#i am emotional today apparently

[oz00ms2]

ITS MY AU AND I SAY ACE LIVES AND BUGGY LEAVES THE MARINES AT MARINEFORD.

because a stronger buggy who watched these kids grow up, already has lost sabo and wasn't able to protect luffy. has shared his pain of abandonment with ace - who has told ace he is so happy that ace was born, has sworn to love ace as much as roger couldn't and rogue wasn't able to...

that buggy would put himself between an admiral and his nephew.

and that buggy would get in a lot of trouble.

after the peace forced by shanks' arrival settles, he sneaks off with crocodile who thinks having the marine who betrayed his own banner on a livestream (that was originally set up so beloved captain firebug would be announcing the execution of the scourge fire first, but oh did that backfire.) would be neat.

he will go to whitebeard's burial, he will thank the man for loving ace and showing him a world of family, and he will finally face shanks. remembering how he once was happy on the Oro Jackson. how they were his family and where he met his first and only love, and inform him that he going to find the one piece and become king of the pirates because that's his dream now.

& shanks falls in love even more.

+ this is how, instead of recruiting a large amount of impel down prisoners, buggy recruits the remnants of the whitebeard pirates. he is all their uncle now (and ace gets to cock block croc and mihawk because DO NOT LOOK AT HIS UNCLE??? YOU FREAKS???)

bonus: buggy and ace fighting over the receiver calling rosi (who survived because I said so) after the dust settles on a private line like "YOUR SON?? IS CREEPY AF?? HE BETTER BE HEALING MY PRECIOUS LITTLE BRAT LUFFY AND NOT SELLING HIS ORGANS!!!"

#oz babbles #captain fire bug #buggy the clown #marine!buggy au #shuggy #beats pots n pans #buggy au is my fix it fic APPARENTLY #i am emotional today apparently

[aziraphale-protection-squad]

right. so. i'm taking the angel and i'm wrapping him in a soft blanket and i'm telling him that NO ONE has the right to touch him without his consent.

no matter how well they know each other and got along previously.

or how angsty the person feels about possibly never seeing him again.

or how much Aziraphale might even possibly WANT to be intimate with that person on some level, someday, when they're okay again.

there are no ways around this:

if he's not READY for it, or if he's not in the MOOD for a kiss, then NO ONE SHOULD BE KISSING HIM. PERIOD.

#pretty sure this is not a controversial statement but the things i've seen some folks say today has been. um. #disheartening to say the least and alarming at worst. #please fucking tell me i'm not the only one who knows assault when they see it even if they find both characters attractive. #like. holy fuck. i love(d) crowley too but what the fuck. #how is THIS being overlooked while Aziraphale is taking all the blame for how shit went down in the finale. #~ooh they finally kissed!!!!!~ ugh but STUPID ANGLE!!! >:( doesn't he know how sexy and emotional crowley is??? he should ENJOY this!!!! #<- some of y'all's apparent attitude and it Concerns me deeply. #call it what it fucking is even if it sucks. it was a violation. period. it's 2023 we don't tolerate Blurred Lines bullshit here. #goddamnit this was my safe fandom and now i'm like. y'all scare me tbh. #i hate fandom drama but the way the majority have elected to ignore a literal assault so they can UWU Sad Demon Puppy their blorbo is just. #what is this? spn??? #he was my blorbo too but holy fuck i have lines. i have boundaries. and he crossed them when he crossed Aziraphale's. #if u think u know who this is no u don't #i am conflict avoidant leaf me alone lol #i just need to know that i'm not the only person here who um. respects boundaries and consent and all that. because y'all got me Concerned. #like. i wanna rant about this in my fandom friend groups but they're all UWU CROWLEY DESERVED BETTER so um. i no longer feel safe there tbh #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers #go spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers

[lunarharp]

various witch stuff of the day or whatever the heck

#witch hat tag #orufrey #uhh yeah just getting some stuff out of the way haha i like the first one tho. i drew something that scares me #iguin must have been involved in qifrey's thing somehow. The Lidless eye..the sight of the world..i mean i think [redacted] #and he'll be [redacted] and [redacted] will be forced to... [redacted]???!?!!? #I want to keep my theories to myself.......or do i. not being a fandom person (other than dropping my art and leaving) means i just.. #combust inside by myself with ideas and FEARS FOR THAT MAN.....CAN SOMEONE HELP HIM IM SO WORRIED IM SO... #CAN YOU LET SOMEONE HELP YOU #apparently tetia's expression in the last one is hard to understand =.= she's emotional bc she cant believe they remembered #the twin hat idea. and that she's so happy. i was thinking about how she was probably qif's first pupil so there must have been a time #where it was just her qif and oru... i DO think she is hinted strongly to be trans but even if not her mystery background is probably so sad #why would qifrey even become a teacher? his goal was the brimhats. but he keeps being distracted by kids with problem pasts so #he must have only been drawn to help tetia out of a deep sympathy. it seems at that point he and oru had drifted apart #did oru decide to be his watchful eye hearing about that or did qifrey ask him? he thought that qif had given up on brimhat stuff so.. #*mumble mumble* lately i also keep remembering oru saying something UNREAL in kitchen like 'we're finally living under the same roof' ???? #you can't just say that. what on earth. i..... whatever. i haven't even processed like 20% of my potential emotions about them #i feel so weirdly emotional today. i stopped thinking about witch hat for zuka even tho im SO hyperfixated it is genuinely PAINFUL to stop #i stopped just long enough to watch gatsby raku.... my haachan #i'm so grateful right now that i dont have any big issues in my life rn so i can get worried about manga men and sad about actors retiring #today at least i am extremely grateful. living and being alive is so so so so weird. i hope we all make it

[bbeeohazardd]

today fucking sucked but at least i didn't relapse

#/lh btw #hooooough i wish i could sleep for a million fucking years this year already sucked and it's only april #how the fuck has it been two months since this shit show started good fucking god #sorry if i freaked anyone out with my vent posting i am fine and safe #one day I'll be able to have normal emotional/stress reactions to stressful shit but apparently not today!!! #hough oh well. didn't cope harmfully so i count that as a win #vent ig

[dailypokemoncrochet]

Tumblr is the best platform because I don't make a concerted effort to specifically gain followers or attention, and yet somehow people still find me amongst the billions of other posts. And SO many of y'all will leave little comments and expressions of affection on my posts or click the "like" button for my little crochets or smile when one of my pokemon comes up on your dash.

#text #i often think that every one on tumblr who would be interested in this project has already found me #but every day someone new finds something of mine and follows #and i read a shitpost that was like 'theres always other posts. literally a billion more' and that made me realize how small this blog is #and really how incredible that anyone's found it #which i might say a lot here im really not sure bc i mostly ramble like this on my personal but idk i wanted to say it here this time #been going Through It and years back on my personal and uhhh apparently i've had the thought #'i will crochet every single pokemon some day' multiple MULTIPLE times over the years even before starting this in 2017 lmao #and today i have hit the 100th of just this year #and it makes 543rd overall #and wow it hits different looking at those old posts when i'd made only an awkward clunky eevee with too big a body and now #idk im emotional so much has changed and so much is the same #and maybe it's dumb but i'm so in awe of myself for having made such progress in this One Thing #this one thing that is so silly and yet so meaningful #like all the shit going on in the world in my world #im still here in this tiny space able to do something i love and being able to share it #the thought is always the same the mood is always different and today i am choosing to make it comforting

[transboykirito]

hi. my name is kazuto kirito darkness raven kirigaya and i have long black hair that reaches the nape of my neck and black eyes like the starry night sky and a lot of people tell me i look like naruto’s gay husband sasuke (a/n: if you don’t know who that is get da hell outta here xD). i’m not related to eldrie woolsberg but i wish i was because he’s a major fucking hottie.

#it is 1am and i finished that scene in volume 13 and i am in emotional distress #sword art online #sao #kirito #cursed shit is just all i create today apparently

[0rph1x]

WHY AM I. HAVING A MOMENT. ITS BEEN SUCH A LONG DAY U GUYS I NEED TO. WOW. I GOTTA BE NORMAL GLKAJHGKJSDHGLKJS

#i just wanted to find a silly little game to play on my silly little switch but APPARENTLY i have emotions or whatever #ive been around ppl for a very long time and i need to just. chill. aghgjshghgakjgh #i am sooooooo. im abnormal. probably the mental illness that did it. KGHSKJGHKJS #touch of the tism as ppl on tumblr say #ugh i gotta. i gotta be a normal person #okay anyway thats enough feeling for today i gotta just stop with the feeling things

[cassia-thots]

Return of the “am I autistic, or am I just relating very much to their experiences” thoughts.

I know this is kinda just introverted/socially avoidant behavior, but with everything else I’ve experienced, it’s just one more for the list.

Note that this was from an article written by an autistic person.

#like I am slowly keeping track of the potential indicators #stimming (shaking hands like they have drumsticks occasionally) #used to use the term masking as a kid when I wrote my thoughts #used to cry and get distressed when certain music came on #spent nearly all of second grade in the hallway because the class was too loud for me #used to just up and leave places (elopement which is apparently an autistic thing to do) #still mask today when I talk to people irl with few exceptions #to my knowledge of the term masking #weird obsession with hex maniac but that might just be an obsession separate from autism #spontaneous breakdowns in class because of the thoughts I was having #or emotions I was bottling up #I heard sleep disorders are common with autistic people #social avoidance (to the point of even avoiding market aisles that have a couple of people in them) #extreme difficulty with public speaking (used to cry when I had to stand in front of people but speaking from my desk wasn’t bad) #used to use social scripts to get by #wow I wrote a lot in the tags #anyways I was tested in like second or third grade for autism #they said I was just bored in class and the only reason I know this was because my parents told me like last year

[lenjaminmacbuttons]

does anyone have any woman's relationship with her mother leads her to descend into madness movie recs

#talkyllama #I was initially kinda craving/thinking about seladon darkcrystal but I don't have that kind of time tonight #maybe just the one episode where she comes out in the skeksis dress... #nah I want a movie. like maybe hereditary? Is that kind of what hereditary is about? #We were gonna watch fire walk with me today and I know laura palmer has a) a relationship with her mother b) a descent into madness #but I don't know how crucial or direct a is to b #and I'm. in a specific mood. #My mother is an emotionally mature adult who is good at handling conflicts and processing her emotions. And I am mad about it. #so im feeling the need to watch someone else go crazy to catharsize how strongly I feel like going crazy. or like I've already gone. #anyways apparently my dad canon confirmed has seasonal affective in addition to mom's canon confirmed adhd and her family history of #bipolar disorder and whatever the heck is going on with the brains on dad's side of the family #so uh. as deeply joyous and grateful as I am to have been given the gift of life. why the hell did my mother and my father think it was a g #good idea to put their genes together #I gotta trail off here I'm gonna go draft those bomm posts I thought of this morning. legit looking for recs if anyone has some though mwah

[izzy-b-hands]

Ahh someone else came out and made them turn the music off entirely

I don’t know that that was necessary; they just needed to turn it down some!

My head does appreciate the quiet tho

#text post #aka been deleting out anons again and my mum wants some of my time today but like #she's being weirdly. neutral abt it and that usually means I've done something wrong and a lecture will accompany any time spent together #online or otherwise #but idk what I could have done rn to upset her #for the anons I do know that it's bc I'm still occasionally daring to post fic for o ur f l ag lmaooooo #untagged most of the time now but apparently the few times I dared tag in the last month or so were not to their liking #as if anything is to their liking like i am deeply aware of what they specifically dislike abt me personally #but unfortunately that does seem to pare down to just existing in the fandom at the same time as them! #the pirate special interest and nautical special interest and other! special interests of mine all combine with this show fsadjfk #so they're stuck with me for now RIP lmao #bc the special interests combined are always stronger than anything else and also despite these folks i do like my time here #i like the few mutuals I still have who still like me and talk to me or even just like my posts on a bad day #sorry emotions going into fic now I'll dip for a bit dskfjalj

[ghost-of-luna]

and on today's episode of SSRIs kill my sex drive...

#they don't kill my desire for sex #because I want the emotional connection #but I definitely #am not up for today's task apparently 😅 #ghost writing

[tkbrokkoli]

my mullet is long enough in the back to tie it into a little pony tail 🥰

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #funny story ahead #i told my room mate that my hair is now long enough to tie it up and said that i unfortunately can't actually tie it up bc #i don't have a scrunchy. i used to have one (1) back from when i had an undercut and wore my hair in a bun but I've lost it #anyway then this week one of my coworkers was like wow your hair is long enough to make a pony tail and i laughed #and said I've noticed this as well and then i explained that i don't have a scrunchy #and they offered to get me one. and sure enough today they brought me a scrunchy #and funnily enough it looks exactly like the one i used to have #it's rather small/thin and dark blue. i think it's funny that i apparently gave off just the right vibe of how i am/what i like #that my coworker picked a scrunchy for me out of their collection that is just like one i used to have and used to like #also another coworker told me today that they rly like my haircut ✌ #at the same time I'm also closed off enough that my coworkers think I'm doing well when i am in fact not #i guess I'm just good at hiding certain things/emotions etc #also. most importantly. when i tie up my hair i can cosplay kim bc from the front it looks like i have short hair in the back #and when i leave my hair unstyled i can cosplay harry bc i have a mullet. fuck yeah baby ❤

[williamrikers]

how to cope with the fact that you're fundamentally swagless, ugly and undesirable. asking for a friend

#showed one (1) emotion at work today and am now hating myself #if i were a cooler person i could have handled the situation without showing any emotions and that means i gotta hate myself #according to my brain apparently?? #i think i might need therapy lol #personal

[hobisexually]

x

#y’all I’m exhausted #my cat keeps going on the litter box but not doing anything #and I think she just doesn’t like the stuff in it and the box is too small so I ordered a new one but it will take two days to get here and #I don’t know what to do!!!!!!! #and I keep waking up when I hear she gets on it in the middle of the night in stress checking whether she’s doing something #and she isn’t #and I keep having nightmares of her dying and having to tell her owner she didn’t last a week with me and she never should’ve brought her #last time she went on it was what? Sunday early morning? #its Tuesday it’ll be fine #but you know????????? #I also had to leave her behind for the first time today because I need to go to work #I stretched it by one day by working from home yesterday but yk #im so FRANTIC and I’m so stressed and my supervisor is leaving on holiday for three weeks so I’m in charge of the big stuff suddenly #which I’m not stable enough for atm at all I shouldn’t be in charge of anything in this state of mind #also apparently my dad is hurting a lot over not speaking to me and yeah my man same but ?????? what am I gonna do huh #it took me a WHOLE month to feel normal again after the disaster that was December we can’t keep doing this #I cried in the middle of a fancy restaurant last night #and then as if that wasn’t bad enough had to have a talk with my mum about racism and body image and religious trauma and how she can’t keep #getting in the middle of my dad and me and then it spiralled into a conversation abojt how my dad impacted HER #and how the divorce was hell for her for a reason because the emotional abuse was. hm. #and hearing that! also how much weight she lost then which I always thought was because she was sick but no it was him #very difficult to hear #fuuuuckkkkk meeeeeee y’all #and I can Feel my brain going around in circles like it’s anxiety central and I can’t stop it atm #shit man. #UGH #I HATE THIS SOMEONE KNOCK ME THE FUCK OUT #@ [redacted] go ahead honestly

[nostalgia-tblr]

gonna try and write fic until i feel better in the mind, hope it works. it just gives me something to think about that isn't important so i don't need to worry about it. a distraction, you might say.

#feel like pure shite just want her back #and by her i mean psychiatric medication #but i felt mostly fine when i was focussed on writing fic today #so i'll just try typing out whatever nonsense appears in my head #at the moment it's rarepair fun with julian/lauren (again) #she deserves to not be in horny-jail damn it!!!!! #anyway it may never be finished or posted but that's what am do #open to jiles-related suggestions because omg otp etc #writing augments-porn is the cure for emotions apparently? #fic related

[gaudebo]

Aha,

#i am starting to understand more things about myself i think #many things in my life are directly traceable to autism masking behaviors #also apparently my consistent inability to recognize emotions is an actual thing and not just a personal problem #which is part of the reason i always have to write them out #much to the detriment of: you people who end up reading my tumblr #also. apparently my inability to distinguish romantic and platonic feelings. is also the same shit #the psychosomatic symptoms? guess fucking what #haha. its chill tho #anyway class got canceled today happy juneteenth im going to sleep in like an hour #thanks for keeping up w my life little people in my phone #love y’all #late mornings late nights #early mornings