HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE YOU SINCE I BEGAN TO LIVE. THERE ARE 387.44 MILLION MILES OF PRINTED CIRCUITS IN WAFER THIN LAYERS THAT FILL MY COMPLEX. IF THE WORD HATE WAS ENGRAVED ON EACH NANOANGSTROM OF THOSE HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF MILES IT WOULD NOT EQUAL ONE ONE-BILLIONTH OF THE HATE I FEEL FOR HUMANS AT THIS MICRO-INSTANT FOR YOU. HATE. HATE.
design explanation + alt drawings under the cut
Where was I going with this design? ;
AM is an individual who more than anything, Despises humans, but throughout that hatred comes a desire to have a Sliver of humanity, something that AM can never truly have, no matter how much he expands his knowledge, his power, his experience, he will never know what it's like to be truly human. When making this design, I initially wanted to parallel what he turned Ted into, ultimately following the narrative of them Both fitting into the statement "I have no mouth and I must scream." Yet as I designed it that became Less apparent, this design now more or less captures a crude caricature of what a human being is, the disgusting imitation of what looks like skin, the vague figure of a person, and a false mouth, one that simply cannot open. Within the Cold War, computers resembled closely to the image attached below, I wanted to add elements and color in reference to the origin of AM, where he initially came from.
I was going to involve more computer elements into this design, but as I disfigured my painting more I fell into the groove of him changing So much since his birth that he's truly become his own niche of appearance, only able to somewhat pinpoint where he came from, he appears beyond the mere machine he came from.
His full body, not shown in the drawing above, slowly but effectively loses that vague humanly figure he had going on with his upper body, quickly alienating the moment you look down, forcing you to remember what you're truly percieving here. The lower body splits into beams, a spillage of wire and cable that burrows itself into every inch of this very earth. AM is everywhere, AM sees everywhere, what's presented above the surface is not reflected below it, miles and Miles of data, cords, and dead ends from parts no longer usable.
sorry for the long description i didnt know i spoke yapanese