#AAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

[trashlie]

I haven't talked Stalkyoo - or even ILY, period - in a LONG while here on tumblr and a lot of it had to do with the funk I was going through, the lack of energy I had and the inability to really gather my thoughts and force myself to be cohesive enough to actually put them down, but like I said, I've felt myself coming alive again, and with that, I've found myself falling back into my comfort zones of picking at ILY and the themes I love, the parallels, the juxtapositions, and yes, all the minute details that make Stalkyoo so special, what it is about them within the constraints of their universe that is so appealing.

We all know I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about the purpose the Shinlyssa flashback serves, especially in serving to illustrate just how deeply Nol has hurt Shinae in doing to her what Alyssa had already done before, and why it's so significant that she is willing to forgive him and let him go at that time. As the story moves on from that night, we know that flashback inserted at that pont serves to help us better understand the things Alyssa doesn't reveal - the implication that she lives in an abusive home, that she is gay, that her desire to be popular is more about filling a psychological unmet need to be loved - as we watch her arc set up for the post-time skip second season.

But crucially, the flashback reinforces that Shinae fell for Nol for the same reason he fell for her: he made her feel special.

Shinae's trauma about her past with Alyssa, head injury aside, was that she didn't understand why. It was that Alyssa was special to her but she felt like Alyssa cast her aside, like the feeling wasn't mutual. Even regarding Rika and Maya, until she finally talked things out, she felt like she was just... there, that she didn't mean anything. Her mother left and took her sister and then what. Never calls, never writes, not even birthday cards or even a postcard??? Of course a child will feel like she was discarded, the unwanted one!

Shinae is so used to feeling like she is replaceable, easy to toss away and forget about, not worth a second thought or glance.

And then comes this earnest, handsome guy SO KEEN on getting under her skin, into her head, earning her friendship, and though it annoys her at first, he grows on her. She starts to VALUE it, his actions. She finds herself missing it when he changes and withdraws, aware of the change but uncertain of exactly what is different. As he pulls away she finds that she's the one doing the chasing now.

He made her feel like she's special. Like she matters. Like there is some kind of great value to her. How could she not fall for the person who made her feel seen when she was so used to blending in and taking up as little space as possible?

The juxtaposition of the Shinlyssa flashback set against Shinae and Nol's feelings finally bubbling to the surface is SO! GOOD!!!! Because Alyssa had such a lasting impact on Shinae! It was a ghost haunting her, following her into high school, clinging to her even when she met Nol. That hurt she carried, that scar she still hides, reminded her over and over how easy it was to discard her, how easy it was to throw her away.

And Nol proved to her (what we know to be true for Alyssa) that it isn't true, that she isn't, in fact, so easy to discard, that she is someone special, that she means something.

To insert the flashback that reinforces why Shinae believed herself so easy to discard on the cusp of Shinae and Nol's feelings for each other finally bubbling to the surface is to reinforce exactly how these two fell for each other in the first place: in the shadows where no one was paying attention, they saw each other, and they cared.

And GOD it's so SO SO beautiful 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭💕

#I Love Yoo #ILY Brainrot #Stalkyoo #Aegi #Shinae Yoo #Nolan Oliver T. Lochlainn #sobs i refuse to shut up about this lmao #it's just!!!!!!! #THE JUXTAPOSITION #!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #the incident that convinced Shinae she's so easily discarded #and the boy who proved she's not #that night would have been so different if only she was #he certainly wouldn't be covered in bandages if only she was so easy to throw away huh #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #and if we wanna get REAL deep into it #would alyssa ever have been so drawn to a boy who had a smile that reminded her of the girl who made things so hard for her? #if Shinae was so easy to throw away Alyssa never would have had that mess EITHER! #AAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH #SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and i HAVE to believe that leaving her wasn't easy for her mom cos any other alternative makes me wanna sob #SHINAE BABE YOU WERE *NEVER* EASY TO THROW AWAY #YOU WERE NEVER EASY TO DISCARD #Alyssa and Nol could bond over this truth #sobs

[daenerys-targaryen]

like!! I think I’ve seen this film before and I didn’t like the ending vs tried to change the ending peter losing wendy. watching a movie or reading a book and thinking “maybe this bad thing won’t happen this time” and it of course still does!! but you know what! to live for the hope of it all! cancel plans just in case you’d call!

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH #leah rambles

[anonymous-john]

soulja boy cover but the verse never starts and his voice just keeps getting higher. aaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

[irenedubrovna]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

#i have a crush

[stinkman007]

THOSE STUPID GOOGLE MEET CALLS MAKE ME SO NERVOUS AKSHKHVKLVJDLKJVLDKHJDMLKJALKHHH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

screaming, crying, throwing up, clawing at the walls, running into doors, kicking down the furniture, grabbing people by thr shoulders and shaking them, absolutley eating shit rn

#going to kms #SOMEBODY HELP ME

[xenodile]

Tsuna’s Bond CE giving me such fucking FOOD

#WE THOUGHT IBARAKI HAD BEEN IN THE COMPANY OF ONI FROM BIRTH BUT THIS?? #HER MOTHER ALSO ADOPTED SHUTEN SO WHO'S TO SAY IBARAKI WASN'T ADOPTED AS WELL? #WHO WAS IBARAKI BEFORE SHE 'DIED' AND BECAME THE BANDIT OF MOUNT OOE? #WHO WAS TSUNA TO HER? #WHO WAS SHE TO TSUNA BEFORE SHE BECAME AN ONI? #DAVID PLAYS FGO #FGO Spoilers #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

[mothnoir]

Calling the SU fandom

Please join me to collectively scream about Change Your Mind

Where: Here

When: RIGHT NOW

#steven universe #change your mind #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH #THE ANIMATION IS SO SMOOTH #AND WHEN THEY PULLED THE SWORD OUT OF THEIR MOUTH

[yserdrel]

Me: I should really work on the developement of my existing characters.

My Brain: How about you make a new one?

Me, an altoholic: Y’know what, that sounds like a really good idea. *slams fists on the table* Sign me up.

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh #brain plz #i have too many ocs #put work into developing other toons #why you gotta be this way #remember Nat #the warden #You should work on taking her out of the dARK #OOC #rp problems

[agalere]

failured said: aiko's eerily quiet, even for herself, fiddling with small bracelet around her wrist, pulling gently at the white beads, and then, "what would you change—" suddenly, breaking silence brashly with hoarse voice, "about your life. if... i-if you could. anything."

He has heard this question before, in different forms, but the answer was always the same. Nothing, because all the choices led me to you. A sappy line taken from countless movies Twelve had forced him to watch. His answer wouldn’t match theirs, he looked at her and answered with honesty.

“As a child I was weak.” A momentary pause as he recalled his younger self. The sadness in his face overwhelming, hatred still just a rosebud but it’ll soon bloom into what stood before her. 

“I should have set that place ablaze earlier. Maybe then this guilt wouldn't be so heavy.” A breath almost painful left Nine, shocked by the sudden confession. Normally composed --- he had rarely shared his past to the unfamiliar, to her.

#failured #(ask) ˢᵃʸᵒⁿᵃʳᵃ #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

[philcollinsenjoyer]

EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP IM NOT JOKING

#rvd rewatch #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH HERE HE COMES MY BEST FRIEND THE MOST SEPCIAL BOY IN THE WORLD EVERYONE CLAP OR IM BLOWING THIS WHOLE #BUILDING UP

[odetolove]

he keeps his hips still inside of you after he cums, face buried in the crook of your neck. he lays down against your body, trying not to move too much while his cock is still buried inside of your cunt. he can feel some of his cum seeping from where you and him meet, fingers trailing down to collect it on his fingers.

open.

he doesn’t ask, he demands. his fingers are slipping into your mouth, just long enough for you to suck the cum off of them. you do make a nice pillow, he must admit. he grips one of your tits, leaning down to take the nipple into his mouth.

xiao

the movement of his hand down between us has me whining- not knowing what hes up to; not until he brings his fingers back up, covered in his cum. it sends a pang of arousal down my tummy with the action- whining out before i do as he says.

when his fingers leave my mouth and he wanders down to my chest, my eyes squeeze shut- already sensitive, his mouth doesn't help. a shaky hand wandering down to press my fingers against his scalp while his tongue laps over my nipple.

thought you were tired.

i wonder out loud airily, trying to keep my hips still, pussy clenching around his soft dick still inside.

#xiao.love #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH??????????????????????????????????? #im shaking so bad why is he so hot and why is he ALLL I WAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNTTTTTTTTT #HE DOESNT ASK HE DEMANDS. OH OK U WANT ME DEAD THEN KDSJFHDKSJFNBKSDFJBSED #favorite.love

[writingagainn]

When your mother catches you on your phone, while you r grounded (sorry this is bad, first time)

#mangle #mom #fnaf #don’t trust her #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

[yume-fanfare]

SCREECH

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH?????????????? #new idol girls? magical girls? #i don't actually care it's cute girls in cute clothes #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i need this so badly #mar's midnight rambles #hworks

[spacedoutwitch]

Art of August Day 26

Corresponding FFM piece: http://fav.me/dcie3ff

I was going to fully shade this piece and make it look all nice, but then my art program started bugging out (and nearly crashed), and I’m too short on time to risk dealing with it...  I might try to polish this tomorrow, if I have time.

#Art of August 2018 #Art of August #Some kinda nonsense #I have my hecking driving test tomorrow and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh

[thewriterowl]

*takes deep breath*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

That liabrian!Luke! He is so cute and adorable! I want to hug and cuddle him, wtf. Who allowed him to be so cute! AAAAHHHHH!!

RIGHT!?!

EVERYONE! GO SCREAM LOVE at @mxxnfish and look at the rest of her stuff! HER LUKE IS INCREDIBLE!! GO WORSHIP!

And he breaking so many laws being that cute. It's why he was "arrested" by Din. Citizen arrest or something....not kidnapping...noooo >.>

#owl inbox

[gakmaurepot]

Time again my heart was swallowed by the heat, As you died a thousand times just barely out of reach.

i’m kinda invested

i’ve wrote something about this but it’s in indonesian only ahah

here’s a little comic, idk, doodles, if anyone can even understand it,, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh i dont know what am i doing

also i hate his suit and her clothing and ikazuchi’s new hair and everything ya theyre pretty but i cantdoiiit..............................

#kamen rider #kamen rider zero one #kamen rider jin #izu #blood #oil... i think #scopophobia #kagerou days #stop me before i make outer science parody with arkzero