yandere nearing the breaking point, a wild babble of degradation and worship co-existing in the same person - directed towards you. a little bit of smut but not much. dubcon elements, not going all the way.
He looked at you with wild and psychotic eyes, a dry laugh escaping his throat as he looked at your terrified form writhing right in front of him.
"Youre scared of me, really?" His voice cracked. "After everything ive done for you! Ive done this for you! I took care of you! Ive did everything, everything, everything for you! And thats the thanks I get?" As he continued to talk his words got angrier and angrier, but he still had enough self-control to tame his voice enough that neighbours would not hear.
He had cornered you in your own flat, instantly pushed you inside when you opened him and shut the door behind him.
"Why did I even bother to hold back? Why did I cherish you so damn much? I practically... worshipped you! And thats what I get?!" The look in his eyes started to really freak you out, so you turned around and started to run away - into another room, which had been a huge mistake, and only seeked to provocate him worse. And best of all he had caught up to you in about three seconds.
"Youre everything to me.." He whispered as he held you in his tight grip. "But I dont have to treat you that way.. If thats the thanks I get. I can betray my feelings for you."
He pushed you to the ground. Towering above you now. The pain the fall had caused was dulled by you recognising just how trapped you were in this situation.
He pushed his foot to your chest as you sat up and forced you into a lying position. Then he took the foot from you, and simply looked down at you.
"I want to hurt you so badly right now, you have no idea.. my dear. I want to make you feel what youve just done to me. How your behaviour has truly and deeply hurt me.. I want to treat you like a dirt cheap whore.. but my dear.. youre still so special to me, youre everything, everything, everything. So ill give you a chance to make this easier for you, okay?"
He now knelt down next to you, gently stroking your cheek and giving you a soft kiss to your forehead. "If you show me youre scared of me.. ill start to punish you.. and if you can atleast.. hide.. it from me.. do your best to play along.. ill make what comes next feel good to you. How about that?"
He looked at you with a feigned smile, trying to give you a taste of what him behaving would possibly look like. As you did not answer him, he sighed "Answer, my darling."
"N-no im not okay with this.."
He looked at you like you were truly stupid. "Fine have it your way." He then climbed on top of you, your blood freezing in your veins - his teeth sinking into your neck instantly and without warning - so hard you could feel the drops of blood form where he was biting down. Tears in the corner of your eyes.
"Im.. Im sorry." You whispered. "Can we try again..?"
He took a second, then he stopped biting you and pulled back, looking at you with a cold gaze. "Sure we can. Theres always another chance, my dear. Just like you will always surely give me another chance. As everything ive done, ive done for you."
You slowly nodded, feigning understanding just how he asked. You stirred up all the tenderness you could find for him inside of you, its true he had scared you. Terrified you even. But you could acknowledge that in a sick, twisted way he truly believed he was doing all of this for you. Was there any merit in that at all? From that angle he looked like a kicked puppy. A insane, kicked puppy.
You eyed his body, that body you so often had fantasized about. That face you so often had considered so beautiful and handsome. How lucky had you thought yourself to be for someone like him to be interested in you? If something seems to perfect.. well.. that usually is because it is, was your newfound conclusion.
But you could find some sense of estranged empathy for him. For the person you used to think he was.
You slowly extended your hands to cup his face gently, looking at him with what you hoped was a tender stare.
He stared at you with repressed anger, but you could also feel him seemingly calming down a little bit.
"Youre nothing but a whore, do you know that? Youre nothing. Youll never be anything. Thats how you made me feel. You deserve to feel it so badly..." His voice was shaking, but his eyes showed how torn he was feeling, clearly moved by even that small gesture of yours.
"Youre just a lowly.. lowly.. whore." He whispered once more.
You started to gently caress his face, continiung to look at him, ignoring all of the insults.
"Youre everything. Youre everything that matters. Youre all that matters in the end. Youre above me. So much above me. So high above me.. that sometimes you dont even notice it when you step on me.." His voice sounded softer now.
He looked down at your face, still sitting on top of you.. his eyes circling your lips like crazy.
Then knowing you would not reject him, he bowed down to kiss you - it was a gentle kiss. Then like a wave of hatred went through him he suddenly started to bite down on your lip - but only for a few seconds, then he eased back into that former gentle kiss. It was like he was fighting with himself, struggling to form a coherent path of action.
His hand started to cup your breast.. gently. Then he flinched away without you saying or doing anything.
"This would be to much, I get that. Not like this." Then he pulled away and got off from you. He grabbed you by your hand and pulled you up too, then dragged you behind him to the couch.
"Lets just cuddle." He ordered. But he was slowly calming down, you did not feel safe yet again, not at all, but he seemed to move away from escalation.
You found yourself smothered in his arms and he pressed so tight to you. After a time you found he had fallen asleep. You watched him for a while, then got up and slowly sneaked out of your own apartment and quickly went to a friends place. That tender empathy you had felt for him still stirred up inside of you. But you knew you had to get out. But he never would let you, would he? Despair started to set in.
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the way toxic jj didnt even cross my mind while i was typing this ouuu this is such good material bc hes actually such a nasty manipulator… proclaimed best liar on the cut and to say that that trait isnt amplified when hes toxic?? lets unpack that 🙂↕️ i feel like hed be the type to test your limits and give you ultimatums— just to see how far youd really go for him… and hes always throwing shit back in your face as we’ve seen numerous times throughout the show mmm unfortunately for me i love him too much so im letting him get away with it and if treating me like hot garbage will satiate him then so be it… thats my man and imma stick beside him
toxic!jj is constantly making you choose between him and whatever else he views as an obstacle. "if you really loved me it wouldn't be a hard choice nut here we are" type shit. any sort of hesitation is seen as abandonment now you're all kinds of sluts and whores who just used him and thinks youre better than him which obviously isnt true but he gets mean when he's scared and you have to reassure him constantly that you wont leave.
accepting favors is always a double edged sword bc 99% of the time you never ask he just does it. and he keeps tally of everything like he didn't make the conscious decision to do so.
and best believe he never really apologizes. its all "im such a fuck up i dont know why you stay with me." until you're comforting him that he's not a bad person. the only way he apologizes is through fucking.
IMA STICK BESIDE HIM THO
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Your law is peak law. It’s cannon in the best of ways I swear. Semi goth fashion, air of badassery, general sadist in his hyper focus of surgery, oddly creepy. Also caves like a bitch to anything moderately cute (corasan bepo ect) and is so overprotective of his friends they don’t even get much of a chance to fight becuase he’s already disassembled the energy and look he’s so proud of himself
i am soooo happy he comes across like that.
law is a hilarious type of character that i love thats pretty fucking cool and intimidating from a distance and then you come closer and he is WEIRD and intimidating but like in a creepy way so sense of self preservation dictates establishing the distance back again
him being a doctor is the most normal thing about him but in that he is so extreme and exceptional
i love that hes just an INTENSE guy to the point that its off putting and im very happy that people enjoy me making loving fun of him
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