Unexpected Debts Cleaned Me Out (thanks paypal) MOSTLY SETTLED
tldr; im 24, I have a 1700 dollar mortgage, an unknown amount in car repair bills(minumum 200, maximum i have to replace the car), and now nearly 600 dollars in debt because paypal wants me to kms myself. Im handing it on my own best I can and I'll be able to recover within a few months but without outside help the next few months are going to be rough- thus no goal, and whatever I get out of this will be put towards fixing the above problems.
Full story under the cut or dm me if you got questions. Dont feel guilty if you cant donate, if you have/want to trigger tag this, etc. Everything helps, well wishes are appreciated.
This will, hopefully, only need to remain up in the 2 week pay period between today and 7/27 when my next paycheck comes in and I'll be able to handle my own shit more effectively.
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So I'm 24, living with my boyfriend, a housemate, and my terminally ill father. I work full time at a salon at the moment, and recently a few things happened.
First: My housemates car, and one of two main forms of transportation between myself him and my boyfriend had its radiator fan go out- or at least thats the running theory. That takes that vehicle completely out of commission.
Second: Paypal went against the settings I put down and continuously overdrafted a bank account I thought I removed. I can handle the money I knew I was spending, but every transaction also incurred a 37 dollar fee and its been like this since the beginning of june. Neither paypal nor the bank informed me of this. Cunts.
Third: I'm having to quit my job to pursue a new, better job. There is no transfer time, no time off, im going right from one into the other... but of course there has to be associated costs. New uniform, background check, etc.
Other issues earlier in this year have cleared out several thousand in emergency savings. If anything else goes wrong, my boyfriends car needs repairs, someone in the house gets sick or injured, we get an unexpected bill... IDFK what im gunna do. Im mostly just frustrated.
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Any good tips for any baby punks out there? I'm new to the scene and need some advice. Any advice for diy's/ideology/music/ect?
Hi!! Sorry its taken me so long to get to this, I’ve traveled about 1300 miles (aprox 2093 km) in the last 2 weeks
Tips for baby/puppy punks!! Yes! I have a lot of those, but I’ll summarize into the important ones:
The absolute most important thing I can tell you is to develop critical thinking skills (if you don’t already have them). Dont just hop on a bandwagon because all the other punks are doing it. Take the time to learn and form your own opinions on something
The second most important thing I can tell you is to always take advice/criticism with a grain of salt (this applies to things outside of alternative sub cultures as well). People will tell you things. Sometimes they are lying or dont know any better. Sometimes their advice will work for one person but not another. For example, a lot of people say if you dont dress the part, you arent punk. However, sometimes it takes a while to build up an alternative closet. Sometimes people live in an area where it may not be safe to wear their opinions on their sleeves (especially minors). Sometimes people just like the color pink and thats *fine*. This mindset can be applied to literally everything. Just do what works for you
That leads nicely into my 3rd point, you dont have to dress or look a certain way OR listen to certain bands to be punk. Anyone who says otherwise is a poser. That being said, it’s generally accepted that you shouldnt wear shirts or patches for bands you’ve never even heard of (no one can stop you but you might be labeled a poser)
Advice specifically for diy: watch videos, if you want to learn how to make a specific thing there is 100% a video somewhere on it. Also, ask people. If someone has something really cool and you want to learn how they made it, go talk to them (assuming its not some dark alley). Some materials you might want to start collecting are can tabs, bottle caps, and safety pins
Music advice that I will die by: You dont have to listen to punk music to be punk. Sure, its an important part of the subculture, but not the only part. Its more important to learn about punk values than headbang until your neck snaps
Thats all I can think of off the top of my head, but if you have more specific questions please feel free to send in more asks or DM me!!
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not my endometriosis absolutely leaving my obliterated after getting fucked yesterday
love living in a state where i can barely get my birth control/hormones for managing it, since all the additional growth from it has left me (happily!!!) infertile, but theyll be damned if they let me get a hysterectomy bc "what if your husband decides he wants kids?" (i dont have one and if i did, itd have to be mutual, but also store-bought is fine????) "sometimes a pregnancy can reverse endometriosis" (okay but yall have told me itd be life threatening bc id hemorrhage from it basically ripping my insides open from breaking the extra growth?????) "a lot of women change their mind and want to have kids" (im not them thanks, id rather kms than ever destroy my body for a disgusting pregnancy, much less a baby, which im repulsed by as is; i have zero maternal drive)
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hi arina! how are u doing? i've read your life update before about how you may not be able to do art stuffs due to life circumstances, seeing you open your shop now really brightens my heart! i'm also an artist in a kind of tough situation where i dont have much choice and might have to give up drawing or have difficulty continuing. im wondering how you got thru it? your art updates give me strength and hope! but if u dont feel like sharing, i totally understand. hoping you best and thank you!!
I'm sorry I'm answering this so late, talking about my current life always ruins my mood.
(this will be a long whining post, I'm very upset right now so I need to speak out)
Probably we are in different situations, unlike you, drawing is the only thing I can do now. I've mentioned here before that my grandma had a stroke this summer, my parents live in another city, they come here from time to time. Me and grandma live in Moscow, sooooo, generally, disabled grandma is MY responsibility most of the time. Even though she's making some slow progress in recovering, she's still mostly bed ridden, she can't take care of herself, she can't get up from the bed without help, she barely walks, etc., etc. So we can't leave her alone, and taking care about such helpless person, 24/7 IS HARD. She can wake us up several times at night to go to toilet or whatever, during the day she always wants something and we have to serve her, it really exhaustes me. (I half jokingly say that I unexpectedly became mother of 76 y.o. child, but I've always been child-free, so guess what I'm feeling right now)
Good news: I have some time to draw. To be honest drawing is the only sphere of my life I still can control, it's the only thing bringing me joy. And thankfully some people buy my merch so I can earn some money even in these circumstanses.
Bad news: I lost all freedom I'd had, I can't go anywhere without hiring nurse, I have much less time for work and drawing, I can't properly relax after long day, in fact I can NEVER relax, I can't meet with friends, I can't travel, I have to cancel work trips. Even simple mandane things became very difficult and even impossible because of all these restrictions. I can't find proper words to describe how those restrictions of my freedom make me depressed and devastated, right now my mental health is the worst it's ever been. I cry almost every day, I became hysterical and agressive, I hate my life so much, that the mere thought of spending the rest of my youth living my family's life, not MY OWN LIFE makes me want to kms. At the moment I control nothing in my life, I can't decide where to live, what to do, where to go, absolutely nothing. Probably I will never find a partner, because dating in these life contitions is impossible. Probably I will die alone without any love and friends. Maybe my only destiny is to take care of disabled person.
I'm trying to accept the fact that my life's ended, that I won't have any freedom and any new people around me till she passes away or till one of my parents will take full charge of taking care of her (it will happen in 5 years or so, they have work to finish in another city).
I spend my days solving my family's problems, my grandma's health problems, selling some merch to earn money and drawing some silly things just to ✨feel something✨. So me being able to draw something in difficult circumstanses is not some heroic thing, I'm not overcoming myself to make art desprite everything, what I'm doing is just...escapism... I want to get lost in my little drawings or in little stories for some time to forget about everything bothering me. Honestly, I'm very happy that I haven't lost ability to draw after everything happened to me this year.
Guys.... sorry for whining, but 2022 ruined my mental state completely... Political situation (fucking Russia 💀💀💀), family situation, I just feel so much hatered for this world, for this universe where none of my dreams will ever come true, where I control nothing, where I have to live someone else's life, where I have no freedom, where I have to be silent, where I have to look at my government's crimes and be silent, where I can't plan anything, where I can't love who I want (yesterday they accepted "lgbt propaganda" ban law), where I have to live the rest of my life in the country I hate, with a government I hate, isolated, lonely, constricted, attached to disabled person.
My parents keep telling me it's temporary, they don't want me to be a nurse for the rest of my life, everything is gonna be okay, they will solve everything. I don't believe them. Maybe I'm overdramatising, maybe if I get a therapy I'll feel better and less pessimistic about my future, but for now... I feel terrible. So, if drawing makes me feel a little bit better, then I'll continue to draw.
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Welcome to TRON smash or pass!
This is a smash or pass poll blog dedicated to the TRON franchise. It is run by @jet-bradley.
I won't be directly posting NSFW content, but I can't control what happens in the notes. If that type of content disturbs you, don't open the notes.
Guidelines (subject to change):
Don't submit kids. This isn't a common issue in TRON, but I wanted to make that clear.
I've got a list of characters that have been posted here. Try to avoid duplicates, no worries if mistakes get made though. With that said, you can submit the same character many times if it's different appearances (e.g. 1982 Tron vs. Rinzler vs. Uprising Tron).
Please format all posts to contain:
An image of the character
Their name
Which media they're from in the image you used*
A poll with the only options as "smash" or "pass" (no results option)
Tags containing the media they're from*
*If you don't know which Tron they're from, I can handle it. If they're from something not on the list, let me know in the post and I'll add the tag.
I'll worry about character tags.
The "things that get you blocked" list:
Trying to draw political metaphors from the polls and/or their results (e.g. "this reminds me of the 2016 USA election")
Being rude enough about the results of a poll that it ruins it for everyone else
Threatening harm/doxxing/death to yourself or another user in my notes (e.g. "i'm going to kms if yall dont vote 'smash'")
Which are (almost) all things I experienced in my short-lived time as a Tumblr Bracket Mod. This is also subject to change if someone is awful enough, but please don't give me a reason to expand this list!
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GOD I LOVE KNKDZ SM I wanna hold them and treasure them like literally they could be so precious they have so much potential and ik we have to wait a few more months but I'm sooo fuckin excited to see if they have a reunion if they don't I'll probs cry from stress or smth like even if someone doesn't ship it they're partners istg they are soo important and I hope we can see more of them in action cuz kunikida has been crying (canon) from stress and trying to bring shit together, like he was really working on gathering the members together again and like poor bby I feel so bad he needs a warm hug, also I feel like getting your hands cut off and your ideals crumbling in front of you was traumatic like he's ok now physically but I feel so bad and dazai is being fucking shot and falling of an elevator while defeating fyodor and walking it all of like ??? I need a sick fic with knkdz and the ada in general he deserves that and I hope so fucking sooo FUCKING much that they get a fuckin reunion like this is all I can talk and think abt now I keep repeating myself, I hope atsushi, dazai and kunikida get one bc I miss their trio so idk what is happening now that s5 is over and the Manga is catching up in a few months bc we saw that they're fighting again like oh fuck ngl I hope dazai gets hurt more so more sickfics or maybe Canon sickfics like in it actually fucking happens in the series but whatever in the end I want the ada to be safe again and destress a little bc oh my god this was their biggest fucking mission in their life and its been going on practically since the guild but whatever I have so so so so so so high hopes for the future and the rise of knkdz (I also ship skk but knkdz is my no. 1 and need way more of them) I hope knkdz will rise and conquer we have to get our fucking game up us knkdz advocates we have a DUTY anyways love ya ur so hot for that knkdz vs skk rant its fucking unfair pls pls pls pls post more knkdz I'm going feral its my last will to live I will kms if the Manga doesn't have them I will defenestrate asagiri I will find him trust me I fucking will anyways anywho anyfuckingway thank you for being a part of the knkdz cult we can soo win we just have to wait for asagiri and like OMG I just had SUCH a dopamine rush like I practically almost jumped bc IM SO EXCITED to see them YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH PLS PLS PLS ASAGIRI PLS DONT DO THIS TO ME I CAN HEAR THEM I CANNN HEAAAAAR THEM PLS PLS PLS DONT PUNISH ME I WANT MORE KNKDZ I WILL FUCKING COMBUST anyways ur so cool and ur art is fuckin awesome have a great day and new year hopefully full with happiness, success, change, and kunikidazai
REAL OMFG‼️‼️ bitches forget that kunikida has been partnered with dazai for two entire years, only one less year than dazai’s partnership w chuuya (before ur like noooo it was seven!!!!! that doesn’t count. chuuya and dazai met at fifteen and didn’t even get partnered that year. it was only during the events of stormbringer when mori realized the only counter to chuuyas corruption was dazai’s ability and he made them go on missions together like they did during the arahabaki incident and they became known as double black. dazai left the mafia when he was eighteen due to oda’s death)
anyway knkdz have also had to trust each other with their lives time and time again and kunikida values this trust more than anything, always relying on dazai even if dazai pisses him the fuck off. dazai says himself that the ada is home to him when talking abt it to sigma, AND WHAT IS HOME BUT A PLACE FILLED WITH HAPPINESS AND THOSE WHOM YOU LOVE DEARLY AND WOULD DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT
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