#feels great. i want to fucking die

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

How I've seen most people write Rangi coming out to her mom:

Rangi: Mom, I have something to tell you.

Hei-Ran: Go on.

Rangi: Kyoshi and I.....are.....together.

Hei-Ran: Oh I'm so happy for you.

*they hug it out, much wholesome*

How I think the coming out scene went:

Rangi: Mother. I need to tell you something, Kyoshi and I are together.

Hei-Ran: Oh thank the spirits. It finally happened.

Rangi: ???? You knew????

Hei-Ran: Sweetie, everyone in the mansion-no, all of Yokoya knew about it! Well except for Kyoshi.

Rangi: ????!! WHAT?!

Hei-Ran: I'm pretty sure Jianzhu thought you were dating, that's probably why he kidnapped you, you know?

Rangi: WH-HOW?!

Hei-Ran: Oh please, we saw your gay little ass running all over the damn mansion just to be near Kyoshi and to impress her. We were mute, not blind and deaf!

Rangi, having a crisis: I-wha-but-

Hei-Ran: Well, you aren't very good at hiding your emotions sweetie.

Rangi, flipping a nearby table: The fuck you mean I'm not?????!

Hei-Ran: Oh curses, go get Atuat, I owe her $5.

Rangi: YOU BETTED ON THIS????? WITH YOUR DOCTOR?????

Hei-Ran: Well Kelsang is dead, so I had to keep our bet alive somehow.

Rangi: I-*inhales* YOu know what? Doesn't matter! Do you accept Kyoshi or not?

Hei-Ran: Anybody who gives my girl that much cardio is 100% welcome into our family. In fact, I already added her to our family registry 2 years ago. As far as the Fire Nation is concerned, you two have been married for a while.

#rangi #hei-ran #rangi sei'naka #rise of kyoshi #shadow of kyoshi #rangi seinaka #hei-ran sei'naka #hei-ran seinaka #rangshi #rangi thought she was good at hiding stuff but it turns out that kyoshi is just THAT DENSE #everyone wants a sweet moment #i want rangi's blood pressure to rise #rangi didn't talk to her mom for 3 days after that because of the all the emotions she was feeling #i'm right this is 100% in character #(tbf I think most of the stuff i've seen was pre shadow of Kyoshi which misses out on Rangi's unhinged-ness u_u) #i'm sorry I just....need a kyoshi prequel where there's a running gag of Rangi just showing up TT0TT #kyoshi: oh she's so punctual and cool I wonder how she does it? #us: *trying not to lose it bc we know rangi is BUSTING HER ASS to look that way* #rangi the loser: *trying so fucking hard not to wheeze keel over and die in front of kyoshi* #rangi is somehow both girlboss and girlfail it's great the duality #rangi: i'm doing so well #narrator: she in fact was not doing well at all

[blueskittlesart]

cold fruit in a hot kitchen (so i had this great watermelon last weekend)

#so I had this great watermelon last weekend. and the thing is it probably wasn't even that great of a watermelon #but I was four hours into an eight hour shift and we had thrown out all the watermelon salad because no one was eating it #and then our manager ran in and yelled that the client really fucking wanted watermelon salad. #so like six of us servers started frantically chopping watermelon. and the kitchen got really hot #in the way it does when everyone inside it is really stressed because there's no fucking watermelon salad #and after we chopped all the watermelon and the client got their fucking watermelon we all had a moment #where we looked at the remaining watermelon and we were so hot and cocktail hour was almost over anyway and the salads were all plated #and we all went for the watermelon and we ate it with the kind of rabid intensity you only get while eating cold watermelon in a hot kitche #and it was the best watermelon I have ever tasted and several days later i am still chasing the high of that fucking watermelon #and the thing is i know it isn't even the watermelon i'm actually missing #it's the feeling of cool liquid on hot skin and the feeling of a crisis averted and the feeling of camaraderie #that comes with devouring a watermelon in a hot kitchen with six other people who you have nothing in common with except that watermelon. #i don't dream of labor but i am dreaming now of being 4 hours into an eight hour shift eating watermelon in a hot kitchen. #i dream of laughing around the cold fruit in my mouth. I crave that watermelon like i'll die without it. #< honest to god this is real and that watermelon left such an impact on me that i had to draw it and write this. having a normal one #maybe this is insane but working in a team of people you truly like to do something you actually enjoy is so underrated #if only they fucking paid me i could work as a server for the rest of my life. unironically #skribbles

[hauntingblue]

Oden's prophecy of young pirates coming to save wano becoming yamato's hope for his freedom.... and him becoming oden because of it.... it's just so good... on the other side luffy taking ace's spot for liberating yamato... I think I hauve covid

#the spades pirates in wano to save children... omg... deuce.... i have heard so much of you.... #yamato complaining about how eveyrhing is his father's fault and ace getting violent... #it is so sad that in the end it was (partially maybe) his father's fault... if not roger then whitebeard..... maybe both #the hibiscus flowers..... rouge.... #yamato telling ace he talks too much about luffy.... omg..... #NAMI TELLS TAMA LUFFY LOST ACE TOO!!! AND LUFFY CAME BACK TO WANO BC ACE SAID HE WOULD!!! OMG...... THE LINGERING..... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1014 #pink haired samurai is still alive and kicking... hell yeah.... #ODEN WAS THE SECOND COMMANDER FOR WHITEBEARD??? OMG??? #whitebeard dealing with his rebellious son ace akshaksjak..... #ace wanting to save wano for his husband and child but wb wouldn't let him bc he is still caught up about his ex husband's death... complex #TEACH GO TO HELL!!! FUCK YOU!!! DIEEEE!!!! #they can't put luffy crying about ace dying here again.... tama feeling bad about yelling at luffy.... #YAMATO KNOWS ABOUT THE D???? #big mom wants robin.... i mean of course.... curious about pudding and her third eye.... we will meet again i guess... #PONEGLYPH!!!! kaido little borther to mom...... god valley.... rox.... i remember.... she gave him his power omg... #episode 1015 #ace face down smiling after whitebeard beats him up reminded me of ace dead smiling. hell on earth this is my last straw. goodbye. #the animation <3 ace i love you <3 yamato you are great <3 #omg... little ASL with the big pirates saying he will become pirate king omg... #PAUSE!! ACE HEARING GOOD THINGS ABOUT ROGER AND SAYING HE SOUNDS NICE THIS IS CRUCIAL TO MY ACE LORE OMG #yamato didnt say who it was... did ace really die not thinking his father was good this is my roman empire... critical hit to my brain #yamato made aces vivre card.... should i end it all for realsies this time.... #his cunty skate boat 😭😭😭😭 i could cry #he really is looking like a beautiful dead wife this episode.... yamato......the vivre card omg..... NOT THE FLASHBACK ENOUGH #THE TRANAITION BETWEEN ACE FALLING OFF LUFFY AND HIM FALLING TO THE GROUND OMG AKFBSKDNDKSKLWKWNSKWK NOOOOOO #OH FINALLY THEY ARE ALL THERE TO FOGHT BIG MOM AND KAIDO!!! FUCK YEAAHHHHHH a good drag for the mugis for good measure #episode 1013

[skitskatdacat63]

Please god, can someone give me the strength to write ANOTHER 900 word essay in German, I DON'T WANNA I DONT WANNA PLEASE NO

#disliking this course more than i thought i would #oh yes german linguistics!!! okay!!! sure i love that!!! #and then my grade is dependent on literally only writing assignments #i actually want to die. this brings me soooooooo much fucking pain #i just really despise the whole idea of it #you put a bunch of people in one class with differing skill level #and then make them all write 900 word essays in a language theyre not 100% on yet #and the content is soooo much just him rambling in class IN GERMAN ! #and not all of it is on the slides so fuck if i remember #and even if i did remember its so much me trying to focus on catching what hes saying than actually absorbing it #and the topic even if i was writing in english would make me struggle #and you guys know!! im great at rambling!! BUT NOT AUF DEUTSCH #and then. when you finally finish slaving over this fucking disaster of a paper #you submit it. and his only comment is just: sehr gur gemacht. #yeah why the fuck would i feel the need to burn myself like this + #only to get feedback that feels like he only looked at the word count and nothing else #like not even going to correct my grammer or???? what am i learning other than writing the same kind of bs sentences over and over #i despise word count essays btw #youre not really writing for quality youre writing for quantity #bcs if the only real outline you get is that you hit the word count then why do i give any shit about the quality of it #like i submitted a paper for my other class and she gave like 100+ edits on it #not only comments but also grammer correction #and like????? why do i not get that from the class that is teaching me a foreign fucking language #yeah sure its not bad to correct the grammar of your first language but cmon my god please help me a bit or smth #but yeah its due on Wednesday and i just think im going to fucking die before then #choking on my stress tears or smth #as i said it would be fine if it felt like he was actually checking them in depth #but i hate assignments where im only doing it for the grade. like i actually want to uhhh learn yknow??????? #but yes i need someone to cheerlead me on or smth bcs itll take so much resolve to not just give up #and i wont give up bcs i want to keep my gpa but thats exactly thr issue isnt it? that i dont care about the content?

[starredforlife]

i also personally don't think i deserve sympathy from people directly affected by my strange cocktail of neurosis i think i owe them an apology and explanation if they want to hear it, and for me to get better for myself. i think i can owe myself compassion and maybe a therapist who is understanding but i don't want people to feel obligated to empathize with my way of looking at the world bc put simply it's not healthy and it's far too damning . it's like i hadn't escaped the concept of sin that's been spun throughout me since day 0, i just created it again, with a new face, and decided to puppet god

#star's thoughts #im putting all of this out there not for pity and also fully knowing i have people following me #whose opinions i care a great deal about #im sorry youre following a mostly pictures and art centered blog thats burst into a diary all of a sudden #i want anyone else who is having a hard fucking time with ocd to maybe see this and feel slightly. seen. i dont know #its all personal #but at the same time #i know there have gotta be other people who have lived the way i live #smtimes being mentally ill makes you a bad friend or partner and that doesnt mean you dont deserve love n patience n space while struggling #but it does mean you gotta accept that you can be bad and do bad things #and youre not gonna die about it. youre just gonna have to deal with it. like a person who cares abt others #dl

[tiredfoxtf]

I'm so tired, why do I even bother arguing with those people with the most headfirst individualistic mindset. "You can't change anything, don't even bother, but you can change yourself to fit better". Like bitch. Because you decide to not do anything, to stay silent and bend yourself to whatever bullshit the government throws at you - that's why nothing gets changed. Because majority who is against us silent, scared or believes that no matter what they do nothing will change. You are the problem. Change yourself.

But no, it's actually me who is stubborn and naive teenager (young adult btw). Because it's precisely my fault that I didn't get into uni and that I'm unemployed and that I just sit on my mother's neck. Like fuck you. As if I'm not neurodivergent and depressed (queer too btw) as hell artist in the world made to crush me. In the system who wants me dead. In the country that is currently started a fucking war.

#> tired shitpost #she thinks that because she achieved this financial success and older than me she is greater than me #like fick you #ty for making me feeling like I want to die again #great fucking job

[torosdottir]

if you buy the iced ring doughnuts with the sprinkles that they sell at asda and sainsburys we literally cant be friends im so serious. boycott that shit.

#IM SICK OF PACKING DOUGHNUTS IM SICK OF PACKING DOUGHNUTS IM SICK OF PACKING DOUGHNUTS #everyone else in this stupid fucking factory just says 'ohh i cant do that it gives me a headache :)' and NO-ONE MAKES THEM #but dickhead over here says 'i obviously CAN do it but it hurts my back and makes me feel sick and makes me furious and want to die' #and the managers are like oh great you can do it (: #IM GGOING TO KILL SOMEONE. I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE THIS ISNT MY JOB I HATE IT HERE

[prophecyofgray]

something about tedlassoposting on tumblr dot com is so incredibly funny to me. however Holy Fucking Shit this show makes me feel the shrimp color spectrum of emotion i just watched the penultimate ep and i was hyperventilating for half of it and now i feel like theres a little hamster running around in my stomach

#ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #<- lol #anyway. some thoughts: #jaime tartt makes me feel crazy in the brain. the jaime roy keeley friendship makes me feel CRAZY in the BRAIN #the contrast between ted and his mom vs jaime and his mom #im going to die. #also i usually hate the 'trope' or whatever of characters forgiving their abusers i think abuse victims should kill their abusers actually #that said i dont entirely hate the way theyre handling things with jaime and his dad? #idk. i think i need to see how it concludes in the finale to form a full opinion #i LOVED the thank you/fuck you thing that they did tho #with jaime wanting to say fuck you and thank you to his dad and then ted saying thank you and fuck you to his mom #sooo good. #also the way that jaime led with the fuck you but ted led with the thank you. so small but so intentional and so telling and soooo good #SOOO EXCITED to see the truth bomb at the start of next episode. Holy fucking shit #yeah. good episode. good show. #EDIT: HOW COULD I FORGET THE TED AND BEARD BACKSTORY #SO GREAT. so great :]

[trans4trans]

love going over to my dads family’s house and i briefly mention transgenderism and my cousins suddenly think it’s okay to start debating whether trans people deserve respect and decide that being transgender is a mental illness and trans people are crazy and just playing pretend 😁 like ok never speaking to any of you again

#transphobia tw #one of my cousins was like “i’m not prejudiced i’m not” after i kept accusing him of being prejudiced bc of the shit he kept saying #and then he just fully comes out with “they’re all fucking crazy it’s a mental illness” #great! i don’t feel safe around you anymore! kill yourself! you will never make anything out of your miserable life and you will die with #nothing to your name on this awful trashy plot of land our family has been stuck on #he was saying the most racist shit too. terrible guy he said he lost so many friends over his opinions on trans people like yeah makes sens #no one wants to be around someone so hateful and denying of basic human rights and be called immature by them for believing in trans rights #i am so serious when i say im never talking to any of them again i left the groupchat i blocked them all they’re fucking sick #i hope they suffer for the rest of their boring ass lives. miserable fucks

[lingeringscars]

i just think there is something about how nat could never forgive herself for javi sacrificing himself for her. she was worse than all of them because she let this kid, her somewhat boyfriend's brother, her own family, her friend, die in her place. it was supposed to be her, she heard the cries from javi and watched him die nonetheless.

but now she didn't watch. she didn't watch at all when it came to lisa. she stole the fish. she intervened with her family. she died in her place. nat healed a part of her when sacrificing herself for lisa. it wasn't right. it wasn't her time. she didn't want to go, but she got to finally pay forward javi's sacrifice in a way that she's never been able to do and always been punishing herself for. she got to heal her inner child by saving lisa. ( the irony is that it may not have happened had she not gone to try and save lisa to begin with. not tipped her off to something happening. these are the consequences of the girls actions. they wanted a hunt through the woods, they got one. they went after shauna and called off services, nat pays the price. misty tries to solve the problem the way she has been but she's not a perfect serial killer and she missed. they covered up the wrong guy at the end of last season. they killed the wrong person at the end of this one. ).

travis didn't break the pact, but neither did she. she did better. (btw travis was on the plane <3)

#yj spoilers #yellowjackets spoilers #i will be honest and say that i did not want it to be nat despite the nagging feeling that it would be #for all the reasons people have pointed out about her arc #but... i actually didn't hate it for all the reasons in this post about the completion of her arc #it IS tragic. it IS fucked up. it SHOULDN'T have happened. #but they called to the wilderness and they went on a hunt through the woods and misty jumped the gun #and nat died to save someone else. nat paid the sacrifice forward. nat drew the queen card and let someone else die in her place and now #now so has shauna but it would have been lisa. it would have been someone nat saw herself in #it would have been someone nat has tried to help all season and did. she could have watched it happen again #but she didn't because she has come too far and they are NOT in the wilderness anymore #they brought it back with them. travis died because of it. because of her. but lisa didn't have to. it could end with her #(it won't. but maybe things will change now. maybe #idk i just actually have feelings about this and i don't blame people for the gut reaction but i think it was a really great conclusion #ofc i wanted her to live ofc i wanted her to have a full life where she heals and is happy. and ofc she won't because they keep #playing a game that no one can win. because they are all traumatized and they're all responsible #meta: nat scatorccio #muse: nat scatorccio #season 2 belonged to you baby

[searidings]

Hey there! Just curious if you’ve stumbled upon any new fanfics that you are loving?

hell yeah babey!!!!

if music be the food of love, play on and also you'll always find your way back home by lovepotionnumber5

also checking for updates on i want something just like this by @jazzfordshire and a history of wine by @seabiscuits-us and the bicep obsessed tennis au by ms huge rack @hrwinter like im checking the morning paper

#ok so. lovepotionnumber5. let's talk about them #if they have a tumblr i dont know it but fuck i'd like to #so they wrote a free solo au that is cinematic as all fuck and flawlessly combines two of my nichest interests #and i think i recced it already but honestly people are SLEEPING on it it's so so good yet so under-kudosed #so i was feeling my feelings today and felt like a reread and then i thought hey. i wonder if theyve written anything else #had a little look. saw another fic #read 'mob boss/jazz singer au' and promptly devoured the fuck out of it and let me just say #i was HOWLING #the funniest fucking dialogue in the world #'it's gonna be may' if you know you know and boy howdy i KNOW #go and read it like. i cannot stress this enough. wip or no wip. go and read jt #if i could eat a fic i would swallow that one whole #the characterisation i swear to god #i want to kiss lovepotionnumberfive's lillian luthor on the mouth #also kara and lena but we already knew that #i am reccing the shit out of this author don't try and stop me #lovepotionnumber5 if you're out there i'd die for you if you ever need it. jsyk #hope you're having a great day #asks #anonymous #my ficrecs

[perenlop]

i know i know typical shounen issue but man. misa amane deserved better

#i dont think her role in the story is terrible i think shes a great curveball character #and to show how fucked up light is. i dont totally mind her being a complete stan and dedicating herself to him cause yknow #light wants to be a god and someone like misa is going to exist and worship him above all else and die when he does #i think that makes sense. but man the way shes written sometimes is just. hrm #like why doesnt she react when rem dies. why doesnt she acknowledge rems feelings for her at all #ik she values light above all else but like. i feel like she should care about her shinigami somewhat since she told her the truth #and gave her access to light in the first place #or even show like. how lights abuse affects her overtime and maybe she becomes more and more of a shell #also the torture scene like come ON ik shes got the shinigami eyes and they needed to blindfold her and stuff #but light/kira- who everyone admits is more dangerous- just gets put in solitary confinement #like it still sucks but misa is bound and blindfolded and allowed to believe shes being tormented by a stalker #even tho it makes more sense to just reiterate that shes in confinement over the kira case #and even despite that shes not allowed to feel rattled over the experience at all like light is #echoed voice #they just keep acting like shes an airhead

[soldier-poet-king]

ive read three books lately that have involved deserts/steppes/horse cultures and like yes i am STILL afraid of horses bc they Are The Unknown to me a born city rat, but, i like. get the appeal. i deeply DEEPLY get the appeal. it’s like the sea. the endless possibility of freedom. it’s a hunger

#anyway cried on the bus today thinking about riding into the sun #HOW CLICHE #i really do just. hate winter and hate the cold and hate the cityh #i feel SO TRAPPED and its really starting to weigh on me #ive never even SEEN a prairie ok #im lowland farmland rolling hills if u can escape the urban sprawl great lakes area #ive seen appalacia #and parts of europe #GOD I MISS NOT BEING FIVE HUNDRED HOURS FROM NATURE #FUCK IT WE HATE THE CITY #but im also not moving to fuck all western canada bc winter is worse there and i already want to die #PERHAPS. THE PROBLEM. IS CANADA IS TOO NORTH FOR ME. MAYHAPS #city would be ok if it were smaller and i wasnt stuck in car bound suburb hell #BUT I CANT AFFORD TO LIVE IN A DOWNTOWN AREA

[peachrunes]

my mom texting me "happy valentines day": i am a good mom. talking once every three months is good and normal. only one of my kids talks to me often. i am a good mom.

me after seeing my mom text me: *in tears* i should just kill myself i hate her i hate myself *spiraling*

#also on a tolerance break which isnt helping #good fucking god i need money or im going to just fucking off myself i seriously cannot fucking keep living like this #if i just had fucking money i would be fine if i could just get an extra $50-100 a month i would be golden #but i cant! and disability probably wont happen so #GREAT FEELING GREAT AND FINE I THINK I KNOW WHERE I CAN GET A GUN BUT I AM GOING TO HAVE TO DO SOMETHING I REALLY DONT WANT TO FIRST #god. but it would be really funny to ********* **** ** *** **** ** ***** * *** ** *** **** #anyway hahahahahahahahahaha im going to fucking die i cant do this hahahahahahaah

[watch-out-it-bites]

I believe I deserve a sweet little treat [He has done nothing important for the past week]

#i am so fucked #don't let them see this! #i could always go to the kitchen - Above the fridge ;-) #siiigh to have things i enjoy. the worst. ever. #i really dont wanna be god im so fucked but im so tired. and i dont want to be yelled at but i dont want to do anything #i feel like just. lying down and not getting back up. nap time. oreverrrr #i really wish i could live carefree doing whatever #guh. is it even worth it to try? #im just going to end up all. eugh. #sure. it was great last year. but uhghfhfhg so quiet and so hard and so. bluh. #i really dont wanna wake up on monday #so stressful all the time #im either stressed but enjoying and spending time with friends or stressed and alone but people are proud of me #maybe we should cut off interests for a while - it could fix hims stuff. #i wish i could focus #i dont know why so hard recently #uhhhghĥhhhhhhh #i dont think i deserve to sleep but im so tired but i need to work on things #god i want to kill myself - you can't!! youve taken too many vows to die now

[pepprs]

im so fucking overstimulated rn LMFAOOOOO the semester starting is going to kill me for REAL!!!!

#purrs #everyone is super great but also like... god. we're keeping our office door open and its so loud outside. we have ZERO private space in the #office and the interns are going to work in here now so me and the other professional staff cant like..h have conversations bc there are th #things the interns cant / shouldnt / arent ready to hear or know abt yet. (<- the irony of ME of all ppl saying that and holding firm to it #💀 but whatever.) and tmi as fuck but i have anxiety abt using public restrooms and over the summer they were all empty and now there are #people EVERYWHERE and i have to go so bad i feel like im gonna **** but all of the single stall bathrooms are constantly occupied and i #woudl rather die than use one of the multi stall ones so i guess i will just have to decompose until i get home 💀. this is a NOIGHTMAAAARE #and ppl are walking past the door and can see me and i feel so uncomfortable like. i want to jump out of my skin. at least no one can see m #screen anymore but idk how i feel abt them seeing my face. cosmo wanda i wish i had a private office and a private bathroom so fucking bad #its actually unreal. and we are going to be like this for the next 9 months LOL HELP!!!!!