#i can feel ur love being transmitted

[randombubblegum]

the best way to overcome motion sickness is to drive a sandwich as it spins

#i know this is about that sandwich gif that gave us all motion sickness from 2 days ago but i truly cant understand a single word of this❤️ #okay last one and now im rly going to bed probablg for sure. def #ALSO AS IT IS ANON I LOVEEEE UR ESSAYS I WILL GET TO THEM IN THE MORNING!!!!!! u are so knowledgable thank u #i can feel ur love being transmitted #mail time!

[ahoyimlosingmymind]

Lava Cake is 'The Blue' by Gracie Abrams

You live in Hollywood You're half an hour from me Your reputation's good <- Hollywood = Vacker fame I hope we've got a lot in common I kinda think you should Just drop it all and call me <- The oh crap, we DO have a lot in common and now all I want to do is talk to you You'd tell me on the phone You really want to meet my family <- Fitz genuinely wanting to know Marella and her life and to be apart of it. Even if she's scared and embarrassed of her mom and feels so guilty for it.

You'd talk about your dad He used to get so angry He'd scare you and your brother 'Til you felt you needed saving <- This only works if you like sucky Alden HC's. Which I do. I think this could reflect Alvar and Fitz's relationship with each other and their dad. I know I'd let you in On all my bad decisions You'd make them feel less terrible The second that you'd listen <- having someone who really listens to you. Feeling young and carefree again. Encouraging each other to be a bit reckless, to not hold onto the fear of being judged.

You came out of the blue like that You came out of the blue like that I never could've seen you coming I think you're everything I've wanted <- You've been around my whole life. But it's like we're meeting for the first time. This wasn't supposed to happen, but it feels good and safe. You aren't who I expected you to be, and I was shallow with my preconceived notions about you, and I'm sorry. But this feels good. It feels safe. This isn't a silly school-girl crush anymore.

I wonder if you know If you can tell I'm losing I'm going down without a fight <- They're not even pretending there isn't something going on between them. They aren't denying the feelings as they come. It's all softness, flirting, giggles, and pinkie promises. I don't know how you do it You say we share a brain Apologizing for it But I take it as a compliment <- Their shared bluntness and fear of other people's opinions of them. The way they try to hide the more broken parts of them under masks. The way they can grow resentful when they feel ignored or unchosen. These traits that aren't always the best, suddenly becoming a compliment bc they're reflected in the person you love. You make me really nervous <- They're in love ur honor

Send me every song That keeps you up from sleeping I bet I could recite 'em all <- UM this fits perfectly with @myfairkatiecat 's HC about Fitz transmitting Marella 2am poetry and stuff.

I won't forget the feeling Of staying up with you Despite the space between us I've never felt this close to someone What if you're my weakness? <- They come from different worlds, and yet, it's them against the world. It's them in the quiet, in between moments, teetering between vulnerability and masks. Sharing glances across the room, with eyes that say 'You are known to me'

#kotlc #lava cake #marella redek #Fitz vacker #lyric analysis #Spotify

[miru667]

hiii!! miruu it's me (AGHDG again) i wanted to tell you that....in ur drawing celebrating a decade for the Onceler fandom you left a link to another publication and I BARELY NOTICED IT T-T... but well the topic is uhmmm

i wanted to say how much i adore that you shared that with us aaaandd HOW I LOVE THE DEDICATION YOU PUT TO YOUR DRAWINGS!!! LIKE every line you made- for example the lines you did on the old onceler's suit, GOD and his chain WHAT (i always go to that drawing because you don't know the feelings it transmits to me) i loved what you say about Onceler Aftermath, about what it represents regarding the fandom and how you added so many references that i know are very significant and nostalgic for the fandom and the people who formed it at the time

apart from that i love that you mentioned everything you referenced in the drawing!!thaaanks for that, i must say that i did not know many of them and i even ended up reading one of the ask blogs that you cited hehe

and the fact that it took you 6 MONTHS AAAAA this drawing deserves to be framed in gold

i REALLYYY love reading the history of this fandom and what it means to you...and i know that even though i wasn't there, i can feel the love you have for all of this

im glad that a person like you is still in this, and willing to explain and convey to new travelers (like me) what all this is :")))

and before i go i would like to ask you a question since i read all this ^^

at the beginning of the fandom... did you ever imagine what would come to be formed and then continue to have an impact on people???

THAT'S ALL AAAA A HUGEEE APOLOGYY for the length of the menssage but there were so many things to say TuT that i didn't even say some , reading the entire post made me smile and inspired

SHAKOOOOOOO 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭 Thank you for reading that behind-the-scenes post omg that means a lot to me TTWTT... it's okay if you didn't notice it before, it's because I only recently attached the link onto the main post AGJSGUD BUT STILL like??? The fact that you've been coming back to that zine piece is so 🥺🧡 it makes me happy that someone likes it that much!! Sgjhjd yes I went pretty insane for this picture since it was the COVER so I felt a lot of pressure! 😭 It was a zine to celebrate 10 years of the fandom so I wanted to draw something to represent those 10 years, and so I decided to play to my strengths and take advantage of my knowledge of fandom history :,)...thank goodness they gave us plenty of time to finish our pieces dchgjd

And for your question: NO I absolutely had no idea what the future held back then, nor did i think about it! In 2012 I simply lived for the moment, moment to moment in a state of obsession. I don't think anyone can predict how things will be looked back on in 11 years while you're just enjoying the moment in present time. The way people engage with fandom stuff has shifted greatly in the past decade, attitudes about "cringe" keep changing too, things that are hilarious to us right now could be seen as problematic in another 10 years and vice versa in ways that you're unable to conceive of at present. People have gotten art careers thanks to improving their art through the onceler fandom, others have gotten married to someone they met through the fandom, and others have been traumatized and feel weird when they see old fandom posts being reblogged...there was no way I could've predicted any of that at the beginning. It was my first fandom, tumblr was still relatively new, and the internet was a very very different place! And I was also a very different person.

#miruask #shakooo #DONT APOLOGIZE your nice asks always make me smile!! ;v;

[tokusaatsus]

hi!! congrats on 300 followers <3 i’ve just recently discovered your blog through your event, your writing is so charming and sweet!! i was wondering if i could participate as well and request ritsu with f, g, and k? thank you so much and congrats again :-)

SAKUMA RITSU + F, G, K

warnings: mentions of suggestive stuff

f = flirt (how do they flirt? are they smooth or awkward?)

Ritsu’s style of flirting is so smooth, that it manages to catch you off-guard every time. The things that come out of his mouth are so incredibly flustering, sometimes they render you unable to speak. All he has to do is call out to you to reduce you to a puddle on the floor. He’s a master of his trade, calling you names that make you melt, taking any excuse to put his hands on you, not-so-platonically pressing his lips to your cheek… His touches, his words, his smiles, all of it? Means something. He’s not called Knights’ strategist for nothing. Ritsu doesn’t do anything without it having a part in his overarching plan–that being, to win your affection and your heart.

g = gentle (how gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

All things considered, Ritsu switches between both sides of the spectrum at will–usually without prior warning. One day he might rest his head in your lap and snuggle into you as you pet his hair, and the next he’s shoving you against the wall and kissing the air from your lungs. All Ritsu wants is to love you and be loved by you, so he can’t help it if he gets a little…overenthusiastic sometimes. Still, at the end of the day, Ritsu’s about the softest thing you could ask for. His sleepy smile, his droopy eyes, his fluffy hair…all this gives him the appearance of an oversized cat and honestly? That descriptor isn’t too far off the mark. Because the way he looks at you is nothing short of gentle.

k = kisses (what are their kisses like? where do they like to kiss you? where do they like to be kissed?)

Ritsu’s kisses are like a dance. Filled to the brim with teasing steps, his lips sliding against yours in a smooth rhythm as he giggles into your mouth. He loves to kiss you any place he can reach, brushes of lips over skin that feel like the flutter of a butterfly’s wings… Ritsu can be a little jealous, sometimes leaving little bruises and love bites. Well, it’s not like it’s entirely his fault… He just loves you so much that he needs everyone to know that you’re taken. When it comes to the other way around, Ritsu does not care at all, as long as he gets to bask in your affection. The love you have for him, transmitted in the form of kisses, is something he craves.

notes!

WC: 422 words

reze txt hiiii~ ty ty !! fhsdkfkj ur gonna make me blush :3 tysm for the compliment aswell <3 but here is ur ritchan !! ty again <3 and enjoy

#⭐️...reze's 300 follower event! #✒️...scribbles! #sakuma ritsu x reader #enstars x reader #sakuma ritsu #knights #enstars

[dykevanny]

haz i know absolutely nothign about zeno rpg but ur zeno au has intrigued me and im curious about it,,, i saw smth abt like. meomory loss and being handcuffed together and ik they eat ppl but thats it 😭 explain the au if u want ig bc im interested and i think thye look so silly. also bc u put vanny n will in my brain and they wont leave im shooing them with a boom and they are not moving

OK LET ME GET THE INFODUMP<3

So ummm Zeno au<3 I’m really normal. Allow me to give a brief explanation of what Zeno is first You see, Zeno is a fictional disease sort of thing that makes people cannibals. Specifically an oneset is caused by traumatic events/extreme cases of unrequited love(specifically mostly familial) and the only cure is eating the flesh of someone else with Zeno.(not widely known.) It’s also transmittable through biting like zombies. there’s one specific facility with scientists dedicated to getting to the bottom of how to cure zeno, also housing ‘patients’ (or, people with zeno being used as lab rats). Now onto character lore.

So william and henry were good friends right. Yeah. Considering that they even have a small diner together. Well one day will got zeno (oh no!) and started slowly picking off kids going to the diner. He even accidentally attacked Charlie, who escaped in one piece luckily. Charlie went to the afton household to see if he was doing okay (because will’s like an uncle to her and all! And also what if everyone else got hurt?) only to find will ate them all oops. And yeah same happened to her, but since he transmitted zeno to Charlie he was cured! How convenient! The people in charge of the labs ended up roping him and henry into being scientists for them through shady shady means and well the two aren’t on good terms and avoid each other like the plague. Henry’s still sore over the ‘you ate my fucking daughter’ thing. Luckily he has his assistant/the archivist (tape girl) to keep him company. So Vanessa right! Crazzy I know. Nessa as we know comes from a broken family. In this specific au I’m mixing her backstory with the character who’s place she’s taking (hi kuro) so basically her parents. Neglect her. In favor of her younger sibling because she was born from her mom’s affair and blablabla… she grows up basically taking care of herself. Eventually she develops zeno and starts you know. Killing and eating random girls as you do. When one night she comes home and is confronted by her parents about this!! And well you can guess. What happens to them lol. She gets captured and taken to the zeno facility where she’s specifically studied/talked to by William! They’re funny bc nessa hasn’t had anyone willingly spend so much time around her and be so nice to her. Will … well she’s a specimen to him lol. Since being cured himself zeno has been a subject of interest to him, he’s thrown himself completely into his work (under the guise of feeling soooo guilty for his actions which henry can see right through) and well. He’s realized the consumption of human flesh has something to do with it, since eating Charlie cured him. So he’s been …. Robbing the morgue/killing people when needed to feed vanessa every time they meet. Which, she’s more docile when she’s not hungry so it kind of works but she’s not like cured you know. It has the side affect of her being hungry when it’s time for someone to chat with her though which was funny the one time henry had to go in will’s stead cause he offered her a granola bar and she was like 😐 ew.?? Anyways will has gotten her total trust because he also plays board games with her yay!! He’s the only one not enforcing the whole straightjacket-dog muzzle combo also so she’s like woah !! He sees me as another human unlike these other guys :DD (needless to say zeno patients are not treated very humanely.lol) there was also one time tape girl had to be a substitute for william but nothing of note happened they just kinda chilled and ness threatened her in a backhanded and mildly gay sort of way.as you do.

Anyway yeah so basically Henry’s been experimenting with treatment through amnesia and totally surely unrelated note at the actual start of the story, Will and Nessa wake up in a strange room with no clue who they are or how they got here, and have to navigate the now bloody and corpse-strewn facility while handcuffed together with nothing to guide them except each other and the only clue to their pasts is tampered resumes which effectively switch their backstories!! Nessa is under the impression that she’s the scientist (the whole cannibalism part was left out) and she thinks William is the serial murderer/cannibal. Which was funny cause she read her own resume like wow… I’m kind of a big deal huh :) and then read Will’s like ERM.OKAY… Will didn’t read either of the resumes. Also tape girl gave everyone code names and said code names were swapped on the resumes also! So ‘bonnie’(nessa) and ‘vanny’(will) are just kind of cluelessly walking around like damn this place is really… corpsey:) until henry starts showing up and trying to kill them (he contracted zeno big surprise) and also tape girl (assumed dead) shows up sometimes just to see how things are going. Lots of shenanigans and also murder ensue.

The game also has multiple endings so. sometimes nessa ends up killing william lol. Intestine jumprope…. … ……… Also side note.will found out it’s specifically zeno infected humans that need to be fed to patients to cure them but kinda. Didn’t cure nessa on purpose<3 because she’s sort of entirely dependent on him in this way and she’s kind of his only friend.the same way he’s her only friend……wacky wild!

Tape girl is having a fucking.day. Because henry mentioned he was going to do something but likeee. She didn’t expect to be caught in the crossfires of a HUGE MASS MURDER CANNIBAL EVENT.AS LIKE ONE OF THE 4 PEOPLE STILL ALIVE IN HERE,.. once he chilled out henry explained himself and she agreed to help out (she also decided to distribute some of her recorded notes.just for fun…after the two get separated for the first time ‘vanny’ listens to them and is like woah… i was a patient here⁉️ And bon was my unethical doctor⁉️⁉️ which is funny) but like. She is the only one NOT infected in here and would like to keep it that way so she’s having quite the time. Seeing vanessa walking around unrestrained keeps jumpscaring her LOL. Once ness’s zeno symptoms start returning well ofc will as the only one she’d encountered here who she cares about is the first target but tape girl nearly gets chomped too lol.

Zeno has an interesting affect on the subjects mood which is funny. Basically when an oneset happens and the person with zeno is running around eating people they’re in a crazed manic state which. Is really fun.will and nessa are wandering around handcufffed and he’s like uhh bonnie you okay cause her facial expressions.well they went from the example on the left to the one on the right.

It’s funny bc. The memory erasure actually technically did work… her symptoms only started returning bc she got bit LOL

Pre-the amnesia incident the other three’s interactions with vanessa were pretty.limited. Considering she’s theeee most dangerous patient. Will talks to her for like an hour daily but Henry only really knows her as ‘william’s mutt’ (he was especially not a fan when he found out will had been FEEDING HER HUMAN FLESH.) and tape girl is afraid of her but also. Kind of endeared from their two in person interactions. The second one in which vanessa tried to convince her to let her cannibalize her but hey she was very polite about it..!! Henry and tape girl are both shocked and stunned that she’s actually pretty chill when she’s not insane and eating people.

TL;DR

^these fuckheads are almost all cannibals and beating each other up forever

#zeno au #yippie!!!!!!

[softpine]

is this the closest we’ve gotten to seeing brandi’s ideas for a post-apocalyptic story/au? my ass will happily wait for this treat and take these crumbs yes, please, and thank you 🍞🐜 (only if ur comfortable with sharing more!!)

aww no i'm sorry it's not the apocalypse au 😭 however that's always in the back of my mind and i have a document i keep adding ideas to whenever i think of things. i still plan on doing a mini story for that someday!! the thing i'm working on right now is just a silly one-off. but since you were so excited and nice i'll give you some spoilers hehe

edit: the fact i said "some" spoilers and then proceeded to basically share my whole outline for the first two chapters is such a brandi move. sorry i'm like this

i'm going the last of us route by not having typical back-from-the-dead zombies and instead they're infected humans, but in this case it's going to be something similar to mad cow disease in that it originates in livestock and can be transmitted to humans (i'm using allllllll of these words colloquially for brevity, just know this is a massive oversimplification), where it stays dormant until it's far too late to be treated because the brain has already been compromised. the first symptoms are confusion, then problems with emotional regulation, dementia, and finally violence & insatiable hunger. however, these people don't possess inhuman strength or speed, though it may seem that way because they're working with unlimited adrenaline, so they're not slowed down by pain or fear. but you have a fighting chance! and any way that you can kill a normal human, you can also kill an infected person. it just might take longer. essentially i want it to be grounded in reality, mimicking the way a real disease spreads and mutates rather than going fully into video game-y horror (i love that stuff too, but it's not the story i feel like telling in a post-covid world lol. i'm much more interested in seeing how humans can survive and rebuild in the face of unimaginable chaos and tragedy!). the other important thing to note is that the disease doesn't have a 100% transmission rate. it's the same as if you had the flu and coughed in 100 people's faces, only a fraction of them would actually get sick. so if you get bitten by someone with the disease, it's not 100% certain you will be infected. so there is no singular special immune person, it's just a matter of chance & your immune system.

in the early days, this mysterious illness is only happening in remote areas with low human populations. meat that's been properly cooked & pasteurized dairy can't transmit the disease, so people in cities are generally safe, but improper handling of food, poor working conditions, factory farm employees, traveling, etc. all contribute to the spread of disease. though the illness can't be treated, it's easy to contain in the beginning. patients are restrained/sedated when they become violent and eventually they die (once the brain is completely taken by infection, the body dies too). however as the number of infected people grows, it becomes harder to hold everyone in basic hospitals. sanatoriums start popping up to study the disease and keep it quarantined. this is around the time where the story actually starts.

mikaela was a pediatric nurse at the hospital, but she was moved to one of these sanatoriums a few months ago. however, she's 20 weeks pregnant (with sadie) and she's nervous about continuing to work in a high risk environment. she asks to be moved back, but the hospital denies her request. that's how she knows shit is really hitting the fan. she warns everyone she cares about that something big is happening, but that's not how the disease is being reported on by the media, so no one really takes her seriously. and then the big outbreak happens.

there's a whole backstory to that but i'll skip it for now fjskjds the relevant part is that mikaela escapes unharmed and returns home to gather her family up. danny, casper (home from college for thanksgiving break), and asa (spent the weekend with his dad) are already there. mikaela is scared to stay there because it's a farm; they have cows, chickens, pigs, etc. and they still don't know exactly how the disease is transmitted. so she loads everyone into casper's truck (there's less space, but it's better for off-roading). on the way out, asa opens all the gates so the animals can have a chance at living even though he knows it's probably not a good idea. they desperately try to get a hold of caroline and beth, but the phone lines are dead, so they leave a note saying they've gone to their shared vacation cabin up north.

ummm and this is extremely long already but we haven't even gotten to the interesting part yet so.... they make it half way to the cabin before night falls. they don't want to run out of gas at night (and it's late fall, so pretty cold). so they stop in an area that's completely free of people. asa says he knows how to make a fire so they won't waste gas running the car for heat. casper goes with him for protection (he's buff college casper, not scrawny teenage casper fjksjd) to find wood. danny doesn't think they have anything to worry about because asa spends his days in the wilderness already, and he assumes mikaela is just being overly cautious because she's pregnant. so he lets them go.

okay so casper and asa stumble upon a small, seemingly unoccupied hunting cabin. they think this will be perfect to stay in for the night. but when they open the door, they see a horrifying sight: a man sitting in complete darkness, chewing on a freshly dead deer. the man lunges at them, managing to grab asa and bite his thumb clean off along with a chunk of his palm, before casper tackles him to the ground. he manages to immobilize him, but he's badly bitten on the neck in the process. it takes all his strength to just hold the man down, let alone fight back, so asa knows he has to do something. he finds a rifle in a bag that the man must've been carrying earlier, before the sickness set in, and he tries to shoot him in the head with it, but since he's never even held a gun before, he misses and it grazes casper's arm. he has to shoot two more times before he hits his target and the man stops moving. buuuut the sound of all the gunshots has attracted many others; they can hear them approaching in the distance. casper is in no state to move, already starting to bleed out from the wound on his neck (the accidental gunshot certainly didn't help), so asa does the only thing he can do; he leaves the gun with casper and starts yelling to attract the hoard's attention while he runs away from the cabin. he hopes danny and mikaela have heard the gunshots too and will find casper. he leads the infected further into the woods. on instinct, he tries to climb a tree to escape, but his right hand is effectively useless and he's in way too much pain to attempt it. he thinks he'll most likely die here, until he hears a distinctly human, non-infected voice shouting at him to follow his voice .... and that's where i'll leave it :D

#anonymous #asks #nonsims #brandi answers

[sqrrlflwr]

omg i just saw you replied my question i kinda got really nervous and excited idk i just really admire you and knowing i had (and still have i hope) the opportunity to ask you something and you reading it and ask yourself that and then answering my question with your words coming out from the same mind which has made songs that have made me feel like so connected to my being and so purely connected to yours in some way too. maybe not in a conventional way but i feel like there’s some kind of deeper communication that can only be transmitted with our beings, like music is

anyway, i’m so grateful that you answered that, i think you have a beautiful way to express yourself through words and through music.

it just blows my mind up the fact that asking you if you smoke makes you smoke again, i just get really impressed by the impact of words in people and mostly that i could impact in something in my favorite artists life haha i’m fangirlin imsorry

please PLEASE consider coming to mexico someday, i’ll always live hoping to see you play irl, i love you and i’ll keep your music and what you said(directly to me omg) very close to my heart, thank you ella <3

also i might be asking more things after this, not gonna spam promise😌

i would love to play in mexico so much

<3 thank u for ur words

[campgender]

Yes! Just! Like oh good lord, jesus, yes! Ik u havent even had time 2 respond 2 the rest of my ask (understandable, I am Also nothin if not long winded), & here Im already adding more 2 the pile, but! Ok I didnt wanna like, b 2 presumptuous abt exactly Y it felt like we’re parallel (waves! Hi!) but I also totally was thinkin abt stuff like ‘Im subby af & I think its 4 sure A Factor cuz idk abt Mac but I get the feeling ze is decidedly Less So’ & then u said high femmedom & it was like yes! 1/4

Hello! (Sidenote, ace/stone/sub/bottom combo means I took a Comically long time 2 figure out that those 1st 2 traits werent just extensions of the 2nd 2 lol) Stone resonance, I love that, omigosh. & I think thats exactly where the parallel gets so interesting, w/ the allergy friendly cake (ur talking 2 a fellow ‘I cant eat anything’ celiac here), cuz that ‘Asking 2 much’,

4 me its like, I feel like Im still v much reeling & relishing in the freedom/fear mix of like, submissive acts ofservice r still Acts Of Service & u can b uncomfy w/ them, or even just U Can B Uncomfy W/ Shit, Period, like w/o the need 2 ‘Make up 4 it’, so the idea of sum1 getting off on those boundaries is like, not Bad, but it feels like it kinda undercuts these still v new & healing ideas 4 me, ykno? Like I need it 2 b ok even when no 1 is conveniently in2 it.

& ofc this is me talking on a personal level, like I absolutely Get wanting ppl 2 b in2 it & I love that 4 u, omg. <3 Also that last paragraph, holy shit, I want that, like, on a shirt or embroidered on smth, omg. If this is a disease I sure hope its sexually transmitted, I mean goddamn! Hopefully Im not monopolizing ur inbox lol, but u continue 2 b a poet & a delight. <3 -Baby

omg thank youuu this was, as always, lovely to receive & truly so so validating. that’s the first time anyone has said i have dom vibes & it genuinely makes me tear up 🥺💓💓 also omg stone celiac solidarity!!! <33 that’s so exciting & truly makes me feel like someone out there Gets It

i absolutely feel & affirm smashing the perceived need to “make up for” something to smithereens, that makes a ton of sense & definitely resonates with feelings / needs from a given sexual interaction that i kinda fluctuate in & out of these days. i’m proud of you for doing your best to honor yourself & your boundaries & wish you so much love on this journey!!

& tyyy omg, you’re a delight & i appreciate hearing your thoughts & experiences so much!! also thrilled you appreciated my high femmedom verbiage lol, a fun mac fact is my favorite porn genre in my early 20s was vids that involved a woman getting a guy off without touching him, particularly cbt & getting off on her shoe. & now i’m looking back at that like babe u were sooo oblivious oh my god

like so much of my sexual journey rn is looking at my past self & zyr desires & being like “guess what, you can just do that.” it’s a process that’s baffling + frustrating + deeply pleasurable, & i’m interested to see what other connections remain for me to make. i’ve been keeping a journal of sorts to try to trace these themes with the hope of doing more of what i enjoy in my life

a different thought i’ve been turning over lately & wanted to share with you is how my particular experience of stone + domming + disability troubles the concept of what it means to top someone. like, guys have told me how to fuck myself & i’ve told people how to fuck themselves, & the former were tops or vers who considered that an act of topping me whereas i’m high femme, & the only difference is they wanted it to be their cock rather than my toy whereas i wouldn’t want anything different if i was with someone in person.

so it’s like, is the fantasy what constructs this act differently? the omnipresence of my boundaries? i don’t think there’s a single answer, it’s just fascinating. obv some people don’t consider virtual sex acts to be fucking at all, which i love how my disability + stone + denial challenges bc again, i can fuck someone without touching them in person, too lol

as always thank you for so much food for thought + sense of community!! hope ur doing well, all the best to you 💓💓

#mac.txt #asks #but what gets it for me is high femme #places to be had by #cripsex

[hentaifrecklz]

Eventhough how cliche this even sounds, no one will EVER understand the things i went through to become the person i am today, the confidence, the way of thinking, the way of looking at life, the purity i have to offer, the way i can make someone feel loved and understood, the way i learned exactly how the human mind works. Its been a horrible ride and its not over yet. Im filled with this emptyness and anger, the constant feeling of a mask being pulled off, the constant battles going on in my mind, the struggle to keep my old self surpressed. I was this negative, depressed, mean, unloveable person for so many years. I have caused so much pain to others, i had to become a different person, a whole new way of thinking and living. Now i cant stop always wanting to help and take care and love people and enjoy life and be the person that makes people smile, id do anything to help people that feel like theyre lost or not loved enough or going through hell, i was once there and i didnt have a person like me to help me back then. And if i love I LOVEEEE, i do so many little things she wont ever even realize i do for her, but its my love for her, i gotta make sure she is always 100% comfortable, loved enough, kissed enough, complimented enough, fucked enough, pleased enough, i devote myself to you once i love you, im your king and your caretaker, i know what u feel before u even realise what u feel yet, i finish ur sentences so u know ur understood and feel connected to me, i always wanna make sure i take ur stress away, transmit my energy and love to you when i touch ur body and hold u tight, every single touch and moment of contact is filled with love. When i hold u or hug you or when we lay together i make sure to let out a feeling of protecting you, making u feel safe, making u feel like ur inner child, making sure my arms feel like the safest place on earth for you. I just wish someone would have this kinda devotion for me. These people always say “but i do tho, i love you so much” and then im like but u dont tho, you think you do. I can feel it when someone has that devotion. There is only one person on this planet who has that for me but we dont speak, have any contact, or nothing from eachother we just both know we exist.

[bibiana112]

u said i could jump in ur inbox with all my semi coherent thoughts so heres what i have at the moment bc my mind has literally been racing for the past.. idek anymore ive been just staring at the menu screen for a while and time feels fake

was Seven actually lying about what he saw way back when or is that no more than an implication,, bc him Not lying would make for an interesting explanation for June' random fevers and allow for one hell of a good angsty scene to be real, would explain why no one else contradicts him (Snake/Light doesnt say anything about Akane not actually dying when the story is told, Aoi says she died, Clover says a girl died, and i swear there was a seperate instance where they say only 8 kids are saved) plus Akane's body disappears somehow during the safe ending, which would make sense since in that end he wouldve failed to save her past self. but that in and of itself could just be another timeline hopping kinda thing

But. Seven and the others couldve just been lying to get Junpei to do what he did and end up saving her, if that makes sense, making sure the timeline Doesnt change (keeping Akane alive). but theyd all have to be in on it for that to work and i have no idea how likely that is - especially for Clover bc i cant see her lying abt that sort of thing so easily, given how Light purposefully kept info from her to keep her from spreading it. n that brings me to smth else,

Akane in the past could obviously transmit to Junpei in the future, which is trippy as hell but cool. and theres the implication that she could do it to Aoi in the future as well (plus he knew abt the whole thing anyway), so was she able to transmit to everyone else or just those two?? Aoi is her sibling and Junpei was close to her and gave her a literal voodoo doll, so those make sense, but idk abt the others. and like. what the hell was going on w future Akane during all this. she doesnt say anything nor react in an identifiable way when Aoi says she dead, or does Junpei just not notice?? or is that from past Akane's influence?? are the two sibs just really fucking good actors?? and how did Akane pull off most of the Zero stuff anyway when shes physically there already. was it a transmitting/possession kinda thing??

im gonna stop here before this gets way too long but i have So Many Questions (and also wish we could see the kurashiki sibs in the ending. why didnt they show them i miss them)

LOVE THIS

OK OK Okay, the thing with Seven is that it's left kind of ambiguous even when looking up stuff like the creator Q and A and shit. The dude kind of had it between him being in on it to an extent and Akane messing with which version of his memories he's got access to through the field because she's just built different and can do that apparently, either way I'm pretty sure the amnesia itself was totally real and the fevers definetly were as well. Tbh Seven is the character here they gave less thought to in general unfortunately? Years and years later and we never even got a name for the poor guy (Lotus's first name is Hazuki tho!) It is also implied that Light might have been a little in on it as well or that he at the very least recognized their voices from the get go, but again, ambiguous, open to interpretation, Clover was a hundred percent clueless though, thus her going apeshit that one time and the importance of getting Junpei the bookmark so he could win her trust.

Idk about there being implication that she could transmit to Aoi honestly? Like I always figured she just tells him everything the good old fashioned way after she's successfully rescued, but there's still memory of her dying there anyway because it's a paradox. Aj, dear friend, buddie, pal have you ever heard of Schrodinger's cat? Aksjs it's kind of what she has going on, the incinerator's the box and it can only be opened nine years from when she's first trapped in it, until then she's as much dead as she is alive. ALSO LIKE YES BTW THAT'S IT, THEY'RE REALLY FUCKING GOOD ACTORS WITH NINE YEARS OR SO FOR REHEARSALS BEFOREHAND I LOVE THAT MOTIF FOR THEM VERY MUCH Which part of the Zero stuff are we talking about here that she couldn't have pulled off if she's physically there? Like I know a lot of the stuff are implied to be recordings, I think the only exception would be the Safe ending bit which was Aoi behind the mic.

Oh I can imagine you still have a ton of questions lol omg this is so cool though it is quite the experience and Idk what your take away from it is gonna be but I'm glad it seems to be Something (yeah I get that miss them too :') I did find a post somewhere saying how important it is for the themes of the game though for June to just exit stage left and not re-enter tho, no goodbye or reunion because at that point is where Junpei realizes the little girl he knew wasn't going to be anywhere anymore but he still had to help her however he could)

#Feel free to spam my 999 tags btw seeing some fan stuff always helps me digest what the hell the ending of the new thing™ was #wanna read my angsty fic about Akane telling Aoi about all the possible bad endings btw? #You're friend I can give you a link of the one I wrote about them after the ending too that I didn't publish because #well it's supposed to slap canon in the face that one lol #I saw a pretty picture one day and it made me think man if I pretend 999 is the only game this could be them so yeah #Higly recommend doing this btw especially if it hit that hard. U can ask for more details on that too tho #They mean a lot to me so I made them a little epilogue that's... nice. it's still sad tho I mean c'mon. it's me #a tag for asks

[onitekka]

*kicks down door*

SONGS THAT REMIND YOU OF UR OCS, GO!

OKOKOKOKOKOK

I'm gonna limit this to dnd characters otherwise I'd have to get into so much lore

Hope

oh boy. hope.

- big houses, squalloscope

I build bridges with these arms, I will not build a fortress / In the circle 'round the kitchen table I say my ''amen'' because I feel blessed / Secretly hoping while we join hands you can't feel my trembling fingertips

I could've put the whole song for hope but this specific stanza sums up her learning to trust again, specifically towards the party. She's thankful she gets a chance like this but she's almost terrified of being open with people again.

-never love an anchor, the crane wives

I am selfish I am broken I am cruel / I am all the things they might have said to you

this one's specifically towards divinity! growing up together in an environment like..that means they share a lot of the same insecurities. hope can guess at the things divinity's been told since she left.

- bellyache, Billie eilish

Everything I do / The way I wear my noose / Like a necklace

hope literally carries her trauma with her in the form of keepsakes, the blindfold used as a choker and her mom's ring. this is obviously very unhealthy, and stops them from really moving on.

Moth

-hello, again, jubyphonic cover

My heart it feels heavy / tears flowing down my face / Force-quit and transmit the crashing bitrate

moth has emotions now! this decision will have consequences, as they don't really understand emotions properly. They will especially not have a fun time with sadness.

-the dismemberment song, blue kid

this entire song is just moth. warforged, you can manually take apart to understand how they work, why can't the same be applied to organic beings? the rest of the party is only mildly safe from this

- Donut hole, hachi

When was it that I got these memories / These big ones I can't remember?

+

Not knowing anything at all / Well, that won't hurt you - will it?

this warforged has memory issues and they don't even know it! despite having two years worth of memories, their body has older wear and tear and design elements from older warforged models.

#WHEW THIS GOT LONG #honourable mentions go to the moon will sing for hope #and those who carried on for moth #💌 #snailvibes #hope #moth

[gkingoffez]

2020 RvB Valentines Exchange uwu

@rvbgiftexchange

My partner was MentalMaterial but I think they’ve changed their name to @linklebard ?

Anyway, here’s ur Tuckington mutual pining bed sharing as requested. Enjoy!

Words: 1833

Pairing: Tuckington

~~~

Tucker was fucked. He had to be- fucked in the head or the heart or the mostly healed stab wound in his side from that fucker Felix. Something had to be wrong, despite the fortified walls of Armonia around him, the Chorus truce, the energy sword in his bag and especially the ex-Freelancer standing beside him in the confined corridor who he hadn’t expected to be there.

“I’m sorry, sirs!” squeaked the young woman in front of them, a civilian wearing a military lanyard, pulling at her frazzled hair with one hand and frantically scrolling on her data-pad with the other. “There must have been a glitch in the program- you should have been assigned your own private rooms. I’m so sorry, our equipment is so outdated and it does stuff like this sometimes-”

“Please stop apologising, it’s not your fault,” Wash insisted gently. “We understand that this was just a mistake, but we’re tired and just want to go to bed?”

“Are you sure there’s no more spare rooms on this floor? A secret penthouse with a jacuzzi maybe? I’ll take it if there is.” asked Tucker.

The woman shook her head, frowning and tapping away. “I’m sor- I mean, no, not here, in fact there’s nothing else on this floor. “This hotel was only converted into officer accommodation a few days ago, and Locus was confirmed to have stayed here while in the city,” she explained.

“There are empty rooms further along that way, but we haven’t had time to do the same level of security sweeps on them.”

The woman gestured at the plain black door behind her, completely identical to the myriad of other ones lining the narrow corridor.

“This room does have a queen bed, sirs. The easiest solution might be that you can share it for the night and one of you can move tomorrow? I know it’s not ideal, but it’s better than a possible security risk.”

“What?” spluttered Tucker. “Why aren’t there enough rooms? And What happened to all of us getting private-?”

“Thank you, that’ll do us fine for tonight,” interjected Wash loudly, glaring at him. “We don’t want to cause too much fuss this late in the evening, and definitely don’t want to stay somewhere that’s not secure. Don’t you agree, Captain Tucker.”

Tucker gaped, words escaping him under Wash’s gaze.

He was fucked. Because once the adrenaline had worn off discovering a manufactured civil war, transmitting that info globally, being betrayed and stabbed by Felix, confronting Hargrove and whatever else happened in the less than a week since he’d snuck off the New Republic base, Tucker suddenly had time and space for… thoughts.

Thoughts like how much he’d truly missed the man standing beside him.

Wash, who’d been a hardass in the canyon like he was being fucking paid for it, who’d kept them all fed and alive and together, and then he’d gone and done the heroic sacrifice play, like an idiot, and suddenly he was gone. It felt like all Tucker had thought about for the last several months was whether Wash was okay, whether he was in pain or alone or dead. At points he’d almost wished they’d swapped places, that he was taking the (in hindsight, non-existent) punishment from the Federal Army, and Wash was the one training the Lieutenants.

Then out of the blue, Wash was back. Wash was fine. Everyone was fine, and like a circle, the whirlwind of betrayal, civil war, stabbing yada-yada unfolded. Tucker had only just caught his breath again and was looking forward to actually relaxing for once, only to end up in this corridor, standing awkwardly in front of a room they’d both been assigned to.

Wash was staring pointedly at him with those stupid clear blue eyes that made Tucker’s heart jump, and it was clear something must have been wrong, because that wasn’t right. It was physical and mental exhaustion, not love. He wasn’t some hormonal teenager, he was a grown man who wanted to go to fucking bed and not have to deal with his fucking feelings.

“Yeah, whatever, let’s just go then,” Tucker said offhandedly, adjusting his sack over his shoulder and stomping into the room without another word.

It was small but glamourous compared to normal military quarters- the hiss of the sliding door muffled against thick looking carpet, one door presumably leading to a bathroom, a single kitchen cabinet with a sink and a lowboy with a television mounted to the wall above it.

The bed took up the bulk of the space in the far end of the room. Behind it hung thick mustard coloured curtains, although Tucker knew even without having to move them that they’d been covered barred with a bullet proof covering as part of the security sweep. What was the point of being a heroes of Chorus, after all, if a well-placed sniper could take them out through a hotel window?

“Home sweet home, I guess,” Tucker shrugged, ignoring his jumping heart as he unceremoniously dumped his stuff on the ground near the kitchen space.

“Thank you for stopping to help us. We’ll be fine.” Wash was saying as he backed into the room. “Good night.”

“Good night sirs!” the woman said, “And again, I’m so-!”

The door hissed shut, Wash’s hand on the button.

“What the fuck, dude,” cried Tucker, rounding on him. “You didn’t have to immediately say yes. I could have pawned Caboose onto someone else and taken his room or something.”

“Oh don’t bother Caboose, he’s probably already asleep and you’ll never wake him. It’s late. All we need is a bed and everything will be else sorted in the morning. One night in the same bed won’t kill us.”

Wash crossed the room and carefully deposited his own knapsack on the lowboy.

“Besides, I wanted us to stay together a little bit longer. To be safe, you know,” he added quietly, glancing Tucker’s way.

Now, of course, Tucker’s eyes had also joined the ‘fucked party’. Was it a trick of the LED lights, or was that a blush on Wash’s cheeks? There was no way to double check, as Wash quickly turned his back on him.

Tucker crossed his arms haughtily, huffing and shaking his head to reset it.“Whatever. I’ll take the right side.”

“Fine by me,” replied Wash, unzipping his bag and rustling around in it, still turned away. “I’m going to change in the bathroom. Oh, and Tucker?”

“Yes?”

“I swear to god if you sleep naked, I’m going to suffocate you with a pillow.”

“Not if I suffocate you first, asshole.”

Maybe ten minutes of bathroom time, brushing teeth and other general night activities later (Tucker was fully clothed in loose borrowed sweats), they were both lying in bed back to back in the queen bed.

“Well,” said Wash. “Good night.”

“Yeah, night.”

As soon as the light turned off, Tucker’s brain switched on like a fucking Christmas tree.

He was not in love with Wash. Love was for girls and people who hadn’t spent literal years on the shittiest military posting ever, then got knocked up, then spent years in the desert, then got dragged on a mission to kill the Freelancer Director, then crashed landed on a planet- well, anyone would get the point. Sure, he acted like a stud and a lady’s man, but truthfully, it had been a long, long time since he’d really loved anyone like that.

Wash had been a fucking Freelancer. Caboose and the Reds talked about him like he was the most capable, badass guy around (barring the time he’d apparently gone evil and shot Donut, of course). Not to mention, he was kinda hot. Sandy hair with streaks of grey, blue eyes, even the criss-cross of scars across his pale skin did things for Tucker. Like he was this put-together, experienced and handsome man next to Tucker’s immaturity and recklessness.

The sheets were feeling too tight and stuffy for his brain, and the slow pattern of Wash’s breathing next to him was not helping. He flipped over onto his back, pulling and rearranging them, staring up at the shadowed ceiling.

“Hey Wash, you asleep yet?” he asked quietly

There was a beat.

“If I was, how would you expect me to answer that?” came the annoyed reply

“I dunno. Snoring?”

Wash snorted. “Just go to sleep, Tucker.”

They were in the same bed. They were in the same bed. Wash was inches away, the kind of distance where Tucker could touch him and then easily brush it off as an accident of movement. Wash’s hand was right there, he’d only need to reach- but no. He couldn’t do that, it wasn’t right.

When Caboose first suggested putting the ex-Freelancer in Church’s empty armour, it hadn’t really mattered to Tucker that much. He was just a guy who’d been an asshole but switched sides in time to help them take out the Meta, may as help him not go back to jail after all. Months in the crash had changed that, and all that time of training and bickering and surviving together had made them friends. He’d bitched and bitched and then watchedWash sacrifice himself as a rockfall separated them had been devastating, throwing into perspective just how goddamn much he cared about all of them despite the fact that they were a bunch of Red and Blue idiots.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder or however the shit went. And Tucker had spent months wishing Wash was ok, wishing he was there, wishing a lot of things.

Maybe he had fallen in love with the man in that time. Maybe it wasn’t as fucked up as he was making it out to be, he’d always been pretty dramatic, after all. Dudes fell in love with dudes all the time, especially when they’d been through a lot together.

Oh for fuck’s sake, none of this matters! There’s no way in hell that he likes me too. Just go to sleep, idiot.

Tomorrow, Tucker could wake up and blame it all on stress, exhaustion and the computer system that had fucked up room assignments. For that moment, however, he felt himself drift off, eyelids heavy and breath evening out.

They had work to do tomorrow rebuilding Chorus and tracking down mercenaries, and the more sleep he got, the better.

The last thing he registered that night was the vibration and rustling sound of Wash twisting in place. However, he must have dreamed about the gentle, tender touch he felt on his face as he was just on the precipice of sleep.

That couldn’t be right.

~~~

A snapshot of the future- tangled limbs in a queen bed, dark on pale and scattered scars. A data-pad hanging limply in a man’s hand, the other gazing at him with an adoring expression. The first glances at the rapture in his lover’s face, and snorts.

“You’re fucked,” he says, jokingly.

“No, you fucked me,” replies Tucker. They laugh.

~~~

Ya’ll let me tell you about the absolute stress rollercoaster I’ve had these past few months. So first up, I completely forgot I’d signed up for this exchange, and was surprised when I got the message. Then I proceeded to have a family death, my birthday and the stress of having to search for a new place to live and start packing up my stuff, all while working my shitty full time job and being exhausted from it.

So to my exchange partner, I’m sorry for not reaching out at all, but my anxiety levels are pretty high these days. This was written pretty quickly, at the last minute and after not writing for probably a year, but I hope you enjoy.

I might have another editing run through it before posting elsewhere but it’s done somewhat on time so I’m happy (Valentine’s was actually yesterday for me and I have to leave for work in like five minutes.)

Anyway, happy love and bed sharing and mutual pining guys. Love ya.

#red vs blue #tuckington #bed sharing #red vs blue fanfiction #G writes #rvbgiftexchange

[tokusaatsus]

JSNSKSNA i do want it to have that old school rpg feel 🥹 i wanna make a magic system and everything too??

but also yes ive already plotted out a,, portion of it to say? like i know which characters i want to be in the "main party" cause like i dont want them to just form their units again but this time its in a fantasy setting you know? like i dont want to rely too much on preestablished relationships and dynamics cause i want to try and see what i can conjure up with my own brain

and ive also thought about which characters i want to see in antagonistic roles?? im a bit spooked if people might see this as me hating them but honestly every character i want to be a bad guy are ones i love a whole lot 😔😔

i have a few major story beats already in my mind and even the point a to point b of getting there but uuu it really is a lot of work and i havent updated my draft in like months or maybe even a year 😭

-angst 🫡

YEAHHH omg rpgs are sooo fun to play !!!

omg main party??? tell me tell me!! (only if u want to tho!!!) and yes!!! its sooo fun to play w character relationships in dif settings esp considering some of them only met due to being idols...

NO but its so funny since. a lot of characters who are now "faves" (ie eichi ibara rinne etc) were originally given antag roles but its also true that some ppl will start drama over anything smh smh

YEAH ik that always sucks.. i wish u could just transmit ur thoughts from ur brain into ur drafts but... sadly life is not like that 😔😔

#💌...loveletters! #💝...anon mail!

[simptasia]

this is why the second half of cats 2019 fucks so much harder than the first half 

in the first half ur brain is still adjusting to the appearance and movements of these feline/primate hybrids. look, i love the designs in this movie, i find them cute and depending on the cat, attractive. but i acknowledge that on some level the brain does find something Wrong about this. thats just nature. so theres the adjustment period

contrary to popular opinion, cats 2019′s plot is not confusing and it is explained. they explain the premise in song and they say it with words. it’s not difficult to miss, munku and misto literally say the premise clearly. however. this is after a very frenetic opening song and then a graveyard dance that can be considered creepy. the exposition naturally cannot fit in any sooner than this, but the effects of these first couple songs can be Jarring. this contributes to the adjustment period aspect of this movie

in my experience, it takes 45 or so minutes for cats 2019 to properly Kick In, as it were. basically don’t give up too soon. also you kinda have to. let cats 2019 happen. if you fight it, ur kick in time will become later or not at all. the opening song throws you the fuck into the movie but it’s a fucking bop so let that wash over you (all this to say, theres a reason why this movie is better the second time and thats cuz like, you’ll Get It then)

first half contains jennyanydots’ song which is 1/3rd great (robbie fairchild’s singing/performance), 1/3rd cringe inducing (to say that rebel wilson isn’t suited for this is me being polite), and 1/3rd Oh Fuck No (the cockroaches, mice children and skin removal. not great choices), again in my opinion, get thru this song and it’s smooth sailing. it’s only a couple minutes, you can do this, the rest of the movie is actually really good

first half also contains bustopher jones’ song, which is. not bad but mediocre i feel. at worst, it’s somewhat nauseating. but yeah overall the song is lackluster. this isn’t entirely a problem with the movie, i’ve listened to and watched the original version of the song and it’s just a dull song

it’s okay cuz once it’s over, mungo and rumple’s song starts and around here the movie becomes extra fuckable. theres ups and downs sure, but by now you have legit gotten thru the worst of it

the second half, by this point you’re presumably used to what they look like and maybe you’ve even adjusted to the horrible editing in this movie (love this movie but whoever edited it should be shot) and here comes robbie once again Being The Best with the song “old deuteronomy”

but im not here to go point by point, because to me the biggest reason the second half fucks so severely compared to the first half is: skimbleshanks, macavity, mr. mistoffelees, memory. these four songs happen all in a row. i call this part of the movie the “continuous parade of joy” because at this point i am experiencing a level of euphoria that i wish i could transmit to other people because i think it could cure depression and end war. these four songs in a row Fuck Me So Hard it blissfully carries me all the way to the end credits

oh and the added bonus that during the last song, watch munku and misto in the back. robbie and laurie are going insane back there and it’s a thing of beauty, theatre brand background acting at it’s finest

anyways i love cats 2019

#i wish other people could feel what i feel during the triumphant peaks of mr. mistoffelees 2019. then you would understand #also everybody should get to feel that happy #who needs drugs am i right? #anyways this is a very long way to say ''this movie takes getting used to at first but once you do it's great'' #and ''i like the songs in the second half than in the first'' #even then it's up and again #in order to receive the rewards of shimbleshanks and beyond one must endure gus the theatre cat #my point is overall. OVERALL it's a good movie #tastes vary of course #if you don't like musicals (espech ones where it's song after song after song) or simply can't handle humans behaving like animals #maybe give this one a miss

[sternenteile]

★ @brxtalsimulation​ asked:  🍵 🍵 🍵 🍵 🍵

PEOPLE, FOR THE LOVE OF SHIT.  there are times i have no choice but to venture out into the world to do things. i wish so much that i could avoid y’all, ‘cuz you know what y’all do? THAT’S RIGHT. NOT WEARING YOUR MASK PROPERLY OR JUST PLAIN NOT WEARING ONE AT ALL. it’s supposed to go over your nose and mouth. no, it’s not just your mouth. you’re supposed to wear it so you don’t infest other people with your germs, you fucking plagues. and no, getting the vaccine doesn’t mean you can go mask-free. you can still CARRY the virus and transmit it to other people. you’re still a gateway.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT? MOST OF THE TIME, IT”S A LOAD OF TRASHY KARENS OR SUV MOMS WHO DON’T CARE TO COVER UP. BITCH, IF U GOT TIME TO PUT UR MAKEUP ON, U GOT TIME TO PUT ON A MASK. AND DON’t SAY U CAN’T BREATHE IN IT BC OXYGENATION TESTS HAVE PROVEN IT DOESN’T HAMPER OXYGEN LEVELS. IF U WON’T WEAR UR MASK, LET ALONE PROPERLY, STAY INSIDE. STOP BEING A LITERAL DISEASED INFESTATION ON NOT ONLY PEOPLE, BUT ALSO THE OVERALL INTELLIGENCE QUOTIENT OF THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE.

also, if you don’t want to adhere? AT LEAST SOCIAL DISTANCE. but no, you FUCKWADS keep coming up real close to me without your damn masks. one of these days, i swear to fucking god, i will SNAP on some of these people and yell at their sorry asses. if looks could kill, my luigi death stare™ would have already decimated the entirety of my town’s karens. stay. the fuck. away from me. you are all filth and don’t deserve to feel safe if you disrespect the safety of everyone around you. eat shit.

#★ ; ( ooc. ) #brxtalsimulation #negative // #swearing // #covid mention // #the anger. the ANGER i have. for these people. #this is very non-rp salt but #i had to deal with this trash today #and almost told a karen off #only reason i didn't was because my sister had hold of me #she has the patience of a saint. #i have. no patience for these people. #they're wastes of space and oxygen. #there was one some months ago who was just. #all open-mouth smiley and wearing no mask. #mouth-breathing everywhere. #and i was like YOU LITERAL SHITSLURPER #YOU NASTY FUCKWAD

[thirsty-x1]

I don’t know where to rant about this but hear me out am i the only one who totally feel annoyed how victon always mentioning abt seungwoo all the time, i know hes their leader and stuff ,but i never once i heard hotshot or nuest member mentioning sungwoon or minhyun what ur opinion abt this , totally sound childish but yeah i need to let out from my heart.

I’m an Alice so this rant actually gets on my nerves a little JSJSJ sorry, but I’ll try to reply as calm as I can. Disclaimer: I too got into Victon after Seungwoo debuted in X1, so I’m in the exact same position as the 100% of people that are having this mindset, yet I’ll be giving a long ass point of view.

It doesn’t annoy me at all. I don’t know how to transmit this if you don’t stan Victon, but they really are like a family so take it as if you were to have a close friend go away and people expect you to not talk about them anymore or to reserve your feelings to yourself. They miss their leader and their friend, they miss him because he too was their support, the person they would lean on, he is the same person to Victon that he is now to X1. Seungwoo isn’t merely “leader”, he’s a human being that forms relationships just like everyone else. How can anyone blame them for voicing out that they miss him or even mentioning him? How come that now Victon members have to shut up or watch how many times they mention Seungwoo? Ridiculous.

Why would people want them to cut ties and not mention each other anymore? Would people like that happening when X1 dissolves? If Victon weren’t mentioning Seungwoo at all people would be complaining as well, saying shit like “oh so they think they got this on their own” and blah, blah, blah. Stop promoting cold culture, or indifference, or whatever, that’s what I’m trying to say. 

Seungwoo belongs to both VICTON and X1, the same way that Seungyoun is also in UNIQ and Wooseok in UP10TION. I just want to know why, why is it so bothersome to people that Victon mentions Seungwoo because right there it’s the core of the thing, y’know? Why does it bother you, for example, it can’t be merely because “other groups don’t do it”, that’s a pretty empty argument.

And regarding what you said about other groups and stuff, I love hotshot and nu’est so don’t take this the wrong way but they aren’t exactly the most affectionate groups out there AND this is something I always hate in the kpop community: stop. comparing. groups. All groups are different, all groups go through different shit and they deal with that in different ways, so comparing is really just stupid and lame not the way.

I think I’ll cut this here because I feel like this wasn’t calm AT ALL and I don’t want to sound aggressive or mean :( It just makes me sad that people be trying to monopolize Seungwoo in one group/fandom when he really just wants to make everyone feel like a family :( I’ve seen this fight go off on Twitter and I thought it was extremely silly and I think the same now.

Just ask yourself why do you find it so annoying because I doubt that it’s for Seungwoo’s sake or taking into consideration his happiness. 

EDIT: adding this ask from an anon for more insight in the hotshot/nuest part:

"To that anon complaining about Victon mentioning Seungwoo - Nu’est and Hot Shot were FORCED to not mention their members who were in Wanna One (and vice versa for Minhyun and Sungwoon) by the absolutely FOUL reactions from Wannables when they did, claiming they were just trying to climb up on their friends fame. @ Oneits, please don’t become the next Wannables. The members of Victon are allowed to talk about their leader."

#nani's opinion #dude this really touched a nerve huh #seungwoo ask #seungwoo #han seungwoo #victon #x1