#everything i try makes her feel bland af T_T

[revon-aurora-borealis]

you ever really wanna make an oc for a piece of fiction youre into but nomatter what you throw out there none of it sticks and everything about them doesnt sit right with you?

ive had this before, and typically i just abandon the oc or suddenly something sticks (this is that case for both my Agent 3 oc and Neo Agent 3 oc)

the thing is in that case i needed to make them for the story and i already was like interested in making them anyway

at first i was into the idea of this oc but the more i read this manga the more i just... feel like shes stupid and doesnt work, all the ideas i have for her doesnt work nomatter how much is toy around with them, it kinda feels like she exists just to have special connections to the characters i like and this one oc i thought of kinda just exists to be romantically involved with this one guy and i dont like it

the just feel bland af and only one of them i feel like adds some extra substance i wish was there for the story, but part of that could be there just by writing one of the characters im into differently

i dont want a self insert here either, i want to design someone, i want to make someone else, i want the mirror that reflects me to be shattered into small bits

im stuck in a creative rut rn cuz of my period and winter and i fucking hate it

i think ill just focus on skycotl fn ughhh

i think its best i take a break from this manga fn

#manga #anime #oc #artist block #writers block #yes i am talking abt jjba btw #ughh i love it sm but there is so much potential that is missed hence why i wanted to make ocs #ik for sure i want to draw a fanmanga that makes Strazio's actions make sense tho #and maybe a fancomic that entends each part by more? #at first i didnt mind it with PB but i felt robbed with how fast BT's plot ended #and i looked at SC and its got 10 fucking volumes only wtf #i crave more BT content so i might as well make it myself #jjba #fan writing #fanfiction #bro i actually wanna cry this is painful wth #i hate the vibe i have stuck in my heart rn #ima just abandon my ocs #i think i jumped the gun when making the one oc #everything i try makes her feel bland af T_T #plus when i think of her design it's in a bland harem anime artsyle instead of something jjba looking #ik it hasnt even been a week since i made her but it just like #isnt clicking at all #ive been stuck with ocs before and this does not feel like its gonna go anywhere #ugggghhhhhh #😭