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fucking losing my mind over here considering im me and I love these two so much and i just

#sleepy whispers #genshin xiao #genshin qiqi #my fic of basically making xiao qiqi's dad bc i can do whatever tf i want #along with zhongli in the i treasure you bc you are my friend and we both care about this child kinda way #its all pure platonic #theyre so special to me

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ZhongXiao Aro/Ace Drabble

#sleepy whispers #zhongxiao #genshin xiao #genshin zhongli #this was written when I was so sleepy but couldn't stop thinking of it #this isn't really projection even tho I am aro ace but idk what else to call it #I'll either come back and edit it later #OR #I'll just write a longer fic based on this idea #that'll be done after my current fic is done tho like many other things #I do not have the brain power to write more than one thing at a time

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The world exists and it is beautiful. The world exists and it is painful.

Each footstep echoes out the hallway. They stop in front of the hallway. The night is cold and unforgiving. The night is calm and serene.

Fingers leave prints on the glass. Breath leaves fog on the pane.

Alive. They are alive.

Another person stops in front of them. My love, they wish to say, My heart. Their body is clearly failing.

Dying. They are dying.

The dying love says, "Isn't the universe beautiful." An owl hoots to prove their point.

The living scoffs. How can the universe be beautiful? Their love is dying.

"I love the moon so much. I want to see it on my final night. Will you-"

"No. There's still a chance. Don't give up yet."

The dying love frowns, "You're the only reason why I'm still alive."

They say it like it’s a bad thing. Like it’s wrong. Why do they say it like that?

"We can be together forever."

"...I don't want forever."

The living lets their hand slide down the window, the pads of their fingers creating a screeching sound reflective of how they feel inside.

The living says, "The universe isn't beautiful without you." Their voice is desperate. They want to beg for as long as they can for their dying love to stay.

"Aren't you being silly? The universe was never beautiful because of me. I just helped you see it. And the universe will continue being beautiful after me."

The dying love's hand interwines itself with the living.

"Let me go, okay?"

#sleepy whispers #my writing #writing #prompt #I don't know what I meant this for #I just wrote it #it's pretty general so uhhh anyone's welcome to use it if yall want?

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Villanelle For Xiao

How I miss those who I considered kin

Regardless of the foe, I will answer my god’s call

I am the only one left to conquer all sin

At night, not a whisper to be heard nor a cry of pain

All the bloodshed and tears will be washed away by the season's rainfall

How I miss those who I considered kin

I am the only one left and I am considered evil’s bane

Everything hurts, but I will continue on even if I must crawl

I am the only one left to conquer all sin

My mind warps everything around me and I struggle to remain sane

I know what they would say and so I sit to enjoy the scenery of fall

How I miss those who I considered kin

The ones who are left wish for me to refrain

No sound nor word can truly enthrall

I am the only one left to conquer all sin

How I curse the fact that only I remain

Sooner or later I will join them leaving behind only a bird's call

How I miss those who I considered kin

I am the only one left to conquer all sin

#sleepy whispers #genshin xiao #genshin yaksha #this is one of the other poems i made #honestly i think i prefer using a sonnet format best but i like this one as well

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Sonnet For Xiao

Winter steals each breath leaving you with grief

Thou miss thy kin, yet never fail to live

Till spring, heart aches and yearns without relief

At war, blood spilled that thou wouldn't forgive

Time seems to stop as earth unburies jade

Come close and let me hold you, shed no tear

I stay alone, unable to dissuade

Corruption, thy close friend, leaves me with fear

Yet I love and wait, one day, I've believed

Blood shan't besmirch thy hands nor gentle soul

Flute sounds upon the wind, thy pain's relieved

My wish for thee, thy's chance to laugh, to stroll

See the peaceful harbor, what thou'st fought for

Lay down the spear, for war is now no more

#sleepy whispers #genshin xiao #zhongxiao #<- #well that's more implied than anything #poems aren't my strong suit but I wanted to try this out for a while and the raffle event gave me a nice motivator even tho I didn't win an #I still feel kinda proud of this #I also made a villanelle poem and two acrostic ones but I might or might not post those later #also I'm trying really hard to update but I'm really bad procrastinator #my bad #oh! I also intend to use this for a fic later down the line so yeah there's that too

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Babysitter/Bodyguard AU

MCs: ZhongXiao & Qiqi

Zhongli who is at war with many other regions, including the one where Xiao is enslaved in, and who also has a child who is Qiqi. Xiao who runs into her in his master's land and realizes that oh shit, she's from Morax's land and she cannot be here!! Qiqi, of course, is like not worried because in her eyes her dad is very powerful and will always keep her safe, not realizing that she's not in her dad's land meaning he doesn't have any special powers there and she is in a lot of danger should anyone find out who she is. Xiao doesn't know who is her dad and doesn't give her the chance to explain and tries to get her to leave. Qiqi is still trying to collect plants for medicine and refuses to leave because there is a lot of plants there and she still thinks that she's home. She climbs up a mountain and Xiao is immediately noping out, but rushes back to save her when she's about to fall. After all, it's not like his master ordered him to not save the child and it's not like he's disobeying and she doesn't have to know he's technically helping the enemy

He saves her and gathers all the plants she wanted and gave her a quick blessing to protect her and help her travel faster into her land undetected and unharmed. It works really well to the point where it's still active by the time she arrives home and sees her family freaking out that she was missing for so long. She doesn't understand what the big deal was and just said that she made a nice new friend, but she never actually got his name. Skip forward where Qiqi constantly goes over to try and find her new friend and Xiao is like no, no, no, leave right now, but can't bring himself to be mean about it.

A party with all neighboring kingdoms/nations invited is held including his lady who is quite antagonistic about it. They will go but really it's more so an excuse for her to observe Morax's palace and look for any weak points. Of course, she nor any of her people could attack without starting a war, but it was better to have information just in case. While they're in a foreign kingdom/nation they would have to listen to that ruler's orders as a sign of respect but they needn't try to hard, just enough to get others off their case. Xiao immediately spots Qiqi from across the room and realized who she is. She's the reason why the party was thrown in the first place. The birthday party of the little lady of liyue. A party that went south when someone tried to take advantage of the situation. It's quickly resolved, but Morax notices how is daughter clinged onto one of his foes when she was scared. Xiao's master also notices it and considers this new information carefully.

The child seeks him out on other special occasions. He rebuffs each attempt. Acknowledging her and the little friendship they created would be equivalent to handing his master the spear to strike directly at Morax's heart and ending his reign. She was just a child after all. Easy to manipulate and easy to please. So he says harsh words with cold eyes. He says them even as his heart begins to hurt and says them even as she looks at him with tears in her eyes and says them when her family looks at him with such hatred for hurting her.

Later on, when his master goes against Morax, he cant bring himself to watch Qiqi get killed and takes a fatal blow meant for her. It's a stupid move, so stupid that everyone stops fighting for a second to process it. He passes out from the pain still holding her in his arms. When he is interrogated he lies. He lies because there's no point in trying to get out of this live. He just wants it all to end already. Eventually, Morax wins the battle against Xiao's master and Xiao is set to be executed, but Qiqi asks to talk to him privately first. She tries to interrogate him because she doesn't understnd why he's so nice one second then so mean the next. He can't hide the truth from her and explains as best he can so as to not leave her wondering after his death. Though he does not notice her father listening in on their conversation.

A few weeks later and it is decided that his punishment is to guard the little lady and the king after much persuading from her and a lot of thinking from her father. From there other stuff happens and Xiao is really confused as to why the fuck he's still alive and why they want him of all people to protect some of the most important people in their nation. Cue shenanigans and Qiqi using her big brain to get them together so she can have her perfect happy family.

#genshin xiao #genshin qiqi #genshin zhongli #zhongxiao #<- eventually #I realize that my AUs and the rest of the community are like different vibes entirely at this point #but idc cuz I like my good ole fluff mwehehe :3 #i got a lot more AUs i'd like to post #my discord channels are just xiao au after xiao au #so if you wanna hear more about them... stick around ig?? #idk man im just vibin #also idk if it's obvious but i feel like it is but this was made because i read too many manhwas

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Lmfao I was all like yeah I'm gonna transfer my lil ideas from Twitter to this account and then completely forgot to do that

#sleepy whispers #i'll get to it eventually

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Got so many things I wanna write but not enough time blehhhh

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wahhhhhh I just wanted to finish my soulmates zhongxiao au for my bday but I have other shit to do!!!!!

#sleepy whispers #I'm tiiiiiiiired #And I have another chapter to finish writing for another fic #And u have to grind really hard if I want lyney this update and not in a rerun #Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #And now I want seafood #And it's too fucki g hot for lil ole me

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sooooo 4.0 is out... we can swim.... there is a boat ride...

Is anyone gonna do a little mermaid zhongxiao au or am I gonna have to jot down inmy list of to be written????

#sleepy whispers #zhongxiao #Kinda joking here #If I do personally write this it'll be far into the the future #I've started so many things at once it's kind of overwhelming #But I do like this idea a lot so who knows

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on top of, like, 20+ fic ideas and a few first that I need to continue at some point, I came up with the brilliant idea to add in a ZhongXiao Soulmates AU...

Why am I like this??

#sleepy whispers #I swear I will write all my ideas eventually #I just have the terrible habit of having so many ideas and adding more on top of it #Me with like 3 ideas posted that I need to sit down and actually finish up

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should I be making a post everytime I write and post a new chapter? Is that something ppl do? Idk man

#sleepy whispers #feel like I'd be clogging the tags but at the same time idk ahdjdjdk

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I swear I am writing I'm just not very fast

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ahshjfkdod I can't focus!!!!

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My motivation went weeeeee and flew away TvT the second my internet died so now I gotta go brrrrr to catch up

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Shane Family Centric Fic

#sleepy whispers #slugterra #eli shane #will shane #jimmo shane #yeah i had no self control when writing this #the brain rot be real #anyways its too hot and im tired now

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I also just realized that since i barely made this blog i may show up with that new arrival tag and like no im not new. Twitter was just being a poopy pants and i need some place to share my writings but my personal one is too personal ya know?

#sleepy whispers #Tho i dont actually post often here #All i will say is that in my defense i have a slugterra fic and new chapter for the ongoing genshin fic to finish #Writing takes so much time #All i wanna do is like think of the fic and then have it appear in front of me so i can read it #But noooo i have to actually write and put in the effort and ig its kinda fun #No thats a lie its really fun and no one can stop me ahahahaha