Durgetash/Durgestarion parallels. They're both trying to be charming. They both manipulate people. They both yearn for power. But while Astarion can be guided to a humbler, better life for him and Durge, Gortash just can't. He is a tyrant to his core. He cannot give up his bitterness. He cannot end the cycle of abuse because he doesn't want to. With my current Durge, I do think that he and Gortash cared about each other, albeit in a very fucked up way, but it's just... ugh.
Durge goes from Bhaal's loyal spawn, his perfect machine of murder and Gortash's lapdog, to being someone worth fighting for. To being someone who makes Astarion a better person. A real "He can make me worse" to "We can make each other better" pipeline.
Also: Cucking Gortash, but that's neither here nor there.
The others hear me mutter to myself. They see me shake my head like a wild dog when the urges get too loud. They see me eye corpses with greater hunger than I have for whatever meal Gale throws together at camp.
Not my fault that it doesn't compare to fresh
Am I supposed to know that?
They think that I am strange, but Astarion?
He calls me "delightful".
I am starting to think that he is strange too.
He asked me last night how I would like to be killed. My heart still races at the thought for some reason.
Why does my stomach feel so funny?
He favors decapitation if he starts to change.
I told him that I prefer a dagger.
How close it is. How personal.
How intimate.
To feel one's blood flow over your hand. To watch up close as the light leaves your victim's eyes.
I said as much, and Astarion stared at me.
Then he laughed and called me "delightful".
I like it when he laughs.
—Spots of ink cover the page. The lines that are crossed out are smudged until they are almost unintelligible. There is a doodle off to the side of a smiley face with fangs.
If Cazador ever commented on Astarions companions (instead of just ignoring them which ultimately leads to his downfall) he'd be pretty flabbergasted to see the durge he definitly has heard of innit
You're my person <3
I love these two so much. BG3 is more than a game to me. Astarion and Evie have become my comfort characters. Their story is just absolutely beautiful.
They're literally the best.