#I’m literally always making fun of him

[mooseonahunt]

you talk a lot about leon for someone who hates him

You’re saying this like I say good things about him when I bring him up. Tell me, do you get tunnel vision and only zero in on his name, completely disregarding everything else that accompanies it? Can you read, or have you only memorised the spelling of his name so you can point it out?

Also, it’s kind of hard to talk about Serennedy without bringing him up?? What am I supposed to say?? Luis and That Guy? Oh man I sure do love that ship with Luis and [REDACTED]. Really digging the chemistry between Luis and Some Dude.

#I’m literally always making fun of him #is that not hater behaviour #do you want me to spit on him or something #my most popular post regarding him is me making fun of the way he says Don Quixote what is happening #would you rather I stop talking about him altogether cuz that's gonna be tough when I wanna talk about serennedy #he's kind of important to the ship y'know #moose answers #L**n S. K*nn*d* #moose posting

[kinokoshoujoart]

the sos awl development team really looked at rock and said “even if we could fix him (we can’t) he would never agree to it, carry on king”

#and i’m eternally grateful they responded this way #my odd worldview king has every possible brain disease and disorder and he’s perfect just the way he is #cora clownposting content #sos awl #multiple interviews stress that rock was left unchanged because he was always a fucking weirdo and will remain so eternally #i also love that they use the same logic i do. sorry couldn’t redesign him he wouldn’t let us. sorry rock insisted on being drawn this way #what? just change his personality? sorry our hands are tied because he would not fucking say we can rewrite him #explains why his risqué first heart event dialogue was left entirely unchanged in the jp yet maya can’t call him a nanpa anymore #english localization toned it down this time. natume used literal translations and some roughly equivalent english double entendres #sometimes just ignored them #xseed did decide to make him wink when inviting you to be fun-buddies so idk #xseed definitely held a gun to his head for his toned down lines they have Hostage Situation vibes #‘hi there platonic buddy pal!!’ *winks in morse code to spell the words ‘SEX NOW??’* #psychic damage posting #bokumono #hm awl #rock (awl) #this was in my drafts when the heck did i write all this #rock tumbling (sos)

[oddly-casual]

This entire scene makes me hurt but I wanna talk about this part in particular because it drives me insane.

Like- Splinter knows they aren’t just running errands. He can see his sons sneaking out thinking their slick and he found all their human stuff bc he’s nosey and if his sons won’t talk to him he’ll just have to investigate himself right?

So Splinter knows his sons are hiding something from him because duh- and he knows they want to be apart of the human world but he’s scared they’ll get hurt so he tries to bring the human world to them.

And you can just see the cringe and discomfort in the boys eyes because their father keeps trying to make them stay but it’ll never be in the way they want it, but they clearly feel bad.

And the real kicker is when Splinter tries that thing he did in the beginning of the movie, where he presses his sons about the truth but he specifically looks at Leo, like the screen cuts to Leo and even Raph looks at Leo because Splinter knows his eldest son would never lie to him.

But then he does

Leo lies right to his fathers face no hesitation and Splinter gets that look that just screams ‘i lost them’ because even if his son’s disobey the rules and don’t talk to him anymore, Leo was like Splinter’s insider into what his kids are doing and how to keep them safe. Splinter lost their trust.

But now even Leo is shutting Splinter out, so Splinter has been completely walled off by his sons and to Splinter he has no idea why because he’s just doing this to protect his kids.

Looking at it from Leo’s perspective, he has a strong sense of Justice. In the beginning when their father grills them about where they’ve been, Leo caves immediately even though he knows it’ll make everyone mad at him.

He braces himself for it too. There’s no reward in telling the truth but Leo does it anyway.

But Leo is a teenager, and teenagers tend to act in their own self interest. So when Leo keeps snitching and it only leads to punishment on all sides

Isolation from his brothers, distance from his father, of course Leo is going to cut his losses and stick to the thing that brings him joy. Possible acceptance and April. It’s also the most we see him bond with his brothers since Leo isn’t trying to follow their fathers rules.

#mutant mayhem #tmnt #tmnt mm #mm splinter #mm leonardo #mm spoilers #Leo👏has👏eldest👏daughter👏syndrome👏 #i could talk about Leo a lot from this movie because there’s a lot left unsaid #Like most of what we gather from his relationship with his family is very show don’t tell #In the beginning it’s Donnie Raph and Mikey goofing off and making fun of Leo and Splinter #even if Leo always does what’s right you can tell it was kinda taking a toll on him because he felt so isolated #on the rooftop scene when Raph uses Leo’s sword he’s Literally sectioned away from his brothers in the dark #but after they start taking down Superfly Leo is always with his siblings in the light and the dark #most siblings bond in way parents could never because it’s like having a best friend to do stuff with #and Leo being the ‘snitch’ siblings basically excludes him from sibling bonding and it sucks #leo literally had to choose between his dad and his brothers and Leo didn’t like his dads rules either #anyway I’m ranting point is i feel bad for Leo

[poppyseed799]

btw I don’t know if this is a thing anyone is thinking about but I’m not gonna stop drawing Jimmy as a canary. It’s a lovely bird. It’s still something that’s been really important to his series. There’s no reason to drop the canary headcanon just cuz Lizzie fell into the void.

#warning: don’t open up these tags I went on a very heated and rather unrelated rant cuz I’ve been mad #trafficblr #life series #secret life spoilers #secret life smp #jimmy solidarity #also I’m sick of seeing ppl celebrate Jimmy surviving because they hate the canary curse fans like SHUT UP!!! LET US HAVE FUN GOD!!! #LIKE LITERALLY EVEN IF NOBODY CAME UP WITH THE CANARY METAPHOR WE WOULD STILL BE TALKING ABOUT HOW HES ALWAYS DYING OK WE DIDNT MAKE UP THAT #HE DIES FIRST HE JUST DOES. GOD. so what if some people make shakespeare sounding posts about the curse that I don’t understand. we are JUST #having fun and making connections where we don’t need to BECAUSE ITS FUN. NOT CUZ WE DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE. sorry for the past few #days I’ve been genuinely mad at this fandom’s growing hatred towards its own community. #LIKE IM FINE IF ITS NOT YOUR THING BUT GOD. WE ARENT EVEN DOING ANYTHING 😭😭😭 THE LORE LITERALLY WRITES ITSELF OR IS WRITTEN BY MARTYN LOL #I’ve just been getting SO TILTED man. like ohhh yeah okay ur right i said too much guess I won’t say anything anymore #does anyone else genuinely not know wtf ppl are talking about when they say a certain hc takes over everything about the character #cuz I literally see so much varied Jimmy content yet I’ve seen several ppl complain that ppl ignore aspects of his character in favor of #WHATEVER when I literally don’t see that happening to him. step out of ur circle or something I don’t even HAVE a circle man

[littledreamling]

I love everyone tagging their dreamling fics with ooc/ out of character because let’s be honest, every fic that has Morpheus in the same room as a healthy relationship is out of character, that man cannot maintain a relationship to save his life

#every time he opens his mouth in a dreamling fic is our of character #he’d rather die than be in a healthy relationship #because healthy relationships take effort and humility and communication and he has NONE of that #he’s sent people to hell for rejecting him #what makes you think he’d actually be able to manage a relationship with someone as stubborn as Hob?? #he literally doesn’t believe in love: ‘love belongs to desire and desire is always cruel’ #and with his track record?? I don’t blame him lmao #even if he IS the problem #but I think that’s what makes it fun #he can have a little non-canon compliant character growth as a treat #it makes my little ‘everything has to be canon compliant and historically accurate’ heart really anxious though #it’s an uncomfy feeling to type out certain dialogue lines and know that it wpuld never actually come out of his mouth #but I’m getting over it #do it for the fic #dream of the endless #morpheus #sandman netflix #the sandman #dreamling

[glitter50000]

Fic inspiration

Ulla ducks her head and gives a humorless chuckle. “It was never the mother, was it?” 

Her father regards her with a pained smile. “No, it wasn’t.” 

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He loved Ulla, truly, grey skin and all, she was still his child. Her laughs and giggles would fill the air with a joyous melody. He knew Ulla showed more promise as a baby than most sildroher ever have during that age. 

On dark days a small, ugly part of him thinks of taking her back to shore, finding her birth mother, and thrusting the baby in her hands without a word as she did him, never visiting again. 

During the times when Ulla’s wails would bounce across the walls and make the flowers shrivel and rot. He didn’t have a problem with it, she had a strong voice after all, but when the others complained it was a different story. How they glared at the two of them or sneered at the baby for the tone of her cries. 

The times when his wife would look at Ulla with an odd look, something akin to fear, repulsion, or pity. When that specific look would be on him instead. He remembers squashing down the hurt at the time she recoiled at Ulla reaching her little hands out to her or having just stood there as the baby cried. 

He would never want to give Ulla away though, for he never regrets her in the first place. 

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“You can hold her if you want.” 

She’s broken out of some trance by his voice as he comes over to the crib. He chuckles a little at that, recalling the occasions when she would hold Ulla with a smile on her face, entertaining her with a song almost as if she forgets about the baby’s heritage. Though now it seems she remembers the other half. 

“She won’t bite,” he says amusedly. 

“I know that,” she mumbles, glancing at Ulla’s tail and his. He sighs and moves to pick Ulla up instead, scooping her up in his arms. 

“You must think I’m a whore.” He tells her bluntly. Sometimes he sees her looking at him with what could be a trace of disgust. Remembers how uncomfortable she seemed when they were courting each other and she first met Ulla and he confided in her about Ulla’s true parentage. Still, she wanted to marry him and look after her like she was her own, despite it all. 

“What,” she’s taken aback, “no, no I don’t think that's all, it’s just…” she trails off, gripping the edges of the crib tightly. It’s silent for a moment before his wife speaks again. 

“I wish she had been mine.” She whispers.

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He still thinks about her at times, the shadow summoner, either with anger or nostalgia. Looking back to when she made him sing symphonies during their lovemaking.

Sometimes he wonders if he ever would’ve met Ulla had she not been born with a tail. Or would she have taken her away wherever she went and he would still be waiting for the bell to ring? 

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Brave little Ulla. Coming home on the bad days when there’s too much teasing with tears in her eyes, yet still acting strong and holding her head high. 

#You know if someone gets inspired to make this an actual fic or something I wouldn’t mind #Cause I’ve had scenes like these stuck in my head and I would make the fic myself but for the love of god I cannot figure out a way #To stitch these together and also I’m stuck on how to end it like I know someone could write this better then me #Me looking at Ulla’s parents: oh they could be sooo dysfunctional #Rereading wwsf and seeing how the sildroher say it’s the mom who went up and slept with a human when it was actually her dad who did that #Is kinda humorous but also I’m like “how could I make this angsty” #Cause the sildrohers saw humans as beneath them so he’s probably over here like “they don’t know I literally slept with a human” #I was gonna have a line talking about how Ulla’s cries could be so desperate and loud the song filled people with grief and they hated it #And that when sildroher babies cried the songs were melancholy and made ppl’s heart ache and Ulla’s wasn’t always like that #but I was having trouble wording it to fit #Also I like the idea of the mother meeting him after he’s taking care of Ulla cause I think that could give for some fun potential #just thinking about how her mom treats Ulla makes me feral #This all started when I reread wwsf and saw how the her parents especially her dad reacted to Ulla wanting to go ashore #Got the cogs turning you know #grishaverse #the language of thorns #when water sang fire #ulla morozova #my wriitng

[spookyboywhump]

I think that I could write a whumpee waking up from a nightmare about their suffering only to be comforted by a friend, a family member, or a partner, 10,000 times and I would still constantly want to write it again. Even if I’m not writing it I am probably thinking about it.

#it’s just. neat. it makes me happy #a perfect hurt/comfort combo I enjoy #the nightmare is the hurt #the literal comfort is the comfort #and the variety is fun #I love wren and zander comforting each other after nightmares #they have. ample opportunity given how much time they spent sharing a bed #but also. Zander’s moms comforting him after his nightmares. #he always feels like he’s overreacting or being a baby #but he’s their baby and it’s okay for them to fuss over him sometimes #and then thinking about Leon comforting Alexei after a nightmare #but hear me out #Leon having a nightmare about Alexei being missing again or Alexei being hurt #and Alexei comforting Leon after that…. #I like that one a lot actually hm #sorry I’m just rambling #I should go to bed I’m very tired #is this normal nightmare content or I just watched scary nightmare movie nightmare content #it didn’t really scare me but I thought it was good #right. going to bed

[wren-kitchens]

im literally so glad depression did not take my sense of humour away because if it did I would literally just be angel from buffy and I cannot think of a fate worse than that

#i’m sorry I fucking hate him HES JUST SO BORING #ALL HE DOES IS BROOD #IT’S SO DULL #I couldn’t care less about who you ship buffy with but I could literally never get into her x angel because he’s just so DRY #LIKE YEAH WE GET IT YOU HAVE A SOUL AND YOU’RE SAD GET OVER YOURSELF #he literally. does not fucking stop being Sad all the time #it’s all he does #he’s only fun when he’s evil #and those like three episodes in the first season when he was mysterious in a fun way rather than the always fucking sad way #yeah he’s hot but that could not matter less HES SO BORING #spike is one of my favourite characters #better than angel by far because he’s ENTERTAINING #HE HAS LAYERS #he and joyce watching passions is the funniest shit idec #also that onion flower thing he kept talking about #there was never a dull moment with spike because he was FUNNY #‘out for a walk. bitch’ #buffy is the perfect example of someone who can brood and Not be boring about it because SHE HAS DEPTH #she’s funny AND SHE HAD TO CLAW HER WAY OUT OF HER COFFIN AFTWR SHE WAS DRAGGED OUT OF HEAVEN #SHE GETS TO BROOD #also FAITH oh my god I fucking love faith #s7 faith <33333 #y’know I take back what I said about not caring who you ship buffy with her and faith makes way more sense than her and spike or angel #this turned into a rant about btvs but idec #I was complaining about depression earlier and made this joke to myself and I thought it was hilarious #i’m saying it to my mum tomorrow anyway idc she’d love it #wren wrambles #q

[chryzure]

i hate chrysijacks

#memorie.txt #i literally hate how i think abt them all the time #and think that jacks is cute #or fun to love #because jacks sucks and chrysi sucks for thinking he doesn’t. #it just feels cruel to leave chrysi in a relationship with jacks #she’ll never be free of him #literally not even when she’s with someone else. she’s always dating him in a fucked up affair way #she will NEVER be rid of jacks 😭😭😭 this makes me so fucking SAD. #s.chrysijacks #i’m sorry women…

[neixins]

the sword and shield part of the prophecy is soooo vague that i’ll rotate every possible theory inside my silly little head and then go “or it could be smth else”. absolute net zero conclusions reached but i had fun.

#like. i think hak being the sword is one of if not the most popular theories and i can see it bc well. look at the guy #but it’s the specifics of the wording that give me pause #‘WHEN the four dragons are gathered the sword and shield which will protect the king SHALL AWAKEN’ #when hak’s been there from the beginning + there’s also ik-su’s warning that hak will die if yona doesn’t find the dragons #which. there’s definitely ways to interpret him still being the sword (or shield!! that’d also be a neat twist) even with that in mind #but ngl i’m also a sucker for the idea that he’s just. there bc he loves yona. no connection to the prophecy whatsoever. #like both options make sense to me and i can see either one happening #anyway my personal favorite theory rn is that riri is the either the sword or the shield #not saying it’s the most probable option. just the most fun to meeee <3 #and ngl it only occurred to me during the latest chapter bc she’s clearly gonna play some kind of role #so it’s not like i have like a mountain of compelling evidence but i do have more than just. a feeling #like she has the sociopolitical standing and the ability (or at least pluckiness) to fill either role right? #and she was introduced and grew as a character only after all four dragons were gathered #which fits with some of the only things we know about the sword and the shield #do u see what i’m getting at?? am i making any sense at all?? #it could also ofc be a literal sword and shield which. tbh i think is the most likely but also less fun to speculate about #anyway i also think tae-jun will have a bigger role to play. either as a part of the prophecy or not #but also how might zeno’s recent actions impact the prophecy……. much to think about as always #but that’s enough theorizing for one day! time to grab my iced coffee from the fridge and work on my silly little fic <3 #akayona

[little-shiny-sharpies]

Me 🤝 my Aunt who plays WoW

“Khadgar is the best Alliance character alive hands down.”

#she was so happy to see him she said and I quote as he was sliding out of the portal in stormwind for DF #‘he’s always got style!’ she thought he was hilarious #she loves the movie version of him too she thinks he’s the fun kind of kooky #she doesn’t like alliance at all #just as I do not. #but khadgar is a bro. #LASO ALSO WHEN THE CINEMATIC CAME ON #SHE DIDNT SKIP IT #and when ka/ec appeared I said ‘hey I saw someone somewhere said that guy sounded like he was crying his whole flight to kharzacan’ #however tf u spell it #‘SOME GUY’ SHINY?? #AS IF THERE IS NOT A LITERAL FUCKING SHRINE DIRECTLY NEXT TO YOUR FACE WHEN SOMEBODY WALKS IN TO TALK TO YOU #Also my phone bg is that really cute comm I got of all 3 of us #there’s no way she don’t know #like I’m waiting for her to be ornery abt it like ‘ohhh look who it is! :)’ but she hasn’t been #she’s probably worried abt making me uncomfortable now that I think abt it #OH wait omg I almost forgot I was roasting Noz and she defended him with facts i literally didn’t realize 😭 he’s old on the inside #that’s what she said. he’s like my grandpa. Noz I’m sorry I said all you did was get headaches 😭 I’ll get u some aspirin peepaw #shiny speaks

[ziggysgender]

personally i think the quantum leap finale is subjective because of the entire premise of the show

#like yes. the canon finale we got there’s a lot to say. so much to say. so much that’s already been said #knowing that it was literally rushed and thrown together but still finding it great is very cool #there’s also the alternative ending that they filmed. which is a thing of its own #al being with beth. after sam sacrificed everything for him to be with her. and he still couldn’t be happy without him #we could’ve had al leaping with sam. to quote dean stockwell “like a married couple” #then there’s the fan made endings. if sam ever did make it back home. and had to be faced with a hell of his own making #he can never really go back etc etc #i think the ending we got was good in its own way. but could’ve been improved in some small ways #yes the inherent tragedy of it all is oh so great and wonderful and whatnot. but #idk. quantum leap is such a deep show. with a lot of lore and a lot of layers #al died and the last time he ever saw sam was while he was having a breakdown in front of some strange mystery bar without a leapee waiting #he died trying to find him again. he left sam there. in tears. head in his hands #and sam refused to go home. he could never go home. he couldn’t never be done #he just wanted al to be happy. but al couldn’t be happy without sam. and it just keeps looping like a paradox #but i think if he did go home. the guilt of never really being done would eat him alive #add another layer of tragedy and guilt #idk! i think it’s fun to play around with theories and ideas #and there’s no right answer. i’m kinda sick of an implied “right answer” #anyways. ​head is always spinning ql thoughts #ql #quantum leap

[keclan]

i also caught up on rwby today and robbie daymond cheshire cat is the highlight for me simply bc i like his voice.

#the rest of it is kind of boring tbh #it’s literally just beat for beat alice in wonderland #which they’ve always done literary allusions but this is literally just the same story #so i’m kind of bored! #ruby failing to stand up to her past self was good #but pulling that scene in episode four is like :/ #is the rest of the season gonna pop off at that level? or did you play your best card out of the gate? #is she going to continue breaking down in ways beyond ‘i’m sad’ #like is she going to start making bad decisions? is she going to start acting on those feelings? #the song during the chess board fight was fun #and ruby feeling drawn to the doll that turned out to be pennys sword was also good #but it felt so glossed over #the fact that yang couldn’t tell which was her arm but ruby knew immediately the doll was special #inch resting and curious about the shrimplications #and also lowkey most excited for finding out what’s jaunes been up to since they don’t know he’s here and haven’t looked for him #i hope he’s been Enduring Torments and i hope he’s Broken :) #OH ALSO robbie daymond cheshire cat making meta comments about the size of the cast and irrelevant side characters #i usually hate that stuff but i actually liked it this time

[bo0zey]

boys be mad asl when i don’t giggle n tehe n show cute emotions like bitch my wounded inner child just got done drunk sniveling begging for daddy not to yell n hate her while her intoxicated narcissistic father screamed n gaslit her until she dissociated to euthymic plane 🙄🙄🙄

#‘trauma dumping’ eat my shorts loser assholss #so funny he said if my narcissistic sociopathic insane brother killed himself then it’s ‘goodbye to the rest of y’all too’ #like ohhhhh so ur eldest daughter n youngest son don’t mean jack fuckjn shit to u right??? lmfao lolll #yeah just go rot with that selfish egotistic psycho while ur 15yr old son who lost his mom at 7yrs old #i want to strangle my fuckjgnf dad sometimes he’s so cruel n said so many mean things to me #he always has to defend my middle brother ‘he’s depressed what if he kms’ like??? #my middle brother literally manipulates tf out of my dumbass emotionally unintelligent father he’s tearing this family apart #meanwhile i never planned on seeing 18 nor living past 22 n now i have to go exist n find a job when i never thought i’d have to do this sh #shit ever b. i was supposed to #be dead 4 years ago lololllll #god forbid i tell him that or my plan to kms at 27 lollll #so worried abt a fucking LOST SOCIOPATH SEFISH NARCISSITIC CAUSE ur gonna make me and my baby brother suffer?? as orphans ?? #my dad n i used to get breakfast every sunday in middle school n talk abt life n drive around after n those days meant the world to me #i never realized how much i missed them. how much i looked forward to him saying he’d call me while i’m away at college #but my middle brother egosticizl fuck is like ‘lolyh i just nod n say what dad wants me to hear’ when my dad is trying so hard to save him f #my dad admitted to neglecting my lil bro lol it makes me so fkcing angry he doesn’t give af abt us #says ‘im worth more im the ground than i am alive’ n my inner teen bursts into tears bc she experienced that already #yeah moms life insurance money was so fun!! until it ran out bc of college n impulsive manic spending n the materialistic thrill never laste #i want to hate him but i can’t even deny i love him so much he hurts me and everyone i love and disappoints us all n we still care for him #he’s letting my brother fuckjgn kill him literlaly my dad is physically sick bc of my sociopath narcissistic bros drama #he blames me for not going to him n telling him abt my ‘’mental issues’ as if i didn’t have to grow up n become mom the day after my 16th #i am my mothers child he didn’t know anything abt our childhoods until she died and he had to step up n parent us himself #he doesn’t know what it means to be a parent he shouldn’t be a parent but oh fuckjgn well oh my god WE ARE YOUR KIDSMWE NEED YOU WH #WHY CANT YOU SHOW US YOU CARE WHEN WE ALL HAD TO LEARN ALL WE HAVE IS OURSELVES #i am so angry he tried to throw me under the bus abt not having a job as a new grad nurse instead of my brother for dropping out everything #ur son wants to drop his ap classes bc he procrastinated n doesn’t wNna do the work so now he’s manipulating u to let him quit #i am just not exiting the identity crisis coming to terms w the fact that i’m 22yrs old n alive n need to start living n working #tonight was a shitshow but the ending calmed down but i couldn’t stop crying sniveling whimpering when dad yelled #yelled n accused n attacked me n chose to defend my middle bro over me like..he’s trying to kill u n i freaked out bc stepmom said u cut #ramblings

[oglegoggle]

Weird double emotion of lonely and longing & too mistrusting of others to really even want to attempt to date now (if ever again tbh)

#this is goggles #just tired of relationships that make me feel like I am the sun to them when really they’ve lit me on fire and are burning me up #so they can in a way pretend to be tragic Icarus who flew too close #I continue to feel like a MPDG to the people I date #like I’m eccentric and handsome and dreamy and fun yeah #But I am not always my best traits #and often I have weird and tricky needs that nobody I’ve been with has really be able or willing to accomodate #I know that I’m very very hard to love at my most raw #it hurts so much to warn someone of this and they insist that they can in fact love me when it’s hard #but then when my hard time love times roll around whoopsie doopsie guess you were right after all #and just I put a lot of work and effort into my relationships desperately wanting to milk even a tenth of the effort in return back out #and I’m tired of it #I’m tired of putting work into others who think I’m some perfect dreamboat who is going to swoop in and fix their life #I tired of putting work into people who won’t put the work into me #couldn’t even schedule fucking counseling for us immediately after his evil cat slashed my literal eyeball #pathetic slob an absolute manchild a sorry excuse for a partner or a son #I sure as fuck felt like a crazy hybrid of partner and dad to him as much as I tried to convince him to do his chores and do them right #this isn’t even the first time that this shit has happened don’t know why I keep letting it #I’m the nameless love interest in your back story that was sooooo dreamy and romantic and good in bed that you dream of him for life #the one you fantasize about when you’re inevitably having problems in your 23 year marriage decades down the line #think about what ever happened to him and wonder if you could’ve made it work #but I’ll be long long gone #you won’t know whatever happened to me or if you could’ve made it work #you’ll go back to your unhappy marriage and tell yourself it’s what you deserve for fucking it up with me #me? I’ll have probably asphyxiated on my vomit or something by then ol’ Jimi style #because let’s be real I’m probs gonna lose grasp on my little Habit eventually #it gets worse and worse with each major trauma I endure #I need the traumatic experiences to stop please I am so so tired #may solitude in the Parks give me peace #may peace give me detachment

[notveryshrugemoji]

It took until 7pm to remember it’s Dave’s birthday.

#happy birthday you fuuuucking loser #i miss making you laugh from your guts and I wish I could get stoned with you tonight #and I’m grateful for the lessons I’ve had from knowing you and allowing someone like you in #you’re the reason I’m getting better but for the wrong reasons you know? #i wish I could be this person with you but uh #you don’t fucking get to have her you piece of literal garbage #i hope you’re having a good day and you feel okay #because if your life is worse without me I don’t know why you’d leave #file this under: should have gone in the journal #to be real he’s probably just getting drunk and doing drugs lol #and that’s always fun with him unfortunately #i miss him a lot #like I loath him as a human but I miss the good parts #for better or worse he is a chapter in my life and I’m a better person despite the things he’s done #he can fucking choke tho lmao