#guess since I'm not pregnant I can ride some roller coasters

[amumandherthoughts]

Let's start at the beginning.

That's generally the best place to start.

I was always that person who didn't want kids. I always found them to sap the energy right out of me and were generally a bit annoying.

Well, since getting married, seeing my husband play with kids and seeing all my closest friends have babies, my mind was changed. This change in mindset happened not long before getting married, and as a lot of people will tell you (too many people..), my biological clock was ticking! .... Yes, it gave me the shits every time someone said it.

So anyway, my husband and I decided to start trying, or rather not not trying, to get pregnant. 3 months later - boom, pregnant.

I must admit I didn't expect to fall pregnant so quickly! And because of that I wasn't as prepared as I thought I was - mentally and emotionally that is. So it took me some time to get used to the idea of being pregnant, having a baby, becoming a mum! So crazy! So not only was I already emotionally unstable, you add the 1st trimester hormones into the mix and I was a total mess. And I mean mess.

There were literally whole days and nights that I just could not stop crying. And yes, that probably sounds awful, but it's not that I didn't want my baby or anything like that, I just didn't know how to come to terms with it yet. And yes, I probably should have talked to someone about it.. but I didn't.

Anyway, it probably took 2 months or more for me to really get over the initial shock, by which time I was vomiting every morning and nauseous all day and so being pleased to be pregnant was not on my radar, I was just trying to make it through the day! But as a friend told me, if I feel like shit at least it means the baby is growing (another thing I didn't really quite grasp until later).

Being so sick, I literally ate peanut butter toast with a glass of plain milk every morning because it was the only thing that didn't make my stomach turn. I didn't feel that my morning sickness was bad enough to warrant medication, but I know people who have ended up in hospital from severe morning sickness, so I guess I'm pretty lucky, really. I also had reflux towards the end, I took a liquid medication for that, which helped a bit.

I'm also a migraine sufferer and was prescribed Maxalt wafers (which are apparently safe during pregnancy). Luckily I didn't get many Migraines whilst being pregnant and the ones I did get were the aura only and no headache. Which has never happened previously!

So, being pregnant for the first time was not a very fun ride for me. A huge number of people told me to 'just enjoy being pregnant'. Yeah, no. Thanks, but no thanks. I did enjoy the kicks and feeling my baby move and all that. But how am I supposed to savour this feeling when I'm throwing my guts up everyday for almost a year, can't breathe, can't sleep and have to pee every 2 minutes? I don't, that's how. So you can shove your 'enjoy being pregnant' up your arse.

So, look, all in all, being pregnant was a shock even though I thought I was ready and it was one hell of a roller-coaster!

Will I do it again? Yes.

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[fayeron]

Baseball followed by a quick trip to the local-ish theme park!

#great start to our summer #quality family time #guess since I'm not pregnant I can ride some roller coasters #baseball mom