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Entire supernatural fandom clowning on main

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Hands down one of the more devastating Destiel moments.

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It's fascinating to me how much I've changed my mind about Dean in The Trap. I'm waaaaay more sympathetic to the whole Cas-being-forgiven aspect of it, because yes, Cas apologized initially, but the root of the issue was Cas's painful withdrawal of his partnership and his withholding of critical information. Full stop. He and Dean are NOT equally culpable in this one.

It's not just about Mary and Jack, and yet Cas keeps pivoting to "Dean blaming him for Mary." Which oversimplifies the whole thing in a terrible way. Yes, they're all culpable, and yes they all saw that things were wrong with Jack, but next to Donatello, Cas is THE authority on souls and physically the strongest of TFW. To make matters worse, he all but demanded Dean to parent Jack and take care of Jack's emotions, even though Dean expressed discomfort over his memories of soulless Sam. Dean has repeatedly expressed how he wants Cas to be open and honest with him, especially now that they're co-parenting, and although Cas demanded Dean parent Jack, he then turned around and hid Big Parenting Stuff from him and went off to meet Anael.

Barring Cas's one feeble and poorly-timed, "I tried to fix it on my own because I was afraid of losing this family," he doesn't really spell out his part in the communication failures or apologize very well for withdrawing from Dean, specifically. He sorts of sulls up and say, "I already apologized and I'm not doing it again." Yet, Cas has a continued, longstanding pattern of withdrawal from the partnership. I'm floored that my Cas goggles kept me from seeing it before, and maybe I'm a little embarrassed, too. I mean, honestly, it's amazing that Dean takes him back at all. :/ Once you look past, "Oh no! Dean said mean things!" anyway.

I think by The Trap, Dean has given up trying to get Cas to change or hold him accountable for his lack of communication. Cas sort of gave Dean ultimatums over it, if you squint, and Dean rolled over. And Dean wants to get back together. He needs Cas's support and Cas need his. He looks at everything Cas is and decides that Cas's avoidance and want to protect the family is just woven into the fabric of him, and Dean decides to accept that. It's something he loves about him as much as he resents it. Cas's chivalry is a feature and a bug. Dean loves him for it. It makes his life a Hell sometimes.

Occasionally, I still see people harping on how horrible Dean was for "forgiving" Cas, like Cas doesn't need to be forgiven. And with some distance and clarity, I find that pretty baffling now, but I also remember feeling that way when I wasn't looking at their partnership equally and giving Cas too much leeway on his continued absence from the partnership. I almost...respected Cas more. That thought makes me wince. But his bad decisions I was way more likely to stamp as protective or tactically genius, at least compared to some of Dean's similar decisions. Dean's things I tended to group as "too angry/emotional/irrational." :(

I guess I've come a long way when it comes to holding Sam and Cas accountable for their actions, too. Much of the time, my issues with Dean devolved to unfortunate tone policing or not liking him to express his anger and be angry at his boundaries being breached over and over, even when he was taking his anger out on inanimate objects. I balked just because it made a loud sound that made Sam wince (oh noes, not the wincing).

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On the other hand, I'm quite impressed that Dean and Cas were finding their way back to each other after the Death of a Child. That's about the hardest thing a marriage can go through, and they were getting back together and trying to heal even before Jack reappeared. Clearly, it's a stress-tested relationship. WAY more stress-tested than your everyday marriages; they've been through multiple apocalypses. On the whole, they often have good communication, even when they disagree, they knew where they stood (like with Donatello). It's just these huge, incredibly unusual horrible earth-shatteringly terrible things that throw them. Chuck's grooming is such a bitch.

#saving this

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this cute theythemmie asks for your order wyd😳

(from @outdean‘s fic!)

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Some doodles I did after rereading Trials and Revelations by KalisTyping.

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okay obviously destiel agenda forever but if we’re being real dean should have been kissing men before castiel was even introduced. dean should have been doing it sloppy style with victor henriksen by the 3rd season at least.

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A series I’d like to title ‘ they’re actually holding hands here but it’s under the ghostfacers effect’

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i know it’s been said before, but it bears repeating: a big, big part of maintaining your confidence & self esteem as a creator is fully embracing the concept of “you don’t have to be good like them.  you can be good like you.”

for example, i’m not someone who’s particularly good at coming up with complex, elaborate plots or incredibly unique ideas.  it’s just not how i choose to write.  and it would be easy for me to look at someone with an elaborate, super unique plot & decide that because i don’t write like that, i’m not a good writer.  after all, unique plots are good, and my writing lacks those, so my writing must not be good, right?  well, no, actually.  i just have different strengths, like taking a simple premise & digging super deep into its emotional depths.  that’s what i do well & it isn’t any better or worse than people who do elaborate world building or come up with really creative and unexpected plots.

your writing is never going to be all things to all people.  it just isn’t.  inevitably, you’ll have to make creative choices that favor certain aspects of writing over others.  there is truly no getting around that & it’s honestly a good thing, because it means you’ve developed your own style.  but you’ll always encounter other creators who posses strengths that you don’t.  it doesn’t mean one is better than the other or that your writing isn’t good enough. 

comparing yourself like that would be like taking a piece of pizza & a cupcake & going “oh no, that cupcake is so sweet & my pizza isn’t sweet at all.” or “gosh, the garlic crust on that pizza is delicious and my cupcake doesn’t have ANY garlic.”  obviously your pizza isn’t sweet.  obviously your cupcake doesn’t have garlic.  a food can’t have every single delicious flavor at once.  the cupcake is good like a cupcake.  the pizza is good like a pizza.  so you don’t have to be good like them.  you can be good like you.

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Stuff kids on tumblr better relearn

1. You are responsible for your own media experience. 

2. There is such a thing as a healthy level of avoidance towards topics that make you feel unwell or even (in a real-life clinical definition of the term) trigger you - but you are the one to actively take care of what you view.

3. Avoiding does not mean policing others.

4. You have no right to tell artists to censor themselves - you may criticize what others do, you may dislike it, that’s fine - but actively asking for censorship when you could easily unfollow or block a person just makes you look incompetent in your use of the internet.

5. Do not give people on tumblr or /any/ website the responsibility for your emotional well-being. Because these people do not even know you so no, you have no right to ask them to take care of you.

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can we, once again, talk about the fact that dean and cas were IN LOVE but also they were. best friends. dean on his knees crying saying you’re my best friend. they could talk to each other about the stuff that neither of them could talk to anyone else. they felt safe with each other they were like let me carry some of your burden!!!! it’s a privilege for me!!!

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ok, regarding this post... i'll write a fic where sam gets a Real Friend and they do Friends Things, so he suddenly looks at dean and cas and he realizes not only they're fucking weird, they're also very much not Friends bc he'd rather cut his arm off before letting his buddy get that close to him on a random thursday

as much as i love sam knowing about destiel before dean does, there's something about "i mean yeah my brother and his angel best friend are really weird about each other, live together, co-parent a kid, nearly kill themselves every time the other is gone, stand too close and stare at the other's mouth while they talk, but i mean to each their own i guess??" that's so special to me

#why? because sam DESERVES to have a friend #and just a friend who does not want to f him #or betray him #my poor little boy grew up so lonely #also it'd be funny he'd want to crawl off his skin once he notices #and cas and dean Genuinely believe they're normal friends #and yeah obvs sam would be the kind to hug his friend and not panic bc of it #but if there's room and he just sits that close?? Nope. #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #sam winchester #destiel fanfic #destiel fic #casdean #deancas #spn #supernatural

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idk something like this

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The Guardian

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Photoshop CS3 + Wacom tablet

The way I see it, Castiel is in love with Dean, as far as an angel can feel love towards a human.

I’m not exactly a Destiel shipper, since I don’t ship them sexually or anything, but I would lie if I said that the relationship between them doesn’t fascinate me. It’s so complicated and conflicted and yet so strong, that I think it’s second only to Dean/Sam.

You’ll probably notice that Dean is sort of younger, hence the Samulet and the earlier season hairstyle. Even though it’s certainly not canon, I like to think that Castiel has been watching Dean way before he pulled him out of Hell. All the while he had been preparing for a battle, Castiel was there… Only, Dean couldn’t see him.

Yet.

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Technically, this was one of the most difficult pieces I’ve ever made, and the reason behind it escapes me, since the composition is apparently quite simple. But I had LOTS of trouble, especially with Dean. I’m still not 100% happy with the way it came out but whatevs. 

Details/wallpaper on my blog. See also on Deviantart.

PS: sorry for the lame title.

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Emergency Line

PS + Wacom

This one has been in my spn art folder for ages. For some reason it never looked finished. But I’m tired of looking at it, and I know I won’t work on it anymore so… there you go.

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“ANNA”.

My piece for @supernaturalartbook​, Angels & Heaven section, page 75.