anyone else get put on the pill basically immediately after they got their period, then were off it while chronically depressed and cycling through antidepressants, then had a hormonal IUD for 8 years?
My IUD finally wore off a while ago and it's been so weird since.. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Like some weird emotional stuff but also sexually...
Like. Is this just being a woman and hitting my sexual stride approaching my 30s? Or did I inadvertently like dampen or block off access to my sexuality for 14 years...
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bpd is super cool and fun bc if i am attached to someone and they like someone else more than me, i either:
resent the person i have never met (bc they're better than me)
resent the person i am attached to (bc they don't like me more)
OR
resent myself (for not being good enough)
and it usually happens bc the other person has a fucking romantic interest in the person they "like more". fam i do not even want that with you why am i acting like it's a competition
it also happens with best friends though. like. why does my little pea brain think i need to be the ~best friend~ of everyone i latch onto like a parasitic worm. that's too many people i can't be a best friend every time
and on one memorable occasion, i felt it about a FUCKING CAT, which is all new levels of pathetic (me and the cat became friends though)
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Rendered inert by the crushing of fear of doing things with mediocre skills rather than with precise perfection and efficiency -> Rendered inert hesitant by the realization that I am being Very Visibly Autistic by doing things with precise perfection and efficiency -> just accepting that everyone is looking at me and thinking "oh my god, I didn't know we had THAT kind of weirdo in our community. We need to make that kind of person illegal" which *isn't true* but it's way easier to cope with, than trying to to convince myself that most people are neutral and busy being the protagonist of their own lives and not thinking about writing a memoir titled "This Fucker Is Ruining My Life By Existing Near Me: Plotting Their Demise"
Haha sorry that was just gonna be silly and lighthearted but i lost my way and ended up in Brain Troubles Land <3
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Sometimes I wonder if Madaras dad made it known to the clan that he befriended a Senju or if it was kept a secret. I feel like his dad was smart enough to keep it under wraps, but in Izuna's eyes, he came to see his brothers friend prepare to ambush him. Of course he wouldn't trust the Senjus.
Also can we assume it was the same situation where Izuna was asked to spy on Madara down by the river? The Uchihas seem closer and more respectful of each other as family based on how they address each other, and how Madara's dad asked for his opinion whether or not they could win the fight.
hmm .. i never thought abt this before tbh but i agree. i'd think that tajima and izuna probably kept that between themselves. and w izuna's distrust of the senju, i agree w that as well, its understandable from his perspective to distrust them. to an extent i would think that its probably just the default of how everyone in the clans thought about members of the others cuz u spend ur entire life thinking of them as the enemy. so its difficult to come to see them as anything else. but i also think that izuna might have been extra protective of madara cuz he saw that there's a connection between him and hashirama and couldnt relate to what madara saw in him.
the fact that madara and hashirama decided to trust each other at all was pretty exceptional and probably heavily influenced by their fate-connection, i'd think. cuz as far as we know. this was the first time for smth like this to happen. maybe thats also why madara couldnt really explain to izuna why he's tempted to give in to him and trust him. cuz in the end its just a feeling and he doesnt have all that much to back that feeling up. whereas for izuna it probably just looks like they just met each other a few times as kids and hashirama was a nice kid but that doesnt mean he's trustworthy as an adult. similar to how tobirama didnt trust madara either even after konoha's founding.
maybe izuna also thought that hashirama's peace offerings werent rly genuine either and more of a means to oppress the uchiha or force them into some type of agreement where theyre made to submit to the senju. instead of an alliance on equal grounds (which is kind of :/ cuz like .. thats pretty much exactly what ended up happening later on).
and abt the inner-family dynamics in the uchiha clan. im not sure what to think abt whether/or how they differed from those of the senju tbh cuz we only have that one snippet that u've mentioned. but obviously someone found out abt it. and madara surely didnt give out that info on his own. so its likely i think that he was spied on by someone as well.
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