#I'M CONTINUING WHERE I LEFT OFF

[126dvtn]

herlock sholmes my beloved!!

#tgaa is so funky #I'M CONTINUING WHERE I LEFT OFF #and this goofy silly man has entered my heart again #HE'S SO SMSHFDSFH #maybe i'll write for him soon #(if my terrible time management doesn't stop me) #%! chats

[screwpinecaprice]

Stranded at work today so I decided to sneak a draw on the workplace's computer.

#Yes... yes I do bring a spare drawing tab to work. #I just like using it more than using a mouse. #connverse #Steven Quartz Universe #Connie Maheswaran #valentines #Yus I manage to draw something for Valentines #:] #Connie molded those chocolates herself #I swear he didn't give her another knife #I intended to continue where I left off on my current commission But with people looking at the monitor while trying to draw? #That's just going double the chances of messing up. So awkward. #Go away Benjie. smh #I have a hard time seeing what I did wrong with my freshly finished drawings but I'm pretty sure I messed something up here. #With how awkward I felt during most of the drawing process #I just hope it's not so bad. #my shiz #Steven Universe #SUF #SU fanart #EDIT: Fixed Steven's left sleeve. I forgot I changed it from full sleeve to 3/4. The rendering wasn't to much affected by the change of line #work anyway and and it's quick so figure I could do that

[front-facing-pokemon]

#prinplup #oh shit i put this post here and started queuing it like this morning and then just forgot about it apparently. tabbed off and just left it #and then i came back home it's like 9 PM and opened tumblr to find this guy staring at me. realizing i never clicked the queue button #so. that was a fun experience. either way i just think this is a penguin. hard-pressed to find anything interesting to say here #it's another one of those starter mid-evos where i'm like… it's good continuity from the base 'mon and into the final evo #but as a midpoint is still a bit awkward. teenage phase‚ y'know?

[naffeclipse]

More about Mer!SJ time! >:D

Aaahh, I simply cannot stop thinking about what comes after the final confrontation!

Like so many things! The image of Eclipse suddenly realizing what he's done, hearing and seeing his own trident going into Sun, his brother looking down at the weapon and slowly looking up at him in pain, hurt, incredulous of what Eclipse just did.

How where Eclipse usually relishes in the smell of blood in the water, right now it means to him what it means to most people. Death, anguish, grief, fear.

The brief but no doubt intense argument of wanting to reach out to Sun but being furiously stopped by the vigilante and his other brother who might be directing at him the worst look he has ever given him, before they have to accept that there is no time to argue if they want Sun to make it.

The feeling of dejavu at the urgency of hurrying towards the surface as it's the only hope of saving a member of his family. Seeing Sun slowly fading away right in his grasp as they go.

The conflicting feelings of seeing many mer people, no doubt a lot who have been helped by his brothers, rush to the help of a twilight mer, and it's a slight relieve because Sun might make it, but also indignation because why did they not help her too? How dare they all suddenly act the good guys when it was much too late for those who needed it before?

And then the wait.

He must be known around the reef. Moon hides his resemblance for a reason. So it's not only dealing with the wariness around him which would be delightful some other time, but now there's too many eyes on him at the worst moment. When he's unsure and afraid his brother will die. He's too exposed and among those he loathes here in the light.

Then there's knowing the wrong move will get him kicked out and unable to know the fate of his brother, the vigilante pointing a trident at him at all times. There's Moon's scathing looks, full of accusation and distrust. One of his brothers who begged him to just leave the life he kept choosing and come with them, now seemingly looking at him like there's nothing he wants more than for Eclipse to go back and stay in the darkness like he's always done.

Maybe at one point when Sun has passed the worst of it, Eclipse finds a moment to slip in unnoticed, to check in on Sun while no one is in the room. And he has to see him, covered in every measure they had to stop the blood, breathing weak, like his chest is barely able to expand enough, like inhaling the clean water he needs to keep going is currently the hardest task for him.

And maybe he reaches for him. But Sun, in his semi conscious state both from the blood loss and the medicine he was given, minutely flinches back. Because the last time he saw his older brother with his hand extended towards him, what followed was sharp awful pain.

And there might be a twinge of indignation in Eclipse at first. Because this is him. How could Sun ever be afraid of him. Afraid that he would hurt- And then remember that he did. He did.

Words from long ago, and an instruction to protect his brothers echo in his mind as he looks at Sun fighting for his very life.

Emotions he hasn't experienced or that he thought himself above of for years and years now flood him.

I do have to wonder how even approaching after that would work. You said Sun still wants Eclipse in his life and it's what might be keeping the vigilante from trying to figure out a way to spear Eclipse into a wall and give him a last diminute chance to fix the mess he made. But there's also Moon who refuses to have him close. I'm veeeery interested in what might make Moon accept any attempts from him! Because hurting the vigilante in his pursue of them was already a betrayal knowing how much Sun and Moon cared for them. This? This was crossing a line both brothers were at least somewhat certain would never be crossed.

AHHH CHAOTIK I AM EATING UP EVERY WORD OF THIS IT'S SO GOOOOOOOD!!!

It's really hard to imagine it going well after such a devasting blow, but, Eclipse made his bed, he's gonna lie in it now.

Once the sand settles and Sun is tucked safely back into their coral reef home, on heavy medicines, and no longer in danger of bleeding out, that's when Moon lets Eclipse have it.

The vigilante keeps watch from the passageway between where Sun rests and where the fight unfolds. Moon wants Eclipse gone. Eclipse refuses to leave until he knows Sun is going to be okay. Moon attacks Eclipse.

It's freezing waters as the two brothers duke it out. Moon is completely undone by this—Eclipse is their big brother. He was their protector. He cared for them and raised them when their parents were gone. It is absolutely unfathomable that Eclipse could do this to Sun.

Eclipse lets Moon get it all out, taking his blows and wearing him down until they're both exhausted and the chamber is a wreck. The vigilante simply stays on guard, trident in hand, ready to finish Eclipse like they so desperately want to—they just need a reason, a better excuse to give Sun when he asks for Eclipse.

Moon punches Eclipse and his hand catches on his venomous spines framing his face, several breaking off as they puncture Moon's flesh. In a knee-jerk reaction, Eclipse rips off the nautical shell on Moon's head where it's thrown and shattered against the wall. The vigilante reacts badly, but they're quickly told that Eclipse's venom won't hurt Moon because they're blood-related. Which is great news among the recent damage done.

The water temperature drops below freezing, and Moon and Eclipse look at each other, floating in the wreckage of what's supposed to be their family.

That's when the vigilante persuades Moon to go and stay with Sun. He better not have been woken up by their battle. Eclipse glares as Moon disappears, and the vigilante prods Eclipse towards a lightless chamber in the coral reef home. Eclipse goes. The vigilante studies his broken quills while they explain something. They make it clear that if Sun wasn't so concerned about Eclipse, even after he skewed him, they would have killed him. They still will if Eclipse doesn't stop and doesn't control himself. They won't watch him hurt his brothers anymore, in any way. The vigilante is done with Eclipse.

Eclipse says that Sun and Moon have their mother's eyes. The vigilante doesn't know what prompted that. Eclipse says he can't leave until Sun is recovered. He has to survive.

The vigilante asks how Eclipse how could do it. How could he react so terribly and hurt his brother?

Eclipse asks in a soft voice how the vigilante could have killed a mer-child, his golden gaze burning through the sunlight zone mer.

That ends their conversation in a snap of tailfins as the vigilante abruptly leaves Eclipse in the dark chamber and returns to Sun's side. They tend to Moon's bleeding knuckles and whisper about finding him another nautical shell. They carefully watch Sun's chest rise and fall with weak breaths of water and pray that no more red wisps leak into the chamber from his many bandages.

#hahah i have fish sleuths brain rot :) #chaotik i'm biting your ask so hard right now ahhh!!! #it's everything! #sorry i kind of just continued where you left off but ahhhh yeah #eclipse is gonna squirm and accept his consequences and deal with his brothers' anger and angst #he's gonna repent with blood and suffering #sleuth jesters mermay style #pearl eye #chaotikanvas

[so-called-quail]

'Trapped in the end!' said Sam bitterly, his anger rising again above weariness and despair. 'Gnats in a net. May the curse of Faramir bite that Gollum and bite him quick!' 'That would not help us now,' said Frodo.

Sword in hand Sam went after him. For the moment he had forgotten everything else but the red fury in his brain and the desire to kill Gollum. But before he could overtake him, Gollum was gone. Then as the dark hole stood before him and the stench came out to meet him, like a clap of thunder the thought of Frodo and the monster smote upon Sam's mind.

Now he tried to find strength to tear himself away and go on a lonely journey – for vengeance. If once he could go, his anger would bear him down all the roads of the world, pursuing, until he had him at last: Gollum. Then Gollum would die in a corner. But that was not what he had set out to do. It would not be worth while to leave his master for that. It would not bring him back. Nothing would.

Sam and vengeance in today's entry

#idk i have Thoughts about this... rambles ahead... #there's an interesting arc here with how sam approaches his feelings of vengeance in this entry #starting with the first quote. frodo's response to sam is so brief and doesn't get much time to sit with all the action going on #but i feel like it speaks volumes #at least in showcasing the different points they stand on #sam centers his resentment and feelings of revenge... he's quick to get frustrated and immediately goes for threatening gollum #meanwhile frodo is focused on getting out. he doesn't have time to nurse anger nor does he want to #it feels like he's advising sam to move past it because he knows it's futile to stay stuck in those feelings #then there's sam's fight with gollum #after days and weeks of building tension from his mistrust towards gollum... this is where the dam finally breaks #sam's been feeding into his resentment for SO LONG it's no wonder he gets into this state of blind fury towards the end #he set himself up to seek vengeance the moment he gets the opportunity #which in some way i'm sure does help him in fending off gollum... that strength had to come from somewhere #but once he's staved him off he continues to fixate that anger on gollum and forgets what he originally set out to do-- protect frodo #and then we're left with the final quote... #it isn't until sam has (perceived to have) lost everything that he is able to come to the conclusion that vengeance won't serve him #...a lesson learned a little too late?? maybe?? no?? it feels cruel to say that #i definitely do not want to take the position that sam was responsible for what happened to frodo #he was pinned in a horribly desperate situation and couldn't do much once gollum attacked #i don't think much would've changed if he hadn't had his moment of fury with chasing gollum #anyways newbie here-- i haven't read anything ahead from here so idk what character arcs await sam #but i'm interested to see if this is later built upon or acknowledged #end of rambles skdfjgkdjsfg #lotr newsletter #lotr newsletter march 13th #EDIT: I forgot to space the quotes out 😭 #not a crime but they can get confusing to read when scrunched together hrnnnn

[kindlyanni]

hi, i hope you're well today.

i watched your sketchbook tour video on yt (from like 2 days ago) and so, i wanted to try to ask for advice, if you want to give it ofcourse, no pressure to.

you see, i love sketces so much, there's just some special beuty about them. i really enjoy seeing artists' sketches, including yours, ofcourse. i love seeing them on tumblr & yt.

also, even though i'm 26, i'm a COMPLETE begginner at drawing. i'm struggeling with the basic boxes-in-correct-perspective things, drawing faceless heads and motionless torsos, and.. yea, that's it. i know practice is the only way to advance in drawing, but i can't bring myself to. i see artists like you filling your sketchbooks with characters you're passionate about and honestly that's all i've ever wanted to be able to do, but i literally don't have the ability to do so.

just to be clear, i'm not asking you how to motivate myself to draw. the thing is, even though people are telling me that maybe it's not meant to be and i should give up, some insane part of me refuses to let this dream go. my question to you, as someone who somehow got there, is: do you think it's doomed? do you think that me struggeling so much with the drawing itself AND the motivation, means i won't be able to do it? do you think if i'm not having fun with it now, than i'll never get to a point where it will?

it might sound dumb, but it's a thing i'm nervous about. and after seeing your sketchbook, filled with so much characters and stories that i could see are so dear to your heart and so fun for you to draw, i'd love to hear (read) youe 2 scents about it, if you're willing to share. again, no pressure to.

thanks in advance, though.

Hi there Anon!

I'mma be frank and honest here: "maybe it's not meant to be and you should give up" is the absolutely stupidest thing someone can say to you. What the hell?? Dear Anon, if you feel even the tiniest bit of "I want to draw" then you should draw. You don't have to be good at drawing to draw, that's what's great about it. Anyone can find something to draw with and something to draw on. And just draw. If the act of drawing scratches some itch for you, then that's all you need. It doesn't mean it has to be fun all the time, though. Sometimes I can't get part of the drawing right, or even the whole drawing! Sometimes I hate what I finished drawing. Sometimes I want to draw but nothing comes out. But the itch is still there, it doesn't go away completely. You say it's your dream, then you should follow it. Everyone starts somewhere, and it's never too late too start. It's never too late. When you're dead it's too late.

If you don't feel the itch for drawing anymore, then you know it's time to move on to other things. And that's okay too, and it's not giving up. And don't let anyone else tell you that you should give up, if it is your passion.

In case you have sketchbook anxiety, don't think a sketchbook has to be one big art piece with each page something instagram worthy. I know it's become a thing where artists share their sketchbooks on social media and it's so Aesthetic™ that it's giving anxiety and pressure for everyone to have a sketchbook that pretty, but it really doesn't have to. You don't have to show it to anyone. Or you don't have to even have a sketchbook. Draw on random paper and put them in a folder. I did that for ages. The ones I use now aren't really sketchbooks either, but sketch pads with spirals. And those work the best for me. I have a few books but I haven't finished any of them.

If stiff figures is your issue, I suggest figure/life drawing as practice. Drawing tutorials about boxes and circles and proportions can only get you so far. Gather images of people in different poses. Dancing is really good for this. Sports too. And the less clothes the better. Draw what you see. Do it in 1 minute, 2 minutes, 5... Focus less on getting details right and more on the flow, the movement of the body. Tracing the image is lower effort and not as beneficial, but it still helps get the idea of how things are shaped and connected etc. And remember you don't have to show these practice drawings to anyone.

I know thanks to social media there's this pressure to show everything you make. But you really don't have to, if it makes you nervous. When I started drawing, we didn't have tumblr, twitter, ig or facebook. I drew a shit ton! I bought so many drawing pads, and no one has seen most of what's in there. I drew for myself. I had a webcomic idea and I drew so much of the characters and what would happen with them in the comic. I've drawn So. Much. And just recently I'm at a point where I can show my entire sketchbook to the entire internet. I wouldn't have done that maybe like 6-8 years ago. And I still skip some pages I don't want to show, for one reason or another. And that's fine.

Gosh, this became a longer reply than I intended. I hope it helps! Find that thing that makes you want to draw. For me it was the story I wanted to make and the characters for it (I started the webcomic but never finished it lmao). For you it can be your OCs, or some other characters, it can be a pet or a band you really like, it can be Nicholas Cage, or flowers, or anything! Find the itch and scratch it real good.

Let me share a drawing of mine from 20 years ago (I was 16):

#black and red stabilo88's were my best friends #everyone starts somewhere and it's never too late to start #or continue where you left off #draw whatever you want however you want whenever you want #there's no wrong way to draw #I could start artist affirmation image blog with these lmao #good luck Anon! #ALSO everyone I know I have a bunch of messages in the inbox waiting and I'm so lazy to reply and I forget!! I'll get to them some day..... #Someone saying to give up drawing made me so furious I had to reply to this right away lmao

[phoenixcatch7]

THROWING my desk across the room I can't BELIEVE bleach is on DISNEY MF +

No WONDER it's been zero interest!! No wonder it hasn't re-emerged as a popular anime - it's behind that STUPID FREAKING PAY WALL.

I despiseeeeeeee this. I've been looking for a way to watch it for ages and all along it'd been stolen by megacorp so they can shine their fancy gold toilet seats with mops made of shredded paper money.

THERE'S NOWHERE ELSE TO WATCH IT.

BLEACH DESERVES BETTER.

#Frothing at the mouth rn like I remember the hullabaloo last year when it got taken from crunchyroll #But like. I blocked it from my memory #Ugh Disney is so hard on rips too no wonder there hasn't been any episodes on youtube #Bleach was a TITAN of its time!!! And it was ACCESSIBLE. #Now we're supposed to settle for peeking through the keyhole into the gentleman's club 🙄 #I got crunchy roll for this and I can't even settle with saiki k because THAT'S not on there either #i'm so annoyed rn #Finally worked up the nerve to continue where I left off and it's GONE #*throws chair after the table* #bleach

[ed-teach]

My laptop just Died and i lost 100 words of fic.. woe

#but I'm back at it. i continued writing from where i left off so i gotta go back and stitch up the hole later #quip

[saintlesbian]

hiiiii i just had a really good job interview this morning so i am in a GREAT mood 2day ^_^ and now im really in the mood to draw so. I’m thinking i might stream l8r

also i wanted to do a 48 hour zine challenge so. im makin a lil sprina fanzine 4 fun lol... here’s a sketch i did 4 tha cover so far

#pentababbles #pentadraws #general hospital #art #fanart #sprina #i had an interview with this commercial trailer company this morning and i knocked it outta the park #they see a lot of potential in me and think i'd b a good fit 4 several positions so. YIPPIEEEEE #aside from that tho. ive been saying i wanted to make a sprina fanzine for a while now so. letsa go #specifically im doin a 48 hour challenge bc this weekend is the sprina fan meetup in nj #and i wanna be able 2 give nic and taby physical copies of the fanzine #and maybe have them autograph a copy 4 me? #also i'll def release it digitally when i'm done with it. prolly post it on itch.io or smth #i chose the NYE britch fest almost-kiss for the cover bc i thought that was such a cute scene #i'm still trying to think up a good quote for the zine title tho. #maybe ''you mean too much to me'' or ''is this what you want?'' #idk! im happy working on it tho and doing such quick sketches #anyways i'll probably work on the zine on stream tonite if yall wanna watch me work #and i'll put on some eps of sunset beach as well so we can continue the story where we left off

[ikishima]

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#the amount of compassion you have to pour directly into a bad-faith asshole's mouth without knowing whether there's even a point #in order to get them to the point where they're willing to engage at a level where they actually take your feelings & words into account #the point where they even start hearing you and seeing you as a potential equal in conversation #the point where learning and growing becomes a possibility #is fucking exhausting. and i understand why a lot of people refuse to do it. i understand why some people dont practice what they preach #because sometimes the congregation in question is just there to throw tomatoes without any intent of listening #but idc! idc! im not gonna let a bunch of assholes close my heart off. id rather be naive but kind and get taken advantage of #if the alternative is leaving people behind or making a single person feel the way i have felt #having good intentions but being unable to express it w/o negative emotion or without the correct words or not being given a fighting chanc #to never be seen as a person or heard or listened to is so hurtful #i never want to do that to someone #and if i have parted ways with you or made you feel like that at any point please know it is only when i have no other options left #i know it's an autism thing to be so utterly gutted at being misunderstood and i'm most likely giving energy to people who don't deserve it #but i dont care! i dont care! #my compassion IS a renewable resource because i keep feeding it hope and humanity #i get mad sometimes but please know every angry word i've ever said has stuck on my mind like a glue trap #i remember every fight i have been slightly too aggressive and potentially awful in since the fifth grade and i continue to ruminate #on harm i have caused however big or small #i feel so surrounded by hate and anger and i just want to be that person who doesnt get caught up in it and can be compassionate no matter #lots to think about today ... #x

[charliethomascoxuniverse]

Kin ep.3 pt I

#rewatched the Kinsella funeral blues episode 🥺😢 #ended up taking screencaps again lol #I think I did episodes 1&2 before so I'm just continuing where I left off xd #michael kinsella #charlie cox #kin amc #screencaps

[frog-scream]

have the "remove all distractions to get work done" people considered that my thoughts are also very distracting

#im really good at day dreaming #I'M TRYING TO LOOK FOR ADVICE ON WHAT I SHOULD DO WHEN I GET DISTRACTED WHILE WORKING OUT #IT'S NOT JUST THE DEVICES I SWEAR #but like should i just continue where i left off or WHAT

[zukkaoru]

[ID two manga panels from Bungou Stray Dogs. on the right is a close up of one side of lucy's face as she says, "Well... Alcott would often drink some before work." the panel on the left shows a flashback of Louisa seated at a desk, drinking coffee from a mug. /End ID.]

awww she still has her gf's routines memorized 🥰

#back on the bsd manga grind 💪 #actually i SHOULD be reading either dead apple or the dark era ln #but instead i'm finally continuing where i left off in the main manga #for louisa. bc i miss her #and also montcott crumbs 🥰 #grace reads bsd

[luminant-lepidoptera]

Adam: You're thinking about how much you want to fuck 2B, aren't you?

9S, in tears: SHUT UP YOU DON'T KNOW MY LIFE

#He does want to fuck her though we all know it #and I support him they're adorable together #Nier Automata #Nier 9S #Nier 2B #9S x 2B #also hi I'm playing through Nier again #I never finished 9S's story and I always wanted to continue from where I left off

[milly-the-devil]

:’(

#barney guttman #norma kahn #de:pp #dead end: paranormal park #dead end paranormal park #de:pp episode 8 #dead end: paranormal park spoilers #de:pp spoilers #milly show rant #de:pp barney #de:pp norma #I'm continueing where I left off last night

[gena-rowlands]

help i had no interest in succession before (not hating i just don't watch much tv because the waits cause me to lose interest between seasons) but i saw a gif of roman on your blog and thought he looked cute so i'd try the show and if i didn't like it i could turn it off but holy crap it sucked me in and now ive watched every episode in the series in one day and havent slept more than 2hrs in the same amount of days.

the universal succession watcher experience of Not Being Normal About This Show

#i'm so glad you love it <3 it's truly one of the best shows i've ever watched #i hadn't finished s3 by the time s4 started because i didn't watch much telly last year #so instead of just... continuing from where i left off like a normal person #i did a whole series rewatch #which worked well because i'd forgotten so much about s1/s2 because i hadn't watched them for a few years #succession #succession spoilers