#i can’t wait until this is all over

[labyrynth]

jc/jgy antis when characters are backed into a corner and forced to make difficult decisions between ethics and survival:

#jgy tag #mdzs talk #jiang cheng #canon jiang cheng #salt is salt #you understand how absurd it is to expect anyone to lay down and die right? #honestly this was more of a jgy thought at first but it applies to jc too #choosing survival doesn’t make you a bad person! #if jgy did everything the ‘moral’ way he would be dead in a ditch after being used by that jin commander #until either he sticks up for himself and is killed directly or indirectly or until the day he dies waiting for recognition to come #wen ruohan wouldn’t be dead and ​they would have lost the war #or as a jin: if he had refused his father he would have been cast out on the streets to die in ignominy or dead many times over #if jc did everything the ‘moral’ way you want him to then he would have immediately plunged the cultivation world right back into war #because you can’t just double down on a direct attack on another sect’s disciples and expect everything to be fine #you either suck it up and apologize and try to put things back the way they were #or you say ‘actually my disciple was right to murder yours and also fuck you. i do what i want.’ #and immediately all the other sects think back to wwx going ‘i could easily kill all of you if i wanted to’ #and going ‘clearly the jiang have let wwx’s power corrupt them and now they think they can do whatever they want and walk all over us.’ #‘they need to be stopped.’ #like wwx caused this mess!!! you can’t skirt around that!!! he jumped straight to murder and surprise surprise that’s not a great solution! #and thus: jc doing the ‘moral’ thing and backing up wwx’s actions ends in even more death and bloodshed. #congrats! your shortsightedness and blindness to wwx’s recklessness has led you to believe that ‘oh well if they just explained—‘ #NO. THATS NOT HOW THESE PEOPLE THINK. #THEYRE ANXIOUS AND SCARED OF THINGS THEY DONT UNDERSTAND. #all THEY see is a guy with creepy and blasphemous powers suddenly turning against them #and instead of his sect leader reining it in he goes ‘he’s right actually.’ #how could that ​NOT be taken as tacit endorsement of all of wwx’s other actions?? #god you all are so stupid and you don’t even realize it #you just brainlessly go ‘IF HE DIDNT DIE TRYING HE DIDNT TRY HARD ENOUGH’

[chemicahs]

I love being alive so much im going to like cry

#did you know not just caring for yourself but knowing you’re making a huge effort to care for yourself will feel so so special #it feels like there’s someone for you being kind to you all the time #and there is #and you like enjoy every minute again and you can’t wait until tomorrow to do it again #you can’t wait for the next time you get to take your pills or cook yourself breakfast or stretch your legs good #caring today isn’t just caring once it’s providing confidence that you have support again every day #you trust yourself #you know you will be kind later too #even if you fall in a hole for a while again #nothing can break that trust that you’ve already lived #and you remember if I could do it that that time I can do it again #maybe you haven’t lived long enough to see how much trust you can give yourself #ok sappy rant over #being happy isn’t just a feeling it’s looking forward to the next day when it’s the same as this one #and you don’t need everything to be ok in life to feel it #did you hear me #it DOESNT have to be all ok

[hella1975]

‘she started it’ yeah i did tbf

#last week me and my sister nearly got in a literal punch up over a mcflurry #this week? a pair of socks #so yk when I said that my sister incites my temper in a way no one else can like she’s the only one that makes me hair-trigger #i don’t like it bc i dont think ‘I’m gonna hit her’ is a good response to being slighted like it’s just lazy and unproductive #but my sister makes me actually physically violent I can’t express that enough something about even the dumbest arguments #has me literally holding myself back from clobbering her and ik she feels the same abt me #so that’s my justification for why her stealing my socks (claiming they’re hers) led to me emptying all of her drawers onto the floor #and she reciprocated by emptying all my clothes from my uni bags #and my mum came upstairs and my sister was just like 🧍🏻‍♀️she started it🧍🏻‍♀️ #like girl 😭😭 i know i did but come on #and I’m just sat on my bed on my phone like 😋 #this is acc gonna kick off properly I can tell it is I’m genuinely so pissed rn #gonna steal every pair of her socks until she gives mine back #wait that’s acc so funny im gonna do that 😭 pray for me besties #hella goes home

[arionawrites]

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

#aritalks #i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use #not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didn’t have before #and i don’t like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk #but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day! #the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow #also one of my best friends who hasn’t said happy birthday to me the past two years #(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years #and then had that moment of ‘oh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late now’ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk) #was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!! #i’m also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight #so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday #my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work #my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all #over the place recently so i’m waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins) #but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered #(her house is my mailing address because i know it’s not going to change bc it’s my great grandparents house that she’s partially inhereting #when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so #just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address i’ve had her house as my #mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19) #so i think i’m gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her #and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too #i’d like to stay the night with them but if we can’t make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure #out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still #dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not #the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one #if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it #but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help #and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks #just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to i’ll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl ❤️

[ninawolv3rina]

I want to be writing so bad rn i don’t understand why I’m not lol

#is this burnout #I’m big in the ‘i can’t afford to be burnt out’ stage rn lmao #and also??? I’m not burnt out i just need to get back into it #i know once i start up it’ll be fine i just need to get into it #ughhhhh i hate being an artist i hate creating #my shit #‘oh Nina this sure sounds a lot like burnout’ how about you shut up!!! /j #i have a lot going on i need creating to be an escape i think i might need to put off work on Friend to let myself rest…. and i hate that #i just want to love it and i know that to love that story i need to pause and wait until I’m healthy again #and in the meantime give myself grace that all i want to write is horror even it’s ‘unproductive’ #idk man there’s stuff happening in my life that just sucks and i want it to be over but it’s not going to be over for at least another week #idk #shit sucks bro #vent

[rooolt]

disliking every single one of a character’s love interests, not in a “I think he should date his fellow male protagonist and all these women are getting in the way of that” way, but in a “the writer’s, who have proven themselves capable of writing multiple compelling romances, have never once treated any of his love interests as a real character outside of him and I can’t keep going through this pattern with a revolving door of under developed female characters”

#*eye twitching* I can’t wait until march 14th #I have such a rant about this forever in my chest at all times #I’ll never get over it

[pepprs]

doing really bad in ways i can’t talk about which is making it worse

#just cancelled a meeting so i could cry in the office LMAOOOOOOO 🥰👍 #purrs #the mortifying ordeal of my therapist being on her honeymoon rn 😹😹😹😹😹 #i think i am just a bad person and my needs hurt people who need me. and it’s not fair to them and idont know what to do with that. #i think i may have to move out sooner than i am ready to and not listen to anyone telling me to keep waiting. this is not sustainable. it’s #not sustainable for my family because i hurt them with my needs. and it’s not sustainable for me to be unable to need and get what i need #without hurting them. i think what’s so hard about this is that i have to do it alone and everyone is against me doing it but i have to do #it anyway. i don’t know. i don’t want my sister to see this and get hurt. if you do see this im sorry i can’t be what you need. im sorry my #needs hurt you. but they’re needs. i have to be selfish even though my brain is screaming at me in your voice that i don’t. i just need to #escape it all. i am allowed to need independence and alone time and im sorry i was cruel about asserting it but i need to assert it and no #one at home understands why but I need to. im not talking coherently i just feel so wretched and sick to my stomach with guilt and grief and #frustration and shame and i have to facilitate a huge session in an hour and a half. #delete later #like my friends / mutuals / mentors / etc can tell me until they’re blue in the face that i am not a bad person and i deserve to live an #independent Life etc etc but none of you are actually in my house and you don’t see how it is and how i am the cause of all of it and how im #stuck and making things worse. and i can’t summon my strength or calm down or anything. i don’t know. i have to get ready for the session i #just can’t even think straight. my family is right and i am also right and i can’t assert my rightness over theirs. so im stuck forever. #if i could i would leave work early and go home but there’s no one to take me home and home is actually the worst possible place to be #right now LOLLLLL. i just need to curl into a bed and cry. also im about to get my period so thats probably why im like this lol

[sombreset]

.(slight abuse mention/personal stuff)

#after almost 30 years. I’m finally recovering #I’ve lived almost all of my life in fear of someone #whether that be my dad or a partner or a friend there’s always been someone #I’ve constantly been paranoid about where I go who I talk to what I’m saying #I’ve been physically emotionally mentally manipulatively abused by people over and over and #I clearly said ‘this is ok’ because it kept happening. sticking up for myself never felt worth it when #the paranoia and fear was right there to tell me it was better to stay quiet than risk more panic attacks more stress more hiding #I said ‘this is ok’ for years. because it kept happening and I didn’t realize it doesn’t Have to. #I can have friends. #I can have partners. #I can breathe and I can do this #there’s going to probably be long lasting impacts of me living this way for. #years. 5? 10? probably #but I’m so happy. #I’ve been told I’m loved by the people who love me #and I can’t wait until two weeks from now when I can just be. #hugged and held and told that I’m being good to myself for once #I’m love my friends and I can do this!!!! #i love my friends!!!!!! #and they love me!! #and things are so good #and I feel so understood #I can’t wait!!!!

[luuney]

being an extrovert is so pathetic because what do you mean you’d rather stay at the front of the shop than sit in the break room alone during your lunch break and that everything you do is actually to curb this perpetual underlying sense of loneliness and isolation from others (it’s me i’m pathetic)

#please don’t banish me into the silent break room just because my lunch break isn’t over yet and legally i have to take it in full #yes i turn on the tv when i get home because the silence is lonely what about it #being lonely is for the weak #help i’m the weak #solidarity for all the extroverts who thought they were introverts until their introvert friends ejected them from the community #let me into your introvert circles please #i’m an extrovert because i need to be not because i want to be #i swear it’s just a phase i’ll grow out of it #it’s not a phase i just want to be where the people are #i tell myself solitary confinement is nothing but then i think about it and cry #send help #just keep me in your pocket forever and i’ll be okay #i will act upon my constant urge to chime in but you’ll still love me right? #wait do i like people or do i just like talking about myself #it’s past 3am i can’t be doing this not now

[newervegas]

okok sleep deprived BUUT i think i have the j//jk verse figured out so far!!!!!!

three clowns atm!! shiori (g*ojo), minako (t*oji + ch*oso) and kanna (n*anami) !!!!!!! 🌸💕

minako is g/ojos older sister (by a few years she graduated college and was in her first year as a teacher in ye olde flashback era of when g*ojo and besties were in school) she was married and thus and still into today she uses her late spouses surname mizuhara.

shiori is either n//aoyas twin but they weren’t really close as kids and aren’t close now so there isn’t much to that?? (or maybe they were but now its strained due to yk succession who gets to be heir i am not quite sure about that yet!! oo it would give s//uccesiion but make it j//jk OO!!!!!) ORR she’s the older sib of m*ai and m*aki?? and still candidate of heir (?) in that as well?)

BUT ANYWAY..!!!! she was an old classmate of g/ojo and the besties (was maybe in either his year or n/anami and kannas year?) AND BESTEST BUDS. its giving childhood sweethearts to lovers yk? CUUTE.

fast forward t*oji passes….ish. right she and him after they grad they raise her nephew together (he even has a room at her apartment they’ve been SUUPER married but never got together what gives yk?? ILL EXPLAIN 💀) so her career skyrocketed (as an actress?? model? both????) and so things got busy BUUT like they’ve baaasically been living together and raising two youngins (minako and t*oji have a daughter aya <3) they hang out like ALL THE TIME……. and yet not married 💀

(but i mean thats not to say they’ll never yk *giggles* shes taking a year off of to help out and support m*egumi at his first year with goj 🥀🤧 SUPER MARRIED PARENTS!!) theyve alsoo been very invested the last decade or so with getting two of their besties together ever since n*anami said he was interested in her since like forever and never told them about it but swore to never tell her about it so theyve been trying to subtly *wheeze* set them up 🥀🤡

WHICH LEADS ME TO KANNAAA so she’s the granddaughter to the principal of the k*yoto campus and she transferred to tokyo so not to have the rep as “principals kid” (she still did alas 💀✨🤧) and possibly get special treatment bc shes related to one of the administrators. her curse technique she uses (its like c*assia in r*ogue trader-ish seeing emotions, curses and resonances as colors and swipes of paint and swipes of a paintbrush !!) and its helpful as she is a psychotherapist these days for sorcerers !!!!!!! 🌸 very much on the outside cool and collected “has her stuff together.” meanwhile that mask hides behind a hot mess teehee <3 also parties a lot chronic partner drags shiori to all of her after parties and galas and suggests kanna “tags along” so she can party 🥀😌 the girls are thriving!!!!!!!!

she didn’t think anything of nan and in fact likely didn’t even know he existed let alone has had a childhood harbored crush on her 🥀💀 ……. and then they reunite when they’re set up together in ep9 TEEHEE (everyone (g*ojo and shiori) cheers they’re brains for suggesting she aid them HUUUGE) she had planned only to be there for the exchange event and then go back to things buuuut teehee n*anami like kanna fell HARD (everyone’s thrilled especially g*ojo and shiori ndjxxh) and thus decided to take a transfer to be in t*okyo HEHE.

SO GOLDFISH BRAIN their curses!! minako (dream walking/weaving), shiori (pied piper if i make her an actress she doesn’t do musicals or play instruments UNLESS there’s curses in her midst bc she can control them and people in the vicinity with her ability (like meat puppets 🥀🤧 BUUT if i made her a model people already would expect her not to sing so i mean it would be convenient??) and kanna was listed earlier!!

(also when g*ojo and shiori finally DO get together everyone was like ????? we thought you both already were?? and they were like 🥀🧍‍♀️🧍👁️✨😶🫨)

BONUS TRACK VERSION: so nan and kan begin as more of a fwb but it doesn’t last im thinking bc teehee <3 BUUT not before shiori stopped by kans place for something and noticed…… something of nanamis there 🥀💀 (like a tie or jacket of his or something yk?) BUT THE WAY SHIO BOLTSSSS TO DELIVER THE NEWS very had to be ✨ so normal ✨ around them lest ye aforementioned parties are made aware that they know 🌸💕🫨🥴

#leg.txt #t: personal musings #i am so sorry if this makes no sense dkxjxhgc i haven’t gone to sleep and it’s 7 am 💀) ANYWAY i hope y’all are well!!!!!! 🌸💕 #*its 8 am now *wheeze* leg go to sleep challenge (impossible) the saga continues 🥀🤡 #veery trying to keep it vague xkxhhxh since i think im a bit over halfway thru s1 #and like yk this all could SUUPER change yk?? (alsoo i can’t wait to dev minako and c*hoso once i meet him they’re gonna be the cutest AHH) #alsoo jess i may beeline to the ye olde messages bc i have hyperfixation bad rn 🥀🤧😌✨☺️ binge watching it and feeling normal rn!! <3 #ill go into a lore thingy on minakos new lore later !!!!!! leg need nap *wheeze* 🥀🤧🥴✨ #but like in short toj they meet she went on a date to tell him she’s married its dropped #SUBSEQUENTLY he’s given an assignment interestingly to zero her man and the immediate family #(she had to grade an assignment that night where her students wrote their own plays!!) #i mean in his mind even with his profession he’s the tiniest wee bit grateful she wasn’t attending that night 🌸💕☺️😵‍💫 #something something in love with the mark trope I LOVE SYMBOLISM!!!!!!! #and like her and goj were SUUPER close until he passed then she never really wanted to see him or speak to him again #leg returning to their v//tm era while also needing to write that w//itcher fic and other things 🥀🥴 but!! we are creating though yay!!!!!!! #that is a BOTCHED summary of things for minakotoj if i ever saw one kdjxhxhx 🥀🤧

[harrylights]

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#update that nobody needs on guitar playing lmao but i genuinely do wanna track my progress #figured out the funky little finger plucking part in timezone and it’s???? so much fun it sounds so cool??? #i’ve been playing guitar for over a decade but never rly did any picking at all just strumming n shit bc it’s way easier #and my tiny ass hands don’t help lol #but i can just make it work w this and i can’t wait until it’s not a struggle anymore and i can play it w my eyes closed #all i wanna do when i get home now is practice and i love that feeling sm #my hand hurts tho so i gotta take a break and try to finish some fanart teehee #ty for the art grind while everything else is shit haha:) #rowyn rambles

[hibiscuswolverine]

Losing my shit, you are not obligated to tell your damn evil doubles that the reason you were all cooped up in your hideout was because you were physically abused by a guardian (a 13 yr old) and then two weeks later you being the only girl on the team physically + psychologically abused by your leader. YOU DON’T NEED TO TELL THEM, even though you all were conveniently dirty AF (it’s been a few weeks at point) and did not wash the blood out of your bed + pillow sheets, the wooden floor and the um still blood stained dagger that was used on y’all still have just out and stuff. Like um why- anyways y’all aren’t obligated to tell them everything even though they snuck in and snooped, Uhh why did the author do this-

#btw they’re all 12-11-8 age wise #like I know they were doing it because the evil doubles are nosy little shits #like they literally laugh at the girl after she explains how broke her leader from assaulting her #(and I can’t lie it IS stupid that it took a kiss to do it so I can’t really fault them for laughing 😭😭 BUT IT WORKED) #but if you really have to make the cre cough up a reason to tell these guys anything have it be with physical scars #*crew #have the hideout be clean if it’s clean why did never come to neverland? #have lizzy find the girl’s diary BUT the section is in Spanish. lizzy is French and can’t read it #BUT there’s also some blood stains on some of sheets #THEN you have them confront the crew and it’s like ‘HA wait what the fuck where did the scars come from??’ #then be dicks until they spill the beans #ok rant over sorry the decisions in this wrath series is really gettin to me

[the-terrible-theys]

(trans!)zach and aviva were bunkmates at science camp. i know because i was there

#imagine them both at their first year of science camp! young and excited but also nervous and already feelin homesick on the first night #and they take comfort in each other and bond over their shared love of engineering #and become best buds practically overnight #and they keep getting each other as bunkmates every year and they pair up for everything and it’s all GREAT until it isn’t anymore #tfw some kid you met at summer camp becomes your lifelong sworn enemy. oops! #i have SO many thoughts about this concept #look. aviva being able to list out facts abt zach in mystery of the weird looking walrus can’t be just some plot-convenient intuition thing #those were things she learned over YEARS of friendship and staying up late at night trading whispered secrets #you can’t convince me otherwise #these two’s relationship has so much complexity to it actually. idc if canon barely touches on their history i’ll do it myself #hrnsgdhghh just imagine them sitting under a blanket together with flashlights after curfew because zach is afraid of the dark #aviva on her very first night of camp realizing that Uh Oh! she misses her family! and she doesn’t know anyone else here! and what if maybe #science camp isn’t gonna be as fun as she’d thought! only for the oncoming tears to stop in their tracks in order to comfort #this distraught bunkmate of hers. she adopts zach on the spot #them being penpals after camp ends PLEASE #wild kratts #zach varmitech #aviva corcovado #i also imagine that zach conveniently has his “wait i’m a dude” revelation at abt the same time their friendship ends #so they get new bunkmates for the first time that year #and also that their friendship ends at the beginning of their last/one of their last yrs of camp

[halsteadsass]

hot girls think about how lucy and tim have essentially backed themselves into a corner by realizing they are so in love with each other that it makes them mad, but won’t touch that love with each other yet. focusing in two very distinct looks between lucy and tim in the shop, you see the struggle with what they want versus what they think they can have. lucy pushing and pushing until she got an answer that she never thought she’d hear from tim. the fumbling with her phone as she tries to pack away any feelings and keep her face neutral only to fail at it. tim pausing, hesitating, and looking directly at lucy after being asked about a future without her. the way you can see him picture that future and hate it with every fiber of his being. yet, he does the same as lucy. he swallows it away and pretends its what he wants. because what they want is something they both think they can’t have, but they can. all they have to do is drop the facade and be absolutely real with each other.

#its why the undercover op arc is going to be so sexy #because everything is pretend until it isn’t #until they can no longer hide behind the lie of it ‘being for the sake of the job’ #we’ve seen how lines have been crossed and forgotten when things got real and I can’t wait to see it happen all over again #im still in my feelings about them #the rookie #lucy chen #tim bradford #chenford #nikki talks

[merriclo]

i think. i have strep.

#my voice is finally giving out and my throat is Burning #just waiting until i get a fever #this is great. getting ill when all the roads are frozen over so u can’t get a professional’s opinion Or medication