#i cant fucking spell the word feminism

[sunandmoongobrrr]

on katara and white feminism

i was thinking a little bit about how Katara and other atla women are seen as "traditionally feminine."

there's this crisis that almost all south asian women go through where we're hyper-masculinized to the point of not knowing how we fit into being feminine.

there's a unique pain in the realization that you'll never be feminine like the white women around you expect you to be. that you'll never have their paper-thin eyebrows or perfectly slim figures or sleek straight hair or small nose or whatever beauty standard is centered around whiteness (although is not necessarily contained to being white--but is a standard set for women of color to make us think of white features as desirable). or you'll never be seen as quiet and demure and worthy of protection (which can fit into why this type of femininity is seen as lesser than, but there's also safety in the protectionism of white women, especially from the demonized man of color).

it's why there's such a huge movement against white feminism--women of color have such a different experience from white women as to fitting in to what white supremacy deems "feminine."

it's been a longtime coming, but i think i'm finally starting to realize that being feminine goes deeper than what my surface features tell me or what society expects me to be.

that's why i like katara so much. she is a little whitewashed -- her eyes are large and blue and her figure is slim, but this is not what makes her feminine. What makes her feminine is how fiercely feminine she is. she is compassionate and nagging and caring and angry and ambitious. and all of this is what encompasses her femininity-- not because she does chores, not because she has healing abilities, not because she wears makeup. but because her femininity is a part of her actions and choices. she is not a fighter in spite of being feminine--she's a fighter because she is feminine.

in all honesty, part of the way i was able to come to terms with being feminine in a way that is not defined by western stereotypes is exploring my own culture. i'm Hindu, and the three central female goddesses worshipped in Hinduism are Parvati, Lakshmi, and Saraswati. There are many ways to define their characteristics, but in general Parvati is seen as the Mother goddess, Lakshmi the goddess of wealth and abundance, and Saraswati the goddess of knowledge. i found myself very close to these manifestations of femininity because they encompass such fierce versions of what femininity is--something that i felt more comfortable with after society pushed me out of the femininity worthy of protection. Parvati manifests into power, war, ferocity, compassion, family. she is all of these things and the things they encompass, too, and i think it's a really beautiful way of seeing femininity.

i think it's a really important way to view the atla girls, too. there's this subconscious idea that ty lee is somehow more "feminine" than katara or suki or mai or toph or azula because she is the bubbly pink feminine that we've been accustomed to seeing. she's the nice and the compassionate and the loyal (among other things) and those are all feminine. but the fierce, and the ambition, and the blades and the flame and the ice are all feminine, too. its why people saying that political leadership or any sort of organizing role is a masculine trait is wrong; those things absolutely encompass femininity, just in different ways.

anyway, this was all started because i've been seeing people say that saying katara shouldn't be a healer is misogynistic because they're discrediting feminine roles. but i don't think they understand that femininity is not just the compassion or the helping or the healing abilities. katara has those, but she also has the ferocity and the war and the ice. and those can also manifest in a healing role, but the way katara's healer future was envisioned--her being demure and sad and alone in the South Pole--is not who she is. and that's fine. it's fine to be a different feminine than what people tend to think of when they think of femininity. but it's not fine to force her into the kind of femininity that is deemed acceptable by white supremacy--the kind that is demure and quiet and following, and again, is fine if that is who you are as a person. this is the basis for being anti-choice feminist; the realization that some choices can be easier for women depending on what roles society forces us into. that the statements that women will be criticized for whatever they do because femininity is deemed lesser than, and that one version of femininity is deemed more acceptable because it is centered around whiteness, can coexist.

it's also why i think terfs are ridiculous. (side note: i am not trans so feel free to criticize this) femininity has nothing to do with what body you were born with or the physical traits you exhibit at birth. femininity is a part of your actions and choices and personality, and it can sometimes bleed into what we see as masculine because gender is a spectrum and these traits are not completely separated from each other by a hard line.

anyway, i think such sums up my thoughts about white femininity and why i think katara and other girls in atla encompass the beauty and complexity that is being feminine.

#katara #pro katara #atla #avatar #atla meta #katara meta #choice feminism #white feminism #feminist #feminism #i cant fucking spell the word feminism #or femininity #take a shot whenever i say the word feminine #why are there two n's in that word #why cant english function the way i want it to #anyway #mili rambles #as i do

[rarestereocats]

rundown of tonight’s game!

we started our pre-game off great when discussion of whether or not Optimus Prime is a fascist came to light and then upon discussing transformer balls in the movies,  i left a wonderful “AUTO BALLS ROLL OUT” in the chat.  i also learn that Tenin doesn’t float like i’ve thought this entire time so my entire world is shattered.

as the fey vampire babushka thing dies,  she mutters something sweet under breath like the bitch she is and Tenin feels weak in the knees.  literally.  Tenin got his shit fucked up with a curse everyone and i bet he’s sworn off women now.  we head back to camp and sleep like little babes after we make sure nothing else can attack us.

upon waking up,  i’m amazed as i look over and Industria has sprouted white angel wings that glitter gold in sunlight.  like cue the heavenly choir on that shit cuz it’s pretty as fuck!  i ask her about it and then she lets me touch the wings and they are  S O F T.  so we pack up and move towards the sound of running water as we wanna get our fishing game on.

we find a cave and look,  after everything we’ve been through with that fucking spelunking adventure a few sessions back,  we don’t want what that dark hole is offering.  no more glory holes in the middle of nowhere,  please.  We Are Tired.  but after reading some thieves’ cant and realizing the water is unsafe,  we all decided this cave is our new home and began our trek through.

BUT GODDAMN,  the cave is a fucking illusion (obligatory song for this campaign apparently??) and at this point,  my illusionary magic PTSD should be cured by exposure therapy.  behind it is a sign that reads “Haven for lost children.  Harbor”.  we head inside and it’s a village in the trees literally full of children.  we meet their leader,  Luska,  and she talks of how children keep going missing.  since we need to meet the Guardian and Luska is meeting them in 3 days,  we decided to help these kids out.

these kids are ridiculous though cuz get this.  they don’t fucking age.  they went missing elsewhere and somehow ended up here with no recollection of what happened and some of them haven’t aged in centuries.  these children are literally just fucking KFC for fey and are getting picked off by the day,  but they’re pretty casual about it.  as Luska gathers some resources for us to look into this,  we head to the cafe and have a lovely time.  Samuel and Xaren share cookies,  and both me as a player and Kina as an individual,  ship it.

as we search the homes of the missing,  Xaren finds many journals that derail into paranoid rambling.  i find some claw marks by a bed and we relay that information to the other group as they search some other homes.  Elathera,  Industria,  and Rikius begin concocting a plan to lure the creature out as they realize it’s a bogeyman.  these things feed on fear,  so best option?  scare somebody and use them as bait.

now here’s the things,  kids.  we are literally in a village chock full of kids.  you know what scares easily?  children.  but what do they decide on?  lets cast fear on good ol’ Kina and leave her as bogeyman bait cuz hey,  at least i can hold my own right??   pile that PTSD on,  folks.  for her,  this entire campaign is turning into PTSD&D: Mental Trauma in a Basket.  the worst part?  they decided not to tell me this plan.

they go on a shopping trip for the supplies they need to destroy my mental state and Industria offends Rikius by implying he was an evil wizard at some point.  so she continues her beautiful crusade of offending men (#feminism),  they get their gear,  and roll out.  we all meet up at the inn.  we manage to scare the shit out of the child innkeeper and Industria makes him cry,  so now we quickly work to build this child back up and assure him nothing is absolutely gonna go wrong.

we head off for our rooms and everyone else gathers elsewhere to discuss this plan.  Xaren and Samuel are not having this shit and god bless their fucking souls cuz as Industria mentions something of dying as a risk,  Samuel storms off to find me and tell him, what’s going on.  i am pissed.  i am upset.  my own friends were planning this behind my back and didn’t wanna warn me,  so my fur bristles and i just wanna go ham;  but then Industria closes the distance to explain.

as she explains,  in understand.  best option,  less opportunities for causalities and loss of innocent lives.  i’m not happy,  but i reluctantly agree to be the bait.  we say good-night,  i thank Samuel and Xaren for alerting to me,  and Industria comes into my room to talk.  we have a tender heart-to-heart,  a sisterly moment,  and hug it out.  i tell Industria that i know they all have my back,  so it’ll be fine.  we then get our gossip on,  talking but that Juice.  Elathera and Tenin being an item?  Industria says she caught them in bed and my theory’s proven true.  she heads on out,  reluctantly.

she gets back top the room and her and Elathera have a big talk about what happened that morning.  she tells Elathera to put a sock on the door when Tenin comes in to “practice his sword” and Elathera is mortified.  red in the face,  she says she has something to show Industria,  but Industria doesn’t wanna see it thinking she’s about to get an eyeful of the Nasty.  she makes her watch as she swaps places with Tenin,  but instead of realizing what’s happening,  Industria assumes Elathera ran off out of embarrassment. 

Xaren is pacing in his room,  fuming,  still upset about all of this.  Samuel and him have another romance movie moment as they have these tender,  heart-to-heart chats.  as they bond,  Samuel places his hand on Xaren’s,  who blushes and both get awkward as they pull away and say good-night quickly.  bounce back to me and Rikius and i tell him i had a horrifying revelation.  he looks up from his book.  “that explains the harness.”.  he laughs,  but says the Elathera/Tenin thing is a joke.  i tell him i know better than that cuz i’ve been traveling with them all long enough to know the truth.

Rikius asks me if the Braid Bandit will strike again so i nervously said that’d be fucked up considering current circumstance.  he shakes his head and goes back to meditating.  come morning,  everybody is downstairs when i get up with the sicks ass Blackbeard-esque braids i put in my mane.  i head on down and try to accuse the Braid Bandit of striking again,  but i think everyone’s tired of that shit.  as the day goes by,  i take the braids out and brush the mane out.

come sundown,  it’s go time.  we pick an abandoned house and they all send me up alone as they turn invisible and get into position.  i head in as the wind picks up and the darkness settles and let me tell you,  i am already unnerved.  i do not like this.  as i sit down on the bed,  Rikius moves in and casts fear and now i’m panicking.  as the bogeyman closes in,  i go full fluff and cower into the corner,  not sure what to do.

our brawl with the bogeyman is textbook “believe it or not,  this isn’t the worst day we’ve had” as our plan just falls to pieces.  the bait works!  i am perfect bait!  but we sprung the trap too soon,  so the bogeyman kicks everybody’s shit in as Rikius stays inside to keep an eye on me and drop the fear spell.  as i’m in the corner,  eternally sobbing,  i hear one of my friends scream out in agony and then nothing.  it was Industria after seeing a sight that horrified her completely thanks to the bogeyman.  probably images of Ryan Cabrera’s hair.  have you seen that shit?  i’d die too.  she goes down,  face down in the dirt as this fucker continues punishing us.

as i finally come to my senses too quickly and race outside hoping that my friends are alive.  as i leave,  Rikius fires off at the bogeyman with a scorching ray and nearly kills it.  without a second of hesitation,  Xaren punches the shit out of this thing until it’s dead.  Elathera panics at the sight of Industria and feeds her a potion to bring our girl back to us.  as she does that,  Tenin angrily roars and stabs the corpse.

we regroup and get ready to go see Luska to let her know what’s up.  Xaren asks me if I’m alright and when i say no,  he offers a hug that i take.  Samuel joins our hug and then picks us both up and as my friends fill Luska in,  i pass out and Samuel takes me back to the inn to tuck me in.  after,  everybody else goes to get dinner and burns the body.

Industria spends the night practicing and playing her new lyre she took from the corpse.  Xaren and Samuel have another date at the cafe where Xaren is haunted by the spirit of my voice telling him to kiss him.  i’m plagued by nightmares and go to longingly stare out the window and Rikius asks if i need to talk.  i tell him i’m bad at that sort of thing and he says he is too,  so we quietly sit in each other’s company as i watch the forest,  fluffed up,  and purring.  i fall asleep,  loafed into the window.

as i wake up,  still loafed into the window and purring,  Rikius is leaning against the wall and waiting for me.  he’s trying to be subtle,  but hey,  boy.  ;)

we meet everyone downstairs and and we’re all a little tired and disheveled.  my mane is a mess and as soon as Industria mentions we’re meeting the Guardian today,  i panic and began brushing my mane out fiercely.  Rikius and Samuel help me brush my giant mane and I Am Ready.  Rikius fixes his hair and checks his stubble to make sure it’s still acceptable.  he turns to me for second opinions and i give him a thumbs up,  so like,  we’re getting there,  folks.  he’s mine.

we finally meet the Guardian.  a hamadryad named Andruw Mar.  we return their book and they seem delighted to see it again.  we speak and learn that the Svartalfar are trying to take down the Guardian and his people to get back to the Feywild and do Naughty Things,  so we agree to help them out so long as they consider negotiations to ally themselves with our nation.  the Guardian agrees and hands us a fancy card to give to New Thaddeus as a way of showing their good fiath so long as we keep our word.

and that’s where we let off.

#adventures of the volunteer fire department #oc: zakina kociak #game: pathfinder crusades

[marlaluster]

emptying clipboard

The devil is making my butt crack wet. "I don't know what to do, i cannot stop what is happening n i don't do okay," the devil said forcing a sense of perilous unrest like heshe was threatening something bad happening w a magic spells, ie whispering. "Dont you feel hairy," the devil said. I have a sense of nephew Jamal. "Can I please cause the shits right.... She seems not losing. I'm not sure what to do. I don't keep trying to take the words. But I don't wish to be losing, it should be someone else, right. I have to stop. Oh god, oh god," the devil said. "...I don't want people to take it that way. I don't know what to do I have to stop," the devil said. "I made a fake message from someone asserting they were here for the United States to be what is less. I don't know what to do I'm not allowed to do that," the devil said. The devil is making a faint foid smell from A11, earlier there was one as well. "Can people be seen to as attacking, him. They have to attack who says it is less. Do not point him out. It is okay here, not for you. You have to be taken out of here, but I don't know what to do. Can you think you are less, you don't not so I must go. Oh my god. Something is happening, i ... to go on, people don't want to be who is held hostage. Can I not say the part about not being held hostage. I'm not sure what to do. I have to stop Marla. People can hear she said things to end the world," the devil said. I can hear some sense people are, cars as that is being affected as they drive by outside the window on the road. I mentioned I was yelling earlier to be heard outside the open windows in this unit, i was telling after A11 was banging on the floor. A point earlier I yelled as well. -- some asides. "You cannot yell here. You were arrested before. I have to go. I wish people to think they cannot do anything in the face of attack by the society. I have to go. I have to leave n i don't know what to do," the devil said. "Marla, i don't do okay now n idon't know what to do but to threaten n i have to stop," the devil said. "Uwh, I'm losing really hard on trying to get people to be less than n i don't know what to do I have to stop," the devil said. "Can you be embarassed for utter dumb as fuck must go," the devil said. But -- I got distracted. I was going to tell something else. The devil was trying to attack in my mind someone who is my friend here n has some occurrence on page n you maybe but you can see the person supports some things here n the devil doesn't like it n heshe wasvattacking the person in my mind. Ken Limerick, he was saying, the devil was saying this person was like a man woman type, femine to try to attack my view of the person, he isn't that. I was reaching in my memory back n the person has a rebellious kind of tone somewhat. I can't see now he is a self of my college classmate Claude Lumpkin. "Do not mention him. He is him. I have to go," the devil said. "I keep trying to feminine him to try to say he will not rebel. I can't do that," the devil said. But I wanted to report that when A11 banged on the floor I yelled outside, or rather w the window open n toward the window that it was hell here. -- "It is very forceful not to mention that but not. They are supposed to deliver, Pizza Hut n they cant do that anymore," the devil said. Some asides, it was mentioned my nephew Jamal tries to do stuff to suggest that people can n would live money free n still doing the things to make existence or existence workable for people. Something I said a moment ago was that people like Ken Limerick who work after retiring n they don't have to, Ken did for a bit, i was saying it may mean they have a truth to tell here like that people would work or do things without having to be paid or having the threat of losing food n water n shelter to not do so. But earlier I yelled to be heard outside the window like on two different windows of time. In two different windows of time. At one point I had woke up n i heard a woman talking loudly outside, it was, i think annoying, it was to i thought be disturbing. "I was doing that," the devil said. I then yelled outside, "Its hell here! It's devil world!" I just thought to say it. It may be someone wishing me to do that. I'm thinking of Jaime Cooper for some reason. "He is that girl but something happened when she heard that," my sister Karla said in my mind. "The person pulled the plug here in a way i couldn't go on further. Can I be like Claude n have mind lives, I must go," the devil said. "...I don't want people to take it that way. I don't know what to do I have to stop," the devil said. "I made a fake message from someone asserting they were here for the United States to be what is less. I don't know what to do I'm not allowed to do that," the devil said. The devil is making a faint foid smell from A11, earlier there was one as well. "Can people be seen to as attacking, him. They have to attack who says it is less. Do not point him out. It is okay here, not for you. You have to be taken out of here, but I don't know what to do. Can you think you are less, you don't not so I must go. Oh my god. Something is happening, i ... to go on, people don't want to be who is held hostage. Can I not say the part about not being held hostage. I'm not sure what to do. I have to stop Marla. People can hear she said things to end the world," the devil said. I can hear some sense people are, cars as that is being affected as they drive by outside the window on the road. I mentioned I was yelling earlier to be heard outside the open windows in this unit, i was telling after A11 was banging on the floor. A point earlier I yelled as well. -- some asides. "You cannot yell here. You were arrested before. I have to go. I wish people to think they cannot do anything in the face of attack by the society. I have to go. I have to leave n i don't know what to do," the devil said. "Marla, i don't do okay now n idon't know what to do but to threaten n i have to stop," the devil said. "Uwh, I'm losing really hard on trying to get people to be less than n i don't know what to do I have to stop," the devil said. "Can you be embarassed for utter dumb as fuck must go," the devil said. But -- I got distracted. I was going to tell something else. The devil was trying to attack in my mind someone who is my friend here n has some occurrence on page n you maybe but you can see the person supports some things here n the devil doesn't like it n heshe wasvattacking the person in my mind. Ken Limerick, he was saying, the devil was saying this person was like a man woman type, femine to try to attack my view of the person, he isn't that. I was reaching in my memory back n the person has a rebellious kind of tone somewhat. I can't see now he is a self of my college classmate Claude Lumpkin. "Do not mention him. He is him. I have to go," the devil said. "I keep trying to feminine him to try to say he will not rebel. I can't do that," the devil said. But I wanted to report that when A11 banged on the floor I yelled outside, or rather w the window open n toward the window that it was hell here. -- "It is very forceful not to mention that but not. They are supposed to deliver, Pizza Hut n they cant do that anymore," the devil said. Some asides, it was mentioned my nephew Jamal tries to do stuff to suggest that people can n would live money free n still doing the things to make existence or existence workable for people. Something I said a moment ago was that people like Ken Limerick​​ who work after retiring n they don't have to, Ken did for a bit, i was saying it may mean they have a truth to tell here like that people would work or do things without having to be paid or having the threat of losing food n water n shelter to not do so. But earlier I yelled to be heard outside the window like on two different windows of time. In two different windows of time. At one point I had woke up n i heard a woman talking loudly outside, it was, i think annoying, it was to i thought be disturbing. "I was doing that," the devil said. I then yelled outside, "Its hell here! It's devil world!" I just thought to say it. It may be someone wishing me to do that. I'm thinking of Jaime Jamie Cooper​​ for some reason. "He is that girl but something happened when she heard that," my sister Karla said in my mind about the woman hearing me outside. "The person pulled the plug here in a way i couldn't go on further. Can I be like Claude n have mind lives, I must go," the devil said. I did try to tag Ken n Jaime here. Not my sister, though. I can try. Karla Luster​​ Luster​​ I don't support meditation. "Did I don't a fake post for the utter dumb -- he said I'm over," the devil said in my mind. I'm not a fan of feminism, so i can't get this is well said. It's supposed to be, but. It's just lame. So is people ever identifying w something [some, auto changed by the devil] supposed characterizing trait that really isnt the central issue here in the fight n attack on mankind, ie the truth. People really like identifying w being Jew or jewish n saying, don't insult the Jewish now, man! I don't support people being attacked n i would say that at the given time or appropriate time but too many times there is this fake n lame no issue brought up n it is sick n annoying. The issue w women unlike w Jewish or any other class or distinction that has been discriminated against is that it is like never attacked or discriminated against, being a woman is nit, i mean. "This is true. This is never the issue. I prefer women here. Bye. She says this," the devil said. The devil is talking about Leanne Dunn​​ Dunn​​, it's something the person tells here. The devil may have been taking some of my thought or something someone else said, it does not really give information so it's weird to say it that way, that heshe is saying something about this person, heshe is always doing some kind of attacking of people seem or trying to distort information. "Someone else was saying that," someone seemed to say in my mind regarding the truth of the false case for that women are discrimated against n they're not. That poem, "Aren't I a woman" was really about black women being treated as less than. The devil altered it. I can't tell when i heard it though. Then it is dispointing it is supposed to be about something else. The devil is always altering stuff people do to try to help here or tell stuff here. its psycho crazy n i don't know how to like how frustrating it has to be to people. Stuff is frustrating now but I do get to set the record straight here to some degree. The devil does try to alter stuff but heshe is really not supposed to be able to, some stuff others do as well, some things. I'm not a fan of feminism, so i can't get this is well said. It's supposed to be, but. It's just lame. So is people ever identifying w something [some, auto changed by the devil] supposed characterizing trait that really isnt the central issue here in the fight n attack on mankind, ie the truth. People really like identifying w being Jew or jewish n saying, don't insult the Jewish now, man! I don't support people being attacked n i would say that at the given time or appropriate time but too many times there is this fake n lame no issue [non-issue, auto changed by the devil] brought up n it is sick n annoying. The issue w women unlike w Jewish or any other class or distinction that has been discriminated against is that it is like never attacked or discriminated against, being a woman is not, i mean. "This is true. This is never the issue. I prefer women here. Bye. She says this," the devil said. The devil is talking about Leanne Dunn Dunn, it's something the person tells here, the devil (or someone else if its true). The devil may have been taking some of my thought or something someone else said, it (the devil) does not really give information so it's weird to say it that way, that heshe is saying something about this person, heshe is always doing some kind of attacking of how people seem or trying to distort information. "Someone else was saying that," someone seemed to say in my mind regarding the devil affirming that detail about the truth of the false case for that women are discrimated against n they're not. That poem, "Aren't I a woman" was really about black women being treated as less than. The devil altered it. I can't [can, auto changed by the devil] tell when i heard it though. Then it is dispointing it is supposed to be about something else. The devil is always altering stuff people do to try to help here or tell stuff here. its psycho crazy n i don't know how to like consider how frustrating it has to be to people. Stuff is frustrating now but I do get to set the record straight here to some degree. The devil does try to alter stuff but heshe is really not supposed to be able to, some stuff others do as well, some things. The devil closed out all the Windows I had open on my page w the internet. It's very annoying! It's so irritating! "Some spit! Oh god, here dumb as fuck again! I'm having to stop. I'm having to stop that," the devil said. [email protected]; [email protected]; [email protected] Dear United Nations, Dear United Nations, The devil using the United States society that worships the dollar over human life n does not allow freedom of choice in housing in anyway whatsoever (as of yet in my experience) is still attacking me very badly in a poverty apartment. I do not believe people should be poor. People are people n should be able to live as they see fit, ie live life as they believe life should be n choose personally what they see as what is suited or worthy for themselves. The devil repeatedly threatens things like homelessness also n right this moment is making noise from another apartment unit that is below this one that I am presently trapped in, trapped meaning I'm not able to find another place to go despite repeated attempts. -- "Can I busted [bust, auto changed by the devil] your teeth. I'm not sure what to do. I have to stop," the devil said in my mind as I'm writing this. I have continued trying to get help since the last time I contacted the United Nations. I have still sought housing options that may be what I can find as okay, i have contacted a couple of churches for help, a couple of cohousing communities, i have looked for a tiny home further to possibly seek a free tiny home. I have asked previously about many n have not been able to get a response about a free tiny home, but I did get one saying no, i have contacted by email. It is very difficult to find okay housing here, it's been a very vulnerable area for me in the past n the devil did attack there previously to make me homeless previously n it was very bad. I report on this being aware this reality is not really as it appears. People are not really present in their form as they appear to be. People as well would have never arranged for a structure of the society or anything [any, auto changed by the devil] environment like this where there is poverty n homelessness n idol worshiping, ie worshiping the dollar, the society-assigned stereotypes of a people, the work/forced labor roles n the society structure over human life. Additionally, one thing i wanted to report was the devil has been w a tone very chilling n especially desperate n nasty n relentless-seeming as of late. The tenants that do torturous noise downstairs they have, as I've previously reported, beat on the floor of this unit, ie their ceiling. They were doing that last night n yesterday. The devil tries to get them to beat on the floor to intimidate me, stop me from like doing stuff like telling places I see as representing something greater, i tell them the devil is trying to make it so people lose for telling the truth or criticizing the society as less or believing in themselves as okay (ie not crazy, or dumb, or as failures, as the society presses w science n its structure). But I was doing this thing I'm explaining where i tell the volcano n the dessert n the pyramids (someone suggested the pyramids somehow in my mind, they seem not natural but they do try to help, somebody is represented by them, a human self is n the person tries to help), but I was communicating that something really psycho was here attacking to overrule life itself n the devil made the tenant in the unit below, which is A11, bang the ceiling, which is the floor for me. It's very disturbing/upsetting. It's very sick. It's just totally disgusting. It's totally disgusting here. I have previously tried reporting the noise n other attacks, to places such as the Americans w Disabilities Act Office (I am considered disabled here, ie what they call schizophrenic), Fair Housing, Housing and Urban Development, US Department of Justice, Attorney General of Virginia, other places, the apartments management. I contacted the City of Richmond, VA Building Code Enforcement, they said they couldn't help. I have not gotten any help yet from any place. It's very bad. Presently there is noise from A11, noise of the television n some talking. It's very, very agitating n disturbing. The devil is trying to press to me they/the downstairs tenants are not phased by me yelling outside last night, well, inside w the window open, that it was hell here. I also yelled I was forced to be poor n i don't believe in poverty. I yelled the police had stole my car, as I've previously reported they did. I yelled that A11 was banging on the floor. Please help. It is very not okay here. I would be interested in going elsewhere, getting asylum elsewhere where i cannot be attacked. "Oh god. Do you know what you are doing. You are saying we are in violation of things right now," the devil said in my mind. Please help. I'm sending this as an update. I don't [do, auto changed by the devil] wish help. I do wish help. DO, absolutely. The devil is trying to press that it is not serious, but that is not true. I would wish help to get adequate housing. I am seeking a tiny home. I would wish an "off-grid" home meaning apart from the society. And I would wish asylum or something [some, auto changed by the devil] kind of exemption. It seems it might be best to establish some kind of a home here, i am open to go to another country as well if I'm able to have asylum. Of course, stopping the dollar here is something I would wish. There is a movement people are participating in calling for the money system to end. It is people all over the world, they can be found on Facebook. There is also a political party called the Money Free party. Please help. Sincerely, Marla Rose Luster Dear United Nations, The devil using the United States society that worships the dollar over human life n does not allow freedom of choice in housing in anyway whatsoever (as of yet in my experience) is still attacking me very badly in a poverty apartment. I do not believe people should be poor. People are people n should be able to live as they see fit, ie live life as they believe life should be n choose personally what they see as what is suited or worthy for themselves. The devil repeatedly threatens things like homelessness also n right this moment is making noise from another apartment unit that is below this one that I am presently trapped in, trapped meaning I'm not able to find another place to go despite repeated attempts. -- "Can I busted [bust, auto changed by the devil] your teeth. I'm not sure what to do. I have to stop," the devil said in my mind as I'm writing this. I have continued trying to get help since the last time I contacted the United Nations. I have still sought housing options that may be what I can find as okay, i have contacted a couple of churches for help, a couple of cohousing communities, i have looked for a tiny home further to possibly seek a free tiny home. I have asked previously about many n have not been able to get a response about a free tiny home, but I did get one saying no, i have contacted by email. It is very difficult to find okay housing here, it's been a very vulnerable area for me in the past n the devil did attack there previously to make me homeless previously n it was very bad. I report on this being aware this reality is not really as it appears. People are not really present in their form as they appear to be. People as well would have never arranged for a structure of the society or anything [any, auto changed by the devil] environment like this where there is poverty n homelessness n idol worshiping, ie worshiping the dollar, the society-assigned stereotypes of a people, the work/forced labor roles n the society structure over human life. Additionally, one thing i wanted to report was the devil has been w a tone very chilling n especially desperate n nasty n relentless-seeming as of late. The tenants that do torturous noise downstairs they have, as I've previously reported, beat on the floor of this unit, ie their ceiling. They were doing that last night n yesterday. The devil tries to get them to beat on the floor to intimidate me, stop me from like doing stuff like telling places I see as representing something greater, i tell them the devil is trying to make it so people lose for telling the truth or criticizing the society as less or believing in themselves as okay (ie not crazy, or dumb, or as failures, as the society presses w science n its structure). But I was doing this thing I'm explaining where i tell the volcano n the dessert n the pyramids (someone suggested the pyramids somehow in my mind, they seem not natural but they do try to help, somebody is represented by them, a human self is n the person tries to help), but I was communicating that something really psycho was here attacking to overrule life itself n the devil made the tenant in the unit below, which is A11, bang the ceiling, which is the floor for me. It's very disturbing/upsetting. It's very sick. It's just totally disgusting. It's totally disgusting here. I have previously tried reporting the noise n other attacks, to places such as the Americans w Disabilities Act Office (I am considered disabled here, ie what they call schizophrenic), Fair Housing, Housing and Urban Development, US Department of Justice, Attorney General of Virginia, other places, the apartments management. I contacted the City of Richmond, VA Building Code Enforcement, they said they couldn't help. I have not gotten any help yet from any place. It's very bad. Presently there is noise from A11, noise of the television n some talking. It's very, very agitating n disturbing. The devil is trying to press to me they/the downstairs tenants are not phased by me yelling outside last night, well, inside w the window open, that it was hell here. I also yelled I was forced to be poor n i don't believe in poverty. I yelled the police had stole my car, as I've previously reported they did. I yelled that A11 was banging on the floor. Please help. It is very not okay here. I would be interested in going elsewhere, getting asylum elsewhere where i cannot be attacked. "Oh god. Do you know what you are doing. You are saying we are in violation of things right now," the devil said in my mind. Please help. I'm sending this as an update. I don't [do, auto changed by the devil] wish help. I do wish help. DO, absolutely. The devil is trying to press that it is not serious, but that is not true. I would wish help to get adequate housing. I am seeking a tiny home. I would wish an "off-grid" home meaning apart from the society. And I would wish asylum or something [some, auto changed by the devil] kind of exemption. It seems it might be best to establish some kind of a home here, i am open to go to another country as well if I'm able to have asylum. Of course, stopping the dollar here is something I would wish. There is a movement people are participating in calling for the money system to end. It is people all over the world, they can be found on Facebook. There is also a political party called the Money Free party. Please help. Sincerely, Marla Rose Luster On Facebook: Marla Bobarla, Marla Luster (my old page) Twitter: marla6379, permanently banned from the account (the devil did it) Blog: marlaluster.tumblr.come PS I will try to email a copy of this message to the United States Justice Department. Valley of Light 3‐day Visitor Application   For people considering joining the community    Basic Information:    Name: ____________________________________ Partner’s Name: __________________________________    Email: _____________________________________  Partner’s email: _______________________________   Address:  ___________________________________________________________________________________        Home phone:  ______________________________  Cell phone: ___________________________________   *Occupation:  _________________________________Facebook Page:_________________________________ Partner’s Occupation: __________________________ Website: _________________________________   (* Note: You are welcome to include a resume with this application)   Names and ages of children: ___________________________________________________________________   Hobbies/Interests: ___________________________________________________________________________   What, particularly, interests you about the Valley of Light? __________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   The Valley of Light is not an income sharing community, so members need to be able to support themselves.  How would you support yourself financially in the community?   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   Would you be interested in building a home, shared housing, or renting in the community?   __________________________________________________________________________________________   How do you see yourself as part of a community? Describe the skills, knowledge, and experience you wish to  contribute to the Valley of Light.   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________     __________________________________________________________________________________________ When living in community, members have to learn to balance the needs of the many with the needs of the  individual. What are your thoughts on an appropriate balance between these two goals?    __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   Members are expected to choose one of the Five Paths of Perfection  when joining the comunity. Which  path interests you and why?   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   The Valley of Light is a spiritual community. Please share a little about your spiritual beliefs:   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   Different belief systems have different ways of explaining duality on the Earth Plane. How would you describe  duality and have you ever experienced non‐duality?   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   The Valley of Light aims to model “Second Tier” consciousness. Referring to the Spectrum of Consciousness   chart, where do you think you fall within this model? And what are your thoughts on this model?   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________   __________________________________________________________________________________________     __________________________________________________________________________________________ Hearing talking from A11. It's weird. There was some food smell a bit earlier. "Uh I'm trying to subdue it, right. I'm not allowed to keep going. Bye," the devil said. A couple of hours ago I sent a email message to the United Nations. Here's the text of it following... Dear United Nations, The devil using the United States society that worships the dollar over human life n does not allow freedom of choice in housing in anyway whatsoever (as of yet in my experience) is still attacking me very badly in a poverty apartment. I do not believe people should be poor. People are people n should be able to live as they see fit, ie live life as they believe life should be n choose personally what they see as what is suited or worthy for themselves. The devil repeatedly threatens things like homelessness also n right this moment is making noise from another apartment unit that is below this one that I am presently trapped in, trapped meaning I'm not able to find another place to go despite repeated attempts. -- "Can I busted [bust, auto changed by the devil] your teeth. I'm not sure what to do. I have to stop," the devil said in my mind as I'm writing this. I have continued trying to get help since the last time I contacted the United Nations. I have still sought housing options that may be what I can find as okay, i have contacted a couple of churches for help, a couple of cohousing communities, i have looked for a tiny home further to possibly seek a free tiny home. I have asked previously about many n have not been able to get a response about a free tiny home, but I did get one saying no, i have contacted by email. It is very difficult to find okay housing here, it's been a very vulnerable area for me in the past n the devil did attack there previously to make me homeless previously n it was very bad. I report on this being aware this reality is not really as it appears. People are not really present in their form as they appear to be. People as well would have never arranged for a structure of the society or anything [any, auto changed by the devil] environment like this where there is poverty n homelessness n idol worshiping, ie worshiping the dollar, the society-assigned stereotypes of a people, the work/forced labor roles n the society structure over human life. Additionally, one thing i wanted to report was the devil has been w a tone very chilling n especially desperate n nasty n relentless-seeming as of late. The tenants that do torturous noise downstairs they have, as I've previously reported, beat on the floor of this unit, ie their ceiling. They were doing that last night n yesterday. The devil tries to get them to beat on the floor to intimidate me, stop me from like doing stuff like telling places I see as representing something greater, i tell them the devil is trying to make it so people lose for telling the truth or criticizing the society as less or believing in themselves as okay (ie not crazy, or dumb, or as failures, as the society presses w science n its structure). But I was doing this thing I'm explaining where i tell the volcano n the dessert n the pyramids (someone suggested the pyramids somehow in my mind, they seem not natural but they do try to help, somebody is represented by them, a human self is n the person tries to help), but I was communicating that something really psycho was here attacking to overrule life itself n the devil made the tenant in the unit below, which is A11, bang the ceiling, which is the floor for me. It's very disturbing/upsetting. It's very sick. It's just totally disgusting. It's totally disgusting here. I have previously tried reporting the noise n other attacks, to places such as the Americans w Disabilities Act Office (I am considered disabled here, ie what they call schizophrenic), Fair Housing, Housing and Urban Development, US Department of Justice, Attorney General of Virginia, other places, the apartments management. I contacted the City of Richmond, VA Building Code Enforcement, they said they couldn't help. I have not gotten any help yet from any place. It's very bad. Presently there is noise from A11, noise of the television n some talking. It's very, very agitating n disturbing. The devil is trying to press to me they/the downstairs tenants are not phased by me yelling outside last night, well, inside w the window open, that it was hell here. I also yelled I was forced to be poor n i don't believe in poverty. I yelled the police had stole my car, as I've previously reported they did. I yelled that A11 was banging on the floor. Please help. It is very not okay here. I would be interested in going elsewhere, getting asylum elsewhere where i cannot be attacked. "Oh god. Do you know what you are doing. You are saying we are in violation of things right now," the devil said in my mind. Please help. I'm sending this as an update. I don't [do, auto changed by the devil] wish help. I do wish help. DO, absolutely. The devil is trying to press that it is not serious, but that is not true. I would wish help to get adequate housing. I am seeking a tiny home. I would wish an "off-grid" home meaning apart from the society. And I would wish asylum or something [some, auto changed by the devil] kind of exemption. It seems it might be best to establish some kind of a home here, i am open to go to another country as well if I'm able to have asylum. Of course, stopping the dollar here is something I would wish. There is a movement people are participating in calling for the money system to end. It is people all over the world, they can be found on Facebook. There is also a political party called the Money Free party. Please help. Sincerely, Marla Rose Luster On Facebook: Marla Bobarla, Marla Luster (my old page) Twitter: marla6379, permanently banned from the account (the devil did it) Blog: marlaluster.tumblr.come PS I will try to email a copy of this message to the United States Justice Department. The devil unfriended me from this person on Facebook. I just looked for his page but saw his page was marked as page not able to view. It might be because I was intending to link to his page on my tumblr blog. It seems I did probably get a link to the page on there but not marked as i intended. "....Can I please tell why I did that. I don't like that I'm not okay, right. .... I keep trying to force this means the person is less than. ...Can I go. I got very far n i must go," the devil said. And then the devil blocks the person's page. The person, btw, is Orion Dauncy, who is apparently tagged in this post but it isn't a link for me to see it. https://m.facebook.com/matt.sachs?tsid=0.7160383653827012&source=typeahead https://m.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=462712143861646&id=100003685941680&set=a.235250913274438.62955.100003685941680&ref=content_filter https://www.linkedin.com/in/orion-dauncey-b2a58491/I wished I could have a tiny home for free. One here w that twin bed in the area behind the kitchen n bathroom is good. I like the gooseneck as well. But maybe the one w the twin bed on the first floor. I'm hearing in my mind this may work out, but something was trying like obscure who was talking. Okay. I saw it says on the page that the way to pay for something is w your time, etc. This is good. I have to find the saying again. I don't support the money system, i say this reality isn't real, i am actually attacked here by the devil -- all some reasons that can amount to that you should give me a free tiny home. I like that one n probably the third one there, too. I like the gooseneck, as i said. And that's why someone would make something: for someone else to like it, appreciate it n have good use of it. I can do that, i do need a home n i like that one. I may try to live in a choosing type community if I'm able. I am trying for one now, looking for one. One I am considering n trying to visit now is called Valley of Light, it's in Virginia. You can find me on Facebook at Marla Bobarla n I'm also on there as Marla Luster (my old page). I've been through lots of strife w the devil attacking me. Okay. I can sense you in my awareness now. Your friend n Sincerely, Marla Rose Luster The devil messed up the wood flooring n door n other things in photos I saw of this home since yesterday. Also I think heshe or rather am pretty sure the devil messed up the furniture inside or something to alter it from originally intended, i could just feel it. So annoying, the devil! OMG!

[bigbrotherorre]

episode one: “TODAY WE LEARNED UNLESS BRYCE FEELS LIKE THE PRETTIEST GIRL AT THE DANCE EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY, YOU'RE NOT DOING ENOUGH” - AUTUMN hoh: BRYCE evicted: ROXY - 13 to 3

Okay WOOOO. So hey, I'm here doing a DR pre-season, because? I am cracked, a mess and SOOO EXCITED. Also, I looked up fun words, to find something to use as my confessional codeword, and "brouhaha" means "a noisy and overexcited reaction or response to something" WHICH IS SO APPROPRIATE. So woo, enjoy the brouhaha that is my excitement for this season. I just wanna say a couple of things: 1) Nicholas and Julia posting those clock gifs is gonna make my head fall off, thats so scary. If it means past season twists like someone said in the VL, I'm NERVY. RoseGold POVs are my biggest fear, and I know there was a season where prejury was all about them so YIKES. Calling it now, I'm gonna get sent home by a rosegold PoV. 2) Emily and Lukas was such an iconic F2, no matter whomst the F2 is in Orre, we will never match them 3) I wanna make some pre-season picks of who I expect to see cast, that way if they win, I can take total credit. I'm feeling like Raffy, Sammy and Aren might be in the cast, based on literally nothing khajsdfla. Raffy as a player terrifies me (I was also the person who brought him into this community so whew), but he gets CRACKED so whew! Aren is a scorpio so we stan. ANYWHO. I'm so excited for this season, its gonna be a HOOOOOT.

Wooh so ready for the season to start!!!

Hola, did you miss me? This is going to be me reflecting back on my Johto experience and trying to point out the mistakes I made, and how this game will be different. (this is before cast reveal) The first mistake I did in Johto was go against the premade. I was wary of Connor and Ari, and I thought painting the target on the returnee wouldnt only be easy but would be successful. And then I found out that I couldn't, and then Connor made friends with everybody on my team and fucked me over in the long run. The second mistake I did in Johto was being messy. A prime example was making pseudo "alliance" chats in order to sway the vote for people to keep me. This proved to be unsuccessful. I also had a mental breakdown like every night, so that just buried me more. The third mistake I did in Johto was throw the veto the week I was nominated. I felt like I couldve won it but I decided to study for my test. I didnt compete in the pov that i  shouldve won. SO now its time to do what I need to do for my redemption is quite simple. The last 3 ORGs ive played for BB i have made 2nd, 4th, and 3rd. And I learned quite a lot To negate my first mistake I'm not going to publicly target anbody. I will join the mob mentality to ensure my safety in early weeks. To negate my second mistake I am going to keep all my alliances as 1on1s. No alliances bigger than 3 people, and make sure to keep whatever information I have to myself. I will not snake out any information. To negate my third mistake is to try in all competitions. I will not throw anything I will not submit for anything unless I really cant. If I give it my all and still leave I can't beat myself up that bad. I'm nervous, but I'm ready. These freaks aren't gonna know what hit them.

Okay one hour to premiere! The fact that I've made two DRs pre-season? thats wild. I am gonna give a go at predicting the cast, based on... borderline nothing, beyond paranoia: Veronica Constance Raffy Autumn Olivia Eddie Elmo Hals Sammy Aren Those are guesses I'm confident in, so I'm gonna stick to that! Lets see if I get anyone right ajlkdsfas

Okay this isn't as bad as i thought except i'm a hot ass mess and messaged a picture into the house chat and i'm about to DIE

wut in the FUCK is happening who the hell are these people theyre mental all of them. nice to see sammy and ali though i fucking love them but i am terrified of playing with ali i literally said to my host chat 3 hrs before the game started "please say its all newbies so im not playing with zeezo" AND SHES HERE WTF

omg this FREAKING CAST IS WILD and i'm not gonna lie i'm a little worried that i might fight over half of them before the second week is finished...

not gonna lie seeing ashvika and roxy made me wanna kill myself but also i'm totally dying at the sight of ZEEZO AND BRYCE <3 also THIS COMP FREAKING SUCKS i need to find a group of friends asap so i don't flop. i'm gonna try to bring together bryce, zeezo, sammy, kat, and maybe ricky.... either gonna be lit or bite me in the ass

Hi!!! Y'all casted way too many people but it's ok cause I really like everyone so far whew. Also I really will do my intro video I swear... first thing tomorrow lmao 

THIS SHIT IS OVERWHELMING AF! SOOOO MANY FREAKIN PPL IM TALKIN TOO! I LIKE MOST OF THEM but som im like k. then like the call i do not want to join bc shit they cracked af! hopefully its not my undoing but i feel like my social is pretty strong atm.  #BBgameEVER

i'm just happy that ashvika is willing to put our unnecessarily tragic rivalry behind us and play this game right this time around. hopefully we'll be able to keep up the "we hate each other" look in the house chat and such so we can actually WORK TOGETHER this time. obvi i love her, and i just want the backstabbing madness to stop. hopefully she really has put out past behind her bc i'm ready to move on. like we're both pretty, we need to stick together. also shook that i talked to blake the longest today in pms???? like???? okay??? bryce and i look like we're in this for the long haul, hopefully we aren't first and second boot!! bc i have a weird feeling imma be pre-jury for some reason dsgdf

Night 1 Thots: Short term goal? to be as pathetic as possible. Probaly shouldn't have told alivia so soon that I was johnchen from bbtc world as after watching her intro vid. the could come back to bite me. Ryan seems like someone who I can ride on his coat tails for a while to get my foot in this game. So short term I need to be as pathetic as possible and hope this julia/bryce/sammy thing from house of shade starts to erupt.

me at alivia

Really regretting making my code word tractor.. Not a fan.  But um me and alivia talked for like 4 hours and we're both legends. We have a cute google sheet bet ur all jealous. Her and ashvika are gonna pretend that they hate each other but they dont actually!! How fun. Hope i dont slip and blow their covers JKDFHKSJD. Everyone seems to know everyone which is scary. When i first saw Jela and Julia were cast I was scared that theyd target me b/c we had a rough introduction, but honestly theyre legends. Idk why i told jela i was missing a left toe.. but i did and now idk what to do about that whole thing. Maybe ill say i got drunk and dont remember saying that but it isnt true.. IDK WHAT TO DO. But um yaa happy to see zeezo here too but scared ppl will think we're a duo but honestly I dont think ppl will. Um I should do a cast first impression thing wooh! Ricky: Played my first tumblr game with him but dont really know him. Seemed nice but not much there Randy: seems like a legend. Poc king. Um talked to him and he wanted to know more about me but wouldnt talk about himself so!! Idk hope we talk more seems fun. Julia: Um called me out. Called me fat. Fun tho!! Seems untrustworthy but no bad blood. Roxy: Talked a bit, um shes fun?? Dont think she likes me Ashvika: how can one girl be so pretty??? Shes smart too. Like i want to hate how perfect she is. The type of girl to throw my game away for tho so I need to make sure I dont!! Alivia: how can one girl be so pretty??? Shes smart too. Like i want to hate how perfect she is. The type of girl to throw my game away for tho so I need to make sure I dont!!  Honestly want to go to the end with her tho so I just am gonna have to make sure I outplay her so we can be f2. Bryce: ugly cast pic. Is he even a poc??? Zeezo: THE LOML I LOVE HER SO MUCH. we both seem to be working together so im happy. Hope to work with her and have her carry me in comps. She will beat lachies record. #menareover Kat: wish she was jade ;(. JK!! Love her so much already. She is so nice and fun and like just seems like a great person. Honestly shes gonna mist me too. Jose: Epicmafia king. We never work together and always betray each other so... first chance for everything??? He seems fun tho love him hope he slays (less than me tho) Sammy: I literally love him hes so nice but i never pm him so thats awk KDSJFHDKSj hope that this game changes that!! Lynn: Legend. Loves hufflepuff, hates middle school. Like I think we click but i know her and blake are like super close so idk if shed ever be closer with me but i hope so b/c shes just like.. amazing!! Saxon: Talks a lot. About himself. Maybe itll change when i talk to him more. Likes super hero movies so wooh i guess. Jela: Thought she hated me but maybe now she doesnt. Shes really funny actually so hopefully we can be allies. Blake: know that hes super smart and good at the game but like he got rekt by queen tara so maybe ill do that to him. We talked but it was bland but guess ill push through it Dennis: So his name is annoying to spell so had to change that quick. Kind of hate him??? But hes fun!!! Didnt know carly rae jepsen made music still so like the stan in me wanted to hang up the call on him. BUT then he msged me asking for carly songs to listen to so like.. love him now. Cant believe he knew all the social game hed need with me was just pretending to like my queen Autumn: We talked about her past games and it was basically me fangirlling about her ENDING eddie LOL. think we can work together because we both like intersectional feminism John: Tried talking to him but didnt go anywhere. But im gonna make it work!! Ive decided we'll be close so wooh Olivia: took 2 hours to respond to me. like musicals tho. kept ignoring me tho. Alivia outsold. Ali: PURE KING. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. NO ONE IS BETTER. I COULD NEVER TURN AGAINST HIM. SO IM GONNA NEED OTHERS TO DO IT FOR ME. Love his dog even tho i misgendered her but it wont happen again. Think we'll be close. reptiles stick together!!

WHEWIE. Okay I tried filming a video confessional, but my thoughts are such a mess, so I've decided writing it out will be considerably more coherent. YIKES SO. This season is already so wild, like this cast.... is gonna be a lot. I already can tell this season is going to have lots of fights and I don't know... how ready I am for that eeeek. But otherwise, my illiteracy means I don't understand the lottery twist so I love that. The returnee twist is fun though, like I feel like at the start of games, I go into panic mode, so having returnees I can go to about that, might make them feel like I'm an easy number and that they want to work with me? The people I knew before this season (like I'd actually spoken to): Bryce, Julia, Ashvika, Autumn & Olivia (I loosely knew Ricky, Blake & Sammy too) Within the game itself, the people I've had the best conversations with are Jose, Kat, Olivia, Ashvika & John. Olivia is like one of my favourite people in the community, and also a super good player so I'd love to work with her. I also think the fact that we are friends is something nobody in the cast should know (I think) so thats fun. Jose was such a big threat/player last season, and the vibe I get from him this time is he wants to tone that down? I'm not good at working with super cracked people, so him being slightly in the middle between UTR and cracked, will make him a super good person to work with I think. He is also the only person I've like...talked game with, even though its super limited, just that I wanna work with him. I'm a weirdo and watched all the Alola cast assessment stuff, and it sounds like Kat was playing really well, but got stuck in a funky position and couldn't recover, so I think she is gonna be a major threat this time and I'd love to work with her too woooo. Ashvika is a queen. Just plain and simple. She is so wholesome and nice, and already seems loosely on the same page as me, so thats iconic. John scares me ajkhsdfaslf. i think he is a total newbie, and I also think he is gonna get super cracked, and thats.... scary asdkjflas Dennis I just started talking to properly, he is in my timezone-ish, so that will be good for my sleeping pattern if he ever wins HoH or anything, but I worry he may struggle to make connections, so I'm not sure how much he can help me as an ally? The others I'm gonna try and do more rapid fire, since this confessional is already massive hjkasdflsaf: Alivia: Really really nice! We haven't spoken all that much, but she seems super friendly and she was really loyal in Unova, which makes me feel good about maybe working with her? Also Ali in the name? we love legends Ricky: Ricky is.... an interesting one ljaksdfla. He is a fun personality to have around, so I hope he sticks around. I'm not sure how invested he will be in any of these games, but I hope he gives it a good go woo Randy: Randy is gonna be such a threat already I can tell sahkjfdla Also he lowkey scares me, because whenever I would start pm'ing people on call yesterday, he would run to my pms asking why I wasnt pm'ing him which freaked me out sjkadflas. He seems fun though, and Dom stans him so we stan Julia (The Witch): An icon. A legend. An inspiration. Also terrifying skjahdfla. She mentioned all stars on call yesterday and my heart stopped, because I hated how I was in that game and dont want it talked about. I think she is gonna fight people and I don't especially want to get on her bad side! Roxy: Havent spoken to her much, it might be tricky talking to her, since we are both in weird timezones, we will see Bryce: A SWEETHEART. I love Bryce soo much. We worked together in a mini once, and it was super fun, so I'd love to work with him more. Zeezo: She seems super nice! I don't really know her, beyond that she is POVzo and probably a comp threat, but I think she will be fun. I know her and Bryce are friends so we will see where that goes jahdfka Sammy: Super nice! I loosely know him, but he seems like he will be good fun. I havent spoken to him much, so I hope he is gonna be active rip Lynn: I know of her from Moheli, and I know her and Blake were ride or dies which I am wary off.... Otherwise, she has been super quiet and I could see her.... potentially going early rip a queen Saxon: FUDGE. I havent spoken to him at all which is scary, since I feel like he probably already knows a lot of this cast, so if he wins RIP me I guess. Otherwise, he seems like a fun personality so wooo Jelaminah: Ummm. She is wild. Like really wild. I think I stan her, but I also am like.... concious that she is a lot, and its sometimes too much for me. I'm a bit annoyed by her tbh, but its just because she was like laughing at people's sexualities, as if she didnt believe them, and thats super ugly, but I couldn't exactly say anything to her. I think she is gonna be a super dominant personality, but whew we will see. Blake: I know he was a big player in Moheli, but I think he also rubbed people the wrong way.... We will see how he does, he seems iconic Autumn: A QUEEN. She is the most inactive so far which is worrying. I don't want her to go early. I could really see her going up this week, but maybe us two havent talked much, since she is just comfortable in our relationship? AND WHEW. Thats everything, if anyone read this, I love you for that. Otherwise, wooo I'm super nervous, I love my DR guests Owen and Emily and eek. We will see!

ahhh okay so, I’m super excited about meeting new people....BUT...this cast is so huge and I’m so nervous. I like everyone for the most part and I’ve been trying to like talk to some people I’ve played with in the past to maybe smoothe over some bad relationships? The only person I’m still like nervous about is Julia because she kills the straight men and she hates Gemini’s. AND WHAT AM I? A STRAIGHT MALE GEMINI. I don’t think she’s very good at comps tho and I know she would go for Bryce before me. Anyway I seriously love Kat because she is so genuine and I just want to work with her. Also I want to work with alivia, roxy, zeezo, Olivia, randy, Jela, ricky, and autumn! There’s a few others as well but I’ll prob do like a video DR and talk about how I feel about everyone...who knows.

Jose is officially my showmance and we stan asjdkfaslf. He is so nice and my favourite new person I've met in the cast anyway, and he won lots of comps last season so I'm ready for him to drag me to the end dlakjfasfa.

bryce better not fucking put me up or i'm gonna SHOOT 

wow so happy bryce is HoH!!!! perfect week one :$

I am actually really happy that bryce won this HOH bc that means my ass hole is safe! PRaise BE. MY showmance that was made by ALIVIA has saved my ass and partly to me sorta already knowing him through tara! BITHCH TARA LOLOVE UR ASSSS. ANd shoot idk what these gays are lookin at but ppl be sayin they think im cute. maybe its like when i look at a potato or like  a waffle fry??  who knows ahaha but like some of these boys be good lookin like damn. hit me and my crocs up boys ;P

I am not a bottom. ya dumb bitch

Bryce is nomming me for not playing in the hoh. Gurl gurl im not a newb who would buy up that excuse

Just say we arent alligned and im good with the other players and id belive you why would i buy that you, a player whose played a few games by now, would nom someone for abstainimg

Okay SO. I filmed a video confessional earlier, but its already super out of date so its time for an update! I have spoken to lots of people that I hadn't talked to since premiere night which is good, Alivia & Kat are so nice! Jose is, as always a king, and I think (other than Olivia) he is my closest ally rn, so woo we stan. Otherwise, I spoke to Bryce, and it seems like (praise be), I'm not getting nominated, WOO! He says he is nominating Roxy/Autumn, with Julia getting the future shock thingie. Like I told him, the future shock is kind of like a curse and we know Julia loves a good curse, so its a good matchup aljdfkas. Otherwise, these nominations make sense. I LOVE Autumn, but she has been the quietest person in the cast, so I assume she is gonna go first rip. Roxy I have spoken to a fair bit, but I know she is in a funky timezone, which probably throws off her ability to be active. Bryce seemed like he was being pretty open with me, so I hope I'm not the backup plan if somebody comes off. I feel like my social game is pretty strong so I wouldnt have thought people in the house would push for me as a renom and eI'd be suprised if I get nominated! Last but not least, the unfortunate thing is how MENINIST these nominations are akjsdfla, we are really putting the orre in discriminatorrey.

First DR of the game. I'm not going to do first impressions because I'm not that dry. The game started when I was put in this bitch, so I'm here to go at full force. I'm going to play a strong balance of a great 1 on 1 social game while still being a great personality people love. As of right now I'm being constantly dragged and roasted, and I wouldn't want it any other way. (But this is before HOH so the claws are bound to come over) So my game has been very social as of right now. Before HoH I focused on making genuine connections. I'm good with all the returnees at this point. None of them have beef with me, and I made it clear that I want to work with all of them (while this is farther from the truth). I'm just being diplomatic because there's some tension between the returnees that will have to be released soon. With the returnees I connected automatically with Zeezo. Me and her didnt even small talk its was just game talk from moment one. Thats a great relationship to have, and I'm definitely maintaining it. Jose and Alivia have been talking to me more. Jose has been more open with working with me than Alivia so : \\. All the returnees from Kanto-Sinnoh are here because theyre entertaining, the bitches from Unova-Alola would be casted for redemption but don't meet the criteria. I made an alliance with Jelaminah and Ricky. This is mostly because I need to be on Jelaminah's good side because I know the bitch knows how to play. So i would rather be scheming with her than against her. Ricky is just a number. On housecalls I saw that Jela was talking to Julia a lot. So I started talking to Julia a lot more. I surprisingly trust her a lot more than I thought I would. So me and her aren't beefing, but her and Bryce are. HOS20 affects this game because Julia and Saxon are aligned in this game and they're against Bryce and Sammy as of right now. I know Julia can drop a vendetta, but Saxon is just horrible about it. And I hate Saxon so much. He just gives me second hand embarassment and i dont know why. Like I'm so happy I've trained myself to hold my tongue because the shit he wears on housecalls actually make me laugh. He posted a picture of him shirtless and it was literally looking at rotten spam meat. Its not cute, and he is just so prude in pms because he obviously doesnt want to talk to me. I can make a separate DR about Saxon because he brings out all the hate and all the angst I had when I was in Johto. But going back to the topic Julia fought Sammy and Bryce ig and Saxon thinks Julia is right because he's a kissass and is a savvy feminist. I love Julia so her having beef isnt good. I talked to her and she said she didnt have good relations with Olivia, Bryce, Sammy, and Autumn. And i was shocked that this game is so against her, but this is great information because its something I can utilize. But those are her problems, and they dont affect me. If she wants to play with me she's gonna have to fix amends or take them out 1 by 1First DR of the game. I'm not going to do first impressions because I'm not that dry. The game started when I was put in this bitch, so I'm here to go at full force. I'm going to play a strong balance of a great 1 on 1 social game while still being a great personality people love. As of right now I'm being constantly dragged and roasted, and I wouldn't want it any other way. (But this is before HOH so the claws are bound to come over) So my game has been very social as of right now. Before HoH I focused on making genuine connections. I'm good with all the returnees at this point. None of them have beef with me, and I made it clear that I want to work with all of them (while this is farther from the truth). I'm just being diplomatic because there's some tension between the returnees that will have to be released soon. With the returnees I connected automatically with Zeezo. Me and her didnt even small talk its was just game talk from moment one. Thats a great relationship to have, and I'm definitely maintaining it. Jose and Alivia have been talking to me more. Jose has been more open with working with me than Alivia so : \\. All the returnees from Kanto-Sinnoh are here because theyre entertaining, the bitches from Unova-Alola would be casted for redemption but don't meet the criteria. I made an alliance with Jelaminah and Ricky. This is mostly because I need to be on Jelaminah's good side because I know the bitch knows how to play. So i would rather be scheming with her than against her. Ricky is just a number. On housecalls I saw that Jela was talking to Julia a lot. So I started talking to Julia a lot more. I surprisingly trust her a lot more than I thought I would. So me and her aren't beefing, but her and Bryce are. HOS20 affects this game because Julia and Saxon are aligned in this game and they're against Bryce and Sammy as of right now. I know Julia can drop a vendetta, but Saxon is just horrible about it. And I hate Saxon so much. He just gives me second hand embarassment and i dont know why. Like I'm so happy I've trained myself to hold my tongue because the shit he wears on housecalls actually make me laugh. He posted a picture of him shirtless and it was literally like  looking at rotten spam meat. Its not cute, and he is just so prude in pms because he obviously doesnt want to talk to me. I can make a separate DR about Saxon because he brings out all the hate and all the angst I had when I was in Johto. But going back to the topic Julia fought Sammy and Bryce ig and Saxon thinks Julia is right because he's a kissass and is a savvy feminist. I love Julia so her having beef isnt good. I talked to her and she said she didnt have good relations with Olivia, Bryce, Sammy, and Autumn. And i was shocked that this game is so against her, but this is great information because its something I can utilize. But those are her problems, and they dont affect me. If she wants to play with me she's gonna have to fix amends or take them out 1 by 1. Until then I'm going to spend my time with investments that are bound to pay off. Which are with the newbies. I've been spending a lot of time on Blake because Blake lives 20 minutes away from me. I'm trying to hold this down as secret as possible. He likes me, and I want to work with him so I'm just going to continue our friendship and ensure that we're a duo. He doesn't talk a lot in the housechat which is concerning to me, but he does hold very strong one on one relations with most of the house. Lynn is also a south carolina native, and she is just so infectious. She is very intimidated by the large cast meaning that she hasnt bonded that well with a lot of people. So i put two and two together and made a South Carolina alliance. I know Blake is genuine about it. But the main purpose of this alliance is to keep Lynn under my sphere of influence. I can't have no newbies on my side. No ma'am Another newbie who stands out for me is John. John is just really active, and such a social threat. Meaning that his word has saying. So far my relationship with him has been "hey let literally help you with anything and expect nothing in return". With him im trying to show myself as a puppet, or somebody who is very very useful with him. And I actually showed that this week when Bryce won HOH. Won't lie I didnt want but also wanted HOH at the same time. When Bryce won it I was very wary of what was going to happen. Then John comes up to me saying that Bryce is thinking of nominating him. And since I had a decent bond with Bryce I know that I had to save John. So when Bryce talked to me he was dead set as Roxy as the initial nom and target, and Julia for safety this week.  Then he mentioned that he was on the fence because he didnt know if he wanted Autumn or John nominated. So I told him the truth that it would be silly to nominate somebody as active as John. And so John wasn't nominated. I stuck my neck out for John and was one of the reasons he isn't nominated this week. And these game things build genuine trust since I'm not just talking to talk. I'm walking to walk and this game isn't ready for Randyy.

Hello ladies and gentlemen you're looking at the first nominee of the season waysup

Imma get to the bottom of this so ain't even worried. I just feel bad y'all didn't even get one happy confessional from me. We just jumped straight into poppin off. That's ok though! Nice for what am i rite

Bryce is full of shit and I'm embarrassed for him. Like who makes an enemy out of me on Day fucking 3? Really my guy? That's the first thing you thought of when you had 19 people to pick from? Apparently I'm getting nominated because the other 18 people in the cast talked to Bryce yesterday and I didn't. Not only do I not buy that, but we just not gonna acknowledge the fact that I talked to him on 2 of the 3 days the game has been going on so far? K cool. Today we learned unless Bryce feels like the prettiest girl at the dance every minute of every day, you're not doing enough Also can we talk about how the "I'm so happy to play with you I always root for you" energy that Bryce was selling to me on day one didn't even last a round? Hiigghkey I feel like the people who know me in the cast are secretly happy cause they know I'm petty enough to take Bryce out and I'll have no problem taking the fall for it. Ali, Ashvika, Sammy, Julia, Olivia- they know I don't play that shit. Can you imagine being first HOH, using it on me, and then thinking I'm not mad at you because I "understand" that nominating me was "the easiest thing to do"?

SHIT YOUR BOI JUST DID THAT TONIGHT! IF U KNOW YOU KNOW. 😜😂

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woo I'm on call with Autumn, Sammy, Jela & Dennis. THEY ARE SO FUN. I am back on the Jela stan train, she is actually super nice! I think I want Autumn to stay this week (and I think she could too)! Roxy is super sweet, but Autumn is a queen and the queen stays queen! Oh, I'm not using the veto too, its way too early to make a move and I don't know who would go up instead. I'm still SHRIEKING that I won that veto somehow kjlasdfa

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[5/9/18, 2:45:32 PM] Blake Sanders: do you want money?? [5/9/18, 2:45:41 PM] Blake Sanders: BC THE MONEY WANTS YOU! [5/9/18, 2:45:43 PM] alivia: do you wanna be rich??? [5/9/18, 2:45:53 PM] Blake Sanders: ^^^^^^ RICH [5/9/18, 2:45:58 PM] Blake Sanders: not just driving nice car rich [5/9/18, 2:46:07 PM] Blake Sanders: I mean using cheeta fur as toilet paper rich! [5/9/18, 2:46:15 PM] alivia: 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 [5/9/18, 2:48:20 PM] alivia: YOUVE BEEN HAND SELECTED [5/9/18, 2:48:31 PM] alivia: BECAUSE WE THINK YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES [5/9/18, 3:07:19 PM] rixxy 🦄: Hi I just got off work [5/9/18, 3:07:23 PM] rixxy 🦄: what the FUCK is this? [5/9/18, 3:07:33 PM] alivia: DO YOU WANT MONEY??? [5/9/18, 3:07:52 PM] rixxy 🦄: i'm scared but absolutely [5/9/18, 3:07:58 PM] Blake Sanders: FUCK YA! [5/9/18, 3:07:58 PM] alivia: WE WANT YOUR HELP SCAMMING THIS HOUSE! [5/9/18, 3:08:09 PM] alivia: it’s good to be a little scared [5/9/18, 3:08:12 PM] rixxy 🦄: I definitely don't like where this is going. [5/9/18, 3:08:12 PM] Blake Sanders: MONEY WERE GOIN TO RULE THIS AND MAKE MONEY [5/9/18, 3:08:26 PM] Blake Sanders: BUT U WILL RIXXY [5/9/18, 3:08:31 PM] rixxy 🦄: god [5/9/18, 3:08:34 PM] Blake Sanders: <3 [5/9/18, 3:09:00 PM] lynnt: yes [5/9/18, 3:09:53 PM] alivia: you’re gonna be rich so you gotta live rich [5/9/18, 3:11:57 PM] Blake Sanders: There’s like a joining fee [5/9/18, 3:12:01 PM] alivia: yep [5/9/18, 3:12:09 PM] alivia: like scientology [5/9/18, 3:12:21 PM] alivia: but like this is real [5/9/18, 3:12:56 PM] rixxy 🦄: i'm not paying for this [5/9/18, 3:13:01 PM] rixxy 🦄: is this like a legit game thing? [5/9/18, 3:13:03 PM] rixxy 🦄: bc [5/9/18, 3:13:07 PM] lynnt: then imma opt out b/c this rich bitch is cheap and that’s why i’m rich [5/9/18, 3:13:55 PM] Blake Sanders: I mean we legit love u guys [5/9/18, 3:14:07 PM] rixxy 🦄: is this an alliance [5/9/18, 3:14:12 PM] rixxy 🦄: bc i'm uncomfortable and confused [5/9/18, 3:14:35 PM] alivia: woah woah woah [5/9/18, 3:14:41 PM] alivia: everyone calm down [5/9/18, 3:15:09 PM] alivia: don’t worry about the money. you can pay the joining fee AFTER we’re rich [5/9/18, 3:15:15 PM] alivia: don’t worry [5/9/18, 3:15:16 PM] rixxy 🦄: like i'm actually having an anxiety attack can you RATMEME.PNG literally..... WHAT???? blake and i were talking and started joking about being scammers bc sdfkal and then i was like "we should start a scammer alliance" and that's how it all started. we thought it would be SO funny if we just added them to a chat and started trolling them about scamming houseguests out of their money dljgdkfjg and i thought MAYBE lynn and ricky would be confused at first but ricky literally lost his mind like ooops my bad WE THOUGHT WE WERE FUNNY BUT I GAS NOT. [5/9/18, 3:16:08 PM] alivia: it’s a joke but kind of an alliance [5/9/18, 3:16:21 PM] alivia: but mostly a joke [5/9/18, 3:16:44 PM] rixxy 🦄: i literally thought i got dragged into some kind of game twist and i wouldn't play my own game god [5/9/18, 3:17:08 PM] alivia: omg WHAT [5/9/18, 3:17:19 PM] alivia: LITERALLY THE BIGGEST JOKE NOT SERIOUS [5/9/18, 3:17:25 PM] alivia: IMSORFY [5/9/18, 3:17:28 PM] rixxy 🦄: like i thought it was some saboteur/team america bullshit [5/9/18, 3:17:35 PM] alivia: omg noooo [5/9/18, 3:17:42 PM] rixxy 🦄: all i want to do is play the game and i literally thought that was snatched from me [5/9/18, 3:17:50 PM] alivia: HOW??? [5/9/18, 3:18:17 PM] rixxy 🦄: idk i thought y'all were a twist sdksksksksks sdfjsdl wow fuck me i gas??? my social game is really off to a great start!!! gotta get ricky outta here asap now

Right now i am on CAll with SAMMY SAM bc im bad at talking to multiple people at a time! SOOOOOO SAMMY is like wanting to be ym ally but like do i trust his ass??

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okayyyyy so this is definitely something different like bb is hard tbh. there's too many people to talk to and i just really don't care about continuing to keep up a convo with some of them but you have to or bye bye. i have definitely not been as social as most and that is def scary but the people that i have talked to and made connections are super nice. so that's why i was so glad when the people that won HOH and POV are people i talked to. uuhHHuh i have no fucking clue who i want to evict tonight so that's fun! ya know autumn is super nice and chill but she did go dark for a while and roxy is super fun and i still haven't heard ANY singing and i want to and she is campaigning really hard so she really wants to stay BUT since she's campaigning so hard to stay and kinda saying anything to EVERYONE who knows what she'll do to stay in the game later on. idk is it too early to be thinking about later in the game?? idkkk thanks for coming to my rambling ted talk. find out next time on if i've decided.

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OK SOOOO the eviction is coming up tonight and its either going to be Autumn or Roxy! NOw autumn is a super sweet queen but i feel like she will kill me if need be! but i still lvoe her! now roxy she is fighting for her life like she is making me promises i think she will not be able to keep. bc ive heard form other hosue guests she is making the same promises to them. NOW i love talkin to her about food and cooking but i feel awful that im most likely going to evict her! but o well it has to be done im glad its not me

i feel like i should give like a summary of like where i am with everyone and how i feel about them all before the first eviction! ALI: Well i first knew him because he reached out to me about a game he is gonna host. He like doesn't talk to me much which makes me nervous... I like him a lot but looks like we are just acquaintances atm. ALIVIA: OK I FREAKIN LOVE HER! SHE IS HILARIOUS! WE STARTED A ALLIANCE CHAT CALLED SCAMMERS R' US AND RICKY LEGIT FREAKED THE FUCK OUT AND WE WERE ALL LIKE WTF JUST HAPPENED HE IS INSANE! i hope i get to work with her a lot during this game and talk about ice cream! But i do see her stabbing me in the back later on so ill prob strike first. LOVE YA ASHVIKA: now this girl is a goddess she is beauty and she is grace! we talk like avg and stuff we have small chats nothing about gamewise. I see her as not being a threat as in targeting people or winning HOH i see her as a social threat. I think she will go far but not win she will def be jury. I think she is amazing tho and shes a model soo like i want to be her. AUTUMN: Now Autumn is a delight to be around so sweet and seems so pure but she will kill me i just know it. She's the beautiful flower in the garden that turns into a man eating plant <3 she is temptation and i may fall for it BLAKE: ive been told i was a certified good boy BRYCE: Now i knew him b4 this game bc of my friend TARA LOVE YOU BITCH <3 ! i think he will keep me around but idk if our bond is tight enough. i dont think he will choose to evict me yet. but other thsn that i want to work on having a closer bond with him for sure! DENNIS: I like dennis he just iidk theres not alot to say? me adn him talk about video games and stuff but whenever i talk to him i like forget like why im talkin to him lol! but he is super chill! JELAMINAH: THIS WOMAN <3 IS AMAZINGLY FUNNYY! SHE IS ONE PERSONALITY I WANT TO GET ON MY SIDE~! she is hilarious amd an amazing person i want to work with her sooo bad! i talk to her in oms sometimes but she is more of a on call person i believe or she just doesn't wanna talk to me ahah . O AND JELA I TAKE BACK TO WHO I THINK THE CUTEST BOY HERE IS ! JOHN : I love john! me and him talk trash about  random things and it is hilarious! i hope he feels as close to me as i am to him! i feel like we can work together in the long run. JOSE: Ive only talked to Jose just a little bit so im worried if he ever wins HOH bc i may be nominated! so i better get my ass into high gear and talk to him more. other than that i remebr him as the guy who someone hit his fence with a car. JULIA: NOW i have heard things about this girl! like that she is ana amzing player and i better watch out for her! IM SO SORRY JULIA BUT U R ON MY HITLIST! AND SADLY U NEVER U LEFT ME ON READ IN MY PMS RUDE~! KAT:I WAS SO WORRIED ABOUT KAT BUT WE JUST STARTED TALKING TODAY AND WE HELPED names each others plants! she is a precious person and i love her! she is so funny! i want to work with her for this game! LYNN: YALL THIS IS MY BITCH ! I LOVE YOU LYNN WE PLAYED IN MOHELI TOGETHER AND AFTER THAT IT WAS HISTORY WE BECAME BEST FRIENDS VISITING EACH OTHER AND STUFF! SHE ONLY LIED 2 HOURS FROM ME WHEN I WENT TO SCHOOL I SAW HER ALL THE TIME! I AM MOST DEF WORKING WITH HER! SHE IS MY BESTFRIEND! <3 LOVE U OLIVIA: OK WELL IDK MUCH bout her. ummmm i talked to her a little im ttrying to become her ally but its not really workign she wont talk to meee!! RANDY: omg i have not heard good things about him.... i shouldve been told these things sooner omg! i feel like he hates me he might! we live in the same city and live like 15 mins away! omg rip rip rip . he goes to my old highdchool! thats crazy af! im working wiht him rn but i i think im going to nom him in the middle of the game or try to get him out around then. sorry randy! also hes been giving me the cold shoulder and not talkin to me which is rude. adnwe r in an alliance chat bro. come on really... RICKY: TBh u annoy me. everything i like u say its dumb or u don't like it. i say goodmorning/afternoon to u adn u say its morning its not even close to afternoon whatre u doing. AND IM LIKE WTF HAV U NEVER HEARD OF TIMEZONES! LIKE HELLLLLO! damn just we are not compatible people and well if i ever win HOH ill prob nom him. ROXY: DAMN BITCH I CAUGHT U IN A LIE AND U DONT KNOW ABOUT IT! THIS IS THE REAOSN IM VOTIN TO EVICT U IM SORRY OMG IM GOIN TO MISS TALKIN TO U ABOUT FOOD! ur sooo sweet omg and u hav a lovely voice! SAMMY: I have been told not to trust him bc he is a snake. But shit he is one of my closest allies now! like we talked for hours on call and watched survivor it was such a cute little date! GOD i hope he doesnt betray me ill cry so much! i mean he might but like i dont wanna back stab him.... yet <3 SAXON: who r u?? talked like never. ur probably nice?? ZEEZO: Girl u be freakin lynn out with eveyrhting u saying to and about her! soo idk like aht to do wiht u ahahah prob get u nominated?? SORRY IM A LOSER AND DIDNT MAKE A VID I LOOK LIKE A THUMB ATM <3

what bitch Randy, 3:05 PM hola 3:05 PM you never sent me a pm Randy, 3:05 PM ur coll bc you aint never talk about interesting shit 3:05 PM uh huh Randy, 3:05 PM tf am i supposed to reply to "yea" 3:06 PM sorry I'm not your source of entertainment you twink I was busy with my life Randy, 3:06 PM wow this is something we can TALK ABOUT Randy, 3:06 PM what did you do I kinda snapped sorry Randy

Are u gonnaget ur tattoo coloured? :0 or will it be lines? Rn im hungry waiting for ma burger heh 9:21 PM It’s just lines henny 👑, 9:23 PM Sweet! What inspires the one u chose? 👑, 6:35 AM Hey saxon! I wanted to wait to speak to you in person but im tired and sorta not feeling well so i cant stay up. I wouls love it id you vote me to stay!! I really enjoy this game and im a p loyal ally! Im active and have jackbox too xd. Ill try be up at least 2 hours bfr eviction if you wanna chat about the vote! 👑, 3:03 PM Morning 3:03 PM Hiya 👑, 3:03 PM Hows it going? 3:04 PM fine busy 👑, 3:04 PM Ripp with what m? 3:05 PM a 5 page paper 👑, 3:06 PM Ew Wtf 3:06 PM ye 👑, 3:06 PM Just quit school. Death sound sbetter than that Hshsbs 3:10 PM i omg 👑, 3:11 PM Lmfao Man now my eviction worries seem meaningless 3:14 PM Why is that? 👑, 3:15 PM :o cause your   5 page thing is gross :o have you started on it or still got a ways to go? 3:20 PM I still got a ways to go 👑, 3:20 PM yikes 👑, 3:20 PM how are you feeling about this week? like hame wise Roxy I think you're a lovely person but holy fuck can you just please shut up sometimes when you know someone is busy

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