#I mean I'll get used to it eventually

[lovvecherrymotion]

i guess i just need to talk it all out and try to make some sense of it. the GazettE are one of the most important bands in my life. they've brought me so many friends and so much happiness over the years. i was just 13 when i started listening to them and now i'm 27. they were such a huge part of my teenage years. they literally kept me going at some points of my life. their music saved my life.

i've always thought i'd get a chance to see them live one day - one of my biggest dreams was to experience flith in the beauty live at least once. and now i probably will never. and if i do, it won't be the same.

i can't believe reita is gone. just like that. he's gone. it feels like an old friend just passed away - someone i hadn't spoken to in years, but still thought of fondly. he was such a wonderful, talented human. i can't believe he's gone.

#i'm sorry i will eventually process this it's just #i'm just at a loss for words really #so many old friends have been talking about this and we're all just trying to make sense of it #i wasn't even active in the fandom anymore not really #and i mostly listen to their old albums at this point #but it's still hitting me hard #please if you have a chance go to shows and buy merch and show the artists you love them while you can #i mean i've always tried (as a foreign fan) to show my love to the band but it wasn't always easy #now i'll never get another chance to do so #oh reita 💔 #thank you for sharing your music and your talent with us for so long it was an honor #reita #the GazettE #personal

[cerise-on-top]

Hi love bug! It’s me for the 4766463 time😝 can I request a farah with reader who it vary vary forgiving like no matter what someone does to them they are quick to forgive which often gets them hurt 🫶🏻🫶🏻

(Sorry if this doesn’t make sense btw😭😭)

Welcome back! Sure you can, I hope what I wrote is alright! She definitely won't be gentle with you forever on this one, though, since you do need to learn to take care of yourself as well!

Farah with a Forgiving!Reader

Depending on how someone has wronged you, Farah might get very pissed about you being very forgiving. You’re a goddamn treasure, act like it. If it’s just something small, such as someone simply bumping into you, then she won’t get mad, it can happen to anyone. If someone had to postpone your meeting because something came in between, then she won’t get mad either. But if someone seriously hurts you, then she’ll be pissed about it to no end. She’s not afraid to snap at the person hurting you, she’ll give them a piece of her mind in a very vulgar and honest way. You deserve far better than that. You’re lovely, you really shouldn’t be treated like trash. But Farah definitely won’t stand by idly as you’re being walked all over for no other reason than you being too forgiving. She’ll pull you aside and give you a piece of her mind as well. Although it may seem harsh since she won’t be sugarcoating her words this time, she means well. Realize your worth, she already has a long time ago. If she has to intervene between you and someone taking advantage of your forgiving nature, then she will, but she won’t let it slide forever. She will make you be vengeful eventually, even if it goes against your nature. Farah will convince you that you don’t have to be nice to everyone around you all the time, you really won’t get too far in life like that. That’s something she had to learn the hard way, and she’ll teach you such in a slightly more gentle way than how she had to learn it. People will compensate you for causing you trouble. While she may seem relentless about it, which she is, she just wants you to not be a doormat for everyone. Because even if you lie down on the ground for people to walk all over you, they’ll still complain that you’re not flat enough. You will hold grudges, you won’t forgive as quickly at some point, she’ll make sure of that, because not forgiving some people is a form of self care in and of itself. You’ll come to realize that eventually. But until you get there, Farah will be there for you and speak up for you if you need it.

#cod #cod x reader #farah karim #farah karim x reader #I'm also a very forgiving person but I'm really working on that one since I hate people taking advantage of me #it's been working out well for me and I've become more confident since #it's still a long ways ahead but I'll get there eventually #being forgiving is nice sometimes but it won't get you everywhere I learned that the hard way unfortunately #while Farah would be supportive of you still she won't let you be this way forever #it would annoy her to no end that you keep getting hurt and she will prevent that from happening to the best of her ability #however you do need to work on yourself as well. she can't do all the work on this one #but she will do what she can to have you be less forgiving. one day you will only forgive the people who deserve it and no one else #one day you will realize that you deserve better. that's her goal #she knows getting there is rough but she'll help you along the way. you will get there #either on your own or with her. but you mean too much to her to just be used to like that

[keepthetension]

so i straight up thought one of the big issues that led to the break up was day being upset that mhok gave up a work opportunity "because of day" and day just couldn't let go of the worry that it would happen again. but now… mhok is giving up a work opportunity because of day? and that's okay?? i am SO confused

#last twilight the series #HONESTLY thought day was upset mhok was giving up good things in his life just to stay with him but like was that simply not a factor #or is it okay for mhok to give up a good thing in his life now because it's what day wants him to do? #i mean i assume mhok isn't flying back to hawaii because he wants to stay with day. we're never actually told WHY he's not going #or DID he go back to hawaii eventually? he just didn't take that specific flight???? #and like. why though. because day LITERALLY just told him no again? so why did he come back?? did night or porjai manage to contact him?? #and mhok's just such a dramatic bitch he was like cool cool i'll go back to the wedding venue and wait there so we can have a little dance #but you guys go ahead and run around the airport until i'm ready #lmao like what even #also does “i've worked in the US” cancel out “i've been in jail” because he just. gets a job no problemo lol

[skania]

Do you think there's toxic trait in aquakane's relationship? I keep seeing people saying that they are toxic and unhealthy for each other...

Honestly...? I guess it depends on people's takes on what constitutes a toxic relationship, but when I see Aqua and Akane, I see two people genuinely trying to do right by each other to the best of their capabilities.

Aqua is a broken man reborn into a broken teenager, he is toxic to himself because he thinks he doesn't deserve happiness and he closes himself off, hiding his true self behind a veil of lies. Akane is a brilliant girl who quite literally thought acting was the only thing she was good at. She is much better off than Aqua in the mental-health department by now, but she is painfully unaware of her own worth; a clear example of this is the way she is willing to let herself be "used" by Aqua as long as the choice is hers.

These personal issues have consequences, of course. Aqua does lie and manipulate those around him—but he never manages to do this to Akane. Whenever he thinks he is hiding something, Akane figures it out and plays along not because he has manipulated her into it, but by choice. The one exception was the GPS tracker, but Aqua set this up at a time when his intentions towards Akane were less than pure. It doesn't define their relationship. At the contrary, it shows what their relationship could have been like, because the contrast Aka draws is very clear: Aqua originally meant for the GPS to allow him to use Akane as a tool, but in reality it allows him to save Akane's life.

Meanwhile, Akane is good at drawing boundaries when she considers that they need to be drawn (telling Aqua that he needs to decide for himself and that they can't be codependent on each other, pointing out how wrong it was to place a GPS on her and that their relationship was supposed to be one between equals), but she isn't very good at putting herself first, so some of her boundaries are kind of there more for Aqua's sake than her own. Akane was willing to go meet Kamiki, without hesitation, if it meant ensuring Aqua's happiness; she knew she could be in danger, but protecting Aqua mattered more to her than her own safety.

And I think that's when their issue lies, actually. Because I don't think Akane stopped to think that if something were to happen to her, Aqua would break. Likewise, Aqua cut ties with Akane to keep her safe, but he didn't stop to think that Akane won't be able to be happy if he sacrifices himself for his revenge.

They're both self-sacrificial people to a fault. They both underestimate just how much they matter to each other—and to those around them, for that matter.

So yeah, personally I can't bring myself to see their relationship in and of itself as toxic. It had the ingredients to be toxic, but when they were together, they genuinely supported each other, listened to each other, comforted each other and made each other happy.

Now, if people want a perfectly healthy, well-adjusted relationship, Aqua needs to both, come to terms with his trauma and get his revenge out of his system. It'd also be nice if Akane realizes that she can't set herself on fire to keep other people warm.

But these are issues that Aqua would have with anyone, actually. If anything, Akane being able to read him so well is what circumvented Aqua's penchant for lying and being manipulative. Lol.

#aquakane #aqua hoshino #akane kurokawa #aquaka #onk asks convos #my aquakane meta #this reminds me that I've been meaning to talk about how integral choices are to their relationship #I've gotten distracted by other fandoms but I'll get to this eventually lmao #none of what I said is why people usually call them toxic btw #people really act like aqua and akane's relationship started on the chapter where he said he would use her #and magically ended with the gps ordeal without anything else happening in between #they disregard their entire development even though we literally have aqua monologuing about how much akane has saved him

[sandstworm]

casually posts after months

#i still am an artist i swear #also sorry i didn't even say i was gonna be on hiatus #i really just went like: *POOF* I'M GONE- #my bad ashggdhs #but to make long story short: i finally got a job :'D #though it sadly means i barely have free time from monday to friday #but i can at least get some sketches done every now and then #anyways! this is from february; it was for valentine's day asjgds #villainous #black hat #demencia #sandyst arts #i'll use this tag from now on; may add it in older posts eventually

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Hm... I haven't listened to the teen talk yet but I heard what Will had to say regarding the Sparrow-Normal situation and... Hm... I was apprehensive about this teen talk for exactly this reason so I suppose said apprehension was well-placed lol. I have thoughts aplenty (much of which is more on the meta end of things tbh) but frankly I haven't had the energy to write anything on the larger scale regarding the show for a while... Hm, maybe eventually. I guess this is mostly just a vent post lol.

#will I tag this no I will not #will I leave reblogs on... yes I will #Actually a million thoughts but zero willpower lol but eventually... eventually... #I just needed to vent haha #I have a lot of issues with how both Normal and Sparrow's arcs were set up and handled #Which I mean those of you who have read some of my more meta posts already know some of that #:0 I have a specific anon I still need to answer who was venting a bit about how Will treats his NPCs #And god I have so many thoughts on that #So I'll probably use that as a springboard for related affairs when I get to it lol #ANYWAYS #what a nothing post but I needed to get anything off of my chest lol

[ff2-soda-pop]

do you ever just dedicate an entire canvas to practicing how to draw one single character and Nothing Else-

#'why didnt you post this on your art blog-' didnt feel like it :D dfghgf #pokemon mystery dungeon #pokemon super mystery dungeon #psmd #pmd #pmd4 #super mystery dungeon #nuzleaf #nuzleaf psmd #nuzleaf pmd #my art #idk why im tagging this like this Is my art blog but. shhhhhh - my tumblr i can tag how i want FDGHGFD #also. ignore if some of this doesnt look the same on each drawing?? im still trying to figure nuzleaf out and so some things arent going to #be super consistent until i figure it out??? (rn its mostly the eyes and the leaf that im struggling at doing consistently? idk why??) #(i think it might be because how im doing the eyes is different from how im used to doing them and so its just throwing me off a bit? #and the leaf is um. well its a giant leaf and it confuses me DSFGFD) #drawing pokemon is. confusing. but its ok!!! i'll figure it out Eventually!!!! #also i need everyone to know that the ones labelled as 'referenced' basically just means i was checking my reference images every five #seconds and trying to get it as accurate as i could while still fitting in my own artstyle. and the other ones like... i had reference #images i just also Cared Less about if it wasnt as accurate or whatever and wasnt glancing at the refs every few seconds dsfghfd

[silenthillbunni]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk..... #rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right? #i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

[stardestroyer81]

Mega Man 10 features a triad of playable characters— Mega Man, Proto Man, and Bass. Unlike the former two, Mega Man 10 was Bass's first 8-Bit outing (Not counting his very minor cameo in Mega Man 9), and his faux NES sprite is... off. It's not a bad sprite by any means, but his color palette and posture being much too close to Rock's never quite sat right with me.

But what would Bass look like in my spriting style? Well... here's your answer! ✨

#Star's Art #Mega Man #Rockman #Bass #Forte #Sprite Art #Coolness #I've had a Bass sprite sitting around for a long while now— since about 2019 I believe #I've been meaning to post it for just as long but I knew I could do a smidge bit better than my first iteration of the sprite #So I made a few alterations to his posture and height and it was much closer to my liking! #I realize I could have saved a color by making Bass's armor a solid black rather than the usual deep grey #Though seeing as I went into this with the 'Mega Man Ultimate' spriting style in mind... six colors isn't too crazy #I mean. Just look at Amazon Man. His sprite uses six colors! #Even now I think that the above sprite of Bass that I drew is amidst one of my best character sprites #It feels a lot like a demake of his appearance in Mega Man 8 in particular wherein he has SO many good sprites #This does in fact mean that I'll eventually get around to respriting the rest of Mega Man's main cast in my style #I have preliminary drafts of just about everyone already drawn. All that's left is to touch 'em up!

[xoshepard]

realizing that the max capacity of my social battery is reduced bc i live w people now so forgive me if im less responsive than usual

#i mean even less reaponsive #i know im not great with responding in a timely manner to begin with #hopefully i'll get used to being around people eventually and i can go back to normal levels of introversion fhsjdh #tirah talks

[meme-streets]

hey lol

#sorry this is so short btw i'll post something more substantial eventually. but i wanted to get this out there #mean streets #fanfic #harry's writing #<- oh god i guess we are using that tag on this blog huh

[elibeeline]

Sibling keeps reassuring me that its definitely good. I need it to definitely be good i swear to gods

#i will be obsessing over this until 6pm friday (at which i'll be told what It is) #theyre not saying 'probably' or 'its good to mum' or 'itll be good for us' or 'itll be good eventually'. it will be good. #it will be good it will be good it will be good #(last time my mother had good news that required this sort of commotion it was the 3 hour moving house and our dad went apeshit) #(so forgive me for being a little apprehensive i promise its explained in my lore lmfao I NEED IT TO BE GOOD) #(AND EVERYONE WILL HEAR ABOUT IT IF ITS NOT) #its not moving house again and its not someone dying and its not someone moving in and its not someone suddenly getting a new job #it could be a fancy holiday. its related to my mum's inheritance finally coming in so it requires Money. either pet or holiday or caravan #pet or holiday or caravan. pet holiday caravan. pet holiday caravan. pet holiday caravan. pet holiday caravan. #and holiday and caravan are bittersweet bc i haven't had a good holiday in all my memorable years aside from cornwall #and caravan means. moving out. which is huge and scary and requires a lot of thinking and financial decisions and i cant really handle that

[mechsbrackets]

look man the captain matheas anon is right. Matheas propaganda time! the captain just deserves a spot in this poll okay? the air is growing stale. you get locked in a pod forever to the sound of people you know and were friends with killing themselves to try to get to you, and when you wake up you get shot immediately! going to sleep and waking up with a gunshot. something about circles and entropy.

Circles and entropy are a great Gender

#the mechanisms #the mechs #propaganda #dear god why am i so bad at spelling that word #i'll get there eventually! #in the mean time spellcheck is v useful #v good Captain Matthias propaganda #I SPELLED IT RIGHT FIRST TRY YAY! #i continue to put barely relevant things in the tags of propaganda asks

[tvrningout]

#gonna make one for my secondary muses as well #and basically i'm gonna use these as a guide for posting opens #everyone's gonna get open starters eventually but i got a bad habit of posting opens for mainly chiyo :' ) #i mean she's the main muse so that's fair but y'know #others need some love and i wanna know where to focus first #especially with my secondary muses bc it's very easy to be completely wrapped up in my primary kiddos #get ready to ramble | ooc #btw this is also me telling you to reply to my opens bc i'll kiss your sweet lil face if you do uvu

[dapg-otmebytheballs]

hmm i think i might be depressed

#i mean the bipolar will eventually take us downwards idk how it always takes me a while to notice #I'll be like 'so much is happening but nothing makes me happy i can't get anything done what's wrong with me:(' #babe you know exactly what is wrong with you XD #maybe i should designate myself a Fun Day where I genuinely schedule Fun Activities that I've been putting off #and then I'll feel better

[little-paper-man]

My Adventures so far with AC:B

Assassin's creed Brotherhood, direct sequel to AC2, picking up right where AC2 left off because that's The Logical Thing To DO After A Cliffhanger:

*Expects me to be familiar with Everything*

Me, in 2023, not having touched an assassin's creed game since Black Flag first came out, abSOLUTELY rusty as hell with no memory of the controls:

HELP ME UNCLE MARIO. 👁️👄👁️

~later~

Okey made it to Rome :) it's all good! just got to walk and follow this one dude AND I've figured out some of the controls! :D Including how to Fast Walk (tm) WATCH THIS!

*was in a crowd and Ezio instead starts rapid-fire stealing from everyone*

Me:

#It has certainly been a stressful relearning experience so far =u=;; #funny #but stressful #it also blatantly smacked me in the face that I have NOT played ANY mission based game in a horrendous amount of time #I've been more into exploration and do whatever at your own pace sort of games #like Journey Hollow Knight Minecraft Stardew Valley The Long Dark just to name a few #so AC:B is like a bucket of ice cold water being dump on me #I'll get used to eventually but in the mean time: Pain #hello void i have words #assassin's creed #assassin's creed brotherhood #ac:b