#but sy himself just has internalized transphobia

[komaneko-kun]

very self indulgent t4t and trans solidarity bingqiu

bonus: happy bingy

#luo binghe #shen qingqiu #bingqiu #shang qinghua #svsss #mxtx #danmei #my art #scum villain #if it wasn't clear enough the 3 of them are trans #sqq just didn't botter he letting the barely existing mantitties free #also no hate to trans ppl that call themselves cis just to fuck w cis people's mind you're epic #but sy himself just has internalized transphobia

[endlesslyramblingaboutblorbos]

I may be going a little insane but hear me out here

Trans girl Luo binghe who comes out to her Shizun and sqq is in immediate denial bc he’s like wth is this, that’s my stallion protag he isn’t a girl oh god I’ve coddled him too much and made him think this I’m such a horrible person but of course he can’t be outwardly transphobic how could he hurt binghe like that??? What do u mean??? He can’t break his heart he has to cling to the protagonist’s thighs!!! (And also he can’t bear to see binghe hurting cough cough) and he ofc blames himself and feels guilty for “breaking him” or whatever bc sqq has sooooo much internalized transphobia and his own gender issues/he grew up in the 2000s as a chronically online kid.

and meanwhile airplane had meant for binghe to be a vent character or someone he could reflect himself onto (gonna use he/him pronouns for sqh bc his gender issues are undecided in this idea) as someone expected to be strong and manly and the man of the household but really just wanted to live as a girl or outside of gender expectations and pidw was going to be catharsis of realizing you didn’t have to live up to the standards you and others assign you but then money issues kicked in and it became the pidw sqq (and we) know. So sqh kinda didn’t think about that og concept until uh oh weird sqq (unknown to him as being sy) is nice enough for binghe to explore her gender?? He didn’t intend this but alr it doesn’t effect him.

and then bingge who had never been happy as a man and had internalized transphobia but not societally, more like through trauma (sj hurt me bc I was a man so if I am not all that was for nothing and my suffering was invalid because blah blah mental gymnastics) and then in bingge vs bingmei (more literal this time) she sees this girl she could have been and is so broken by that aghdfjdkdhffhf

anyway enjoy my idea (I’ll never be normal again)

#svsss #fic stuff #scum villains self saving system #bingge #luo binghe #shen qingqiu #bingqiu #shang qinghua #transgender #its pride month and this is my treat to myself #Another gay little au #This is so unpolished sorry