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taegularities · 2 years

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I'm going to ramble so you're free to ignore me but I need to let it out, so 🤷

See, I'm a curvy girl- okay not curvy, I'm fat. I like reading fanfics and I'm one of those who just can't picture y/n as myself you know? Mostly because at the back of my mind I know that someone like them would never really go for someone like me. So my y/n is a faceless person. But, also, my yn is skinny? Why? I don't know man I am nowhere near skinny. When I read fanfics, I want to escape the real world. The thing is, I haven't read enough curvy girl fanfics. I haven't seen many although there were some really good curvy girl fics when I tried to purposely look for them. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying it for you, you may have written fics with curvy girl lead I actually haven't had the chance to read all of your work, I'm saying that in general I haven't seen writers choosing a curvy lead. Maybe it's normal and I'm not implying that people change their writing style for me or anyone, but, I wish there were more people addressing this issue because let's face it, it's always us being bullied and laughed upon, never us being the centre of attraction. The least we can expect from the world is a little consideration. I know there are prettier, skinnier, more beautiful woman out there and I'm like 120% sure our boys will find someone VERY attractive. They deserve it, they deserve the best. I just, I just cannot relate with fics describing our waist as skinny, mine isn't. I have saggy tummy, big arms and broad body frame. I don't have the 'small' or 'short' traits, I'm almost as tall as the boys. My hands aren't dainty, they're big and won't feel 'small' in their hands. I am overweight and no-one would be able to 'tap my thighs' and ask me to jump so they can fuck me against the wall. The list can go on an on. I know it's just fiction, I just wish there were more fictions considering us curvy/thick/big girls out there. I sound petty right now but that's just how I feel, how I've been feeling ever since I can remember anything.

I'll end my ramble here, I'm so sorry you had to read it, it just felt safe to share it with you maybe because you're Indian too? I don't know. Don't get me wrong, it's absolutely not my intention to put your or other writers down, I LOVE your fics. You write beautifully. Thank you for writing, atleast I get to escape the world for sometime <3 if you decide to write a curvy girl fic in the future I will personally koala hug you till you have to elbow me in my ribs to breathe, then I'll proceed to give you all the kisses whether you like it or not.

hey, love 🥺 first of all, don't apologise !! it's absolutely okay to vent, and if you feel like my blog is a safe space to do so, then please feel free to talk to me whenever <3

i absolutely understand your worries; the world is sadly dominated by this weird standard that people have, about girls having to be pretty and skinny with a small waist and whatnot. it's something that's slowly vanishing, i think, but it's frustrating nevertheless... i get that

i think, as writers of fanfics we should definitely be careful of how we portray our ocs, and to keep her as neutral and 'faceless' as possible - like, although i catch myself slipping into that 'sex against the wall' and 'member carrying yn' thing sometimes too, i try my best to not describe anything about my girls (skin colour, weight, etc).

but i feel like this happens to me, because i imagine myself in that situation a lot or write about the things i would like to try at some point. if my ocs ever become to descriptive regarding their appearance, please don't hesitate to let me know !! i'm so sorry that you see so many fics with characters with skinny waists and dainty hands, it's honestly something that we should be careful about 😔

that being said, i hope you know that you're beautiful regardless! your face, your body, your personality are something unique and they belong to only you, and no one will ever compare to that, no matter how sharp their jaw or how straight their nose. and remember that even the boys talk about self-love and i'm sure they would absolutely adore you, how you are as a person and how you look.

you're not petty, ok !! i'm giving you all my love and will always try my best to not write in a way that makes you feel inferior. also, thank you so much for liking my work, i appreciate you so much 🥺

#long post #tw: body insecurity #pls u guys can rant about whatever always do not ever apologise <33 #notes for rid 🌹#anon

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cheolbooluvr · 3 years

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*knocks on door* helloo, it's me again 👀 let me start with the most important thing: you're writing is definitely NOT "meh" T_T I love you're writing style, the way you describe thoughts and feelings and the setting, like dude, have you actually read what you write? while we're already at it, I am in absolute love with Woozi's confession part? It perfectly fits his personality, I could imagine that happening exactly this way 🥺 about your milestone prompt game, I was eating breakfast (why do you live on the other side of the world D;) while reading the part with Jeonghan and I almost choked on my cereal because I had to laugh sm when he revealed they had to kiss lmao 😂

and I really loved the other parts, too, especially the one with Wonwoo, it's just...perfect :D

I was just a bit confused because you said it's an established relationship and I thought they already were a couple but I probably just got the wrong idea of what "established relationship" actually means, tbh I have no clue about terms for fanfics now about Leica 🥺 IT'S SO GOOD??? asjkdlaksusakjl the way the reader could tell it's Cheol, or maybe it was just me but I was literally sitting here thinking "I can imagine Cheol doing that...which other member could also fit tho? But Cheol.." ajkhdkjlWJD It's just reeeeeeaally good okay? okay. quick question, are you doing photography, too? 👀 and wait, I'm also on my laptop on tumblr recently since my phone is broken rn oops and I just found out that I can press the windows key and the . (point) key to use emojis? though, idk if that works for you, too I've actually reread both stories, "When we meet again" and "My dream is you", but I was talking about the one with Mingyu <3 and it's so cool that you want to write your own novels! Omg go for it! The talent is definitely there 😌 looking forward to your collabs and what else you planned or already have on hand :D now, last but not least, Vincenzo *clears throat* it's an emotional roller coaster and I don't know what to feel about that T_T I love the show, no doubts, but my heart was broken several times by now and I haven't even reached half time yet :( BUT they are iconic, he is iconic and I'm living for everything they do may I ask who your favourite characters would be? this has nothing to do with you writing, I am so sorry anyway, I should probably go to bed *coughs*, but who needs sleep am I right? well, enjoy your day/evening, stay healthy and safe and take care <3 ~🌙

well well well if it isn't the LOVE OF MY LIFE HI🌙 ANON 💕

okay before we dive in, re: wonwoo's drabble, that was a mistake hahahahaha they are most definitely NOT in an established relationship 😂 i copy and paste the formatting for previous fics and sometimes i forget to change the details (wc, genre, warnings, etc). it's happened a lot so not surprised i forgot to change it again lol

next, WOW THANK YOU FOR THE KIND WORDS 🥺 i hit a wall of self-doubt while i was writing recently and i felt my writing style wasn't good enough :(( but now i'm just using that to push myself and vary my sentence structure and be descriptive but not too descriptive, etc etc. to answer your question if i actually read what i write: no hahaha my brain is dead after i write and then i get fed up w it and then post it and never look back (jk i do reread them sometimes)

the jeonghan one i am rly happy w and i'm glad you enjoyed it 🤗 i was literally abt to go to bed and my brain went: OMG WHAT IF JEONGHAN ENEMIES TO LOVERS and the rest is history.

also i am so glad you like woozi's confession, i struggled a lot w that one 😭 and leica too omg!! i am so so so glad you thought of cheol uwu i'm soft for him and then he posted those photos from his leica lol and i was like YES ANGSTY TIME anyways-- to answer your other question, yes i do do photography!! only digital tho, so any film buffs who read leica will probably eat me alive bc idk how to actually develop film 😭

agshdkfldl thank you for supporting me and my novelist dreams 🥺 super reassuring knowing at least ONE person will read my stories 💕 (also i will try the emoji thing on my computer)

now speaking of collabs, i've already finished one and i MIGHT post a sneak peek bc i'm very excited abt it hehe so keep an eye out ;)

okay and finally: VINCENZO. it's quite the whirlwind, keeps you on your toes 24/7, funny, sad, lovely, hilarious, it rly ticks a lot of boxes that most kdramas don't usually do. the heartbreak tho, OOF, lemme just say you need to prepare yourself. fav characters? hong cha young: absolute QUEEN, she is so incredible and honestly everything i ever aspire to be. i also just love all of the tenants of geumga like they add so much color to the show. i think vincenzo would be a lot darker without them which would be FINE but i'm glad they're there ☺ also plz we don't have to talk abt my writing all the time lol

also plz get some sleep!! rest up, drink water, and always stay safe and healthy <333

#cheolbooluvr asks #cheolbooluvr 🌙 anon

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