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izukult · 3 years

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Okok awesome! 🖤🖤 I do have a wide variety in my music taste but artists most in my rotation are definitely Tyler the creator, Doja cat (streets?? Pls on rpt 🤤) and Arctic Monkeys, (pls don’t feel restrained by these artists tho !) very much chill vibes and driving late at night if that makes sense asjfkdkka. Personality wise I’m pretty awkward and fairly antisocial, very much ->🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️😨 but once you get to know me I’m pretty loud and a little much tbh 🤭 like my laugh is genuinely TOO loud lmaooo, and I would very much appreciate it with Kageyama if that’s not too much to ask 😳👉🏼👈🏼 thank you again 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

hello my love. if i hadn’t known you, i wouldn’t have done this any kind of justice. BUT STRAP YOUR ASS IN WIFEY YOU KNOW WHAT IT BE. @chubbybunny111

you and kageyama.

oh god you and kageyama would scare the fuck out of me as a couple. have you seen those memes like boy who doesn’t talk all too much 💖 girl who loud asf? you two. LMAOOO.

definitely you two make fun of each other. on the daily. but, he also grumbles little compliments to u all nervous like. i feel like he would very much like your hair?? like,, it’s so curly,, it’s so pretty,,,, do a fella a favor and let him play with it, yeah?

i’m just imaging you in your straight clothes from high school and him in a disgusting unwashed sweaty ass volleyball uniform😻😻 IM SORRY OK ANYWAY

you two share earbuds all the time. just sittin next to each other in moderate silence with tunes playing.

he is so bad at texting LMAOOO. you’d send an ironic emoji and he’s done for? he just stares at it. blankly. void of any emotion other than confusion.

“i’m sorry did you just send ‘🤕’ after telling me you love me?”

“hey, you’re crying. why are you using 😋 right now?”

i’m sorry for making fun of him but also i’m NOT THATS SO FUNNY.

now, don’t take what i said earlier wrong, he’s not just like oh yes quiet around you (that’s not his personality people need to be better🙄), but when you two are in public he’s not like really affectionate? unless he’s jealous because he is (infact) an insecure bitch, but whenever that happens it feels forced and awkward figure that out kags.

we see the way he acts with hinata like? if he’s comfortable with you he’s going to be loud as fuck there’s no denying it. yall get told to shut up like on the daily?

shares his milk with you😁 not his food tho

LMAOFJAOFJS IM SORRY BUT HAVE YOU SEEN THAT MANS RELATIONSHIP WITH EATING? you ain’t getting between that babe

anyway here’s a fucking playlist for your hot ass i am literally in love with you. i really like this playlist tbh :)

1. sometimes (backwood); gigi- starting off with my favorite song at the moment. this isn’t really completely a deep meaning with the lyrics thing, because this song is pretty sad? i think it’s so vibey. it’s so good. it’s just a gentle, quiet night with the windows open and a full moon. however, like i said he’s insecure and has overthought while listening to this song.

2. breezeblocks; alt-J- mostly just a banger, indeed. you’re driving (i would not trust him behind the wheel? ever?), the lights are super pretty, he’s looking at you from the passenger seat ‘discretely’. he doesn’t want you to go, so those lyrics are accurate, but he’s also not a murderer dw😁 he couldnt

3. i wanna be yours; arctic monkeys- PHEW. OKAY. OKAY JESUS CHRSIT. no because you don’t understand yall are in LOVE? like in LOVE. he probably kisses you for the first time while this shit playing. he also, by default, blushes EVERY TIME THIS SONG COMES ON. such a lil bitch baby🙄

4. sucker; jonas brothers- stop before you say anything this song is unironically so good. i? could imagine you like? terribly dancing to this i dunno. i feel like if you got tobio in the right mood he would jam to some music w you‼️

5. EARFQUAKE; tyler, the creator- i think kageyama was like the kind of guy who mentally was constantly like “i want a gIRLFRIEND FUCK🤬🤬🤬”, but lile also once it happens? svary as fuck. have we not talked about how he does not really like himself much (thinking ab him practicing his smile rn poor baby). so yea, bad self confidence & in love with you. this song. PLUS, it’s a banger.

6. streets; doja cat- you at him lmao. do i have to say anything else?

7. ivy; frank ocean- he would put this song on a playlist for you and then not tell you about the song or the playlist and still get nervous about how youd react lmaooo. however, yknow in movies when like the guy looks at the girl and the music swells? that but with an emo volleyball player and frank ocean

8. redbone; childish gambino- very chill vibes and driving late at night energy. this song plays while yall lay on like ur couch or smth and you’re messing with the ends of his hair and he’s playing videos on his phone with one hand and like kind of awkwardly nervously trying to hold ur hand with the other and he just does the pinky thing thAT WE WERE TALKIN BOUT LMAOO

9. cocoa butter kisses; chance the rapper- i feel like if you were to smoke, this is the song you’d get high to. i don’t have much reason other than that? i can just see this playing in the background as you two exist together

10. my kind of woman; mac demarco- man, you’re really driving him mad🙄 BUT‼️ I THINK? ITS ALRIGHT WITH HIM😳. he’s absolutely whipped and he didn’t even know he had the ABILITY. i feel like you like to prove people wrong, so here’s another instance.

11. casual; doja cat- i know everyone hates getting played, but you feel like you would take a LOTTA precautions to avoid that, including the whole walls up deal. you’re super upfront about it? you’re not like secretly testing the waters, you’re like ‘if ur fucking w me gtfo of my face lol’ but clearly you wouldn’t talk to kags like that (however he’d hurriedly say he’s not a little too loud)

12. afraid; the neighbourhood- ABSOLUTE TOBIO ENERGY (also oikawa energy, i think its so cute that we are married and the mfs we choose to love r rivals). but anywho, absolute MAD tobio energy. yes he also takes out his insecurities with anger don’t actually like he’s not gonna have to work on that lmao

13. sex on fire; kings of leon- arguably one of the best songs to ever exist. he would be like ?!😳 the first time he heard it and youd probably like flick him LMAOFJAODJ this is just a good jam song for you two. he would definitely sing this song with you, don’t care don’t care

14. scary love; the neighbourhood- i’m beginning to think the neighbourhood just has kageyama energy? remind me to look into that later. either way, i’m putting extreme emphasis on this song. this song is completely how he feels. this song is IT. he watches in anticipation as he “shows you it cos it’s a good song”. please just be nice to him (while also bullying him😁)

15. when you were young; the killers- you’ve made out to this song i’m so sorry. MAYBE THATS JUST BECAUSE I THINK THIS WOULD BE THE PERFECTTTTJRJEJTI SONG. god. good fucking music. equal mix of good song and the lyrics hitting

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nulltune · 2 years

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✿ / for any muse(s) of mine you're interested in :D if only you'd like!

PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2 — still accepting!

send me a ✿ and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FOR MANGLE!

FRIENDSHIP. childhood friends / work buddies or coworkers / family friends / friends with benefits / smoking buddies / adventure buddies / fake friends / recently friends / party buddies / friendship of need / dying friendship / circumstantial friendship / partners in crime / old friendship / [ your muse ] is the good influence / [ your muse ] is the bad influence / [ my muse ] is the good influence / [ my muse ] is the bad influence / opposites attract / ride or die / frenemies / roommates or flatmates / penpals / exes to friends / enemies to friends / other .

ROMANCE. childhood sweethearts / [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush / [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush / exes / exes to lovers / forbidden lovers / highschool sweethearts / secret relationship / opposites attract / long distance / unrequited [ from your muses side ] / unrequited [ from my muses side ] / unrequited [ from both sides ] / skinny love / friends to lovers / enemies to lovers / spurious relationship / power couple / newly entered / soulmates [ metaphorical ] / soulmates [ literal ] / awkward / turning toxic / toxic love / cheating [ on your muse ] / cheating [ with your muse ] / other .

FAMILIAL. siblings [ half ] / siblings [ step ] / [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure / [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse / [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours / [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse / guardian figure / legal guardian / adoptive child / foster child / [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing / [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing / other .

ANTAGONISTIC. dangerous to each other / dangerous to others / unpredictable / rivals / petty / developing into sexual or romantic tension / based off family matters / based of off circumstance / based of professional matters / based off misunderstanding or lies / conflict of ideology / betrayal / hero - villain dynamic / enemies / fight club / friends turned enemies / lovers turned enemies / exes turned enemies / other .

SO!!! i don't have it written up yet but given hakuno's very virtual state of existence (cough literal npc cough) i've always wanted an android au for her! + i just always find her interactions with muses that are also very much not human to be super interesting! HER AND MANGLE COULD BE PRETTY INTERESTING METHINKS..... (and i'm gonna use it/its pronouns for mangle here bc my monkey brain is pretty slow rn, but do lmk if u prefer the pronouns changing!) wanting to be loved and the extents of it... reading mangle's backstory, hakuno could certainly relate to that!! which made me think- what if mangle saw itself in hakuno? i feel like there could be sooo much to explore from that!

FOR KISA!

i do have a modern au for hakuno as well! and idk why but i just feel like a friendship between these two could be wholesome.... hakuno's that one friend who may look all stoic but cares a lot-- gives you a thumbs up like 😐👍 AND AS FOR THE WEIRD INSANITY THAT IS THE BEING BOTH THE YOUNGER AND OLDER SIBLING FIGURE-- GWKFHSHD see!! it's fun because i write hakuno as a young adult generally (early 20s at most) so given kisa's babyface... i just get this random idea of her self-assigning herself as an older sister figure. even though she's the younger one in this dynamic and can be prone to some younger sibling moments as well xD

#allnostalgic #&&. out of #q.#🥺🥺 THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS IN MIZZY !! 💞#i'd ALWAYS love 2 interact with u btw 😤❤ no need to even ask hehe!#these are just some ideas that instantly came to mind btw! lotsa possibilities yknow ✨✨#AND YOUR ROSTER IS RLLY FUN IM HONESTLY SO DOWN WITH WRITING WITH WHOEVER-

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mingi-bubu · 4 years

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Watch “Flower of Evil” with Me!

Episode 6

well damn its been a minute eh?

forgive me i’ve been also not good at other parts of life too aldkfjas;lkjdf

but anyways, the show is queued, i have my water, its freezing in my apartment

as the wonderful strawberry headed mark lee would say, lezgeddit

okay last i recall they were like getting joongi from the pool where he almost died

this blond man is wearing the *ugliest* shirt in the world where can i get it

OH FUCK THAT BODY FUCKING FLEWW

joongi baobei are you okay???

jesus dude the driver was so slow to see if the guy he hit is alive im

hes covered in blood and groaning but no im sure he feels just fucking fine

like a goddamn field of daisies im sure

no hospital

inchresitng

i mean we know why but sitll

OH MY GOD HES IN THE HOSPTIAL NOW PRESENT DAY STYLE

i hathe the way this is being filmed im just not a fan of the shaky cam stuff

i know he lives so im not pressed rn

oh is

is this bby joongi???

seems like

oh shit thats uhhhhh

thats blood huh

jesus fuck i hate seeing the dad

joongi pretty

i know i shouldnt be like focused on that rnbut

prettyyyyy

sir stop movingggg

you are just survived drowning

the fact that those STOP TAKING THE THINGS OFF OF YOU DUMMY

ew feet

FUCKING THAIAEPIHFIO;AJFOI;AHWER THIS IS WHY YOU DONT TRY TO DO THINGS IF YOU ARE JUST WOKE UP IN THE HOSPITAL OH MY G O D

ooh he got that vip room then huh

is this real or like a horrible dream

that looks like sangyeon

what is happening

oh thank god

he said skrrt

jiwonnie

is she gonna slap him???

is she gonna hug hm??

oh thank god joonwon lives on

hehe rhymes

the fact that i can’t hear “it’s okay” in korean without thinking about exo’s playboy says a lot about whom i am as a person no?

oh reporter-nim

he’s looking better

damn we get to hear a lot about his now huh

is that the father?

why read out this in front of eunha????

fuckign commrcials idc about acura

induced hypothermia?

oh interesing

memory issues oh yikes

shut the fUCK UP WITH THAT SMILE

oh my god hes joking stoppp shes so cuteee

im perhaps emotional over this

i love the relationship with eunha and joongi above all else

wow the dad sure does know how to lie in front of popel

oof this is awkward

i am lie spanish monkey meme rn

oh eunha....baobei.....

the way i am willing to die for the child

shes my favorite charcter

OH SHIT HE REALLY DID JUST CORRECT HIS MOTHER OMG

jiwon c’mon be obviousss

make his state a bit more unstable perhaps

ugh this guy is still alive

he is a vegetable???

bro he got hit in the brain like...idk how to tell you this chief but

eunha looks so much like cha-ssi

like i guess we know whose genes won out in this family no?

she aint even gonna give her a hug??? and shes in her lil pink overalls too

smh

oooooh tea

oooooooOOOOOOHHHH TEA

just make his condition more unstable ???

LITERALLY WHAT IS THE BACKSTORY ON THIS FAMILY I CANNOT UNDERSTAND FUCK

normally with the other dramas ive watched i’ve already read the wiki and stuff for spoilers but liek??? i cant now

NO DONT SAY THAT JOONGI’S MOM

oh detective cutie is back i lvoe it

FUCKIG COMMERCIALS

oh ok this is kinda cute i take it back i love the goldfish commercials that are like stop motion and shit

jiwon unnie are you okay?

this doctor is

like i understand but still

the way i want to give her a hug now fUCK

akdjfalsdjf why is he so adoralbe

i amm poropoisng to him

can they really arrest a man if he just stares and says nothing??

oh shit

i really did say make the body more unstable but fuck this is uhhhhh

joongi looks so nice for having been unconscious for five or more days

i love how cautious with his words that dect. cutie is being

aldkfjasldk he said we gotta get our storeisAJDFLAKDSJF DONT COMPLIENTMENT AKJFA;LSDJ

the bathroom doors are nice

what is reporter-nim doing

i love this cleaning lady she’s fun

ooooohhhhh she said too much O.O

i am eyes emoji

OH FUCK WHAT WAS THAT FLINCH

im so worrieeeeedddd about thier relatiohnship

please

asldfjasdlfj poor dect. cutie he really was thirdwheeling

DETETCTIVE CHIOI IM SICKKKK

HES SO JASD;LFKAJSD;LKFJASD DRAMATIC BITCH I LVOEEEEE HIMMMMM

alsdkfjasldkfj the way that OH MY GOD

this is so fucking funny i cant

boong

dect cutie is like what the fuck we really starting with the hard questions huh

FUCKING COMMERCIALS RIGHT WHEN JIWON WAS ONNA SCOLD HIM FUCK

oooh leading questions shes iconic

ooooooh shit

dect cutie please decide on OOOOHHHH shes skedooting out

jesus choi im

cutieeee

aldskfjasld;jf he fucking

wow dect choi

the way that joongi is like :)

oooooh

tensities

tension thats the word

exactly

oh shit backstoryyy

OH FU CK

T E A

I AM LIVING FOR THISSSSS

i mean like choi was right but still

all of this is still being recorded lmao

oh shitttt

i need to keep remembering hojoon’s name but anyways im in love with him

the drama of it all ugh i love

oooh the murdered man’s widow has tea to spilll

i think they meant disguise but im not positive

fuck i really want chinese food now

who let reporters in????

oh no

dont give jiwon ideas

fuck

shit

and goddamn

aish

this is horrifying to see like in a very haunting way

literally does he have the like legal ability to do this

i mean i guess its no longer an active crime scene its fine, no?

i hateeee commercials

i dont care for using an online dating site though the video chat feature is actualy a good idea i will say

i want a quesedilla

then why are you acting so sketch jiwon

lady

jiwon please

just spit it out

probably not is my guess

aish what

“what are you?”

i dont

i mean i tihnk all of y’all so go to thereapy but like

thats just me

girl

yo i have so many questions and so does she but like

what

yooooo

OH SHIT

OH FUCK

OH SHIT OH MY GOD

NO HE DIDN NOT

OH F U C K

OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK

OHM Y OGD WHAT THE FUCK

CHRIST

what season is it if their breaths are able to be seen

dude

a human rights issue

reporter-nim

oh shit this guy im sick

i loVE HER DAUGHTER

iconic

awehhh eunha looked adorable there omg

ooooh the condition of that man is going to be more unstable

oops :)

what??? is she doing???

forensics kit?

i dont?

okay that was so obiusly edited in FUCK

thats uhhhhhh

thats a lot

yinks thisnt good

OH NO SHE IS NOT GOING INTO THE BA

OH MUY GOD

NOOO

WAHT

ARE PEOPLE REALLY NOT GOING TO RECOGNIZE YOU JOONGI

THINK A LIL EH??

oh jiwon are you sure

did he ever clean up after reporter-nim?

i mean even if he did it wouldnt necessarily matter i suppose bc forensics

oh a mask

yeah thats a smart idea

awehhh im so nervousss

oh no

yikes

that guy is faking his comatic state huh

if his eyes snap open im fucking calling it

FUCKING CHRIST IM SICK OF THIS SHIT

I CANAT STAND THIS MAN

jseuss

god he looks hot a s a nurse tho

fuck

what is going on

a-fucking-pparently it is

dude seriously

but joongi

you still have loose ends you dont know about

oh noooo

i dont want to see anything on the floor please

FUCK

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

godmanti

commercials

in korean

i dont care about toyota thank you

why are you hesitating

he wants to understand jiwon

oh no

oh bro

youre really shit at your job

but joongi is gone

bc you wouldnt fucking listen to him before dick

did he???

not kill him????

im so confused

OH FUCK HE

he really didnt kill hm huh

oh fuck ing

oh no jiwon

oooohhh baby eunhaaaa

shes so cute oh my gooooddddd

oh god

this is fucking heartbreaking

god

his watchhhh

oh reporter-nim got the cleaning lady to do this

the talking about the second guy

jesus thats horrifying to see i hate that

FUCKIGN COERRMECIASL

WE WERE ABOUT TO FIND OUT WHY HER STORY CHANGED UGH I HATE IT HERE

what i that

please tell us

OH FUCK ITS THE CASSETTE FROM HER HOME

EUNHAAAAA

AIGOOOOOO THAT WAS SO CUTEEE

SHES SO CUTE IN HER LIL OUTFIT

what fucking cloud?

i dont understand

a duffel bag?

oh my god

OH MY GOD

WHAT IDFSLKJASLKDJFAWE IM SO TENSE

oh my god this is so tense

oh fuc i didnt remember that the widow was pregnant

thisis some weird copaganda ngl

but moving on

shes deffo talking to herself more than the widow

your eyes can trick you

but also why is joongi so handsome i cant stand it

anyway

thats all for this episode!

i have many thoughts and feelings about seeing joongi with a kiddo

oh shit

the peeks into the next episode hhhhhhhh

but its late and i told my roommate we’d get ramen for lunch so i gotta mcsleep now

thank you for reading!!!

stay safe and stay healthy <333

#flower of evil #kdrama #e6 #jae.txt #jae.wwm

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rileygoldsteins · 6 years

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i’ve literally copy and pasted my app and that’s the best i can do RN!!! pls skip to the second section if you just want to get her personality + feel with judaism ( though, there’s a lot of that in the bio too ) but !!! i’ve love to plot even though riley can def be a muse who your muse hasn’t talked to because she is pretty to herself and antisocial so if you’d like to go with that let me know!! IM JINX i also play rose!!!

❝ In my mind I am eloquent; I can climb intricate scaffolds of words to reach the highest cathedral ceilings and paint my thoughts. But when I open my mouth, everything collapses.❞ Riley Goldstein, Margaret Qualley, Almost Eighteen ( Virgo Queen! ), Seventh Year, Hufflepuff, Cis-Female, Halfblood, She/Her

PINTREST: [ x ]

BIOGRAPHY: ( parental abandonment, mentions of drugs and alcohol. )

When you meet Riley Goldstein, a picturesque childhood in a picturesque suburbia in Virginia is not what you would expect and yet it was exactly what she had. Born on the cusp of summer and fall, Rachel and Christopher were over the moon to have their daughter, Riley Hayes, born on August 28, 2000. Finally, a child to complete the perfect family unit. Maybethey had hoped for a boy despite what science said ( hence the name Riley & a full name for a boy they had prepared ) but, they had a daughter and for the first ten years of her life they pampered her greatly. Trips to the coast every summer to visit his side of the family where Riley was praised for being such a pretty, good girl, and what seemed like infinite love from her father was doled out as long as she was what hewanted her to be. The younger girl was cooperative, it was in her nature it seemed, because she loved seeing her parents happy with each other. As long as Riley stayed within the lines, stayed within Christopher’s lines at least, everything would be well. Even when Riley started to develop a few habits and interests that were off the wall, he brushed them aside as childhood obsessions. Never could he accept his family for what they were which is exactly why he left.

The ugly truth was, Riley was an accident and the picture painted had been a lie – not that Riley knew until then. While she knew they had gotten married young she’d never known how much exactly her mother had given up to be with her father. Rachel Hayes had left her family, forsaken her religion ( as Christopher was a very religious Christian man ), the semi famous Goldstein Wizarding name, and moved down south into this suburbia all with the promise of a family. The biggest thing? Magic. When Christopher left a year before Riley entered school, Riley was forced to grow up and pick up the pieces of a broken lost woman who simply couldn’t find herself in the rubble that was the aftermath of her father leaving. But finding out she was an accident was the least of her worries. No matter how much poetry she wrote trying to figure out her mind, oftentimes thinking she was losing it, something within her was different, something within her felt different.

It took a few months to coax the why from her mother, and truly she was her caretaker. It wasn’t until her 10th birthday when she got the letter from Ilvermony that she realized what exactly was off. When she confronted her mother – her mother just poured everything out to her. Who Riley was, who her family was, what she was doing with her life before she met Christopher. At first, Riley couldn’t believe it – – she’d grown up hiding comics under her bed, hiding anything about the supernatural away. Even if her whole life she had felt a weird pull to these people who didn’t belong in her comics, these freaks, she never in her wildest dreams thought she’d have something in common with them. It all made sense though, and finally the pieces of her life started to come together. Riley knew what she had to do, so at the age of 10, she went with her mother to Wizarding NYC to try to find out more. To try to find the family her mother left behind.

After that, everything fell into place – her family was beyond accepting, even if they gave her shit, more than she’d ever known from her dad’s family and her mom started to get better as she become more true to herself. The family reconciled, helping Riley and Rachel move into a flat in NYC, in Chinatown. Rachel got a job at the ministry as an assistant and with the help of some family members and Riley started to prepare for school Wizarding School. She’d never been more happy in her life. New York City was her home, more than her podunk shitty town ever had, and she felt a freedom that made her wander the city, she felt a freedom to finally be herself. The only issue then? Riley wanted to go to a school far away from everything, because even if New York was her home, she needed to a break from being in the states. A break from all these people who knew who her family was & really, a place that was her own to find her own in the world. Easily, she picked Hogwarts and was delighted when they accepted her no matter how far she was. Hufflepuff was the perfect house for her, even if she wasn’t the most conventional or stereotypical kind of one.

For years, she pushed away a lot of the pain she felt – she figured her pain was her own, it was selfish of her to dwell on it or even think about it when she had this new fantastic life. Only in her poetry would she divulge her feelings, only her poetry knew that she felt inexplicably lost in the world the more she saw it. Around her 14th birthday, she met two boys in school who were a bit older than her but the twins ended up being her half-brothers – as they found they shared a father. A scumbag father who’d also been horrible to them. It was then that Riley wanted to distance herself from her father even more, fiercely signing and writing her last name as Hayes-Goldstein or just Goldstein when she could get away with it.

The thing was, the reminder of her father, the reminder that he was out there ruining more people’s lives, that he was out there spawning more children really intensely messed with Riley’s head. Why wasn’t she good enough for him to stay? Why couldn’t they have been enough? It was stupid, but the thoughts started to consume her and the lost feeling just got bigger. Picking up vices like smoking, smoking pot, drinking beer like she was her own father after a long day of work, anything to escape the feeling that she didn’t really have a place in this world. Not one she could see. What was she even going to do with her life after school? What did she have to offer the world? A loneliness she could not shake slept with her at night like any blanket did, every day felt like she was smothered. Every day there was a new realization that she didn’t know what the hell she wanted to do with her life, and that she didn’t really have a place in the world. Having the family members she does in New York is comforting, but, there’s still a feeling of not quite belonging – no matter how much she loves them.

II. PERSONALITY.

CHARACTER PARALLELS: Daria ( Daria ), Seth Cohen ( The OC ), Veronica Sawyer ( Heathers ), Ron Swanson/Ben Wyatt ( Parks & Rec ), Quentin Coldwater ( The Magicians ),Pam Beasley ( The Office ), Zari Tomaz ( Legends of Tomorrow )

LIKES & INTERESTS: Cult Classics - Movies ( Heathers, Dead Poets Society, Sixteen Candles, Ferris Buellers Day Off, Cruel Intentions, The Breakfast Club, Almost Famous ), Blue raspberry Slushies, Donuts, Judaism, Arctic Monkeys, Lana Del Rey, The Strokes, The Smiths, the color blue, writing poetry, e. e. cummings, art museums, greek mythology, rmemes, exchanging memes with Sahar, Rolling joints on her favorite books, biblical mythology, astronomy, astrology ( she finds it very entertaining in a mocking way and would never admit there’s a small part of her that enjoys it ), Star Wars, black cats, black cats named Boggart, black nail polish, tattoos, carnivals, comic books, ferris wheels, puns, the sea, jellyfish, NPR every morning, going to the beach at twilight, 4 am drives, 5am runs, spliff.

POSITIVE TRAITS: Observant, Cooperative, Strategic, Witty, Intelligent, Resilient, Morally Responsible, Loyal.

NEGATIVE TRAITS: Reserved, Pessimistic, Sardonic, Secretive, Curious ( it will get her into trouble ), Awkward, Suspicious.

III. HISTORY / CONNECTION WITH JUDAISM.

Judaism was once a rarely talked about religion in the Hayes house, in fact, Riley knew barely anything about the religion at all. If she had realized it was taboo instead, it would’ve been something she would’ve dipped her mind into much earlier. The Hayes family were church goers, Sundays, Easter, Christmas, that was the religious practice they followed and had been since Rachel Hayes had forgone her roots in Judaism. Once she married & became Mrs. Christopher Hayes, she lost the part of her that made herher,that connected her to her family, all because of a pregnancy that was unplanned, and a marriage that needed to happen in result of it.

Once Christopher left, Riley dug up old numbers, old things, anything she could find that would bring her mother back to herself. Here, the woman gave so much of herself to her father and Riley felt she needed to get some of her back. Anything would do, anything at all. When Riley found an old Siddur, stuffed in the back of her mother’s side of the closet, she had a pretty good idea of a way to start.

It started with looking at temples in NYC when they finally moved. All the two did was walk around, taking in the city itself. Taking in the fact that there were even so many people in one place as opposed to small town Virginia where they lived. Taking in people coming back synagogue, the dress, and while it was painful at first for her mom, Rachel slowly started to explain to Riley different things, different details about Judaism. Soon, Riley and Rachel learned together and go at least once a month for Saturday evening services as well as for most High Holidays. From then on, the rest of the Goldstein family also invited them to family event after event, Passover, Rosh Hashanah, Hannukah gatherings.

Riley’s favorite Jewish holiday is Yom Kippur: the day of Atonement. While she knows she had absolutely no control over being born, she does feel she has a lot to atone for. A lot to cleanse from her soul. A lot of regrets, a lot of guilt for the things she’d done and the people she’s not been able to become. Like a failure, failing her family, failing their legacy. Her poetry may be fair game – it’s raw, it’s unforgiving and it’s brutal – to herself & to others. For being what she is, for being something else other than human and purposefully standing by while others cause havoc – she feels she needs to cleanse & atone for that. It’s the day that she for once feels clean, cleansed and not like the figure from Greek mythology: Atlas.

Is your character involved in any summer programs? Do you wish for your character to be a Prefect, Head Student, or a member of the Quidditch team?:

Truthfully, Riley has no clue what she wants to do with her life but she knew that she’d have to do something over the summer for her mother to allow her to stay there for the majority of it. So, after not getting into three of the departments under the Shacklebolt Internship Program, Riley submitted her writing and a desperate application to Obscurus Books Publishing and got a small internship there. She also works in an extension of her cousin Sahar’s great grandfather’s bakery in Diagon Alley.

#holocene intro #FINALLY four dAYS LATER AT LEAST Lefijwef #tbh over a week later wow! slow taurus icon!

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