#i wish i could sleep on a train

[aceteling]

I miss my flat... Missing that tiny not functional patch of freedom...

#i miss having a quiet private space to go back to #i miss having the freedom and privacy that came with it #i miss being able to explore big city with my best friend without having to arrange things #i miss distances feeling shorter #i miss it i do #conclusion: i should move out #but ugh I don't have money for that :( #ehh train hauntings of a sleep-deprived brain #i just wish things were easier #i am always being so brave about it but it's in my thoughts #i guess I'll always be attached to my first taste of independence #but hey. in 5 years things might be completely different (better) #i won't let it get to me #i make do #i WILL make do no matter what #(don't get me wrong i like living with mum but... there are restrictions obv) #domi talks #i wish i could sleep on a train

[guinevereslancelot]

job interview this morning! 🫠😭🙃😬🤢😐👍

#literally sick to my stomach for some reason and did not sleep at all last night 😌❤️ #im not even that worried about the interview or the job itself why am i a train wreck lol #tried to go to bed early and everything but literally could NOT sleep ugh #anyway aaaaaa #i should have printed my resume out but its too late now #wish me luck tho #😅🙏 #this has been a shitpost #hopefully once the interview is over i'll feel better and i can crash for a few hours when inget home or something lol

[shelli-gator]

About to pick a fight with the whole of Scotland for not liking the N2s when they went there. HOW COULD YOU NOT LIKE THIS GUY? I'm out here beating my breast and spitting on the ground.

Unbelievable

#/hj #shelli talks shit instead of sleeping #ttte ryan #i wish trains were real #just so i could tell ryan i think he's doing a great job

[alongtidesoflight]

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#i've been doing job training for the past month now and so far it's going pretty well #but i feel like it's affecting my lifestyle negatively in a big way #for one it's enabling my E////D (which i've been sorta on top of but now i'm taking any excuse to skip meals and walk long distances for #no reason other than to get workouts in whenever i can) #and it's definitely noticeable in my day to day life #(mostly dizziness and exhaustion weakness and headaches/stomach aches that end up making me sleep through the rest of my day) #and i have NO idea how to keep myself from doing it #today i was worried about how many calor///ies i'm intaking with painkillers #which i wouldn't have to take in the first place if i could just give myself a break and eat normally again #and it just sucks? that i'm getting a grip finally in terms of a job but at the same time my health is going down the drain again #i really REALLY thought i'm on top of myself but i guess i am nowhere near it #and it's so frustrating #rant tw #i wish i could blacklist tag this properly but it always attracts pro weirdos so if u need this tagged give me a tag to use #and i will glady do that for u

[pepprs]

i do not want to get out of bed omfg. this week has been so fucking insane im exhausted but we have aprogram tonight until 7 and i have to facilitate and there are a million things to do today

#but i got my p*riod and cotaught on tuesday and broke up w my counselor on monday and a few days before that redacted redacted so im ph #physically and emotionally exhausted but we have this program tonight until 7 and then 2 trainings tomorrow andi have like 2 meetings inbetw #between those. and i just want to sleep and/or lie down w a heating pad bc my cramps have been brutal this time around. literally could #barely get work done on tuesday bc i was in AGONY and forgot my heating pad and no one could bring it to me from home but it s like i have n #nowhere on campus to lie down or get checked out or anything bc im not a student anymore so i need to just writhe at my desk (<- i have one #of those now finally btw 🥹💗) and jusf hope i don’t pass out. and i didn’t but it was so bad and im not recovered from it yet. idk. #everything is so much. there are some intense and in some cases horrible things happening. iwwish we had time to pause and process them and #that we weren’t so tired and stretched all the time. i wish we didn’t have all these pressures to worry about. i wish we could just have #time to love each other and check in truly and to support each other bc we are friends before we are colleagues methinks and i jsut want us #to be ok and happy and rested and healthy. idk. augh #delete later #purrs #also i think i am not normal when it comes to cramps btw. i think maybe it might not be normal to be in this much pain. or maybe im just #weak or have a low pain tolerance but i feel like it’s a lot worse than it used to be + i get cramps at Other times too and it’s ummmm bad. #ask to tag #like how absolutely insane that this is a huge part of my life and i feel like i can’t even talk abt it and it’s so embarrassing but it #literaly is like.. every other week im scared that im gonna be unable to function bc of pain but i literally say nothing at all and just smi #smile and pretend im fine and barely talk abt it. i don’t think that’s good or normal. and i think ppl should talk abt p*ripds more so it’s #not as weird or bad or gross or cringe whatever to talk abt being in pain and to accommodate urself or whatever despite other ppl knowing #abt it. cringeeeee augh i don’t want to be one of Those people but like. it’s bad and i fucking hate it

[vzajemnik]

auauuuuughvhvbvhhhggggaaaaaaaabg. btw.

#🗞️ #feeling very aughhhggbghgghfggbgfggfgg at the moment #i should go to sleep i literally have a 9 hour train ride ahead of me tmr but noooooooo id rather be plagued by visions #aka wondering if i should drink at the parties im going to + thinking about my first 2 times at a club and about this girl #and how she pushed me in a bathroom stall.........and wanted to fuck me.......... :/ #not :/ at the situation btw just. :/ bc im sad and i miss it but it was literally 2 years ago almost #and a guy ordered me a drink just bc he was sad and wanted to cry on my shoulder. like wheres this energy here. NOWHERE #big cities suck you only get this type of vibe in small towns where theres just only 1 club #kidding my hometown actually has 2. but like. the other one is also a restaurant and the good club part is only open in the summer #also kidding about the big cities suck part but i wish i could replicate the small town vibe here sometimes truly #like. heeey. who wants to push me into a stall. kidding actually i just realised the girls do always do that to me. and pull me by the tie. #and shit. maybe im very babygirlable. #the men though. oh god. wheres the energy of the guy buying me a drink just to have a shoulder to cry on . WHERE !!!!!! #noooo you have to suck cock in a tree to get anywhere with them. and then theres silence. rigghhttttt #i need to stop sucking cock behind a tree btw. or in the tree for that matter. they should get rid of that tree #the tree is the problem not me 🫶 #what is this rant even about i have no clue but im laughing at myself so thats good #i do miss my hometown club though. maybe ill go there this summer who knows. probs not. but. maybe.

[kalmeria]

gave in and started watching. the cartoon i was really into when i was like 15-16. weird nostalgia times in here rn.

#should go to sleep now bc. need to get up early tmrw #gonna be out al ll day.. going to the theathwr!! dont think ive been since before the pandie began #so ughhh anxious bc of that too #a whole day in unfamiliar places uhhh #ohhhh yea im an adult why do you ask. i leave the house all the tiem #i leave the town all the time. totally. yeah. #wish we were going by train ngl. i miss trains. sometiems i see them pass and wish i could just get on board and go anywhere #traisn are neat #yeha #half asleep rambles dont mind me

[yohankang]

6 hours on a train.... so this is my life now.....

#i'm actually really excited for my classes tomorrow #i'm not anxious like last time #but spending 15 hours of your weekend on a train/bus is not ideal 💔 #i wish i could just teleport #but enough complaining !! i need to get some sleep 😴 goodnight guys 💞 #k.txt

[foxcassius]

jiwon and i decided to take a nap since we woke up rly early to go get my visa health check done and then went to lotte mall (truly exhausting experience) but my stupid cough is making it sooo difficult for me to sleep so i dozed for like 40 minutes then had to get up to drink some water before my throat decided to kill me

#as long as i'm over this by the time of in-person training for my job next saturday i'm fine but #i do wish i could get some good sleep. hopefully the cough calms down soon. #jiwon is still sleeping so im trying not to annoy him but i think im going to knit #t

[vamptits]

i've been traveling back from the dunes show. for the past 26 hours. this could have been a 2 hour flight.

#I LIVE IN FRANCE THIS IS SO UNREASONABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #im gonna sleep for more than 5 hours for the first time since. wednesday night #I WISH I COULD SAY IT WASN'T WORTH IT. anyway see you on thursday #IF I CAN AFFORD A BUS TICKET TO PARIS ACTUALLY. girl i have hostel show ticket and train back booked but no. bus there. #guys let me onto your bus i wont try anything i just want to get to the show

[ciitrinitas]

i’m literally so goddamn tired.

#era.txt #twitter has truly trained me to post the most inane shit and ive embraced it #I AM TIRED #AND I WILL POST ABOUT IT #god i wish i could sleep

[tariah23]

Uhhh

#I have to be at work by 7 in the morning but I take the train so I’ll have to be leaving out by 5:30 my eyes are so droopy and tired since I #haven’t been getting much sleep lol #rambling #at least workers who take public transportation gets reimbursed for the 30 day pass they buy so yay lol #I’ll have to wait until my second check to buy a phone tho so L #basically the beginning of November #I desperately need one too because it’s dangerous coming home at night around here and a lot of the times the street lights would be out and #I wouldn’t even be able to see where I’m even going like man #plus we have the serial killer loose and shit #I wish I could make a donation post lol idk if anyone would donate tho I just need a phone tbh #I think I get my first check on the 15th of next month orz #since I came in after the first pay period had already started #just woke up from a nap hahhh

[mooshkat]

😖

#i should sleep but the anxiety over applying to a WFH job yesterday just hit very hard #if they're interested then i have to do a phone interview. and then a second video interview. and if i get it. video training in a group #and i really don't want to do that but i want the $16/h lmao #but i also. kind of don't want to WFH bc i feel stuck here enough as is #hhhhhhh i wish i could unsend that email

[nexus-nebulae]

being nocturnal makes me really really sad

#like its just. nobody is Doing Stuff. there isnt much for me to do. there arent many people for me to talk to #it's very isolating #i wish i could live in a society where anyone with any sleep schedule could function fine #unfortunately that'd probably still be isolating because normal people usually aren't nocturnal even if they can be #and like on one hand i dont do much anyway. i dont talk to many people and dont leave my room much #but on the other hand just. the fact that it's that i *can't* and not that i *won't* just makes it a little worse #like even if i wanted to i can't at all #i dunno i feel a little gross today so brain is stuck on the not fun train of thought #I've been kind of.. absent? the last few days? #like i just... don't remember most of it and can't tell if i was sleeping the whole time or if i was Not Here #so brain is a little Not Great #idk im having a Time

[depresseddepot]

to avoid thinking about my cat's surgery I've been painting and I am so fucking bad at mixing colors lmao

#im bad at matching colors too #like usually im painting from some random picture i find online but this time im really trying to focus on what im doing #(to avoid thinking about the surgery) #and i am so so bad at color matching lmao #i even used a color match site so i could see what the color of an area REALLY is but even when i do that my colors are wrong #theyre like...the right tone but theyre all too dark #and lightening them with white makes the tone go off #is this color theory? /gen lol I've heard people say you need to learn color theory but i never knew what it was #anyway. for my next trick i will think obsessively about my wip. (to avoid thinking about the surgery) #okay i cant avoid it any longer. i am so fucking glad his surgery is tomorroe #hes having knee surgery and his knee has started CLICKING while he walks #im so nervous i feel like i could go into cardiac arrest but frankly i wish it had been yesterday or the day before #i wish we had taken him to the vet last thursday. i wish i had trusted my gut sooner instead of letting my mom talk me out of it #i wish i hadn't let him walk around with a torn ligament for over a fucking week #i wish we had the vet do xrays on his knees when he was a kitten so we could have prevented all of this #i wish i had a shorter bedframe so he didn't have to jump so high. i wish i could sleep on the floor so i could sleep with him in his cage #i wish i had desensitized him to car rides and vet visits when he was a kitten #i wish we knew who abused him and threw him onto the highway so i could kill them #i wish we had put him on anxiety medication earlier #i wish i was a trained veterinarian so i could do my own exams on him instead of taking him to a place he's terrified of #i wish i was confident enough to give him the injection he needs without fucking it up #god i fucking hope everything goes okay #pretending to laugh about how he'll have a nakey chicken leg isn't even working anymore #wip save me. save me wip

[airenyah]

GUESS WHO'S FINALLY SEEING TWOSET LIVE

#i have been waiting sic (6!!) years for this day #now i just gotta hope that my cousin will have a place for me to sleep so i won't have to pay for accomodation #airenyah plappert #twoset violin #no seriously tho i've been waiting for a chance to see them live since 2018 #i wish they'd come to austria bc that would be so much preferrable for my wallet #like. i have an austria wide ticket for all major public transport so it wouldn't even matter what city they'd come to #i wouldn't have to pay for the travel costs #i'd only have to worry about accommodation but depending on where they would go that might not even be a problem #even if they went to salzburg it shouldn't be a problem bc while i don't have any friends in salzburg that i could house me for a night #i think i'd be able to catch the last train out #depending on how long the concert takes and when it starts ofc #though i might know someone who knows someone lol