her as a side piece without her or his actual girlfriend knowing. After discovering this, Nova underwent some changes via hardening up and not letting people push her over. She can def come off as rude in her bluntness but she doesn't want anyone using her for their gain again.

Pluto knows when Nova reacts as some would view as "brash" or "mean" to them, it's really just her own little love language as she struggles saying "I love you."

So whenever Nova calls them a "Big Ass Motherfucker" or a "Dick" or even a good ole' fashioned "ASSHOLE", they know she means it outta love.

#bondwidth #blackberries #nova #pluto

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The entire thing about Bitterbat willingly being obsessed with Sweetheart makes me think about him having her pinned to a wall during one of their battles with his hands pressed against the wall on either side of her head, his claws digging into the brick of the building causing it to crack as he's drooling with a wide smile on his face as he rambles about how into her he is and how much he loves to choose her every time he is given the option to.

And his eyes have a wild golden glow as he finishes his devotion speech with: "I really am cut out for this whole villain thing, aren't I? Look how unbelievably selfish I can be when it comes to you!~💜"

Meanwhile Sweetheart's heart is rapidly beating and she's flushed in the face. Not because she's scared but because she thinks Bitterbat is incredibly hot at the moment.

#bitterbat #sweetheart #glitter and guilt #licorice #scenario

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Freebird is definitely the kind of guy to describe or hit on Sweetheart by comparing her skin chocolate and her hair to cotton candy because...of course.

And she is just unphased because she's a black woman. She's been compared to AND referred to as chocolate so many times that she just rolls her eyes like "Wow we're really doing this today. Alright." And cotton candy is such an easy go to that at this point that she kind avoids snacking on the stuff in front of other heroes to avoid dumbass jokes about "cannibalism".

But Bitterbat never refers to her as either of those things. The closest he gets is just calling her a sweet treat but it's in reference to her name and how she tastes when he kisses her.

And he knows how much she ain't into being called any typa chocolate. He gets it because even he finds it strange. He isn't as aware of racial undertones as many others due to Umbra not having the same sort of social history as America. Their societal tensions are often just a matter of weak vs strong.

But he does make an effort to learn since he knows it's a thing that affects Sweetheart and the other Beloveds. And he wants the Flavor Four to avoid making any of them uncomfortable.

So he def uses more creative and genuinely romantic flirts in reference to Sweetheart's appearance that blows Freebird, and any other pathetic attempts at suitors, out of the water.

Like stating how every time he feels her skin, it's like touching a bit of heaven itself. Or how her hair is so beautiful that even the most luscious flower meadows marvel at the sight of her.

Bitterbat is definitely a sweet talker but he genuinely means everything he says to her, even if it sound super cheesy. And even if other people think it's the corniest shit ever, Sweetheart's knees wobble every time Bitterbat gently takes her hands in his and drops a compliment on her.

#licorice #sweetheart #bitterbat #glitter and guilt #freebird

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There's a lot of fun in writing Freebird is how he and Bitterbat have cat-and-mouse dynamic where no matter what stunt Freebird pulls, Bitterbat always outsmarts him.

It'd be hell on my brain cells to write Freebird and not have justice being served after every gross thing he says to or about Sweetheart under the belief she is just playing hard to get.

Bitterbat obviously wants that man dead. He hates him with all his heart and wishes the worse for him.

Freebird wishes the same. In all his years of knowing Sweetheart, he never had a single worry about her ending up with someone else. She was far above of the leagues of all the other heroes.

He was def concerned about Gabe but after learning about him being Delight's boyfriend, he eased up some. He def isn't a fan of Sweetheart having male friends...because of course he isn't, but he can live with it.

So the Freeheart ship survived for a good while as the top ship on the Sweetheart list...until Bitterbat showed up.

And that man flipped Freebird's entire world upside down along with his expectations for Sweetheart.

She was the most professional hero he knew, so imagine the surprise over witnessing her get all flustered and a mess because of this new guy on the block. A new guy who really isn't as new as Freebird thinks because he doesn't know about the whole history between the Beloveds and Flavor Four.

If he did, he would have been worried about Bitterbat since day one of meeting Sweetheart. But being a hero stationed primarily in mainland America means he typically isn't interested in hero lore outside of the first 50 states.

Truly an American hero, some may say.

So the second he sees that Bittersweet has over throned Freeheart on the Sweetheart shipping list, Freebird realizes he has a problem. He can't escape Bitterbat's name either because it follows very close behind Sweetheart. That bird lived in a blissful ignorance where he could enjoy only Sweetheart's name making headlines but now he's hard pressed to find a single thing that doesn't mention her new archenemy right along with her.

He makes his dislike of Bitterbat very clear and verbal. He disses him any chance he is brought up, especially during talk shows and interviews.

He questions his appearance, especially his taste in clothing. Freebird has very traditional western ideals of what he thinks a man should look like and hipless pants that let half your ass hang out along with earrings, nail polish, lipstick, mascara, and what Freebird falsely believes to be fake eyelashes does not fit those ideals. It's needless to say that Freebird thought Bitterbat was girl at first until he heard him speak.

And even then, that man struggled with figuring out if Bitterbat actually had boobs or pecs upon first glance during a live news recording of him battling Sweetheart.

I'd say hearing Bitterbat speak pissed him off even further because of the sass dripping off every sentence he delivers. It just finalized that Bitterbat was the antithesis of all Freebird's ideals of a guy.

So that man was at a complete loss when he saw Bitterbat flirt with Sweetheart and even manage to kiss her along with declaring his love and vow to steal her heart and make her his queen.

Bitterbat basically speedran becoming Freebird's #1 enemy and that bird was a squawking mess of fury after the battle. He tried everything he could to request that bat to be out on his official list of villains he could deal with because he was under the belief that Bitterbat was a weakling.

An idea that was soon stomped out after witnessing some of the leftovers Bitterbat liked to leave behind from previous confrontations with other cocky heroes and villains.

The first chance Freebird got, he flew to Decking City and did his best to talk some sense into Sweetheart, claiming that Bitterbat was too much for her to handle. She obviously rejected the notion stating she was more than capable of dealing with Bitterbat and she was the only one who could.

And when Freebird dared to bring up Bitterbat's more physical romantic advances on her, Sweetheart cut him off before he could tarnish Bitterbat's name by stating how bold it was for him to assume that Bitterbat's actions were unwelcome. She had even gone so far as to say they were far more desirable than his own.

There are no words suffice enough to describe how much Freebird's world and future shattered in just one week. And his world just continues to get shaken up again and again every time Bitterbat rears his bat-winged head.

The most merciful thing Bitterbat does to Freebird is keep his true relationship with Sweetheart a secret, playing into the act it's all one sided and he is merely a villain with the hots for his hero.

#glitter and guilt #bitterbat #sweetheart #licorice #freebird

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So after watching some live action stuff, my brain keeps thinking about a live action Glitter and Guilt, whether it's a show or film, purely because of the small cute Licorice moments that you can only really get between actors costarring on set for something. There's also just how haunting yet cool Bitterbat's eyes would look in a live action setting.

Like, Bitterbat being the funniest yet smooth mf who would def improv his flirts and Sweetheart constantly breaking character because she's getting too flustered and keeps forgetting her lines.

There's just a buncha bloopers because of their interactions together that are unscripted but are too golden to completely erase.

Bitterbat, any time he gets interviewed about the show, often just gushing about working with Sweetheart and how fun she is to be around. God forbid Sweetheart is also sitting next to him during an interview because she's a blushing mess. And then you have him just gazing dreamily at her whenever it's her turn to answer questions.

Sweetheart constantly having a little plushie of Bitterbat with her when attending solo promotional events like carpets or talk shows because it started as a for fun thing and now she just cannot NOT take her fav costar with her.

Bonus points for if Sweetheart drops a "I know it's just a role and we are both single irl but like-it really does feel like we're married sometimes" as a half joke during one interview as she laughs and from that day on Bitterbat just keeps referring to her as his wife. She keeps calling him her husband. Even after the series is done, it remains a thing they keep doing to the point there's a bunch of confusion between fans over if the two are really married or if it's just a joke.

I NOW UNDERSTAND THE APPEAL OF ACTOR AUS

#actor au #glitter and guilt #licorice #sweetheart #bitterbat

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Although it's fuckin too risky to be canon and throws their subtlety and the entire idea of secretly dating out the window...

... the hypothetical concept of Bitterbat, being fed up with school hogging Sweetheart's attention and fueled by his touch starvation, teleporting to her college campus without his human disguise, walking straight into one of the classes she is currently attending (he has her schedule and the college map memorized), striding right over to her seat in the middle of her professor lecturing (who halts to a stop the second he sees one of the #1 villains in Decking City in his class), hauling her over his shoulder while she is a flustered and squeaking mess, and poofing back home is very fuckin funny.

Especially if he does this all without saying a word while he wears his nearly expressionless resting bitch face everyone outside of the Beloveds and Flavor Four see.

God help whatever hero is sent after someone calls and reports a villain on campus because if they try to stop Bitterbat while he's on his way to pick up Sweetheart, that sonuvabitch is getting sent through a wall with the flick of a finger.

#glitter and guilt #sweetheart #bitterbat #licorice #scenario

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Itty Bittybat has cat brain sometimes where if Sweetheart discards some clothing or sets something if her's she was using down and she turns her back in it, she'll look again and see him nuzzled up to or on top of said object because it smells like her or has her warmth.

He has burrowed into her clothes while she changed into something else and accidentally got tossed into the laundry basket so many times

#glitter and guilt #itty bittybat #licorice #sweetheart #bitterbat

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I've had this concept plaguing me for the past two weeks so I need to exorcise from my head: Bitterbat brings home goodies from the store for his little stay-at-home date night with Sweetheart while she's off attending her college classes for the day.

And Lovely is impressed with how prepared he is. He has some of her fave snacks and even some ingredients to prepare her favorite dinner...

..And then he pulls out diapers, baby food, and clothing and Lovely squawks in surprise as she questions what all that's for. Bitterbat casually responds with "I wanted to be super prepared for our date!"

"Sugar, what are you preparing for with those!?"

"I'm preparing to take full responsibility ~💜"

Sweetheart soon gets a frantic text on her phone from Lovely that just says in all caps "DO NOT COME HOME THE BAT IS PLOTTING" only to get a text seconds later from Bitterbat that states "Don't listen to the bird, Sweetness. 💜💜💜 See you soon💋"

#glitter and guilt #sweetheart #bitterbat #lovely #licorice #scenario

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Cackle: How pathetic. You are the King of Monsters but are only known as your queen's boy friend while I AM HER BEST FRIEND! Sweetheart: We're not best friends Cackle. Bitterbat: Why is there a space? Cackle: What? Bitterbat: You put a space between "boy" and "friend". Why did you put a space in there? Cackle: You're Sweetheart's boy friend, yes? Bitterbat: No, I'm her boyfriend. Cackle: That's what I said. Sweetheart: Bitterbat is right. You keep saying "boy friend", not "boyfriend". Cackle: Yes. Because he is merely a boy who is your friend. MEANWHILE, I am the better friend. The "best" friend. Sweetheart: Nono Bitterbat is my "boyfriend" without the spaces. He's my romantic partner. Cackle: Bitterbat: Did you seriously think this entire time that a "boyfriend" was just a name for a male friend. Cackle: Bitterbat: Answer me you fuckin clown.

#glitter and guilt #bitterbat #sweetheart #cackle #convo

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Sweetheart frequently has unheroic thoughts.

That's what she calls them to be a comfortable level of vague. These thought range vastly from weird little ponders to malicious wishes. Things her brain just conjures up while she dealing with reality.

She doesn't feel comfortable talking about these thoughts to anyone but her boyfriend and their best friends. And even then, certain thoughts are limited to just Bitterbat as he's the closest person she has and he comes from a rather fucked up background. He would never judge her and he keeps her grounded with reminding her that her thoughts aren't her.

Which is true, her bad thoughts aren't her.

The desires she has for Decking City to get destroyed are just products of her being drained from a long day of heroics, only to have another problem only she can deal with rear its ugly head.

The wishes she has to rampage through the city itself as one of the Strangers are just her wishing she could break some rules. Stress from staying within the lines and the desire to cross them.

She doesn't hate being a hero but one of her ever passing thoughts is that she is just forcing herself to be one. It's not true but it's a thought that pops up with all the negative opinions about her online. A 20-something year old magical girl obviously has to hate her job somewhat. Who could love being in such bright frilly clothing for long periods of the day? Constantly having a smile on her face as she faces the civilians of the city has to make her mouth sore. And GOD, all that pink has to be bad for the psyche.

Sweetheart loves being Charmed though. She doesn't regret her decision to keep going when all her teammates had retired. And the constant optimism can get a bit much sometimes but she truly does prefer it over all the pessimism littered about the internet.

She's good at filtering out her bad thoughts from her good ones. Her evil ones from the real ones.

Bitterbat helps tremendously with his "Devil on the shoulder" act. He always proposes some over the top stunt to her and she shoots him down immediately. Even when he pokes and pries and gives her puppy eyes, she stands her ground.

She reminds herself that if her bad thoughts were really her, she would have greenlit one of Bitterbat's more destructive schemes. Her lack of hesitation to tell him no is a sign she's really a good person.

But her bad thoughts continue to return. And she continues to fight them off. Either by distracting herself from them or by talking them out.

It's a common symptom of being a hero where one's mind is so focused on doing good deeds and being a good person that there's a pile up of all the nastier thoughts in one's head. It's why the Decking Defense Force has a free therapy program for its heroes.

It's one way to keep them mentally healthy as well as keep the city safe from anyone snapping.

When you have a city's main defense be the superpowered citizens within it, you have to make sure said citizens aren't on the path to becoming a threat. The force doesn't like to look at its mental health program like that as it was genuinely founded to keep its heroes healthy in a job that many have no one else to talk to about their problems due to having secret identities. But the program is a "two birds one stone" situation, whether anyone wants to say so or not.

Sweetheart frequently shares these thoughts she has during her sessions but only the parts unrelated to Bitterbat...at least in the romantic sense.

She can tell her therapist about her wishes for Bitterbat to win a fight for once and destroy the city. But she can't tell them about how much happier she'd be as his Queen or how much she'd love to destroy the city alongside him.

And she knows if she tells Bitterbat any of the latter, there would be no stopping him from finally going on that rampage he keeps hyping up and whisking her away to Umbra. She only feeds him bitesize pieces of the thought. She tells him being a queen would probably be nicer than being a hero. And how much fun he looks like he's having when he's busting up the streets. But she makes sure to keep them spaced out and as playful little jokes.

Sweetheart knows Bitterbat can read thoughts and emotions. She knows he knows how she truly feels. She knows he knows she's holding back on what she truly wants to say. But he knows that it'd be cheating to act just from filling in the blanks. He restrains himself to only act if she explicitly says her thoughts. The thoughts he has been explicitly reading.

It's a strange powerplay between them that neither really minds. A constant struggle between good and evil but shrunk down to their relationship. They're used to this struggle though as it makes life a bit more fun, knowing the other is the only thing holding them back.

#rocky reblog