im in absolute shambles over This Update. the way he lets go of the headbands, but this time Big Leo was the calmer one. and the way Big Leo fades away in a way similar to the headbands has me in tears. waughhh
i know part of why people don’t take adhd seriously is because of the stigma around it about us being all jokey jokey all the time & the infantilization that comes with that but. can i be real for a moment.
it is TRULY mind boggling to me that the worst most life-upending symptoms i experience only manifest themselves in a way that makes me feel like i’m living in an episode of seinfeld. that i’m playing sims on hard mode. that i’m that little character in deltarune being piloted around by a truly incomprehensible outside force of will i have no ability to reckon with.
like, ok. sure. my brain is only motivated to do things by power of “is it entertaining enough”.
it’s ridiculous. it does not matter how it is entertaining. as long as it’s interesting. so you cannot do ANYTHING that is boring. or you will simply die. (and often times that's not even enough either)
Actually, I was thinking about both Jonathan seeming to feel the Count's presence almost in the air itself today, and the lack of other footprints in the dust, and his feeling so unsafe in his rooms the other day... and it all combined into imagining something quite clever but also very sad.
What if Jonathan was having bad dreams and feeling like something was with him in his room while he slept at times? And so to test this theory he placed a little bit of string on top of the door handle or something, so that if it was on the floor in the morning it meant someone had opened the door. And every time he awoke, the string was undisturbed, so he assumed it must have just been terrible dreams.
But he still felt unsafe especially in his sleep. Still felt the need to hang the crucifix over his head, and to snatch at the chance to sleep somewhere the Count wouldn't know to look for him. And then this encounter happens, where he sees the vampire ladies seem to almost drift out the window/vanish into the air and leave the room without using a door at all.
He wakes in his own bed, and determines to look for proof. But a part of him wonders, if it really happened... if they really vanished like that... can the Count do so too? His bed is far safer than anywhere those ladies might be, but - he knows it isn't safe from Dracula in the first place, but now he's not so sure that those dreams weren't real to some extent as well. If the Count can get in without using the door, how would Jonathan ever know? How could he ever be sure?
Not to be to crazy about a scene of my own writing but like… the orange scene is not just them talking about marriage, but he’s also feeding her like a priest doing sacrament. He’s making her a heretic. He’s putting pleasure in her mouth as a temptation. He’s feeling her teeth close to his flesh. He…
this is my secret santa present for my lovely friend @corvidaearts! it was one day past the deadline (IN DECEMBER !), but it’s okay <3
this ISN’T ocs!! i drew my darling friends @bad12amcomic , @corvidaearts , and @sillyfairygarden (i’m also in there orz) and i had a blast rendering!!
thank you to crow, thello, and choco for being my lovely friends for the past few months! i’ve had a delight playing minecraft, drawing together, and having stupid vcs and bits with you guys!
dontt rlly like orb stuff, only bulging bellies, but admittedly i kinda like inflation-
how many people am I awakening to inflation with my art good lord /j
I GET THAT THO inflation never struck my fancy either because I never liked the way it was drawn/portrayed?? but I saw an artist a few days ago and I was like “oh… oh wait… thats kinda cool if I don’t need to become a literal formless ball….”… something about being very big and soft and also incapable of using my limbs is comforting (yeah the limbs thing is weird I don’t understand either)
tho another reason inflation was never a thing I liked is because because. I’m scared of balloons. I hate balloons. inflation is just about becoming a giant balloon. so anyways in my inflation art they’re always full of plush stuffing or memory foam or something. I guess it’s teeeechnically not inflation anymore but? who cares if it looks the same
the conversations about gender that cassie and skyrocket!kon could have later on about how they both tried to conform to gendered ideals but in an opposite sense (cassie tried hard to conform to a certain cis womanhood as part of embodying wonder girl, which meant the world to her, and her crush on kon partially reflects this) (kon was created to be *superman*, seen by many as a masculine ideal, and if you apply a certain read to tt03 he leans into embodying that brand of masculinity after “moving on” from another but neither are truly places of comfort for him) and how it affected their relationship to each other. theyre both transfem here btw.