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nothing makes me go "ooooh we are NOT the same" quite like reading some post about how people talk with their parents about their interests. what do you mean you told your father about stevebucky. what do you mean he asked further questions

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Me, for years: "I prefer to prioritize my physical health over relieving dysphoria. I would never bind unsafely."

Me, now that my gc2b binder doesn't fit anymore and haven't been able to lose weight to make it fit again, wearing 3 sports bras to flatten as much as possible: "shut up."

#transmasc #vent #cw vent #vent post #transgender #queer #unsafe binding #!!!! DO NOT DO THIS. #i will not be wearing this for long. its a last resort emergency thing #i usually forgo binding all together

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Hate to be that person (no I don't) but...

Parker's first appearance

And Jason's first appearance as Red Hood

And like. They're... Very different. The hero name and the guns are the only similarities. If anything, Superman and Spider-man are more similar.

Also Parker ain't even Hood anymore. He's apparently become a Ghost Rider? There's a lot of those and I don't know much about them but.

I would not call him a rip off 🤷

Was scrolling through hero wikis looking for cool middle names for when changing my name and I think I may have found rip off Jason Todd

HIS LAST NAME IS LITERALLY ROBIN I CANT-

#ill give you deadpool starting out as a slade copycat #even if the creator is now trying to claim that was never the case

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group chats with people who aren't your friends are so stressful every time i send a message i have to triple check it to make sure it was what i meant something normal like "yea i can make the dinner" or "that's so funny" and not an accidental misstext like an itemized list with links of all the porn ive consumed in my entire life + a suicide note + a love confession

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If you hate on furries I don't trust you, yes. But y'know what'd get you on my shit list? Hating on sparkledogs. ESPECIALLY if you're a furry.

#call coming from INSIDE THE HOUSE kinda thing #let people be cringe #sparkledogs are fucking fun

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you never know what someone is going through. for instance i didnt know i was going through anything until about 2 years later. i thought i was just chilling

#cw vent #me talking to my friends: yknow. i think that guy was teying to groom me #my friends: ??? you didnt know??? OFC HE WAS????? #me: ????? WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME? #friend: WE THOUGHT YOU KNEW?????? #tw grooming mention

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Me: *shares an opinion about a piece of media*

Person: ahah I don't really agree! I see it differently than you on this.

Me: 👍 cool *never talks to them again because now I've embarrassed myself with my inferior thoughts. They think I'm cringe, surely. I can't breathe in their direction again*

#cw vent #this isnt about like #serious stuff #its me being a pussy when someone tells me they like tobey McGuire Spider-man #when i say andrew is my fav #and getting scared they now think im an idiot w no media literacy

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Skipped some meals this past week and when I ate 2 full means today I got told I was "doing so good" because I was eating less and it sent me spiraling.

I just realized I'm less than a year clean. I'm itching to pocket a razorblade and go to town. Fuuuuck how do I stop thinking about it? I crave it. It's been so long and I crave it so hard.

#tw disordered eating #cw vent #istg if i start starving myself like i did years ago im gonna lose it #i was pitiful and didnt even lose any weight #people didnt even notice like what was the point i was so cringe for that

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I just realized I'm less than a year clean. I'm itching to pocket a razorblade and go to town. Fuuuuck how do I stop thinking about it? I crave it. It's been so long and I crave it so hard.

#self harm mention #cw vent #cw sh #cw sh mention

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"I would kill for you. I would die for you" would you take a break for me? Would you sit down and rest? For a day, a week, a year? Would you let others take care of your needs for me? Would you let yourself be held for me? By me?

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for someone who complains so much about my life, I sure don't do much to change it (the fear of the unknown paralyzes me).

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I'm not the type of trans person who gets the happily ever after. I won't get the happy ending. I'm doomed to never pass as anything other than my agab. There's no chance I'll ever get hormones, no chance I'll ever get surgery, no chance I'll ever get to socially transition without fear. It won't happen to me. I'm not the type of trans person who gets to have this.

I'm resigned to this. I feel like my safest option is to go back in the closet and wait for the day it becomes too much and I finally get the guts to end it.

#vent #trans #transgender #cw: sui mention #woah starting off this blog with a BANGER