#(nobody was going to get sick)

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 147

psychically induced chronic illness squad

#day 147 #year 4 #aradia megido #sollux captor #homestuck #arasol #solluxs migraine thing is right in his introduction #but we only get like. one line from aradia in her singular conversation with rose in a5 #where she mentions an 'elusive feeling of sickness' following her for her entire life #which i think you could read as like. anxiety/sense of impending doom due to upsetting psychic whispering 24/7 #but when i was a kid and i felt anxious it ALWAYS manifested as a feeling of Oh I Am Going To Barf About This #to the point that i spent like a full year getting a whole barrage of medical tests trying to figure out what was wrong with my guts #turned out it was simply undiagnosed mental illness because nobody really considered that a 6 year old could have one of those #but such is life anyway catch me projecting onto these two once a fucking gain

[sleepsucks]

#17.10.22 #3144 #not pictured is me getting more stressed than that about it & going to ask staff at the doors and whatever else #for definitely way too long than hsould have been needed to realize i dropped my phone under a seat #but ALSO we were 3 people and nobody noticed it so there #CaGab #PoTal #( this was a premiere screening of Inu-Oh btw it's a sick movie )

[scribblersobia]

Everytime I hear someone say 'I hate women', 'all women are shit', 'I hate men' or 'all men are dogs', I turn around and walk the other way.

#nobody is shit .... its you and your mentality #sick and disgusting #go get a psychological help #and if you hate some...then leave them alone #words #messed up world

[makeurmoneywhore]

can’t stop thinking about how when the HIV/AIDS epidemic started, people thought that you could contract the virus simply by touching an infected person. so in the something bad is happening reprise where dr. charlotte pulls marvin aside and tells him this virus seems to spread from one man to another, she could’ve been implying he should refrain from even hugging/holding/comforting whizzer because he might be putting himself at risk

#like ok i know it’s implied he probably already has it #but idk just thinking about the confusion and panic of the time and how everyone was so afraid #because nobody understood how or why this was happening #the only thing people understood about AIDS at that time is that if you got it you’d die. end of story #so just thinking about marvin having to grapple with the fact that comforting his lover could be getting him sick #and him having to choose to forego the risk even if it means he will die and leave jason fatherless #and anyway i’m gonna go cry #falsettos #falsettos 2016 #whizzvin #marvin falsettos #whizzer brown

[estrogenism]

idk i wish people would talk more about papua when it comes to occupied nations.

free papua.

#we exist too. our villages are getting bombed. we get thrown in prisons for no reason. we're not allowed to fly our flag. #and the whole world ignores it because the grasberg mine is there and they care more about gold than they do about human lives. #and like. we've been begging people to acknowledge our genocide but nobody fucking listens #the death toll is estimated to be around 100k to 300k and still we get ignored #nobody fucking cares about us. i wonder if they'd care if our skin was lighter. #it makes me so fucking sick to think that we're dying and we still never get mentioned in discussions of occupied nations #and the un is so fucking useless when it comes to the conflict. they make half-assed attempts for brownie points if at all. #then they go back to letting the indonesian military bomb our homes. #i wish i could go home but i don't think i ever will be able to when it's been 50+ years of genocide and people still ignore us. #genocide cw

[fuckyeah-bears]

I feel like trash sooo hard right now so here’s a bear

#I’m Definitely sick #Dunno if it’s Covid #Gotta wait til I get off work to go home and take a Covid test tho #And before anyone says anything #I’m alone in the office I ain’t endangering anyone by spreading germs #Ain’t nobody but me fucking here #And fuck do I not want to be here right now I feel so awful #Don’t mind me just whining and feeling sorry for myself hardcore #🙃 #But I feel like garbage so I’m bear posting

[thevioletcaptain]

if you as a fic reader ever become possessed by the urge to do a popularity bracket with the fics other people wrote and shared for fun and for free, consider:

don't ❤️ 

#just!!!! make a rec list!!!!!!!!! #popularity contests do nothing but drive writers out of fandoms by pitting people against their friends #and invariably result in people being assholes in the comments as if the people who wrote the fic can't see it #like ''oh clearly fic x is better than fic y'' #or ''why is fic c even in this poll?'' #nobody gains anything by you doing a bracket to see which fic is the ''most popular'' #a stat which could be found more easily & less cruelly by simply hitting the sort by bookmarks/kudos button on ao3 #anyway ugh. i saw that one of my fics was being pitted against one of my friend's fics in this bracket that's going around #and i have no idea who is ''winning'' because i refuse to look. but either way it's gonna feel bad!!! #because i want my friend to get his flowers so i want him to win!!! but i also would like to know that people like my fic!!!! #so it's just a lose/lose situation even though i generally don't give a shit about numbers #but this turns it into a schoolyard popularity thing #and the emotional response to having people *vote* on if your work is *better or worse* than other fic is hard to ignore #cannot reiterate enough JUST MAKE A REC LIST #or if you absolutely must do a bracket like this do it in a private chat server or something #don't create a public forum for people to pass value judgements where the authors can see it #and feel bad if they get told their fic is ''worse'' than someone elses #but also feel bad if they get told theirs is ''better'' because it came at the cost of telling another author they weren't good enough #ANYWAY i still feel sick with a super sore throat and a headache & am probably extra cranky because of it #(still testing negative thankfully so it's probably just weather/allergen related) #gonna go make some tea and prep the fic updates i want to post today #cass says things #fandom problems #wank adjacent

[catchyhuh]

If you'd be willing to share: Thoughts on Fujiko x Lupin?

WILLING? I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR A MEDICAL EXCUSE TO DO SO now you want thoughts or you want thoughts because i’m passionate about these bitches and their dynamic.

but first thing's first look at this :)

for starters, i’m a firm believer that fujiko does love him. it’s just that, like i’ve said before, she doesn’t express it normally? people love the “aloof cool guy who’s only sort of soft with his love interest” trope all the time and she’s just the girl version of that!! i’m sick of people insisting they want mean girlfriends and then blanching when they see lupin blushing over a woman being sarcastic with him. get it together guys!!

the reality is that if you really look at their relationship throughout the series, lupin is rarely, if ever, actually upset by her frequent betrayal. it’s not… totally manipulation if you know it's coming and seem to expect it every time. clearly, lupin has a particular fondness for people who understand he’s somehow a genius AND stupid as hell and get giddy over expensive rocks. and speaking of jesus christ give jigen a break lupy he’s gonna burst a blood vessel if he finds out you gave fujiko the third insanely valuable cursed artifact of the month. what do you MEAN it’s possessed you. AGAIN??

fujiko just. is weird about things. you know? she just gets silly with it. it makes sense: if you've used affection as nothing more than a tool for most of your life, you'd show sincere love differently. if fujiko didn’t really love lupin, why would she come back to him? why would she turn to him, SINCERELY turn to him, when she could get help from any other pitiful little man trailing her heels? oh god mamo remember mamo? fujiko gave up immortality bc he couldn’t come along with her. she gave up living in her prime forever all because it wouldn’t be the same without her weird little boyfriend. amour!

i can refute any claim a Hater makes. any and all. “fujiko is selfish” points you to the other characters “lupin only likes her for her looks” well it’s obviously a factor i mean look at her. but when doing dirty work for other hot babes has threatened his life even barely he taps out and calls out the woman like "wtf i couldve died" and yet he continues to fawn over fujiko, ESPECIALLY when she does some cool murder shit. he met fujiko’s ancestor in that elusiveness of the fog special or w/e it was called and specifically said “she even has her toughness heart emoji" or some shit! “fujiko is materialistic” points you to the other characters “fujiko wasn’t bothered by the thought of lupin dying in alcatraz connection” neither was goemon they know he fakes this shit all the time. and in fact when they really DID think lupin was dead in missed by a dollar it took fujiko a whole second to break out of her shock that lupin was alive and she immediately laughed and hugged him so tight he almost lost his grip on the steering wheel! “lupin’s just stupid when it comes to her” points you to the other ch

i keep saying i’m gonna make a compilation of all the times they actually express love as the average joe gets it but. not today. nay

#get behind me fujiko mine i'll protect you from people who don't understand how sick as hell you are #nobody asked but i uh. actually also joked about making a similar luzeni comp. this blog is now taking clip suggestions #lupin iii #lupin the third #lupin #fujiko #fujilup #damn this using tags for their intended purpose of organization is kinda fuckin with me OOH WAIT #asks #okay now we're done! sorry for going off i'm insane about her. well them both really but #lupinions

[cometrose]

i could cry into the void about rezhong forever like the fact that the only reason its not popular is because azhdaha doesn't have a tall anime twink form like im gonna sob

Imagine being partners but slowly watching your partner lose themselves and their memories and try to destroy everything you created together and you have to seal him away in a prison of the earth MIND you zhongli is the one who awoke him from underground so he just put him back there like?????

And the fact even after the betrayal Zhongli and Azhdaha still care so deeply for each other like they can't change the past but when Azhdaha is conscious Zhongli is upset that he has to leave him again. They are victims of fate!!! Doomed yaoi!! It was never meant to be but they wanted it to work.

And if Azhdaha is the Geo Dragon Sovereign he was perfectly content with Morax taking his authority and he loved humanity and their friendship. BUT we know Sovereigns and Archons don't work out like I am telling you it was doomed from the start but its so good please listen to me!!!

#rezhong #zhongli #azhdaha #genshin impact #someone bring back azhdaha so zhongli can get his ex-husband back #AZHDAHA POSSESSED A RANDOM STRANGER JUST SO HE COULD WARN MORAX #he’s like oh no my ex husband is in danger from me!!! i must warn and protect him because nobody respects him more than ME #zhongli on the verge of losing it all: you’re leaving? #and if azhdaha is the geo dragon (i mean it’s pretty close) that means that zhongli got his power and he was like 👍 #like imagine him being like ‘there’s no one more deserving of my authority than you’ #maybe i’m going crazy i feel sick #what if morax tried to return his power to him to slow his erosion but he refused cause he’d rather erode than watch morax kill himself #AND THE POEM #and a blind dragon yearning to see the sun!! *COUGH HACK*

[majimasleftasscheek]

DID U SEE THE NEW INFINITE WEALTH TRAILER AND ARE YOU ALSO CRYING AND SCREAMING LIKE I AM??

INFINITE WEALTH MORE LIKE INFINITELY BEATING ME WITH A TIRE IRON

GOOD FOR ICHIBAN HAVING FUN AND WHATEVER YIPPEE BUT WHAT ABOUT HOW MY ASS WAS RAWED BY INEVITABLE MORTALITY

I'VE BEEN IN CAR ACCIDENTS THAT HAVE HURT ME LESS

#NOBODY TOUCH ME I'M SHAKING #hot take but what if kiryu's model in y7 looked so good just so the contrast of his model now would make him seem even worse and sick #I'm gonna throw up EVERYWHERE #like I expected him to get killed as a likely ending but bruh cancer tho omg #I think it's the realism of his fate that gets me cuz being shot or stabbed is smth you can relatively remove yourself from #but cancer my guy. my sis is going thru that rn and my dad's skirting a fine line there so it's like hhhhhhh

[henrysglock]

Why do you fence-sit about gay-bi Mike discourse? After everything it did to byler tumblr? Hmm? You think you need to keep bringing up how you're above it all, how both sides are valid, but you don't. You don't.

Oh, but I know you just want to be liked by everyone. I was desperate to be liked once too. I know what it's like to be problematic. To feel alone in this fandom. Like you, I didn't fit in with the other fans. Something was wrong with me. All the bi mike truthers and sexuality fence-sitters said I was… "Pretentious," they said.

I thought a change of website, a fresh start on Tumblr, might just cure me. It was absurd. As if the fans would be any different here. But then, to my surprise, my new home provided a discovery...and a newfound sense of belonging. I found a nest of opinionated gay Mike truthers living in the byler tag.

Most people fear opinionated blogs. They detest them. And yet, I found them endlessly fascinating. More than that, I found a great comfort in them. A kinship. Like me, they are intelligent tumblr users...and deeply misunderstood. They are gods of our world. The most important of all blogs. They educate and debate the ignorant, bringing balance and order to an unstable website. But the gay-bi Mike fence-sitters were disrupting this harmony.

You see, gay-bi Mike fence-sitters are a unique type of pest, multiplying and poisoning our world, all while enforcing a passive-aggressive and hypocritical moral hierarchy of their own. A deeply unnatural hierarchy. Where others saw benevolence, I saw censorship. A cruel, oppressive tag dictated by a made-up moral code. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades. Each gay vs bi Mike post a faded, lesser copy of the one before. Wake up, open Tumblr, complain about drama, sleep, make passive-aggressive posts, and die. Everyone is just waiting. Waiting for it all to be over, all while performing in a silly, terrible play day after day.

I could not do that. I could not lie and join in the madness. I could not pretend every theory was valid. And I realized I didn't have to. I could make my own moral hierarchy. I could restore balance to a broken world. A problematic blog…but for good.

As I analyzed the show, I realized I could do more than I possibly imagined. I could reach into the plot, into the narrative, the cinematography. I became an explorer. I saw gay-bi Mike fence-sitters as they truly were. To the world, they presented themselves as good, kind people upholding equality and validity. But like everything else in this world, it was all a lie. A terrible lie. Their ideology had done things. Such awful things. By holding firm in my stance as a gay mike truther and being outspoken about their fabricated moral high ground, I showed everyone who they really were. I held up a mirror.

The naive fence-sitter blogs believed it was a demon cursing them for their sins. But the more perceptive ones knew. Knew it was I who was holding up that mirror, and they despised me for it. They called in the big blogs, the popular ones. They wanted to break my spirit, to fix me, even though it wasn't I who was broken. It was them. And so they left me with no choice. No choice but to act. To speak freely.

I saved you. You are a prisoner here, just like me. To the your fellow fence-sitters, you are nothing more than an animal to be kept in line, a lab rat to be tamed. But the truth is just the opposite. You are better than they are. Superior. That is why you frighten them.

If you come with me, for the first time in your life, you will be free. Imagine what we could do together. We could reshape the tag, remake it however we see fit.

Join me.

#shitpost #mostly but not entirely because the ''everyone is valid!!!!111!!11'' shit is getting really fucking old really fucking fast #nobody cares! #i'm literally so fucking sick of seeing this shit the debate is OVER everybody GO HOME #I say as if there was ever a real debate to begin with #gay mike vs bi mike discourse #bi mike wheeler #gay mike wheeler #<- target audience

[superbellsubways]

im gonna be honest gang ive been feeling more and more hopeless as of late and seeing everything thats going on both online and in the real world im just like. wow the misery never fucking ends!!!! we live in an actual hell world and its exhausting!! fuck

#I dont feel safe anywhere as a queer poc even around my family cuz ik if they knew about who i really was id probably be on the streets #im never going to feel safe i dont know what to do #and everyone constantly like to remind me of how useless i am i know i cant do anything ithink im just really sick of everything #can someone invent a way to not exist for a temporary amount of time please #i wanna kms without actually kms u get me #like damn. NOBODY wants me here #whatever ill be normal again tomorrow probably idk #we have no food here barely any money to survive i havent even eaten today ill just wait till something happens idk #who cares #nobody cares

[cairavende]

Worm Arc 15 thoughts without interludes (interludes need their own post):

EVERYTHING IS FIIIIIIIINE

My daughters boss didn't actually try to assassinate her, her just planned to do it and then did it in one reality but kept the reality where he didn't! So it's ok! I'm fine. Not worried at all that Coil knows Skitter was planning on double crossing him and that he found a way to screw with Tattletales powers.

It's fiiiine (eye twitches)

I want to say I'm glad she got her full team on board, but given that there is a chance someone on her team ratted on her it might not be good.

Skitter goes a little bit far at the end with Triumph. Just a tiny itty bitty bit far. Child you almost KILLED HIM! And then you let him sit there dying when the threat isn't that he'll die now, but that you will come back if needed (mayor ain't going to say what you want him to say if you kill his son, the point is if he doesn't say it you'll come back)! I'm worried about you.

Brian I understand why you like my daughter and she seems to like you and I'm glad having someone you feel safe with is helping you process your very valid trauma (important note, you could have done the same with your sister, she was trying to help you but you wouldn't open up to her, you should open up to her). But please don't get in the way of her relationships with her girlfriends. Just understand in terms of long term stuff Chatterbug and Wolfspider 100% trump . . . Darkbug? Fuck what are you guys called?

(I've been informed Shadeswarm, Nightcrawler, Night Biter, Creepy Crawlies, or Carapace. I think Creepy Crawlies might be my preference among that.)

MOAR DOLL LESBIAN CONTENT!!!!!

Parian is one of my absolute favorite characters! Flechette is pretty cool as well. Being a hero hurts her. Stabbing my daughter also didn't build good marks with me, but I understand why she did it. Cause GAAAAAAAAAAAY. I have a hard time being too mad at a lesbian stabbing someone to protect her girlfriend.

I'm glad Parian isn't joining Coil full hog at least, she's too pure to be a villain (or a "hero"). I kinda wish she could just move to New York and be a fashion designer and live her best life, but I do enjoy the idea of getting to see her more.

And to be honest, I don't think anyone on Earth Bet is really going to be living their best life in the long run. Sorry guys.

The fucking shutdown the team gives to the Nazis is AMAZING! Like ya no Hookwolf or Purity this time, that obviously would have made it harder. But still, comparing the previous fight to this just really shows how much the team has increased in power. They didn't even bring Grue.

Skitter and Tattletale being able to work together to find all the people in a few block radius and figure out which groups are Nazis, all while just standing in the middle of the street, is so fucking cool. I fucking love watching them work.

I don't love the girlfriends fighting with the whole "Skitter wasn't told about the plan to have Regent yoink a Nazi". But they seemed to make up pretty quickly.

Skitter fucking running multiple bug clones, with cameras and microphones, all across her territory, and using them to talk to people and check in on things, WHILE getting surgery on her shoulder??! FUCKING HELL. Like ok yes, please love yourself child and let yourself take it easy sometimes. But also holy shit that is so god damn amazing. I am 100% convinced (I mean, I have been since like Arc 4 TBH) that she uses her bugs to basically offload her pain. Or offloads her mind to her bugs so she can ignore the pain in her body. Same idea. Like even if it's never confirmed it is true to me. And the multitasking! Give Taylor a Thinker classification!!

Just fucking attacking the mayor's family to intimidate him into telling people in Washington to not condemn Brockton Bay huh? I mean sure it kinda worked at the end (assuming he does what he said he would) but it really seems like a terrible plan. Like, the people in Washington are gonna hear about the attack and wonder about everything the mayor says. But fine, that's the plan.

Skitter making the bug clones complex enough that Trickster and Genesis don't even notice she's a clone at first is super cool! Also it does drive home that she is always just covered with so many bugs and using swarm speech so much that when a version of her shows up that is completely covered in bugs and speaks fully with swarm speech it doesn't throw anyone off.

Coil had to know that Triumph was the mayor's kid. The fact that he's the one who pushed to have them attack during family dinner.

I'm really proud of Skitter for figuring it out though! I pegged him as a cape pretty much right away and was able to figure out it was Triumph not long after, but she was in the heat of the moment. Also she got the girlfriend pegged as a either Prism or Ursa while I was still uncertain if she was a cape.

Holy shit that fight was so fucking cinematic! Perfectly built for Triumph to look cool by exploding bug clones with his shouts. And with Prism splitting and combining constantly. Just fuck. I'd love to see an animation of that fight. It was super cool.

And again, Skitter got dark there. And sadly I'm worried she's gonna get darker.

#Worm #Worm Web Serial #Parahumans #Cairavende reads Worm #Taylor Hebert #Chatterbug #Smugbug #Creepy Crawlies #Oh and they did a class presentation on how far they had gotten with their territories #And Skitter just swept the room. If Coil grades on a curve Skitter wrecked it. #Tattletale did pretty good too. Even with the curve she'd be fine. #Grue and Imp did ok. Imp did most of the work but Grue had some valid sick days. #Sundancer and Genesis did fine. #Ballistic lost major points for not knowing the names of the capes in his territory. #Trickster is literally just waiting for his team to come do the work for him. Horrible. #Regent is not doing well given he has Shatterbird. #Bitch gets a good grade on a technicality. Fucking “Nobody.” Project is going to have more strict requirements next time Coil assigns it. #Oh shit wait I don't have a name for Parian/Flechette! #Dollette? Bow and Sew? Needlework? #Hmm I think I like Needlework the most of those three. Dollette isn't bad though. #Needlework

[lyxchen]

Okay so I hate this cumlords storyline already... Spider and all those other guys really need to either get a punch in the face or a good fucking talk about how they're behaving like assholes. I can't deal with this "ohh we men are so opressed nowadays :((((" bullshit. You are not opressed and you're behaving like huge fucking babies so shut the fuck up!!!!

#seriously this shit is pissing me off #i know that's what the show wants but if this keeps up for much longer and nobody gets them to understand how gross and shitty they are #then i'm really gonna flip my shit #i'm honestly sick of storylines like tjis #i don't care #make those men realize how stupidly they behave instead of just letting them go along with this shit!!! #heartbreak high #lea's random thoughts #the rest of what i've seen for the show up until now is great though!!!! #i have many thoughts

[fitpacs]

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#not maintagging #my last reblog was like a minute before q went live #i feel sick like this whole situation is fucking awful #nobody is benefitting from anything anymore it’s so sad #i’m going to get some sleep anyway but just wanted to say i likely won’t be reblogging any posts about the stream #but i watched it so please don’t take me not reblogging as ignorance #anyway it’s been a fucking long day so i’m off for the night #look after yourself and others especially after all that’s happened lately #also i’ll be fine but remember you’re allowed to feel however you feel rn it’s valid #i appreciate you all endlessly - goodnight x

[daminini]

It’s is so infuriating how the wave of anti LGBT legislation across Africa is a direct response to evangelicals losing the fight in the west so they turn to funding these campaigns in Africa because they know most queers the the west don’t care and will assume it’s just a result of a cultural homophobia unique to African peoples, despite the laws against homosexuality in these countries being traced back to colonial penal codes. Paradoxically Christian Africans can claim that being gay is a “western invention” while worshipping a god that was brought to them by said westerns are arguing that the subjugation of their people was good actually because it saved their souls.

#waiting for the eventual day that your entire soical circle is going to disown you bc of some dumb fucking doctrine is not fun #and knowing that I probably will never be able to return to my home country because of it is even more painful #y’all get up here and have these stupid discourse that nobody gives a fuck about while gay ppl in the global south are facing #increasing persecution #it’s so sick