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wolfpupsblog · 1 month

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U know shits going down when he catches u doing something u shouldn't do.

U try to leave the house and he's like and where do u think ur going little lady? As he deeply says with a tence stare in ur soul.

Then u say I'm going out with my friends?.

He looks at u and says sweety it's a school night u need to be in ur room getting on homework.

Then he realizes ur wearing something revealing and he goes oh your not wearing that. Jamas then school work!

Then u go to ur room lock the door then u get a text from a friend uve known since preschool and he says wots taking so long.? And u reply I'm not going I got home work.

His answer is oh then should I save u a dance then?

U laugh then u say with a teary eyed emoji I wish I could but my dad has me on a curfew because the Empire placed one on all citecins remember?

Well then we could sneak off someplace just u and me?. Plus when has the Empire stopped us before?!

Then u try to sneack out ur window and..

Suddenly caught by ur dad's husband ur other dad.

Wot do we have here?! Trying to desert ur own fathers I see? And still in that awful skimpy outfit I see!? School night means school night! Non of this run away shinanegins shit!

And then he sees ur talking to the friend u knew in preschool. And u go daddy I have a confession u know my friend grem from school?

That boy u played with as a kid? Yeah I know him know how close u were with him. Why?

Things with him have come closer dad. And plus this girl at my school yelda she thinks she's hot shit. And stuff always gets her way gets the fame glory popularity in class and on social media and she's got this party going on to showcase her and her families new house and just to have more attention cus rampart is her dad.

And she said if I'm not there in a hour that grem was hers and shed tell everyone how.. Then u pause and he says how u flunked math? I know. He puts u in the comfort of his arms and says non of that matters and u love him truly then tell him!

I'll handle the bully situation and also ur grounded for dis obeying orders and trying to wear something that u think can one up MS popularity and cus I love u.

And something else ur super smart. So dont let that girl take that from u. And I'll help u with ur homework. Cuz we got ur report card the other day and u got a c. So try getting it up to a b and we'll see wot happens and something else I need to confiscate ur phone.

So next morning u ur dads and ur mom r at the breakfast table eating and next thing u know it's some guy walking to the door and it's someone u rarely see anymore. But with the accent u remember him all to well and a deeper voice. Your dad slick. Came by to take u to school. And as ur in the land speeder with him and the radio going he notices quite a tude to ur voice. And with how you posture urself before getting in.

And he's like tft a real rebel like ur dad and I back in the civle war. Got quite a tude to u today kid wot is it.?

As. U slump down and u see her yelda in a neon pink land speeder with grem in the passenger side. And u slump down farther so she can't see u. As ur at the trafic light she rules the window down and is like hey loser heard ur daddy grounded u. Ha ha stupid inferior clones! And u call ourselves the better soldier?! Please! And she throws her soda at ur head! Bye now and vssoom! Speeds past u and as ur crying ur heart and eyes out slick then calls u off school takes u to his apartment on the other side of galactic city back on coressant and he gets u cleand up and he says

So that's wot ur deal is. I'll get her expelled for this. As he kisses u and while a ur tears and says amphiritite u know we're here for u. As he carried u to ur new room layd u in bed turns the light off and then closed ur door

Then gus calls.. Where the hell is she?! In a fit of rage!

Gus calm down please I called the school called her off brought her to my place.

Gus well the teach nor any of us here were notified of this! The hells matter with u slick Oberon?!

Chopper the overly aggressive but sensitive and understanding type he is.. Give me the phone.

Slick babe please tell me she didn't skip school.?

No hun she didn't I was on my way to take her there and kinda get her take on this whole situation and ramparts daughter showed up beside us and was with the boy our girl was falling hard for the one she new since preschool grem?. Yeah well he was with her and she threw her coak at our daughter. And mocked her! So I brought her here called her off just for the day no homework non of that. She needs to decompress.

Sigh.. Ok slick good call then.

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merscylilith · 2 years

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Shooting Star | Sparks.

Rindou Haitani x f!reader x Sanzu Haruchiyo

Angst

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Summary : Do you believe on wishing star ? Like, when you saw a shooting star then, all you could think of were a happiness with someone you loved. But does that person did love you back ?

Rindou always a first person you would find if there something wrong with everything, on your way.

You, that's what Rindou could think of when he in class or everywhere. Being a bestfriend since elementary school share a lot thing between you two. His brother, Ran Haitani really adore yout friendship with him. He even treated you like his little sister. Not to mention, they both the infamous Roppongi deliquent, even so you still have a good jokes with each other.

" Rinnie, you should be more focus when you did something ! Look ! What did you do ?! You ruined my cakes ", your irritated face makes Rindou want to ruined everything you did. cute.

How to explains this ? You both share the same brain cells, copying each other homeworks, escape the class, put a prank on Ran together , you both basically , one.

As the age grew up, nothing changed. Rindou and you even makes a listed plans that you both want to do in high school. Rindou surely love do every your commands. He doest know why but your words magically pour a spell on him.

He smiled when you pouty in pain as your period cramps attacking so hard.

"Silence , class. We have a new student, Sanzu Haruchiyo. Please welcomed him warmthly ", the guy with black masked only bow his head.

All the classmates whispering, positively or negatively as their eyes shooting Sanzu with weird looks. Worst start for his day.

But, your eyes looks sparkling. His appearance got your attention. His beautiful pink hair.

Even Rindou notices your weird behaviour. Nah, y/n just being friendly. uneasy feeling swiftly away.

Friendly.

And things changed.

You became more closer to Sanzu. It's not like Rindou doesnt knew who Sanzu was, he just like him, a deliquent.

Whenever Rindou asked for hanging out, you always bringing Sanzu all along, at first, he doesnt mind but thing keep happened again and again.

He felt left out. You looks more active and in clouds nine, when Sanzu around, when there only you two, Rindou you still the same as before, treated him nicely.

Sanzu and him became closer too because of you. Not only that, they both now were in the same gang. It weirdly makes you happy.

It has been 3 months since you called him for everything. It's not like he didnt try to reach you out, calling you, sent you a text messaging, but all he got was short and emoji as response. Y/n, dont make me worried.

He sat on the couch, stare on the television blankly, nothing entertain. Rindou does saw your posts on the social media, you spent all days with Sanzu.

While he still in his thought of heartaches, the ringing of his phone caught him off. Your name appeared on his screen. Smiled appear on his face.

"Rinnie, let's hanging out at our favourite spot ", your voice lighthen him up.

In the light speed, he dress up a little more than usual, he likes you since then but Sanzu seems the distraction for his love.

Exactly on the time that have been promised, Rindou dropped his smile when he saw Sanzu was there too. Ah, as usual.

Not that he hates Sanzu, but he doesnt like how Sanzu got your attention more than him.

But what makes him more broken, your hand intertwining with Sanzu's left hand. How, what happened.

Your smile got more brighter as you saw his presence.

" Rin, i have got good news. Me and Sanzu are in relationship, well im early than you ", you brought your intertwin hand with Sanzu to the air, shows Rindou that is the real thing .

"Im happy for you , jerk ", all he can do was faking smile.

You will never see him more than bestfriend, aren't you ?

The hanging out just full with your excitement. Sanzu looks at you in euphoria. Rindou's eyes just back in forth to you and Sanzu.

He felt like a third wheeling. Cant take it anymore, he standing up , the chair sound moving caught you and Sanzu's attention, " im have something to do , see you both at school ", with that he brought his heavy feeling in disappoitment, you just bit a goodbye and contibue your conversation with Sanzu.

He likes your smile but unfortunately, your wide smile would never be more than smile as bestfriend.

Ran swirling his glass of milk as he saw Rindou reading the books. Book. A theory of Physic. Rindou never interested in reading but something must disturbed him.

"Rin, y'okay ? ", as his big brother, Ran got a instinct on what happened to his lovely brother, there are no answer from Rindou.

He walks up to Rindou, and lean his arms around Rindou's shoulder, " i noticed y/n barely come here lately, something happened between you two ? ", he sighed and close his books, " nothing. I just want make a some revision. My last high school year examination will coming sooner ", Ran hummed on his answer, he knew Rindou good with study but reading books instead of study group with you, something that rarely happened. Usually, when there an examination , you and Rindou will prepared everything together, well it was a big different for this time.

In class, most of the time, you only talking with Sanzu, insperable. It was not like you ignoring Rindou, but he looks more serious when it comes to exam. So, you dont want to bother him.

But , that was the opposite in Rindou's mind. You totally forgotten about your bestfriend.

He always became the last person to make a confession to you, your pretty and friendly character never failed make people comfortable around your presence.

Last year of high senior school examination was finally comes to the end. Yes, you were dragging Rindou's ass to make a study group together. Luckly, there were no flirting between you and Sanzu, everyone focus on their last year. It hard to see when you chose to sat next to Sanzu. Oh, he is your boyfriend, of course.

Chirstmas's month finally comes. You decides to join christmas parade with Sanzu and Rindou. You want Ran joining too but he busy with the bussiness. So, that's was only you three. Christmas parade was the only thing excited you, before the parade start, there are fireworks echoing the whole town. Your eyes so sparkling, just the way it was whenever you saw fireworks since you were kid. He loves it. Then, you suddenly turn to face him, handing him a keychain of voodoo doll. It's not the creepy one but sure enough makes him happy,

" Rinnie, we both have the same keychain, we came in pair, remember when we were kid, you said you want a voodoo doll as your christmas gift after your senior year, you're weirdo ", you laughed as he took the keychain from your hand.

Sanzu only smile warmthly at the scenes. He is understood the friendship between his girlfriend and Rindou, wont control her when she want do everything for her bestfriend.

What a nice boyfriend you have, y/n. If i were, im sure flipped everything around for being to nice other men.

That's was not the case. As the christmas parade start, once again he felt left behind, walked behind you both. You and Sanzu were giggling all the way, what was so funny ? All Rindou can do was stare at your back, hearing your laugh, he also can see Sanzu's side profile. Tch, sure he is handsome but cant defeat mine.

Christmas parade was so boring for him, this year. He supposed to confess to you during the last senior year. Everything was already planned perfectly a long time ago but what can he do, you looks so happy with his co-worker.

He jealous how Sanzu manages to take care of you, he is a vice-commander but still have a time with you, never make you felt worried.

Haih.

Rindou chose to walk away from there. You didnt even notice his absence.

He cried. Rindou takes a night walk before come home, cried with his whole heart. Was there something you hate about him ? He doesnt like you treated him this way. He missed how you always hugged him when he cried. Rindou never forgot, how you whispered everything will be ok whenever he lost in fight. But now, you said the same thing to the other person. His legs feels wobbling, luckly there are no people in the area.

Waiting for longer than 15 minutes before back to home, wipe all his tears away, so that Ran wont notice his red eyes. He doesnt like Ran questioning anything that make him want to burst into tears.

Day by day, month by month and year by year, time flies so fast.

The beautiful red decoration card was sitting peacefully on his desk. Your wedding invitation.

It has been 11 years since the christmas parade sorrow night of him happened.

He just woke up with heavy headaches. He is not drunk. Just a slight cried. After he got news from Sanzu about his wedding with you, he immediately got out from the situation. Cant deal with his emotions.

Sanzu is really a good man. Everytime they face-to-face or make a discussion or even on mission, the conversation would lead Sanzu to talk about you, he can see how Sanzu really love and his adoration towards you were endless, soulmate indeed.

11 years was not a short time for you and Sanzu built a strong love and home, sure there were fight , a couple fight for more accuration but Sanzu always have soft spot for his lovely y/n, nothing stronger than his love for you.

Being a loyal maddog to Bonten, he also being a loyal man to you. So, there are no reason for Rindou hating on him being together with you. Rindou only can see and heard everything about you from him. Those years, all Sanzu's talk is you.

Now, he have to get his ass up. Feel like a shit.

He bites his lips harshly, the frustration built up as he remember that he never got a chance to make a confession.

Want to swing everything, swift all his stuff on the desk, punch the wall, break his window glass and every shit.

But at the end, all he can do was a manic laugh.

Your wedding supposed to start 5 minutes ago but you still waiting for Rindou's arrival. Nervously praying for his appearance anytime sooner but to your disappoitment, he never did.

Sanzu's sister caress your shoulder and telling you, everything should have to start now.

You nodded at her weakly. Cant do this beautiful day without your lifetime bestfriend. As you walked on the aisle, you can see Ran's wide smile at you and clapping his hands. But there are no Rindou, he always sticking with his brother but not on this wedding.

Bonten is the famous criminal organization, but the wedding were full with hope and love that for you both. Cant believe , their loyal mad dog got married, it is not like he is a bad person but all he could think of was way before he met you, was Mikey.

Then, you tilted your head straight to the front, a pretty little your husband-to-be with his beauty diamond scars, and infamous mullrt pink hair, from a far you can see his tears forms. Ah, you did the same too.

Cant believe 11 years of being his girlfriend, finally comes to the sparks.

" You're so beautiful, my lovely wifey," Sanzu kiss your forehead gently.

You were crying for two reasons; happiness and sadness.

Happy for your marriage and sad because your bestfriend wasnt there to witness your pre-beggining of family.

Rindou close his eyes, tears still flowing from the corner of eyes. How long it has been ? He couldnt care less. The sun start to setting down, and he heard his door knocked and his brother voice, " can you stepped outside ? ", what's the point of him hiding his tears from his own brother, he opened the door and Ran's shoved a small pendrive, " what's this? ", Ran shrugged his shoulder and tell him, to connect it on the computer.

Doesnt want to waste any more time, he clicked the only file that have been saved in the pendrive. The file named with Rindous'.

A video.

He clicked it again then, there you were, with Sanzu.

You sat on the couch prettily with your wedding dress , Sanzu looks so gentle caressing your hand. You must records it after the wedding.

The wedding dress reminds him the dress that you loves so much when you're in teen. The tuxedo on Sanzu makes him more extra handsome.

He heard you cleared throat,

" Hi, Rinnie. How long it has been ? I miss you so much. I was expecting you to come but nevermind, maybe something urgent happened to you. I just wanna says , thank you for being there for me, whenever i stumble and got a cut on my knees then, you came to piggyback me, when i got into fight with other girls for being jealous that i close with you and Ran, ah.. i got Haitani's girl nick name. Hahahahahahahhahahahhahaha, that's was nice, Rin. You helped me when cheating on exam because i didnt make revision at all, oh , did you remember that we once promised to have a pretty kid in the future, Rin- im married today. You are the first person i wanted to hug, and nagging about how i keep messing up with my steps on the aisle, just like how i usually nagging about my shitty days back in the day. Actually, i do realised that you gone during the christmas parade, Rin , it was not like i didnt care about you , i do, i really do, but for the first time, i want my boyfriend become my first priority. I knew you like me for a long time but Rindou, i like you in other way, i like you as my brother. Everything with you was memoriable, Rin. I did this video just for you. For my one and only bestfriend, i love you, Rin. I will always look forward to yours ",

with that you ended your video, Sanzu also have a chance to say thank you for being a great and supportive towards his wife all this time. He can see you sniffle at the last of video end. Was it hurt you too? Or because her bestfriend didnt come to her wedding ? Rindou also can hear Sanzu convinved and sweetly says " issa ok babe"

He burst into tears, he doesnt care if his brother saw him in his worst lowest moment, he loved you too much, still cant accept that you are belong to someone else, everyday, he craved to hear your nagging, complaints, pouty face, want to be the first person prepared your pads in case emergency, makes you a hot chocolate, God, he want to be everything for you.

Ran feels empathy when he saw his brother broke down, he hugged him and patted his back, " it is ok, rin, she is not ours anymore. We should be happy for her, y'know ",

Ran smiled and reassured his brother to take rest and off days.

13 years old of y/n and Rindou,

" Rinnie, looks at that. That waa an asteroid, called as shooting star, there are a mitos about the granted wish, quickly make a wish ", you slapped Rindou's back happily, and Rindou did whatever you says ,

" i want y/n to be happy, even by that means i have to be sad for her "

Oh, how you should carefully choose your words when make a wish. The wish can be granted in exchange for someone else.

;)

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thewritingstar · 4 years

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I would ask you 1-100 but that's a huge request and doubt you'll do it, UNLESS🤔🙃

UNLESS....

1. Name- Deanna or as everyone knows me, Star

2. Nationality- American

3. Age- 19

4. Birthday- April 5th

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign)- Aries

6. Gender- Female

7. Sexuality- Bi/Pan (im fine with either)

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself)- Dark brown hair, greenish eyes and body of a 12 year old boy

9. What do you/did you study?- Animation

10. What’s your current job like?/What job would you like to have?- I work in an ice cream shop just as a job but i wanna be an animator or writer for shows

11. Your birth order- Youngest of 2

12. How many siblings do you have?- One

13. Do you have good relations with your family?- for the most part

14. How many friends do you have?- I would say I have about 8 close friends and then just a ton of other friends

15. Your relationship status- single but accepting applications

16. What do you look for in a SO?- usually a pulse and good hair

17. Do you have a crush?- kinda but also no

18. When did you have your first kiss?- haven't yet :(

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands?- prob meaningful

20. What are your deal breakers?- smoking and drugs and how they treat others

21. How was your day?- well i just woke up so i guess good.

22. Favourite food & drink- Raspberry iced tea/Vanilla Lattes and Chowmein or burgers

23. What position do you sleep in?- either on my side or stomach. Im usually curled up in a ball so prime cuddle position...just saying

24. What was your last dream about?- I think it was about cake..

25. Your fears- bugs and the overwhelming thought of me being a failure

26. Your dreams- being someone where others can be inspired by

27. Your goals- to live a life with no regrets (i know typical right?) but also have a successful career.

28. Any pets?- 2 doggos

29. What are your hobbies?- drawing, painting, writing, video games, reading

30. Any cool places in your area?- kinda but you gotta drive to them so not really

31. What was your last awkward situation?- me stuttering over my words at work

32. What is your last regret?- idk

33. Language/s you can speak- English and barely any French

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.)- hell yeah

35. Have any quirks?- i can make a guinea pig noise and can stand on my head for a while.

36. Your pet peeves- having my neck being touched and mouth breathing

37. Ideal vacation- Any disney park

38. Any scars?- only mentally

39. What does your last text message say? “Shes being a big girl and taking 5 classes.”

40. Last 5 things from your search history- im to lazy to check but prob youtube or fics

41. What’s your [device] background?- Phone background is a painting from a museum and my computer is a bunch of Nintendo items

42. What do you daydream about?- being a voice actor or a pirate

43. Describe your dream home- one that looks like a castle

44. What’s your religion/Your thought about religion- I was raised Catholic but i really dont practice it anymore. I think it its a beautiful thing and alot of good comes from it, however i dont like it when it is used to harm others or defend evil people

45. Your personality type- So i took a test based on the 16 different ones and I am an Advocate type which apparetnly is very rare and less than one percent of the pop are it. https://www.16personalities.com/ heres the link if you wanna take it!

46. The most dangerous thing you’ve done- I used to suck on batteries as a child

47. Are you happy with your current life?- for the most part

48. Some things you’ve tried in your life- Snorkeling in Hawaii (which i almost died), Crystal Cave tour and donuts which i hate

49. What does your wardrobe consist of?- hoodies and graphic tees

50. Favourite colour to wear?- black

51. How would you describe your style?- comfortable and sometimes i look good

52. Are you happy with your current looks?- ye

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be?- I want blue hair one day

54. Any tattoos or piercings?- have my ears and now my nose pierced but i do want tattoos in the future

55. Do you get complimented often?- usually for my hair and i find it happens often

56. Favourite aesthetic?- Gothic and pastel

57. A popular trend that you dislike- crop tops

58. Songs you’re currently obsessed with?- “Good Night Moon” by Go Radio

59. Song you normally wouldn’t admit you like.- My Little Pony and Sofia the First songs slap

60. Favourite genre?- pop punk or pop

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? -Panic!, Taylor Swift

62. Hated popular songs/artists?- I wouldn’t say hate but im not really a fan of Billie Ellish, maybe i need to sit down and really listen but its just not my jam. I think shes a cool person and i love watching her on tv and what she stands for. By i hate Drake and Chris Brown for sure.

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5- Head above Water, Happy when im sad, Love bug, Casual affair, I believe. So Avril Lavigne, Jonas Brothers and Panic!

64. Can you sing or play any instruments?- Im not the worst singer but im also not fantastic and i can’t play

65. Do you like karaoke?- sometimes

66. Own any albums?- like cds then yes

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations?- not anymore

68. Favourite movie/series?- Any disney or pixar

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc- YA like adventure books

70. Your fictional crush/es- oh here we go. Juvia and Gray (Fairytail), Catwoman, Danny Phantom, Captain Hook and Regina Mills and Henry (Ouat), Steve (stranger things), Riddler (gotham) and Molly Hooper (Sherlock) and prob more.

71. Which fictional character is you?- prob a mixture of Momo and Deku from My Hero and Honey from Ouran

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so. Am I a shipper? ha. aight Gruvia, Nalu, Gajevy, Jerza, Kiribaku, Kacchacko, Todomomo, tododeku, LadyNoir and the love square, Captain Swan, Outlaw Queen, The powerpuff girls and the rowdyruff boys (respected partners) and like five thousand others

73. Favourite greek god?- Hades and Persephone

74. A legend from where you live that you like- literally nothing from where i live

75. Do you like art? What’s your favourite work or artist?- love art and i cant just pick one

76. Can you share your other social media?- i mean you can follow me on twitter at StarsnShortcake but all thats there is my shitty tweets and interactions with my friends and Voice actors lol

77. Favourite youtubers?- Mikes Mic, Macdoesit, Twamiz, Larri, Dan Howell, Amazing Phil, Jenna Marbles, Shane Dawson, Steph Inc, Garret Watts, and like a ton more

78. Favourite platform?- Tumblr or twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet?- too much

80. What video games have you played? Which one’s your favourite?- I love anything Nintendo

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts)- Kingdom Keepers, Suicide Notes and the Selection Series to name a few

82. Do you play board/card games?- Yes

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema?- nope

84. Favourite holiday- thanksgiving for the food

85. Are you into dramas?- ye

86. Would you use death note, if you had one?- haha ye

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to?- no racism, sexism, homophobia and legal marriage everywhere. Also that no one goes hungry and everyone has a nice place to live.

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse?- probably

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be?- a hot demon

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death?- I turn into a goddess

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick?- ooo Celeste is a cool name

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week?- hmmm Tara Strong

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo- either the stars or the black heart or the fireworks

94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true- Ive never eaten a chicken nugget, I can do the splits and I have cat

95. Cold or hot?- hot

96. Be a hero or be a villain?- oooooo um im a sucker for villains

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme?- Rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time?- Shape shifting, i could be a plant

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?- bold of you to assume i would wanna live forever

100. ….. or …..?- :0

HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS ANON CAUSE IT TOOK FOREVER.

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tellmesomethinggg · 4 years

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linking this here bc it was technically a journal? i just don’t want it on my notes anymore and if i ever (likely not to) want to re-read for whatever reason. please note that i knew people would read this so things are censored and are the basic version. also there was a switch at one point from **** to chris because i didn’t want things to be read

(for later when i got time lmao)

Matt is a piece of shit that just wants to fuck -Chloe

well fuck

here goes nothing

the plan: don’t get drunk bc i got shit to do early next morning and ill tell him tomorrow when i do get drunk. spoiler alert that didn’t work

Gaby (coles gf) came too btw

so i had a smirnoff ice and said no more than two shots after so id be buzzed but not fully drunk (i ended up having three and was very much drunk)

me jon and gaby we’re talking about guys and i mentioned something about liking a guy or some shit and gaby looks at matt and then me and confirms it with me. then she tells me that apparently when she met me and a few other friends at the beach last quarter, that she predicted the two of us would end up together and told cole this. im like wtf how and she claims she’s psychic lol

later, Matt and i are on the sack and he looks at me and goes do you like me and im thinking well fuck so i say yes and he’s like well shit sorry but (and then i forgot exactly what he said) something along the lines of it’s not mutual or it’s not the right timing (i forgot okay) and then he gets up after a bit to go to the bathroom (I’m pretty sure cole went out too) and then me gaby and Jon have a chisme session and they think that he does like me but whatever

so the guys come back and at this point i really need to pee again so matt offers to take me and we start talking and he’s all, oh im sorry if i led you on and shit and im like it’s alright ill get over it, it just might be a bit awkward for me for a bit. but then on our way back from the bathroom he asks me , do you wanna at least kiss your crush at least one time and im like uhh yeah so he kisses me and then we start talking but i forgot about what and im kinda dizzy so he says, oh let’s sit on the couches for a bit before we go back, so we do and somehow we kiss again and then start making out

and at this point im like bitch there’s no way you don’t like me like why would you do that if you didn’t

so we finally go back and it’s been some time so the rest of em are obviously curious

matt goes with cole to the bathroom again and the three of us have a chisme session otra vez and they’re like yeah he fucking likes you he’s prob just scared bc of his last relationship

cole comes back in and basically backs up their side based on his convo he just had with matt

and so it’s decided that we’ll both sleep on the sack, Jon sleeps on his bed and the other two together in coles bed

he comes back and we all “go to sleep” but I push for him to hold me like he usually does whenever we sleep together and around like 2,3 am we both start making out again and just like uhhhh

also we’re both very much drunk but of course i tend to remember things whenever ive gotten drunk, however, he did not and so now we gotta talk and figure shit out and go from there

also im not telling Emilou or Hanna yet until we figure things out so

yeah

fuck

alrighty, so after last night, ive decided to do absolutely nothing about it and decided to just let things play out the way things do. i don’t wanna say something and ruin our friendship that we have bc i trust him a lot and like hanging out with him, so, i guess the end of this note for now, unless the situation changes anytime soon

Can Tim see what I write on this? -Chloe

Yes -Janet

Hi Tim!

-Chloe

Tim pls respond.

-Chloe

Hi Chloe! Sorry I have been busy at home LOL

He responded I’m so happy!

-Chloe

FYI im just going to add things at the top of the note so that its easiwr to see stuff when i add it bc then otherwise youd have to scroll a ton

and I’m dating shit so i know when I wrote stuff and my memory and yeahhh

FEB 15 1 pm

chillin in alp so lets get this chisme

alrighty so last night i stayed the night in pratts but it wasnt just me so calmate, it was me and jon bc long story short i was too lazy/dizzy to get up and jons roommate had her bf over. basically we both shared the bed, not a lot of physical contact but whateva

brb

anyways, there was also one point where he was watching a movie from his childhood and idk what tf it was but he was shocked that i havent seen those movies, so apparently now im gonna watch them so i told him for payback we gotta watch disney movies lmao

oh also! i fucking got back to my room and took a shower to get ready for class, and when hanna gets back from class shes all like oh you slept in HiS rOoM huh and i was like uhhh yeah and told her the truth like i was too lazy and dizzy to get up and then she didnt really say anything but uhhhh yikes

and then i mentioned this to emilou later when we were walking to class and shes like yeah idk why she did that that was weird and i was thinking like thank God she doesnt think the same as hanna bc shes also slept in his room on the bean bag a few times

FEB 14 2pm

heyyy its valentines day and guess whos still single and workinggg

so uhhh last night, around 1, both me and pratt finished our shit (hw and studying) and im wide awake so im like hey, brooklyn 99? (because i got him into the show and i love rewatching the show bc its sooo good) and hes down so we start watching in his room. were both on his bed but were sitting (for the tie being) and eventually i decide to lay down and use one of his pillows but its the flat pillow so i attempt to steal his other one, which he protests and we lowkey wrestle over it and eventually i fail ugh and i fall over in frustration and land my head on his knee and then just quit and stay there, but get this, he just deals with it and lays on top of me, like his head is on my side. granted we both also have pillows so like his pillow is in between me and him and same for me but like ughhh

and eventually i fall asleep for like an episode (?) and wake up right before 3 am, and then decide hey sleep sounds important bc i have an 8 am and so does he, so i sit up but im too lazy to get up right away so i sit and go through twitter and shit so chris just lays down with his head on my leg and i set my arm down on his chest and he falls asleep for a few minutes and then i finish going through my social media and every part of me doesnt wanna move, but im also in a position that would be uncomfortable to fall asleep in so i wake him up and then go back to my room

oh and the other thing i forgot was that for a good couple hours we were texting and joking around and yeahhh

i feel like im reading a lot into what happens but at the same time, like i doubt id be this comfortable doing shit with guys like this and idk about him, but like sometimes i wonder you know?

also, saturday night, as far as i know, its just me and him going to the basketball game bc idk who else is going (eye emoji insert here bc im on my computer lmao) so we'll see what happens

FEB 10 11am

okay soooo last night,

the plan was to get buzzed, just me and matt and watch Brooklyn 9-9 but then Anthony and emilou joined us so never mind. after a bit, Anthony leaves so he can answer a phone call and pratt offers me shot #1 and not emilou (she’s laying on the bean bag, I’m on his roommates bed chillin behind her so she can’t see what’s up)

we take two and im slightly buzzed but i think “hey lets see how much we can take before she notices” and he’s down so uhhh let’s get this

later we have to include Anthony and he’s down to see how much we can take and he just lets us continue, i get to 4 shots and he finishes the bottle so i can’t have a 5th

brb im gonna go eat with him

okay im back now...

anyways were both pretty out of it, emilou still hasnt noticed and anthony finds this all funny i assume and so do i , and eventually she finds out and then the two of them leave i guess around 2 am and the two of us are both on the bean bag and were both tired and drunk and drunk me like petting his hair and apparently holding his hand and well yeah i kinda hate drunk me bc if that wasnt obvious enough lmao :/

continuin, we basically end up cuddled together most of the night until we both kind of sober up hella early in the morning and kind of separate a bit

and so in the morning guess who brought it uppp and i at least have an excuse that i was drunk and not thinking and just kinda doing whatever drunk me wanted to do (but omggg his hair is so fucking nice to play with omg) anyways imma just die real quick bc idk what happens now

also since no one else was in the room literally no one else knows about this and i think were keeping it that way bc lets be honest if anyone found out about that i think id be screwed for secret keeping and then well yeah

FEB 8 1AM

i remembered:

sunday 2-3

i forgot this happened but before I ended up in chris’s room i was chillin upstairs watching tv and then he came out on the phone with some one and long story short he said something on the phone to his friend along the lines of “you’re gonna have me in your life for a long time” and when he was saying that i was looking at him bc soy chismosa and i was curious and he winked at me and I died

Monday 2-4

so the other thing that happened was I had lunch/dinner with him before my writing class and no recuerdo que decimos, but uhhhh yeah

i like hanging out with him

also, just got back from his room and am more convinced that he may not like me but actually just sees me as a friend but at the same time maybe he does but IDK

i hate feelings and it’d be so much easier if i didn’t have them sometimes lmaooo

FEB 7 5-7 PM

so im currently in the room rn so im gonna try to make this as chronological as possible

saturday 2-2

alrighty so mind you this is the day ive volunteered with ship and have spent the whole day there, (i dont remember why i thought this was relevant :/)

so saturday night, i go to work in his room around 8 (?) so i can work on my essay and finish my shit bc he has a bean bag thats hella comfy to work on

andd so later on, jocelyn comes in to watch anime with him and then after i finish we all decide to watch gabriel iglesias and ended up squishing together on the bean bag with me in the middle of the two of them

and so were all chillin there, laughing whatever and at one point chris fucking pratt puts his head on my shoulder for a little bit and i dIeDddd

and eventually i fall asleep when we start watching emperors new groove and mind you im fucking next to chris pratt like uhhhh my GOD

so i wake up once the movies over and then go to the bathroom and come back and by then he has taken over the whole bean bag and im sad that i cant just get back and go back to sleep so i go back to my room

(hanna doesnt know what time i get back i think and im pretty sure it was around4 am) (emilous also not here bc she went home for the weekend)

sunday 2-3

so i decide hey i was productive yesterday and decide to return to his room to work on shit and try to get as much done before work in theevening

i finish around 1/2? and then i tell him im bored and i wanna do something before work but idk what so he says lets go to the rec room and its just the two of us and its chillin and he puts me on his story playing pool lmao

and then i go to work :(

but then THEN later after work i go for a run and end up back in his room and theres a couple other people there and so were all chilling (mind you this is around midnight)

and somehow i end up falling asleep on the bean bag next to this girl jon from my hall and (this is a secret in a secret) but i hear her get up at one point and then chris pratt then joins me and during the night im tossing and turning and leaning on him a bit (ughhhh i died a shit ton)

monday 2-4

so in the morning around 720 or so i wake up pay dumb and am like oh whend you get here and he explains and then hes like yeah i dont really know the girl who slept in my bed (one of jons friends) and i figured since im more comfortable with you id just move here (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck me upppp) [please note that when i say fuck me up i dont mean that type of fuck]

alrighty thats what i remember that i havent told you, and then the other bit from the screen record was tuesday and now its thursday and here i am in guess whos room again

possibly staying the night lmao

but jons also here so its not like im staying the night staying the night

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oh my god. Ok so I just scrolled through your blog and my heart hurts because there is so much love and just so much stuff I can relate too and I just ahhh damnnn it I cant even but like can I please have the story of your relationship with this girl your with? please? i'm a hopeless romantic I feel too much I love so hard my own love life is complicated but i know the kind of love you talk about thats exactly how i love the love of my life too so yours is a story I need to hear

ok so. it all started on April 31st, 2018. i reblogged one of those ask games and she sent me an emoji that said “i’m too scared to talk to you but i think you’re great” and i was like do it!!! and she did!!!! she texted me after i had already gone to sleep tho, so i only answered the next day. but then we talked all day. and the next. and the next. and we never ran out of things to talk about and even only knowing her for a few days i already felt comfortable enough with her to talk about anything?? it was wild. since day 1 we’ve had this connection that i’ve never had with anyone else and its my favorite thing in the world. after like a week we already had a bunch of inside jokes, something that i’d never had before, and i was already crushing on her. ok so we became very close friends like immediately, and i mostly ignored my crush on her bc i thought she didn’t like me back and usually i’d get meaningless crushes on everyone at first before i met her. but then this other girl and i started flirting and i realized i didnt like her bc i liked c too much, so i broke things off and kinda went like “oh shit this is real” and decided that i’d just stay friends with c until i eventually couldnt take it anymore and had to tell her abt my feelings bc thats how i am. anyways ok cool meanwhile i made her watch the good place on rabb.it with me which will be relevant later.

ok so fast forward to may 21st or something around that time. its time to sleep bc i have school the next day so we say goodnight, but then i guess she says something or reblogs something and i get sad bc i realize she doesnt like me back. so i make some hashtag sad posts abt yearning and then i realize i told her i was going to sleep and i didnt want her to think i didnt want to talk to her so i text her again and say like “ok i was going to go to sleep but then i got sad abt my crush” and SHE GOES “you have a crush????????” and im there like. what in the hell bc not only did i not try to hide it At All, i constantly posted about it and had an entire tag about her and i thought it was pretty obvious. so anyways i go “yes?? i thoought you knew that?? im literally always posting about it??” and she asks me to talk abt the crush and who it is. i say “just stalk the tag if u want, im going to sleep” then shes like “nO WAIT WHO IS IT” and im like. blatantly ignoring that and my heart is already beating out of my chest but she Really wants to know and then at one point i say “please dont make me answer that” so shE SAYS “you’re making me think that its me” and i say “i dont know what you want me to say” and SHE GOES “I WANT YOU TO SAY THAT ITS ME BC I HAVE A HUGE CRUSH ON YOU” so i just. die. right then and there. also yknow we talk about it and its like after 1 am and im just happier than i’ve ever been. ok so 2 days later she asks me out Officially and its great and shes the cutest gf ever and she made me feel more wanted than i’d ever felt in my entire life. then 6 days later she sends me a big big big text on tumblr and long story short (bc it was kinda personal), she would be deleting her all social media for the summer.

so she was gone. and we had only dated for a week at this point, but we’d known each other for 2 months, and i already loved her. i already knew she was the love of my life. i didnt even try to move on, i’d tell people i didnt wanna move on cuz i knew i was meant to love her. i had another blog like this that i used to talk about how much i loved and missed her (so like. exactly like this). i literally reasoned with myself that like. that happened because before i met her i was in a really bad place after a terrible relationship and i was almost giving up on finding someone who actually made me feel loved bc i thought it would never happened, so i was like “ok so i was in a really bad place, so the universe brought my soulmate a little early just for a while so that i would know i had to hold on, and when its actually time for us to be together, it will bring us to each other once again” like i actually told myself that, in those words. and yknow what? i wasnt even wrong. on july 15th she texted me from an empty tumblr with her old url and at first i literally couldnt believe it but we talked for hours and hours and i asked her what happened bc i thought she was disconnecting for the summer and she said “i was. i am. i just couldnt not talk to you anymore” and she said that she thought about me every single day, and i told her i missed her and she said she didnt text sooner bc she thought i’d be angry at her and ofc i wouldnt, i could never be angry at her and besides, she was just taking care of herself and i said i dont think i could be anything less than head over heels for for, and she said she felt the same way, but wasnt ready to be more than friends yet. but that had always been more than enough for me. just having her in my life would always be more than enough for me. so we stayed friends.

then, on august 9th i got this ask.

and she saw it after i said i was gonna go to bed (bc again, i had school the next day) and she texted me a whole thing about how that was the nicest thing anyone had ever said about her and that i should be asleep but she had to get it out of her chest and that her anxiety made it hard for her to show how much i meant to her so she was sorry if i didnt know and this would probably make no sense but she was tired of keeping it to herself bc shes the luckiest person alive for having met me and that it was gonna be so hard because shes so difficult (shes not) and her anxiety is difficult but that she literally spent every night thinking about me and of buying plane tickets to come see me so that she could be with me. then she was like “im sorry if this is uncomfortable to you and you can just ignore it but i think im in love with you and this is over text and not romantic at all (it was the most romantic night of my life) but you’re asleep (i wasnt) and we arent together but i want to be one day” and until this i was Trying to fall asleep and then i checked my phone that kept RINGING and died a thousand times over and started to answer and she sent other texts saying “i’ve never felt this way about anyone before i’m so in love with you its fucking ridiculous and this is gonna be so complicated but fuck i want this so bad / i’m sorry it took me so long / would you move to new york with me?” and i was This Close to literally fucking exploding like. how the hell was this happening how was it not a DREAM. so we talked and i obviously said i loved her too and eventually she asked me out and thats still probably the best night of my life. other highlights: “i’ve loved you way before august 9th so jot that down” and “off topic but i love you / you’re honestly my other half” and, after i said “you cant make me laugh its 2am”, she answered “i’m going to make you laugh for the rest of your life so help me god” and thats my favorite thing anyone has ever said to me probably and so far she’s kept her word.

anyways we got back together and then she told me that she never even told her friends she broke up with me??? bc that way she could keep pretending we were still together???? literally like sjdksndk imagine being this loved. i dont have to. anyways she wrote poems abt me sometimes and her christmas gift for me was gonna be a book with all her poems and she called it “what we owe to each other” because of the good place (remember how i said it’d be relevant later? its later) bc like she said that when we were watching tgp together on rabb.it thats when she realized that she Really Truly liked me like For Real. and the inscription on the book was going to be “to the girl i love / and what i owe her” and. yall. i cry. anyways one of the poems had a huge impact on us. heres the story:

and she got them but we broke up before she got to mail them to me. what happened was she had some mental health problems and she said she couldnt give me what i needed at the time but knew i’d still give her my all bc thats just how i am and she thought it wouldnt be fair so she broke things off to work on her mental health. she said she would need some time before we could be friends. the last thing we said was that we loved each other. this was in like november 2018, and we didnt talk for months. i actually tried to move on this time after a while, but it didnt take. and then i gave up for good. havent tried since. but anyways, then, on march 11th, 2019, i had my first day of college back in my home country, and we have this “pranks”/games that seniors get to do to the freshmen, and one of them required eggs, and they asked us to paint them, so i panted mine as iron man bc it was easy, but c LOVES iron man. like. LOVES. like in a Whole New Level of loving. once when we were dating she said she loved me more than tony stark and i was like. shook. like she tattooed “T.S” on her ankle after him. u get the point. she loves him very much, its adorable and endearing and i love it. anyways. so i sent her a picture of it saying like “you dont have to answer this but i made this for my university and i thought you would like it” and she answered and IMMEDIATELY something clicked and we talked and talked and talked and it was never weird or awkward or uncomfortable. it never is with her. its incredible, i cant explain it. i Know shes my soulmate like thats the ONLY possible explanation for this kind of connection. its unreal. anyways. we became friends again! all was well.

then one beautiful night she drunk texts me sndjkajs she sends me so many texts and says it sucks that we live so far away and that she saw my posts (in this particular case, one that said something about like. when she talked about love now, was it about someone else?) and she said that it wasnt. and then she went to sleep and i only saw the texts when i woke up and i was DYING bc we had a 4 hour difference and it’d take a while for her to wake up. when she did, we talked and she said she wasnt over me and was scared she might never be, and even though we were still gonna stay friends, it was nice to know that she still loved me. ok so fast forward a bit more and i was starting to wonder if she’d moved on again, when she finds out her best friend had a crush on her, and that conversation ends up with her saying “it was 100% platonic for me / sorry if thats weird i just wanted you to know that” and it was NOT weird it was GREAT NEWS bc i was Hella jealous of her best friend and at first i wondered if they were dating and anyways the fact that she wanted me to know that was a pretty good hint that she still had feelings for me. ngl im still somewhat jealous of h (c’s best friend), but thats just bc im an insecure lil bitch and also bc they get to go out and do stuff together that i cant do with c bc of the distance, yknow? but anyways. then she went on a graduation trip in mid to the end of june and she bought me a magnet. just. out of nowhere. i cannot stress enough how Incredibly unexpected this was. so much so that i actually convinced myself that it meant she was over me????? literally. what the fuck. anyways we named him together and coincidentally (or bc of soulmate powers. who knows) we both had the same favorite names. i still love that.

okay so then we go to july 29th, 2019. first of all theres one of my favorite interactions Ever which was like after i was venting about something and i was thanking her and i said “you’re always here for me” to which she answered “nowhere else i’d rather be” and i still think thats peak romance and i will take no criticism on this. anyways so then she sent me a poem that she wrote based on a song i’d sent her (the song i called “heaven is a place” and its the BIGGEST mood for being in love and i sent it to her bc it was how i felt about her so her writing a poem about it?? literally the best thing ever. love it) anyways it was a beautiful poem and i cried and got very emotional and kinda went too far in my compliments (aka being very obvious about my romantic feelings) and then i was like oh no sorry if i made u uncomfortable and she was like. “you have NEVER. EVER EVER EVER EVER made me uncomfortable” “you’re the only person on planet earth i am comfortably myself around” and “there’s nothing you could ever say that i wouldn’t wanna hear” and anyways it was just very good and romantic conversation even tho we were just cough cough platonic hashtag gal pals hashtag no homo ✌️ and then she was like ok wait. i need to talk to u abt something. and in short she said she was waiting for us and i was like well what are you waiting for exactly? and she was like idk?? for us to accidentally bump into each other in new york in a few years?? WHICH WAS LITERALLY WHAT I’D DAYDREAM ABOUT BACK IN JUNE 2018 BEFORE SHE CAME BACK OKAY so anyways we had a Great conversation and said i love you about a thousand times each and she decided she was gonna buy tickets to come see me. and then she dID like TWO DAYS LATER. lichrally. queen of impulsivity but in the best way possible.

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ok quick edit here cuz i forgot to say that when i found out she was coming i asked for my mom’s help to make a necklace pendant for her from scratch. my mom works with prosthetics so she has the material to make jewelry and back when c and i were dating in 2018 i had made this lil design for a necklace that had the moon and the ocean (bc duh) and i was gonna give it to her for valentines day in 2019 but we broke up before that so i didnt get the chance, but when i found out i was meeting her i knew i had to. so i made the necklace in wax, like this:

and my mom took it to her work and heated it up to melt it and keep the shape of it to fill with silver, and this was the result:

i gave it to her when she got here and she wore it while she was here and it made me so happy. ok edit over

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ok so we kept being like couple-y but not officially in a relationship bc we didnt want to make her anxiety worse. also at one point she was like “so about the ‘i love you more than the moon/ocean’ thing, since we BOTH love BOTH of the moon AND the ocean, i think its only Fair if we update our love declarations to ‘i love you more than the mocean’ bc its mix of both but thats not a word, buT its pronounced exactly like ‘motion’. therefore we should both start saying ‘i love you more than the motion’”. so now we have both the wonderful, romantic, original version, and the NOT ROMANTIC AT ALL DO U HEAR ME C??? version :) and after this day she always started with the WORST!!!!!! version, and i always started with the Only Valid Version, but we’d still answer each other’s ofc because. well. thats love i gues?? it sorta goes like this though: her: i love you more than the motion / me: i hate u / me: i literally hate u so much / me: i Also love you more than the motion

but anyways she was coming to visit me but the plane ticket wasnt for my home country it was for where i was going to university at (a new university, i was starting over) and when i first got here on this campus, i didnt have a working phone number for this country, and i wouldnt be able to access the wifi for 3 days, so i had no way of talking to her. it was TERRIBLE and i missed her more than anything in my LIFE but when i got wifi (after CRYING to the people here bc theyre the most unorganized uni ever and i was already very overwhelmed and stressed) i immediately called her and she’d sent me over 100 text messages dkfjssjks it was amazing, there were two (2) videos of her singing (which is like. objectively the best thing in the world, and the song was rlly romantic and i love it sm when she showed it to me for the first time she said it made her think abt me), a poem, AND a HUGE text with “i love you” written like. a THOUSAND TIMES. seriously i have a gif of it opening and scrolling bc it was so long that the text wouldnt show up directly on the chat screen and u have to click on it to see the rest. i’d never felt more loved in my entire life by anyone ever. anyways so then it came the day for her to get here and i had to wake up at 5 am to go get her at the airport and the uber was like $40 but who CARES it was the best day of my LIFE and i got there 20 minutes earlier bUT GUESS WHAT SO DID SHE (hashtag just soulmate things) then we facetimed the entire time while she was walking through the airport and getting her luggage and then she hung up to walk to the door where i was and we hugged for like 5 minutes and we were totally in people’s way and also almost fell but it was the best thing in the world and i never should’ve let her go. but, we had to go home, so i did. and we spent 4 days together and im not gonna go into details bc this is already too long but u can always send me another ask about her visit if ur not a coward. also i bought her a hoodie from my uni and whenever she wears it i just. die. in short, those days were the happiest i’ve ever been. this campus res had never felt like home before that friday and it hasnt again since that monday, but i swear to god, during those 4 days, this was the only place i could possibly belong.

anyways then she left and i cried for the entire uber ride home and then i cried all day. lmao. also when she was here she gave me the poetry book, the magnet, and the bracelet. still wear the bracelet every single day and i love it more than anything. but then personal stuff happened and we kinda stopped being couple-y again and we’re just friends now but before new years i asked her if she still loved me and she said yes and she said she’d tell me if it changed so ✌️✌️ im assuming it hasnt. even tho my brain is a bitch and everyday its like. today. today is the day. this is when its gonna happen. buT yknow we’ve spent months before without even talking to each other and we got through that still in love, so i mostly ignore it. and tbh i know that actually like, even if we grow apart now (god forbid, but still) we’ll find our way back to each other eventually. like, i’ve said this before and i’ll say it again: nothing, not even the universe itself, can convince me that shes not my soulmate. and even if it turns out i’m not hers, loving her is still the greatest honor i can think of.

another edit: also i started drawing recently and the first person i’ve ever finished drawing was her and also (surprise surprise @c since you’re already seeing all my feelings anyway) bc of my second drawing i almost missed the deadline for one of my midterms (which was a take-home test) bc instead of writing it i spent the entire day before the deadline finishing the drawing which was a secret valentines day gift (secret as in she didnt know it was supposed to be a gift, she thought it was just a drawing inspired by a quote that she loves) and i finished at 2 am but shes 3 hours behind so for her it was still 11 pm which MEANS it was still valentines day so it still counts, i win, lesbian rights!

#mine #l #answered #dont rb #i dont think anyone will but this is personal and i dont want to risk it getting out #i wanna have this bc i love telling people this story and next time someone asks i’ll just send them this post

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free-falling-grenade · 6 years

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The Gazebo under a cherry tree

Also in here. Ao3

Chapter 1

The horrid sound of Beca's ringtone was something she despised nowadays. After her fame had reached its peak a year after the USO tour, it was definitely more work than she had imagined. Fame still at peak 3 years today but as a new and fairly known music producer which she preferred rather than being the performing artist. The 2 years singing career was enough to put her name out there as she used it to her advantage to show off her main talent.

Beca let out a distasteful groan as she managed to lift her heavy eyelids to the sound of the dull ringtone that echoed in her house. She let it ring. It was a Sunday, the only day off she had where she slept in till late afternoon and ate like a slob. However, a call on a Sunday morning meant they needed her. As reluctant and unwilling Beca was, she would get up and do it. Because that was all she could do.

As much as Beca loved her job, basically living the dream, working with amazing artists who wants her to produce their album, how exciting the rush of it all gave her; at the end of the day, going back to her beautiful, small Malibu home - it was lonely. Beca Mitchell at 30 years old, had some sort of social life, little to no love life and out right alone. She still had the Bellas, some visiting her when they could but with half of them like Stacie and Flo who had two children already and the other half, either focused on their own work, newly wed or just about to get married. The thought of marriage sent a wave of sadness to cloud all over her.

Her tired, exhausted and slightly hungover state managed to sit up turning her body to stare at the half burnt invitation that lay on her side table along with empty bottles of beer and an ash tray of blunts. She frowned at the sight. The reason for her wild Saturday night alone of getting wasted and high to almost burning her bedsheets while she tried to extinguish the excruciating painful reality that laid written on the fine printed paper.

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Braselton, Georgia.

Beca would be lying if she said she didnt expect it to happen, she definitely did. But that didn't mean she was ready for it. She knew, even with millions of ways her head had tried to deny it, to instead make up nasty assumptions that they would fall apart one day, that the redhead would come running to her and everything would be perfect. Unfortunately, those thoughts itself made it hurt a little more. Because she knew yet she helplessly hoped.

She was hopelessly in love with Chloe Beale. After the USO tour, they all sadly moved out of their small Brooklyn apartment going their separate ways. However, she didnt expect going their separate ways meant the bond she had with her bestfriend to leave along with it. She tried not to blame it solely because of her newly found boyfriend but she knew that was one of the main reasons. They tried to talk to each other everyday but as days went by, time and work consumed their freedom leaving the miserable distance between them to become a reality in their friendship. From long phone calls and texts to one sentence or word messages, then eventually nothing. Their WhatsApp group of the Bellas now only popping up from time to time but none of both the girls usually reply more than an emoji.

They were inseparable but she guessed even the most dynamic duo could be torn apart. Maybe it was for the best.

×××

She let the days go by without acknowledging the invitation that was now crumbled up at the corner of her room where she had thrown it one night when a wave of painful memories attack her.

Aubrey had noticed, sadly so. They always texted each other and snapped pictures of unconventional things which either Beca or Aubrey would say it reminded them of each other. Whether a snap of a garbage bin, a grumpy looking cartoon that was showing on TV or a man with blonde long hair (snapped by Beca) saying it looked like Aubrey.

Aubrey knew that Beca barely touched any sort of social media but she used it enough also per orders of her publicists for her image. So when she noticed the lack of communication between them, she knew. Which led her to visit the brunette without her knowing, only to find her in a heartbreaking state.

×××

It took a few months to heal halfway. The wedding only a few weeks left and Beca still hadn't RSVP'D. Till eventually she had made a decision,

"I'm going."

Aubrey turned to her brunette friend lying beside her on the warm sandy Malibu beach. They had decided to go out even if they weren't exactly beach people, LA lifestyle started to grow in them. Plus it was admittedly relaxing.

The blonde lifted her sunglasses on her head raising an eyebrow at the small brunette beside her,

"You said that last time."

The producer let out a scoff accompanied by a sad smile, "I've come to terms.. with myself yknow. I need closure. and I feel like this is my last chance. If I dont do it, I'll be stuck.. and I wouldnt know what the hell I'm gonna do if I let myself be in this dark shitty hole for God knows how long."

Beca paused taking a sharp inhale noticing herself lose composure a bit, she exhaled when she felt Aubrey's a little hesitant but reassuring hold on her forearm.

She sat up joining her friend beside her thankful for Aubrey and her friendship that had developed into some unspeakable mutual understanding. It wasnt as deep as Chloe's because that was different, but she's grateful for whatever rock she had right now she could hold on to. She wasn't as awkward when she opened up anymore, plus Aubrey already saw the worse of her.

"I know it's going to hurt. God..." she let's out a mirthless chuckle, " it's going to be worse than that, but I'll behave, I promise. I'll leave when I find myself losing control, or slap the fuck out of me might work as well. But I do want to be there. I need to see it. One final look, yknow? One final glance at her being the happiest she has ever been in her whole God damn life. One final reality check that this is it. Just...one final heartbreak. To end everything. So maybe I can start again. "

Aubrey could hear the broken desperation in her vulnerable shaky voice. She took a glance at the brunette beside her, the pain so evident, almost tangible, her own heart broke for her. The sound of distant laughter and the crash of the waves now muted in her ears, just the warm blow of the california breeze brushing through them as a reassuring touch on their delicate skin.

She didn't respond. She knew she didnt have to. So she firmly nodded, a silent promise she'll watch over her. The music producer turning to give her a big grin and a thumbs up while she excused herself to go to the restroom.

Aubrey found it quite ironic. If she told her old self that she would be taking care her of her best friend's crush, who she hated the very existence of, from heartbreak, the old her would have projectile vomited on her face. But here she was, from all those years taking care of Chloe's broken heart because of Beca's relationship with Jesse to Beca's even more painful experience with watching the love of her life slip away from her because she was too late.

This wasn't even her story, yet why did she feel like suffocating? She can't even imagine to start what Beca was feeling.

#bechloe #pitch perfect #post pp3 #beca mitchell #chloe beale #bechloe fanfic #mine #bechloe angst #what do yall think #lame? i know

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loveismyreligionom · 5 years

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Entry 9; 05.13.19 @ 2:33 p.m.

I’m at work on break. It’s just me on the patio and the new hostess sitting a few tables from me.

Yesterday was Mother’s Day and I worked the lunch shift. I texted my mother and other mother ( my best friend’s mom) and meant to call my grandmother but forgot. I know she won’t care but I really wanted to call and the reason I forgot isn’t a good enough one. There’s this guy I met online and we decided to meet up yesterday since it was the only free time I had. He is really nice but I can tell he is going to get clingy. Well, he wont because I’m cutting him off...already have. He was constantly complimenting me and it was bothering me. I like compliments but if I’m trying to have a conversation and you always find a way to twist everything into something about my appearence....I just hate that. I want to be heard and mentally stimulated. Also, he kept randomly asking if I was enjoying myself, when I wanted him to leave and if he was going to see me again OMG. It was irritating, he couldnt just relax and enjoy the moment. I thought he wanted to leave so I told him we would watch one more episode of Rick and Morty (he came over) and then he could leave. Then he told me he was fine with that but he wouldnt mind staying a little longer like??? Then why are you constantly asking when you should go?? Ugh it was annoying and then when he left, he wanted me to text him until I went to bed. I told him I was tired and that I just wanted to go to sleep but really I stayed up watched Hulu and smoked a bowl. I just feel like I wasted time yesterday witht this guy. I couldnt enjoy the visit at all.

So a quick update on my ex, he is finally gone and out of my life. Unfortunately I didnt get to do it in a chill, civil way. This was a few weeks ago, He was at my place for a few days because his car was getting fixed and I live closer to his job than he does. Of course this whole time he was still half ass trying to get me back. I was planning on keeping the peace until he got his car and then I would break it off gently. I came home from work on a Sunday night and he was already off work and waiting for me. We were fine, just chillin and he rolled a blunt for me. I sat on the couch next to him and he got a few snapchats in a row and opened it right next to me and I saw some sex related words and emojis so I ask him what that was. He quickly tried to hide it from me and show me only part of the conversation. I calmly asked for his phone because I wasnt convinced and he refused and told me that I was acting crazy and thats why I couldnt see it. I told him that he was a hypocrite and that if it was the other way around he would flip out at my refusal. He kept blaming it on my behavior, getting defensive and telling me that he wanted to see my phone and that I’m probably hiding things. I got mad and decided i wasnt going to even entertain his bullshit and told him to not come back when he got his car. He said fine and that pissed me off even more because it was easier to leave than show me his phone. I told him that and he didnt say anything so I told him to call someone and get the hell out. We started arguing because he was talking shit and telling me I was crazy and assuming things. Then I told him to get all his shit and wait outside for his ride and he refused, said he was staying on the couch until they came. I started putting all his shit in a garbage bag and yelling at him to leave. He wouldnt budge so I started screaming and yelling over him “GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY APARTMENT” constantly. He got mad because I wouldnt stop yelling and that “ you have neighbors” and “youre making a scene” and I got angrier and kept screaming then he got in my face and started yelling, cussing me out, shoving me and threatening to beat my ass if I didnt shut the fuck up. I backed into my room yelling at him to get the fuck out of my face. He wouldnt and he kept putting his hands on me and backed me up against a wall. Then I finally said that he could sit on the couch and to get out of my face and I would stop. He didnt listen and kept antagonizing and threatening me. At this point I was crying out of frustration and fear and started screaming for him to get out of my face. He punched a hole through my wall and said that if I didnt calm down and shut the fuck up, I would be next and threatening to kill me. I finally shut up and he went and sat on the couch. Then I just started smoking to calm down while I waited for him to leave. Started talking about how much I hate him and how he cant stop cheating and what a piece of shit he was and that I didnt give a fuck what he told people about me or our relationship. “i wouldnt never say nothin bad about you”, he told me and I got mad and told him to shut the fuck up and that he offended me with that. Acting like he has respect for me when this whole time that hes been begging to come back in my life and live with me, hes been talking to girls still. Then he started talking shit telling me that hes been kissing my ass for weeks and basically wasted his time trying to get me back. I glared at him “kissing my ass?!?!! Yeah, I can fucking tell! Nothing ever feels organic with you, everything is fucking forced. I dont deserve a guy that kisses my ass, I deserve a guy that actually wants to do right by me. One that doesnt find it difficult to actually be a loving, faithful, honest boyfriend to me. I cant wait to never see you again, I’m so sick of you”. I blocked his number and all social media right there and told him I was doing it. He said he didnt care and that I was crazy to think he would come back after this and that hes done with me. I didnt give a fuck, I said “good, fucking leave” and we stayed in silence until he left. This all happened within one hour,

I texted his brother, explained what happened and told him to tell him to stay away from me and that I will call the cops on him. He was my enemy and I want nothing to do with him anymore. I havent heard anything from my ex since and I’m happy. I feel so much better now that he’s gone, like I can finally breathe and live my life. I’m finally getting my life together and have accomplished a lot since the two months I’ve been on my own.

I’m slowly pushing away any negative things in my life and have learned what I will and won’t put up with. This relationship was awful but I learned my worth and that is something I’m grateful for.

#diary

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effervescentmind · 4 years

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Entry 9; 05.13.19 @ 2:33 p.m.

I’m at work on break. It’s just me on the patio and the new hostess sitting a few tables from me.

Yesterday was Mother’s Day and I worked the lunch shift. I texted my mother and other mother ( my best friend’s mom) and meant to call my grandmother but forgot. I know she won’t care but I really wanted to call and the reason I forgot isn’t a good enough one. There’s this guy I met online and we decided to meet up yesterday since it was the only free time I had. He is really nice but I can tell he is going to get clingy. Well, he wont because I’m cutting him off…already have. He was constantly complimenting me and it was bothering me. I like compliments but if I’m trying to have a conversation and you always find a way to twist everything into something about my appearence….I just hate that. I want to be heard and mentally stimulated. Also, he kept randomly asking if I was enjoying myself, when I wanted him to leave and if he was going to see me again OMG. It was irritating, he couldnt just relax and enjoy the moment. I thought he wanted to leave so I told him we would watch one more episode of Rick and Morty (he came over) and then he could leave. Then he told me he was fine with that but he wouldnt mind staying a little longer like??? Then why are you constantly asking when you should go?? Ugh it was annoying and then when he left, he wanted me to text him until I went to bed. I told him I was tired and that I just wanted to go to sleep but really I stayed up watched Hulu and smoked a bowl. I just feel like I wasted time yesterday witht this guy. I couldnt enjoy the visit at all.

#oldiary

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fakefiends · 7 years

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stuff i dont wanna lose in my notes

Spinning On That Dizzy Edge It's Friday, I'm in love. He needed to sleep. He needed a break because it was his own damn fault that he stayed up all night lurking on Roy's Instagram. He tried to sleep, but it only came in intervals of 5 minutes, leaving him dizzy as he had to get up to get ready for a soundcheck. He stayed quiet for the most part, taking a few hits out of a joint, thinking it'd make him hyper, but he was so wrong. "Adore..." "I don't think we're gonna wake her up.." "Just leave her alone, I got it." the voices from the other queens hovered above her didn't do much, she just listened with her face rested on her jacket. She fell asleep on the couch, Roy trying to gently wake her up as other queens resorted to yelling. "Aww, let Bianca take care of her baby." Violet joked, laughing softly. "Shut up." --------------- ########### Danny woke up with a headache from the heat, curled up on an uncomfortable couch. His panic then arose as he realized everyone was already half-ready, he was still a boy, with his cheeks flushed and hair messed up and sweaty. "The Sleeping Beauty's awake!" Jinkx announced, looking over at a confused, tired Danny. "Thanks." he said dryly, sitting up and wincing, holding his head and sighing, "What time is it?" "Like... 6? The show starts in 2 hours." Courtney mumble-answered, trying to get her nose contour right. "Oh." He got himself together and got his makeup bags from the corner where they were brought in with everyone else's drag from the bus, sitting himself down and playing some music from his speaker to get himself alive. Starting his makeup, he downed two Red Bulls waiting for the powder to set. ------------- %%%%%%%% 8:00. Showtime. It didn't take long for Adore to get her outfit together, besides the tights and everything. Expensive, cheap-looking dress, a leather jacket, long, wavy black wig with cat ears. Better than clipping together a costume. She heard Bianca hosting on stage, a smile creeping its way onto her face as she smoked, 'Friday I'm In Love' playing so she could get her voice together before her performance. - what is the utmost upsetting, and disappointing realization i have had in all years of life, is that the human race will not learn. we learn from past yet do not look forward whenever there is an approaching red light to simply stop, and analyze. look forward, know your people, know what the options are, and what will happen for each. chances taken with thought and are easily explained are better taken than chances that are impulsive and the only thing you can say to them is, "because that's how it is." i am just now growing, my mind is changing and i now understand that as you become an adult, you somehow become the clueless toddler that asks questions such as, "why is the sky blue?" im dumb as hell - I should have left you The moment I saw that stupid smile. Adore felt like she was in the clouds as she felt the other queen's lips against hers. Courtney's touch was gentle, comforting, treating her like fine china as her lips slowly meshed against Adore's. Soon she pulled away, laughing softly and stroking the taller girl's cheek as she was left breathless in her tipsy state. Adore glanced down at her, flustered under all of her makeup. "M-More.." she whispered, a lazy smile drawn on her lips, and Courtney pulled her out of the small bathroom and to an unoccupied room, in the midst of a loud party. I'm deluded to stay, dress rolled up by my waist But you had me at 'goodbye'. Adore again, catching her breath with the queen inbetween her legs, arms around her neck as her black dress was pushed up and out of their way. It was hot, not at all sober.. again, and controlled. Too controlled but the taller queen couldn't help but submit to the blonde's small touches and kisses to drive her crazy. The next morning was a guilty, dirty feeling. A feeling of disgust and regret, yet Danny knew that by the time the night rolled back that he'd be in the same exact position. Sent texts at 6:25 AM saying 'I'm sorry.' and, 'I hope this doesn't change us as friends' still couldn't erase the anxiety slowly building up in him. But that was Courtney. ABC. His best friend and the thought of not having her there sent an even worse chill and an even deeper feeling in his stomach. I hate you every time I fuck you But I close the door Cause I'm young and insecure I loved you, what am I supposed to do? It's all we're good for. Danny couldn't bring himself to climb out of bed the day of an interview with Courtney. Even with Bianca's gentle reassurances and strokes of his cheek to make him feel better, he stuck with the sick excuse and while they were gone, he just got on his laptop and tried to empty his brain with poetry coming out in caps and typos and frantic fingers onto the keys with the same thought in his head. I am disgusting, you are my friend, and we are not one. You don't know me when I'm not high Boy you're only as good as the hole in my skirt And the bruises on my thigh. mmmm Twas bad - Slouching Toward Nirvana, Part 1 (Biadore) Things weren't the best with Danny. He had the best house on the block, yet it was only occupied by one boy. Well, and a few ghosts. Writing was his only hobby at this point, playing a few scratchy chords on his new guitar, not sure of anything. He became a hermit, his only friend becoming beer, weed and his favorite shirt, the word 'sad' always coming up in the lyrics he scrawled down. That's what he was. Just a sad, sad boy. He'd occasionally go out for even more drinks with John, but the days that passed during his break only included weed, beer, and well.. his favorite shirt. He wasn't necessarily sad now, just content, and looking back and bringing back feelings he would've never dared gone back to just to write the songs, making his mood very solemn. Distract and sedate, everything is okay. Problem was, he knew that. He had a lot of time to just sit back and think. Sometimes that isn't the best thing, so he just turned to social media sites, making his feelings turn into little song teases, and gifs, just to keep his followers on their feet. All of them usually just tweeted him if he was okay, since he wasn't getting out, and just drinking, and they weren't wrong, but he'd just tell them he was fine, and he was just relaxing. One night, in Danny's very silent bedroom, he'd drained himself completely. Hit after hit on his joint, he just stared up to the ceiling. Recharging. He'd thought a lot about tours he's been on, all of the guys he'd become attached to, all too fast. That can drain him quick. To break the peaceful thoughts of the boy, his phone had gone off with a text message, startling him a bit. He didn't get many texts anymore, since they all knew he was just slaving away to his boy music, focusing. But once he sighed deeply and set the lit joint onto the ash tray carefully, he sat up and grabbed the phone, squinting and turning down the brightness immediately. It was Bianca. That contact name showing up on his lockscreen was enough to make him crack a smile, before he read the text leading up to it. Are you awake? But he knew the other man's intentions were to get him to the energetic, jolly state the boy was usually in, so he just set the phone down, and rested on his back again. He wanted to reply, and he felt bad leaving him on read, but he couldn't bare having the same repeated conversations of, "Are you okay?" Yes. "..But are you really?" It was a lot of contemplating, but he mustered up the confidence to hold up the phone, and type back a casual 'Yeah, what's up?' and maybe a few emojis. Bianca had the three little dots appearing at the bottom of the text thread almost immediately, and Danny swore this was the only time in his entire life he'd not been looking forward to talking to the queen. Just checking in. I'm going to be in LA for the tour this Wednesday, flying in tomorrow. Danny wasn't expecting this at all, and his mood had almost completely changed. Wait for it.... Do you wanna hang out? Fuck yeah. Danny smiled brightly, quickly typing out a response. 'Of course! What time?' he added a heart emoji to that, incredibly estatic that his favorite person in the whole world was going to visit him again, after months of only texts, he'd get the hug he only dreamed of. Their conversation continued until Danny fell asleep with his phone by his face, his joint finished, and his face becoming peaceful. He dreamed of bliss. - Mmm Twas Bad

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