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aprillikesthings · 2 months

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YOOO time for more she-ra rewatch

lolol at myself bc when I opened Netflix it was clear I'd left it paused right at the end of that sword-dragging scene eheheheheheh

so I watched it again

ahem, anyway

s1 ep 10, the beacon

my headphones aren't buzzing this time, thank fuck

(lol I got real distracted during this one)

oh right they all think Entrapta's dead

Also ADORA STOP

I mean I can't blame any of them for feeling that way

lol and then I got distracted and wrote a bit on my fic--I got some ideas at work today and wanted to pursue them.

and by "ideas" I mean I suddenly thought "hey remember that one bad breakup when you were 23, how the weekend after when you were alone in the house you cried so hard you worried you couldn't stop and started to panic and hyperventilate, and it only ended because a friend called to check on you? you should put that in the fic :D"

back now.

I dunno if they meant to do this, but to me it looks like Adora's WAY more upset than Glimmer and Bow are. I know part of it is her blaming herself.

yeah that's not good

"I'll recharge, stop glitching, and my mom never has to know :)" that's not how that works bb but okay

(hordak is speaking here)

And...that's a good point. She-Ra is even more dangerous than Hordak thought before, because she was part of the Horde and knows a LOT about them.

BAHAHAH I WAS WAITING FOR THIS

So this is one of the episodes I watched the first time with Daci over rabb.it. (That was actually our first "date," which is THE MOST LESBIAN THING EVER. Literally watching She-Ra online together in voice chat because we were long-distance.)

And I know this because I made a joke post about it to tumblr referencing K/DA, my fandom obsession at the time. That was on April 30th, 2019. I think that was the day Daci bought the plane tickets for their first visit. They moved in with me less than a year after that first visit.

Okay I looked up that date in our discord chats and

EIGHT HOURS lolol okay we watched the show the day before I made the post. Also Daci had just bought the plane tickets I was right-- that visit was the last weekend in June.

We'd been flirting for months but I didn't actually believe Daci was serious about it until they bought the plane tickets. And then the NEXT WEEKEND after watching she-ra and Daci buying those tickets my dad had a brain hemorrhage and we took him off life support a few days after that, and Daci and I started video chatting EVERY DAY because I was alone in the house and off work for two weeks of bereavement leave.

ANYWAY OFF TOPIC

Fuck one of my keys is acting up and the the paintbrush I use to dig under my keys to fix it is upstairs where Daci is sleeping, if I drop any r's that's why

I mean that seems fair. Also: Emily!!!

I'm trying to suppress how hard this is making me laugh and FAILING

Also her nose is wiggling omggg

Did you know it's canon that Catra is entirely covered in hair like an actual cat? Or at least it's "word of God" via the showrunners on twitter. But outside of fan art by furries nooooobody includes that. Especially not in fic. Which is fine. Because I personally do not want to write that. Her ears are fuzzy, the marks on her arms are just birth marks, but the hair on her body is just normal human body hair and that's it.

THAT SAID I think I've only read one fic that intentionally included her sense of smell being stronger, and it was referenced in ONE LINE for smutty reasons eheheheheheh

Anyway it's this fic and it's by a friend and it's good

SURPRISE!

Catra's expression is so often some variation on "...the fuck?"

Literally read a fic last week with a scene about how getting ill in the Horde was a good way to end up dead from a combination of bad nutrition/healthcare and being a victim of bullies but I cannot remember which fic it was

NO WAIT it's this one I think. I've still got two chapters to go reading that fic because I've been intentionally savoring it, the character stuff is just SO GOOD and it's just such the opposite of my own writing style. (But it's also the fic that has a scene of "Adora has a nightmare and injures Catra in her sleep," and I really hope nobody thinks I copied it considering I wrote mine before I read it in their fic, aaugh)

oh god there's a gif I can't find of a guy pressing his lips together like he's trying not to laugh and then looking at the camera and if you know the one: that one

Entrapta and her lack of ability to understand personal space or normal boundaries is just so great but also the phrase "another woman's tail" is just perfection

Yeah yeah I know Catra's being a manipulative little shithead here but also if I were to meet Entrapta and she didn't mind I would absolutely be twisting her hair CONSTANTLY just like I do my own

the weird noises she's making must've been so much fun to voice-act

So like, the whispering woods are like that one forest the hobbits walk through in the book version of lord of the rings where the trees keep like, closing in on them?

DEEP SIGH

that's the name of a g-idle song

oh right I see what's going to happen here

DO YOU THO

DO YOU

she's trying to comfort Shadow Weaver after immediately insulting her, bc of course she is

DIE, BITCH

"I was hard on you, I won't deny it; and I won't apologize. I just wanted to prepare you for the world. I just wanted you to be strong. :(" BULL FUCKING SHIT

well, for a given definition of "strong"

oh shit

Yeah that's a weird thing to bond over but okay

I dunno why they did the cute little fangie thing here but I'm not complaining

Okay so her face is stupid here (couldn't get a screenshot that included the caption and not the terrible face) BUT she really leaned into the sexy voice for this one and I made a noise and my laptop nearly slid to the floor pfft

#april rewatches spop #the beacon #april writes #<- bc I mentioned the fic

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k-odyssey · 2 years

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Thoughts on tvn's Happiness (ep 11 & 12)

Tbh a love confession hits different when the characters have just barely escaped bloodthirsty zombies by saving each other. And one of them is, in fact, in imminent danger of turning into a bloodthirsty zombie.

This elevator scene is the culmination of so many things and that's why it's so good. 12 years of friendship and love. The happiest marriage of convenience. Over a week of anxiety and confinement and deadly chaos. Days of agony and fear, for Hyun.

On the one hand it's like, finally! She's saying it. And at a moment when Hyun really needs to hear it. And when it's really meaningful, cause it shows she loves him no matter what. On the other hand, they have no guaranty that they'll make it out of there alive, and he's already decided that this is goodbye. At least for now. The bittersweetness of it.

But I love that in this moment, Yi Hyun is finally letting his guard down and Sae Bom is the one who says she'll take care of him. Even if he won't actually let her (yet).

It makes so much sense that he would choose to stay behind but I hated every second of that separation scene. I guess it's fine to bite a serial killer under those circumstances? It was self-defense.

I did like the parallel between their first encounter on the high school roof where she saved his life, and his sacrifice on this roof to save her life.

The writer and her brother really came through. Plot-wise and as comic relief. Seo Yoon, too. She saved the day. With grenades. Which is not something you expect from a child character.

Representative lady just descended into madness?? Which was interesting to watch. I guess that's what happens when social status is all that matters to you and you define yourself only in opposition to others (poor, infected) but then the epidemic ruins your life, exposes you and takes your loyal husband.

Other surprise of the week: the mistress bashing #601's head with a golf club? I knew she was an opportunist, and pretty okay with murder being committed for her benefit. Did not realize she would do it herself?? I don't encourage violence but I mean, he literally did the same thing to his wife so.

Lawyer guy is such a coward and I was sooo happy to see his wife throw the ring at his feet as she left him behind. You go girl, he never deserved you. (I love that the kid knew who was trustworthy or not.)

The cleaners also just?? lost it?? I did not expect such scheming from that lady. But the older couple and their son had an unexpectedly heartwarming reunion.

Normally I wouldn't be into video confessions as I find them awkward but here it 100% worked with the plot and heightened the heartbreak. Nothing sadder than finding a love message when you don't even know if they're alive or not.

Also when I realized that life was pretty much back to normal outside my jaw dropped. People are dying in there and no one's come for them???

Sae Bom looks like such a bad bitch here, I was almost disappointed that she didn't need to fight her way out of that place. Although, technically, it's a good thing that she got help. And I like Lee Ji Soo a lot in the finale.

Han Tae Seok seems to know that he was wrong in many ways. But until the end, he would've broken any rule for his wife. Meanwhile, Sae Bom decides that she'd rather give Seo Yoon's mum the antibody, cause Hyun has her to take care of him. Which is so in character for her.

Anyway, the part where Hyun says "if he stays with his family he might be able to endure better"!!! They're on the same wavelength. 🥲 And this scene omg. The looks on their faces.

I was so happy to see them alive and well and in love at the end. But if it were me I would've moved the hell away from that building!! Don't they have PTSD from back then?? Did anyone really wanna live there after what happened?? So. many. murders.

Maybe I missed something, but I was wondering what the government was doing the whole time. And, as I've said, the science side of things was a bit shaky. But other than that, I really, really liked this drama. 10/10 would watch obsessively again.

PS: I loved the soundtrack. Wouldn't necessary listen to it outside of this but it worked so well.

#tvn happiness #happiness #kdrama thoughts #해피니스

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ageless-aislynn · 2 years

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I honestly couldn’t watch Caitlin’s subplot. Like why? NOBODY likes Chillblaine. And honestly Iris and Joe should’ve had the B-Plot instead

Hey there, Anon! Oh yeah, I’m feeling you. 😕

I've been thinking about my dissatisfaction with Caitlin and Frost/Mark in this past episode and I think my unhappiness doesn't actually boil down to They're shipping Caitlin and Frost with my Not-Preferred Persons.

(Whomever could that be? WHO? NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW BECAUSE I'M SO STEALTHY ABOUT MY SHIPPING LOVE. 😜)

ReverseSnow/ReverseFrost/Snowthawne/Frostthawne (and SnowHarry and FrostNash) love aside, though, what made this hard to watch for me was being hit over the head with all of the "tell, not show." We don't get to experience Caitlin and Marcus meeting, getting to know each other, going through all of these awkward moments, maybe some disagreements, etc. You know, all of the things that give the viewer an emotional connection and a stake in the relationship. They just... tell us as a throwaway line in the ep before (I think) from Frost that Caitlin is dating Marcus as if we have an earthly clue who that even is.

Then in the ep itself, we get the one scene that I thought actually did WORK, at least for me: Mark talking to Caitlin about her being afraid to make a commitment, to really go all-in on this relationship. It's one of the few times I felt like they let Mark be an actual character and not a caricature. If we had a stake in Caitlin/Marcus, then that would've been an all-around great scene!

But we haven't even seen Marcus before so why am I supposed to even care if we (and Caitlin) see him again? IMO, they could've at least helped some of this by making this clearly a first date instead of acting like they've been dating off screen for a while.

Back to Mark, though. I actually do like Jon Cor and, when we first met him, I was ready to get on board the USS Frostblaine, lol. I mean, I clearly have no problem shipping my girls with villains...

*coughcoughs in Frosthunter/Snowhunter and Savifrost/Savisnow* 😜

...and the "villain who's transitioning to anti-hero" is one of my fav tropes! Plus, I'm used to not getting the ship I really want, 😒 so I don't begrudge my girls some fun in the meantime, lol. 😉

But. They've really misused his character, again because of the tell, not show. The WORST thing, though, IMO, was how they glossed over Frost deciding to forgive the bad things he's done and start a relationship with him. Caitlin TOLD us (well, she told somebody on the show but it was for the audience). I mean, if I'm going to be invested in a ship, that would've been a great scene to experience myself. It sounds, you know, kinda important and all that? But nope, we're just told about it.

Granted, some of this is because he isn't a full-time character so we're just going to get snippets of them together and I get that.

But back to Caitlin and What's-His-Name, though. 😜 Is he going to be someone we see in future eps or will it just be like Caitlin's our co-worker who's dating some dude we never expect to meet outside of a work holiday party or something? In that case, maybe it's better to not see him, then to get these weird little moments of "Oh look, Caitlin's found loooove again!" with some rando. 😜😉

Anyway, Anon, thank you for writing and for giving me the chance to process some of my feels over this whole situation, lol! 😉

PS - The fact that I can be 1001% emotionally invested in ships that have never even met *points up at Frost and Eowells/Mattobard and Flashpoint!Caitlin and Flashpoint!Eobard* is actually not contradictory. I love the characters separately and I love imagining how a relationship between them might work. But if they’d given me actual canon ReverseSnow, for example, but only as a throwaway line about “Oh, well, now that Caitlin’s dating the Reverse Flash...” then I would be equally unhappy with that. In fact, I’d probably throw hands...

...and then get out of there fast because I’m smol and soft and would cry if I was ever actually in a fight. 😉 But you get my point. “Tell, not show” is a lousy way to treat any ship, even (or especially) if it’s a ship I want to see. 💖

PSS - This doesn’t even address the horrifying second-hand embarrassment I got from Caitlin trying to shred Mark to pieces at dinner. I mean, I’m not saying it wasn’t true or even deserved but, c’mon, Caity, read the room! That wasn’t the time for that and, at that moment, he’d done nothing to deserve being verbally filleted like that. It just made Caitlin look like a total jerk and I hated that. Though, I suppose, at least it falls under the category of being a character flaw. It would’ve been worse if we would’ve just later had Frost complaining to Barry or somebody about how Caitlin trashtalked Mark at dinner but we didn’t even see any of it. 🤷‍♀️

#the flash #the flash 8x07 #spoilers #snowells #reversefrost #caitlin snow #killer frost #mark blaine #chillblaine #frostblaine #anonymous #ask #anon #*hugs*#ageless aislynn

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boredom-reigns · 4 years

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Ken Amada : Character Introspection

Persona 3 and some P4:AU Spoilers!

Ken Amada is honestly one of my favourite Persona 3 characters. I know the way his character arc was handled was somewhat flawed (like when he basically doesn't matter after the closure of Oct. 4), but I still love him a lot nevertheless.

My main problem is honestly the fact that a lot of people in the fandom hate him so much it can get grating, especially if it's for nonsensical reasons (like him apparently being the cause of Shinjiro's death even though the person who shot the guy was right there).

I mean, not liking characters is fine. I respect other people's opinions. But spreading misinformation based on a misinterpretation of a scene is... yeah.

Note: These are my opinions and interpretations of his character based on P3 and P4:AU. Other opinions and interpretations are welcome!

First off, like most Persona characters, Ken's character is based off an archetype. Ken's archetype, you could say that it's based on the Adorably Precocious Child trope. He's acts too mature for his age, even trying to hide his childishness by denying the fact he watches Featherman and saying that he drinks black coffee.

But this maturity came at a cost. From the little glimpses of childishness that Ken has shown (for example, the movie showing event where he's basically jumping up and down in happiness because the superhero movie was so cool!) along with his reinforcement of the idea that no, he's capable even at 11 years old (one of his battle voice lines is "Don't underestimate me because of my age") makes me believe that he wasn't always like this. He was forced to mature due to circumstances or he forced himself to mature due to circumstances.

What was this circumstance?

Obviously, the death of his mom.

Ken's mom is a huuuggeee part of his life and basically affected him a lot. Her death made him what he was today. First is that he saw her get murdered right in front him. Of course he's going to be traumatised. Not only that, he had something to direct his anger and hatred to (I'll talk about that later).

But when he told people about what he saw, nobody believed him, obviously. But remember this, Ken was a kid. He was 9 at the time. And he was 100% sure that what he saw was real. When he was being basically labeled as a liar because everyone won't believe him and just treated him as some fragile, traumatised kid, he's going to lash out. He knew it was real yet everyone just thinks that he was lying. He didn't think that obviously no one would believe him because he was deep in grief and hatred. He wanted justice. But no one would help him because everyone's saying that it was an accident. And he hated that.

He had a target to hate, yet he was powerless to inflict punishment (his idea of "justice") on that target.

So he wanted to be capable. If no one's going to help him, then so be it. He'll do his own justice. So Ken forced himself to grow up. He forced himself to be more mature, copying the image of capability he believes in.

Another thing that possibly added to Ken forcing himself to mature is the way people treated him afterwards. To outsiders, he was a traumatised kid. Ken says in his conversation with Shinjiro that he just receives pity no matter where he goes and he hates that pity.

I've seen LPs where they're like "huh, but isn't that good?" to that line. Speaking as someone who has lost a loved one and dealed with other people who lost a loved one, expressing pity is a balancing act.

It's hard to express pity because people deal with grief differently and some people despise pity when they're grieving. Some people are of the mentality of "what use is your pity because it's not going to bring them back!". Being treated differently because you lost someone or being treated as some fragile person made of glass who's going to have a breakdown at any time is horrible. Moving on can be so hard when everyone is tiptoeing around you. And I think that's what Ken felt.

What Ken needed during his grieving was someone who would support him. Someone who believed in him. He didn't need someone who just stood along the sidelines and pitied him. He needed someone who actually approached him and bothered to listen. I feel like that was what Ken was looking for: someone to listen to him. Because everyone around him never listens and just calls him off as a liar. He had no support system whatsoever. He was staying alone in the elementary school dorm and from the convenience store bentos in his room that can be seen in P3D, you can infer that he was forced to take care of himself for 2 years. For 2 years, all he got was financial support and never the needed emotional support.

Because of this, he was left to internalise his grief which then evolved into hatred. He didn't have anybody anymore. There was no point in living for him because his mom, his light, was gone. No one else was there to give him a reason to live. No family, no friends, no one who believes in him. Ken felt that it was only him against the world.

So why should he keep on living?

And this is where the idea that he has a target enters in. This target of his hatred became his one and only purpose. Why? Because it was the only thing that was there for him. He had no one and nothing. The only thing he had in life was this target of his extreme hatred. The target for his justice. Giving the rightful punishment to this target became his only purpose in life to the point that after killing Shinjiro, he was going to kill himself. Ken's only reason to live was to kill Shinjiro for revenge.

As for his entire "Mom would've wanted this.", I feel like that's more of him trying to justify his actions. He had a target of his giref: Shinjiro. He wanted to kill Shinjiro because Shinjiro killed his mom. But murder is a very daunting task. Even Ken hesitated. I feel like he just justified himself with "Mom would've wanted this." so he can do it. Because killing Shinjiro is the only thing left in life for him. It's the only thing he can do now. He had no reason for living other than Shinjiro's death. So he tried to justify it so he would be able to get through doing it and to give him more reasons as to why he should really do it and not hesitate.

On October 4, it was an utter disaster especially when Takaya (*cough* Shinjiro's real killer *cough* people who keep insisting that Ken is the killer) arrived. At this part, Ken finds out about Shinjiro's drug deal. He loses his shit because he finds out that Shinjiro's going to die early anyway no matter what he does. Killing Shinjiro at this point felt like knocking someone who was already down. It had no point. And because killing Shinjiro had no point, Ken's entire purpose for living had no point. So... He had no purpose.

And this was why Ken went "I have no reason to live."

Other things we can actually see on October 4 is that Ken does care about SEES. He joined SEES with ulterior motives but in the end, he cares. He pretended that he was the navigator to make sure that Takaya won't find out about Fuuka and that Takaya would target him. The time he spent in SEES was most likely the most emotional support he got (and that's kinda sad because SEES is like the most dysfunctional party out of all the Persona games (except maybe P2:EP?)). He got people who saw the same things he saw, people who understood him. He got people who actually bothered to talk to him and listen. Heck, you can even bring him to the movies which I'm sure is great because who knows how long has that kid haven't seen a movie or had fun. There's people who actually don't treat him with so much pity. That fact that you can bring him to Tartarus, I think he's glad about that because he's not underestimated. Ken was respected in SEES as an equal and he appreciated it.

After the entire Oct. 4 shenanigans, Ken has learned to look into himself. He realized his mistakes, his deep hatred blinding him, but most of all, he found a reason to live. He finally moved on, and decided to live as that was what his mom and Shinjiro would've truly wanted.

Then fast forward to P4:AU we can see that he's indeed living. He's pretty much the most popular guy in school, he's in Student Council, and he's even in the soccer club. But he can't fully live yet.

If you've P3 episode of P4:AU, you'd play the Ken vs Shadow Ken part which actually reveals a lot about post-P3 Ken. If you haven't, watch it here.

Ken can't be 100% content with his current life. He feels fake, being a child again, going to school normally and having friends his age to talk and laugh with. This is because of how much his past has destroyed his childhood. He was forced to mature, forced to see things his age shouldn't see, forced to experience things that he shouldn't experience that age. No one his age could understand. They were too innocent while the ones who could understand him (SEES) were too old.

An interesting thing about his entire image post-P3 is that he was basically the "ideal student". He was handsome, smart, athletic, responsible, etc. It makes me wonder if he got that image because it was what he thought was what living was (which his mom and Shinjiro wanted) or because that was what people expected of him. I can see him trying to be more of a child because people expected him to be lighter as the entire Tartarus-Nyx dilemma was gone. I can also see him forcing himself to be more of a child as he feels the obligation to take back the childhood he lost. But that's it, he forced himself. He's not content because for him, he's fake.

Ken's fake he only wanted to fight and this affects him. I think he wanted to fight because that felt the closest to his true self: who he was when he was with SEES. He wanted to help the Shadow Operatives because it was the only environment he can be 100% honest to himself. No pretending that he had a normal life. It was living as him, with people who knew him. In the end, it circles back to the point that he finds fighting Shadows as a purpose to live.

This chapter also showed that Shinjiro still affects him. He blames himself for what happened on October 4, with his monologues saying that he committed a mistake in relation to Shinjiro's death. Shinjiro is an important person to him and his death was very much impactful.

Then Ken fights his fake, where he says that he's been "conceited" and "didn't understand anything at all". I take this as a point of enlightenment for him. What he didn't understand was "living". He followed a mold that be felt he should follow. He thought that he could only feel true to himself by only fighting supernatural creatures. He realised that he wasn't truly living at this point. He thought he understood that he was living like how his mom and Shinjiro wanted but he wasn't. He was still stuck in the past.

This was why I loved his epilogue. In his epilogue, he decides to quit the Shadow Operatives. He decides that it was time for him to move on from their dark past and continue living, not only for his mom and Shinjiro, but also for himself. He thinks that it was better for him this way. He gets to regain his childhood.

His fangirls notice that he's become less distant and more warm to approach, showing signs that he's beginning to open up to people. Despite the fact that he can never tell people about the whole Shadows and Personas, he can still make new bonds. He doesn't have to be stuck on one bond.

This doesn't mean he's abandoning SEES. He still recognises his string bond with them, one might even say that they're family at this point. But just because he has a bond with them doesn't mean he should only restrict himself to them. He can make new, true bonds that aren't fake.

He finds out how to truly live. He just enjoys the moment and finally lets go, showing his inner child.

Ken's character is all about the purpose of life. Because even if life is so hard it feels like death, there's always a reason to live. Even if you can't find your purpose to live now, you will find it someday.

#persona 3 #persona 4 arena ultimax #ken amada #shinjiro aragaki #character introspection #i love him if you couldn't tell #im also curious about other people's interpretations #long post

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