"The names we give ourselves are a powerful form of self-determination, of declaring ourselves sovereign territory."
- Robin Wall Kimmerer, Gathering Moss
Mags Harries - The Fossil, 1982
The imprint of the artist’s hand was cast in stainless steel and blended into a standard subway pole that was installed in MBTA Redline subway car #1506. It rode with this car for 20 years to be encountered by the unsuspecting hands of subway passengers.
Bless a Leo
who has photos
of themselves in their
bedroom
a giant mirror
that faces the bed
an altar
that burns
all night
and wears silk
negligee
who has so much love
that it spills from
every corner
with heart shaped leaf pothos
and bees outside
I'm such a silly fool
so in love that I think
you will love me back
the same way
that you will beg
scream
try your hardest
bring down the sun
and switch the ocean
and the land one
handful
at a time
I know that's too much
to ask for, but I still
hope
you will move
mountains for me
even after we're through
We were supposed to
grow old together
watch the bats flutter by
have a house with
two cats in the yard
and a blue glass bottle for
our water, a cactus
out front with it's arms
curled to the sky
your arms around my
waist and matching
last names and flowers
with eyes like yours
and sunflowers all the time
even when sunflowers weren't
blooming anymore
were supposed to be my
sun and moon and stars
and we were going to
belly laugh each day
and I'd get your sense of humor
and we'd always be home
as long as we were together
I can't believe
we didn't make it
Ten years
and it still
flew by
sometimes
two plants grow
into each other
entangle
limbs
sometimes
two plants grow
together
dream of a sky
to share
and never notice
the pot that
cups their
roots
entangled
a suffocating knot
we were just children
feasting in the grass
on this jewel red ripe
and cracked already
you taught us how to
peel back the skin use
our fingernails dig in
and get all the seeds
one by one i watched
the clouds pass over
us so slowly i still think
about it how the whole
world fit into an afternoon
how the juice burst and
slipped down my chin
how for just a moment
love was a fruit
in our palms
Sometimes
I wish I were
a full moon
on a summer
night
Sometimes
I wish my hair
was as dark
as the sea
beneath
her
Sometimes
I wish I were
silk or shimmer
or ripple
or even a sliver
of the beauty
of the way
the moonlight
halos
behind
her celestial
head
May you see my follower count and feel envy. May you look at my work and compare yourself. May you know second to me. May you know what it feels like to step the fuck back. Step the fuck down. May you know second fiddle. May you know sloppy seconds. May you know afterthought. May you know what it is like to sit in the backseat of my success. Unblocked. I want you to witness me. Witness this. Look upon my accolades. Look upon all the things that I will best you at. Nothing will save you. You, who looks at the moon too. You, who knows of scarred flesh. You, who has taken from me, forsaken me, pitied and disgraced me. I want you to know that you did not swallow me whole. Snake in the grass. Jezebel. Jolene. The moth that comes back every night. The haunt of my dreams for too long. I want to release this. I want to let go, but I don't know how to. How do I un-sow the seeds you have planted? How do I dis-entangle the entangled? Cut the Gordian Knot in my stomach? Erase you from his memory? I-I don't know. So, here. Here is anger. Jealousy. Insecurity. A plague of mediocrity. Every poem I have written, every feeling I have felt. May you listen to this and know exactly who you are.