#but that’s a lot of fucking money sooooooo not gonna do that lol

[rosicheeks]

🌸🦖🌿?

-🌸

🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

I feel like it had to be something about my personality. Personality compliments are always top tier for me and then singing compliments are probably next 🩷

🦖 Favorite extinct animal?

Dinosaurs???? I’m sorry I’m awful lol

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.

Right now I don’t think I have a *favorite* outfit. My go to outfit when I want to look cute is usually a skirt and a top that is either a crop top or I crop myself 😂

#I actually have a box somewhere of a bunch of hand written compliments I got when I was in school #some were notes and some was from church #even if I don’t know the person anymore it’s still nice to look back at them #also my school had a Facebook page where you could anonymously post compliments about other students so I wrote those down somewhere too 🫶 #true and genuine compliments really hit me deep #the you’re beautiful or cool or nice or sweet #is nice to hear but it’s nowhere near the feeling you get when someone actually says something from the heart #sad thing is I don’t remember many personality compliments - I remember a few singing compliments but not many and I have a feeling that #my negative thoughts over the years just ended up drowning them out or ya know my memory sucks either way lol #my first thought was dinosaurs and then I was like nah they aren’t animals so I tried looking up extinct animals but then I got overwhelmed #so I was like eh I’m gonna just put dinosaurs but then I thought about it and was like……. if dinosaurs aren’t animals what are they #so I looked it up and I saw two different things saying either animal/reptile (I’m guessing depending on what type but who the fuck knows) #as for outfit that’s a hard one still - I don’t go out much so I don’t wear half of my closet #most of the time I’m just wearing some comfy pants and a some random shirt #but I’ve been trying to go out more so I’ve been going through my closet and trying different outfits #nothing is really *clicking* and tbh it’s probably cause I should get rid of all of it and start fresh #but that’s a lot of fucking money sooooooo not gonna do that lol #anyway thank you for the questions lovely 🩷🫶 #it was fitting for you to do the 🌸 it made me smile 🥰 #ask #🌸 anon

[tellywoodtrash]

kwk lb: saif/sara ali khan

ugh these damn intros. i liked the varun/katrina ep better, where they brought karan out instead of this time waste of a meaningless ramble karan does in every damn ep. 

yash johar sounds like a sweet dad tho.

….. all this talk of “royalty” and saif comes out looking like a right hobo.

gosh howwww does she look SO much like amrita? like, they cloned these damn kids, didn’t they? like straight up just CLONED them.

sara sounds like a smart kid.

lmao her little snort chuckles as saif tries to be diplomatic.

saif sounds like an exhausting man-child to deal with.

god this modern family question. pls we all already know that everyone is cool with it. why ainvayi trying to stir up drama?

“kareena aunty” lmao bitch just try

lol saif just staring into the distance as his child speaks with more maturity than he ever had at that age (or now.)

sara seems to have the same existential angst that i do.

lmaoooooooooooooo saif is just noping outta this soooo hard.

all these years and she’s never been shopping with kareena?

lolololol ofc kareena hated the museum.

ugh lord can we stop talking about their family situationnnnnnnnnnn. like either give us some juicy gossip about it or stop talking about this happy happy family narrative. honestly.

lmao “happy independence day” i love her i truly do

sara’s lol whut face at that ainvayi ka google home nonsense.

don’t lie sara you still have a boyfriend.

also what just one boyfriend long back? you have one right now (that AD of kedarnath) i can name two exes (harshvardhan, that politician’s grandson.) girl, this is the age of the internet; idk why ppl try and hide these things and make a fool of themselves.

yup; karan’s talking about that politician’s grandson, whose brother janhvi was/is/whatever-the-current-status-is dating.

sara is soooooo done with these two embarassing uncles.

*muttering* “not all of the values” omfg the sass

pft karan trying to make saif’s mostly fail “journey” look good

i’m just transfixedddddddd by how old the styling is making saif look. like why can you ppl just embrace the age you’re at, instead of trying soooooooo hard and ending up looking worse.

yeah how can someone who’s descended from royalty and has literally every single form of privilege in life feel bad about chote-mote failures here and there? you’d have to be a damn fool to.

lmao saif processing everything sara is saying.

“gym look is a visual delight” god karan you’re such a gross creeper honestly can you just fucken let women live and go to the gym jfc

i am sara, sara is me

what journey? ek movie na kiya hue hi she got a second in hand, what big struggle are these ppl talking about??????/

OMFG THIS TAIMUR NONSENSE. it really gets my goat how this whole fucking situation has gotten so fucking outta hand. in every single way all of this is fucking messed up. leave the poor baby alone.

oh. viral bhayani is much younger than i thought he was. i thought he was an old uncle.

lmaooooooooooo viral talking about cherishing the memory as if he’s one of taimur’s parents? saif’s face also reflecting the same; like bhai tu hai kaun??????

saif honestly looks confused and mad and like…. same.

KARAN SO HELP ME GOD LEAVE YOUR DAMN KIDS ALONE UGH SDLKFJSLKJFLSDK

i am sara, objecting to this “rate” garbage.

she looks sooooooo unconvinced and mad and like she has something to say but she’s holding her tongue.

lol mirma.

i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee karan and his body shaming bullshit. i really hate him.

ok fwding this coz i can’t tolerate such second-hand embarrassing nonsense.

can saif and karan literally just diaf for shaming her like this, thanx.

ugh saif is just sucha weirdo creep bringing up chubby chasers jfc i hate men so much.

finally time for rapid fire. pls god let sara win.

that ok google always sounds so doneeeee with karan every time he addresses “her”. even AI women are sick of his shit.

all of bollywood’s tharki buddhas are enamoured with alia these days huh?

oh ho, guessing saif doesn’t want a sanghi jamaai. aur drugs aur infidelity ki baatein aap na hi karo toh best hai.

“got cash? take her.” wonderful. not creepy at all.

gtfo with your intellectual elitism saif. OOTD naa jaankar tumhe kaunsa booker prize milna hai?

LMAOOOOOOO IT’S 2018 AND PPL ARE STILL SHITTING ON VIVEK OBEROI THE POOR THING

looks like all those rumours of saifeena being broke af are true afterall, with the amount saif is showing laalach for paisa.

ofc he’d rather be caught. majaal hai jo you get hurt but still keep your conscience clean. fuck.

sara is me. just incredulous at that answer.

all these ppl calling ranbir kapoor a charmer….. i just…… like have some standards man. ugh.

lmao what great work with imtiaz ali?????? love aaj kal was terrible. only the bits in the past were slightly tolerable. ainvayi, just coz he might be doing imtiaz’s next. also aren’t sara/karthik doing something with imtiaz too? is that the same thing?

MAN YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT? AN AKSHAY/SAIF MOVIE AGAIN. LIKE THEY PAIRED OFF SO WELL IN THE 90S AND I WANT SOME MORE BROTP SHIT FROM THEM. (not crap like tashan tho.)

note to self - watch main khiladi tu anari again.

kareena’s gonna kill him for not saying she was the hottest.

go sara go. win this shit!

poor sara and her traumatic childhood thanks to her parents’ awful movies.

really? varun dhawan? over everyone else?

i mean i guessss….. he’s got a near-100% success rate. but there’s so many better ACTORS.

“DON’T SAY THAT ABBA!!!!!!!!!!!!!” lmao she’s superstitious i think. after all the hassle she went through.

man is everyone chaaatofying alia’s coz this is karan’s show or what? anushka is way more look-up worthy than her. she’s from a non film background, she acts well, does a good balance of movies and produces interesting stuff. like….. honestly.

WHY DO ALL THESE GIRLS WANNA MARRY RANBIR’S DUMB ASSS I REALLY DON’T GET IT LIKE HAVE SOME STANDARDS. HAVE ANY STANDARDS.

lol i like her tinder bios.

pft kartik aryan is such a chooza. sara pls, you seem smart and sorted, aim higher pls. at least for like vicky kaushal and all.

SAIF IS ACTING LIKE A RIGHT DALAL WITH THIS MONEY GARBAGE. HE NEEDS TO STOP.

oh boy what is on your phone girl.

ranveer ranveer blah blah blah……

sara deserved to win.

ouff this game is boring yaaaar.

LMAO SALIM? WHO SALIM?

sara lost quicker than i thought she would on the ivy league Q.

how does kunal come under pataudi family? kuch bhi.

lmao oh sara. manikarnika is the jhansi ki rani.

LMAO SALIM IS BITTOO

SAIF AND SOHA????????? ARJUN JANHVI??????? SHAHID ISHAAN???????? SALMAN AND HIS BROTHERS? COME TF ONNNNNNNN SARAAAAA.

lolllllllllllllllll sara is so petty in her victory i love her.

why do they always keep the cup at that one spot??? 

why does arjun kapoor look sunburnt? like its that unnatural brown-pink colour that srk was for a lot of years.

#koffee with karan #kwk lbs #episode liveblogs

[canaryatlaw]

okay. so today was pretty good. I woke up at like 12:25ish I think? naturally, I texted Jess and asked if she wanted to get lunch, citing a lunch special that was posted at one of the restaurants we went to last week. she said yes and we said we’d meet in 15, so I got dressed and headed out. Once we got there we couldn’t actually see the lunch special where it was posted so we were kinda just like fuck it we’ll get whatever we want lol. I ended up getting a burger, which I kinda got meat-fatigued with (I don’t care if that’s not a real thing, I’m making it a real thing) but I ate like two-thirds of it before switching to my tater tots. they also like, fully cooked it when I said medium rare, so that may have contributed to my feelings there, lol. but mostly it was good. So we got the check and paid, I later would discover I accidentally left my credit card there and would have to deal with that later. but for now we headed home. For a while I just did random computer stuff, namely ordering a bunch of stuff off amazon after looking at recipes I wanted to make that I needed some specific ingredients for (some of which you couldn’t really find at a grocery store) and I wanted to get better tips for my piping bag for making macarons because the ones I have now aren’t big enough to properly pipe the shells so I end up having to pipe them using a circular motion instead of just doing dollops like you’re supposed to. I had gotten a reply email from the one I sent yesterday regarding the kitten for adoption and they said to call for a short phone interview and set up a time to visit, so I gave them a call but it went to voicemail and nobody’s called back yet, I may try them again in the morning because we were hoping to be able to go get the kitten tomorrow, so we’ll see how that works. I was on their website and they didn’t list a specific address for their location because apparently it’s a primarily a private home but they listed approximate coordinates by street numbers, which I tracked down to actually be really close to both of our apartments, so that should be easy hopefully. After that I decided I wanted to make oatmeal raisin cookies which had been on my mind for a few days now, so I set about doing that. I always fuck up with remembering to take the baking sheets out of the drawer below the oven before preheating the oven, because if I leave them in there they get really hot and are just generally harder to deal with, so I had to put up with that which was annoying. I tried to see if I could get my broken cookie dough to work if I used a certain technique but it was not in fact successful, so I just ended up using a spoon and rolling them into balls with my hands. I later went back on Amazon and bought a new cookie dough scoop, so I really went a bit Amazon crazy today 😂 oh well. The cookies came out pretty good, the only thing was the ones that were put on the bottom rack, which I hadn’t scooped out until after the first tray was already in, ended up being a little dark on the bottom, not burnt except for a few small areas but definitely getting there, so I’ll have to be careful about that in the future. But I was mostly satisfied with them. I went back on my computer and did nothing in particular until Jess and I decided to go get ice cream, and as I was heading out I looked at the clock and realized it was like 6 pm and not like 4 like I thought, so when we met up I suggested we get some actual food first since it was actually dinner time, so we went to one of the restaurants on the main street that I’d been to a few times before and it was pretty good. we didn’t want to fill up too much because ice cream, so we shared two appetizers: fried mac and cheese balls, and poutine. they were both super good, but the poutine was like, freaking amazing lol. I knew I was going to get sooooooo much acid reflux for eating it (and I did) but it was totally worth it. When we went to pay I saw that my credit card was suspiciously missing from its spot, which was concerning of course but I figured I’d probably just left it in the restaurant we were at for lunch (which was conveniently just across the street from where we were), so I tried to not panic and paid with another card, then we went across the street and asked about it, they told us to talk to the bartender who said to give him my ID, and I did, and he went to a little like flash card box (I forget if those have an actually proper name or not) and flipped through a bunch of pages (apparently a lot of people have left cards there before, but I guess that’s the case with a bar sometimes) before finding mine and bringing it back to me, which of course I was very relieved about, I had to deal with losing my wallet last year and getting fraudulent charges on my cards almost immediately and had to cancel and reissue all of them and then there was this ongoing problem with the bank and it was really just a nightmare, so I’m glad I don’t have to do that again. We continued down the street to the ice cream place (we have like a ton of food places in like a two block radius), where we ordered our standard choices and sat and ate them before parting ways. I got home and decided I was in the mood for some more game of thrones, finishing season 3 and starting season 4. I gotta say that I’m finally actually getting really into it. like for a long while I just was not following it, but now I know who (most of) the characters are and how they fit into everything, and just how crazy things get. I know a ton of people come back from the dead so I’m kinda just waiting for that to happen with some of the recently “deceased” characters (cough Starks cough). Poor fucking Sansa man. She’s just getting tortured from every angle. At least Tyrion is a decent human being and tries to protect her, seems he’s really the only Lannister that’s not completely terrible. and OF COURSE I left off at the end of the episode where Joffrey met his tragic end, and I have to see while actually watching it was kind of gross, it was still a beautiful sight to me because THAT LITTLE SHIT IS DEAD and I’m so happy about it. When everyone was going on about there being peace I knew that couldn’t last long, so something was going to happen, and it did. I suppose they’ll further investigate who actually poisoned him, because as much as Tyrion hates Joffrey I don’t think he would go to straight up homicide in such a public setting where he would very easily be found guilty for it. My money right now is on Tywin honestly, he was pretty done with that little shit lately. So like, who gets to rule the throne now?? does Margaery get to be queen now because she was technically married to the king when he died? Does it go to Joffrey’s sister (I think he only has one sibling? would they actually allow secession to a female at this point?) Would it go back to Stannis if Robert has no more viable heirs (assuming Joffrey’s sister can’t take on the throne)?? so many questions, and I’m sure they’ll be answered in like, the next episode, but I have many questions about them now. also when is Robb gonna show up again?? we all know he’s not really dead, and I’d like Catelyn back too for that matter. Also, I continue to adore both Daenerys and Arya as two (completely unrelated but still) total badasses who do not bow to others and do what they think is right. My girls, love them. Sigh. Anyway, when I finished that episode I started getting ready for bed and here we are. Not sure what the plan is for tomorrow being that I once again have nothing to actually do, we may get breakfast and then if things actually work out cat wise I may end up bringing one of those home, so stay tuned for details on that subject. But yeah, that’s it for tonight, it’s almost 2 am so it’s definitely time for bed. Goodnight sweeties. Stay awesome.

#daily journal #August 2018 #Jess tag

[strydcr]

hellooo babes, i’m blair waldorf acacia (◠‿◠✿) nineteen, she/her, and the main admin here. lol sooo sorry you guys are all trapped in this rp with me. but wtver~ you guys will learn to adore my 3am messages comin’ up with plot that’ll hurt us and what not. also meet the beauty that is stryder estrellas. anyways, i’ll try to keep this as short as possible. since i always get lazy halfway thru writin’ intros. :~)) )) ) &&. of course this got way longer than expected so just find the ☪  at the end to read the summary // aim: alohacacia && skype: alohacacia

****psa you clicked on this so you’re obligated to plot with me srry but i don’t make the rules.

░   * . ╰ ✯ ›  ⊰ SELENA GOMEZ, CIS-FEMALE, TWENTY-THREE ⊱ is that STRYDER ESTRELLAS ? the BARISTA & FLORAL SHOP ASSISTANT MANAGER. they’re known to be INTELLIGENT & INDEPENDENT. but also BLUNT & CYNICAL. unknown to them, they are the reincarnation of PERSEPHONE.

BACKGROUND + TRIGGER WARNINGS: cheating 

well to kick things off, stryder is that one night stand baby. let’s call her biological dad “bio father/dad” and her mom’s husband “dad” then of course her mom is “mom”. sorry if this is confusing. but just think about how stryder is gonna feel once she finds out about this.

once upon a time her mom and her dad were happily in love. like they were the high school sweethearts who ended up getting married and blah blah blah. but before she was born, there was a point in time where the two broke up. probably once they were both about to start freshman year of college. that’s when her mom hooked up with stryder’s bio dad. she obviously ended up getting pregnant. but she ended up making up with stryder’s dad. SOOOOOOO…. he thinks he’s stryder’s father. but he ain’t. the one night stand hook up is.

stryder is completely unaware of the fact that he’s not her real father. her mom is still in contact with her biological dad. obviously, keeping that a secret from both her husband and stryder. but it’s only because her bio dad always sends her money to help provide for stryder. so basically this family is a mess. but only on the low. because on the outside this family is absolutely perfect. she grew up in a really nice household. suburban type of wealth in a town outside of los angeles, california. big house, nice cars, a vacation every now and then. but not rich enough to like be bill gates or something you get what i’m saying? just a nice upper middle class.

you might be wondering... how did they end up in seattle? one day her dad told the fam he had to move out to there because of work. (occupation: tbd) so they packed up everything they had and left. this was around the time stryder was starting her senior year of high school. stryder really isn’t the type to throw a fit over dumb shit. but you know this girl started bawling knowing she wasn’t going to graduate with her only two friends. ‘cause she had to start the loner life all over again.

now, stryder works at a small coffee shop as a barista and an assistant manager at a floral shop. (cause persephone, flowers, how cute.....) she does go to school at a community college about 30 minutes away from her house. probably studying to become a botanists. (a literal flowerchild yes.) and to her surprise she is actually enjoying living here. she doesn’t know why, but she feels drawn to the place.

PERSONALITY + RELATIONSHIPS + TRIGGER WARNINGS: anxiety 

PERSONALITY wise, she’s that tumblr post that’s like ——— me: i love myself i’m such a bitch // me: i hate myself i’m such a bitch. because one day she’ll be like “oh my god you’re my best friend!!!!!” then they’ll do her shady and she’ll be like “new phone who dis?” like do her dirty and she’ll get angry real quick. which is bad because it’ll trigger her anxiety. but yayayayayayayayyyyy. she’s the type to be sippin’ tea with her pinky finger up. she is the “is it bad that i secretly want to be hit by a car all the time” but also the “gotta better myself, my body, my skin and my bank account” type in one. she has a very clean exterior. although she outcast herself a lot. she does care about her appearance. (i.e. she has a sense of fashion.) she really likes to read and learn. so, you can always catch her doing something of the sort. talk to her about flowers or coffee and she gotchu. overall, stryder is pretty wishy washy. it all depends on her mood. she’s kind of a wallflower. isn’t exactly the most popular baby. but that’s by choice, not by force.

when it comes to FRIENDS stryder can always use some of 'em. she possess the qualities of a good friend loyal, honest, trustworthy. however, she can be quite obstinate. which might be a reason why she might not have as many friends as she would like. once her mind is set to think a certain way it’s hard to persuade her to believe otherwise. she’s the type of friend to listen to your problems, but be prepared to listen to her opinions – all of them. she’s also the type to put a friend in check when they need it. she thinks of it as trying to convince them to see the bigger picture. first impressions is something she might not be very good at. while she isn’t exactly the definition of rude, she tends to not filter then things she says. overall, i would say that she might just need a handful of friends and just a whole bunch of acquaintances.

i’m pretty sure stryder doesn’t think she has is ENEMIES. but, i could obviously understand why a girl like her would have any. she tends to be very outspoken and although she doesn’t mean to insult anyone or come off rude, she can’t help it. so, there’s always that. stryder is the type to hold grudges. (this is mostly because of her mother — trust issues man) she thinks once you fuck her over, then inevitably, you’re gonna do it again. basically, if you lose her trust everything you had, despite how far back your past goes, she isn’t going to trust you fully again. so if there was any type of fall out at all, stryder is gonna be pissed 5ever. but if in some point in time where she had to chose between her life and saving another’s, she’d save them before herself. stryder’s a good person guy’s. she has good morals. they’re just messed up in her black hole of thoughts. enemies? *grabby hands*

alright, so stryder and LOVERS. i have a feeling she’s dabbled in the dating world. she’s had a few boyfriends, dates, etc. but most likely nothing LONG TERM. possibly because she doesn’t see the point unless it’s for marriage. just like her mom and dad (lol troll.) she has the independent woman facade going on right now. which makes her seem like she doesn’t want anyone. but deep down she’s a hopeless romantic. this girl would love to be loved. and she truly needs it. most of the time she makes herself the outcast. this girl is completely oblivious to anyone having a crush on her. assuming friendship automatically. she’s probably read tons of books about love and fluffy shit like that. so she has high expectations when it comes to relationships. so someone rlly needs to come here and treat this girl right.

WANTED CONNECTIONS

FRIENDS

best friend — someone who will always be there for her. the person she feels most comfortable with. // m, f, or nb

partner in crime — they may not be the most reliable person like her best friend. but definitely someone she can get turnt tf up with. // m, f, or nb

childhood friend(s) — her first friend(s)! the one(s) she’s known since birth. she will never switch up on the real ones. (or so u think...) // m, f, or nb

ENEMIES

rivals — someone who hates her and some she hates too. maybe they just don’t get along yo. it happens // m, f, or nb

old bully — maybe somebody who bullied her or someone she might have bullied? bc honestly, if she bullied someone it would’ve been a joke. // m, f, or nb

old flame that didn’t end well — this is someone she used to date. maybe they wanted it to go further than just a date. but she ended up cutting ties with them. now it’s just made awk. // m, f, or nb

LOVERS

hate/love — just ‘cause these are my favorites. just little bickering. maybe they’re too much alike or just not a like at all. // m, f, or nb

old flame that ended well — the classic, exes that ended on good terms. they don’t hate each other at all. are actually still on really good terms. and possibly still have lingering feelings.  // m, f, or nb

currently dating — going on dates and what not. having a good time. who knows where this could go.  // m, f, or nb

MISCELLANEOUS

☪ overall, this bitch is flippy floppy. she’s loyal. quiet, but has a lot of opinions. intelligent, but sometimes stand-off-ish. she’s a bit of a feminist. trusts no bitch. but if you’re her friend, she’s chill AF. but really — she just doesn’t know how to process her good thoughts into words. she’s a barista and florist. she’s independent, hardworking, and determined. my muse for her is michelle (spider man homecoming) & margo roth spiegelman (paper towns). she’s a bit sketch when it comes to making new friends. since she’s a bit of a loner. and she’s super family oriented. despite her being absolutely oblivious to the fact that her mom cheated on her “dad” with her bio dad. anyways, give her girl scout cookies and she’ll love you til the end of time. overall, she’s not as lame as she portrays herself to be and is actually a pretty rad chick.

wEW this got waaaaaay longer than i expected it to be. anywho, if you actually read all this i love you and i cherish you hella. if you just skimmed, i would too. i would really love to plot with everyone. so just slide into my dms and we can get things started!! but okay, so, now imma go touch up my other intros. hope u don’t hate me after this long ass essay lmao. luv u *blows a kiss*

[aquakris]

1-40 💘 I’m so sorry you’re having a rough night pumpkin. I wish there was a way that I could make it better.

Anon you don’t know how much you made me feel so much better tonight. I love you so much like I’m literally tearing up🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💕

1. What was the name of the first person you ever had a crush on? Why did you like them?

It was first grade & his name was Peyton Bellinger & I liked him because he was super smart, cute, & funny. He was also my first kiss lol

2. What is one thing you regret having done or not done in your life?

I think I regret spending my time on ppl who knew that they weren’t going to stay in my life in the long run & basically how some ppl just don’t give a fuck about my feelings honestly. (That’s the reason why I’m so sad tonight lol🥴) I have more things but that’s one of them

3. Which parent do you identify with the most?

Well I was raised by my mom & grandma (because my dad is asshole tbh) so I’m gonna say both of them. I have both of their personalities mixed together

4. What do you think you cook or bake the best?

I don’t really cook often but I can bake some good ass muffins lol

5. If you could change your first name what would it be?

I honesty don’t know LMAOOOOOO maybe Ashley since that’s one part of my middle name?

6. Can you hula hoop?

Yes but I’m not that good

7.What embarrasses you the most in front of other people?

I hateeeeee crying in front of ppl ugh it’s so embarrassing to me because I look so ugly when I cry but also, I don’t want ppl to see my emotional side? Idk it’s weird loll

8. Have you considered running for president?

Lmaoooooo yes I have but I don’t think ppl would vote for me

9. If you had to choose one thing you were most passionate about, what would it be and why?

I’m so passionate about making my mom happy. I just want to make her so proud of me like everything I do, especially my education ( which I’m also passionate about) is for her & mostly myself. I love her🥺

10. Who are you most envious of—real or fictional—and why?

I don’t really envy anyone honestly🤷🏾‍♀️😂

11. Where is the most beautiful place on earth and why?

In my opinion, I think the most beautiful place on earth is anywhere with a nice beach & a sunset. Idc where it’s at, but a nice sunset on the beach makes me so happy.

12. Are ghosts real?

Yessssss

13. Are aliens real?

Hell yessssss

14. How old is the most expired item in your fridge?

I think it’s yogurt that expired maybe 3 days ago? (Ew💀)

15. What are your favorite style of underwear?

Boyshorts, cheeky, & thongs🌝

16. What’s the saddest song you’ve ever heard?

The climb by Miley Cyrus (I cry everytime)

17. How about the sweetest song?

The way by Ariana Grande because I fucking love her omg & my favorite part by Mac Miller because I miss him:(((

18. Do you know how to play dominoes?

Nah lol but I would love to learn

19. What’s under your bed?

A bunch of shoes & other shit💀

20. Have you ever prank called someone?

Yes lmaoooooo I’m kinda childish😂😂

21. 100 kittens or 3 baby sloths?

3 baby sloths because my little heart can’t take all that cuteness especially with 100 kittens

22. Are you proud of what you’re doing with your heart and time right now?

Sort of

23. Why or why not?

Because I’m doing good sort of but I can be better. My heart is kinda hurting at the moment but once I get myself together, I’ll be fine

24. How many bones have you broken?

None! I’m actually surprised because I have low vitamin D levels & also iron

25. Have you ever won anything? Big or small?

I’ve won some prizes before but it’s nothing major lol

26. If you could buy one material thing, and money was not an issue, what would it be?

A custom black & pink Porsche so me & Grayson can race each other & for Ethan to be in the passenger seat hehe☺️

27. What’s your favorite movie from your childhood?

Hmmmm… I want to say every Barbie movie you can think of & also the Bratz movies

28. What food will you absolutely not, under any circumstances, eat?

I would absolutely not eat lobster or crab. I’ve got sick from it before & it wasn’t great at all

29. What’s the best way to comfort you when you’re having a really terrible day?

Like tonight lol, just talk to me. Let me know that everything is gonna be ok… cuddle with me? I need a hug rn

30. Has anything/anyone every saved your life before?

I want to say first, my mom because if I died today, she would not be able to live & I hate seeing her hurt but also, my close friend from high school. I was very depressed & kinda suicidal towards the end of senior year but she kinda saved me. I’m still friends with her too. That’s my bby

31. Would you ever adopt a child?

Yes!!!!! I want to be a mom sooooooo bad so if I wasn’t able to have my own kids, then I would loveeeeeee to be a mom for someone that will become mine🥺

32. What is one thing you’re embarrassed to admit you want to try?

I want to try skydiving. Ppl think I’m weird but it seems fun! I also want to get a tattoo on my lip like E & Gray💀

33. If you were a cake which cake would you be?

Pound cake because it’s thicc like me😉😂

34. What is the most important material possession you have and why?

My 3 gold necklaces & my Rings because they we’re given to me at a young age & also, I just love them a lot lol

35. What is the most important memory you have and why?

I’ll never forget when I first time I got my first car. I was hitting everything LMAOOOOOO it was terrible because I have bad anxiety when I drive so I don’t really drive now but I need to like now lol because Lyft & Uber adds up quickly

36. When was the last time you cried?

Around 10 mins ago:(

37. How old was your mother when she had you?

20 so basically my age rn. She raised a bad bitch & that’s the tea😉

38. Which famous person would you like to be BFFs with?

Ariana Grande or Ethan & Grayson

39. Is there something you wish you had said sorry for but never did?

Yes:((((

40. Have you been on your first date? If so, how did it go?

No but hopefully, someone would take me on a lovely date one day🤧

Thanks for asking anon! You made my night better & I love you bby🥺🥺🥺🥺💛

#aqua’s asks

[aquarianlights]

Congrats on your school bby👏🏼👏🏼❤️ I wish I was good at school but I just can't concentrate or like even get myself to study. I know you're dealing with a lot outside of that,so how do you do it like how do you get yourself to study and actually concentrate and do so well??

Actually, tbh, I’ve never studied even once in my entire life. Because. . .well. . .I don’t know how to study. No one has ever taught me how to study. So I’m at a loss on studying. So I just don’t do it. Plus, all the stuff I’ve taken classes on so far is literally nothing more than common sense. High school was all common sense, all the courses for my AA degree have been common sense. So, albeit Idk HOW to study, I really don’t need to. Coz it’s all in my brain already. The only subject I’m bad at is math. And that’s because I have dyscalculia, meaning I have a learning disorder in math. But even that I don’t study for. I just sort of wing it on the tests and pass with a C or B, which is awfully low for me. I’m accustomed to getting A’s in all my classes and on all my assignments without any effort applied, so. . .it’s kinda startling when I get a C or a B. ._.

Anyways. . .how do I focus? Well. . .let’s just describe this situation as I have the complete opposite of ADHD/ADD. I have this crazy ability to hyper-focus on anything I choose. Doesn’t matter what it is. I can focus on things sooooooo easily. It’s like I’m unable to NOT focus. My focus is so heightened and concentrated that it doesn’t matter what the subject is. . .I can focus on it with great ease. I’m lucky in that way.

So, really, all I have to do is pay attention in class (or, in my most recent classes that have all been online, just read and watch everything required) and then I can literally do any assignment they ask me to immediately after paying attention. I was in the IB program in high school so I kind of HAD to have that kind of focusing ability.

All that. . .and I have always been really good at school. Lack of motivation is the only thing that stands in my way sometimes. So. . .honestly, I either get an A on the assignment, or I get a 0 for not turning it in. There really isn’t an inbetween for me. I tested into the IB program during high school. And the classes that weren’t offered at the IB level. . .I was forced to take AP classes instead. Coz the IB system was new then and our school was one of the first to test out the IB system. So I took IB and AP everything.

Plus, I LOVEEEEEE to learn. I mean, learning is one thing that excites me. So school is for me. I’ve always been really good at school because it’s all common sense. But. . .when I get into my core veterinary medicine classes, I’m probably going to be absolutely lost because none of that is common sense and I will actually have to LEARN something new which. . .I’ve never done before up to this point. So I’m SOMEHOW going to have to learn how to study. . .Idk how I’m gonna get through it without knowing how to study. ._. I’m definitely going to try, though. Maybe I won’t need to study if I just really pay attention in class and get some hands on practice. Rrrrgh.

Albeit I’m really good at school and am very book smart, I have NO common sense and I can’t do anything domestic. I literally almost burned my apartment in Jax down because I put something in the toaster oven that wasn’t supposed to be in there (apparently) and like. . .it caught on fire and I was calling my roommates and they were all high and didn’t know what the fuck I was talking about so I just fucking sprayed it with water and that just made everything WORSE. I was panicking like crazy so I googled how to take care of it and luckily, after taking a quick scan of the pages, I figured out I had to smother it. I mean. . .ugh. I’ve also put a packet of unopened fudge in brownies because it never said to open the packet. Haha. I’m common sense stupid. Like really. I may have a very high IQ, but I’m very literally retarded (I don’t use that word lightly) when it comes to common sense.

So I mean. . .there’s always a trade off. I bet you have wonderful common sense. c: And I bet you know how to make a bed. I’m 25 and I still can’t make a bed on my own. So uh. . .be grateful for things like that. Coz my only strength in life is my book smarts. x.x I don’t have any other useful traits. Lol. You probably have a LOT more useful traits than I do. Lmao. So, really, be thankful for the things you have. You may not be great at school, but I bet you’re really smart in other areas of life. c:

Also, that paper I got a 100 on? I’m a writer. Writing is what I do. I’ve never gotten anything less than a 100 on a paper. In high school, I got awards for my writing and I almost got a book published in 5th grade. . .but I never finished it. I never finish anything. :/ I have a hard time sticking to things because literally everything grabs my attention and then next thing I know, I’m like 15 pages deep into reading about black holes. Lmao. I got a perfect score on my state essay test and my high school teacher still uses my essays as examples for the class coz I was the best writer she’s ever had. I’m very proud of that.

I also got an opportunity in my first year of high school to go overseas and study because I had such good grades and was so smart. I never got to go because we didn’t have enough money to send me. So I missed out on that. And this isn’t really relevant but I’ve been a first chair clarinetist my whole life. Even my first year of college, I won 1st chair with my audition. I also have tons of awards for music and I have music scholarships. I was also in all-state band in my senior year of high school. I got to play with the best of the best in the state. It was AMAZING. But my school had to take us out of it early because there was a blizzard coming. It really sucked that we had to leave. I was having the time of my fucking life. . .playing with people who were actually serious about music and were really good at their instruments. As opposed to playing with a high school band made up of people who didn’t really care. I’ve played in all sorts of bands. Symphonic, Concert, Jazz, Marching, etc. I also did a lot of extra curriculars. I took tap dancing, Irish step dancing, ballet, horseback riding, piano lessons, clarinet lessons. . .just so many things. I barely had any free time as a child. 

I was also in a private catholic school from pre-k to 8th grade and it was a very difficult school to get into but I tested in. And the classes were extremely advanced. We were studying high school and college level material in middle school. So. . .I think that may have given me a jump start on being good at school. And our band was state-renowned so we got to play at Disney one time. . .and they shut down the whole park after that so that it was literally just us in the band in the park and we got to do anything we wanted. There were no lines anywhere. . .we just got free roam of the park and got to go on any ride we wanted. It was fucking amazing. The highlight of my musical career was in my first semester in college. We got to play the whole score to Star Trek: Into Darkness. And I was first chair so I got all the solos. It was absolutely amazing. Being a trekky like I am, that became the highlight of my career as a musician because I had never had so much fun playing a piece in my entire life. And I was section captain in Marching Band.

I also did a lot of other things in high school. I was secretary of the Art Club, Vice President of Foreign Language club, secretary of our music club, I was an editor and columnist for the school newspaper, envirothon, I was on the debate team for a while, and I ran track for a year. I also started my own environmental club that I was Captain of. We went out and cleaned up the roads and I gave speeches at rally’s about recycling and green options.

Needless to say, I was in the town newspaper a lot for my accomplishments. Lol. I was very involved in high school. . .and now I’ve had a solid 4.0 for the past few semesters and my GPA has never dropped below a 3.5 in my entire college career. So. . .there’s that, too.

Ahhh, I’m just really proud of my accomplishments. Haha. I did so much in high school in order to get into a good college and I’ve spent my college years trying harder to get into a good university. Idk where I’m going to start my bachelors program, though. I’m not stopping in school until I get a Ph.D. That’s been my dream since I was very little was to get a Ph.D. I’m never giving up on it.

BUT I’M ON A TANGENT. SO SORRY.

I hope that explains at least a little to help with your question. ;A; Sorry I go off topic a lot. Lol.

AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE CONGRATS! n_n That made me smile. :3

[ianb0hen]

ok I thought I did a write up for purcon but apparently not? but I'm doing one for spnuk cos I can't forget anything from this weekend idk how to insert a read more on my phone so this is gonna be long sorry SOOOOOOO for back story. last year me and my sister flew to düsseldorf because I'm whipped as hell for matt cohen and at the time rogue we're still going so rob wasn't doing uk cons and I got rob to write out a tattoo for me in autos but basically wanted darren criss tickets to his london show. but those fuckers sold out in 0.2 seconds. my momma was gonna give me some cash for it for my bday so basically I was like ok what else would I want for my birthday. huh. nothing??? and then I was like wait no. matt cohen. sooooooo I got tickets to the creation uk con and my sister came along too then I'm like oh shit rob is going. I wanna show him the tattoo. ok I have to get the tattoo then so on thursday, the day before the con, I go and get this tattoo we went to karaoke on the friday, we were second row it was fun matt is beautiful and I love him as per. there's a song I don't know, and I'm on the left side of the crowd and can't see the right screen with the words on it. so I'm like ok what's on twitter rn, I'm reading some shady tweets and then a HAND is grabbing my phone and then I'm staring at richard who's like 'what are we doing? who are we texting?' in hindsight maybe I could have given him the phone but I PANICKED and I just like slipped my phone out of his hand and was like 'nope. nothing' and OH MY GOD it was like being caught on your phone in a lesson??? my face was so warm afterwards he honestly didn't have to do me like that. so karaoke ended and like??? the party didn't keep going?? which was like huh ok. creation is more organised than rogue was but I will say the vibe is a lot different. more kinda stilted I guess? anyways we then went back and woke up early for saturday. I got two pics with matt and it turns out you're not meant to be able to get one of them but I wasn't aware of this so I just asked and he was like sure so we did the pose anyways??? idk. I got my first ever pic with him to mirror my last one (creation are not coming back to the uk so unless starfury get him I won't get to see him again) and my fringe really annoys me in the photo but I'm dealing with it. really you can hate a pic but you're still with your fave so you can't really hate it that much. but yeah I got a good amount of time with him tbh and then he gave me a hug it was really nice. then I got a misha pic which went sooo quick but the one other pic I have with misha is legit terrible so this is such a step up. and then we get to rob. I was so fucking nervous for this like, so I show him the pose and then I'm like 'oh I just wanted to show you. last year you wrote this out for me and I just got it tattooed' and he was like 'oh my god did you just get this???' cos my tattoo was still wrapped lol 'it's so pretty' and then we did the pose and like I was like thank you and his thank you back was so like BOOM it was a lot wow I love him so then we queued for SNS, we managed to be at the front on billy's side of the stage. so in the first song rob pointed at me and the girl next to me is like omg that was for you and I'm like nooo it's just the crowd but then he did it again so I was like ok maybe it is for me??? and then he did she waits and honestly if I had let tears fall it would have been OVER cos my chin was full ass quivering I was gonna blubber if I let a tear fall luckily we were ok but my singing was so shaky lol and then rob nearly cried too and it was a lot I was attacked at SNS. and then they put the lights up for mama's jam and I was like QUICK LOOK LIKE U WEREN'T GONNA CRY but billy saw me lmao. so then in let love rule which is the last song rob got off the stage and ran down the front row and to the right standing side and high-fived everyone and then goes back and comes to our side. he high-fived us and the front of our row and then he literally came back and hugged me???? like he remembered me and singled me out he came back to put his arms around me. and then I nearly cried on the way back too cos I really don't want this to be the last time I see them but tbh if it is I had a really good run with them. this con with rob a13 with rich and matt and then what happened with matt at purcon mean the world to me. I love them a lot and it was a really good con and I had a great time I love matt so much I love rob so much and I love rich and I've spent tooooo much money on them but it's all worth it thanks goodnight

#spnuk #my posts #for me #con write up

[moonlightfanfics]

FAQ (sort of)

I thought since I've been away for a while, I need to reconnect with you guys so here's some stuff I thought you'd like to know about me😋

(It’s extremely long so it’s all under the cut!)

Name: Maya

Nickname: May-May

Zodiac sign: Leo

Where was I born: England

Where do I currently live: US. (That’s why in my writing I alternate between American spellings and English spellings lmao). Also my accent is fucked ahaha

Book/series I reread: Hunger Games Trilogy

Books I have yet to read: Game of Thrones & HARRY POTTER

Aliens or ghosts: Aliens

Favourite song: I have too many so I'm just gonna do my top 5 (not in order)

Ed Sheeran - Sing

Chris Brown - Forever

The Weeknd - Earned It

Aaliyah - More Than A Woman

Jennifer Lopez - Love Don't Cost A Thing

The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them: In terms of like boys, erm yes, kind of

What am I most afraid of: Deep sea, I have a huge phobia

A good quality of mine: Good listener

A bad quality of mine: Hold grudges

Actor/Actress I trust enough to watch whatever they're in: Actor/s - Sebastian Stan, Evan Peters. Actress - Emma Stone

Favourite season: Spring

Am I in a relationship: No

Something I miss: Watching the twilight saga for the first time lol

My best friend: I have like six, no joke

Eye colour: Brown

Am I excited about anything: Going on vacation this summer

My current obsession: Evan Peters bc American Horror Story

Someone I love: Parents

Someone I trust: Not many

Favourite TV shows as a child: H2o, That's So Raven, Drake & Josh, Wizards of Waverly Place

What do I think about the most: This isn't to be fake deep lol but I'm always thinking about equality, racism etc. I'll just be studying and my mind wonders to it idk why

Do I have any strange phobias: Dogs, I am absolutely terrified of them, oh and also bridges

Favourite hobbies: Going to the gym

Last book I read: It's been an embarrassingly long time since I last read a book, fifty shades of grey. I'm constantly reading fan fiction though

Last film I watched: Friends with Benefits

Superpower I wish I could have: Telekinesis

When do I feel at most peace: When there are no upcoming tests, finals etc

Do I sleep with lights on or off: Off

What is my song of the week: Ed Sheeran - Shape of You

Afraid of heights: YES

Pet peeve: Incorrect grammar

Have I ever had a friend turn enemy: Luckily no, the minimum time I've known one of my best friends for is four years. The longest is 14 years

What is my current desktop picture: A skyline

What fictional universe would I like to be a part of: Harry Potter

Something I worry about: This seriously keeps me awake at night, the idea that I'm not going to get a good job in the field I'm interested in, I'm not going to marry someone who I think is the perfect match for me and that I'm not going to be able to have kids

Scared of the dark: YES

Can I sing: Yes

Something I wish I could do: Shut off my emotions

Where do I want to live: On an island by myself

Do I have any pets: Yeah, a fish lol

Early bird or night owl: I can be both

Story behind my last kiss: One of my friends house party, drunk, big mistake

Favourite genre of music: Hip-Hop

Who is my hero: The person who invented earphones

What makes me really angry: Racism/inequality fucking boils my blood

Kindle or real book: Real book

Favourite sporty activity: Dancing

What was the last thing I bought: Ben & Jerrys lmao

How tall am I: I'm tiny, 5"4

Can I cook: I'm a fast learner

Can I bake: Yes

Do I have more girl friends than boy friends: Yes

Sexual orientation: Straight

Last time I cried: This morning, watching Obama leave the White House

Guilty pleasure: Cookie dough ice cream

Favourite youtuber/s: E and Gray

Favourite game/ app: MARIO Run

Favourite number: 7

Am I religious: No

Do I like space: Yeah, but if I think about it too much it scares me

Do I like deep ocean: HOLY FUCK NO

Am I much of a daredevil: Hahaha no

Do I like clowns: Its not a phobia but I don't like them at all

Do I admit when I'm wrong: Unless it's to my parents, yes

Am I bad loser: No

Forest or beach: Beach

Am I good liar: Yes

Do I talk to myself: A lot

Hogwarts house: Gryffindor

Am I very social: Yeah

Do I keep a journal/diary: No but I am going to start asap, my mom suggested it to me cos she wrote in hers for years and she said it helped her so idk

Do I believe in second chances: Unfortunately, my dumbass never learns so yes

Do I believe people are capable of change: Yes

Have I ever been underweight: Yes

Am I ticklish: I am sooooooo ticklish

Have I ever been on a plane: Yes

Do I have any piercings: Just my earlobes and my nose

Do I want children: Yes, so so much

What makes me nostalgic: Listening to early 2000's music

What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe: Black and gray

What do I hate most about myself: My boobs

What do I love most about myself: My boobs

How old am I: 16

One of my favourite quotes: I can't remember who said it but it's always stuck in head - "if you fall in love with two people at the same time, choose the second one, because you wouldn't have fallen for them if you really loved the first person"

Have I learnt from my mistakes: Ahahaha hell no, still making the same dumb ones:)

Do I dream: Yes, and they're weird af

An experience that has made me stronger: It has also made me more aware and woke, just my ex in general

If I were immortal, what would I do?: I'd learn every language in the world

If I could get away with any crime, what would I do?: Shoot Donald Trump

Love or money: Money

Love or career: Love

If I could time travel, where would I go: I'd find out who really killed JFK

Zombies or vampires: Vampires

Dragons or wizards: Wizards mate, Harry Potter n all that

Do I judge a book by its cover: Unfortunately, yes, I'm working on it though because I've been proven wrong so many times

Have I ever had my heart broken: Yes, it was messy

Do I like my handwriting: I love it ahaha

How do I handle anger: Really bad, I cry and cry and then I turn into an emotionless monster, so yeah really badly

Was I named after anyone: Yeah the poet Maya Angelou

Do I use sarcasm a lot: Ahaha yeah, I get it from my mom

What TV character am I most like (personality): Bonnie Bennett - The Vampire Diaries 

Favourite fictional character: Jon Snow - Game of Thrones

This was soo long but wayy overdue. If you actually read all this thank you so much!!

#questions #ask me anything #ask

[oahumyheart]

One of the best work shifts I’ve had in a LOOOOONNNNGGGG time . I haven’t seen terry in 3 weeks cuz she was on vacation and I saw her come in and I immediately hold my arms out and we run to each other and hug tight. Like I literally feel at peace with her. She was telling me about her time with Robin and how they love each other and honestly it was sooooooo fucking cute! I tested up, I’m so happy she’s happy and in love 😍. I told her , well and josh too knows since he was right there, what happened the past couple days. I read them the last long response I gave and they BOTH teared up and they got emotional. Terry yea but josh I’m not really close to for him to get super emotional about it said a lot. We talked a lot about the situation and they gave me good advice and vibes. I felt like I bonded with josh because of this. Terry hugged me tight and kissed my cheek and I felt so much better ! Ahhh motherly love and instincts. Just talking with her about this eased my soul and spirit , with her I feel like I can do anything. I’ve got a good feeling about this.

Then she dropped the bomb that she’s planning a birthday house party for her 21st! She’s thinking the 29th of this month and I am so fucking pumped!!! I need this!! I told her I would give her money so I could have a room and bed that way yogurtland hoes could spend the night lol omg it’s gonna he better than Alisha’s . AND it works out perfect cuz I’m off Sunday anyways cuz of hw/football season sooooooo 🤩 fuck yes

God bless terry tho for easing my soul and making me happy . Fuck I love her

[blissfulhighh]

I’m gonna vent a little on here because I got some bad news and I’m sad 😞 & no one knows me personally on here. I’ll call this:

The Life of being a Drug Addicts Sister.

I have three brothers and they’re all on meth. Here’s a little backstory to kind of understand what’s going on now.

My dad married his first wife back when he was 28. They had three boys. The oldest is H, the middle one is G, and the youngest one is C. My dad and his wife had a house in Mexico and my dad would go back and forth from California to Mexico. His wife didn’t have papers, and it took a while to fix her papers. They eventually had their first born in Mexico, (H). When everything was all set for her to enter the U.S. they moved and found a home in California where my dad would work. Soon came their second child, (G). A few years later they had their last child, (C). My dad would work 6 days a week and 12 hours a day. His wife also worked but a part time job, so she can be home with the kids. I believe it was September 24th, early in the morning she unfortunately got into a car accident. She died instantly. She left behind her three babies at the ages of (H) 9 years old , (G) 6 years old, & (C) 2 year old. My dad eventually married my mom, and a year later they had me. Honestly, it was not easy for my mom. The kids (H & G) didn’t want my mom there, which is understandable. They knew who their mom was & didn’t want anyone else taking her spot. My mom had no intentions on ever taking her spot or making them call her mom or anything they didn’t want to do. They eventually warmed up to her. My mom raised them as best as she could & treated/loved them as if they were her own kids.

To be honest, I have the best momories with my three brothers. They NEVER made me feel any different because i had a different mom than them. I remember (C) taught me how to ride my bike without my training wheels but I crashed the first time because I didn’t know how to stop lol I remember (G) telling me funny stories one night because I had a nightmare & how to tie my shoes lol. I remember (H) taught me how to not take shit from anybody, to always stand up for myself. We would all play Pokémon ALL day. We would watch rugrats, spongebob, and rocketpower was our favorite. I remember being traumatized after I watched chucky and threw all my dolls away! Lol

My oldest brother (H) eventually started getting into trouble with the police at the age of 14. He had friends that weren’t the best influences, and they would go around town tagging on walls. Not gonna lie, my brothers graffiti was pretty sick. Lol but ever since then my parents have struggled with trying to get him into the right path. He eventually moved in with his girlfriend and had his apartment, a stable job, things were looking good for him.

My other brother (G), is or I should say was the smartest person I knew. He always had good comments from his teachers and always had straight A’s. He had a bright future ahead of him. He would give me and (C) the best advice for school, life, etc.

The youngest of the three (C), was not the best in school. I’d say he was street smart instead of book smart lol. We were the closest, probably because we were the closest in age. He also taught me to not take shit from anyone. They made me one tough cookie lol.

I grew up such a tomboy lol My brothers wouldn’t let me listen to what they would call “little bitch” music lol thanks to them I grew to love a genre of music that people would be surprised that I listen to now because I eventually became such a girly girl listening to fucken Taylor Swift & Justin Bieber lol.

I still remember the first incident that happened. I was 15 years old when I found out that the oldest (H) was smoking crystal. (H) had moved back home with us because it didn’t work out with the girlfriend he dad. I had just came home from cheer practice & I found (H) & (C) fighting because (H) was tweaking it at the house. I didn’t say anything to my parents because... I don’t know why I didn’t but I should have.. maybe things would be different. Ever since that day, little did I know my life would change forever. One year my parents, (C), & I went to Mexico in December. (C) decided he wanted to go to ATL with his moms sister because he got tired of living in California.

I remember crying and telling (H) to stop doing drugs. It was changing him to someone i didn’t even recognize. I thought that was the worst it would get. I look back now and laugh because it got so much worse. He got so bad sooo fast. He would hang out with his little tweaker friends and bring them to the house. He had this one friend AJ, that’s his real name; I’m telling y’all his real name because fuck him lol. He would STAYYYYY going to the house hella on one. My parents told him relentlessly that he ain’t welcome. Aj obviously doesn’t give a fuck because he kept going. My dad didn’t know what else to do, so he bought him a plane ticket to ATL so he can sober up while he was staying with his moms sister which (C) was also there. (C) eventually came back home because he was homesick, but (H) stayed over there. Let me tell y’all. (H) got sooooooo FAT, I was beyond happy because when he was home with us, he was nothing but bones. I thought it was going to be different, I thought he would change his life for the better. (H) eventually came back home also because he was also homesick. Not going to lie, I was skeptical because he was 2 years sober and I didn’t want him to go back to the way he was. He came back Nov. 29 and TWO weeks later... he started tweaking agian. My heart was shattered, I was completely let down.

During this time, (G) met a girl (X) and eventually they were unseparatable. (G) had a stable job, and (X) did too. They lived together in an apartment in the city. They first had a little fubaby that I adored and loved because my furbaby was his brother lol a little down the road (X) gave us the best news, she was pregnant! the first baby in the family! Little baby (P) was about 8 months when things started to spiral out of control.

At this point, (H) was out of his mind. He had literally first fought everyone at the house at this point including my dad, well besides my mom. I remember (G & C) literally fighting him for him to either stop doing drugs or to get the fuck out. This was in February 2017. The cops were called at least 4 times a week. Things obviously didn’t get better but (H) moved in with my dads sister so things were ok.

Here’s when things get weird.. (G) was being really weird, and paranoid. He always kept saying that people were out to get him. He was building this shed for my dad because he was going to school for construction and wanted to build something. He got really paranoid at work also, saying that they were plotting against him to get him fired. So he quit. He started building that shed full time now. He wouldn’t leave the house till like 3 am. Which my dad was really concerned. I also had a bad feeling, he had never ever acted that way. I should’ve seen the signs they were so clear and I’m my face.. I would find globies & baggies in his trailer where he kept his tools which he was the ONLY one that had keys to it. He would always blame (H) but I should’ve known.. I was in denial. (G) could not be smoking crystal, that would be ridiculous he knows better than that especially dealing with (H). The one thing I never thought would happen, happened. (G) was tweaking it too. Little after that, I found out (C) was too.

One day (G) & (C) & (H) & AJ we’re outside and I was inside with some friends. I hear yelling & I knew they were fighting. So went outside. (H) tried to stab (G) in the eye with scissors. If it wasn’t for (G) wearing glasses, he probably would’ve got stabbed. (G) pressed charges, and (H) was booked in jail. It’s sad to say but I was relieved. There was nights I would go out looking for him to come home. Some days I worried if he would even come back. (G) was wrongfully imprisoned because he was at a certain place at the wrong time. There was a robbery at a bar & (G) walked by & they assaulted him & robbed him too. (G) came home and our house got raided at 3 am because they thought (G) did it. He was in jail for about 2 weeks & was let out July 15. & guess what (H) was let out July 16. It was bittersweet to see (H). I have to be honest. My mom & I did go visit him in jail various times & gave him money so he can buy food because I felt bad because jail food does not sound appetizing. (H) was sober and I thought I was getting through to him. Literally a DAY later they started tweaking again. And once again I was let down, completely and utterly disappointed. (C) was changing dramatically as well. There’s things I’ve seen and heard that I will never forget. I’ve witnessed too many traumatizing situations. I’ve witnessed (G) trying to run over (C). They all changed from day to night so quickly. They all fought all the time. It hurt me so much because they were not the same loving brothers that I fondly remember. I tried so hard and far too many times to try to get them to change. The last fight I had got in was with (C). It tore me apart, it broke me. He said foul things to me but the one thing the ONE thing that pushed me over the edge.. “ I have no sister “ in that moment I couldn’t handle it anymore. My depression was at its worst and hearing that since we were so close destroyed my soul. I went into my room completely numb, just defeated. I overdosed on promethazine. I just wanted everything to be over at the moment. I didn’t want to feel the pain anymore. You know some people wake up from nightmares and realize it was just a dream.. well everyday I would wake up to my nightmare realizing it’s very real. I was transferred to a behavioral center from the hospital which was fucken traumatizing. I was there for 3 days, which were the longest days of my life. But I can say I learned a lot while I was there. I joke about it now, like fuckkkk I actually went to a behavioral center my life is fucken dope. but it all seriousness, for the people that are severely depressed, I recommend going to a center. There are therapist that talk to you on a daily basis & groups that you participate in that you can vent and share what brought you there. Sometimes it’s good to just talk to people that you don’t know who you are and no judgement from what you share. The first thing I did was eat Carl’s Jr. when I was released lol.

(G) was so far gone, he was a completely different person. He would ask us if we were ourselves and ask for our social security numbers to see if it was really us or if we were sent from the government to spy on him. He honestly resembled schizophrenic behavior. I will forever remember what (H) told me.. “HES JUST BEING CREATIVE” (X) put a restraining order on (G) because he was relentlessly harassing her at her home & didn’t want baby (P) to be near (G) because it’s honestly scary to be around someone like that. He violated the restraining order and was thankfully put in jail. During this time I no longer communicated with any of them. I decided that I needed a break from all the drama and sadness. So I bought a plane ticket to Mexico for October 15th. I didn’t tell anyone, besides my parents. (G) was let out October 3rd I believe. It was hard for me but I learned the hard way. I didn’t talk to (H, G, C). I didn’t want to go through the pain again. Because let’s be real. Once you get a taste of that drug and you get hooked on it, there’s not a question if you’ll ever go back on it.. it’s a matter of time WHEN you go back on it. I’m not saying all people can’t sober up from it but from MY experience they always go back.

So here we are December 27. I called (X) and she let me know (G) is back on it. I knew he would eventually but I wanted him to change his life for his daughters. (H, G, C) will never be the same, and I’ve accepted it. My parents, (X), friends, and I have tried numerous times to get them to change but they don’t want to. I learned the hard way that you can’t change people in who you want them to be. I always thought that it was because they lost their mother that they fell into drugs. I don’t know what it’s like to lose a parent, but I know I’m my heart their mother wouldn’t want this life for them.

As for me, I quit my job & I stopped going to school so I could stay home to protect my mother from them just in case they ever did anything. I stopped living my life because I was trying to save theirs. I’m going to try ONE last time to try to get them to go to rehab. But I have to start living my life, I’m 22 years old, I’m too young to be feeling like I’m 40. I’m putting them in Gods hands. Nothing is going to stop me from my plans and dreams. I’m going to work hard, so my parents won’t have to. They’ve been through enough. I am the one who is going to look after my parents when they get old. I can honestly say, this made me a stronger person. I’m no longer in that mentality where I wanted life to just end for me. Life is so beautiful & too precious to be sad. So here’s to 2018, nothing but smiles & happiness.

[birdieboob]

Talk about quiz

1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

The one movie which I can watch a million times and not get sick of is Shawshank Redemption. It used to be my most hated movie until I actually sat down to watch it because it plays pretty much every day. I love Andy!


2:Talk about your first kiss.

My first kiss was with Steven in second grade! I dont remember exactly where it happened but he was my first boyfriend.


3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.

Oh boy thats tough. The most intense feelings was with this one ex. We dated for a short amount of time but our whole relationship was intense. There was such a sweetness to it but also a comfortable feeling. I felt secure. But alas that ended.


4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

I regret not being able to save for texas! Its just so fucking hard!


5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.

The best birthday I had was also one of my worst. It was my 16th birthday and we were all supposed to go out to play pool along with my boyfriend. But my younger brother threw this HUGE fit about mt boyfriend coming so he had to go home so it was just my dad, me and my older brother who went. It was nice to spend time with my dad like that. Then when I got home they sat me down and gave me this little box. I opened it and it was a sweet 16 necklace! I have it still in my jewelry box.


6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.

See above.


7:Talk about your biggest insecurity.

My belly. Ugh. I have a beer gut.


8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

My daughter! She is the most amazing little girl I have ever known. She knows how to make me laugh but also knows how to warm my heart. She is the silliest girl and has her mama’s sass. Im so glad I created her and I get to watch her grow up. 😭


9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

I love my eyes. Ive been told my eyes are my best feature! My mom calls them Jeepers Creepers eyes lol


10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.

Ive had a few lol but the biggest one? Ima tell you top 2. One boyfriend was asking me what I did last night (he was possesive) and I told him I hung out with a friend who was a girl. He asked what we did and I said we just hung out in a friends clubhouse in his backyard. He then got very angry accusing me of cheating and went to punch my face but I moved my head fast enough and he hit the lockers. I ran away crying to my resource room and he came in after me with his hand tripled in size. My teacher must of clued in because she made him leave and comforted me. Another one was I had been disagreeing with a boyfriend for a few days and we fought for a fucking week straight. He dumped me on thanksgiving. I cried for 5 minutes and was like “oh well 🤷🏻‍♀️”


11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. No idea tbh.


12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. Sooooooo maannnyyyy


13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

Lol oh shit here we go. Im gonna get hate for this! I was dating my first serious boyfriend for a year and half and I decided “you know what its almost valentines day Im gonna have sex with him”. So we walked around in the winter then I told him. We tried to find a spot (because my parents had no idea I was doing anything sexual so we couldnt do it in the house) so we found a gas station. He asked for the key while I waited by the door. We got in, turned on the hot water to warm up the bathroom and we had sex lol. Honestly... i couldnt feel shit. Like for my first time I thought “is this sex? Am I not doing it right? Is there something wrong with me?” Fuuuckkk Ill be waiting for the comments on this.


14:Talk about a vacation.

I went to Ottawa when I was 16, cody watched my rabbit, we had to bring my sisters rabbit cause she just had 6 babies, got super sunburt, ordered a hot dog and they forgot to ask for the money lol.


15:Talk about the time you were most content in life.

Right now! Life is perfect!


16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.

No one invites me to parties lol.


17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

Idk lol


18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

I joined gymnastics which meant I had to be at the school for 7:30am to practice. I didnt have a leo like most girls but going through the lost and found I found a purple one. I wore it the next day and everyone was questioning it so I never wore it again.


19:Talk about something that happened in middle school.

I got bullied like hell. I got dog treats thrown at me every day.. my bully and her friends would mimic my lisp and everyone called me dumbo. So I cried to my parents. On a hearing appointment my ENT randomly brought up pinning my ears back because he noticed how out they were. My parents were hesitent but I convinced them I needed it.


20:Talk about something that happened in high school.

Grade 9. I heard about this guy who all the girls “fawned” over which is what I heard from the guys. One day he comes over to me and says hello. My heart skipped a beat and said hello back. From then we became close friends alongside a girl named jessie. One day we were all at jessies house and both me and him were upstairs. He was on the computer and I was on the bed. Suddenly he turned around and grabbed a pillow and began smothering me with it. I managed to get him off me and I went to go be with my friend so I laid on the couch. He came down after a few minutes and got on the couch with me. I whispered “please no” and he covered us with a blanket. He began molesting me while I cried and kept pleading him not to. His body held me down while my friend sat there and watched. Once he got off I just ran out the door and he followed me to the bus stop. Once I got to the stop I kept crying but he grabbed me and pushed me up against the glass. His hand was on my neck and he kissed me aggressively. Tears were streaming down my face when this guy comes to wait for the bus and he noticed so he said something. The guy who did that to me left. The next day and until he graduated he would shove me in the halls and punch me. He said I wanted him and Im making it all up. He made high school hell.


21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

Omg. Lol. I was in the mental ward and this one guy was crushing on me so hard. We were in the tv room and he was writing me notes waiting for me to reply so I started answering him. This is how the convo went.

Him- are you single?

Me- yeah why?

Him- wanna date?

Me- i dont know you

Him- but I wanna eat nesquick out of your pussy.


22:Talk about your worst fear.

My worst fear is someone hurting my family. :(


23:Talk about a time someone turned you down.

Uhhh cant think of anyone.


24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

My parents and people close to me tell me Im a good mom. It just feels ao goos to hear.


25:Talk about an ex-best friend.

Oh idk which one to talk about. The one who watched me get molested? The one who stalks and harrasses me still to this day? The one who disappeared randomly or the one who kept choosing her other friends over me. Bleh.


26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick.

I woman up and take care of my child. Its like Im not even sick. I dont moan about it.


27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.

I looooveeeee @zombiepearl666 lips!

28:Talk about your fetishes.

I just like rough sex. Nothing too fancy lol


29:Talk about what turns you on.

See above.


30:Talk about what turns you off.

Missionary... where you lay ontop of me and thrust. Cant breathe. Gah.


31:Talk about what you think death is like.

I believe you get to watch over your loved ones. Like sit in the same room they are in and just admire them.


32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

I dont remember places lol


33:Talk about what you do when you are sad.

I used to cut. But now I just lay in bed and vent to megan.


34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.

My gallbladder attacks. Fuuuccckkkkk those were so bad they had to knock me out till the attack was over.


35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. I wish I would stop not saving.


36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.

I like to eat out when I know its bad for me. Does that count?


37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

Im still unsure if I ever felt love with any boy.


38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

Fast car reminds me of my mom. Any nightwish song reminds me of my dad. The last night by skillet reminds me of cody and a million reasons by gaga reminds me of gator.


39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.

I wish I knew who would hurt me.


40:Talk about the end of something in your life.

16. The end of all normalcy in my life. It was when I got schizophrenia.

[canaryatlaw]

Well, I can't really give today an overall grade because it was kind of all over the place, good and bad in just different ways. Woke up, 10:50, and didn't want to get out of bed, and may have drifted back to sleep for just a few minutes but I opened my eyes again and it was 10:50 so I said okay I better get up so I did. Got to the DV courthouse and waiting till around 2 o clock to get a case, and while I was waiting I was just you know staring at my appellate brief and trying to fix minor things. My plan right now is to finish my final final sweep through tomorrow then send it to kinkos to get it print and bound because they're making us do that for some reason (because all law students just have all that extra money lying around, you know 🙄) but anyway my spring break friend and I get put on the case together again because of the timing and we didn't know if we'd get another, but if we did he'd pull one of us off (nobody else came in so we did the whole thing). Pretty typical case, asshole abusive boyfriend doing typical abusive asshole things, no kids in common, no real physical abuse up until this morning when he was kind of grabbing and shoving her and physically blocking her from leaving her apartment like back and forth between different doors for a fairly significant amount of time. It was the strongest case because the prior incidents were kind of weak, mostly just him yelling in her face and that kind of thing, but I thought we had a decent chance at least depending on what judge we'd get. We were super quick with the paperwork and were up in court by like 3:15, so I was like oh sweet we're gonna get out so early!! WELL. Little did I know I was entering the most frustrating courtroom I've ever been in. I've been before this judge only once before I think and it was while she was training, and I remember her striking me as a little awkward with litigants but she was still getting used to it and plus she's gotta be like, 30 max, because she looks sooooooo young (I mean, she's probably more like 35, because nobody ascends to the bench in 5 years, but you would never guess that as her age looking at her). So that tends to play into the whole insecurity thing which leads to overposturing, and she was just so fucking infuriating because she was incredibly condescending to every single person on such an unnecessary level and wanted to control everything, and would only let people answer yes or no and cut them off whenever they tried to expound on something and be condescending to them and I'm like.....what the heck, lady??? These are like, the simplest legal proceedings ever, you ask them who the person is to them, when the last incident happened, and what happened. That's literally all you have to do. But it was so fucking infuriating to watch I wanted to bang my head against the wall repeatedly. But OH, we're just getting to the good part now. So a solid hour later our petition finally gets called, and within 30 seconds of her being up there the judge is saying some shit about an address being in the wrong place on the petition for where the guy had last lived because he hadn't "lived" there he was just "staying over" so she's like yeah you have to go back down to the clerk's office and amend your petition. So both me and my friend are like 😡😡😡😡😡 ready to like kill someone. So we run back downstairs, it's like 4:30 at this point which is when our shift is supposed to end so there's barely anyone left, but we found our supervisor and the other lawyer he works with and they took one look at our faces and were just like "okay what happened" and when we told them they were like "are you fucking serious" (like I mean those exact words exited both of their mouths). So we had to go drag a clerk over and fucking scratch off the address with a pen and write unknown to satisfy this damn judge then go back up. We were debating asking out supervisor to go back up with us since he's an attorney and can actually step up, but he said he felt like the situation was handled from there but we could come get him if we had any more issues. He also said we could swap out at that point if we wanted since our shifts were supposed to be over and he knows we had class, but we decided we wanted to see it through (and emailed our prof that we might be a bit late). So we went back up, and I was like praying that because it was a recalled case they would just stick it on top of the like to be called next like I've seen done before, but NOPE we got sent back to the bottom of the stack, and spent another entire hour being fucking infuriated with this judge acting like a complete asshole to everyone. There was this whole big thing, and I feel weird saying this because the guy was like 6'2" and significantly bigger than me but like that poor guy haha I felt so bad for him, the judge was like fixated on whether his roommate kicked his door all the way in and off the hinges and then he went into the living room or if she partially kicked it in and then he opened it and went into the living room and I was like......WHAT THE HELL COULD IT POSSIBLY MATTER like that holds zero legal significance whatsoever??? The guy ended up storming out in what I thought was completely justifiable frustration but I think he was gonna be able to get his case recalled sometime after us. So finally they get around to us, she asks her basic questions, takes one look at the affidavit I wrote and granted the order immediately, because it was THAT EASY. Like, look how overcomplicated you made this and you just wasted like 2 and 1/2 hours of my life. So I was at least glad we got it granted because if it didn't get granted I probably would've gone ballistic on that courtroom, lol. So we end up leaving the courthouse at like 5:50 which is right when class starts, so we jump on the train and then make a quick stop at the jimmy johns that's right by school because we were both starving and it's literally the fasted option, lol. I think we made it to class by 6:10, so not bad at all. Our prof was understanding, my email said something like "we're stuck in an ongoing situation with a judge and we don't know how much longer it's gonna take" so then on break he was like "so judges, huh?" and we were just like "oh you don't even want to know" lol. The class was fine, as usual I somewhat paid attention and did other things. The big take away from the class was that instead of having to make my presentation for the class that I haven't started at all next week, I get to do it the week after because of how the scheduling worked out (he said he was doing it by last name and it wouldn't take up two class periods, and my last name starts with M which is right in the middle so I thought I'd be on the first day, but apparently the roster is early in the alphabet heavy so I majorly lucked out there, and that actually makes everything so much better, because this week into weekend (and it's Easter weekend ffs) was gonna be hell working on the presentation and the trial on back to back days. So now I can just focus on the trial for the next week which makes me feel soooooo much better. I messaged my trial ad partner and asked what he needed me to get done for our Pretrial conference tomorrow and he was like "oh you're good I got it all covered" and I was like dude you're actually the best haha because that helps so much. In addition to a few other things I accomplished during class, I reviewed the trial brief of one of my mentees that she asked me to take a look out since we had the same LARC prof. It was interesting, looking at how she was like structuring things and I'm thinking "did I used to write like that?" And I find myself leaving comments that kind of sound like what the prof would say to me last year and I'm just like shit man, maybe I did actually get better at this stuff over the years, even if I still get incredibly frustrated with it. She had a lot of good stuff in there, it just needed to be reorganized and such and built into a more cohesive argument (which like, continues to be one of my biggest issues because I think the way they want me to organize it makes no sense and I much prefer my way, as does my REAL boss in REAL court, but I digress) so hopefully I was able to give her some good feedback. We ended a little after 8 which was nice, and I made it home a little after 9. No shows recorded, so I watched crazy ex-girlfriend for a bit and relaxed and laughed over the whole starbursts thing that came to fruition today which I have to say put me in a significantly better mood than my just being done with the day. I did realize though I had to get some forms and shit done for trial ad and field placement, so I had to run around and fill those out then like, extract multiple pages from several pdf documents and then combine those into own pdf document because whoever wanted us to submit these online clearly had no idea what they were doing. But yeah, that was my crazy day. Overall the good probably outweighed the bad, but I was just like, so absolutely done with everything about that hell in court. Big girl job tomorrow and doing a big girl permanency hearing, so that should be good, I'll get to meet the client beforehand and talk to her about anything she wants to be brought up so I'm looking forward to that. And yeah, damn it's late and I now have somewhat less than 6 hours of sleep I can potentially get, so I think that's strong enough incentive to end here. Goodnight my loves. Stay strong.

#daily journal #April 2017 #Rachel's evil plan

[sparkles-m-fantastic]

Let’s Get Personal

   1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?            (In not particular order)          *The Red--Chevelle          *Elastic Heart--Sia          *Love on the Brain--Rihanna          *I Feel a Sin Coming On--Pistol Annies          *40 Day Dream--Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes          *any songs by 21 pilots of The Foo Fighters

   2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?          *Yeeeaaahhh, I don't like people, soooooooo.....I'm good.

   3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.          *There are no books near me and I'm not getting up.

   4: What do you think about most?          *Work.

   5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?          *It's a pic from #Kid_1 about her new ab workout

   6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?          *I have small children who still sneak in my bed at night, sooooo--clothes

   7: What’s your strangest talent?          *I can read really fast.

   8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)          *Gender is a social construct and I refuse to participate in this narrative.

   9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?          *Many, not to brag.

   10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?          *The last time I watched "Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure", probs.

   11: Do you have any strange phobias?          *No, Imma basic bih

   12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?          *Noooo?

   13: What’s your religion?          *Atheist raised Catholic

   14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?          *walking to the lake

   15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?          *Behind

   16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?          *The Foo Fighters

   17: What was the last lie you told?          *I'm sure I've told one today--everyone lies--but I can't remember

   18: Do you believe in karma?          *No, that would mean that I believe in a higher power

   19: What does your URL mean?          *Stripper name

   20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?          *Weakness = Not giving a shit (Husband says CARBS)  Strength = Not giving a shit (Husband says it's my ability to keep my eye on the big picture)

   21: Who is your celebrity crush?          *I like Fassbender, even though I don't think he's that great of an actor, traditionally handsome, and I don't think we'd get along were we ever          to meet or be forced to interact. Crushes are kind of weird little things.

   22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?          *No

   23: How do you vent your anger?          *Scream into a pillow or write a scathing letter and never send it.

   24: Do you have a collection of anything?          *So many things

   25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?          *Video chat

   26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?          *Yes

   27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?          *I hate too much noise, and I love the quiet. (ha ha)

   28: What’s your biggest “what if”?          *What if we don't "make it"?

   29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?          *Ghosts = no, Aliens = FUCK YES ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

   30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.          *My leather sectional couch

   31: Smell the air. What do you smell?          *Cinnamon rolls baking in the oven

   32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?          *There was this campground we went to when I was about 12 or 13 in Brown County, IN and it rained the entire time and I ended up getting my first UTI.

   33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?          *East Coast

   34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?          *uuuuuhhh......don't really fancy any singers.

   35: To you, what is the meaning of life?          *Arrive late, fuck shit up, leave. LOLZ

   36: Define Art.          *I have nothing profound to say that's not already been said. I have a great-uncle named Art who lives in Indianapolis?

   37: Do you believe in luck?          *No, you make your own

   38: What’s the weather like right now?          *Dark

   39: What time is it?          *9:38p EST

   40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?          *Yes, and a couple of times, both involving black ice

   41: What was the last book you read?          *For Fun? Pride and Prejudice. I want to re-read all of Austen's novels

   42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?          *Sure.

   43: Do you have any nicknames?          *Yes

   44: What was the last film you saw?          *WONDER WOMAAAAAAAAN (2017)

   45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?          *I broke my left ankle in March

   46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?          *Yes

   47: Do you have any obsessions right now?          *No

   48: What’s your sexual orientation?          *Hetero

   49: Ever had a rumor spread about you?          *Probably

   50: Do you believe in magic?          *Ever fallen in love? That's a sort-of magic.

   51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?          *Until my last dying breath, LOL

   52: What is your astrological sign?          *Aeries

   53: Do you save money or spend it?          *Save

   54: What’s the last thing you purchased?          *I had some prescriptions filled.

   55: Love or lust?          *It depends on if you want Mr(s). Right or Mr(s). Right Now

   56: In a relationship?          *Since 1993

   57: How many relationships have you had?          *Romantic? 25

   58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?         *No

   59: Where were you yesterday?         *Many places on Earth

   60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?         *Yes, my Chihuahua, Pinky

   61: Are you wearing socks right now?         *Fuck socks

   62: What’s your favorite animal?         *I love foxes. We have a family that lives by the lake and I see them a lot at night when I'm walking my husky.

   63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?         *Paying attention to little things and don't try to one-up them.

   64: Where is your best friend?         *He's sitting next to me. (husband)

   65: Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr.         *Anglerfishy         *The-Haven-of-Fiction         *DisasterGeek         *WriterNotWaiting         *DrBennedict

   66: What is your heritage?          *Irish/German

   67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?          *Probably reading

   68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?          *Morningstar

   69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?          *Almost every day. ;)

   70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?          *Absolutely.

   71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you        are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?          *SAVE the FUCKING DOG

   72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are        going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?          *A) No B) Nothing different. I like my life C) Bring it on bitch

   73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.          *TRUST

   74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?          *Smells Like Teen Spirit--Nirvana

   75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?          *3825 (ha ha not really, see if you can figure out what that spells)

   76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?          *Never falling out of love at the same time (it happens, yeah--they don't tell you that before you get married)

   77: How can I win your heart?          *It's the little things....and compassion/kindness

   78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?          *Hmmm, I don't think it would necessarily dampen it? Unless one could LITERALLY not function.

   79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so          *Forgiving those who have wronged me

   80: What size shoes do you wear?          *US 10

   81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?          *I'm going to be cremated and my ashes pressed into a gem that will be mounted on the hilt of a sword that will be used to avenge my death because          YOU KNOW the only way I'm dying is by MURDER!!!!

   82: What is your favorite word?          *FUCK

   83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.          *Elastic

   84: What is a saying you say a lot?          *Oh my god

   85: What’s the last song you listened to?          *Ha Ha The Red--Chevelle

   86: Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?          *Black, gray, dark blue, dark red, olive green

   87: What is your current desktop picture?          *David Tennant as The Doctor snapping his fingers to close the Tardis doors

   88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?          *ONLY ONE PERSON??  It's too hard to choose.....

   89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?          *How do you REALLY feel about me?

   90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing        anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?          *Well, if Mummies were able to somehow come back to life and were surrounding my bed--that ALSO means I can teleport, sooooooo...buh-bye

   91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice!        What is that power?          *The ability to control the arachnid and insect populations of the world.

   92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to        experience again?          *...........I'm good, thanks.

   93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?          *My entire childhood before my parents divorced. My father is an abusive alcoholic/addict

   94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?          *Yeah, I'll pass.

   95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?          *London to see meh Bestie and his Partner

   96: Do you have any relatives in jail?          *Not that I know of

   97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?          *No

   98: Ever been on a plane?          *Yes

   99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?          *I voted for Hilary!!

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