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bisexualoftheblade-old · 3 years

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how many wips do you have? like what are they all, and not the number of wips in a fandom? what are all the names?

okay. fuck you. fuck you so much. fuck you.

i’m putting this under a read more cut no one else deserves to see this shit. a lot of these are requests, and for those i will just write out the request itself

Shadowhunters:

domestic polycule fluff with tem, jessa, and will because im not a coward

Supernatural

- hehe hoho i request destiel hehehe

- request 61/? cai cai cai cai i need you to rewrite the destiel scene but yk. GOOD. not like i'm in the know about the spn fandom or anything, it's been years for me. but DO IT

Bright Sessions

- caleb/adam grisha AU

- mark bryant vs. united states aka sue the AM

- caleb/adam college fluff

Umbrella Acaademy

- request 31/? i want a ben and klaus drabble please spare me some brotherly bickering

- AND SO BEGINS NIGHT 4 with request 13/? oooh oooh can i get a raymond and allison playlist??? i think their vibes together would SLAP

- hi there night 2 is technically morning 3 but who's counting not me anyway request 5/? can i get a ben moodboard? gotta rep my tua bb

Percy Jackson

- request 9/? can i get a percabeth moodboard or quote edit?? like god they're the og couple goals take me back to high school cai

- For the 100 follower things :D Jercy getting caught in the rain

- request 29/? a drabble about literally anything to do with pjo. i’ll be happy with anyone and anything i’m love these children

- *somersaults in like I’m a real fancy acrobat* hello ello ello may I request some camp half blood chaos possible involving *does a flip* ✨side characters✨ <3

Penumbra Podcast

- request 52/? drabble about the penumbra podcast. this is for ren bc ren likes it and i don't actually know anything about it. juno? i think? that's the one ren likes. write it for ren

- Tpp ghost hunting / buzzfeed unsolved au

- sad juno smut

- final resting place fic go brrrr

Marvel

- request 6/? i'm going to my roots y'all can i get a spider-man playlist? if not a playlist then i'd honestly be happy with literally anything involving spider-man

- request 15/? i'm going crazy this is recorded evidence of me actually losing it ANYWAY can i get a quote edit for something from iron man? literally anything that man says is gold so cai's choice :D he deserved better in endgame i'm still bitter

- request 42/? do another spidey thing that differs from the other spidey thing

- request 73/? you have Opinions. rant about infinity way and/or endgame. go.

- request 74/? quote edit for deadpool!!

- spideytorch relationship character study

- peter parker as a tired grad student monitoring the young avengers (send help)

Six of Crows

- okay listen i wasn't going to request anything bc i worry about you but also? if you want to/have the time hit me with a playlist for our girl nina zenik

- request 43/? fuckin give me the ending anya should have had. she is alive and with her new son and having a great time

- request 45/? inej moodboard?

- request 47/? will you make literally any meme of your choosing for six of crows?

- request 48/? write a drabble for kaz, my favorite bastard

- okay so i don't actually like nina or mattias that much but i still wanna hear about your thoughts (and also see if you'll change my mind)

- kaz brekker turning 18 fic. birthday party, everyone singing, whole shebang. i need it stat

- religious trauma fic aka i started shipping kaz/alina/inej and i can’t stop

- kaz trauma soup (he has D.I.D. and you can’t prove me wrong)

- my two redacted fics for @grishaversebigbang

- wesper fake dating

- six of crows bright sessions crossover: everyone gets therapy

TMA

- uhh... s1 gang having a nice time? melanie getting to have some Pride™️? some "fun" horror thing?

- request 7/? spare steph and jason bonding? please sir? spare some for a humble child such as myself?

- okay so this was meant for night 3 but i had midterm shit SO this is honorary night 3 let's DO THIS request 8/? i want a moodboard of extremely out of context magnus archives shit like i mean confuse the FUCK out of me i don't go here i know Nothing about it

- request 11/? OKAY so i need tim stoker meeting tim drake now i need my timmy to meet your tim plus i want to see character differences no i'm not trying to create a tim stoker in my head so i can read a's fic while NOT thinking of tim drake whaaaaaat you're crazy

- request 18(i think)/? i need a quote edit of every time within the first like. 15 eps of tam where jon is like “sounds fake but go off” thank u bb

- request 40/? i challenge you to write a tma drabble based only on the episodes i've heard. i'm currently halfway through episode 23

- Jon being lovingly bullied into taking a break. I'm aware this has been written a million times but it is one of my favorite things.

- spiral!sasha AU

- extinction martin go brrrrr

- high school era timsasha. they've both been friends for years, and everyone always asks when they will be a couple. they decide to fake date, to prove everyone wrong and show what a bad couple they would be. turns out that's a bit trickier than they thought

- after sasha comes back, tim is broken. he can't let go, scared that if he looks away for even a minute he'll lose her again. sasha suggests shibari as a way for him to give up control

- sasha pov mag 19 au, sacrificing herself to save the others, knows that if she gives herself up to the not!them it will let the others live

- this is the "tim finds a polaroid of sasha" trope

- early archives days,, long nights in research,,, clothes sharing,, somft. late nights and falling asleep at their desks warm and safe in the other's presence

- two parts: timsasha as kids, each picking a constellation that is "theirs". just soft kid antics. tim at sasha's grave glancing up to see their constellations

- continuing your job’s a joke (you’re broke)

DC Comics

- TIMSTEPH HADESTOWN AU,,,

- my redacted fic for @batfam-big-bang

- request for you to get a decent amount of sleep? serious answer, dickkori, SAL's Venus

- request 4/? timsteph morning after 👀 mayhaps?

- a concept: nonbinary stephanie brown

- teehee hi mom, you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to, but can i request damian angst for your accomplishments 100 followers?

- hi you can ignore my first request if you want, or you can ignore this one. but bls possibly write some bikini ra’s? -the bikini bitch

- request 27/? jay is asking through me for a jondami playlist but tbh i also want it so win win yk?

- "I don't know how to help you but I can help you find someone who does" with bruce and jason? im just craving bruce being a good day to jason for once

- “I am putting you in time out because you need to understand the consequences of your actions.” with steph and jason as dumbass disaster bi best friends pretty please?

- request 32/? timsteph patrol date!!!

- request 33/? timsteph *gala* date? mayhaps??

- request 37/? tim drake drabble but make it Edgy cai

- request 39/? drabble of a prank war between tim and damian

- joyfire cuddly fluff please? or like just any outlaw fluff if joyfire isnt your thing (feel free to add every member of the outlaws, dont feel like u gotta stick with jason, kori, roy i love them all)

- barbara and robin! jason fluff? bonding over books or something?

- request 62/? i need a drabble about the chaotic trio jason, tim, and steph i'm love them ty

- request 63/? batfam x mcu crossover. batfam meets ironfam. give me ALL the cliches. ALL OF THEM

- request 64/? young justice x young avengers - jay cuz idk SHIT about the young avengers

- request 66/? jondami moodboard pls and ty

- request 67/? timsteph moodboard!!!!!!

- request 69/? HEHEHE kinky 😏 i would v much like a timsteph drabble of the almost first time. does that make sense? like i don't want you to go all the way NSFW cuz i know that's against the rules and i'm a rule follower. but like they *almost* go all the way. this could be fade to black or some shit i don't care just make it a lil steamy and have Fun

- i request damian angst! all of it

- hmm... maybe i request? jondami?

- mayhaps,,,,some batfam,,,,,committing crimes? ily be gay do crime <3 - lu

- How about a ficlet with Steph and Cass?

Found Family Bingo Prompts

- no powers au

- tunnel

- first day

- join the club

- hurt/comfort

- experiment

- playing favorites

- hold on

- possession

- 10 o’clock

- singing

- road

- snitch

- curfew

- timer

- fantasy au

- zombie au

- dreams

- campfire

- are you okay

- movie night

- games

- scared

Miscellaneous

- a request: Write A Drabble, Coward

- is it too late to request a moodboard for me?

- request 20/? i’m going off book because i’m in a Chaotic Mood™️ can you just absolutely vibe check me like go off cai demolish me

- request 21/? i formally request that you pick a favorite cai. i don’t care what that favorite pertains to, just pick a favorite something

- request 23/? roast me

- request 24/? can i have a buzzfeed unsolved spoopy playlist but spoiler alert it’s not spoopy bc shane doesn’t believe does this make sense it has been a Day™️

- request 25/50 i want a jake and amy fic make it Soft cai i’m love them b99 is so good

- request 28/? i know nothing about the lord of the rings so make something that will confuse the shit out of me

- request 34/? malvie and jaylos moodboards 😈

- request 35/? a moodboard for the bbb mods!! perceive all of us!!!

- request 36/? moodboard for the tua mods too???? mayhaps??

- request 41/? doctor WHO? idk but i want a drabble of him and the one character i know from doctor who which is rose

- request 46/? make an alignment meme with our group, have fun!!!

- request 49/? i want you to kin assign me a character from every fandom you can/want to. go feral

- request 50!!!!/? this is a special request. the most special request. can you make a bastards tbh playlist? i want our vibes encapsulated. i want us in music form. i want to hear those songs and be like "that's me and cai" and smile.

- requests 51/? i know jack shit about good omens. explain it to me in the most confusing way possible. make me know less by the end than i know now

- request 53/? can you write a mel aesthetic? i'm Curious

- request 54/? give me a list of book recs cai i want some good book recs pls

- request 56/? edit a picture of US together too

- request 58/? oooh can i have a disney edit? like. hm. i just really love disney and i want anything to do with disney. like a quote or an aesthetic or an aesthetic edit i just want disney.

- request 59/? i would v much like a recipe for carbonara. i've never had it but it sounds fucking delicious

- request 60/? ooh hey can i get a makeup tutorial? i know you like makeup, i'm shit at doing makeup. teach me

- request 65/? i need the most emo playlist you can make that vibes with dear evan hansen thank you

- request 68/? i want a superwholock moodboard. this can be serious, with the actual fandoms in mind, or literally what the era felt like. the insanity. the horror.

- request 70/? ooh ooh ooh do you have a good bread recipe?? i wanna get that bread

- request 71/? i want a playlist with the vibes of summoning a demon. please don't ask questions. i don't have answers. and if i do, no i don't.

- For the requests, how about writing something based on a friend?

- request 75/? MMMM i want literally anything to do with natasha, pierre, and the great comet of 1812

- request 76/? i want some healthy recipes. help a girl out

- a feral bbb quote or two?

- you perceive my plant but now I dare thee to perceive mine own visage

- okay this is a two for one request. 1. you did the bee movie script so now we need a shrek two script edit 2. sleep please

- Pansexual mb for my lil queer soul?

- my (probably) final request is just for you to ramble about something, i don't really care what

- HI ILY CONGRATS AS WELL CAUSE IM LATE BUT CONGRATS. could i request a pirates of the caribbean (or just pirates) or whatever you what to do, free range.

- mood board for the beluga whales who got brought to the animal sanctuary in Iceland please?

- 100 follower request: Moodboard for my stuffed cow Oaky?

#cai's 200 #asks #mininacl

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aphrodites-law · 5 years

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My Favorite

Trope: Soulmate marks.

Twist: Lexa doesn’t have one. Clarke does.

1/?

Lexa had lost her soulmate when she was eleven years old. The two words that she had cherished and daydreamed about for years had one day simply vanished, leaving behind no trace they had ever been imprinted on the inside of her wrist. Overnight, her life had taken an unthinkable turn, and if the whispers behind her back had not been enough to rock her self-esteem, if the bullying and the taunting hadn't broken her, it was her friends cutting ties with her that had felt like the most painful loss.

Her parents had had to put her on the registry for the Markless, which she'd always found to be ironic, as it painted the biggest mark on her yet: outcast. The Markless had a flaw; a part of them so fundamentally wrong that they couldn't truly love, nor be truly loved in return. Few people cared to mingle with them, as history had proven them to be the criminals of this world. And if they hadn't done their crime yet then surely they would, one day, and rare were those who wanted to take the chance to be in their lives when it happened.

Lexa didn't know what it meant for her or what she'd done at eleven that had made her so undeserving of love, but she'd refused to let anger consume her. She'd kept her head low and kept her arms covered, even in the summer, and for the next eighteen years she'd lived her life as best she could.

In the city, blending in had been easier. There were apartment buildings for people like her, and though they were rarely the safest, Lexa had been happy enough in her studio. She'd met her first true friends in years there, and then a few more in college, where minds were more open than in her small town. Some simply didn't care, others refused to buy into the fear mongering, and Lexa clung to them tightly, grateful for their affection and their flaws, the ones that society had marginalized as well.

Her closest friend was Anya - tough like nails and no-nonsense - who Lexa had met while they studied in the hopes of one day teaching. Yes, sometimes it was a wonder to Lexa as well that she would willfully step in school classrooms again, but how would the world ever change if the new generations weren't taught differently? Lexa had long ago found refuge in language and literature, and if she could one day extend a hand to a child shunned by their peers, if she could be the teacher she had needed in her teenage years so many times, it would be worth the pain of reviving old wounds. As for Anya, she wasn't markless but had gotten pregnant from an encounter with a markless partner, which had brought her family so much shame that she'd started finding the entire system loathsome. She'd had her daughter's name tattooed over her mark, packed their bags for the city and never once looked back.

The decade had seen some improvements for people like them - and the world was changing, even if slowly. There were programs started to facilitate their lives and more inclusive spaces offered. There were even dating websites, and if Lexa had once been embarrassed to even sign up, she now relied on them exclusively. Her college girlfriends might have been open-minded, but it'd never changed the words imprinted on their wrists.

Layover was perhaps the word Lexa detested the most in the English language, as people like her were the first ones to suffer from it. There had been Costia, first, who Lexa had loved as best she could, even as a broke twenty-year-old with full-time studies and two part-time jobs, but it had only lasted a year, until Costia had taken a linguistics class and met the girl whose first words to her were marked on her skin. In her defense, Costia had broken the news gently–and Lexa had loved her enough to be happy for her, though perhaps not when she had felt her heart plummet into her stomach.

Lexa had wondered afterward if it was true what they said about the Markless: if she had been able to let go of Costia because she was unable to truly love. When she had asked Anya about it, the woman had shrugged and told her one relationship was hardly strong enough proof.

Louisa had whirled into Lexa's life over a year later, but left just as quickly when another student had tapped on her shoulder and uttered the very words Louisa would sometimes mumble in her sleep. Lexa had been walking out of the class auditorium with her when it had happened, and she had felt herself freeze on the spot. After all, she'd spent enough nights in the same bed to know what words were on her girlfriend's wrist. Louisa had been so flustered that she'd babbled something back, and evidently the curly-haired boy who'd asked her a question had heard back the words imprinted on his own wrist, his smile spreading so wide that Lexa had felt sickened by the sight. She'd gotten blackout drunk for the first and last time that night and woken up on Anya's couch.

Afterward, Lexa had refused to waste her time. She dated a few markless women during grad school, but the relationships still naturally ran their course, and each time Lexa had wondered if the whispers were true: People like her couldn't know true love.

Which, inevitably, led to the second most detested word in Lexa's vocabulary: settling. It was a term that the Marked had coined some centuries ago, aimed at those who built lives and started families with partners they knew weren't their intended. It happened, of course, that in this world many didn't meet, but hope was to be maintained until one's last breath. There were records of couples meeting as old as 101 years old, and so whoever didn't wait was poorly regarded, though never as poorly as the Markless, who inspired fear rather than pity.

Though she didn't care for the word and its connotations, settling was something that Lexa had accepted for herself. It was clear by now, at 29, that she should seek a markless woman who shared her values and had a compatible lifestyle. It wouldn't be the love that movies and songs wrote about, but it could be a strong bond regardless - companionship - and together they could even have a family. It was seeing Anya around her daughter, Tris, that had planted the first seeds of yearning for a fuller life and someone to share it with.

It was with the very intention of settling that Lexa had packed her bags and moved to her dream city, much smaller in scale and population than the one that had offered her so much, but a place with a progressive enough reputation that Lexa knew she could be happy there. Anya had helped her with the move - a two hour drive away that both her and Lexa had felt weigh heavily on them. It would be the first time Lexa was far away from the friend who had, by all means, saved her life more than once.

When Lexa had applied for a teaching position at the Polis private middle school, it had been with Anya’s full support. She had coached her through the high-brow interview process and then celebrated when Lexa had officially been offered the English teacher position, to be started in two months for the new school year. For once, the stars had seemed to align.

That was, at least, until Lexa had stepped into her new apartment and realized just how strongly it smelled of fresh paint. On her first night alone, Lexa had woken up so dizzy that not even a morning walk had lessened the feeling. She’d resigned herself to the fact that her new place would be inhabitable for at least a week and had quickly found a hotel to stay in for the next few days.

Jake Griffin was the proud owner of Griffin Hotel, a warm place with under thirty rooms and a distinctly cozy appeal to it. It was not luxurious but still well-kept, with a room near the foyer for the breakfast buffet and another sitting room with armchairs, a bookshelf, and a view on their garden. Lexa had only taken one suitcase up to her room, but after Jake had left her to it, she’d felt oddly compelled to walk for a bit before she turned in for the night.

She put on her comfiest sweater and wandered out of the hotel, finding her way to the garden and enjoying the soothing sound of the small fountain there. Through the window to the sitting room, she could see the bookshelf standing tall and wondered what titles she would find on the spines of those old books. She went back inside and walked into the room, but stopped when she found that there was someone sitting on one of the armchairs.

She couldn’t be any older than Lexa, with her hair in a loose up-do and her legs curled up beneath her. She was completely absorbed in a book, an edition of Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Café so worn that the cover was only kept on thanks to three paperclips. There were notes sticking out of it and some ink stains on the edges of the pages. Lexa felt a sudden thrum of excitement at the prospect of a shared interest.

"I love that tomato,” she said offhandedly.

Her eyes widened as she realized the moronic string of words she had uttered. The woman’s head snapped up and Lexa felt her cheeks grow hot when she noticed her bewildered expression.

"That novel, I mean," Lexa quickly corrected. "It's a good one. Wonderful."

The woman blinked at her and when, finally, her mouth parted open, Lexa was so certain that she was about to say something that she couldn't help but feel disappointed when she merely nodded instead. But her disappointment quickly vanished when the woman’s face suddenly broke into a smile; one so sweet that Lexa felt herself smile right back.

When she motioned for Lexa to sit, Lexa promptly did.

"I'm sorry if I interrupted anything," Lexa said. "You seemed so engrossed."

The woman shrugged. Lexa wrung her hands on her lap. "It’s actually the first book I ever borrowed at a library.”

At the woman's arched brow, Lexa felt that she had been asked to elaborate. "I was nine. It was summer and I was wildly bored."

The woman suddenly sat up and pinched both edges of the book before showing the considerable space between her fingers. Lexa understood her meaning and smiled sheepishly.

"Yes, it was definitely too dense and mature for me. But I loved the world. Then I got obsessed with frying my own tomatoes - my mom never forgave me for setting her new pan on fire.”

The woman laughed, a soundless expression that made her eyes crinkle and her tongue peek out between her teeth. Lexa had accomplished many things in her life, but making this woman laugh felt like her proudest moment.

"Clarke?"

Lexa recognized Jake in the doorway, looking over at the woman in the armchair and then yawning loudly.

"I'm turning in. You need anything, hun'?"

Evidently, Lexa had stumbled upon Jake's daughter. When Clarke lifted her hands and signed something with them, Lexa thought to smack herself. She had been blabbing without once wondering why Clarke didn't respond verbally.

Jake chuckled at something Clarke signed. "Fair enough. Goodnight, kiddo."

After he left, Lexa stood up and cleared her throat. “I’m so sorry, I-” She pinched the bridge of her nose. "I've been talking your ear off and you probably just wanted to read in peace."

Clarke looked up at her with a curious expression, one Lexa couldn’t read at all.

“Hm... goodnight, then.” She smiled weakly and walked out of the room, already reaching for the bedroom key in her pocket.

Though she felt like an idiot, Lexa couldn’t resist one glance back before she turned the corner. She found Clarke looking at her with a soft smile, her expression so full of wonder that Lexa knew she would not be able to forget it.

Part two

#clexa #clarke x lexa #clexa fic #f: my favorite #soulmate trope #just spitballing

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travllingbunny · 5 years

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The 100 rewatch: 2x09 Remember Me

Unlike the previous episode, this one is one of my favorites. Very character-based and emotional, wonderfully written, acted, great music and cinematography, editing, everything is perfect. Maybe it doesn’t have a crucial event like some others, but it’s very important for character development and some of the key relationships. (This was also the episode where I thought that “the subtext is rapidly becoming text” when it comes to one such relationship. But it turns out that what I find obvious may not be as obvious to the entire fandom.)

Rating: 10/10

I love the way this episode focuses on Clarke’s emotional state and the way the trauma of having had to kill Finn, and how that affects her. I may not have liked Finn as a character much, but he makes for a really effective hallucination haunting Clarke, as an embodiment of her guilt and trauma and her fear of the pain that love can bring. (Although the title feels kind of ironic now, since the fandom has pretty much forgotten Finn and his significance for Clarke’s character arc.)

What happened makes Clarke all the more determined to make the truce with the Grounders work, as a way to feel that the sacrifice was not for nothing: “If this truce doesn’t hold, I killed Finn for nothing”. Now, the alliance will ultimately fail, the Grounder army won’t help her against the Mountain Men, and instead it’s Bellamy’s inside mission (which was his idea – something that people tend to forget for very strange reasons*) that will play the crucial role in saving their people from Mount Weather. However, if not for the truce, the Grounders would have attacked them, more people would die, and they would have probably never gotten the chance to save the 47 from the MW. So, in the end, it was not for nothing.

One relationship that’s changed due to Finn’s death – and in this case, maybe poisoned forever – is Clarke’s friendship with Raven. Raven starts off being completely furious at Clarke over killing Finn, even sucker-punching her at one point and calling her a murderer. By the end of the episode, after seeing Gustus executed in a prolonged and torturous way, she realizes that Clarke was sparing Finn. But while it seemed that their friendship was fixed, I’m not sure that things were ever the same – because Raven will go on to have a few other occasions where she was unfair to Clarke and blaming her to things like deciding who lives or dies, even when she was one of the people entrusting her with that responsibility. When she was possessed by ALIE in season 3, did she still really blame Clarke on some level for Finn’s death (and ALIE picked up on that and made her say it)? Or was it just ALIE (and Raven’s subconscious) coming up with something that plays on Clarke’s insecurities – the idea that she causes harm and death to the people she loves and who love her?

One of the most emotional scenes is Clarke’s argument with Abby, which shows how complicated their relationship is, and is a resolution of the grudge Clarke has carried against her for her father’s death. Abby tries to comfort Clarke, telling her of her own experience (“The pain will fade… What got me through is my love for you”), and Clarke lets her mother comfort her only until she realizes that Abby is talking about Jake, and gets furious over that comparison, pointing out that Abby’s betrayal of Jake is nothing like Clarke having no choice but to kill Finn. She still hasn’t forgiven her, even though they have been on good terms – the wound is still there. But when Abby tries to explain herself, saying she didn’t know Jaha would execute Jake, and Clarke calls her out on the fact that she must have still realized Jake wouldn’t give up, Abby basically admits that she prioritized the big picture – what she thought was for the well-being of all her people – over her husband, and Clarke concludes, shocked, “We are the same”.

It’s interesting that, after Abby finds love again with Kane, she will do the opposite and absolutely refuse to sacrifice him in season 4, when Jaha asks that of her. It’s a do-over, determination not to do the same this time (as she said in season 3 when Kane was threatened with execution, “I cannot do this again” – which was the first time she pretty much admitted she loved him. Then she goes on to kind of betray him during the Dark Year (not at cost of his life, but at the cost of his principles and emotional well-being), which is one of the things she felt guilty about (in addition to pushing Octavia into more extreme actions and being responsible for a lot of the deaths and horror) when the guilt broke her and made her an addict. But at the end of season 5, she was again fully determined to “save the man I love”.

Clarke herself says something very similar to Bellamy (similar to what Abby later told Kane in S3), when he tells her about his plan to infiltrate Mount Weather and disable their acid fog from the inside, and she opposes it on the grounds that it’s too risky: “I cannot lose you, too”. But she eventually changes her mind, after being told by Lexa that “Love is weakness”.

This phrase is one of those repetitive phrases that we hear many times during the show (like “Blood must have blood” or “My sister, my responsibility”) – and characters either believe in it, or oppose it and declare the opposite, that “Love is strength”. In this episode, it seems like it’s something that Lexa herself came up with, due to her own traumatic experience, after the Ice Nation queen captured, tortured and killed her lover, Costia, and then sent Lexa her head. (This is the first mention of the Ice Nation, or any of the separate Grounder clans. Queen Nia was established as extremely ruthless from the start even before we knew who she was.) Later in S3, we learn it was originally something Lexa first heard from her mentor, Flame-keeper Titus. Then in S5, we learn it’s actually something that all Flame-keepers tell all Commanders. It’s probably a retcon, but a really good one. It makes sense, from what we’ve seen of the Grounder culture that this is what all Commanders would be taught. It’s not a healthy way to live, and it’s very questionable advice, but you can see where it comes from: a leader may be compromised if someone they love is captured or threatened, enemies or rivals may use that to manipulate them to their advantage, or a leader may be influenced by someone they love (and I’m sure Flame-keepers would like to be the only ones to influence them) for better or worse, or a leader may make decisions prioritizing their loved ones over the well-being of the entire group – because it’s human to care more about those close to you than a big number of people you don’t know.

Now that we know her entire history, Lexa’s entire life seems pretty sad: from a very young age, she’s been both enormously privileged and powerful, and given an enormous amount of responsibility and denied anything like normal childhood (not even what goes for normal childhood on average in this post-apocalyptic world) – raised to fight a bunch of other kids to the death, winning the Hunger Games-like Conclave at around 12, getting a chip put into her head with a bunch of dead people’s memories, seeing all the adults around her fawn over her, obey her and expect her to make decisions about everyone’s fate, while at the same time being told that she must be “strong” at all times, not show any weakness – which includes not loving anyone – because her rivals and enemies may use that to kill her and take over. (I doubt that Commanders can ever retire, or lose power and survive.) She’s still human and a young woman who wants love so she fell in love, but then her terrible experience convinced her that her mentor was right. It’s very ironic that she’s the one to tell Clarke that “love is weakness”, because she’ll soon fall in love with Clarke and start wanting Clarke to love her. I think it’s in the next episode that you can see the moment when she falls for Clarke. At this point, I think she was just impressed with/drawn to Clarke and saw in her an equal, another, slightly younger girl who’s a leader with a lot of responsibility, intelligence and courage, and who can make tough decisions. This is something new for her, because everyone else she’s ever been close to has been her subject: Costia, Gustus, Anya, even Titus. But she doesn’t know how to live without power, it or how to treat people as equals (as seen in her attempts to control Clarke in S3). Another contradiction is that Clarke is warmer and more idealistic than Lexa, and I believe that Lexa is drawn to Clarke partially because of the way Clarke can love and fight for people she cares about – but at the same time, Lexa, with her leadership lessons, is constantly trying to make Clarke more like herself, teach her to be less caring, more ruthless, readier to treat people as expendable and sacrifice them, as she herself has been taught a leader must be.

As far as I’m concerned, Clarke was a much better leader the way she was, and those lessons are not good for her. She’ll change her mind later and won’t really accept the “love is weakness” philosophy. But in this episode, in her vulnerable state and faced with the reality that she will have to make more terrible choices, she feels that it’s the only way to both do her duty, and avoid pain – by trying to repress feelings of love. Which makes her change her mind and decide to let Bellamy go to Mount Weather, after all.

…And this is the point where I thought “Wow, the show is really getting obvious about Bellarke?” The show has been making romantic hints about them since 1x08, but it was mostly subtexty and ambiguous about the nature of their feelings for each other, except for that one moment in 1x08 where Bellamy obviously realized he was attracted to Clarke but seemed like he didn’t want to deal with it. This is the first time the word “love” is mentioned in connection to their relationship, though indirectly (and the last time before Octavia’s “another traitor who you love” remark to Bellamy in season 5). First we have Clarke saying “I can’t lose you, too” and explicitly equating Bellamy’s role in her life with Finn’s. Later, Bellamy is the one to figure out that the person who actually poisoned the cup and apparently tried to kill Lexa was actually her loyal bodyguard Gustus, who was framing the Skaikru (and Raven specifically) as a way to destroy the alliance and ‘protect’ her from the backlash Gustus thought it would cause to her (his scheme did not involve any immediate danger to her, as he drank the poison, knowing he would survive). And then there’s dramatic transition from a close-up of Clarke’s face to a close-up of Bellamy’s face, all emotional and under dramatic lighting, in another scene, as he��s explaining how he figured out the culprit: “He would do anything for her, to protect her… It just makes sense” It couldn’t be more obvious he’s talking about himself and his feelings for Clarke. (Earlier on there was a scene where we can notice if we pay attention that he was standing next to Clarke protectively and even threw her cup, which was kind of funny, because it’s not like she was going to drink from it.) Octavia is like “Look at the thanks he got” – which is kind of stupid, why should Lexa be grateful that Gustus went behind her back, schemed and nearly ruined her alliance and caused a war “for her own good”? But it’s either Octavia talking about Bellamy and Clarke and bashing Clarke as she often likes to do, or the show trying to set up “Oh noes!! Will Clarke sacrifice Bellamy?? Stay tuned!” tension for the rest of the season in a slightly over-dramatic way. Then we get dramatic close-up of Clarke and Bellamy, as she tells him to go to Mount Weather after all, explaining her change of heart: “I was being weak”. Followed by the scene of her saying goodbye to Hallucination!Finn: “Love is weakness!”

As far as subtle hints go, I thought this was more like hitting the viewer on the head with a sledgehammer? But it turns out that what I thought was obvious isn’t at all obvious to many other fans, so whatever. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Now, I’m not sure what exactly Clarke and Bellamy at this point thought on the conscious level their feelings for each other were, and maybe they didn’t even have the same idea what their relationship was or could be. It’s interesting that Bellamy was making the parallel between himself and Gustus – who obviously had a close platonic relationship with Lexa (going by their relative ages and the fact she used to be a child ruler, he had probably been her bodyguard since she was a little girl, and was something like a father or uncle figure to her, in addition to just a subject’s devotion to the Commander). So it can be argued that’s how Bellamy sees their relationship to Clarke at this point – or that he’s just realized how devoted he is to her, but isn’t sure about the nature of those feelings. (Which is certainly not for lack of attraction, since we know since season 1 that he’s attracted to her.) But Clarke is making parallels between Bellamy and Finn, her dead love interest, and Bellamy and Costia, Lexa’s dead lover. The implication was clear: if you are a leader and you love someone, harm can come to them exactly because of your relationship; you may be “weak” and fail to do your duty because of your feelings (like not let someone go on a mission they may be uniquely qualified for), or you may risk their life (say, letting them go on a dangerous mission) and lose them and them feel terrible pain, so it’s best to repress all such feelings. To be fair, they kind of intermingle the non-romantic and romantic relationships here in all the parallel, since there’s also a parallel between Finn and Gustus as Clarke watches Lexa kill Gustus, and Abby declares “We are not so different after all”.

The only thing I dislike about this episode are fandom’s bad interpretations of this moment. I loved the dark atmosphere of these scenes, but I was scratching my head when I saw people going on about how it’s all about Bad Clarke who doesn’t care about Bellamy and finds his life to be an acceptable risk (even though the rest of the season and subsequent seasons make it clear she doesn’t find it acceptable) and how he’s so devoted to her but “look at the thanks he got” (you mean all the times she showed she’s just as devoted and protective of him as he is of her? But let’s take characters’ lines literally instead and ignore actual events). She’s just practically said she loves him, you dummies! Bellamy himself doesn’t understand that, because he has no context to her line “I was being weak”, so he looks hurt and obviously think she doesn’t care that much as it seemed for a moment – but the audience does have the full context and should be able to put 2 and 2 together! Or even worse – people who write long ranty posts about how Bad Clarke was “abusive” to Poor Bellamy because he’s in a subjugated position to her and how she “sent” him to danger and he got tortured in Mount Weather for doing her bidding (?). As in, when she decided to stop objecting to him going on a mission that was his idea and his plan and that he wanted to do because he cares about saving his friends? When was Bellamy in a subjugated position to Clarke? He even said he didn’t take her orders and she had to appeal to their personal relationship to stop him from going. They often argue and disagree and take stands and even get in a big conflict almost every season. Funny how some people who claim to be Bellamy fans are eager to ignore his agency, accomplishments and strength of character. I guess that’s what happens when hating Clarke and being anti-Bellarke (in any form) is the priority. To be fair, the show kind of gave them something to build that one when they had ALIE!Raven taunt Bellamy in season 3 about supposedly just listening to Clarke’s orders, but to take ALIE’s attempts to play on characters’ insecurities as gospel truth, in spite of what we actually see of the character dynamics, is like taking it literally that Clarke is actually “poison” to her loved ones. (Then again, I guess some do take that literally.)

But I refuse to let bad fandom interpretations ruin a great episode for me.

*end of regularly scheduled daily rant*

Meanwhile, in Mount Weather, the last prominent Mountain Man villain is introduced – Carl Emerson, head guard and Cage’s right hand man. Probably the Mountain Man I hate the most, for the fact that he kept on being a nuisance in season 3 and wasn’t just evil at that point but also annoying. Emerson seemed to be in quite a senior position, since he was reporting to Cage about Lexa’s actions (explaining that she’s a kind of leader who makes alliances – referring probably to her efforts to unite the clans). Probably intel gotten from torturing captured Grounders.

It’s not often that the Mount Weather portion of the episode is the lighter one, but that’s the case here. It feels almost like Adventure Squad from season 1, as Miller and Monty use their respective skills in thieving/hacking, with Maya’s help, to send Jasper’s message out and reach other Arkers. Like Raven a couple of episodes ago, Monty has figured out the stuff about radio frequencies, including the fact that the Mountain Men crashed the Exodus ship in season 1.There’s also a rare comic moment with Monty as he manages to send a message by pretending to be doing maintenance work, but then has to run away when Emerson figures him out.

But it ends in a dark way, with Monty and Harper both put in cages, and the revelation that the Mountain Men had already built one for each of the 47.

(Fortunately, Monty and Harper were too smart to ever use the line “We found each other in cages” as foreplay.)

TImeline: the next day after Finn’s death, which was a day or so after 2x06, and that was 2 days after 2x05. This is maybe a week since the end of season 1 – 10 days at most?

Body count: Gustus –executed in a painful, prolonged way by a bunch of Grounders, with Lexa delivering the final blow, and telling her to “Stay strong” as his last words.

#the 100 #the 100 rewatch #the 100 season 2 #the 100 2x09 #remember me #clarke griffin #bellamy blake #raven reyes #abby griffin #finn collins #monty green #bellamy x clarke

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oveliagirlhaditright · 4 years

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What are some of your favorite movies (old or new)? I know I already know some of them, do you have other favorite movie ships (I'm pretty sure I already know some of those too, such as Jack/Rose, Jake/Neytiri, and probably Will/Elizabeth)?

While I do like Avatar, I've only seen it a few times. I don’t know if it’s one of my favorite movies--and that Jake and Netyri are a favorite couple of mine--but I do like both.

You’re absolutely right about PotC and Willabeth and Titanic and Jack/Rose. I also ship Jack and Angelica, Henry and Carina, and Philip and Syrena in that franchise.

But some others are Inception. I like Arthur/Ariadne from that movie a lot. And Cobb and Mal.

...And people will probably hate me for this--because I guess people have issues with this movie--but I do love the Daredevil movie with Ben Affleck and Jennifer Garner, and I definitely ship Daredevil/Matt and Elektra there (and in general).

I’ve always loved the The Other Boleyn Girl movie, but I don’t ship anyone in it.

I’ve also always really liked Tristan and Isolde, and ship them.

The Princess Bride: Wesley and Buttercup.

Remember Me: Tyler and Ally

This is actually a mini-series, but I sort of see it as a movie because it together is as long as one: Syfy Alice (a sort of sequel to Alice in Wonderland). And Hatter and Alice in this are actually one of my OTPs.

I like “In Time” with Justin Timberlake and Amanda Seyfried. And I shipped the couple in that.

I like Sucker Punch a lot, despite its flaws.

The Red Riding Hood movie with Amanda Seyfried is also good. And I shipped the two in that.

I really do like the broken up couple in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I just recently saw that movie.

Oh! Happy Death Day is some of my favorite movies. And I love love LOVE Tree and Carter!

Phantom of the Opera is definitely one of my favorite movies (the musical). But moreso the 25th recording at the Royal Albert Hall at this point, than the movie musical. Though there are some things about the movie musical that I still love. Like Raoul. Patrick Wilson is the best Raoul ever. And no, I don’t take criticism. And I’m a rare Raoul and Christine shipper. But I do appreciate the Phantom and Christine relationship, of course, as that’s what makes the story what it is. But do I think she should have ended up with him after all the crap he did to her? Hell, no! She made the right choice in leaving--after giving the Phantom much more kindness than he rightfully deserved from her, to be honest--and being with Raoul. And I will die on this hill.

I recently watched Source Code and liked that movie and couple.

I like Limitless. And while it probably is one of my favorite movies, it’s at the bottom of my list. And I didn’t ship anything in it (I don’t even think there are ships? I forget. I’ve only seen the movie once). But I did see some of the TV show, and shipped the new guy who took the drug with the police officer gal he was working with.

I like most of the Disney and Pixar movies, and ship the main couples there. But my favorite (and least when I want something lighter than, say, Hunchback, which I also love) is probably The Little Mermaid. And I will defend Ariel until the day I die. And she and Eric are probably my favorite animated Disney couple. Edit: I also really enjoy Atlantis and Milo and Kida, and so many more. I also adore Fox’s Anastasia and Anya and Dimitri. And The Swan Princess and Derek and Odette. Oh! And Cale and Akima in Titan A.E.

I have a lot of love for Disney’s Enchanted these days, too. I’ve always loved that movie. But it was my grandma’s favorite movie. And since she’s passed, I guess I like to rewatch it and feel close to her. And I ship Robert and Giselle and Edward and Nancy, of course.

...And I feel like I’m forgetting something that I recently watched and loved, maybe.

I do love The Batman Begins and The Dark Knight, as discussed, and need to watch The Dark Knight rises already. Oh. And I ship Bruce and Rachel.

The Tobey Maguire Spider-Man movies also mean a lot to me, since Spider-Man 2 was the first PG-13 and action movie I ever saw, and it changed my life.

When in Rome with Kristen Bell and Just My Luck with Lindsay Lohan are probably the only romantic comedies I’ll ever like (though I don’t care about the ships in them that much. Though the latter’s one was cute). But I don’t like them that much.

I feel like I should include Les Misérables (the movie musical) on here, even though I feel it’s somewhat cheating to include musicals--I usually separate those into a musical category--but since I got into Phantom through the movie, I suppose I’ll break the rule this time.

I also like some Disney Channel Original Movies and some of the ships there. Troy and Gabriella from High School Musial being the most obvious choice. But tbh, that’s probably its own list.

Edit: I also, for the most part, don’t include books that have been turned into movies or TV shows in a favorite movies or TV shows list. Because while some of them are... I feel like that’s somewhat cheating, since my love for those films somewhat comes from their source material. So if you’re asking me what I love based on just what a movie itself presents with nothing else tied into that, this is my list.

Edit 2: Oh. And Frozen (and Frozen II with it, I guess, even though that movie has its ISSUES. Even though I still love it). And Anna and Kristoff, because I’m like a lot of the world in this way. I just... like Frozen. I’m not even entirely sure why. Elsa. I always have, and I probably always will.

Edit 3: The Clue movie.

Edit 4: And It’s a Wonderful Life, of course!

Edit 5: And I like Tangled and Eugene/Rapunzel a lot.

The "Now You See Me" movies and the ships there.

Disturbia with Shia LaBeouf. And I ship the main ship, I guess.

The new(ish) live-action Disney Cinderella: Ella and Kit

And while I don't care about the story for Transformers at all--or those movies that much--I did ship Sam and Mikaela.

Oh! National Treasure! Ben and Abigail! That’s one of my favorites. I can’t believe I forgot them!

Pride and Prejudice with Keira Knightley and the couples there

Edit: Oh, and Bohemian Rhapsody is one of my favorite movies! Shame on me for forgetting it!

#I totally cheated with phantom on this. as it's a musical and even before that a novel that I love #I mean les mis is too but I haven't read that yet #I love the phantom novel. I love the musical. I love the movie musical. I even love other adaptations #just... phantom is one of my all-time favorite stories and always will be #there are anime movies too. but I usually list them in a favorite animes list #same thing with video game movies #the peanuts movie is also super cute #and a cinderella story with Hilary duff is fun. I was on a kick once where I watched a lot of Hilary's movies and liked them #nerve was okay #oh and eagle eye #tron legacy

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idosurveystovent · 6 years

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Adam: Is there a secret you’ve tried to hide from everyone for a long time?

I have a lot of secrets. A lot of stupid shit that I am ashamed of. But nothing really major at all.

Alex: Have you ever been confused about your sexuality?

Alli: What are the best and worst things a significant other has ever done to or for you?

Best: Seth literally saved my life. He got me to sober up from several addictions and he has always loved Makena like she was his biological daughter. Worst: I am torn in between my first husband walking out on me suddenly because his dad paid him to...orrrrr My second husband that was kinda abusive. One time that sticks out is when he tackled me in his living room in front of his parents, his new girlfriend, my mom and seth (my current fiancé) because I took an ornament off the Christmas tree that I thought belonged to me. No one tried to stop him or did shit about it either. lol

Anya: Have you ever tried drugs? yes.

Ashley: Have you ever changed your image?

I've dyed my hair, gauged my ears. and that's about it

Becky: Have you ever stepped outside of your comfort zone to do something you thought was right?

I probably have...but its not something I would typically do. The borders of my comfort zone are STRONG

Bianca: Have you ever experienced an intense event that changed your perspective on something?

yes

Cam: Have you ever had to stay strong and hold on during something that caused you physical, mental, or emotional pain?

when my son died. who knew that keeping that shit bottled up is harmful

Chantay: Do you like to gossip, or do you prefer to keep your mouth shut?

I am a terrible gossip. I'm sure its just a matter of time before I lose my job over it. I work with a bunch of dramatic, crybaby 30-40 year olds. its ridiculous

Clare: Are your parents divorced?

well not technically yet, I don’t think. they are separated though, since late 2016

Connor: Do you consider yourself intelligent?

semi intelligent

Craig: Have you ever run away from home?

nope.

Dallas: Do you put family first, friends, relationships, school, or something else?  family (my fiancé and daughter)

Darcy: Have you ever fallen for someone you never thought you’d like?  yes.

Dave: Have you ever had a very rough breakup?

sure

Declan: Do you like to date people casually, or do you prefer long-term and exclusive relationships? long term for sure.

Derek: Have you ever judged someone before getting to know them, or the other way around?  yes.

Drew: Are you athletic or do you play any sports?

I am like the least athletic person in the world, although I did play softball until middle school

Eli: Do you suffer from any mental disorders?

tons. bi polar, add, depression, anxiety, and PTSD

Ellie: Have you ever self-harmed?

yeah. when I was young and thought it was like cool or something

Emma: What’s something you’ve stood up for in the past?

nothing comes to mind

Fiona: Have you ever tried drinking?

yea

Holly J: What’s something you worked extremely hard to get?

nothing really.

Imogen: Do you have any beloved pets?  yes. a pit-chow that I rescued from the pound when I got sober. we have ashihtzu right now that we are babysitting for my dog that we were thinking about keeping but that tard has pissed in my floor like 20 times since sunday night and I am ready to kill him. and then I brought home a solid black kitten two nights ago. his name is Bagheera

Jake: Are you the outdoorsy type, or would you rather stay inside?

inside

Jane: Have you ever cheated on anyone?

yes

Jay: Have you ever changed yourself permanently for a guy/girl? nope, I don’t think so

J.T.: What’s something you’ve had to step up and take serious responsibility for?

my daughter of course, my rent, car payment, insurance, credit card bills, groceries, electric, internet, water............

Jenna: Have you ever done something drastic to gain the attention of someone you were interested in? no.

Jimmy: Have you ever forgiven someone that may not have deserved it?yeah. I'm way too fuckin nice

Johnny: Have you ever told a serious lie to anyone?

I'm sure I have

Katie: Are you satisfied with your body image?  no.

K.C.: How is your relationship with your parents?  it’s whatever. I don’t really fuck with them as much as I should but their divorce had me majorly fucked up for a minute

Liberty: What do you want to major in in college, and where do you want to go?

n/a

Luke: What’s your religion?

baptist

Manny: Have you ever been labeled negatively or otherwise been called something extremely derogatory?  yes lol

Marco: What’s your sexuality? heterosexual

Marisol: Do you look out for others over yourself, or the other way around?  i usually put others before myself.

Maya: Have you ever had to deal with the loss of a loved one?  yes.

Mia: How many kids do you want to have?

I will only ever have one :( I had a stillborn baby in 2011, had my living daughter in June 2012 and got my tubes tied right after that because they never figured out why Bryson died and also, the pregnancy is extremely rough on me. 8+ months of strict bedrest plus 2 weeks of hospital bedrest, until I have baby. And I have to have surgery with each pregnancy

Miles: What’s the last extravagant purchase you made?

computer?

Mo: Are you scared of any aspect of the future?

blah...not really. shit happens. there will be good times and bad times.

Owen: Have you ever been involved in bullying, whether it was the victim or the bully?  not really.

Paige: What’s the number one thing about school that overwhelms you?  i don’t go to school anymore. I’m 28 lol

Peter: Have you ever seriously taken advantage of someone or been taken advantage of?  no.

Riley: Is there anything about yourself that you really want to change?  yes!

Sean: Have you ever gotten into a fistfight?  no. never been in any real fight, if you don’t count the abusive men I liked to date and the time my mother in law tried to beat me up and throw me off of her tall ass porch

Spinner: Have you ever been seriously ill? no. flu is the worst thing I have ever had

Terri: Has anyone close to you ever hurt you, physically or emotionally?  emotionally. I have been physically abused before but I would much rather be hit than being told how much I am a lazy piece of shit. bruises and shit heal, but those comments and things that are said when we are mad or drunk or whatever....that shit stick in my brain so much and I can’t get it out and it tortures me to the point that I just want to die because if the person who was supposed to love you says that you are all these things, just imagine what everyone else thinks.

Tori: Have you ever befriended a former enemy?

idk probably

Tristan: Do you consider yourself up-to-date with all the latest gossip, trends, movies, etc.?  not really

Wesley: Do you drive? yes.

Winston: Do you feel like people notice you?

I would prefer them not to

Zane: Have you ever had to help someone through a very tough time in their life?  yes.

Zig: Have you ever liked someone else while you were in a relationship?

yeah

Zoe: Do you dream of being famous and living the high life, or do you prefer living more quietly and not in the spotlight? living quietly. I would HATE the spotlight

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neverbeenbroken · 7 years

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[IDEAS/FACTS] SPELLBOUND 5.0? | to be updated

This is going to be a long list, so I’ll put under a read more. If you have anything to add, let me know!

BROOKE ADAMS

was not a supporter of lohen

did not trust juliette and felt like something was off about her

called spencer babybear

was a fan of jesse

was one of the people that called emily mini keler

was super close to james

was close to valerie

was close to tyler

almost seemed like she had a thing for sam, but that could just be playful!brooke

seemed close with cordelia

the aunt she’s close with is named jemma

thought blake without alcohol is boring

convinced that brooke is bi

she broke up aaron and melanie

used tyler’s crush on melanie for him to do it

was the one that audrey that wyatt slept with alison

had or has feelings for aaron ( this never happened in any rp)

has feelings for wyatt

sort of resented audrey (during the og rp)

was pissed because she either overheard audrey tell wyatt that brooke liked/loved him or wyatt confronted her

she kind of drove a rift in wydrey’s relationship because the two didn’t want to cause her any more pain

this was during the time in the hospital when she overdosed on vervain

wyatt blamed himself

can’t tell if she’s closer to audrey or alison, probably loves samantha more than both of them honestly

kissed aaron during a movie “date”

discovered she had feelings for wyatt when she kissed him during truth or dare

hates ashlee

super close to blake

my dilemma is brodrey’s theme song

had a headcanon that brooke kept sabotaging audrey’s relationships because she had a crush on her

AARON ANDERSON

broke up with his girlfriend because someone else told him too (can you say FAKE)( should probably figure out why he did that)

grew closer to spencer after saving her from some bad college guys

didn’t think she would like him

made audrey apologize to brooke cause he knew brooke wouldn’t have

calls audrey doll

was close to valerie

was close to erica

close to emily

considers wyatt his bestest best friend

considers brayden his boyfriend and will fight tyler for him

really caring towards others

calls emily emsi

calls melanie melly g or melly bear

trying/tried to get melanie back

wanted to be friends with melanie

close to brooke then audrey then alison

doesn’t quite get along with samantha

liked the fact that samantha owned up to being a bitch

knew of brayden’s feelings for audrey and thought he should’ve squashed them

was probably more of a wydrey fan then a braudrey fan

melron is my otp and i considered them locked but now i knind of want melanie with brayden (this is an idea, but they could’ve happened once upon a time)

ever since i thought about it, i can’t stop thinking of why audrey and aaron never crossed my mind. like not in a romantic way, but a rip your clothes off way. like i think they’d have some pretty hot sex. i think that’s why.

used to hook up with rose, stopped when he began dating melanie, did it again once he broke up with her

isn’t sure if he likes brooke more than a friend due to their shared kiss

would date wyatt if he could

SOPHIE BARNES

never had a sophie long enough

CORDELIA BENJAMIN

lost all of my cordelia blogs

when she first arrived, she was slightly cold

i think sam (?) cracked her shell first

is close to melissa

is close to maddison

doesn’t quite get along with blake

is close to samantha

is close to audrey

is close to tyler

is close to carson

had a fling or something with simon

changed during her junior year, must’ve been because she dyed her hair

turns into a vixen when she’s drunk

otherwise nervous to have sex with people cause she can’t control her powers

CARSON BENSON

had sex with a teacher

would probably only stay for that teacher

super close to blake

close to juliette

closer to brooke

did not like audrey at first

audrey accused her of having issues so carson called her rude and said that she didn’t like her

close to cordelia

close to samantha

is a part of the evil genius club

likes erica

is really forward, blunt

ASHLEE BOURNE

ashlee found out she had sisters when she was 12?

she didn’t understand why audrey didn’t like her

but reciprocated the feelings

can’t control the evil in her

misses her father

sees ben as her second father

started a fwb rel. with tyler

grew feelings for him

doesn’t like emily

stopped liking cordelia

hates brooke

considers wyatt a close friend

thinks audrey broke wyatt’s heart

knows that juliette and her tend to bring out the worse in each other but still loves her and wants to be her freind

took april uner wing

took nick under her wing

closer to brayden

doesn’t particularly care for alison

close to rose

likes blake

DIANA BROWN

didn’t have her long enough

ELIZA BURTON

used to be jennifer burton

is a (junior) ronan’s knight

blake tried to drink her blood when they first met

one nickname for blake is psycho

one nickname for blake is monster

eliza wasn’t the nicest

no matter what, she alwasys ends up on blake’s list

it never fails

blake took her off once

had feelings for blake

made out with blake like three times?

prefers allie to julia

is usually caught in the middle of them

is eden’s best friend

has/had feelings for jesse?

was called little bird by blake

was called shorty by blake

used to called blake mr. nerd

was never scared of blake for some reason

this is lowkey all about blake

called tyler mr. dude

hated kailey

tyler showed her how to get other people to do their homework for them

had like 4 friends

DYLAN CARVER

only came to spellbound because of julia

was simon’s mentor

didn’t really like simon at first

told audrey to give simon a chance

hated chloe

found valerie annoying and too talkative

soon grew fond of chloe

they bonded over their crushes hanging out with each other

came to stop julia from doing something stupid

did not expect his sister to come too

always gives girls hickies after dates?

prefers to be invisible rather than noticeable

would probably go back to new york for college

valerie called him mean but said that she likes it

when i say val i’m talking about skye

wanted audrey to ber his campagin member and would run for school or student council president

LILLIAN CARVER

tagged along

would most likely stay at spellbound

DARREN CHEN

feels pressure from his family

can choose his own mate

would probably return to spellbound

loves dancing

is close to audrey

grows close to april

is close to julian

JULIAN COHEN

is dating or dated natasha

these might just be old headcanons from anna

cares for tasha but sometimes feels like giving up on their relationship

was not happy when he found out about blake & tasha

JULIETTE COHEN

super close to julian

went to therapy for her anger management

was cheated on by jesse

grew close to blake and started dating him

had no idea that she fought with tasha over another boy

sam told her about the love pentagon (sam, jules, blake, lindsay, tasha)

secretly hates that blake still cares about lindsay

super close to tyler

close to samantha

CHASE COLLINS

idek

ANNA-ROSE COOKE

has a dark side

refers to adurey as her mom

refers to april as her sister

calls simon chimpunk

REID COOPER

came to

NAOMI DALTON

almost had a thing with tyler

ALEXANDRIA DANIELS

feels superior to julia

JACOB FLETCHER

has a crush on rose

BRITTANY FULLER

used to flirt with audrey

gives no fucks

may grow feelings for rachel?

should definitely have sex with blake

doesn’t know that linds and blake dated

AUDREY GANNER

broke up with wyatt because of what brooke told her

he still doesn’t know exactly why

he thinks it was the rose kiss

finds drinking blood gross

super close to blake

MELANIE GANNER

could’ve had a thing with brayden

was in love with aaron

wonders why tyler doesn’t like her

calls audrey audbo

aaron calls her melly bear, g-money

NICHOLAS GARCIA

was sent to spellbound to spy on april and her pack

ended up growing close to april

things ended cause she found out

now the two avoid each other

dated valerie

still has feelings for her?

doesn’t like james?

sam hates him

close to audrey

close to jake

sam wants to punch him in the face

figured out that val has a daughter?

almost told sam something about val and james

told sam that val had a kid and the father was james

sam did not believe

PAIGE GARNIER

tried to kill a teacher

JENNIFER GRANT

used to be jennifer burton

VALERIE HALE

has a kid with james

melanie considers her her favorite blonde

is dating samantha

used to almost have a thing with brooke?

SETH HAMILTON

idek

don’t think he did much in the other rps

SAMUEL HARRIS

anya is his childhood friend

had a crush on her

MEAGAN HART

likes valerie?

DANIELLA HASTINGS

idek

MAXWELL HASTINGS

probably left

VANESSA HENRIE

thought brent was pretty cool

JAMES HUNTER

has a kid with valerie

has feelings for valerie?

SPENCER HYLTON

is blake’s little sister

was adopted by supernatural parents

RACHEL JAMES

hooked up with wyatt

DANIEL JUNG

we’ll see

JASON KANG

we’ll see

EMILY KEELER

mini keeler

loves coffee

has a crush on aaron?

has a crush on tyler?

hates ashlee

close to audrey

totally steals her clothes

danced with blake at a dance

a version of emily gave no fucks

the only other person that calls blake, blakey bear

was not scared of blake

hates when blake calls her sweetpea

almost shipped them

SAMANTHA KEELER

troublemaker

creator of the EGC

BONA KIM

idek

BLAKE LAWSON

refers to Robbie’s friend group as the “Miller Posse”

didn’t like rachel in a more-than-friend way and found her annoying

everyone thinks that he broke her heart

but he only told her the truth regarding him and her

very blunt

protective of those he truly cares about

slightly scared of carson

thought samantha was really prety

had a fwb with natasha

was in a relathionship with lindsay

still has lingering feelings

audrey was the only other person he told about his relationship

carson knew while it was happening

audrey knew after it ended

only kills people who truly pisses him off

MIN-JOON LEE

idek

JOHANNAH LEWIS

idek

CHLOE MALAWER

had a crush on reid

had a crush on dylan

used to date simon

MADDISON MARTINEZ

idek

ALEXANDER MCHALE

idek

LINDSAY MCKENZIE

used to date blake

SCOTT MENDLER

used to date april

ROBERT MILLER

tbd

ALISON MITCHEL

tbd

ANYA MOORE

tbd

NATASHA MOORE

tbd

KIRSTEN MORGAN

tbd

EDEN NEWMAN

tbd

SIMON NOVA

went on a date with audrey

kissed her

kissed april

was roommates with chloe due to a mistake

dated chloe

is in a love/hate relationship with april

dylan was his mentor

had a thing with cordelia

maybe went after brittany

likes older girls

APRIL PICKETT

no one knew she was also half-demon until her sophomore year

hates simon

likes simon

hates chloe

likes chloe

loved nick

dislikes nick

enemies with melissa

enemies with brooke

thought she was straight until she met julia

close to jennifer

close to mal and jojo

grew close to darren

started trusting scott again

kissed simon

was nicknamed wolfy by sam

calls sam witchy

JESSE PIERCE

prefers natasha to jules

was nosy about blake and jules relationship

kept provoking blake

thinks julian sucks and that he would be a better boyfriend to tasha

was close to brayden

KAILEY PORTER

brooke’s cousin

gives no fucks

once got drunk and made a sex tape with valerie

caused samantha and valerie to grow apart

audrey supported the val and kailey ship

grew close to robbie

BRENT PRESCOTT

one of the ronan’s knights

CHRISTOPHER REED

was changed by alexandria

has a crush on anya

WYATT REED

used to date audrey

she broke his heart

was heartbroken when she started dating brayden

slept with valerie

slept with rachel

NICOLE ROSENBERG

idek

TYLER SMITH

is a player

feels like everyone will leave him

has a little sister

dated erica

dated brooke

almost had a thing with naomi

went on a date with chloe

is rose’s husband

likes melanie or liked her

conspired with brooke to end melron

ROSEANNA STEVENSON

kissed wyatt

used to have sex with aaron

has feelings for jake

doesn’t like alison

didn’t really get along with audrey

considers tyler her husband

was one of the firsts to find out that spencer was blake’s sister

was willing to help her

KYLIE SUMMERS

idek

ERICA TODD

dated tyler

addicted to candy

close to carson

close to juliette

close to audrey

close to aaron

close to samantha

close to brooke

close to spencer

dated noel jones

ISABELLA VEGA

got attacked by robbie

MALLORY VINCENT

idek

CHELSEA WARD

doesn’t want to be invisible anymore

BRAYDEN WESTERLY

could’ve had feelings for wither melanie or ashlee

been in love with audrey

ignored audrey during the first rp

was a great boyfriend during the second one and etc

audrey is his oldest friend

died and became a whitelighter

aaron’s boyfriend

but also tyler’s

used to be called apples by samantha

NATALIE WOOD

idek

JULIA WOODS

was the “ghost” that paige saw

STEVEN WU

idek

CALEB YOUNG

idek

#ref: spellbound #neverbeenbroken #out of magic #this helps me weed out those that dont' have plots

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You’re my Little Secret Chapter Four

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Category: F/F

Fandoms: The 100 (TV), The 100 Series - Kass Morgan

Relationship: Clarke Griffin/Lexa

Characters: Clarke Griffin, Lexa (The 100), Octavia Blake, Bellamy Blake, Anya (The 100), Mountain Men (The 100)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, Forbidden Love, Secret Relationship, Grounder Clarke Griffin, Sort Of, Opposite of slowburn, More tags to be added

Language: English

Words:11603

Chapters (as of 1/28/2020): 5/?

Previous Chapter: Clarke went on to tell her about her experiences on the Ark, feeling relieved that there was finally someone she could complain to that wouldn’t immediately report her to some higher authority. Perhaps it was still too early to make judgments, but Clarke trusted the grounder girl. She just seemed so authentic. Clarke couldn’t help but admire her.

She was something new. Something she’d never seen before.

Clarke wanted more of her.

“Clarke!”

Clarke smiled at Monty’s excited exclamation, happy to see that what looked like everybody had survived the acid fog. “Monty! Is everyone alright?”

“One dead. Harper saw it coming from the distance and everyone got inside. The hunting party found caves to hide in. Only Atom died.” Monty hugged her tightly for just a second. “We were worried about you. Where did you go?”

Clarke’s mind wandered not back to the bunker but to Lexa, her partial smiles and the one half-hearted laugh she’d managed to get out of her. “I found an old bunker. There wasn’t much in it of use, but it’s well hidden.”

Monty was about to reply before Clarke heard her name called again. Octavia grabbed her by the shoulders, shaking her back and forth. “Where the hell were you?”

“I found a place,” Clarke replied vaguely. “Do you have any idea what that was?”

“Some sort of poisonous mist,” Monty replied. “It burns the skin. Atom had blisters as big as a dinner plate on him after laying in it for the entire time. It didn’t kill him, but it would have after a few hours. The way it reacts to flesh reminds me of a chemical reaction.”

“Is it radiation?” Wells asked, coming up behind Monty. Clarke’s lips twitched down and Wells’ face looked like a kicked puppy.

“I don’t know what else it could be. There was never anything like this in old-world texts. We’ll have to watch out for it in the future.”

Clarke nodded in agreement. “So we will.”

“Clarke.” Said girl turned to Wells with a frown. His eyes were on the ground, his face downcast. “Can we talk?”

“About what?”

Wells flinched at how much venom was in her tone. “Mount Weather.”

Clarke did not want to deal with his bullshit right now, but she supposed she would have to at some point. “Fine. We’ll talk.” She stalked into the dropship. Wells trailed behind nervously.

He walked in to Clarke facing him, arms crossed and foot tapping impatiently though it hadn’t even been a minute. Wells took a deep breath. “We need to go to Mount Weather.”

“We’ve had this discussion already.”

“I know, but we need those provisions. Yes, it’s a three dozen mile walk, but we won’t survive another week at the rate we’re going. An occasional rabbit isn’t enough to keep a hundred people fed.”

“Then maybe they should get their shit together and actually get some food,” Clarke scowled.

“Clarke-” Wells sighed heavily. “Listen, I didn’t want to have to tell you this, but if it will get you to hear me out, then I will.”

“Tell me what?”

“I didn’t kill your father.”

Clarke was taken aback, not by the statement, but by the abrupt change of topic. “No. Your father did you that after you betrayed my trust.”

“That’s not what I mean. I mean I didn’t tell him.”

“Then who fucking did?” She hissed. “Who else knew?”

Wells’ sad look made her pause before it hit her. Only one other person had known. If not Wells, then…

“No.” Clarke stepped back, her eyes widening. “No. She wouldn’t. She wouldn’t.”

Wells moved closer, hesitantly resting a hand on her shoulder, and she surprised him by wrapping her arms around him and burying her face into his shoulder. Tears slid down her cheeks. “Why would she do it?”

Wells rubbed circles on her back. “She was doing what she thought was best for her people.”

“By killing her husband?”

“She thought my father would convince him to stop, not float him.”

Clarke snarled, pulling out of Wells’ hold. “Your father’s a bastard.”

Wells nodded sadly. “I wish he wasn’t, but… even I can’t deny that he is.”

Clarke heaved another breath, the sadness replaced with a raging fury. At her mother, at Jaha, at Murphy and everyone else who didn’t understand that they are going to die. Not just the hundred on the ground, but those on the Ark as well if they don’t come to the ground.

Clarke pushed past Wells toward the door to the dropship. He watched her, confused. “Where are you going?”

“I’m leaving for a bit. I need to be alone.” Her face softened just a bit looking at Wells. “And, just so you know… I’m happy to have you. Thank you.”

Wells didn’t have time to respond as Clarke slipped out of the dropship and strode into the woods she’d come from not ten minutes prior.

Clarke paced the woods outside of camp, careful not to stray too far after earlier events. Her mind was reeling. She felt overwhelmed. After spending the first half of the day with Lexa and then being told that Wells had let her hate him just so she wouldn’t hate her mother? She felt a swirl of emotions flooding her mind: anger, at her mother for killing Jake, at Wells for keeping it secret. Sadness, at her father being slaughtered by his wife. Confusion, at why Abby had killed him. She’d loved him. Of that Clarke had no doubt. Yet she killed him.

Clarke rested her forehead against the bark of a tree, her breath coming in quick gasps as she struggled to rein herself in. She knew she should go back; there were things to do after being stuck inside all morning. She took a minute, breathing deeply under she felt her racing heart calm down. With a last heaving sigh, she pushed herself off the tree and headed back to the dropship.

As she got closer to their camp, a commotion caught her attention. She sped up, half jogging back and pushing through the crowd of people hovered around the entrance to the ship. Miller and Harper were keeping everyone back best they could but neither stopped Clarke from walking right between them.

Finn and Monty were crouched on the floor while Bellamy was trying to calm down a raging Octavia, who had a knife pointed at Murphy. Murphy was leaning against the wall, hands up in surrender but not seeming at all bothered. Jasper was hovering in the corner, unsure. Monty looked up at her and breathed in relief. “Clarke! Thank god, you have to come quick.”

“What is it?” Clarke rushed over to him and almost collapsed as she saw Wells, lying on the floor in the same spot she’d left him standing before she’d left, with blood leaking out of the side of his neck. “What the hell happened?”

“Murphy,” Finn answered. “Stabbed him in the neck. He’s alive, but…”

Clarke scrambled to his side, pressing her fingers to his pulse. She could feel it’s beat, but it was so faint Clarke knew it was hopeless. Wells’ breath came in stranged gasps, his body convulsing slightly. Her face contorted in pain. “He… he won’t make it. We should…”

Finn nodded. “I will.” He touched her shoulder lightly, leaning over. “You don’t have to be here for this.”

She shook her head. “I should. Just do it.”

He nodded, pulling a knife from his belt. Clarke slipped her hand into Wells’, holding onto her friend tightly. She’d never get the chance to reconcile with him, to ask him why he’d let her hate him when it hurt them both. To thank him for everything he’d given her.

She had to force herself to watch as Finn slipped the knife into his neck, hitting point. He died within seconds.

Clarke had to keep a sob from forming. She could cry later. Now was not the time.

She let out a shaky exhale. “Dig a grave and bury him with the others.”

Finn, Monty, and Jasper began to comply with her orders as Clarke went over to the Blakes and Murphy. She grabbed Murphy’s shoulders and slammed him against the wall. “Why? Why the hell did you have to murder him?”

Murphy smirked. “Princess is angry I killed Junior Chancellor. How surprising.”

“Is that why you did it? Because of his father?” She snarled, releasing him from her hold. “You’re sick, do you know that?”

Murphy smiled lazily. “I know.”

“What are we going to do with him?” Octavia asked, prodding him with her blade.

“We could kill him,” Bellamy suggested.

“No,” Clarke said firmly. “We are not the Ark. We are not going to kill people, even him.” Clarke looked Murphy dead in the eyes, her face cold and expressionless. “I say we banish him.”

Clarke was eager to escape camp the next day. The whole atmosphere was tense, wary of everyone after Wells’ death. They were surrounded by criminals. Who knew if anyone else was out for blood?

Clarke moved as silently as she could toward her and Lexa’s usual spot. They’d claimed a small section of the southern woods for their own use, and the trees there were all filled with the marks of Clarke’s knife. She rested her hand on the hilt of said knife, feeling reassured by its constant presence at her side. It was all the protection she had, and these woods still made her a bit nervous.

To her surprise, Lexa was waiting leaning up against a tree, sharpening her dagger on a whetstone. She usually had to wait until Lexa dropped from the trees somewhere (because no matter how hard she tried, Clarke could never find where she came from) and yet she now stood in the open.

Lexa saw her before Clarke could get a word out. “Clarke. I was wondering when you’d show up.”

“Since when do you wait for me?”

Lexa let a small smile grace her face for just a second. “Since today. You have your knife, yes? Throw it at the target.”

Clarke did as she asked. The knife struck dead center.

Lexa nodded approvingly. “Good. You’re a natural at this.”

“Surprisingly.” Clarke whirled around at the unfamiliar voice, startled to find another woman behind her. Her hair was brown, more chestnut than Lexa’s chocolate. Her eyes were narrow, a feature commonly attributed to what the old-world had called ‘asian.’ She held the same steely, emotionless mask Lexa normally showed. “I had thought all skai people were horrendous at weaponry.

Clarke snorted. She was right. “And you are?”

The woman tilted her head. “You should learn to respect your superiors, skaigada. I am Anya, general under the Heda.”

Heda. It was a familiar term, one she’d heard Lexa bring up in passing a few times. “Heda. Your… leader, yes?”

“Yes.” Anya’s eyes flickered to Lexa for a moment before coming back to Clarke. “And you are the Skai Heda.”

“You could say that.” She’d rather not tell this unknown of her and Bellamy’s competition for leadership.

“Clarke has offered her support against the Maunon,” Lexa said from behind her, moving to stand at her shoulder. “I would like to know your opinion on this.”

“Has she?” Anya’s eyes shone with interest. “And what can this singular girl do for us? From what I know, no one else has noticed us. I hadn’t known you were aware of our presence.”

“You’re right, no one else knows you exist. And it will stay that way until I think my people can handle the news.”

“You are afraid they will act rashly.” Anya nodded. “A sound decision, as long as you can handle them.”

Clarke chose to ignore that. “You are here to discuss the mountain.”

“Sha, I am. The clans have tried many times to fall the mountain. What makes you think you can make a difference?”

“Tech.” Clarke explained to Anya what she had told Lexa. “We understand the Mountain’s workings. You say it’s impossible to get close? We can help you with that.”

Anya leaned forward, a malicious smirk forming on her face. “Tell me all you know about tech, Skaiheda. Their eyes in the trees. You know how to close them?”

“I know what they are. We call them cameras. They’re small cubes that have a recorder and transmitter inside them, and the maunon can watch you through them. If you can locate the cameras and destroy them, they can’t see you.”

“And how would this help? The door is still the only way in.”

“I don’t think it is. From what Lexa’s told me, the maunon or their reapers will periodically leave the mountain. If they don’t go through the doors, then they must have another way somewhere else. You’d be more skilled in that area, so that would be your job. I can’t tell you much more with how little we know, but if we can get inside or just close, maybe we can see more of how they operate.”

Anya nodded. “You have covered most of what we know. The only other information I can give you is what we can see from where we stand. One of those is large metal platings stood up on the peak. What of those?”

“Satellites, probably. We had them on the Ark. Where I came from,” Clarke added at Anya’s confused look. “They can pick up signals and send them back to the source. That’s how the cameras work. The cameras send a signal into the air that the satellites can pick up and send into the mountain.”

“It enables long-range communication?”

“It would, yes.”

Anya hummed thoughtfully. “The only other thing we can observe is a large wall that pours water in from the rivers.”

“A dam. In the old world, they used dams for many things. To block out water, to provide a source of water, or even to provide energy.”

“Energy?”

“Electricity. What we use to power our tech. We’ll have to look further into the purpose of the dam.”

“You offer a promising relationship, Skaiheda,” Anya said. “Your information can be beneficial to us. But how do we know you will not turn to the mountain? You are more alike them than us.”

“Lexa told me what they’re doing to your people. I would never side with someone who would condone that,” Clarke scowled. “Though I would ask something in return if we were to ally our peoples.”

Anya raised an eyebrow. “Oh? You think you can demand something of us?”

“If you want us to give you something, I want something in return,” Clarke answered. “It isn’t anything that should be a problem.”

“What is it you ask, Skaiheda?”

“Help.” Anya tilted her head at Clarke’s request. “As you may know, we don’t know how to survive in this new world. All I ask is that you help us live. Help us along until we can manage ourselves.”

“And say this plan does succeed and the maunon do fall. What of our alliance then?”

“How do the different clans keep an alliance?”

Anya shot a knowing look at Lexa, one that left Clarke confused but didn’t speak up on. “Our Heda forged that alliance. She brought all twelve clans together peacefully, a feat no other commander has done. The clans keep the peace through Heda and through trade agreements.”

“Could we offer the same trade agreements?”

“What would you have to trade?”

Clarke shrugged. “Tech, maybe. If not, I’m sure we’d eventually grow skilled enough to sell what we catch.”

Anya looked at her with a look that Clarke thought was respect, though with this woman it was hard to be sure of anything. “Very well, Skaiheda. You shall have this alliance, but only when you organize your people. I believe Lexa wishes to continue with your… meetings. She will inform me of when you are ready to begin negotiations.”

Clarke nodded, and Anya sent one last amused glance toward Lexa before slipping into the foliage.

She sighed heavily, dropping her back against the trunk of a tree. “She’s… intense.”

Lexa couldn’t help the smile that crept onto her face. “Indeed.”

“I’m guessing she’s your general, then?”

Lexa’s smile dropped. “In a sense.”

She didn’t elaborate. Clarke knew she wasn’t going to.

“So… are we training or what?”

Lexa snorted in amusement. “Yes, Klark. We are.” Her eyes moved down to her legs. “You have no muscle.”

“I lived in a metal box my entire life.”

“Yes, you did.” Lexa met her eyes once more. “We need to fix that. Try and keep up.”

Clarke’s legs were going to hurt like hell when this was over.

Chapters 1-5 up on ao3 here.

First chapter on Tumblr here.

#clexa fic #clexa deserved better #clexa #fanfiction #you're my little secret

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