#and im gonna kilometers myself i hate it here

[putridapachetears]

I am shitting my pant fucking SCHOOL STARTS TODAY IM GONNA CRY AND DIE IF ANYONE TELLS ME IM MY BIRTHGENDER I AM AT MY LIMIT HERE

#lgbtqiia+ #trans #school starts #and im gonna kilometers myself i hate it here #my fate is done #lgbtq

[milkandhoneyoongi]

he is sick (bts reaction)

request: (1/2) i've read through your blog and dear lord your writings are so amazing. i especially love when you write an angst or a fighting scene, they're just so on point and heartbreaking and beautiful all the same. i'd like to drop in a request if you don't mind?

(2/2) i've seen everywhere imagines where the significant other is sick and the boys are taking care of him/her, so how about the other way around: the boys are ill and their s/o taking care of them? i was thinking of a reaction post (like the one where the s/o has a nightmare dAmMIT that was so well-written) but if you don't feel like it, write only for yoongi is totally fine! thank you so much, please keep on writing!

a/n: sis….i deliver.  and by deliver i mean do the request but do it so poorly im sorry sjdfkljk also literally thank u so much i almsot cried reading your message lmaooo i love u uwu

you can always send me a request here and view my old imagines here

genre: angsty and fluffy at the same time

word count: 1,661 words

warnings: vomit mention

seokjin

       You were so used to Jin taking care of everyone.  He was really like a mother, and a great one at that, always tending to everyone else’s needs before his own, but this rarely resulted in him forgetting to take care of himself.

So when you awoke one night to find his side of the bed empty and the bathroom door shut, rays of light sneaking through the crack by the floor, you were confused.  It took a keen sense of hearing to observe the quiet pants on the other side, but the sound that followed, that of retching, could have probably woken up most.  

“Jinnie?” You murmured, getting out of bed and making your way to the bathroom.  “You okay, sweetheart?” You tapped on the door lightly before opening it, frowning at the sight of your boyfriend keeled over the toilet bowl, forehead slick with sweat.  

“Go back to bed,” he murmured, gazing up at you with a lazy stare.

“Jagi,” you frowned, kneeling down beside him and pressing the back of your hand to his forehead.   “I’m going to get you some panadol,” you mumbled, rushing to the kitchen to get him a few pills and a glass of water, making your way back to his side.  “Please take this,” you pleaded, knowing if you didn’t he’d turn you away.

“Jagiya,” he sighed, resting his head against his forearm.  “I can take care of myself.”

“But you don’t have to,” you frowned, resting your chin on top of his head, smiling sadly as he melted into your embrace, face tucked into your neck as you pressed soft kisses to his hair.  “I’ve got you, my love.  We’re going to get you better.”

yoongi

       You got home from work rather early, expecting to be able to prepare a meal for Yoongi before he got home from work, gearing up to surprise him.  It was, whoever, who got the surprise of seeing your boyfriend laying on the couch wrapped in a blanket.  In his sleep he sniffled quietly and you resisted the urge to find his state adorable.  

You went off to the kitchen, making a quick change of dinner plans from his favorite to porridge.  It was something that was always made for you when you were ill and so you decided to pass on the act to Yoongi.  

He awoke close to half an hour after you got home, the scent of porridge now filling the house.  He smiled sleepily, trudging into the kitchen and feeling himself well with joy at the sight of you.

“Hey sweetheart,” you murmured softly, stepping forward and wrapping your arms around him.  “How are you feeling?”

“How did you even know I was sick?” He mumbled, eyebrows coming together.

“You were home early and you were sniffling,” you spoke pointedly, “I put two and two together.”

“What are you making?” He looked over your shoulder to the stove, a satisfied grin washing over his features.  “I love porridge.”

“I figured you should eat nothing else when you’re sick,” you pecked a kiss to the tip of his nose and found yourself pleased by the happy look on his face.  “I’ll take good care of you, Yoongi-ah.  Always will.”

hoseok

       When Hoseok was sick, you knew.  Everyone in a ten kilometer radius knew.  You had gotten out of class that day, observing the several calls and texts from almost every member saying that Hobi wasn’t feeling well and to be prepared.  You quickly gave him a call, wanting to gauge how he was doing before you got home.

“Jagiya?” You could tell in his voice he was not exaggerating his sickness and that he was, in fact, not feeling well at all.  His voice was strained as though he had been coughing and you could hear the frown in his words.  

“Hey, honey, how are you feeling?” You cooed into the phone, feeling bad that you weren’t with him at the moment.

“Not my best.”  You could picture his sweet pout and felt yourself doing the same at the prospect.  “I think I’m coming down with something.”

“Did you get your flu shot this year?” You questioned, wanting to figure out what you’d need to buy for him at the store.  You heard him sigh.

“I forgot.”

You nearly grinned at his dilemma, making a beeline to the nearest pharmacy to pick up some panadol and some tissues.  “What’s your fever at the moment?”

“38 degrees.” You winced.

“Hobi, that’s really high,” your concern was evident in your tone.  “I’m stopping to get you some things at the store is there anything you want?”

“Just you,” he mumbled happily and you grinned.

“I’m on my way.”

namjoon

       Namjoon hated being sick.  You knew that your boyfriend carried the weight of the world on his shoulders already, and when his body struggled to hold itself up everything else would topple too.  That’s why it broke your heart when he came home early on your day off, cleary groggy.  You had noticed that morning that he wasn’t himself, but if he wasn’t himself then, you didn’t recognize the man that walked through the doors that afternoon.  

“Oh Joonie-ah,” you tutted walking forward to envelop him in your arms.

“I don’t want you getting sick, jagi,” he murmured, gently pushing you away and brushing past you as he left to shower.  You frowned, not wanting him to ever have to go through anything alone, quickly making your way to the kitchen to make him something warm to eat, lighting a few candles to make the atmosphere cozier for him.  He came out of the bathroom a few minutes later, towel drying his hair.  He wore just a pair of sweatpants and came into the kitchen with a sigh.

He smiled to himself at the sight of a plate with some pills he should take to feel better and a tall glass of water.  You leaned against the counter on the other side of the kitchen, donning a mask playfully.

“You won’t have me getting sick, and I won’t have you being sick alone.  Compromise,” you grinned, placing a bowl of porridge in front of him.  You sat across from him at the table, smiling down to him.

He chuckled and sighed, gesturing to the seat next to him with his head as he downed the water and the medicine.  “You idiot just come over here.”

jimin

       You knew Jimin was sick the moment you woke up because he pulled you too tight to his chest.  He let out small whimpers in his sleep, and you could feel his warm forehead against the back of your neck.

“Jiminie,” you frowned, shaking his shoulders gently.  “Jiminie, honey.  Let’s get you some medicine before you light the bed on fire.” You got out of bed, toes touching the cold wood floors.  

“Jagi,” he whined rom the bedroom, “Come back to bed.  I’m cold.”

“You need medicine!” You cooed from the kitchen, rifling through the cabinets to get what you knew he needed, running back to the bedroom and placing them into his hand.  “Go on.  You can cuddle after you take those.”  He groaned, swallowing the pills like you asked before opening his arms wide for your embrace.  

“You promised,” he teased, pulling you into his chest with a tight grip around your shoulders.  “I took your medicine now you give me mine.”

taehyung

       From Namjoon: Please let me know when Taehyung has gotten home safely.

You felt yourself sigh at the knowledge that if he was being sent home it was because he was really sick.  You wondered if he was walking or taking a cab, hoping it was the latter as you wanted to be sure he was safe.  A relieved grin spread across your face as you heard the door open and close, shooting Namjoon a quick text that he had gotten home and going to greet your boyfriend at the door.

His nose and cheeks were beet red, a tired glint in his eye as he slipped out of his shoes and went to pull you into his arms.  You allowed yourself to melt into his embrace, not knowing what to say.

“They made me leave,” he murmured.

“I know,” you responded simply.  “Namjoon let me know you were on your way.”

“I just need to get better,” he shook his head angrily.  “I can’t be sick.  Comeback is coming.”

“I know, honey,” you pressed a kiss to his warm forehead, rubbing your hand in soft circles against his back.  “We’re gonna get you better.”

jungkook

       You had decided to stop by the studio on your way home from work to drop off a few things for Jungkook, just some snacks and maybe a kiss to get him through the rest of his practice.

“Y/N!” You turned to see Jin sighing with relief.  “Good, can you bring Jungkook home?”  You cocked your head to the side in confusion.  “He won’t leave, but he can barely stand.”

You felt yourself freeze up, following him to where Jungkook sat, leaning against the wall with his head in his hands.  “Kookie-ah,” you let out a breath, sliding down the wall to sit next to him.  “What’s up?”

“I’m okay,” he moaned, shaking his head to wake himself up and trying to stand.

“Jagi, don’t do that.  We’re gonna go home, okay?” You tapped his arm and aided him in standing.  “I was on my way anyway.  You can tap out early.  You need to get better and staying when you don’t feel well will only make it worse.”

The other boys groaned as he nodded.  “We’ve been saying that!” Jin exclaimed.  

“Don’t listen to them, jagi, we’re gonna get you home now,” you patted his back, grabbing his stuff off the couch for him and walking him out the door, giving the boys a soft wave and a smile as you brought Jungkook home to get better.

#bts #bts scenario #bts reaction #bts angst

[pavle-fredfox-blog]

The 4th wall breaking Missadventures of the 55189th

                               World 2687 “Lunaris I”

Location :site *****

Leutenant Pavle“The Emperial forces are struggling to take the location.We are going in to take one of the rebel HQ’s.Wish us luck”.

Commander Alexander “Where is the back up unit”.

Soilder “Sir they were ordered by RC 15 to take out a key position”.

Explosions go out in the distance and a mech the size of an elephant falls from the sky.

???? “GOD DAMIT, they have anti-mech systems.I will try and regroup with...”

Leutenant Pavle“Negative private stay there and try helping the push a little.”

RC15 “Remember i want the leading officers Alive”*comunications cut out for 2 seconds*”your punishment for failure will be severe this time,and no explosives until the taget is secured.”.

Leutenant Pavle “OK squad split up me and 3 of you to the right,4 go straight,and 4 go right,the rest decide where to go”just as he said that 25 anti-mech turrets pop out and shoot down 15 out of the 20 squad members (counting those that made it there).

“Ok change of plans we will all take out these turrets and slowly try one way after the other.Also we will go from the left to the right and then throu middle”.

The 5518 mech corp squad a was wondering for about an hour throu the whole sector and ended up destroying enouf of the hq that the rebels had to retreat.the commanding officers mostly escaped except for the few that were eather injured,captured or sleaping.The victory at the HQ forced the rebels to reatreat about 10 kilomiter’s and for them to thin out their line a bit.    

Leutenant Pavle “Ok men lets go party,i hope that HQ dosen’St change the plans in the last second”

RC15 “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. Willian Shakespeare right???.Oh and you were are right about that we changed the plan.The enemy has a communication’s outpost 150 Killometers here,if you capture it we can  try to encircle the enemy force in this region.”

Leutenant Pavle”Wow your on fire today commander.Also woud it not be easier if you just used your magic to whipe them off the face off the universe.”

RC15”Eh im to lazy to do it,Plus i have to manage the rest of the front”.

Leutenant Pavle “Well you heard her LETS GO I DONT WANT TO GET US EXECUTED FOR TREASON.Also will we get any reainforcements,we are kinda low on men.”

RC15 “Not my problem”.

Leutenant Pavle “Great,i hope the reward wont be a day off like last time”.

                           Operation Starnberg

Leutenant Pavle”After the order was given out we were teleported to the location,We rushed to end it....”

Corporal Volnus “Sir the enemy has 8 Anti-Mech Batteries (one battery is one Artilery gun), 2 on every side.It looks like its the main Communication tower “ *Communications cut off*

Leutenant Pavle “CORPORAL VOLNUS..REPORT IN WHAT IS HAPPPENING.CORPORAL JOVAN WHAT IS HAPPPENING REPORT IN................I HATE PLOT ARMOUR...SORRY PILOT ARMOUR”

RC15 “Jeez calm down its just corporal Volnus a lazy son of a **** and that guy from earth Jovan.Now take out the communications or i will”

A light started shining so bright that it was seen across the system

A loud scream was heard across the system

“I WHO SHALL AWAKEN HAVE AGREED TO LEND MY DRAGONLY POWER,THOSE WHO HEAR THIS SHALL KNOW MY NAME,I AM INTURION.SCREAM MY NAME IN PAIN AS I GRANT REVENGE ON THOSE WHOM I SEE FIT TO DIE.LETS GO ,YOUR TRAIN TO PURGATORY AWAITS.So call my name scream INTURION!!!!!!!!!”.

Screams coud be heard across the system,as Leutenant Pavle started to become deformed,His body slowly turned into a mix of a dragon and a human.During the entire time he screamed “I am the one who calls upon this anchent power,oh holy dragon awaken at the sound of my scream for INTURION I SUMMON YOU”

                                          2 mounths later

Leutenant Pavle “ I remember waking up outside of my mech surrounded by a field of dead people coloured red both me and the corpses.One of my arms had “Scream my name and i shall grant you power.But i shall take your life force away.Every hour shall become a year with my power” writen on it.

The doctors started to remove him from the healing equipment when a man rushed into the room.He carried a letter that was signed by RC15.

Pavle opened the letter,it said :

Congratulations on your promotion General Pavle,You not only managed to take out the enemy leadership and their communications but also 15025 rebel soilders,2500 Anti-Mech batteries,250 Mech’s and also destroyed a Usnik class dreadnough.You shall become leader of the new 55189TH Extermination Force or better known as EF.”

I remember that he cried when he read that and then he said “I WONT GET BOSSED AROUND YES”.

The doctors laughed at that and then he said “i forgot to tell you you have an order to go to your army and train the soilders.Also they want you to get an special unit to go with you.You coud call them the Black blood battalion,i mean i hope you find who blead black just like you did 2 mounths ago”.

General Pavle “That is how the name of our Battalion came to be.There was another battalion like that,I cant remember the name,let me ask the guy who created the timeline.”.

                             END RECORDING

                                                              RECORDING .....

General Pavle”The training of the Black Blood Batalion is going great.It sucks that i must also manage the Extermination Force.Well i guess i better get to training i heard there may be new recruits coming soon.But it is not certain until the Maze ends.Today is 2 years from operation Starnberg and 2 years from death of my best friends and comrades Steff Sergeant Jovan and high sergeant Volnus.”

He looked sadly with a bit of anger,you coud see the flames in his eyes ready to become reality.He scremed the name Inturion after and imagined himself ripping RC15 to shreads.That all got out “SO TELL ME HOW ARE YOU SLEAPING EASY,HOW ARE YOU ONLY THINKING OF YOURSELF.SHOW ME HOW DA F**** DO YOU JUSTIFY TELLING ALL YOUR LIES LIKE SECOND NATURE” RC19 heard that and replied “OK SHUT THE FUCK UP IM LISTENING TO A GUY BEING TOTURED IF YOU DONT SHUT UP YOUR NEXT”

General Pavle “Listen mark my words one day one day YOU WILL PAY YOU WILL PAY.Karma’s gonna come collect your dept (sais RC15 silently)”

RC19 “SHUT THE F*** UP LAST WARNING”

General Pavle”Also one thing,when is the next maze??”

RC3 “Next cicle and you better shut up i don’t want RC19 to get you frst *smiles*”

General Pavle “Thanks RC3 but i just want to ask how much time do i have to run??”

RC3 “5”

General Pavle “THANKS NOW BYE”

He ran like no person did before.He was able to run away from RC3 for a good 10 seconds,then he triped and fell off the hill and was about to fall into the torture chaimbers

General Pavle “FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU”

RC3 “OH YES”

It was at this moment Pavle knew he fucked up,so he pulled a pistol out and said “I always was a peace of s**** and if i coud, i woud kill myself,but its elegal OUCH with OUCH all of the read coats”.

And then he pulled the trigger to see his clip was empty, and then he saw a big as f*** rock heading for his face, he coud hear in the distance

You guess what happened next.He barely dodged the rock but fell into the chambers hitting his manly bits on a covenietly placed “steel mat that had sharp bits” and he screamed in pain so much that RC19 took her headphones off and started dancing to it.RC3 stoped and started laughing.

General Pavle “I...guess if im gonna die like this,then i will say this NOW WE ARE ALL SONS OF BITCHES”

RC3 “He knows he wont die and will just be healed right??

General Pavle “JUST LET ME DIE YOU SICK F***.I hate my life,i hate everything. You sick twisted F***”

RC3 “Who are you talking to???.Eh never mind you know what will happen”

General Pavle “I hate myself right now i wish that the mind eraser is going to be manufactured soon”

                                                     2 Hours later

General Pavle “Welp thanks for that doc.i realy hope RC3 wont stay here for a long time”

Random medic “Dont worry she wont.but you are an unluck guy.Your being sent off to a far off planet  with RC35 to take out a mayor rebel stronghold.It is rumoured that a person who can fight Read Coats is there”

General Pavle “Welp i guess its good to move away from this place...it reminds me of operation Starnberg.I lost all of my best friends and comrades in the frst 15 minutes of the mission”

Commander Wilhelm “Well i guess im not the only poor bastard assigned to that planet.I lost about 15 houndred men in the frst 30 minutes”.

He said that with a small anger in his voice.He looked at General Pavle and said “I know what you have been throu,RC15 was my commander too.She forced us to deploy behind enemy lines and try to take their commander.It is to bad she put the coordinates to be in a minefield 200 Kilometers away from the location.It was also near their artillery corp. so i lost most of my battalion in there just to end up getting there with 15 men.Out of which only me and 2 others survived”

General Pavle “You know if i didn’t lose anything i loved and cared for i woud have had a different reaction.For now i coud not care less”

RC15 “Hate me,YOU CANT ESCAPE ME and you are NEVER gonna change me”

General Pavle “Shut up IM DONE TAKING YOUR SHIT.LEAVE ME ALONE OK,I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU UNLESS IM FORCED TO “

RC15 “WELL FUCK YOU”

Suddenly 15 red lights start flashing around General Pavle.He noticed it and barely escaped the houndreds of red chains coming out of the light.RC15 scremed at him “BE A GOOD BOY AND DIE LIKE YOUR FRIENDS VOLNUS AND JOVAN”.Pavle screamed at her to shut up.But she kept repeating it until...

General Pavle “I Who shall awaken am the Banished dragon.I am the one who laughs at the Red Coats,i Greave when i see the Blue Caps.I shall become one of the 3 Great Dragon’s Inturion.I shall drag you to the void for your judgement.”

He screamed out loud to summon him cause the dragon’s can say nah bruh

“ INTURION”

A light shined,as bright as a star.A voice called out a name.But the only reply was

“I am Inturion and the unification has just begun.I shall punish you for thy sins and then i will get a little vacation”.Pavles body started to change shape,as an armour made of purple appeared on him.The arour looked similar toa medival knight,While having a crusader-ish helmet.

The station shaked like there was an earthquake.In a millisecond Pavle travelled 500 meters and hit RC15.I will call her by her name from now on.The name is Isidora

Isidora was able to barely dodge it.She hit Pavle in the chest,he did not shake at all.He punched her in the face.Her shield broke and Isidora got thrown 50 meters back just to hit a wall.About 25 red lights the size of a normal person’s head pop up above Pavle.2 THOUSAND chains come crashing down chasing him throu the room.Pavle charges throu the door breaking it.He runs off heading to the Hangar,Isidora chases him there constantly summoning thousands of shains that chase him.Each time one of those gets close enouf to him he dodges it.It took them 10 seconds to travel 150 kilometers from the medical bay to the hangar.RC3 was preparing to leave when she saw what is happening she joined in.The fight got bloodier.The entire fight Isidora screamed

“DIE LIKE THE REST”

the entire time.Pavle Screamed back

“I fight for what i feel is right.You know if i don’t then WHO will fight for what is right,who is gonna fight for the weak.AND IF IT COMES TO IT TONIGHT I WILL BE READY TO DIE”.

After he said that a big Purple light started to go out of his eye,he pushed RC3  away she hit a wall 200 meters away from the fight.The crew that was in the hangar was shocked some one coud stand up to red coats,none of them tought it was possible to defeat one of them but two was a thing they tought only the god can do.He jumped back 50 meters,while also screaming “DJOLE I SUMMON YOUR BLADE TO SMITE JUDGEMENT” .A blade of purple light 15 meters long.It took Isidora                    15 Nanoseconds to attack him.He blocked her and kicked her back 55 meters.He sliced off her thumb at the same time.RC3 jumped and kicked him in the face,he tried to punch her but she dodged,then Isidiora punched him between his legs.There was no Dragon armour on that bit.He screamed so loud that the entire ship heard him scream

“DONT PUNCH THERE”.He kicked her in the head and knocked her out.A red light the size of a person poped up above Pavle.RC3 kicked Pavle in the face and 2 TONS of chains fall on him.Pavle falls unconcus,his body reshaping to how it was before the battle,His armour disappeared,after the chains cleared out,RC3 started to laugh and she said “Welp looks like he almost killed you RC15,”

RC15 “He....woud have succeded if you did not join in”.

RC3 “Well i guess i was not wrong about him.

            200 Years later on station X-55189

Pavle wakes up hearing a siren and he hears a voice.”Coution The Inturion is waking up!!!”.

Pavle opens his eyes and hears “Are you sure he is alive,i don’t want to lose my rating i healed 20 thousands soilders.I WONT LET MY RATING GET RUINED BY ONE GUY WHO IS IN A COMA FOR 200 YEARS.Now let me do my job”. He uses his magic glowing eye to try blinding Pavle while yelling “WAKE THE F*** UP AS****”.

Pavle wakes up and said” STOP IT”

Dock stitches sais “Great thing you woke up after 200 years i guess??.I got a list of things to tell you.

1st from the Read Coats GET THE F*** WORK

2nd from grand admiral GET THE F*** TO WORK

3rd  from most soilders i met HOW are you

4th from RC3 you ok??

5th  from i donno who but it sais that RC15 is not to blame for the death of Volnus and Jovan.

And now there is 5 minutes till the mission begins now get ready and lets go.meet you on the field”

General Pavle “IS RC3 near me??”

Stitches “no she is not even in the station”

General Pavle “YES YES YES”

Stitches “she is in a transport shuttle docking in the room next to you”

General Pavle “FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUU”.

Pavle hears RC3 coming to the room,and he asks Stitches

General Pavle” PLEASE HELP ME DONT LET HER CATCH ME”

Stitches “ You have to go on a mission so i suggest you just put this on and run into the hangar bay and prepare for the mission”

Stitches hears a sound of doors breaking.RC3  asks “Is he up alredy”.Stitches starts running to the hangar,gets into his titan and drops down ,while falling he talks  to Pavle saying “You know your not the squad leader anymore”.Pavle responds by saying  “SORRY I CANT HEAR PEAPLE TALKING ABOUT THEIR AUTHORITY.

       THE END OF CHAPTER 1

GENERAL PAVLE “ IS HE REALY GONNA END IT LIKE THAT”

      Planet 559986 “Lucifor”

Location : Site 26

General Pavle “So what happened in the period of 200 years in which i overslept”

Mayor Boris “Nothing much,the rebellion got annihilated and RC15 got her thumb back after you cut it out,RC3 has killed 50 peaple who semed similar to you.And she is the one who asked that you don’t get killed”

Pavle hears Stitches screaming “ Dont give General Pavle ANYTHING.You know you shoud remove anything that can kill,AND ASK A READCOAT TO BE ON STANDBY IF HE TRIES TO LEAVE”.A random soilder asks “Why don’t we just send him to the front”.Stitches replies “DO YOU KNOW ABOUT FRIENDLY FIRE,THIS ISNT A GAME,HE CAN STILL SHOT PEAPLE ON OUR TEAM”.Stitche’s titan asks “Why don’t we just take his guns???.Stitches “Becose i am not an enginer and im not sure i can find a enginer who can remake a titan out off thin air”.Then a soilder ask “Why do you think that will happen “

Stitches said “My eye lets me see magic that people posses.And i am getting sick loking at him.DO YOU KNOW THAT HE ALMOUST KILLED RC3 AND RC15??.PLUS THOSE WEAPONS ARE OF HIS DEAD FRIENDS.IF YOU WANT TO BECOME AIR THAN GO AHEAD”.

A rebel platoon broke throu the lines and got to the camp,one of them shot at the tent General Pavle’s tent.He shot one of the few things one of the few gifts he had from his dead comrades.That was the last straw.

RC3 is currently doing paperwork on her ship,she gets a call.She looks to see its from Stitches.She answers it and sais “OK WHY ARE YOU INTERU..”.The call ended,she heard a loud scream from the planet.She tought it was some one being burned in the planets volcano that was nearby,which had direct communication lines with her.She then heard a loud shout

“OH BANISHED DRAGON,THE ONE WHO GIVES DEVINE PUNISHMENT.THY SHALL AWAKEN FROM THY SLUMBER.JUSTICE SHALL BE SERVED FOR WE ARE DONE DREAMING THE CENTURIES LONG DREAM.INTURION PRIMUS.”

Pavle’s body started to reshape,His fist reshaped into a human-dragon hybrid, and strong enouf to kill a person.His legs became a mix of human and dragon.His armour Was purple,with a mix of glass and steel being used in his helmet to both protect his eyes and improve his eyesight.That material was used to make cube shaped glasses near his eyes.The rest of his armour was made of unknown material.The armour was coloured in a drak shade of purple.The eye part was coloured crimson red.

Back on the ship RC3 is boarding a shuttle to get to the planet.Everyone on the ship told her not to go.Even the pilot refused to fly her down there.She ended up sending the pilot to her private torture chaimbers,then she used her magic powers to fly down.She travelled 1500 kilometers in 10 seconds.She came just to hear him say the final words of the phrase.

General Pavle “I WHO SHALL AWAKEN AM THE EMPEROR THAT FELL FROM THE VOID’S GRACE.I AM THE ONE WHO BRINGS  JUDGEMENT.I AM THIS DIMENSIONS FRST EMPEROR.I CAME TO SHOW THAT  I AM STILL ALIVE,AND NOW BY THY LAW I SHALL SEND YOU TO THE DEPEST SECTOR OF MY PURGATORY.A PLACE WHERE LIGHT DOSENT SHINE,A PLACE WHERE DEATH DOSENT SHOW UP,A PLACE WHICH THE GODS DONT DARE MENTION.A PLACE WHERE ONLY THE VOID LORD CAN ROAM.AND MY PERSONAL REALM.FOR I AM INTURION PRIMUS”.

A purple light started to shine.The rebels started to run.The entire camp with their titans headed to the “Inturion free heaven”.On the frontline the fighting stoped,RC15  gotten out of her tent to see what is happening and then she saw the light.She muttered “I...inturion”.As the look on her face turned from a happy smile into an expression of fear,a fear she never had before now.She rushed to the sight where the light was seen.

The camp site is coloured in red,Pavle is no where to be seen,same as RC3,a distress call was sent to other RC’s.25 kilometers from the sight a battlefield coloured red with blod.Blod from both the imperial and rebel soilders.Pavle stands coloured in red,on a plain that he created after he cut a moutan into air.He said “Your officiali welcome to the land of the f***ed”.RC3 stood behind him,shocked at the power he has,a single rebel soilder comes out of the ground,he had to move the bodies of his fallen comrades just to get out of the trench that was turned into history.The soilder screamed “IS THAT ALL YOU HAVE TO SAY,AFTER YOU DID ALL OF THIS,DID YOU NOT HAVE PEAPLE YOU CARED FO..”the soilder was stoped by pavle teleporting  26 meters from him,pointing his spear at him.Pavle screamed”i had,they were killed by men like you.AND MY BOSS RC15 INSULTED THEM AND TOLD ME TO GO ON.SHE KEPT ON INSULTING THEM AND ME TILL 200 YEARS AGO I ALMOUST KILLED HER.DO YOU UNDERSTAND”.The soilder looked at him with frear,sorrow,and a feeling of anger,yet there was sorrow.Pavle told him “I shall grant you mercy,i shall send you to the void lord,you don’t deserve hell”.Then the rebel soilder just disappeared.RC3 saw that and she started to show human emotions.RC15 arrived by that time,it took her a full minute to fly 2500 kilometers.

Red lights lighted the sky above Pavle,he smiled behing the helmet.He then asked “So shall we finish this then”.he asked looking at RC15.She smiled and responded “This shall end in your death”.As she said that a giant laser came from space,the laser was the size of a small village.RC15 smiled and said over the communications “Its good to se you arrived RC2.Oh RC 5 and RC 10 are here too??”.

As she said that Pavle came out off the blast with a scratch on his hand wich he used to absorb most of the blow.He LITERALY took the magic out of the attack and used it to power his defense.

General Pavle “NOW I AM MAD.PAVLE SMASH”

RC 15,RC 3,RC 2,RC 5,RC 10 “NANI??”

General Pavle “LIMIT BREAK”

Stitches “Hello there”

General Pavle “GENERAL KENOBI”

Stitches “I AM NOT KENOBI YOU PEACE OF SHIT”.

Stitches attack Pavle with a blade of pure red.Pavle barely dodges it.He then screams “LET ME FINISH THIS DAMIT”

Stitches “NO YOUR GOING A BIT TO FAR.YOUR RUINING THE STO..I MEAN THE PLANET,YOU KILLED SO MANY OF BOTH OUR AND REBEL MEN.”

General Pavle “LET...ME...HAVE....MY REVENGE”.As Pavle said that his body started to shape-shift to more of an dragon than a human.As the transformation was happening he screamed “I AM A DRAGON AND AS A DRAGON I SHALL FIGHT”.

Stitches wastes no time attacking Pavle.Pavle manages to dodge all of Stitcheses sword slashes.Stitches tried to slash him 35 times in a fraction of a second.Pavle then proceded to counter by faking a kick,just to punch Stitches in the face and to send him flying about a kilometre back.Pavle then proceded to say “I AM A LION AND I WANT TO BE FREE.DO YOU SEE THE LION WHEN YOU LOOK INSIDE OF ME...LION’S BLADE I CALL UPON THY”.Stitches got up and said “THAT SON OF A B****”.Then he ran 1kilometer in a second,barely managing to hit Pavle’s hand. Which was enouf to push Pavle 50 meters and to trow his sword 2 kilometers away”.Pavle then said “I TOLD YOU TO LET ME KILL THAT BI***”.Richa...i mean Stitches replied with “SHUT UP WE HAVE THE SAME POWER,IF YOU RLY WANT TO DO IT THEN YOU HAVE TO BEAT ME,AND I DONT WANT TO CLEAN YOUR SHIT.LIKE LITERALY”

Then Stitches screamed “STOP OR I WILL HAVE TO END THIS ENTIRE S*** HERE.I HAD FUN TOO YOU KNOW”. As he said that he punched Pavle in the head,then he did a back flip while also hitting Pavle with one foot in the manly bits and the other foor hit him in the head.Pavle then screamed in pain from the kick in the b****.

General Pavle “CMON MAN YOU TOO.WHAT WILL THIS BECOME A RUNNING GAG”.

RC 3 “Is it just me or does everyone not know what is happening”

Fives “HIS CRINGE LEVEL IS OVER 9 THOUSAND”

General Pavle “Wait a sec  Stich”.As he said that he teleported behind Fives and put his hands infront of his eyes and said “GUESS WHO”.

Fives responded with “MEDIC”.Which got Stitches angry cause he came into a fight to tell a joke and then called for a medic when he got into truble.Then he said “I WONT LET YOU KILL HIM.I ALREDY HAVE ENOUF WORK”.

General Pavle “Wrong and now THY SHALL DIE”.As he said that he snaped Fives’s neck.After that he jumped back,and said “WILL YOU LET ME FINISH NOW”.

Stitches “YOU CAN CS:GO GO TO HELL”.

General Pavle “CMON MAN NOT THA....”.As he said that he triped on a stone..agen.

General Pavle “NOT AGEN..”

He fell down into a trench  and hit his head on a bayonet.Then RC3 said “Do you ever get that feeling of DEJA VU”.

General Pavle/Stitches  “CMON YOU TOO”.

RC 3 “What?? I just said i got a feeling of seeing something before”.

RC 1 “Lets get this over with.”.

Stitches “Il let you handle this.I promise not to interfear”

General Pavle “I think its not neded.I am on the limit of going into another 200 year coma.But i might as well take that b**** out “

RC 15 “WHO DO YOU CALL A B*********”

She tries to summon the chains.But failes due to the loss of mana.After Pavle sucked her mana and the mana of RC 5,RC 2 AND RC 10.

General Pavle “OK THIS IS LIKE 2 GODS FIGHTING WITH STICKS.”

Stitches “You know we used to much jokes.YEAH IM BREAKING THE 4TH WALL DEAL WITH IT.DEAL WITH IT!!!!.What overused joke can we put here.”

General Pavle “WAIT NOOOOOOOOOO”

Stitches “DO YOU KNOWS WHAT THE EMPERORS FAVORITE DRINK”.HE LAUGHED

EVERYONE “NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”.

Stitches “ITS MAUTAN-DEW IT”

General Pavle”I AM DONE WITH THIS SHIT.I CANT TAKE IT.YOU RUINED THE ENTIRE THING.IF WE ARE DOING THAT THEN WE MIGHT AS WELL MAKE US  RED COAT LEADERS”

Stitches “DID YOU NOT READ THE ORIGINAL BOOK”

General Pavle “THERE IS NO BOOK.YOU DID NOT EVEN FINISH IT”

Stitches gives him an USB stick with the story.Pavle procedes to say “TO HELL THY SHALL GO”.As he said that the USB burns into ash.

General Pavle “WHERE IS YOUR STORY NOW”.

Rich...I MEAN Stitches sais “ YOU VOT M80 I HAVE 9 THOUSAND OF THESE.BRING IT ON”

General Pavle “Isnt that to low”

Stitches “I actually have 4 Million.I just had to do the cringy joke”

General Pavle “FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU”.

Pavle goes into a come becose Stitches ruined his mood.Now since i have to sinc my timeline with his i will say he had a bit.NOW F*** YOU RICHARD FOR RUINING MY CANNON.

Stitches “4TH WALL BREAKING TIME”

General Pavle “NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”

Stitches “Now i made all of the too much anime like sh** non cannon for the main time line but there is INFINATE TIMELINES.”

General Pavle “STILL F YOU”.

Stitches “WE HAVE NO OFFICIAL CANNON WE ARE LIKE RICK AND MORTY WE HAVE MULTIPLE TIMELINES BUT THERE IS NO MAIN CANNON”

General Pavle “ F YOU FOR THAT “

Stitches  “STOP USING ANIME REFRENES.THIS STORY  NOT A MANGA ITS NOT A ANIME.”.

He got PTSD from the anime.also F**** the writer.

                                    2 IRL Weeks laters

*Doors explode* Peaple with red masks looking like the youtube logo break the 4th wall and the wall of the room we were joking at.

Youtube “ COPYRIGHT OPEN UP.WE ARE TAKING OVER.YOUR UNDER ARREST FOR ABUSING COPY RIGHT LAWS.”

Stitches “ I ONLY DID ONE RICK AN”

Youtube soilders shoot Stitches and say “SHUT THE F UP.NO NAMING THE SERIES”

General Pavle “YOU ACTIVATED MY MEMECARD.”

Youtube Soilders “NANI”

General Pavle “CO-WRITER PROBLEM.I SENT YOU THE ENTIRE STORY AND NOW YOU NEED TO READ IT TO DEATH”

Youtube Soilders “FUUUUUUUUUUUU”

General Pavle “OK LETS FINISH THIS BIT”

Stitches “Ok but i still get to do the trap card joke”

General Pavle “NOOOOOO”.

Stitches makes a cute cat face

General Pavle “FINE...Y0U WIN”

Stitches “ Pavle out of story F**** YOU FOR FORCING ME TO DO THAT...”

                    Back to the story

General  Pavle “WELL NOW THAT WE FINISHED BREAKING THE WALL”

RC 3 “what wall???”

General Pavle/Stitches “WE ARE NOT EXPLAINING IT”

Stitches “But i coud do a deapool joke here”

General Pavle “No i am wriing this so i say no.NOW “

Pavle starts smiling at Stitches and has a look on his face that sais “ITS MEME TIME”

General Pavle “ITS TIME TO MURDER THIS TRACK”

Stitches “DONT”

Pavle charges into Stitches and stops moving all of a sudden

Stitches “YOU ACTIVATED MY TRAP CARD”

General Pavle “NOOO DONT DO IT”

Stitches “THE ROCK MEME”

Pavle trips on a rock and slides on the blood of the rebels hitting his Manly bits onto a Red coat that had her foot up.HE WENT FROM THE SPEED OF LIGHT INTO 0 WITH ALL OF THE IMPACT BEING CONTAINED IN HIS MANLY BITS AFTER HE ACCIDENTLY SLIDES ONTO A RANDOM READ COATS SHOES.WICH HAVE SMALL SPIKES AT THE BIT WHERE THE FINGERS ARE AT

General Pavle “I..hate...you”

General Pavle “I AM GOING TO WHIPE THIS PLANET CLEAN FROM THE SH*** STAIN YOU CALL THE RC’S”

RC  1 “Shut the f** up.If you stop i will give you my home made Palacinka.”

General Pavle “DEAL”.

Stitches “Your THAT easy to bribe”

General Pavle “SHUT UP.”

Stitches “WAIT DONT”

Stitches “DONT YOU DARE”

General Pavle “IN SERBIA YOU DONT BRIBE WITH MONEY”

General Pavle “YOU BRIBE THEM WITH PANCAKES”.

Pavle stood up.He sent his spear back to its realm.

General Pavle “But let me send RC15 to the realm of the F****ed for about 2 weeks aka the time i am likely to be in coma for.Also Richard.THANKS FOR THE PAIN OF GETTING STABED IN THE **** OVER 7MILION TIMES”.Then pavle fired a portal shot into RC15 he missed...then he fired agen.and AGEN he missed,then he fired 2 more shots and missed both.then he ran out of bullets,he had a poscicle and then passed out from losing his powers.BUT ONLY THEN he accidentally shot a reserve round and hit RC15 and sent her to the realm of the f***ed.

Pavle woud end up being unconcius for 2 Weeks.Stitches ate all of his pancakes,and said a few flity like thing to RC1 without realising it.When Pavle heard that happened he sent Stitches to the realm of the f****ed for 2 weeks and returned RC15 just to tell her.

General Pavle “IF I EVER SEE YOU AGEN YOU WILL BE STUCK IN THE REALM OF THE F***ED FOREVER”.

                           END OF CHAPTER 2.AND PART 1 OF THE STORY.

Timeline and the creation of the universe : Richard Mann

Writing the current story : Pavle “Fredfox”.

All characters here were eather made from real peaple or got the names from real peaple.And cause some characters do some stupid or sadistic stuff it dosent mean they are like that IRL.This is an overexaturated and Comedic F you and a good story that i just wrote my take on and added a few names to un named characters.There will probably me more.I hope some one actualy reads this

[hurricanebrain]

I don't know what it is

I don't know what it is that makes people act so shit to me. This dude, on tinder, yes I'm trying tinder and I set very clearly in my bio that I'm looking for friendships. If you're laughing at me now, check the title of the app. So many people were just looking for friends on a super popular app that they changed the name into 'Looking for friends, dating, meet new people' something like that. Anyway, this dude... Works and lives really nearby but opposite directions. Like 1 kilometer towards one side and 1 towards the other. We clicked, I thought. We've only been talking for literally maybe 2 days and he wants to meet up. And honestly sure yaknow, if I feel like I can I will. Lately I'm really fucking uncomfortable with literally fucking everything, so doing this tinder shit I was waiting to disappoint someone and therefore disappoint or annoy myself. So the story is, we talked about meeting up and I told him Wednesday that I was up for a smoke the next evening because I hadnt slept that night. Wednesdaynight I was up again. Couldn't sleep. It's normal, since I was a kid I had these days/nights where I wondered if time even was correct since my days took so long being awake for so long. But I hadn't slept in 2 days and I told him that I was too tired and really needed my sleep that evening and that I was sorry etc. He was like don't worry, I have ADHD myself so I get it, have the same problem. My ass: *friendly connection feelings, +1 level up in friendly vibes* But then today, Friday, I had a tiny photoshoot thingy with a friend of mine which was planned for the day before but I was so sleepy and my mind was just not there that we moved it to the next day. Me, not wanting to scare another person away by canceling twice, cancelled anyway to the tinderdude. His reaction... What the fuuuck. I told him I was again tired and last night slept, but it was 4 hours and I didnt wake up fresh and shiny. Now that I think about it, I woke up at 5:30 something 30-something. I slept like short so short that my brain is like skip this shit Z, (I'm calling myself Z just for privacy shit or whatever) but my brain just is not working with me rn. Still so tired. ANYWAY. The PHUCKing dude. Mister 'wee i work at a vintage store hihi i am funny and cool or whatever and totally not pushy also *pushes* hihi hihi hihi', he had some fucking audacity man jesus christ. I literally thought we were vibing on the same level ish youknow. But no. I told him I couldn't meet him tonight because I'm pudding. I'm literally potato pudding. Microwaved and baked, I'm over. Im gonna just fukcing type the convo we had:

Me: Do you mind if we hang out tomorrow instead? I'm so tired man I slept 4 hours. Still so tired rip Dude: Lololol Me: Tomorrow evening, does that suit you? If the weathers shit we can hang at mine Tomorrow during the day my bed is gonna be fixed omfg Dude: No And we can hang at mines too you know. No hard feelings Ok ok ok Me: Sunday then? Dude: Nope Me: Aaa So when can you? Dude: Yea well until thursday next week I can't any day. Me: Ohh...

and here's where my sketchy vibes kick in, the No, Nope, like, you seem to really want to chill yet you seem like ?¿

Dude: So yeah. Just come tonight :') Otherwise there's gonna be something every time *arrogant kinda questioning frown emoji* Okay byeeeee (I didnt respond in 30 minutes because yaknow household chores and shit but hey) Me: I told you I didn't sleep in 2 days, that I'm tired as hell, so now you suddenly can't hang other days hoping my energy will just appear? But good to know you're programmed like that. And disappointing too.

He didnt respond, I don't know if he will but I fucking hate these things. I'm so far gone. All those grouphomes really fucked up the way I connect with people. I never randomly did something spontanious to others. I'm scared of others. I don't know what anyone things or wants to do and what their intentions are with me. It terrifies me and I have no idea how to fix me. I feel unfixable, because every time I try to connect I fail. I can't always tell if its me or if its someone else. Or just an apparently not so great connection as I thought. It might be the last one, but is this the whole kissing frogs until you find your match thing about? What fucking frogzilla's do I have to kiss before I meet my person. How much damage can I take from just people not seeing me as a person. I feel like the only way is to try not feeling like I am a person. I keep telling myself, I have an ID, a body, but inside I'm nowhere. I'm long gone. And guess who took some extra diazepine and elbow called tinderdude on whatsapp. Me. 'Sorry accident' After he didnt respond to me. I look greater and greater every fucking minute. I'm so embarrassing man.

But besides that I had a tiny photoshoot today! I'm very pro boobies and that's a whole other story. But I'm comfortable with my boobs and if ÍF I'm at the beach I dont wear a top. Freedom as hell. And I dont wear bra's. It's uncomfortable, it just looks sexy. So he found me on Onlyfans and literally just politely asked if I wanted to talk about taking pictures with him as he just started this series of photo's. And he is nó creep at all I wouldn't have let him in if I didn't triplecheck his vibes. And he's pretty shy too when it comes to taking pics. At least he seems to appear shy, I learned everyone can set up an act and do crazy shit for their own crazy needs. But it was fun. It was a first time but it was really cool having a testround, or like a demo version of what were going to do. Were swapping photo's of poses or pictures that we like and then we talk about outfits and stuff and locations, it's fun. He's 4 years younger but it's crazy as a 27 year old to have 4 year difference with someone and still vibe. I used to feel like that was a lot, but the mid to end twenties rocks man. I just wish I was idfk gained the fucking blessings to find nice people, and that when I do that not some crazy fucked up shit happens that causes me to want to plan my suicide but first get rid of friends and make them dislike me so they don't really have to miss me because I was a bitch to them. It's so painful to miss someone you really liked. Dead or alive I mean I miss so many people and I try not to. I really wish I could give less fucks about everything. Life sucks. But yeaaaaaaa that was it. I hope I'm gonna just keep posting my shit here instead of nowhere or in word.

If you relate feel free to contact me, I'm more comfortable with online friends than irl ones. Thanks for reading <3

#bipolar disorder #my diary #diary blog

[soup-of-words]

28th april

It wasn’t a great event. It was actually trashy and people are scattered just everywhere. You and I decided to get a drink, (of course a bottle of beer) and so we bought. It was kind of a hassle, the cap wasn’t opened yet. Too tired to get it popped in the store so we decided to pop the cap on our own. at some broken steel pipe we did, and that’s how I got the bottle cap in my treasure chest (box full of weird stuff that I keep). Oh and the bottle broke too. We looked for straw until we got one and sat in front of the Capitol. ‘Twas a neat night, not the event. We talked about stuff, the silly and annoying ones about our exes. And laughed about some hilarious stuff, I can’t remember the things we talked about but yeah I’d treasure them.

After then, there were fireworks. It was shitty too. It’s too short for a show in the sky. It only lasted for a couple of seconds. But it was great. Fireworks. :)

For a short time we watched them play, listen to cringey growling and screams. soon enough, we got bored. decided to sit and just talked again. God knows what we talked about until it’s coming too late. tss How did we even get to that time when we were taunting one another, about going in San Pablo? was it about the bike? yeah, for sure because we were talking about bicycles.

you don’t know how hard-headed I am, and how a  “brave-wanna-be” I am. from a sigh, I said, “ ... tara kukuhang pera” and there it started.

the rush, flushes, sweat and worry coming through at the same time. But I was liking it. It was too surreal, I was not believing it will happen but it did.

From my house, where I got my favorite hoodie and some cash... we headed to ride to get to buses.  we were waiting and was taking too long. you made me took off my watch because you didn’t want to look at the time. It was genius, I was enjoying more. It was kind of a long wait and  we were impatient. We needed to escape soon. SOON. In the terminal, I was still not believing it , so i’m calming myself down. I didn’t want to over-exaggerate and I don’t want to scare you away, I was too weird. Hopping on to the bus, looking for an empty seat, we got to seat to the back. God, it was so exciting!

i check my phone every once in a while, took out my earphones and we shared music. you told me I seem like that i’m that someone who likes guitar riffs, but I thought I wasn’t i hated the sound of guitar but I think I don’t? mehh I’m so confused.

i keep the tickets, treasures.

after an hour, we were there.

San Pablo! It was in fucking San Pablo! 66 kilometers away! We got off the bus, immediately took a trike to go to the lake (you look confused instructing the driver lol) and there we got to see the park we were both just talking about just a couple of hours earlier!

You don’t how thankful I am bringing me there. Really. Thank you from my softest heart and soul.

You know, we just met. But it was comfortable being with you. We were there, in the park. our hands on the cold railings,

The stars were heck beautiful. Too beautiful, it was sublime! we watched the sky as if it was the lake we came to see. But it was more that just the lake, it was a different world... That I was needing. you brought it to me. Thank you again. I remember saying “thank you” to you. Because I am. grateful. :)

we decided to walk along the lake, to see stuff. But we stopped in this some kind of a playground/exercise area? And there we talked. ooh before that, we saw the big dipper. back to the area. God knows how long we have been talking, it was so niceeeee. we talked about fliptop and shit. You were kind of surprised to have heard some girl to watch fliptop videos, and I mean... I know, I’m interested in those too. We headed along, walking. encountered some dogs. We got scared, but just walked anyway. CUZ WE WERE NINJAS RIGHT!? but it was too dark, we can’t risk. so we headed back. ‘Til we noticed someone in the dark... some guy. we were both hesitant, we were acting like nothing’s wrong. So to break the ice, and as a segway I told you let’s pretend like we’re beating one another in a walkathon, so there we increased pace. we ran and just started laughing, i was joking someone’s getting a pimple if they can’t catch up. AND WE WERE LAUGHING... IT WAS WAY FUN. LIKE  WAAAAY FUUN! I was kind of liking you. We were just laughing... tsk. I never had that kind of fun before, with the adrenaline and fright.

Coming back, we took last pictures, ‘cause were going home. of course, we walked.

Commercial, I wanted to take shit. We saw Mcdonalds, so we went there. tried the hospital for a stop at a comfort room cuz i needed to take a shit but let’s roll to Mcdonalds.

We got to mcdonalds, you ordered the meal, chicken... while i’m taking a shit. We had a happy meal, and you maybe you don’t know but I really always collect happy meal toys but I gave it away . To your sis, this time it’s going to be for her. we ate, and laugh and talked again. and took picutres. I dared you to take a tray home and you accepted loooool. we got the tray. and then we walked outside. ran across the church, you took a photo of me and it was embarassing cuz people are looking. we headed. took some more pictures while walking... And there we were miserably waiting for a bus. Until one came along. We hopped in and got a seat. we talked how it is like Papertowns and you were Margo and I was Quentin. i knew it. You’re gonna hurt me. this time, I was getting kind of tired. not for long, I was really avoiding to act sweet or romantic because I’m scared . But this neck was fucking hurting so I asked if It’s okay to lean my head , you didn’t mind so I did. Legit, my neck was killing me. I had seek comfort, had a nap on your shoulder, ‘til i noticed you were leaning to my head too.

I wanted to say we were sweet, but I should not. we were sweet; you were sweet. There’s something in me that holds everything back. if it weren’t for it, I’d confess I like you.  

1. Rafols likes you

2. You’re up to someone

3. I think I’m not fully healed yet

4. I like you

5. YOU MIGHT LIKE ME BUT YOU DON’T  LIKE ME ENOUGH

you see , there’s a bunch of stuff I like about you. But you know ,I’m worried. Because I still yet to know the stuff that I don’t. I don’t want to waste our friendship. It was great and cute. But to think about being romantic with you, considering there’s nothing wrong and it’s possible and it might be real... I’m scared I’d lose another soulmate. Not you please, Simon was great but you were different. Not that I am confessing my feelings, but this is beyond that.

I’m scared, but I wanted to try to accept someone again. But this time, but if it’s not you it’s okay. i just hope he’d  be that someone that’d stay until we’re real couples. (i know im still young but there’s nothing wrong with it you know) But if it weren’t , then thank you for having me in your life, our friendship was awesome! but you know, deep somewhere inside me is kind of hoping?2 i don’t know, i know i’m infatuated. You know that night, I didn’t want to end. You were the chaos I was looking for. it’s gonna be trouble but I feel like it is possible trying out being better with you. but if God’s plan is different, then it’s okay with me. No regrets, right? we can’t be possible too, if you come to think of it. you’re there I’m here, different schools, different worlds. It’s scary risking it. I know you’re a good person, both you and allen. I just don’t like losing people. so Rafols, she’s soooo sooo so so so so so important to me, much more important than you actually. sorry. But you know, it gets fucked up sometimes. also, you like my cousin, plus you’re up to a different girl. I don’t  want to barge in, I respect you and the girl. Who am I?

maybe what i’m feeling right now is pure infatuation, and I don’t want to ruin friendships. and I am also not that kind of person that is desperate in getting into a relationship, I already accepted I’d tire lonely and alone but still hope that I don’t. I mean , “expect the worst, right?”. And I am that someone who wouldn’t always grab the opportunity, I’m shy and scared... so If it’d come, it will.

we finally got home, at the terminal at least. there’s no ride home still, so we waited an hour. we talked how we rocked that night. how we were real ninjas and everything was amazing. we got to go home, you walked me home.

I never really wanted to give the brain pendant away, but I did. it was my way of saying thank you. Thank you, for real. everything was almost magical. That was the best day of my life so far, I have conquered way too many things . So I got home, i gave you the pendant. and the last thing that came into my mind before saying goodbye was to hug. I don’t actually know why. But i feel like I needed to hug you. it was funny. I asked for it lol, “hug?” then we did lolll . i gave off a legitimate smile , like I  was actually happy. after the hug, we waved goodbye.

‘Twas the best day ever. so far.

Thank you, ninja.