#also their blog is deleted so yeah...

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

umm so fun thing- an anon was mean again, but this one affected me more than normal for some reason, sooo I shall post less ✨personality✨ here bc pain, soooo pls follow @the-curators-bullshit for hhof personality. thank you and goodnight lol

#you can only get so many ‘just shut up and post legendary posts’ before it fucks with you oops #anyways I have that other blog #like that was the whole point of creating that blog anyway #but it doesn’t get enough regular interaction to be as fun #except people were like really nice on there today and aaaahhh #anyways yeah #ignore this lol #i’ll recover in like a week and probably go back to normal but still #but umm yeah I need to re-fill my hall of fame post queue anyway so maybe i’ll do that #it’ll be fine #also if people wanna send really random asks or scream into the void asks #I would like reallyyyyy like that bc that ask is at the top of my inbox and I don’t like looking at it but can’t delete it oops #so like I would love to bury it in scream asks lol #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit #hellsite hall of fame curators bullshit

[sergle]

hey ! just wanted to jump in and let you know jacksfilms moderations have kindly asked not to spread around images/videos of sniperwolf outside of his home ! they've asked so for privacy reasons (even if it's censored)

yo!! I don't wanna violate anyone's privacy by circulating sensitive info / stuff being saved for legal reasons, obv that's why I used a screenshot where almost everything is censored except her caption and username- but I checked on his twitter to see if he posted/liked any statements about asking ppl to delete posts w that pic, and the video he posted a couple hours ago also shows another censored version of that same screenshot of the front of his house. so I'm not sure where that info is from? that said, if it is true then I can delete the post where the censored screenshot is posted but. like. since this is tumblr, the post and the imbedded images are still going to exist on ppl's reblogs of it, even if I deleted it all wholesale. it's not like on twit where if you QRT something, and it's deleted later, the tweet you quoted turns into a dead link while your comment still remains.

#I know the footage from his stream when the events were happening In Real Time has been pulled #to potentially be used later if he takes legal action and he's asked people not to post clips from it #but the (censored) pic of the street he lives on is also featured in his own vid. so I'm not sure why that's something #that is meant to be not circulated? #like there could be a post I missed but I mean. if jack put the screenshot in his own video I don't think he wants it Private. #but yeah if I deleted the post it would just mean you can't view it on my blog but you'd be able to see the post #in full on anyone else's blog who also reblogged it #sergle answers

[alangdorf]

Sorryyyy for dropping off the face of the earth; got kinda shy after that last post but mostly I’ve just been writing though I cannot guarantee that any of that will ever be finished (also I’m very insecure about my writing AAAH). Figure I might as well post the valentines I had done (like two months late lol); interestingly this turned into more of a hand lettering exercise than I was expecting lol

#len’en #yabusame houlen #suzumi kuzu #tsubakura enraku #haiji senri #art #digital #there was one more but I’m not confident it’s like. funny? and I have stuff I’d eant to change abt it #and these four have pretty good comedic timing as a set so I’ll just leave well enough alone #also had plans for a Kuroji and uhhh Xeno a but those haven’t panned out #you’ll have to excuse me I’ve been going off the rails and also have not fixed the meds situation (I’m completely out atm) #started like four fics; yes they are all suzutsuba and there is. so much sex (not described/on screen but STILL) #didn’t manage to stay away from Hamal Cine Bad End either jfhshsjfb #too nervous abt talking yo pol rn to leave comments but zaranthropy if you’re reading this I owe you my life #also I think I said I was inspired on something by dissociation constant and then when chapter 2 came out I relized it was something I had #completely misinterpreted but I’m too embarrassed to actually go and check lol…… #*talking to ppl sorry I had to turn off my autocorrect cause it was being compeltely unreasonable #OH YEAH also this Haiji design was a little bit inspired by a redesign of them from uhhhhhhh who was it. idk most of their blog is gone but #I’ll go check my likes #anyway I like how they tuned out also that joke came to me several days after valentine’s and gave me the idea for this whole thing #edit: can’t find the post anymore for some reason but I think yhe name was like chiosu or something? #did somebody go delete their blog while I wasn’t looking

[paperbaldi]

not gonna lie I sometimes feel strange posting baldi art in 2023. Like I know is not my fault that I didn't know about fandoms and stuff but seeing some old posts of fans having fun when baldis basics was so popular and posting arts and stuff and seeing people interacting with each other with their baldi blogs and...i don't know. I feel like I missed so much fun. I feel like a fake fan because I didn't join the fandom sooner and when I see people mention some events that happened in the fandom I just. can't say anything because I wasn't there (or either I don't remember that much?)

#tbh i wouldnt even be here if it was not bcuz of friends and some people encouraging me to keep drawing even tho my old drawings sucked ass #like i know it doesnt matter if you join a fandom late but damn ggrgrgrrg!!!! #but i think thats good bcuz i was so much younger when the first game came out - #i cant imagine the horrors of internet danger. #i was busy watching comic dubs 😔 #now whenever i post baldi art i feel like that scene when Spongebob tells a tomato joke and everyone is like. silent 👽 #yeah i went stalking to a baldi blog who reposted baldi related through all way 2018 (worst mistake) #now when I see a baldi blog theyre either desactivated or abandoned which. i understand. lack of interest...! #i just kind of wish i was present when those blogs were created #also uh. sorry for this i hope yall understand 🥸 #talking :0) #i think i may delete later...? idk

[elliwoods]

In such a weird spot right now, very much debating a reblog sideblog

I know tumblr is all about "reblogging is good for the ecosystem!" which, yes! Reblogging is such a help for art! But at the same time I am one of those people who doesnt follow people who reblog too much because I get stressed out easily when there is too much stuff on my dash to catch up with. Which leads to me missing out on some cool peoples art. And I KNOW I am not alone in this mindset

I am currently trying to keep a balance between 'reblogging enough to get attention on smaller art posts' and 'not posting enough to cause people to unfollow me' but ah, thats hard....

#shrug #thoughts ig #but at the same time im like. hmm #2 blogs is enough.... actually.... #haha 2 blogs left *gets smacked* #another part of me wants to make a reblog sideblog for the sake of archiving purposes #I tried making that years ago actually but then deleted it after 3 reblogs #because I relogged some fanart to main by accident and got embarrassed LMAO #hell yeah #embarrass myself in front of the what the 100 followers I had back then? #good lord turtles exploded this blog #@intotheelliwoods was just supposed to be silly occasional fanart......... #what happened to you #turtle hell #this is also why whenever I do reblog some art on @intotheelliwoods #its typically some like. small artist little note post #that def needs some more attraction #I would LOVE to reblog friends shit but then!!!!! #ugh!!!!!!! #I would be reblogging so much and I fear I would scare off people aha

[theshadowrealmitself]

*really late at night/early morning*

Brain: Hey, I know you’re exhausted, but for the first time in forever I’m gonna make you feel inspired to write a story, I’m also gonna give you a really good outline of how the story goes and how it ends, which you usually have trouble with

Me: But-

Brain: Oh I know, you’re not gonna be able to do it tonight, you’re also gonna lose that motivation to do it when you wake up, this is just to fuck with you rn while you try to sleep :3c

#im. im fucking obsessed with every part of this plot bunny #please please PLEASE let me keep motivation to work on it when I wake up #I already wrote down the outline so I don’t forget it #*please* #ugh only problem with writing stuff I intend to post on ao3 is that I’ve also put in my other side account on one of my stories #and I hardly use that side account because one of my exes started stalking it after we broke up #he wasn’t even following me while we were dating!! #he waited till after I broke up with him to follow me!! #and then after I blocked him he still kept interacting with my blog!!! #tumblr make a better fucking blocking system. #yeah so I’m worried about him potentially knowing my ao3 account #and I really hope he doesn’t follow this account #@ eric if you’re *still* looking at my stuff just know that you’re a mega creep and I hate you. #seriously dude. #haven’t deleted that side account or my ao3 cause I’m still attached to them #but yeah it sucks posting to either of them knowing that there’s a CREEP who WONT RESPECT MY BOUNDARIES looking at them #god I hate him #no fandom

[gothicayomi]

Lmfao ven or whatever deleted their post but I screenshotted that entire thing cuz I fucking knew they would 🙄 bitch I don’t fucking play any games.

If you’re going to stick to your shitty narrative and try and get people on your side then don’t be shady, motherfucker.

#Alex kister #the Mandela catalogue #a couple days ago when I first read the doc I was under the assumption d8 was a minor #nope that mf is also grown #made sure to save their doc too cuz I don’t trust like that. #but yeah I wanted an update on the situation so I came to tumblr n saw ven post #so I read it and reread the doc thoroughly this time and yeah man. you ain’t slick #fuck you and your transmisogyny. bitch #edit: forgot that once ppl rb a post it technically stays on the site #cuz I found it on someone else’s blog but ven deleted their post #anyways. bitch ass

[hypodermicfroggy]

Genuinely the one thing I like about Tumblr and "parading around its relics" is that blogs deactivate, die off, become abandoned/hacked, or slapped with the mature label with such frequency if you are *not* actively using them (and sometimes even then), and then the only way content survives is through the reblogs.

I've been cleaning out my likes and looking for a bunch of fanart I knew I had saved from a blog. Couldn't find it. Turns out the blog is dead now, hacked and blanked out. That artwork is now limited to other people's reblogs.

Parade the relics around. Get into the habit of archiving. We live in an era where everything is remembered and forgotten simultaneously and nothing is guaranteed.

#Tumblr #croak.txt #this is also why I deeply do not like the turning off reblogs function because if your blog is lost #and you don't have copies of your work #what are you going to do then? #like the artist I liked in question is still active on Twitter but is no longer in the fandom #and now doesn't want to be associated with 'problematic content' (which the fandom they used to draw for kinda is) #so like...they sure aren't going to repost their work #there's also the fact that now people will just straight up edit posts to 'delete' them #which means misinformation and covering up shit gets easier #like yeah...maybe some random's fanfic or fanart isn't the equivalent of a great cultural du force #but it brings someone happiness. and isn't that reason enough to keep it around? #isn't it enough to look back and see how far you've progressed?

[anotherpapercut]

people acting like there isn't still very much an active stigma against cannibas and cannibas users is going to be my joker origin story

when i go to the doctor they still put cannibas use under the tab "substance abuse". not even just substance use. it is fully assumed that people who use cannabis, even as a prescription medication, are abusing it. just because you're friends with a couple of dumbass stoners doesn't mean that we've abandoned the idea as a culture that weed is a bad and scary and dangerous and highly addictive drug that will ruin your life if you use it once

#idk what its like in other countries but in the us and especially in red states fear mongering about weed is alive and well #'it ruins lives' -direct quote from a library board member making it so we can be fired for testing positive even w a prescription #i just take umbrage with posts about addiction that go out of their way to mention weed which we all learned in 6th grade is addictive #but dont also mention that this true of all prescription drugs and that a person can be dependant on a drug for health reasons??? #yeah i get anxious and cant go a day without weed. because i use it to treat my anxiety and pain. i also get anxious without my wellbutrin #but people arent lining up to make posts about it?? and like you CAN obviously become addicted to prescription drugs its super common! #so i kind of feel like it would be far more useful to say 'this is true of ALL drugs. including weed caffeine and prescriptions' #you should always research ANY drug you take. prescription or not. find out about addictiveness + side effects + other drug interactions #and you should talk to someone if you feel anxious about your relationship to drugs. prescription or not #there have been many times where i was prescribed way too many drugs at once and it made me feel anxious and uncomfortable #so i talked to my doctors and consolidated several and it actually made them work a lot better #locked reblogs because i KNOW people are going to read this is 'so you should never ever talk about negative consequences of weed' #and im pretty sure the people who follow me will be able to understand thats obviously not what im saying #but as soon as it leaves my blog whos to say. but anyway like. I think we should talk more about addiction to all substances #and not just the ones that were already covered in DARE #I feel like at this point everybody has heard all of the negative possibilities with weed use at least once #and that's not necessarily true of caffeine and even like. benadryl lmfao #I might delete this in 10 minutes if I psych myself out akbdjznsjf

[hearties-circus]

Oh g-d I've been withdrawing

#gamer txt. #i keep typong up posts and tags and delstinv them withoit thinking too much about it recentlu but k never usually dp that #theyve all been needy and attention seeking and thats why i was eriting them in the first place but thats ehy i keep deleting them #because i want attention #and that scares tge hell out of me #how bad do i have to be to be this desperate for some sort of contact yet this scared of losing everyone eho moght give it to me #why am u rhis scared of people thinking im annoying ive been feleting needy posts for months thats not . like me #even when im bad im usually better than that i dont. i dont understand ahy this is different #hell i relapsed a few months ago and i couldnt bring myself to even say i cut myself again outright bc i didnt want to be bother #since when the hell have i put up the illusion of being ok on this blog why am i so comcerned #are my trust issues really that bad? am i really that worried everyone who cares about me will fold the second i inconveniene them? #g-d thats. yeah fuck no wonder my friends were insulted when i gave them a 6/10 for 'ppl i would talk to if i had issues' #that is insulting #and whats worse is that its a lie #6/10 should be over half i should tell them my problems about half of the time #i dont do it. ever #and usually thats not too bad because i unload wverything here anyways but now ive stsrted stopping kyself frkm doi g thst #i want help and attention and to stop being so svared but im too scared to ask for those #i had to drag myself out of bed to make rhis post bc if i left it till morning i wouldnt do kt #also thats why all the typos btw no glssses its dark and i stsrted crying at some point #i dont know if its just how ive been feeling lateky or if theres some truth to it but i feel like my text posts have been getting seen less #im honestly kinda really twrrified im gonna wake up and no one will have seen this post and im just gonna pretend to be ok #bevause i would i think i would really just give up #i dont know what gl do #ive never been this scaredwithout a discernable cause before #ive stsrted cryung way harder andb u dont even know why #i think i think thats more or lees everything off my chest #im gonna try to sleep

[running-in-the-dark]

sooooo

I'm 32 now

when can I expect to finally grow out of getting obsessed with men people stuff? I'm waiting....

#I doooo not want it #it's embarrassing #can it stop please #BUT also can I not feel depressed and like an empty shell when it's not happening #I mean I can handle it when it's things. hobbies. shows. whatever #sure it usually ends up being expensive as fuck but #at least I don't go around humiliating myself by talking about nothing but a random guy for months on end #how embarrassing! I think a man is hot! I must jump off a cliff immediately #but whyyyy can't I be normal about it at least #other people get obsessed with normal things! like. idk. anything else #soo anyway the opening narration for the texas chainsaw massacre is great isn't it? he did such a good job :) what a nice voice :) I am not #going to be weird about this man any longer :) no I won't! I'm normal about him! I don't want to bite him or chew on his face or anything #like that. just normal things. uh. sex? that's what people usually want. yeah fine that. I mean I do. want. oh I think I'm doing it again #haha no it's fine I just think he's neat (he's the only person on earth no one else exists anymore he's so beautiful oh my god have you seen #his little face he looks like a cute little potato I've never seen anything prettier in my life haha I need to run my hands through his hair #and have you seen how tall he is and he's so cute and I need to. be taken outside and shot. god. #I keep. shrieking. every time I see him. at such a high frequency that it hurts my own fucking ears. because. I can't believe that he exists #I'm. so. stupid!!!! #annnd repeat this every time this happens blah blah blah i should jsut delete this blog right now oh my GOD.

[ghoul-haunted]

the problem with being an artist online is that people will sometimes start to treat you like you're a thing to demand content from instead of a person, which is the main reason I don't want to have a 'personal identity' on an art blog, like I'm so disinterested in letting people feel too comfy about being even ruder than they are in my inbox on my history blog. I also singled out my history blog here, but I also keep getting anons demanding more musketeers are and it's pissing me off. you are not exempt from the I Dont Take Requests statement in my pinned. either give me a book about french architecture and room interiors from the relevant century or begone

thankfully. that is a very small drop of water in a very large ocean. like, if it was exceedingly annoying, I would not be rewatching the show. the agrippa/octavian people were so fucking rude that they're banned from my blog unless it's as a thank you piece for someone

#like i fully feel way more casual about interactions on my main art blog #or even on twitter! i reply to DMs on twitter semi regularly!! usually it's just other artists but the casual nature of twitter is like #yeah okay i'm cool with this. anons on tumblr assuming a demanding tone as a joke is Not Cool and I Dislike It Immensely #it only EVER happens on my history blog tho like what is in the water that brings that attitude out #it could also be that the fandom i draw most art for on my main art blog #is mostly inhabited by people in their 30s or have long established fandoms #like the jsamn fandom has been SO nice and i am having a very good time so far #but the three musketeers fandom keeps sending rude messages demanding more art from me. i usually delete it #my favorite tho is the tomb robbers one. i like it there #ANYWAY. i spent too much time navel gazing abt how i feel in two different spaces #but this is in fact why i originally split those two blogs up. i KNEW that history tumblr was going to annoy me

[max-vandenburg-is-life]

Hellooooo. So right now there's like 5-6 different posts with links to my drive folders going around and it's honestly very difficult to keep up because everyone's making requests and stuff like that in all the posts. I'm gonna change a few things, my pinned post mainly: my pinned post will be the shortened version of the post that is now my pinned, and I'll go editing it when adding new links instead of reblogging it over and over. I'll also probably delete some of the posts but don't worry I'll keep all the important stuff.

Anyways just wanted to give a little heads up! And yes I'll countinue making drives!!!! Starting again soon

#a little update for the drives #so yeah the main problem is that there's just too many posts and it's difficult to keep up with all of them #I'm gonna delete some posts but the links will be the same so that the reblogs still work #also my pinned post is like veeeery long and just difficult to read so that's why I'll change it #and this is all!!! the whole thing is a mess now and i like to have my blog kinda tidy so I'll get to it #just wanted to give an update before i started changing things #links #drive folder #an original post no way