#gonna layer more when i get them!!!

[yj-98]

very important to me that u all see the stickers i have on my ipad rn (i am adding more im aware it looks messy and they overlap like i hit the point of not caring)

blobin stickers are from @not-another-robin & the tim kon and barts are ofc @clambuoyance <3

i included the ones i couldnt fit because im gonna use them . somewhere. eventually. didn't realize these were all so big 😭

#i put the blobins on first but the placements sucked and i cant buy more (afaik) so im NOT removing them #and then i just decided to put the others on around and on top #gonna layer more when i get them!!! #rook.log #(this is a sequel to my macbook which i also tastefully covered in stickers but it looks a lot better because theyre all placed really well

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[byanyan]

tonight's one of those nights where i'm thinking about fledgling verse again....... but this time i'm just laughing at the concept of byan being trapped with eternal babyface

#they'll be 100+ one day and still look like a fucking teenager #physically 18 or w/e but lowkey they look younger than that even #it's probably something they learn to use to their advantage where they can....... but then other times it's just INCREDIBLY frustrating #bc no one takes them fucking seriously and they have to use force to assert themself #this is assuming they survive that long ofc.......... god knows they'll test fate and their immortality smh #but i think this also adds an extra layer of hilarity to my idea of them eventually becoming a tattoo artist in this verse as well #u stumble in drunk to get a tattoo at like 3 in the morning and there's just this kid sitting there #this punkass fucking kid who's actually older than u but looks like a gd baby and WILL punch u without hesitation if u mention it #(most people mention it. most people's tattoos bleed more than they should.) #i'm gonna have to add a future version of their fledgling verse one day tbh... for when they're less fledgling & more competent #but for today....... it is still simply a concept i toy with occasionally bc i'm still enjoying baby vamp shit too much #anywayyy............. #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[moonsidesong]

i think its kinda funny that ibis paint is regarded as the Broke Artist App or whatever (as opposed to more mainstream programs like csp or procreate) because its free and because of how popular it is with phone + finger artists while im jusg sitting here having used ibis for a cool eight years on purpose.

like i have an ipad and an apple pencil and all theyre very nice and i absolutely could move to a more powerful program i have the resources to do so but my change averse brain has decided they like it here a lot and im not leaving

#not talking smack on phone and finger artists btw. some of my mutuals use their fingers and their art goes crazy i respect that so much #even when i did use my phone (most of 14 crush was done on a phone!) i still had to use a cheap rubber stylus hahaha #anyway maybe ill try procreate someday but also i hate learning new programs and i like ibis's brushes too much #fingers crossed that they add fully custom brushes someday though #like id love to be one of those artists that makes really cool art with ridiculous shapes and nobody even knows until they tell you #younger artists might not know this but modern ibis is STACKED compared to how it was in 2015 #like i remember when clipping layers were first implemented. and they sucked. like they didnt fully go over the lower layer #so it just left a gross tiny outline around the shape #and there wasnt any border or text tools either #and there was a hard cap on layer count depending on your device's storage and the canvas size #modifying brushes wasnt even a thing HAHAHAHAH you just used what you had #anyway okiku reference window unrelated shes just there for something else im working on<3 #bri talks #for the record all this is to say i think the smack talk towards ibis is pretty unwarranted #like yeah maybe its not as powerful as a lot of these fancy paid apps but i honestly think its insanely good for being a free program #i think getting rid of the ads costs more now than it did when i paid to get rid of them but i mean #free with ads is still a lot more than csp's ever gonna give you!!!! #(psst. secret from me to you! you wont get any ads if you disable the app's data usage and turn off wifi when you use it) #(alternatively just use airplane mode but you can still get texts and stuff the first way)

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i had a dream last night where i was trying to put together a piece for an art final in one afternoon (because apparently i was taking an art class? i kept having lucid moments of hey i’m not even taking a real art class but i was content to still do the project) and actually i remember very clearly what i was planning and i have all the stuff for it i think i should recreate the dream art final piece

#i was doing a giant collage and i was cutting up bits of colorful + textured paper and running them through a printer over and over #again so that the words were overlapping to make an interesting texture and i was moving them around to make an image and i don’t #remember exactly what it looked like but it was an underwater scene and i can remember a few of the fish and coral structures in relative #detail so i think i’m gonna do it why not i do not have a big enough canvas (it was bigger than me in my dream) but i do have some #30in x 40in canvases (originally bought for giant self portraits of me bc i’m vain lmao) but perhaps one could be spared for this? #i also do have a giant sketchbook but i’m unsure if the paper could hold the weight of what i’ll need to do to it. hmmm #i also have a wall….. but i think i was only granted permission to paint over it smoothly and i hate painting smooth i need texture and i #doubt glued paper would be easy to take off if needed. sad. i really do want to do something to a wall some day. maybe i should just build #myself a giant canvas so it can be moved? it would have to be able to fit through the door though :/ #what about a bunch of smaller canvasses that slot together to fill the whole wall? that would be kinda cool i can work with that #maybe not for this project though that would be a lot of work bc if i’m gonna do a whole ass wall i’ll need to measure it n shit and then #i wouldn’t want the canvases to fit as squares i’d want them to be cool and interesting shapes so i’d have to build them myself #hmmmmmmmm. i will think about that later perhaps when i get my own place . it will be epic though i assure you #so i can add some supports to my giant sketchbook paper to keep it sturdier or perhaps i could use a giant canvas. decisions decisions #i will think abt it after i get her up how much colored/printed paper i have (a lot bc i get some every time they’re on sale at micheals #because i have a problem) and i should cut them all to like 8x11 so they’ll slot through the printer so i can cut them up after? #or perhaps i will cut them up before so i can get the vision right? there will be a lot of layers to this i know the pov of the one in my #dream was from the sea floor but near a reef so i will need to work on perspective a bit so maybe a nice big preparatory sketch for a rough #placement of everything then extra details i can come up with as i go? the fish and things will need to be layered a lot but once the base #colors are on i can’t really sketch it out. hmmmmm. i’ll contemplate some more i think

[batemanofficial]

i saw a tiktok today of somebody's rewritten version of the countdown song and im near inconsolable about it :( it's also stuck in my head so ive been humming end-times-y hymns all day

#speak friend and enter #it was by @emhahee on tiktok if you wanna look it up it's sooo good #religious trauma still got hands ig :( doesn't help that i had to go back to church last sunday bc my grandma was in town #having been away for so long makes it all the more jarring to hear how blasé they are about militant evangelism which is. scary #like they tell people to go out and essentially swindle people into coming to church like it's the most normal thing in the world #and then they turn around and wonder why nobody wants to come! like idk! maybe it's the whole bait-and-switch routine #like idk about you but when i make friends i do it to connect w people not to rope them into coming to church so i can get jesus points #to me that's almost more insidious than the 'you're the enemy and you're gonna get smote by the light of his countenance' #like with that i can go 'ok sure pop pop that's great' but with everything else it's just so. slimy idk #like every interaction i have w those people has like six layers of ulterior motivations and i just. eugh

[divorcingjimmatthews]

Headcannon for a what-if-father-khatri-didnt-die-au: he likes to paint

Another headcannon for a what-if-father-khatri-didnt-die-au: he's terrible at flirting

Another, even better Headcannon for a what-if-father-khatri-didnt-die-au: he paints a portrait of jade to try and flirt

-🐾

OMG I LOVE THIS ASK yes your headcanons are so so good and correct. can you imagine HOW annoying jade would get if he found out that khatri is attracted to him? "forgive me father for i have sinned 😏😏" just to tease him and the like. but he'd be so impressed and touched if he found out khatri had been painting him like wait... from memory...??? whatthehellhow... he'd probably laugh in disbelief and khatri would think that he's making fun of him but then he'd offer to model for him. but end it with "i'm not taking off my shirt though" just to see him fluster at the thought

while he paints him they'd talk about random stuff like whatever khatri knows of the town, the bible, and their own lives because they're both GREAT listeners. jade is a pretty open person but even then he'd probably end up shocked that he shared that much that fast. if khatri dies after they've already got something going on you'll probably see jade at the church whenever he needs to sort his thoughts :)

#im gonna be thinking about this forever noww #i have like soo many thoughts about them #like khatri being very against jade drinking so much and trying to get him to stop #or jade actually being super vulnerable about guys wanting him but not wanting a RELATIONSHIP with him #but sucking it up because he knows hes flopped every relationship hes had anyway #so hes like okay im eye candy im palatable in small doses i get it i get it #and khatri meanwhile is like falling super deeply in love with him the more he gets to know him but his sexuality is probably repressed #under like twenty layers of shame and guilt #jades like look if youre wondering what its like to kiss a guy— #and khatri is like no im wondering what itd be like to take care of you when youre sick and to decorate a living room and do taxes with you #ok ill stop now #i just love this ship #thanks for the askkk

[cerbreus]

i got some pretty jasper slabs, i got some free fossils (agatized gastropod shells), and i’m getting some cool new piercings today! good day! :-)

#the lapidary i bought the slabs from has a customer for life fr even before they gave me the free fossils #they refunded me shipping bc it double charges when u buy something and the seller puts everything together n refunds the excess and DAMN #that is a rare thing for a seller to do fr #AND it got here in under a week? AND it came with free fossils???? coastal lapidary u are my best friend i love u #excited for the piercings too #finally getting that conch i've been wanting! and some more lobe piercings #also baking a tiramisu layer cake today #technically it's gonna b a brown butter tiramisu cake w/ amaretto #:-) so happy abt my rocks #i need to make some cool frames for my slabs and hang them up #personal stuff

[gazelessmenagerie]

quietly slides in here-- your portrayals are all insanely good. although it's been a while since i've really read too much of your writing(SHAKES YOU i need to throw my muses at you more AGH); everytime I do see it, it's like a breathe of fresh air. It's amazing how you manage to capture what I sometimes can see as a pretty one note/one sided character in Broly as having so many layers beyond just fight lusting brute. You're REALLY good at making simplistic characters initially feel like they're real, like they're alive.

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( NAMI~ HOW YOU BEEN HOLDING UP??? omfg pls do. I know I owe on N’doul and King but anflksfnskjgs blind man needs to stop ignoring me. but outside of that, just ??? omfg, ;; honestly I feel better bc holy shit have classes and school taken out my time to delve deep into lore and the brain power needed to make connections and mix n’ match ideas to see what works.  )

( and oh my god. just.. blame that my brain fixates entirely on one character and just cannot let go. There’s always something more behind the scenes of what is seen and writing it out with people only makes those brainwaves amplify. anfsldfjg just. -fucking cries on main- ily and thank u. getting the Nami-certified Approval never fails to make my brain emit fireworks. and just overall, you never lost your touch either on King from what I stalk lowkey on dash. )

#|| Tag: OOC #( MAKE BROLY BECOME A BEAST PIRATE. MAKE BROLY BECOME A BEAST PIRATE. ) #( IDK IF I'D KEEP HIM AS HIMSELF OR GIVE HIM A DEVIL FRUIT IN AN AU. BUT REGARDLESS. ) #( he'd look good in leather. just saying. anflsdfljg but yEAH. ) #( i love and miss all the talks we had but its all good. they will come again when school stops kicking my ass ) #( also Kata and King fighting over Broly to join up with them never left my goddamn head and I wheeze over it. #( and just anlfsjlf fuckign ) #( im gonna splurge my thougths out. ) #( i just feel happy getting to take these single point characters and push them beyond what we see out of them ) #( Broly has just had this certain charm to him. he's a menace. he's a beast. but beneath that. there's more to ti. ) #( he is a fallen prodigy that would've save his entire race in time had he been allowed to grow but due to both ) #( his power and the course of events. he never got that chance and became a black hearted creature. ) #( but... even still. he knows how it felt to be loved bc no one can tell me Paragus didn't love him as a son ) #( before he grew fearful of him after Broly took his eye out. ) #( just. i have so many fucking feels and thoughts and not enough time or brain to write them down. ) #( from there. I just write and write. i interact with people and tho I am hella fearful about my portrayal. it just gets easeir?? ) #( i end up thinking of things. or events change development. its just.. really fun and lovely to see how my muses ) #( develop either by my own hand or with the help of hella talented writers. ;w; ) #( so the statement you say that I make them feel alive is just????????????/ makes the joy in my brain spark like a supernova. ) #( thats always my end goal to give these characters both layers and a life of their own. ansdljg )

[keeps-ache]

hats are pretty neat things. how many kinds of hats are there? some are Plops, some are Brimmed, some do not serve any Practical Function, some are not even Fashionable but they're Funny To Look At, some are Very Big! and some are So Small you have to pin them to your head! hats are neat :)

#just me hi #i wasn't even thinking about clothing how did i get to this #hm. anyway! #i do like brimmed hats! but for the wrong reason maybe :) #i'm on the shorter side of height so if i pull the hat further down to my forehead i can straight-up Avoid Looking People In The Eye #this is a life hack no one has figured out before :) #it makes me 400% more comfortable in public #you're telling me i don't have to look at people if i wear a baseball cap?? holy heaven's harolds sign me up!! #who's gonna tell me to look people in the eye when i have to crane my neck like crazy to even look at them?? no one!! #unfortunately there's something about Objects That Are Only On Your Person For A Short While that makes me lose track of them very very #easily :/ #bags and jackets and Hats. so tragic #i had a jacket i liked and i lost it!! D: #it was like fall jacket and it was winter so probably for the better but!! DDD: #i don't like winter coats!! i feel stuffed and heavy and all too hot and everything SUCKS in a winter coat :((( #but here's the thing is if you give me a fall coat during the winter i will not fricken complain because i prefer THAT to being a #Human Pillow! #as long as my hands feet and chest are covered i'm SO peachy #i am the happiest little thing when i don't have to wear a WINTER COAT in the cold :/ #only time i appreciated it was when it was like -20 degrees and i had to wear like 3-4 layers lol #but yeah! #where was i going with this again #hm.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

another nd realization like i’m always going “it’s better when there’s an Ensemble Comedy & no ‘relatable’ audience standins or fixed Straight (comedically) Roles imo like why do we Need the back and forth where someone’s clearly doing the sillier / more spontaneous / Not Ordinary thing & someone else is just weirdly flatly Pointing Out like ‘hey...This isn’t normal’ or otherwise issuing Bemused Reactions questioning How this makes sense or Why it’s happening” like not only does it make everything less funny to me imo but i’m like why would you even like, react like that, even in a clearly fictional scripted situation why would it seem Normal for someone to just like insistently react Only in this way or act like they cannot function in this situation / they simply can’t wrap their heads around it

i find it all the more exasperating irl lol and then like ah right i mean i Guess nt people can learn how to be funny, man, but also like got it, it’s also clearly another manifestation of like dealing with The Brick Wall of [this is The social approach & if that’s not what other people are playing at you truly cannot adapt at all to their routine (except Maybe to recognize Goofarounding & only react by laughing / being the Audience)] in the way that you know, it’s like wow autistic people are so rigid & inflexible (as autistic ppl mask all the time / have to try to learn how to best accommodate any/all allistic individuals they interact with; & allistic ppl react to talking to an autistic person with kneejerk assumptions that’ll never be changed, hostility, &/or disinterest / rejection / exclusion, & think that their individual social approach is the sole correct one that they’ll never be changing, thanks) & oh autistic ppl lack Theory Of Mind & are never realizing that someone’s mind doesn’t work the exact same way as theirs (while autistic people Know there’s this lack of alignment from experience, vs allistic people unknowingly misinterpreting shit through their own lens & assuming their “oh this person Must have meant xyz by abc behavior” is immutably correct & never that they might be wrong abt this other person’s thoughts/feelings/intentions actually, and even if Knowing someone’s autistic & thus having some concept that they operate differently it’s like oh so it’s a Lesser version of how I operate then? & they should learn how to think like me? right)

anyways it’s also like obviously getting some more control over your situation if you’re being “weird” in a way people have a framework for like ohh a Joke, i see lmao, various reasons people might try to be The Funny One and/or just like connecting / communicating via humor & having a capacity to do Unusual things on purpose, since they also already exist weirdly / wrongly anyways, and the various reasons they might be seen that way.......like why do i find it irritating to like do anything silly & get the [i am being the straight person here] response of either essentially pointing out it’s Weird / not how things usually work! or Only laughing is like, yeah i already knew it’s b/c like cmon someone get in on the Bit, is the hope here, what was the point if that ball’s completely dropped. like i’m seeing it as a way to have an Exchange, not have a monologue moment (although if i Am monologuing it’s gonna be theatrical / trying to be humorous/entertaining while i am) or so like, not Just this one sided moment, it was an invitation to that Exchange with a clearer setup like, here’s how you can operate at All closer to [on my terms] than like, an nd style group convo which doesn’t really work great lmfao, like being Funny = not small talk, not only/mostly Listening, not getting distracted anyways thinking abt xyz or Knowing if i talk in earnest abt info i have it’s like oh well that’s too much if it’s an interest, that’s also too much if it’s like relevant trivia/fun facts, etc etc. and of course that your being Odd is more resented if you’re just hanging out / trying to participate the way other people are, vs like ohh they’re odd in the good, at all deliberately funny way, that’s more acceptable lol

and like the [smh]ocity of getting along more easily w/people sometimes if they’re at all drunk b/c ppl will get more vivacious / spontaneous like well woe to you but that’s just my usual shit wherein like, the other side of that is someone like oh those antics you were engaging in?? were you drunk lmao??? like no, no i was being myself & engaging my Personality. live a little. you gotta learn how to be funny, man 

or at Least just learn to roll with it or god forbid Only have the “lmao” response to other people being spontaneous / silly / responding to something in a way you don’t find Makes Sense / wouldn’t be Your train of thought

this is very much most directly inspired by that text post reblog chain about the dna & someone copy pasting a genome & the other person is like awhat........why would you.......huh..........how..........who........... and the other person explains it like yep a little bit nonsequiturry but the connection is clear & everyone was already joking around, makes sense. with the Other belabored “but............Why” & the final “eh” like i think it’s funny in that i think the copy / paste dna sequence side is fun but i find the Other like “wha??? why????” side Exhausting lmfao, or let’s say, tiresome. but it makes me go “oh yeah, back to the concept of [the Normal One who goes Wha Why Omg] in comedy scenes that i find tiresome & impeding the humor, i guess that just is how plenty of people would react lol” still think it’s unnecessary just full ensemble comedy, anyone can play off of another character or play Against them, we don’t need the person throwing up their hands & looking at the camera quite that hard

#another Uno Reverse comedic difference i realized is the Wordplay thing #i like linguistics & i think it's usually fun & i Love puns lol. love to make them & hear them & the more Involved / deliberately awkward #or say deliberately ''overwrought'' they are the funnier i think it is. i Accept that apparently some people are not amused / truly dislike #it but i sure don't Get that reaction #but there's that other style of Wordplay that's like. kind of tongue twisters i guess? and ppl seem to like it & i'm like oh i hate that lol #like ok That i also find tiresome & unfunny & truly overwrought in an entirely uninteresting way to me. i guess that's [puns] to others lol #you gotta learn how to be funny man.............. #like i'm aware me just Being Myself and doing unmasked ''weird'' spontaneous things could itself be seen as funny #(i mean of course see ''winston quant billions likely inadvertent autistic character also mostly to entirely a Joke in the material'') #which is unsurprising. like exaggerated Weirdo side characters in a clear comedic role like idk that's very close to Simply A Moodeth #or it is sometimes anyways lol and yknow s/o i think to comedy for making plenty of shit Explorable in ways that'd be like oh that's simply #too heavy if it was straightforward / dramatic.... #anyways like i can also play into it being like ''yes i'm goofin around / being zany On Purpose in ways i know ppl will recognize as a bit'' #but it can still be like well hey come on now >:/ depending on the degree ppl are like oh lmfao Howw Absurrdd #like first of all the ideal situation is that someone gets at all flexible w/Their approach to more match mine. i.e. gets in on the bit #second of all it's not gonna be all That absurd lol. i resent that #anyways sometimes Being Funny(tm) is like a masking compromise lmfao or like. my Most Successful mode when interacting w/ppl sometimes is #like well i'm not being Silly exactly but i am engaging w/my own vivacity & theatricality & chattiness & being a bit humorous throughout #it works well enough in shorter bursts & if i'm at all comfortable enough in the first place. & if the other person's similarly inclined lol #otherwise w/o this like Extra Layer of [ok doing this particular performance style] it's like yep still masking but just not really engaging #as often while still trying to operate on other people's terms or what have you & as ever; you're not really liked or accepted necessarily..

[igneouswyvern]

why are my two biggest hyperfixations both anime games with absurdly complex character designs why did i do this to myself

#ys 2 more like ys 2-many-layers #tales of zestiria more like tales of complicated outfit symbols #i try to simplify where i can but you can't simplify too much or you'll lose the integrity of the design #funny thing is i actually kind of like drawing fine details on outfits but when there's too much of it it gets annoying fast #before i can even think about drawing them doing stuff and interacting i gotta try and figure out how im gonna synthesize their outfits with #my style. which is a lot easier said than done #it's. definitely gonna take some practice #wyvern rambles