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welcometogrouchland · 1 month

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i'm suffering under the curse rn BUT. i am 3 episodes in to The Magnus Protocol and so far my thoughts are that it seems pretty good! on the one hand i should probably do my best to separate tmagp from tma but at the same time, i mean, the only reason i'm listening to tmagp is bc of prior attachment to tma, so it's interesting to me to contrast and compare them (though in all fairness it's been a while since i listened to tma).

the new cases are definitely cool so far in terms of allowing for more formats, i wonder if we're gonna get any future explanation for their eloquent presentation like we did in tma since idk if there's any hints so far at what the whole worldbuilding deal is with that so far in tmagp.

i will say that- do to the different formatting and immediate bigger cast who gets more focus and whatnot- tmagp feels more 'TV' in a certain way. which isn't a pejorative statement and i actually really dislike it when ppl assume something being 'TV' means it's low quality or shallow, lol. tmagp is a good example of something feeling 'TV' but it's a notable difference and is casting my mind back to the discourse/discussion about a tma tv adaptation and what that would look like back when archive 81 got one. i imagine it'd feel a lot more tmagp inspired.

cast is cool so far! i admire alice's actress for being able to pull of the extremely tumblrific dialogue (which i know is on purpose but was also VERY off-putting to me at first- it's the kind of thing that i love when written but spoken aloud in a fictional setting sometimes raises my hairs for some reason). i already love gwen, she's defs gonna be the toxic woman i get attached to and then regret it (assuming i listen to more episodes which i hope i do? i'm not great at it but i do like finishing things, my brain is just pulled into all directions rn if that wasn't already apparent). Colin you're great, i can't wait to watch you break down. Sam you're great too in a way that your personality rn makes me very excited for your potential future corruption arc (obligatory reminder i'm only 3 eps in and just making educated guesses based on what jonny and co did for tma, though i do acknowledge that there's a lot more fingers in the proverbial protocol pie rn)

in general i'm curious about the direction of the show, namely how they're gonna make it tragic in a way that's different to tma? bc i always maintain that the beauty of tma is the slowburn, and how everything happens so slowly that by the time you realise what path we're on, it's too late to stop any of it, and the more you learn about these people and this world, the more you realise it was always going to end like this, even if it didn't have to.

it's a tough feat to pull off and the inherently different structure of tmagp makes me wonder if they're gonna have to pivot what kind of tragedy this is. it's probably apparent right now to anyone who's properly caught up but as for me? i'm curious and cautiously interested. idk if i'm ever really gonna get involved with the fandom like i did with tma (bc that was a mostly great but also wild and formative experience for me and in general i'm bad at being multifandom no matter how much i wish i could be bc it would make my life sooo much easier. but unfortunately the shape of my autism (title of my new movie and/or hit single /j) does not allow for it with any ease. only struggle)

anyway i have an essay on political cinema to write so i really need to close this window lmao. will perhaps consider some kind of liveblog or sequel post to this as my listening progresses

#ramblings of a lunatic #not maintagging bc really only my tma mutuals (who are the real ones btw for sticking with me through my many pivots) r the ones-#-who'd be interested in my thoughts on this potentially lol #in general i was VERY sceptical of rq making a sequel to any of their productions let alone magnus #bc mag just didn't seem like the kind of series that would do well with one #but the spin-off/au angle does a lot of heavy lifting for this i think #like i think the magnus institute mystery would still be interesting- even if it wouldn't hit the same- if mag didn't exist...#...and it was just protocol #ANYWAY i desperatley need to write #if only a hundred words or so lol i do have plany off time (<- devil talking help me)

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faithwilliams1994 · 1 year

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This is a sketch of a story I am writing. You get a sense of the characters

It's written from the female perspective, How a woman really feels when she falls in love As if she is talking directly to a man It's kind of in monolog format. It's going to be a story about a multiple who is a member of the church, Struggling to put the pieces together of a relationship she just became aware of. She is too beyond to play it cool. And it happens to have a line from "A Place to Run" in it

I recorded when I was 17

So I will add that

And the wedding song to this post

Because every story needs a song

Your voice

It makes everything better

Takes away all my fears

And oh how I live with fear

Plagued day and night

Just to hear you talk to me it's all I want

And you can help me make sense of things

Better than anyone else I've ever met

Your emotional intelligence

And I need that

I am a stranger in a world I don't understand

Some humor, sarcasm, the finer points escape me sometimes

And the massive bullying I faced makes it that much worse

No one knew

I lived like that, I was smart enough to make myself appear normal

And just have the policy of never overeacting

It's...exhausting

I'm too tired now to live the charade

When You touched me

I tumbled into a new existence

That I couldn't rectify in my head

Desperatley afraid to hurt anyone

Especially you

Because your heart is so so good

I think anyway

And I want to be good

And I don't understand how to manage this

I don't understand why God would let this happen

It wasn't your fault

My breakdown

There were so many things in play

I'm sorry I wrote that letter blaming you

I just don't quite get what is going on

And yes I was mad that you are amazing and I love every but of you

But anyway part of what happened ilduring that time oeriod, its complicated, but feelings I was numb to for most of my life

Brought to life

And I was already so ill

The part of me that loves deeply

Had attached massively to only you

Being an artist

I feel deeply, and I was shut out of that part of me somewhat

Until you touched me and revealed

That I had massively fallen for you

emotions had turned to you like the laminate forces

Turning in one giant movement to face the Strippling warriors

That kind of a turn

Forget about the fact that I was confused

About your identity in my emails

I do that

Because I can't face things for various reasons

That exist in my complicated life

Walking by night

The Old ways

So yes I was angry

Because I am massively in love with more than one person

And its your fault for existing ;)

You're perfect

You're good at everything

And to up the antie

You have that genetic marker

The giants among men

Prophesied in Edwin Gobles Patriarchal blessing

That from him would come "many mighty men" you look like him

The way your body is composed

Your...hips.

Because I have studied his ancient picture

And to my family anything to do with Edwin Goble is deeply important

So....of course just to throw a wrench in

That says I should pay attention

And Grandpa Ken Goble with his massive hands

Twiddling his massive thumbs

Would talk about how the Gobles had red hair

So of course...just make my universe implode, you're my family, albeit distant

And grow Grey's around your ears too

It makes me almost hate you I love it so much

And no one sings as well as you

No one

It's that male voice I wished existed

The one I would long for every time I heard a male soloist sing

If only they were just less poppy or less pitchy, the timbre just a bit deeper

And you have that utter perfection

So you're crack

One night I blindly walked

Down that forgotten dangerous highway

Just like the broken people of the forest

My boots and dress caked with mud

I just had to walk

I had an unrelated flashback when I left the house

But a lot of the reason that propelled me out the door needing to walk it off

Was massive love that I couldn't manage quite yet

Abandonment fears that stalk a broken person like me every.day

And breathing hard

My heart pounding

The part of fractured me that knows you

Came up

And alone I could finally face it

A powerful love and

being totally alone,

I could allow it to come to the front of me

And I remember stopping in the pitch dark

It was very late and much of the traffic that whizzed by far too close had trickled down to

a massive Florida pickup truck passing here and there

And I could only sing to try and manage

"I can't make you love me if you don't"

My breath in the cold

The ache for your voice talking to me

And I had no idea how it had developed

How did this start?

What did I do?

I don't like feeling that insecure

I feel too deeply to allow it

So now I don't know what I have said....

I push people away

Especially when they are important

I'm afraid I am dark and

I know it's silly being such a nice girl

But I'm afraid I have gone through too much

And I'm twisted

And I will hurt you

And I'm also afraid you will realize with ever more clarity the mess of my existence

And I couldn't possibly go through you not being in my life so don't leave

I mean I could survive...somehow

But anyway

No matter what m, at least I know no one is chasing me

It was just a bad dream

And you secured me and helped me

Get over it

And I am safe.. sort of

Forget about people possibly trying to trigger me

At the dollar store......damnit (ssssh I don't swear, only when i am Princess Leia)

Do you really mean what you say?

Or do I have a life altering crush on someone who will not appreciate me

I hate that

I am good at getting away from that

If that's what this Is

Because no matter how much confidence I have lost as the years have gone by, and no matter how much harship

I'm still ****Goble and when it comes down to it I don't sell myself short unless I have to sacrifice, and I will.sacrifice.for.the.right.causes

And if I am in a fantasy

Well that's nothing new

You could have anything you want

So why me? It's a mystery

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A place to Run

Written by Robert Goble

Recorded by the Robert in my system

In 1994

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popculturebuffet · 3 years

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Prince of Wishful Thinking (Tom Retrospective): Tough Love or The True Monster

Hello all you happy people and welcome back to Prince of Wishful Thinking, what is usually my look at the life and times of Tom Lucitor but since I NEED to cover the season 3 finale as vital part of Tom’s story, we’re taking one last look at the tragic tale of Meteora Butterfly before the finale sends these two stories hurtling together. You’d THINK this would be the last detour of this already sizeable arc.. and you’d be wrong as i’ll also be covering Kelly’s World, as I feel it’s vital for both “Curse of the Blood Moon” and “A Boy and his hard to remember title”, as it provides extra context for Marco’s anguish in the former.. and provides extra evidence for why a CERTAIN MOMENT in the latter pisses me off to no end.. seriously even when as universe dies and the only people left are Frankllin Richards and Galactus, there will still be a little note reading “Fuck how they treated Kelly” written in all caps so Galactus remembers to yell it.

So sadly that DOES mean it’s been three entries in this retrospective in a row that either haven’t feature Tom at all or in the case of the last episode only had him in short cameos. I mean we did get his love affair for pie but we also got a creepy goblin man forcing his girlfriend and best friend to kiss each other, his best friend being WAY to eager to jump to that conclusion, and neither considering using Marco’s Scissors because the writers only remember he has those half the time in Season 3... and clearly I ddn’t either as I forgot to mention that plot hole, something @jess-the-vampire brought up to me. Sadly I DID forget to consult on this when we talked earlier this week , and she’s not online as I write this so I won’t have her insight for this one.

But if you want some Tom content, i’m happy to share my crossover ship for the boy with you. I’ve been shipping him with Octavia from Helluva Boss lately. Because of course it’s Helluva Boss, i’ve not been at all subtle with my obession with it and much like Letterkenny, X-Men and Dragon Ball Z Abriged it is a love I never plan to be subtle about.

But I just think they compliment each other well: They have contrasting atittudes, and tastes in music, but seem like they’d share hobbies. Like taxidermy.. I could see Tom buying this... demonic combination of a badger, a skunk, a deer and my nightmares Octavia is preciously holding up.

Granted I also feel tom would both animate them with their dead souls.. and then use his new woodland friends of the dammned as a chorus to sing “Can You Picture That” from the Muppet Movie, because that’s what my mind does on a regular day. I think the contrasting attitude creates great chemstiry and it made me also realize I have a thing for ships with directly contrasting home lives. Tom has two loving decent parents who deeply love one another and at worst simply didn’t reign in his worse behavior because it was standard for demon stuff. Octavia in contrast simply has two parents, one who DOES love her and tries his best, but his best includes calling his side piece “My big dicked blitzy” right in front of her and hiring said side piece to guard them, and her mother who clearly thinks so little of her daughter’s emotional well being she hired a cowboy to shoot her daddy dead in the middle of a large crowd. The point is I think they’d be adorable and they both badly need to be happy after being emotionally fucked over by people they care about.

But alas my new ship will have to wait as we marginally important things to get down too.. things that will impact both this season and the next’s endgame and utterly destroy Eclipsa and Moon’s relationship for good. Sound fun? Well if so join me under the cut won’t you?

We open in the Pidgeon Kingdom.. and things aren’t exactly great.. and by that I mean Meteora stomped a hole through it and ravaged the place and Rich demands blood.. and vengance.. and possibly blood vengance. But not Tekken Blood Vengance.. he already has like 5 copies of that on dvd. Still needs it on Blu Ray though, hook him up if you got it.

So Moon and Eclipsa are trying to smooth this over/find out which way did she go George which way did she go, and are angrily dismissed after they try Rich’s patience, not helped by Eclipsa not being familiar with the Pidgeon Kingdom because they hadn’t slaughtered everyone who used to live there yet. Look that’s what happened, Star outright mentions in the Big Book of Spells that htey suddenly sprung up where another kingdom was and no one knows what happens. There was some bird murders up in that place.. or birdur if you will. Some birds drank some human blood. This is what Alfred Hitchock tried to warn us about with his film built on horrifying actress abuse.

The point is with some more pidgeon-led murder stabbings on the cards our heroines are trying to find her since their attempts to convince Rich not to go on an Archer Style Rampage fell on deaf ears.

But it’s clear from the second the two are alone both have diffrent priorties: Eclipsa desperatley wants to find the daughter she lost and talk her down from what sh’es become, help her become better and hopefuly heal from the pain she’s been in. She’s lost her husband, her kingdom and centuries. She can’t loose her baby girl too.

Moon on the other hand... clearly has no intrest in helping Meteora or stopping this peacefully. Her first thought is stopping Meteora. Her living through it is not necessary. It’s also clear her racisim isn’t REMOTELY gone depsite Buff Frog and Star’s best attempts and despite learning just how deeply and horribly Mewni’s engrained racism has hurt eclipsa and destoryed Moon’s own family history. To Moon this is just a big monster to fight.. i’ll dive into this more in a bit.

For now our heroines encounter an angry mob. This time their not here for Homer Simpson, but for Meteora as her rampages have destroyd their towns, livelehoods and given some weird guy a hat. It’s the best bit of the episode and i’m embarassed I forgot it happened.

So with them being no help our queens back out but end up finding some actual help: Eddie! You know the guy from the episode I skipped over... River’s cousin or something like that. He dosen’t have a wiki entry, I do not know why. He’s voiced by Rhys Dharby of Flight of the Conchords Fame whose since made quite the career as a voice actor. No major roles yet that i’m aware of, but a lot of delightful minor ones like this. It’s good to see him he was one of the highlights of that show and not just because he sang this..

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Eddie showed up in the Bog Beast of Boggabah and I honestly forgot he was in this episode.. but again, it’s Rhys Dharby. It’s not like suddenly finding out “Aw god dammit Pauly Shore is in this”. So Eddie agrees to help as he’s been tracknig Meteora.. and we find out something troubling: Meteora is getting BIGGER. Gradually, to the point the bog from said episode Is skipped over is drained because she DRANK IT. We also get a great exchange “I’d hate to see the size of her mother” “Actually her father more than helped with that”

Awwwww.... seriously Esme Blanco is a national treasure and has some great deliveries in this one.. and some heartbreaking ones. But before we can get to that it turns out Meteora sucked the powers out of Eddies family.. who he misses..e xcept one guy> That guy can fuck right off. Seriously Eddie is also a national treasure and I wish he’d shown up in season 4. I mean he couldn’t of HURT it. For one it’s Rhys Dharby and for another that season shot itself in the face, both feet, the groin and then the face again enough that I don’t think anything could hurt it as bad as the writers already did.

But sadly we say farwell to Eddie as he goes out how men have since the begining of time.. deciding to poke a strange creature till it murdered him. Or took his soul out in this case, speaking of which...

Yeah while I couldn’t get Jess in time for this review, she did bring this up in the past: Meteora’s ablility to pull a

Comes right the fuck out of nowhere with no build up and no explination for it. She DID drain personalites and according to this episode youth.. but that was with a big ole machine. It MIGHT have been intended to be one of Globgor’s powers.. but that makes zero sense, as if he COULD do that, as we saw with Toffee last season when he had that power, also out of nowhere but at least it made a touch more sense given his power was draining magical energy anyway at the time, so adding souls to that isn’t a huge stretch, but as we saw that would’ve been game over for the comission, especially since we DO see him fighting them one on three next season. If he had this power, he wouldn’t be in crystal and I think they realized that, but just tried to act as if his daugther COULDN’T do that and assumed everyone would casually forget. And I get not accounting for me writing about this years later, even I wouldn’t of thought that, but not counting on fans both young and old to latch onto a continuity error? Have you met fandoms Disney, have you? It dosen’t bring the story down entirely and I get WHY ti’s there, so she can nonlethally kill people so we’re not down most of the cast for Season 4, but it feels like an easy win button and one she barely uses despite it being eye beam activated. It should be easy enough to pull, boom, soul suck, win, rinse and repeat. It’s okay to have uber powerful tequniques but they have to have a drawback. For instance the Kaioken from DBZ. It’s a really damn cool technique that gives the user a neat red aura and amplifies poewr.. but the more you amplify the more strain it puts on your body and the more likely you’ll die, and Super later creatively explained why it hadn’t been used since Super Sayian was introduced because said form would’ve sped it up so much it’d be too much for a body to take. Here whie Meteora dosen’t use it in EVERY fight, she uses it enough that it makes no sense this isn’t just her first move for every fight she gets into, mental breakdown or not.

That being said Meteora’s current mental state as she talks to her mother, having regressed to talking in only a few words and acting like a child, makes perfect sense. Henious already wasn’t in great mental shape to begin with, having a slow sustained breakdown since Marco overthrew her. and now on top of this she remembers her whole life has been a lie, starts to mutate into her natural state at a rapid and likely unehalthy pace, and then finds out on top of all of this Mewni is rightfully owed to her. Given she ended last episode blowing a guy up for rejecting her, it’s not a stretch that given even more power and no time to process anything, Metora would deteroate further.

Esme and Jessica really knock this scene out of the park as Eclipsa presents Metora with her old doll Bobo and gently trying ot talk to her.. but you also get the fear Eclipsa feels as she tries to awkardly manuver around the fact her daughter is far more unhinged than she was prepared for, even threanting Eclipsa simply because Eclipsa wanted to be called mother instead of mommy. But despite this fear.. Eclipsa wants to help and Walter beautifuly captured metoera as a hulk like tragic figure:a being with low sanity and too much power desperate to be loved by the one person it cares about. And it makes it even more heartbreaking as Eclipsa explains what happened: bad people trapped her , a disfunctoinal society with a racist queen and even more racist subjects has taken hold in her absence... and it’s clear both want opposite things: Meteora wants what sh’es owed, her family back on the throne and Mewni back in her graps, but has lost herself so much to rage, anger and insanity she can’t see it’s not hers to take, while Eclipsa.. just wants her daughter back. She’d be happy just settling down with her and having a LIFE after hers was taken away. Eclipsa just wants a chance to be with what family she has left. It just HURTS to know that despite RIGHTFULLY hating the comission, despite having eveyr reason to take the crown from Moon by force and make the world better by force.. she dosen’t want that. She just wants some peace. It’s selfish... but it’s hard not to be when you havealmost nothing to hold onto. Eclipsa has lost her legacy, her husband and her crown... Meteora is all she has and all she wants and sh’ed of been happy if she just accepted that. If that was enough.

But the real telling part, and the thing that ultimately makes this go as bad as it does.. is Moon’s reactions to all of this. Sh’es CONFUSED by Meteora having a toy as if that’s foreign to her a monster would, and she’s cleaerly livid , if restrianing it, at both Meteora’s deire for the crown and Eclipsa RIGHTFULLY calling out the state of how things are, and mildly at that. Despite seeing how much damage Mewni’s inherent racisim has done, how it lead to her living a lie, ruined Eclipss, Globgore and Metora’s lives, despite how DESPERTLY her daughter struggles to fight against it, despite seeing firsthand that Monsters can have famiies and lives... she can’t let it go. She can’t see monsters as people. SHe dosen’t see a flawed person who was turned into a metpohrical monster by years of brainwashing and abuse and is slowly unravling under the weight of her true self.. she just sees a threat to her kingdom. She dosen’t see her kingdom as racist, just as it should be. And she dosen’t see herself as stepping down like hse damn well should’ve the MOMENT she found out everything. Because at her heart Moon can’t accept the truth and clings to her racisim.

And that my friends.. is what ultimately leads to Tragedy. Not Meteora’s unraveling mental state, not Eclipsa’s naitvite. What happens next is ENITRELY Moon’s fault. Whle Eclipsa was failing to get through to Metora, she was trying her best and might of gotten somewhere.. but Moon was already settling to attack.. and does so, making it look like Eclipsa set her own child up.

A fight ensues, a suprisingly even one... but Eclipsa breaks it up and PROVES her way could’ve worked. In one of Esme’s best performances sshe tearfully tells her daughter she loves her.. that ALL she wants is time with her to make up for what she’s lost.. she dosen’t need a kingdom or her crown or her wand, all things she DESERVES... she just wants her daughter. She just wants to help her baby girl before she goes so far down this path of hatred and vengance she’s alreayd well trod upon there is no point to return to.

It gets through to Meteora, makes her stop... and Moon TAKES ADANTAGE OF THAT. She then restrains metoera with a magical rock barrier and starts palpatineing her to death. It’s a horrifying moment that ultimately shows who Moon really is.. that when given the chance to let Meteora go, let her CHANGE and grow as a person and help the kingdom.. she instead tries to kill her. When she’s no longer a threat, hasn’t seriously hurt her in their fight, and could use her power to RESTORE the damage she’s done, fix what she’s broken and help the kingdom grow and mend the bridges racisim has torn down. But all she can see is a monster, and something to destroy.. not someONE to save.

So Eclipsa does what Moon would do if it were star about to die and saves her daughter, desperatly trying to stop mooon.. and allowing Meteora to get a clear shot and take half of moon’s soul. While Eclipsa is able to stop her from taking the full thing, Moon is left disoreinted and half alive and leaves on insticnt to parts unknown while Meteora escapes. Eclipsa is left alone, devistated and with her daughter truly lost. And the worst is truly yet to come.

Before we get into final thoughts i’d like to talk about how this scene impacts Moon’s betryal later. To me having rewatched this scene.. it only makes it work MORE making it clear Moon simply can’t fahtom racial equality and that she can’t fahtom that eclipsa had very good reason for doing what she did ... to me it comes off as her using Eclipsa betryaing her as a very flimsy justifcation to not validate her rule and to first retire and then try a coup. That “Well she “BETRAYED” me so i’m fine. “ But in truth... she betrayed Eclipsa first. She attacked her daughter TWICE when Eclipsa was close to getting through to her Her reasons are flimsy.. because i’ts not ABOUT eclipsa, but what eclipsa represents: equality with a race Moon dosen’t see as people. It’s about Moon’s racisim coloring everything tills h’es truly blinded and should have lost everything She didn’t because the ending is a fucking disgrace, but we might get to that at some point, the point here is for all that disgrace’s faults... it did get it right here, and Moon was always portrayed as being unable to let go of her racisim no matter what it cost her or how much her daughter despteratly tried to change her. Trust me as someone whose Dad used to argue that gay marriage meant he should be able to marry his cat, and who still argues against trans people using the bathroom of their choice, I get trying desperatley to change someone who don’t wanna. “Sigh”.

Final Thoughts: This episode is truly excellent. The writing is top notch as is the voice acting for all involved and the climax isa true, well led up to tragedy. The animation is also on point, with the characters emotions on perfect display. This is an episode I now realize is one of the series best and worth ar ewatch if you haven’ts een it. Truly amazing stuff that gets me pumped for the finale.. and disapoints me in how the series could reach these highs for one finale.. but would sink to it’s lowest point for next seasons. Next Time on Prince of Wishful Thinking: Star tries depseratly to find her mom, while Marco, Tom and a motely crew of misfits try to take down Meteora and Tom learns the awful truth from the photo booth and wears a zuko ponytail which weirdly looks good on him. That boy can rock anything let me tell you.

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struwwelzeter · 4 years

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Seeman Making of Liveblog

I think the first introduction into anything »subculture« was that my best friend in school desperatley wanted to look like the girl in the Seemann video and it started their entire goth ... I wanted to write phase, but it wasn’t a phase, so. I think this must have been around the time Mutter came out and there was MtV masters and everything and they started to play all these old Rammstein videos on ViVA, and we always had a vhs recorder ready start and tape them at their house?! We were like, 12, they had a mad crush on Till and I guess that was one way to get his attention?! I didn’t really get it, I had a crush on Ville Valo 🤷🏻‍♀️

Anyway that is very funny to me, very nostalgic, moving on. I guess the record company was right, marketable enough to turn 12 year olds into people wearing black lipstick and fishnets, I dont know if that was intentional or not but it kinda worked.

Jever is a really great beer, but I digress.

I actually really like the director. I kinda feel I’m getting where he’s going with this and it does make sense to me. I know it’s because for a long time because of the way it was introduced to me this was quintessential Rammstein to me, but I remember seeing this the first time and going - what do you mean you didn’t like this??! 🥺 but ... that is how you look??!!

God the things I would do to be able to be present at that set and witness a collective Rammstein freak out. This is another one of those perfect Fanfi setting things, I wonder why there isn’t anything on it so far?

The absolute devastation in Paul when he says “he just cut off our hair” - I ... he’s actually pouting for gods sake.

I love how Till and Paul individually remember Richard standing out somehow but disagreeing on the reason. I guess that means he did just stand out that day in some way? Maybe he made a fuss? It’s for purely selfish reasons but I just want to witness a Richard control freak meltdown so bad. I completely sympathize, it’s awful, but I just want to know how gets when he’s not controlling/rationalising himself as much as he tends to do in interviews. Plus, perfect excuse to give him a hug (nevermind he’s not gonna want hugs)

Till being like “I liked the outfit” - of course you did you big child. He eems by far the smartest one in all of these, tho. Speaks calmly, remembers everything (or at least pretends he does), lots of clarity.

Schneider doing the “we were young and needed the money” thing kills me. This must be their most hilarious making of surely?!!

God Richard is so pretty.

Richard: *is still kinda pissed* I didn’t under stand it.

Till: *teacher voice* *offers textbook literary analysis on how to understand the video*

Something I love about Flake is how he just does the stuff that they need but everyone else is to embarrassed to do. Especially after reading his books it really feels like he’s so in service of the band? Of course he’s gonna do the job if necessary, why wouldn’t he?! I wonder how many times he had to do the dishes because noone else did poor guy.

The way Paul goes if I could I’d just like to take 4 people because it looks good makes me think of his signature Gibson interview where he goes I just wanted it to look good, i don’t need the knob and my brain just goes NO PAUL YOU CAN’t KICK PEOPLE OUT OF THE BAND TO MAKE IT LOOK GOOD THAT IS NOT HOW LIFE WORKS even tho he never even said that. Little shithead.

See, Schneider is with me. There is alot of stuff in that video that is very Rammstein. They just don’t know what is good for them.

https://youtu.be/fH4cZ_BA27E

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#struwwel liveblogs #rammstein #seemann

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literallyprentissstwin · 5 years

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𝚒'𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞. - 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝟷

request: yes / no

characters: Sonny Carisi x Y/N Y/L/N (female reader tho, i´m sorry.)

others: Lt. Olivia Benson, Det. Amanda Rollins, Det. Fin Tutuola, ADA Rafael Barba, the suspect of the case, mentions of six young women

category: angst, hurt/comfort, crime

warnings: kidnapping, mentions of violence and torture

a/n: this is my first time ever writing for SVU, i hope you´ll take that into consideration while reading. i tried my hardest. the request was writing a story about reader and carisi who is in love with the reader, and last one gets kidnapped and tortured. after that ordeal, the reader stays with carisi and develops PTSD and our lovely detective helps the reader deal with it and confesses his love. this story will be long, so i decided to split it into two parts :) enjoy and leave some feedback :)

“It´s been a little over three hours since we last heard from Y/N and we still don´t know where he has taken her to of if she is still alive.”, Carisi hissed as he quickly got up from his chair at the table and started pacing around.

“Carisi, don´t think like that.”, Amanda tried to comfort her friend, which wasn´t working.

“What else am I supposed to think? This guy already has her for way too long and god only know what things he did to her. He said he´ll be sending videos every hour, but he stopped three hours ago, which can only mean that Y/N is most certainly dead.”, he replied angryly while stopping the pacing.

“We all know Y/N. She´s strong and a fighter. She will not give up nor will she stop fighting.”, Fin said as he got up as well and walked over to the frustrated detective and put a comforting hand on his shoulder. Sonny sighed.

The squad was currently looking for serial rapist and killer, who already killed six young women. They all had Y/H/C hair and Y/E/C eyes, so it was clear from the beginning that Y/N fit way to good into the pattern. They had warned her about those facts, but Y/N, like she always was, stayed calm and played it down, until it was too late and their suspect got his hands on her. All of the squad members, and even Barba, were angry and frustrated; they all worked extra hard to get Y/N back as soon as they could. But it seemed like Carisi was hit harder by Y/N´s kidnapping than the others. Maybe it´s because of the strong friendship the two of them shared. Or maybe there was another reason? Ever sind Y/N disappeared, Sonny wouldn´t stop looking for her; he didn´t sleep, eat or even rest for a little while. He thought he didn´t deserve to do so, when Y/N is out there fighting for her life.

Slowly, Carisi sat down again, rubbing his face with his hands in desperation.

“This is all my fault.”, he whispered.

“Carisi...”, Olivia tried to say, but got interrupted by her detective.

“No, it´s my fault that Y/N has to go through all of this. It´s my fault that he got her.”

“It was Y/N´s choice, Carisi. You warned her about the danger, she took notice of it, but decided against the protective details assigned to her. There is nothing you could have done about it.”, Barba, who had joined the squad in the squadroom a few hours ago, now tried to reason with him.

“I still should have stayed with her. I should have talked to her more about it. I should have protected her, she´s my partner and my best friend. If she doesn´t survive this, then it´s on me. It´s my fault when she dies. I could never forgive myself for it. Heck, I already can´t stand looking at myself in the mirror because I let her go home to her apartment that night alone in first place. I should have brought her home, I should have stayed with her to make sure she´s alright. But I didn´t. I left her all alone, I let her down. That´s not what a good partner should do. So, yes. It is my fault that Y/N is not here with us righ now, Counselor.”, and with that, Carisi stood up yet again and left the room. All of them looked after their friend, knowing nothing they would say right now would help him feel better. He was at war with himself and he needed time to think and realise that there is nothing he could have changed about that night; it would have happened anyway.

“I´ll go talk to him.”, Amanda said nevertheless. She know her friend was hurting and she wanted to be there for him. Liv nodded and gaver her an encouraging smile.

“Wow, I never saw Carisi like this.”, Barba confessed as he took a sip of his coffee.

“Well, Y/N and he are very close.”, Fin said.

“Maybe a little too close? You can´t tell me that they´re only best friends. There´s more to it.”, the ADA replied.

“It doesn´t matter right now. All that matter at the moment is that we´ll find Y/N as soon as possible.”, Liv said before her phone started to ring.

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“Hey, can I come in?”, Rollins asked as she carefully opened the door to the break room, where she finally had found Carisi.

“Sure...”, the detective sighed as he picked at the chocolate bar he just got. Rollins took a seat opposite of him.

“You know that you can´t blame yourself for what happened, right?”, she tried to start a conversation.

“I know, somewhere deep down inside me, but I just can´t help it.”, Sonny replied, finally lifting his gaze to look his friend in the eyes.

“Carisi...”, Amanda tried to continue to talk, but got interrupted by the detective.

“You know what the worst part is? That we do know exactly what he did to his previous victims. We know every single cruel detail. It´s bad, when they take someone you love away from you and you don´t know what happens to them. But it´s even worse when you are aware of what´s going to happen and that there is nothing you can do about it. Yes, I do blame myself, because I should have known better. I should´ve protected her; Y/N´s my partner and as her partner, it´s my duty to take care of her and to protect her. And I failed at it, miserably. She´s my best friend. I can never forgive myself for the mistakes I made that night.”

“You really do love her, don´t you?”, Rollins finally dared to ask although the answer was quite obvious to her.

“With all my heart.”, Sonny admitted truthfully, “I can´t..I-I don´t want to live without her. She keeps me sane in this crazy, cruel world. She´s my light; I just...I-I can´t do this without her.”

Just when Rollins was about to say something, Fin came rushing into the room.

“We´ve got somethings, but we need to move ASAP.”, he said at which both Amanda and Dominick got up, “no, not you, Carisi. Liv wants you to stay behind because you´re too close.”

“You bet, I´m not staying behind. Let´s go.”

Without further questions or comments, the squad left, followed by a SWAT unit. The technical analyst had finally been able to track the IP adress from which their suspect had send the videos to the team. It was an address somewhere in an industrial area. Olivia, Fin, Amanda and Sonny rushed to get to Y/N, praying that it wouldn´t be too late.

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After a 20 minutes long ride, which felt like an eternity, the squad finally arrived at the address and they quickly decided to split up. There was no time for further discussions, so Olivie let Sonny go to the back of the building with Rollins and a few SWAT agents while she and Fin, and another group of SWAT agents, entered the building through the front door. As soon as they got inside the house, they heard suspicious noises coming from the upper level of the house. While Fin and Live went to check on them, Amanda and Carisi went for the basement, leaving the SWAT team with the rest of the house to check out.

Slowly, Liv and Fin climbed up the stairs and carefully walked closer to where the noises were coming from. They came to a stop when they saw their suspect, who goes by the name Peter Turner, right in front of them, hurrying to pack a bag full of clothes and other essentials.

“NYPD! Put your hands up slowly and turn around!”, Olivia warned the man, who stopped dead in his tracks and didn´t move.

“Hey, you son of a bitch. Do what she said.”, Fin said annoyed at which Turner turned around with his hands up, grinning.

“What´s there to laugh about?”, It´s over.”, Fin asked, getting more and more annoyed.

“Oh no, this is far from over. Your beautiful detective, it´ll be never over for her. Do you know that she kept calling for you to come and safe her? She so desperatley wanted you to help her, but you let her down.”, the perp replied.

“Shut up!”, Live yelled, tightening the grip on her gun.

“Where is she? Where is Y/N?”, the Lieutenant asked, carefully stepping closer to the suspect who kept standing still. He began to laugh which made Fin snap. He grabbed Turner and roughly pushed him up against a wall, pointing his gun at him.

“You sick bastard. You´re life is already miserable enough, but I can make sure that it will get even more miserable if you don´t tell us right now where Detective Y/L/N is.”

The man, struggling to get some air into his lungs, still laughed at the duo.

“I´m not telling you anything. Let´s just hope your precious detective is still alive.”

Just when Liv was about to give this man a piece of her mind, she heard Rollins over her ear piece.

“We´ve got her, but we need an ambulance ASAP.”

“Game over.”, Liv said before she turned around to rush downstairs to the rest of her squad while Fin arrested the suspect and handed him over to the SWAT agents before rushing downstairs as well.

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While Liv and Fin were upstairs looking for their suspect, Rollins and Carisi rushed downstairs in search for their colleague.

“Y/N? Y/N? It´s us.”, Sonny said over and over again, hoping that he would eventually get an answer, but it remained silent. They opened every door possible and looked inside every room until there was only one room left. Amanda and Sonny tightened the grip on their guns before Sonny carefully opened the door.

And there she was.

Battered, bruised and barely dressed.

Laying on the ground, facing the wall.

“Y/N...”, Sonny hissed as he put his gun away and rushed towards Y/N, checking for any signs of life.

“We´ve got her, but we need an ambulance ASAP.”, Amanda said into her mic, so Liv and Fin would get the message.

“She´s got a pulse.”, Sonny yelled. Right after that, Rollins joined Sonny´s side. While she was busy making the call, Carisi took off his windbreaker and put it on Y/N´s ice cold body.

“Y/N? Can you hear me? It´s us, Sonny and Amanda.”, he tried again, but got no reaction.

“I´m so, so sorry, Y/N. This is all my fault. Please, wake up. It´s all over now. No one can hurt you now, you´re safe.”, he whispered as he carefully gathered Y/N´s head on his lap, too scared to hurt her even more. Tears gathered inside his eyes. This couldn´t be it, this couldn´t be the end.

“Where are the freaking medics?”, Sonny yelled, looking around angrily.

Just as Amanda was about to ge up to look for them, the medics, alongside Liv and Fin, came rushing into the room.

“You need to step aside, Sir.”, one medic said to Sonny, who refused to leave Y/N´s side.

“Sir, if you don´t move, we can´t help her.”, the medic tried to reason with Carisi.

“But I..:”, the detective was about to say when Fin came over to him and carefully moved him away from Y/N´s unconscious body.

“Come one, Carisis. Let them do their job.”, Fin said to his co-worker as he walked him to the side where Amanda and Liv were standing.

“Did you get him?”, Sonny wanted to know.

“Yes, he´s on his way to the precinct right now.”, Liv said and Carisi was letting out a breath he didn´t even know he was holding. Just when he was about to ask more questions, the medics started to put Y/N on a gurney.

“Is she okay? Will she make it?”, the worried detective asked as he rushed towards the medics.

“Right now, we can´t actually say a lot about her condition. She´s breathing and she´s got a pulse, but her injuries seem to be pretty severe. There might be internal bleeding, but to be sure of this, we need to get her to Mercy´s ASAP.”, the medic answered truthfully and with that, they quickly rushed Y/N out of the house.

“I´m gonna call Barba and let him know where to meet us.”, Rollins said as she walked away from the group to give the ADA a call.

“Alright, let´s get going. CSU is on its way over here. The precinct is sending over a few detectives to investigate the crime scene more. Our job is done here. Let´s head over to the hospital.”, Liv explained to the squad before they hurried out of the house and into the car. A thousand thoughts were running through Carisi´s head. He hoped that they had found her in time, so that Y/N could make it out of there alive. He hoped that everything would be alright.

And for the first time in a long time, he actually and truly prayed.

( a friendly reminder that english is NOT my mother tongue, so i´m very sorry for any mistakes :))

just tagging a few people since i don´t really have a tag list yet

@illegalcerebral @ultrarebelheart @dontshootmespence @svuimagines @svubloods @svu-ncis-criminalminds @svubabes @playbucky @lclb13

(if you don´t want to be tagged, please just let me know. also if you wanna be tagged, tell me!)

#law and order svu imagine #law and order svu reader insert #law and order svu fanfiction #law and order svu fanfics #sonny carisi imagine #sonny carisi x reader #sonny carisi reader insert #sonny carisi fanfiction

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jonsa101 · 5 years

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The GOT Season 8 Trailer; A Revelation of Who These Characters Really Are!

Gif credit @dailylenaheadey

Ok so I’m really happy that I finally have time to write this meta. It’s honestly been such a wonderful hectic two weeks for me. To recap, I got an incredible job where I literally get paid to be a content creator, I got to see Michelle Obama in person, and now the GOT trailer just dropped! It’s like the cherry on top of everything! ❤️

Anyway, since I’ve been a little preoccupied I wasn’t able to flood the tags with my EXTRA AF hype like I usually do when things drop so I thought I would make a meta about some of my quick thoughts on the trailer. So without further ado, let’s get into it!

I know a lot of you were not impressed by this new trailer but for me I thought it was beautiful! The trailer had some of the most gorgeous shots I’ve seen on the show thus far. Some of my favorite shots were Arya running in utter fear, Jon in front of the heart tree, Sansa seeing Dany’s dragons for the first time and even Drogon and Rhaegel flying over the beautiful landscape of the North. Out of all the clips shown the one of Cersei above is BY FAR my favorite. When I saw this shot she literally took my breath away. This one clip is so painstakingly tragic and beautiful all at the same time. It moved me to the point that it almost made me want to switch sides completely and root for my girl to win it all!

Quick side note:

For 👏🏾 the 👏🏾 love 👏🏾 of 👏🏾 all 👏🏾that 👏🏾 is 👏🏾 good 👏🏾 in 👏🏾 the 👏🏾 world 👏🏾 let 👏🏾 Lena 👏🏾 Headey 👏🏾 win 👏🏾 her 👏🏾 Emmy!!

That is all! Moving on, I genuinely think that this scene pretty much embodies everything you need to know about season 8. Let me explain. The trailer we were given was pretty much the opposite of the promotion that we’ve had for the final season. For a worldwide campaign that’s literally hashtaged #ForTheThrone there were practically no hints of any relational/political conflicts to come in this trailer. If anything the trailer in itself is pretty much cut and dry and is seemingly as predictable as they come. (WWs vs Humanity and the “Good Guys” vs Cersei.) But yet the beauty of this trailer is that they put in these hidden gems such as this Cersei scene above that really makes you reevaluate the TYPE OF STORY they are trying to tell. It’s wonderfully deceptive but the gems are there!

To me, I clearly see a running theme of these characters facing the reality of who they are and what truly matters to them. The Cersei scene above completely embodies that. Is that not the face of a women realizing the depth of her loss, pain, and loneliness and what it’s made her become? You can see this same theme running in Arya, Jaimie and Missandei and Grey Worm’s clips as well.

Arya’s inner struggle of being No One or returning to the core of who she was. Jaimie on the path of redemption desperatley trying to restore his name. Missandei and Greyworm dedicated to Daenerys but clearly devoted to each other above all else. These are just a handful of the clips where this theme is present.

What’s extremely noteable is that as we get a hint into some of the revelation/journeys these other characters will make/face we are completely shut out from some of the most important characters journeys this season. Except for some close up shots of Jon, Dany, Tyrion and Sansa’s facial expressions we really have no indication of their inner struggles, what really matters to them and who they are and that means a lot!!!!!!!!!!

We get no clue about their emotional or political journeys other than what the story has led us to believe and expect! This is so so so HUGE!! I can’t emphasize that enough and this means that without a doubt there are MAJOR TWISTS TO COME!! At the end of the day, this is a story that is absolutely about family, and the emotional and political relationships these characters have to face!

So with that I end with this. For those of you who are fretting, I promise you the basic story that you fear is not happening!! It’s not! No matter what you read. Trust the narrative. Note the absence of a semblance of a hint of your fave characters upcoming journeys. All of this is purposeful! All of this is done with great intention to hide the storylines that will effectively change everything we thought and believed about the final season of Game of Thrones.

#jonsa #game of thrones #sansa stark #jon snow #got s8 #cersei lannister #jonsa meta #got meta #My thoughts

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