#ihtctaot

[teddybeartoji]

"I HUNGER TO COMMIT THE ACT OF TOUCH" HEADCANONS

here are some facts about prince!gojo and knight!reader and sugu and shoko!!!! some of these might've been mentioned in the previous parts but i just wanted to go over them anyway!! also some of these are very random but they feel right so i needed to add them hihihi enjoyy!!

+ the "i hunger to commit the act of touch" masterlist

`♡、THE PRINCE

— a sensitive, sensitive boy; cries easily.

— touch starved out of his mind; his mother kisses his forehead and his cheek and suguru's arms more often than not falls around the prince's shoulders but he needs more.

— very curious; he loves going outside, he loves people staring, he loves learning (dislikes reading though bc that can be a bit boring).

— hates staying inside the castle; has escaped into the forest behind the estate many-many times (usually suguru is the one to bring him back).

— gets cold easily.

— his eyes are also sensitive - the reason why he has to wear a blindfold; he doesn't like it though. so he often goes out into the blinding sun without it and later bares the terrible migraines because of it. he says it's worth it.

— hates his father but adores his mother.

— is actually very devoted to becoming a good king; he loves the town and the people a lot and he wants to take care of them.

— he loves all of the kids in the town aswell; they play ball and have tea-parties together.

— he loves hot cocoa.

— he has brought in a lot of stray cats; they all run around the castle freely and the king hates it (the prince doesn't care).

— the maids and the servants of the castle absolutely love him!!! he takes good care of them!!!! treats them like family and loves joking around with them.

— once fell down some stairs and just laughed it off.

— he's really good with a sword and he likes to fight!! he often spars with suguru and he just thinks it's so exciting and fun.

— he has known suguru almost all his life and he cares for him very deeply (the feeling is mutual).

— the prince has only been taught soft touches all his life so he kind of seeks out action and violence to feel something New.

— also loves shoko a lot a lot a lot. he thinks that she's just so cool and their humor is very similar which sometimes pisses suguru off. which in turn just makes them laugh even more. it's a vicious cycle.

— is absolutely enamored with the knight. they're the fresh breath of air that he's been missing from his royal life and he's determined to keep them in it forever.

— does know how to speak like a proper prince but thinks it's very funny to swear and make dirty jokes.

— despises the smell of alcohol.

— gets attached rather easily. they can't get the knight out of his head for the life of him (he isn't even trying).

— loves flowers of any and every kind; buys them regurarly for his friends and his mother.

— he, of course, has a snow white horse (his name is John?).

— is terribly terribly eager to please. he just wants to be good.

— would gladly get into a real fight just for the thrill of it.

`♡、THE KNIGHT

— rough and scarred hands.

— they used to live in the same town but moved away when they were twelve.

— they know shoko; she was their best friend until they left.

— used to get slashings and beatings from the castle guards because they were hell-bent on taking the blame for just about every other stray kid in the town. they were just trying to protect them...

— just as touch starved as the prince but unlike the latter - they're more afraid to seek it out. let me rephrase - they don't seek it out, quite the opposite - they're more likely to pull away at genuine touch than to accept it.

— but as a protector, it is part of their job to offer their hand to people. a helping hand to pull the prince back onto his feet, a helping hand to wipe the blood from his face, a helping hand to get him onto the horse, a helping hand to keep him from falling - it's just what they're supposed to do. they also need more - just like the prince.

— they're determined that they're scary and that everybody should stay away from their bloody hands and their scarred face (they're wrong).

— confused about their feelings; only being familiar with anger and bitterness - everything else comes as a complete surprise.

— a brutal fighter - blood and guts are nothing new to them. nor are beheadings and dismemberment, slit throats and bashing in faces. if that's what it takes to save a person - they'll do it without a second thought.

— very very good with a sword. they've been carrying that thing around for years now and it feels a bit weird to be without it.

— despite the way they act towards the prince - they do think he's gonna be a great king. they're mostly just jealous.

— loyal to the Cause even though they don't even exactly know what the cause it. is it protecting people? is it running away from them? is it just violence?

— they act tough as shit but inside they just want to be held. well, first they want to get over the fear of being held.

— they can't wait to see shoko again. they might be a bit nervous but ever since seeing the doctor and hearing that she's in fact well and is now living in the castle??? they can't wait to see her little smile.

— they want to hate the prince. but they can't (they're not even trying).

— a big scar running across their eye. it makes them look badass. and hot.

— the armor they wear is a bit rusted but good nonetheless. it has carvings on the front and the back.

— clearly has some sort of authority issues.

— cats really like them. they always come up to them in the town, swirling around between their legs and purring. they always smile back at the kitties.

— loves eating bread.

— picks at their scabs and wounds all the time; shoko always slapped their fingers when she saw them doing it bc that is a really fucking bad thing to do especially with dirty hands... they can't help it though.

— is surprisingly (it's not surprising at all) popular with the brothel ladies. they always seem to try and invite them in and it's one of the few things that actually manages to fluster the knight.

— thinks that the prince acts like a child, like a puppy and no matter how much they try to convince themself that they think he's annoying - it just doesn't work. the prince is the only one who's gotten a smile that big out them anyway.

`♡、SUGURU

— the prince took him in when he was just a kid; convinced the queen that suguru should stay and well who is the queen to say no to her little prince - they've been inseperable ever since.

— trained to be a knight so he can take care of his best friend.

— cares for the prince a lot A Lot (probably a little bit too much).

— the prince and suguru fooled around when they were younger and they got caught once; the prince managed to sway the king with the argument that he was the one who made suguru do it - suguru felt very bad after that incident and tried to distance himself from the prince but it didn't work. the prince was clinging to him like his life depended on it and soon after that everything was almost back to the way it was before.

— very good friends with shoko; they often sit in the tavern together after a long day.

— has a sensitive nose and the prince likes to tease him about it.

— likes sparring with the prince - he's stronger and better but he lets the prince win sometimes because he likes his smile.

— when he does decide to keep his win - straddling the prince while holding the sword to his throat - his own smile shines so bright that the prince thinks he's gonna get a migraine just from that.

— massages the prince's face whenever he has a migraine. his hands are almost magical, he's too good at it.

— all of the cats that the prince has brought in fucking love him.

— he also lives in the castle!!! he has his own room and it's very close to the prince's one. you know.. for safety reasons.

— loves drinking tea.

— sometimes shares a few smokes with shoko but he keeps glancing over his shoulder to make sure that the castle people or the other knights can't see him. the prince always sighs very dramatically when they smoke.

— knows all of the prince's hiding spots in the forest.

— the three of them have gone skinny dipping together (the prince screamed like a little girl when a piece of kelp touched his leg).

— even though he is a knight of the castle, he - just like the others, is not a fan of the king or his ways. they all think that he's a cruel old man and they're all ready to help the prince become a better king.

— he understands the knight like nobody else.

— gets along with the queen really really well and shoko constantly teases him about it by saying that she has a teeny tiny crush on him. suguru always gets flustered by that (he's just very well-mannered okay).

— accidentally once heard the king say that he should cut his hair ("it's not suitable for a knight") and is now more than ever determined to never cut it.

— has a black horse and takes really good care of it!!!!

— likes to read whenever he has a free moment. which isn't too often, so he usually reads during the night in the moonlight.

`♡、SHOKO

— childhood friends with the knight; neither of them had a home and had to take care of each other.

— a doctor took her in and began teaching her so she'd become her apprentice.

— always patched the young knight up after a fight or a beating.

— she was very upset when the knight left.

— around the age of 16/17, a prince with a bloody knee and a teary eyed little soon-to-be-knight knocked on the doctors door - they made her put bandages on his knee and they've been friends ever since.

— now lives in the castle; the prince got her her own room with a little balcony. they all often eat breakfast together there.

— learned how to use a bow just for the fun of it.

— braids the prince's hair when she's bored.

— the cats also love her. there's one that always sleeps in her room and on her bed. she named the cat Horse (suguru has never rolled his eyes so dramatically).

— she misses her childhood friend terribly; she thinks about them a lot.

— mainly lives a very quiet life and doesn't really interact with the other people in the castle. she also fucking hates the king.

— has a big scar on her lower back from her days on the streets. it was the one time where the knight had to patch her up, hence the "ugly" scar. she doesn't think it's ugly though, she quite likes it actually. she flexes it to the prince, calling herself a tougher guy than him. the prince pouts at that every time.

— the only other person she talks to in the castle is one of the maids. she has a scar across her face and shoko thinks she looks beautiful. shoko also thinks it's very funny when she cusses out the prince. shoko likes to play with her hair.

— is surprisingly bad at riding horses. she tried it twice and fucking hated it so she never did it again.

— works at the doctor's office. not full-time because she likes to just Be but she is very interested in blood and guts and wounds so she genuinely loves the job.

— used to be a regular at the brothel but ever since she met the scarred pretty little maid - she hasn't stepped a foot back in there.

#yayayay ihtctaot crumbs!!!! #i am very very sorry to keep all of you waiting for so long.. #but i am working on the next part!! #hey guys.. are my daddy issues showing by any chance btw i can't tell #ihtctaot #mickey is daydreaming #angel boy #sugu #shoko #gojo satoru #gojo satoru headcanons #jjk headcanons

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

OKAY LOOK I'M SORRY I KEPT DOING THE STUPID QUIZZES AND I FOUND ANOTHER REALLY COOL ONE AND I JUST IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU (i'm moving into your inbox i live here now) no but fr i thought it was so cool and their poem lines were so fcking good???????????? woww

i got violent; "it is the way you would walk through glass to see a smile"; "give and never take for the guilt that comes with wanting is suffocating" THIS QUIZMASTER IS COMING FOR ME a bit life-changing quotes though i hope this person is having such a good day omfg

https://uquiz.com/quiz/evn4G3?p=6133991

- @softgirlgonehaywire

NEVER APOLOGIZE MICKEY I LOVE UQUIZZES LIKE I LOVE NOTHING ELSE ON THIS PLANET its literally my love language u know the way to my heart <3333 FEEL FREE TO MOVE IN i will make my inbox cozy just for u. i can leave a pillow fort in the corner. a cat plushie . make urself at home <33

BUT okok ive done the soldier/poet/king quiz before bUT i did it again (and realized how ihtctaot coded it is that kinda stung huh) and!! i got :D

… the king!! hehe. dare i say prince!gojo coded.. u see the vision i know i can trust u. ”you are tired of being steady” ohhhh they are coming for our LIVES mickey………

AND AND ANDDD the other quiz was soso lovely i adored it!! i loovveeee quizzes w lots of pinterest image / song lyric questions they r my favorite ever <33 THIS RESULT WAS SO CUTE TOO WAHH (AND THE WAY WE GOT VIOLENT/SOFT…. the ari/mickey parallels r once again unparalleled)

THAT WAS SO FUN TYSM MICKEYY… if u have any more quizzes at any point PLEASE break in i lovelovelove taking uquizzes ppl send me and also forcing other ppl to take uquizzes i like!!

… so ofc i had to return the favor:

what are you to your friends?

what highly specific emotion are you?

i hunted down two of my fave quizzes <3 hope u enjoy them hehe. i think theyre so fun n wellwritten. these were my results!! (i resonated a lot w them tbh….) i wanna know urs so bad too!!!!!

(AND ALSO just as a side thing. if u r interested here are my top recs for jjk bf and gf quizzes <33 i got shoko and gojo life is good i think the results r soso cute and real)

#IM DOING WELL BTW!! #have been feeling a little burnt out recently i thinkkk :’3 bUT things will calm down more next week! or the week after!! so im doing good #im visiting my brothers place for a bit and his kitties are SOOOO cute mickey theyre the skrunkliest eepiest little creatures #HOW ARE U DOING how was ur day? did u do anything fun (or not so fun)?? tell me tell me 🎤🎤 i hope ur taking care of urself!! #i cant wait until uni stuff and life stuff calms down a bit so i can listen to ur soundtracks n watch ur movies!! #i just wanna be in the best possible headspace when i do it!!! im mentally preparing myself oh great cinema teacher #im also so excited bc its been a bit since i wrote a full fic and!! i think my next one might be knight!sugu x royalty!reader 👀👀 #alexis infected me w it and then i just spiralled from there #I WILL TELL U MORE LATER i need the mickey thoughts / approval first !! #ask tag ✩

[teddybeartoji]

no bc thinking about my prince!gojo and knight!reader again (as always)

how satoru has only been taught soft touches - like a real prince; and that's why he likes the action and the violence so much

but how the reader has only ever been taught violence and survival and that's why the real soft touches seem to burn

how even though the reader and satoru have many moments where they're touching - a helping hand, a shoulder to sleep on; these are the things a knight is supposed to offer.

satoru doesn't think about that, to him that's already real; he's a bit naive, he wants it to be real. the reader knows it isn't - this is just their job, and yet, this time it burns a little. they have offered a helping hand many times before, all without a second thought or feeling. but with him, it's now suddenly different and they don't really know why.

#ihtctaot #does it make sense #eeeh #their little touches were swirling in my head today #the reader wants to be soft CANON #they just don't know how #mickey can't stop thinking

[teddybeartoji]

prince!gojo x knight!reader............ i'm thinking

#angel boy #ihtctaot #mickey can't stop thinking

[teddybeartoji]

BEGGING ON MY KNEES FOR SOME PRINCE GOJO AU HC OR LIL SCENARIO OR RANDOM ONE LINERS..I CANT DO THIS. UNLEASH SOMETHING..YOU DID THIS TO ME. ... I CAN JUST DO FINE WITH ONE LINERS..🦂

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII MY SWEETHEART!!!! I'M SO SORRY FOR LEAVING YOU HANGING!!!!!! i started answering this and then it automatically went into the drafts and well... i cook up like three drafts a day and so it kind of got lost in there i'm sorry i'm sorry do you still love me i love you<33333

here is a snippet of the next part of "i hunger to commit the act of touch"!!!!

a few feet away the prince stands tall, eyes glued to his moon. his knight and his saviour. the one, who saves him from the lurking shadows and the one, who keeps slipping from from his hands the second the job is done. there are no stars in the prince's eyes - only his little knight; the only one to be admired and worshipped; breathing out into the cold winter air with minacious eyes like some kind of a beast. but the prince has never been fearful - he's not afraid of the dark nor is he afraid the creatures living in it. he tries not to think about how the deep dark red splatters on your face accentuate your eyes under the cool moonlight. how beautiful you look.

#let me know what you thinkkkk!!! #and again i am sorry to keep you waiting i promise the next chap is gonna be sooo good #MWAHHHH #wait btw also THERE IS NOTHING TO BE AFRAID OF YOU CAN SEND THOSE LACTACTION THOUGHTS BABY!!! #no shame here #none at all #hihhihihi #🦂 <3 #friends!! #ihtctaot

[teddybeartoji]

prince!gojo and howl.................................................................. i'm watching it now and well it's going so so so well i'm okay feeling so good not sick in the head at all

#ARII #WHAT THE HELL DID U DO TO ME #HOW CAN U JUST SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT #ihtctaot

[teddybeartoji]

imagine u just wanna read a cute little fic about your favourite little guy and then the i hit u with a fucking action sequence LMAOOO LOOK I GOT SO INTO IT I DIDN'T JUST WANNA SKIP IT I WANT BLOOD (need it i'm afraid)

#prince!gojo x knight!reader #might actually post it today eeeek #angel boy #mayor of loserville #ihtctaot

[teddybeartoji]

i was literally asleep already but i just realized..... am i starting to narrate my little stories like de a little bit??? like actual inland empire giving you a random menacing warning???? is it you calling the prince an idiot in your head or is it just drama??

#love how i'm dissecting my own writing as if #i wasn't the one writing it???? #ihtctaot #does this make sense lmao #idk we'll see in the morning #mayor of loserville

[teddybeartoji]

since i'm in it now..... waymond telling evelyn the iconic line of "in another life, i would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you" is also very ihtctaot to me

#prince!gojo is just about ready to denounce the throne for his beloved knight #sighhhhhhhhhhhhh #ihtctaot #fuck everything i just teared up watching the fucking clip #hellO????? #the best film ever made #in the history of the world

[teddybeartoji]

WAIIIIT I THINK I JUST ACCIDENTALLY WROTE A BIT OF STSG ANGST INTO A THING😭😭😭😭😭😭THAT WAS NOT THE PLAN AT ALL SO IDK HOW I FEEL ABOUT ITT I DON'T WANNA MAKE SUGU SAD WHAT THE FUCK i need to backtrack a little i think😭😭😭😭😭😭 imagine getting so surprised by your own writing hello???????

#LIKE I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT THEY MESSED AROUND A LITTLE WHEN THEY WERE YOUNGER YK #BUT IT JUST ALWAYS SOUNDS SO #SAD #LIKE THEY'RE OBVIOUSLY SOULMATES IN EVERY UNIVERSE #FUCK #BUT I NEED THEM TO BE PLATONIC SOULMATES BC I CANNOT ADD ANY SORT OF ANGST BETWEEN THEM #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #caught myself so off guard the fuck #mayor of loserville #ihtctaot

[teddybeartoji]

i need to quit my job ASAP i need to write i need to learn how to fucking draw bc ihtctaot needs to be a fucking comic AND I CAN'T DRAW FOR SHIT this is my motivation do you guys understand that it's a full movie in my head i can see it so clearly

#ihtctaot #clearly losing it i see #i'm at work clutching a piece of paper writing down my thoughts #smh

[teddybeartoji]

btw one of the songs for the next prince!gojo chap will be ptolemaea by ethel cain 😊😊😊

#ihtctaot #hehehhe #♡˳·˖ mtalks

[teddybeartoji]

knight!reader and cop car by mitski

i get mean when i'm nervous like a bad dog // i miss riding horses, i miss running fast // i was meant for running fast // i pretended you were mine, it made me calm babe

i am cruel i am gentle i can make you laugh

i don't think about the past // it's always there anyway

i've preemptively blocked all the exits // so i will burn this movie theather, hey

#ihtctaot #it's no longer fanfiction #it's a character study lmao #jokes jokes #my favourite mitski song too btw

[teddybeartoji]

MICKEY…… im sorry im literally so scatterbrained i COMPLETELY forgot to answer ur question abt shoko’s role in the ihtctaot universe 😭😭😭 IT HIT ME OUT OF NOWHERE i was like did mickey ask me abt shoko or did i make that up….. bUT i finally remembered and im here to help (hopefully maybe) :’3 

I LOOOVVEEEE THE IDEA OF ESTRANGED CHILDHOOD FRIENDS SHOKO/KNIGHT!READER R U KIDDING ME…… i also feel like it makes sense for shoko to maybe have a tough upbringing? or like. maybe she grew up in a run-down area and thats how they met… bc im assuming that reader didnt have it easy as a child :cc BUT ANYWAY;;;;;

tbh when i was writing my own fic i kinda pictured shoko as someone who just hangs around the castle and helps the maids now and then. good at patching people up, knowledgeable abt treatment and etc… maybe hired by the royal family to be a nurse of sorts? idk but i do see her as someone Mysterious. just kinda appears when she wants to. easily misunderstood bc she has unsettling vibes but shes nice!! mostly.

THOSE R JUST MY SPONTANEOUS THOUGHTS THOUGH im sorry i forgot abt this… 😔😔 i think i was so excited to answer that my brain blocked it out LMAOO but…!!! im always happy to talk abt shoko <33 and i cant wait to see what u do w her character!!

NOOO RUSHH EVERRRRR i literally send u like a novel lmao

but ahhhh ari ari ari the way our brains are not kissing they are now making out ok i was literally thinking about the same things about her. like everything u said........................

the estranged childhood friends ahhhhhhhhh it's so good i'm thinking something sooomething about the reader going out of their way to help shoko out when they were kids. like they were both more like street kids (i think shoko was more quiet so she came off as more "manageable" so i think she'd find a house to stay at but the reader still had to be out and shoko felt soooooooo bad and tried to make up for it by always fixing them up whenever they fought with whoever)(but the reader never wanted shoko to feel bad they think it's just the way that it is - they're out on the street, they don't belong, don't fit in I'M CRYING) but then yeah something something the reader decides to move and learn how to be a better fighter and shoko is left behind BUT NOT FOR LONG bc now this fancy ass little white haired teenager is here tagging along a sulky dark haired boy and whooo boy she now has new friends (yay) and satoru definitely gave her a room somewhere on the first floor, kind of hidden away with her own little garden area overlooking the ocean (that's where they all hang out at)(every time sugu leans on the railing to look at the sea at some point satoru comes up and scares him a little and sugu's eyebrows always furrow and he aaaaaalways hits him on his shoulder)(and shoko pretends they're annoying but in reality she's so glad to have them)

#ehehehehehehhehehehe doing so well #not thinking at all #head sooooooo empty #how am i supposed to sleep like this #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #they're my loves #OH and she always patches us sugu when he comes back from a battle while satoru looks at them with his head resting on his arms #yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #ihtctaot #ari <3 #friends!!

[teddybeartoji]

"I HUNGER TO COMMIT THE ACT OF TOUCH" SOUNDTRACK

☆. note: this is my little playlist for the series<33 these are the songs that were either simply playing in the background or gave me inspiration or just reminded me of them! i will update this when the next chapter comes out!!

+ here is the series masterlist itself!

`♡、SUMMER - THE FIRST MEETING

so this is love by ilene woods - an angel sent just for him; he's ridiculous bc this was definitely playing in his head when the knight arrived smh

take you down by daniel pemberton - the saviour spills blood; this is for the action sequence, this is what i was listening to while writing it (in my head this was a fun action scene i think i'm too much of a violence buff to take it too seriously)

jack sparrow by hans zimmer - the bickering; especially the first minute of this reminds me of them a lot lmao, i can imagine the prince saying the dumbest things while the knight is trying to keep their cool, or how they're just side-eyeing the prince waltzing around the bloody field.... i feel like this can go with the brute fight too

wandering by gustavo santaolalla - the ride home; i think it's perfect for a quiet moment like that, the setting sun warming their back, lulling the sleepy eepy prince into a deep slumber on his knight's shoulder. the trees sway in the light wind, bird chirp in the background. it's calm, it's beautiful. it's comfortable

`♡、AUTUMN - THE SMILE

if i am with you by 呪術廻戦 - a walk in town; the leaves under his feet, the kids laughing, the bustling streets - he loves his people

big country by emile mosseri - the girls; the smiles, the giggles

annie and owen by dan romer - a warm heart; they're bickering they're laughing they're essentially holding hands love is around us

i can't handle change by roar - this isn't your place; "hanging out where i don't belong, is nothing new to me."; "nothing i do is ever right."; knight!reader nation how are we holding up??

ptolemaea by ethel cain - "what have you done?"; "even the iron still fears the rot; hiding from something i cannot stop"; "i am the face of love's rage"

didascalies by luc ferrari - the rain will wash it away; it's your fault

`♡、WINTER - THE SCARS

to be written...

`♡、SPRING - THE NEW BEGINNING

to be written...

any kind of feedback is very welcome, i'd love to hear what you guys think of these songs!!!!

#working at tumblr dot com #now that i'm really looking at these THEY'RE SO FUNNY #but i'm genuinely having so much fun with these lmao #but! #i've been thinking about them non-stop #i truly mean that #i just love them so much #the next chapters will have more songs dw #ihtctaot

[teddybeartoji]

ihtctaot update!! i will drop the first part of the playlist today!!! and then i'll just keep adding songs as the next chapters drop

#for the first part i only have a few songs.. #BUT YOU WILL ENJOY #ihtctaot