#i am just very invested ok

[todayisafridaynight]

barely four hours into the new month and im already silly

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza series #yakuza 7 #yakuza like a dragon #arasawa #masumi arakawa #jo sawashiro #snap sketches #BYE LMAO #i just wanted to draw arakawa tbh but then somehow sawashiro ended up here too #a reward for me for shotgunning all of my comm sketches tonight :))))) #im lying of course. there was SOME intent. but i really didnt expect to make this a 'whole' thing #at the very least i just expected to post the sketch and call it a night but I Am Not Tired And I Fear Time Loss So Might As Well #anyway todays inspo for this is uhhhhhhhhhhh heavage LMAO #my guy being SO respectful not to peak... couldnt be me Who Said That #sorry i draw young arasawa so much. it just tickles me cause i get to Reasonably make jo a doofus #yk. before he fully invests himself in The Horrors and becomes a cunt. still love him tho <3 maybe even more cause of it LMAOO #ok i should sleep. but im not going to cause im gonna go work out HAHA BYYYYYEEE #posting this now so i stop looking at it and feeling like i need to add more to it BITCH ITS JUST A SCRIBBLE MOVE ON AND EXERCISE

[fooltofancy]

important to understand that my approach to oc design and characterization depends explicitly on how i'm playing that specific game, like. a thing you should know about ilya is that he is the kind of person who will dive into the middle of a large pull ahead of the tank and pop all of his mitigation while screaming because i get distracted and do that. constantly.

... it's the siren's call of the big aoe damage noises, ok.

#mostly im thinking about these things because they're the easy things to think about #i am. very. very. bad. at like deeplore dives lmao #so bad!!!!!!! i'm here for the emotional complexity do Not ask me where this man lives i don't know #... i do know. #once it starts branching out into history and family lore and godforbid fucking cultural lore i am just #so dumb. i'm so dumb i was not designed for worldbuilding even if it's just the world of one weird little guy #v invested in other people's sandboxes because mine is very small and it's also just full of rocks. #anyway. #my partner: BABY MOOOOOOOOODE #me: it's okay my heal is up it'll be FINE #also increasingly play casters like melee dps so everybody gets to suffer that as well #ilya standing directly under a very large guy in his stupid leylines like MANAWARD'S UP IT'S FINE #.... i dont play blm as much now honestly because to contribute i have to be less stupid. and that's not fun. #i really. REALLY enjoy the big melee dps damage noises #they're across the board better than caster noises. so disappointing because in my heart i am On Fire #sam+pal noises are the best noises in the game #SPINNING #i'm thinking too hard about backstories and it's not going well lmao #grabbing this creature by the shoulders and shaking him violently like WHO ARE YOOOOOOOU #concussed probably his brain is just sloshing around in there #babg mode blogging #this is also why he's canonically A Guy Who Touches Things He Shouldn't #because i'm that guy. #i'm the guy who touches things. #this explains sehren also like she would not be who she is if i didnt play dragona age with wild hubris and abandon #.... it wasnt fun unless i was wildly underleveled in places i didnt belong ok #every if mc ive gotten invested in also

[sunsafewriting]

new do a flip chpater will be up tomorrow night :D it's 10.5k and was very uncooperative but is now in final editing / touch ups etc :D

#also i love you all and i truly do not mean to complain bc i absolutely appreciate very very much that people are invested #but sending me messages or asks that are just like 'it's been ages i want an update' or 'can you update faster' #do not make me update faster #i dont want to rush write and put out something bad #and i work as fast as i can #if youre wondering how things are going ever im more than happy to answer a check in question but #phrasing it like a demand does not feel great #ok whining over thank u #also i am very grateful and i dont mean to sound ungrateful #every single comment / mesage / ask means a lot

[july-19th-club]

ok dean's do as i say not as i do ass in the cassie episode when sam realizes that not ONLY is his supposed playboy brother actually a guy who will drop everything and reveal The Secret to the first girl who spends more than a month with him but . he will reveal The Secret at all, a thing he's spent the past six months loudly saying there is never any use in doing because we can't keep friends in this life anyway

#part of it is that he's very bad at HAVING these conversations so they never go well and he then thinks. well i know what to do now: #isolate myself forever #like you did that to yourself. we dont see the actual conversation where he tells cassie but you KNOW it was his worst timing ever #you just know there were probably half a dozen easily available alternatives that would've made it go better but he has no social skills #and he didnt use any of them #and she was like. ok this awkward odd guy who i took a chance on and who i really really like in spit of myself is just #making fun of me now. he's just playing with me i really had something invested in this relationship and he thinks we're a joke #acctually wait she does recount what it sounded like from her perspective and it was like this: #'the guy im hoping will be in my future starts telling me he professionally pops ghosts for a living' 'uhNOT the words i used' #i am so sorry they 100% definitely were. thats exactly how you talk #you said cassie i know you have to leave because you're graduating but i have to leave to go gank casper #and she's like be fucking serious . and hes like i AM pleaseeeeee believe me and shes like fucking incredible. goodbye forever idiot #spn #q

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Any thoughts about itadori? :)

aaaa anon!! tysm for asking hehe, i’m always happy to get an excuse to talk abt the jjk blorbos <333

honestly though!! i dunno if i have many yuji thoughts 😭😭 i love him don’t get me wrong but he isn’t one of my favorites Ever so i don’t think of him super duper often…… :’3 i DO think he’s such a wonderful protag though!! (yuji slanderers aren’t welcome on this blog btw i’m so tired of ppl comparing him to yuuta and gojo 😞😞) and also he’s just suchhhh a cutie pie :((((((( look at him…… baby boy…… he was born to be a shoujo manga love interest i’ll die on this hill !!!

also not to bring sugu into everything as always PHDIFJ but i’m also so so so terribly weak for the parallels between him and yuji :(((((( our suncoded boys!! i just think it’s heartbreaking how both their character arcs carry this message that the jujutsu world rewards selfishness and punishes kindness…. it’s so much easier to manage if you throw away your care for others but neither of them do, and it only ever makes them suffer.

sniffle. i want them to be happy :(((((

#my brother is a full on yuji stan though he worships him #so i figure it’s ok if i’m not as invested in him #BUT I LOVEEE HIM just the cutest design ever :((( #i used to not like mcs very much in general?? but nowadays i love them :33 #denji csm is probably my favorite mc ever #yuji isn’t quite at that level but i really am so fond of him #TY AGAIN ANON if u have literally any yuji thoughts feel free to send em my way <333 #ask tag ✩

[pyrriax]

gotta love concepting fics and debating whether i put it all as a single "chapter" / weirdly formatted oneshot or put it in four separate chapters. i have time to think about it but also this line is . fun

Lesson Zero: You are going to destroy the world, and you will do so with a smile on your face.

^ this is the piece that closes the fic. for context.

#haunted ecosystem #im very normal about this. its 3:30am and i am about to pass out ^_^ #also i swear i'll take a few months away from events and stuff to focus on my longfics. its just easier to put a bit of time into #things that i dont worry as much about. i love writing longfics but they are.... an investment with no payoff. if that makes sense #<- writes things people dont usually look for. which. i get why nobody interacts but cmon. one comment maybe??? one?? #i love kudos dont get me wrong but like .............. that isnt particularly motivating to me. i hate the numbers game #OK thats enough talking in tags i am just tired and seeking validation from online strangers for my efforts #at some point i'll write more stuff like how the original draft of the artificial stars prologue was and keep writign like that #the draft was shit but the final version im still proud of

[platypusisnotonfire]

I just learned the basics of disarming in longsword grappling today and

Yes this is the fulfillment of the human condition

#Hema #longsword #have I mentioned before I started a hema class? #longsword rapier and saber #I’m most invested in longsword but #saber and rapier are good electives lol #and good cardio #my Fitbit was like #hey you completed double your weekly goal of cardio! #during JUST longsword sparring #my heart rate was equivalent to someone in an actual medevial battle #it’s funny how the nervous system just goes #ah am being attacked with sword #FIGHT OR FLIGHT #who cares that the higher logic will a very aware these things are blunt #and has done a bunch of slow speed drills without any injury #you start sparring and your brain is like OK TIME TO KILL OR DIE

[upsidedowngrass]

look, i know cheesy mostly answered that liam would listen to metal 1) because he was put on the spot and 2) likely because its funny to imagine liam ‘literally just some Standard Guy’ plecak as listening to music far more intense than he is, but tbh?? it is so fitting. like yeah, thats abt right for him. i cant even figure out how to explain how/if it coincides w what we see of him but like. its just the truth

#hfjone #hes literally so silly #bryce drives him to see a band he likes post one #and bryce is like. i thought you were gonna listen to fucking beatles covers. what #amelia ? also wouldnt have heard much music like this pre one but i think shed be SO interested #liam and amelia just chill on the floor listening to the loudest music possible #and bryce doesnt seem like someone who would care for like. more intense and noisy music #so hes like. wtf #(charlotte would join amelia and liam obv. bryce is on his own) #all four of them end up seeing a band together and bryce feels like hes herding cats #bc liam and charlotte both try to join the mosh pit and bryce is. hell no #and he has to force amelia to wear ear plugs (she is simply very invested in the music) and shes so sad #she doesnt take them out bc yeah ok that makes sense. but shes sad that the music is no longer as loud #(amelia and liam have a headache for two days after bc liam never put any in and amelia was sdidnt have any for at LEAST an hr) #(bryce tells them yeah. thats your own fault) #(he still gets them some ibuprofen tho lol) #also if this seems rambly its bc i went to a metal concert recently and it was fun and i acquired new knowledge #(idk if its the type of metal liam listens to esp since i am a bit new to the genre. but i still know things i didnt know b4 #and now i can write these highly specific interactions better now)

[martyrbat]

👍👍

#im bout to be whiny before getting nauseated at being kimda vulnerable and end up deleting this but just #shoutout to my friend (who was the only person i ever shared my writing with for over a year) #just telling me they've always just skimmed my fics AND infodumps because they dont care. like has read at most a handful of me talking & #usually skips any rare audio message that i sent when SUPER excited and made up drama to have an excuse to change topics #again. for over a year. #then getting guilt trippy when i was hurt by it until i apologize instead which !! lmao fuck ok ! #its just... very hmpth :/ bc it eas already a shitty night and week of nonstop migraine. and then this #and taking into account im someone who NEVER blocks any of my friends tags or doesnt read and invest myself in their interests #even if i dont like it; i love seeing people (even strangers) excited and talking about what they like so of course im going to #at least watch them talk on it and/or actually research into it because i want to be able to understand their happiness! #and because its whats important to them !! i dont expect the same and im not shaming anyone for not doing the same its fine I guess #but to tell me? and to say they dont read my writing or give a single shit about me talking about something #when i always put 100% into their interests? am i that shitty of a writer and that obnoxious to listen to lmao #like i feel shitty for even being hurt over it and even venting because you guys arent here for that and its mean to force it on ur dash #and i dont want to be too whiny but also. jfc man #ill stay silly starting tomorrow and post about batmans balls or whatever. sorry for the vent just. bleh. #that ‘december please bro please im begging just a break please man’ post but its me throughout this February too apparently

[i-make-fun-of-spn-characters]

So you're into some ships now, may I ask wich ones? I'm very curious right now

If you wanna get in my lil noggin at its most unhinged you should go to my (mainly shitposts) sideblog @dontfeedthestansaftermidnight (I have been spite posting there lately though so beware it isn't exactly reflective of my usual vibes ig a little more bitter than usual for reasons). But like I ship things very casually I am not very invested. I am just not a romantic at heart so I do not get really emotional about ships (but I think it is sweet that people do). Like short answer DeanBenny, DeanLisa, DeanCassie, DeanCrowley, DeanDonna (edit: also Saileen and Samwena) and DeanCas but in a way that is like 60% for meme economy enrichment 30% out of spite for certain elements of the fandom who I think are stupid and lame and I want them to scream and cry so manifesting some good vibes for the destiel pairing and 10% actually being a little fond of deancas kind of like you are fond of like a little lap dog that your aunt has thats tongue is sticking out all of the time.

#deanbenny is <3 #my aunt had a little dog named jo lee okay I can't explain it but it makes sense to me personally (that isn't deancas hate it #just has a different vibe to me ok???) #mail #also i do have a deancas chart of my feelings if u want #shipping #i have always read fanfic fyi just the actual investment within the show always very meh #15.18 made me very fond of them but look I am just not a romantic at heart I am sorry #so then spite took me the rest of the way #manifesting 4 them ✨

[tacit-semantics]

Love playing knuckles with tails, amy, or cream in sonic advance three because he was made to be an older brother like a disney channel original older brother like hogging the xbox caution tape on the door drinking milk directly out of the carton platonic ideal older brother. get that echidna a younger sibling right now on god

#ok also had to restart because my data got erased but I don’t usually go for emeralds until I’ve finished the whole game so it’s just the #levels no real loss. anyways I’m dead serious about this #it’s be good for him on several levels. like the library card I mentioned once. I am very invested in him forming healthy habits hobbies and #relationships okay hes gotta be happy #he does #knuckles #sonic advance 3 #sth #tacit rambles: sonic

[thedaythatwas]

I think the most realistic Undertale theory is that the story takes place in Pennsylvania. Like I know we debate this, but seriously, look me in the eyes and tell me Mt. Ebott is anywhere else in the world. Vibes alone. You feel it too, I know you do.

#undertale #ok ok you know I have theories I am far more invested in than this #and this is half a joke #but I feel very deeply and with much certainty that that mountain has pennsylvania vibes #and if you don’t know what that means. just sit with it for a minute. the answer is already inside you.

[bumbleblurr]

I can enjoy sh0ckblur but like in the way that they're divorced from the start. I mean that they meet for the first time and they're already so done with each other

#its like. i have been tossing around shock & blur interactions in my head for a while #and i realize. i do like seeing them interact genuinely #i just am extremely invested in the toxic worsties version of the relationship #i am almost tempted to draw like. them fighting but in a loveless queer way yknow what i mean #though its gonna almost seem like im shitting on the ship like. yeah i dont like them romantically but im not here to be an asshole yknow #and there is like. 1 version of romantic sh0ckblur i like and its from my friends unfinished & completely unposted fic akdgflfhflfhf #i just. find them being fucked up extremely facisnating to me ok? #though i also dont want to seem like im romanticizing this shit either like very much can confirm what is happening here is Bad #but of course the shippers often still romanticize it anyway so that makes me hesitant to start any drawing projects that have this topic #they will literally tag my video of shock insulting blur with a your mom joke as ship like 💀💀💀💀 #girlie i am telling u that is not ship #idk much to think about. #lets see how normal i am after finals bc thats gonna deffo determine if i want to draw these guys going through hell and back #🐝 could you repeat the last part? 🟦

[haunted-house-heart]

yknow one thing about me is that i've never been told i'm difficult to buy gifts for

#like i have a lot of very easily findable interests #a Lot of media based interests you can buy merch for #a good handfull of hobbies you can get supplies for #and other things like cats moths mothman lemons anything pride related #and all my fuckin collections i'm a magpie buy me a jar of buttons from the dollar tree and i owe you a life debt #and like even just a gift card for hot topic or barnes and noble and youre set #the rest of my family is so hard to shop for like my mom isnt super invested in any one type of thing #and my sis bounces around between hobbies so fast like one day she collects crystals the next she wants nothing to do with them #(we all have wildly different forms of adhd) #but i am Such a material person i Love random shit and i'm so easily amused too like bring me a piece of metal you found on the ground and #im happy with that yknow? #anyway i'm rambling #kai i AM going to bed just had one last thought while the meds kick in #i was actually checking my alarm but got distracted #emery.exe #ok goodnight

[wyllzel]

just spent the last uhhhhhhh 4 hours plotting out a last minute novel for nanowrimo wish me luck LOL

#chelle.txt #no joke that last photoset of kun that i had a mild freakout under Awakened™ something in my little brain #anyway 😁🤨 maybe possibly will be blogging about this in the future #my friend wanted to do nanowrimo initially and invited me to join bc she didnt want to go to in-person events alone :') #but now i am invested in my project that i just invented LOL 😬 #i was very much let down by the 1000 crimes of ming tsu 😞 so this is my indirect response LMAO #nowhere near as philosophical but taking the 'wild west' setting + chinese american focus + supernatural elements #and doing my own story with it 🤔👍 #anyway my mc's name atm is john su and he bears a vague resemblance to kun so i am motivated to write him HAHAHA #the end 😬 #i do not profess to be an amazing writer or anything but im excited to write (and 🤞 finish??) something creative! #wait also fuck tarantino too LMAO #🖕🖕 woman can do spaghetti western too maybe #actually its more twilight zone. lol #ok ok i am done

[achernarlight]

I found a total of two (2) fanfic of plated prisioner

I feel like my world was tilted off it’s axes like feysand made me very used to hundreds of fanfics now finding a total of TWO is shocking

#like am I just not looking right for it?? #I honestly can’t believe it’s just two #idk ao3 is playing me or something #I haven’t finished the books yet #but I’ll die without fanfics #the last male character I was so invested on was rhys #and ok rip is very much him #but that’s not my point