#im not doing so well™️

[milkbreadtoast]

IDK... IDK!!! 🫥

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscient reader #yoo joonghyuk #yu junghyeok #i didnt sketch first or use ref so this is prob wonky af dlcbdmfbdj #my art #alsjdkskd even to my eyes this looks almost identical to how i draw cedric.... i give up.... #i do try to draw them diff but i dont think its v noticeable dkdbff #*mutters* eyebrows shape... i decided i'll give yjh triangle eyebrows (thicker at the ends) & cedric tapered brows (thicker toward middle) #*whispers* im also trying to make cedric's hair curlier... like more than yjh... but idk if its noticeable dkfjd #i need to draw him again #but besides that #THE VIBES R DIFF..... #goes full on shoujo when drawing cedric #but w yjh im like. no i need to show the angst and depression *gives him eyebags and takes the light from his eyes* #<-- this is my approach to drawing dark choco cookie too kdjfnd #cedric... has angst and depression too but. he hasnt been thru the Time Loops™️ #and he can sleep well thanks to his emotional support prince jesse(yeseo)BDNBSBD

[s0fter-sin]

so lately i’ve been obsessed with a 141 dancer au

gaz runs classes, has a youtube channel and quickly becomes one of the most sought after choreographers in the music video scene. soap is his dance partner for his classes, he helps run them and does demonstrations with him

ghost is also a choreographer and he’s gaz’s Arch Nemesis

he's famous for never performing his routines, never doing public appearances without his skull mask and being highly exclusive with who he allows to perform his choreo which earns him his name (since he’s a ghost creator). gaz however is a social media darling, his classes and videos regularly doing huge numbers

they both popped up around the same time and are neck and neck in terms of popularity and skill and they immediately rub each other the wrong way

gaz accuses ghost of not actually choreographing his routines himself bc no one has ever seen him dance and ghost thinks gaz is a clout chaser who's just in it for the fame instead of passion

he became a dancer as a way to channel his rage after years of being an underground fighter, the discipline and physicality helping him more than fights ever did. he hates the thought of someone just using it just to get famous when it literally saved his life

deep down they know their accusations are wrong and they have a grudging appreciation for the other's talent but they'd both rather die than admit it

price is a famous dancer turned director they both work with frequently and they always fight over him; trying to get their routines picked for his music videos. he's also the only one in the industry who's ever seen the ghost perform (before he got famous and before the Incident™)

he finally gets fed up with them constantly being at each other's throats and hires them both to work together and choreograph a joint routine. they're both famous in their own right but this video is for a huge artist so neither of them can refuse no matter how much they hate the other

gaz has a gymnastics background but also a ballet background which lends him to a more fluid style whereas ghost’s style is stronger, more masculine with sharper movements so they naturally end up butting heads

then there's soap who has a completely different style altogether, focusing on a more modern, breakdancer style which makes him see everything completely differently

but it also adds to his self-doubt bc he didn't have a formal dance education, he built his entire repertoire by himself. people see him as inferior to gaz who has that very formal, highly disciplined style. his insecurities about only ever being seen as gaz's demonstration partner and that he can only do gaz’s routines so all his skill is just an extension of him instead of being seen as a dancer in his own right forces him to adopt a rigid - destructive - perfectionism in himself and his body

soap meets ghost before the first rehearsal. he gets to the studio early to practice when sees this beautiful man dancing

he has no idea who he is but he moves so seamlessly, almost better than gaz, and he immediately falls a little in love. the man catches him watching in the mirror and he flusters, getting worse as the man just smirks at him and flawlessly completes the routine

soap tries to save face and asks him to teach him the routine he's doing

the man agrees, introducing himself as simon. the style of the routine is familiar to soap but he can't focus on it when simon's hands are on his waist, guiding him through the steps; his chest pressed up against his back. they work together beautifully, picking up each other's body language and dancing together easier and better than they've ever danced with anyone

then gaz arrives and the vibe in the studio immediately changes

simon's easy confidence becomes hostility, pulling up the skull gaiter he'd let hang around his neck as he practically pushes soap behind him to square up to gaz

soap’s shocked when gaz hits back with the same energy until he realises it's the same way he acts whenever he talks about ghost and his stomach drops

he steps out from behind ghost to side with gaz and the betrayal in simon's eyes hurts more than anything he's ever felt

from there it's romeo and juliet; camp gaz versus camp ghost as they fight over every step of the choreo and soap is the poor bastard stuck in the middle

soap tries to channel that “you’re my best friend’s rival, i have to hate you,” mindset but he can’t forget the way it felt to dance with simon

and how much he wants to do it again

#my friend mimi introduced me to gymnast gaz which made me think he grew up in competitive gymnastics and left it to be a dancer #whether his family was disappointed in that decision i havent figured out yet #the Incident™️ was roba getting simon directly from the underground and manipulating him into working at his strip club where price finds h #and pulls him out when roba tries to force him into sex work too #soap earned his name for being such a clean dancer and never making mistakes during performances #which just make his insecurities worse bc now he has to live up to his new reputation as well as fight of the gazs partner image hes gotten #farah and alex are definitely team gaz and i think nikolai would be his manager #then im thinking alejandro and rudy are team ghost with laswell as his manager #then bc soap is the odd man out hes used as tie breaks when they get into arguments about what move should go next in the routine #the pressure of picking correctly and the routine being essentially on his shoulders freaking him out just as much as having to choose #between his best friend who expects him to always side with him and ghost who always has good ideas #this isnt a negative haz au btw i think it would be a good way to explore his arrogance and stubborness #hes decided ghost is his enemy and nothing can pull him away from that #(except for what eventually does but im not sure what that is yet lmao) #i want soap at some point to completely overwork himself and his bad knee swells and gets irritated and finally gives out #and its ghost who forces him to take a break and convinces him that working his body to death wont help him be a better dancer #cue tender wound care and ghost backstory as he reassures soap that he is an amazing dancer #he offers soap a no stress space at his studio if he ever wants it & gaz overhears and thinks soap is betraying him and leaving so cue angs #we’re a team. ghost team #coming out of my cage and i’ve been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #kyle gaz garrick #simon ghost riley #save post #john price #cod 141 #soapghost au

[rosetinted-escape]

I am once again being insane about songwriting.

It's weird doing it without having a band to go to, like it seems kinda pointless. I used to just do chords/melody/lyrics/vibe and let them figure out their stuff so it was fun for them to play as well.

I MIGHT post them bc honestly, I just want people to hear them, even if it's just in their awful AWFUL noteflight instrument sounds form. They came out a BIT poppier than I intended but I'm still obsessive over them so.

#personal #HONESTLY #I NEED A BAND #bc the sounds on noteflight are Not It™️ #but ive been so insane about this one song im writing as i previously mentioned #but now im working on a different one #and will probably become insane about that as well tbh #IM WRITING DRUM PARTS FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER #songwriting #my music #theres some bits where the melody sounds weird bc its a computer so i might sing over it #if i do youll be the first to hear my post-t singing congrats #aside from my family who hear it way too much rip them

[carebooks]

where is my lockwood & co. crossover with bridgerton in which lockwood & co. somehow time travel to the regency period and now have to deal with the time era’s bullshit whilst also figure out how The Problem is a thing in the early 1800’s when it hadn’t even existed… this is exactly what george wants to investigate. they get dragged to a time where The Problem was active and yet it has never been documented. meanwhile, locklyle were just getting their footing and being semi-more-flirty each other and now they can’t interact in private without a goddamn chaperone. do you think that stops either one of them— fuck no. but it creates so many fun situations. and in total, the trio goes out nightly more or less every time there’s ghost activity.

#i like to think that it took a while for children to develop the seeing ghosts thing #like some of the kids right now in the regency era can see weird stuff or hear weird stuff but are basically told from a young age #to not ‘act out’ or ‘talk like a loony’ etc #and so they had to kind of push it down #till later in the decades talent just increased more until it was just there especially when the problem came a knockin’ #eloise goes insane over lucy. like not only does she look vv similar to her litle sister but she’s COOL #and yes there will be a subtle implied subject that lucy is decended from a bridgerton- most likely franny- but its never like a big thing #its mainly ‘oh fuck one of these arseholes is my ancestor and if they die i may cease to exist. oh well.’ #and then its lockwood ‘OH FUCK ONE OF THESE ARSEHOLES IS LUCE’S ANCESTORS AND IF THEY DIE SHE MAY CEASE TO EXIST’ #so thats why he takes a bigger interest in protecting them more or less; but it’s never gonna be like a HUGE thing its just a thing #who would george get along with #i havent seen bridgerton in a minute #i would write it but i have zero knowledge about regency era stuff #like ill write lockwood & co. in my sleep but i got no clue how the regency era scandal™️ works #do i have to rewatch bridgerton again; im just gonna skip to the s*x scenes we both know this #and the lady danbury scenes too #like thats all i’d end up rewatching #lockwood and lucy #lockwood and co #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #george karim #lockwood & co x bridgerton #hyacinth and george can see ghosts totes but the rest of the bridgertons as well as older teens have pushed the talent down #theyre sensitives and thats it #is that how it works #im making it up as i go #should i make a whole new type 4 that can time travel. is that allowed? can anyone stop me? #should lockwood meet kipps’ ancestor and start the rivalry from decades earlier bc he’s THAT petty

[garaviel]

Soooooo if all things end up well in terms of time management with a full time job i am gonna try to get an interior design degree

#theres phlebotomy and cosmetology ones as well im kinda interested in but #most nurses really are mean girls ™️ and so are 99% of hair stylists i have met if im being honest #might just be the area i live in but theyre insufferable most of the time #so unless i could work at a salon with a great selection of queer or alternative folks present id hate it #and lets be honest lots of us do our own hair why would we have high demand for a Weirdo Salon #and yeah id consider phlebotomy just out of practicality and not a desire to work in the medical field #but interior design? if its not designing storefronts or Beige Nightmares id love that shit #oh there was funeral director too but. i can only stomach so many christians in my day to day i dont think i could handle it

[diomedrian]

I have to learn business management from scratch while studying supply chain analytics and i don't want to leave classics behind so im at the very least trying to keep up with translation (and failing actually) and i have to work on my personal skills so im looking for a theatre class (social anxiety is absolutely not helpful) all the while running and exercising cos i've got a lot to be angry about. So YEAH ✌🏼✌🏼

#personal #looking at it like this. i DID pack my day super well w studying. but also i get tired. ninety minutes a day on exercise is Exhausting™️ #i do need interaction. i need to improve my people skills 😭😭 i hate people #what am I trying to do? fuck knows #i thought consulting. but now im just. scared? #huh. am i tho? or do I just not know enough? #maybe if I studied a bit more. it wouldn't be so terrifying

[bunnyb34r]

I really hate movie theaters but I saw every hunger games movie in theaters and I'm really intrigued by the adaptation of The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes (especially since the book just came out like two years ago??) so 👀 might have to go

#im like SCREAMING rn bc i only found out ab it through a random video i clicked on youtube that was talking ab the actress and i was like #hold up... what do you mean THIS YEAR like WHAT #anyway i was skeptical and was like ugh this is gonna suck i know it like i was really enthralled by the book and it has been rotating in #my brain since i read it and i literally think ab it every time i think ab rabies and rats AGGSGSSGS which i was actually thinking ab this #morning funnily enough bc i was watching a video on pests and how rats bite people and my brain was like haha like in the book :) #anwyay i think ab it A LOT and it was so good and ive been thinking ab it more frequently lately and thats hilarious that i find out now ab #the movie and im like vibrating with excitement aggdgdgdgdgd like the casting looks great the trailer looks wonderful i have hope #im gonna cry like i did reading it im sure (not for the [spoiler] you think it's a different emotional point) and ahhh i cant wait to see #the rest of the cast and the marcus scene™️ well scenes OH AND THE SCENE IN THE TRAILER WITH THE FLAG! so glad they're including #that like i know that arc is a very important plot point but to add in him wearing the flag like a cape AHHHHH i love it #i really wanna reread the book now sggdgdgd it's just so so good man like fuck #im gonna be blathering ab this for weeks sgsgsgsggdgd #marquilla #thg

[wabblebees]

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#rehearsal tonight was rouh but still fun soits fine im just. exhausted #i was achey and brain-foggy as FUCC #so i came home and had meself a drink. and then when i was done i was like eh im still feelin. yk whatever so i made myself a Drink™️ #and oooooh bITCH #started making a grillcheese halfway thru drinkin the Drink™️ so when that shit hit my siystem i FELT it lmfao #ooooooooooooh bitch #we good im Chillin chillin now im just. HOOooo bOY #ive decided that alcohol is always gross (save for the like. jack daniels watermelon shit bc that was fuckin GORGEOUS goddamn( #HOWEVER. cranberry juice makes everything better😌💕 #AND ! so does grilled cheese<3<3 #so vodka+cranberry juice is fun even tho it still tastes at least a little bit (or a lottle bit if u dont mix it right💀 oops) like alcohol #and my sandwich turned out perfect and my ''cocktail'' turned out fine and Very Alcoholic lmfao #3 shots vodka & can pineapple juice & buncha cranberry juice & splashes of grenadine+lemon juice #PLUS a squeeze of coconut cream which!! is also what i i sugared the rim of my glass with!! which felt all fun+fancy so im :> #i def could still taste vodka but eh it still tasted better than the one (1) drink ive had at a restaurant (raspberry lemon drop)(gross) #((not GROSSgross but. tasted like i shouldve been DRUNk after drinking it and i was decidedly Not so. hmph🙄)) #aNyWaY this is all nonsense that doesnt matter but i felt like telling Someone so. void it is! #thanx for listenin/readin lmao #my friends are all sleepin and i should be soon as well -- hopefully i do but 🤷we'll see🤷 #im still kinda 👁👄👁 from rehearsal so im trying to bring it down+chill tf out so i can Get Some Fucking Rest before too long yanno? #so like. yeagh! #hope yall are doin well #byeee<3<3 #bee speaks

[yasmini24]

another day of my mom being homophobic 😒😒

#no im just so done with this woman #my dad and i are going to his friends party and im getting dressed but im wearing a white tshirt which happens to be mens and shorts #she has a problem with the mens shirt and shes like do you like men or women cause 90% of your closet is mens clothing and im like ???????? #im not out yet to my family and ill probably never will be but what does clothing have to do with it?????? #i dont answer and just say whats that gotta do with it #and then i walk away and continue to get ready but later when my dad and i get ready to leave shes like 'theres two men leaving the house' #and 'dont be surprised when your daughter comes home with a gf' #and im still like ??????? #i deal with sm bs on the daily #and i have a suspicion that my dad knows im bi #theres two many clues #but if he does know- he didnt say anything #but ill still act like straight daughter ™️ #BUT IT CLEARLY ISNT WORKING #oh well

[baekura]

.

#boy i sure wish my coworkers would stop commenting on my weight :') #like yes #i know ive lost a lot of weight #i felt fine about it at first but i have not been physically well and im still losing weight #eating is very difficult for me now and i cant eat much without starting to feel sick #food textures have made eating harder too #and it sucks bc my WHOLE life i have not been a very picky eater #there is very few foods i do not like and even then i might still eat them if they're in front of me #i like a variety of food textures #ive never minded the feeling of chewed food in my mouth #but now it makes me feel sick #so again. cant eat very much without feeling gross #and i know they mean well when they compliment me for losing weight #but ive lost a lot on just a couple months and it's distressing™️ #delete later maybe #ghost.txt

[universalsatan]

can’t tell if i’m confusing wanting to look like almost stereotypically macho men or just being wildly attracted to them. or both i guess

#i mean i always used to say bi dilemma but im realizing this is mostly just gay now godbless. trans rights #for context. im thinking like. young harrison ford (i Know.; the reason im saying this is i remember Both my mom and dad acknowledging him #as the og Macho Man™️) and because it crossed my dash. jackles. but not really young jackles like s1 dean but matured jackles like more rece #it’s funny cause in practice. the person ive been pursuing (while Also an idiot. maybe i should just accept myself as morosexual at this #point) is actually. very effeminate HAHAHDHAHSJDHSJ #to the extent that my mom has thought he was gay in the past. i was talking about him to my sister and she asked if he was gay LMAO #which is hilarious because as far as i know (and ive known him for… almost 6 years ig? pined for almost 5). i’m Only aware that hes had a #crush on a girl ages ago. but this was also thru a secondhand source we’ve never actually talked about that #we probably should but we’re both idiots i have no idea how it’d be brought up #but in terms of effeminate. hm. he’s actually Really tall maybe over 6ft? and he Can have a deep voice. i think he can sing bass? but he #actually speaks in a higher register. god i wonder if he’s doing the opposite of me. who’s always consciously deepend my voice LMAO #he’s a HUGE plant enthusiast. HUGE. i dont Think he’s ND (or at least he doesn’t from what i can tell. I get vibes) but he straight up has a #plant fixation. knows so much about care. when he worked in greenhouses he learned the latin names for a good portion of them. i know this #isnt exactly ‘effeminate’ but he does all the gardening. oh and to add to it ig. i dont know HOW. he was NOT. irked by gore and blood??? #when i explained to him what my potential job as a crime scene cleaner could entail??? but he cannot STAND bugs. he FREAJED OUT (over text) #at the mention of a spider. so of course. me being the 8yo boy with a playground crush. proceeded to tell him all my Fun Spider Encounters #lets see i think he also really loves to bake? ive seen these elaborate cakes (tp roll for covid. a fish) he’s made on insta. and there was #that one time he brought me those three most MOIST chocolate cupcakes with raspberry buttercream icing. i deadass ASCENDED to heaven. #food IS the way to a man’s heart btw. #oh yeah and the fact that i met him in the first place — well. i play oboe in ensembles. and he’s flute/piccolo. yeaHAHSHAHSHH #LMAO remembering that while he doesnt keysmash (i’ve started to around him. it’s mostly emojis bless his heart) he deadass called me ‘hun’ #oh and the best part? i couldnt think kf what to watch. and he’s over here saying he doesnt watch ANYTHING. like bro how do u NOT. listen to #any music past 1900. OR OPERA EITHER. and NOT have any favorite movies/shows??? wh??? like. he deadass was like ‘unless [gardening channel #on youtube] counts’ like girl i am so in love #but yeah i was literally sitting there sounding like a pretentious film nerd bro i cant fuckin believe it. but i FINALLY wriggle it out of #him. because apparently he cant concentrate on most movies (valid.). the ones he CAN are cheesy chick flick comedies #saying that he can recite 90% of mean girls. thats his favorite movie #and he also mentioned like. legally blonde #and i have a feeling he almost was avoiding it in case i would judge him or whatever but ngl i honestly fell harder HAHSHSJAJDJAJ #fuck 30 tags but let’s just say. very effeminate compared to me. a full on Dad

[maidofmetal]

:)))

#metal speaks #tw suicide #my mom and i were talking about my mental health™️ #and how easily i get stressed™️ #and how i overreact™️ #but i pointed out how quickly i was able to pack it in and continue on #like yeah iv kinda been crying non stop for the past 2 months #i DO NOT DO WELL WITH CHANGE OR STRESS #and theres been a lot of change n stress in my life atm #but like #overall i think im doing a lot fucking better than i would have in the past™️ #like my sister has been gone for almost 2 months and i haven’t tried to kill myself 🥰 #AND i haven’t even WANTED TO….!?!???! #which is #….. #literally so fucking wild #like yes im really sad #and i literally cant talk about her without crying #like about her moving away #but i haven’t thot about killings myself #so im really proud of myself #like this is literally so huge for me #plus everything thats going on with my body atm #in the past i would hv been immediately like okay time oma #kms* #but like i genuinly want to live…? #and im very much still reeling from this emotion #like it makes me wanna cry ..? #but like a good cry #🥰

[croakings]

y'know. despite everything. i do find it a little bit funny that an increasingly prevailing opinion of the left is "only idiot liberals bother to vote"

#* #chatter #uspol #that's not a smart thing to think or say at all u r not immune to propaganda #''liberals(derogatory)'' the left 🤝 the right #which. i don't necessarily disagree but also #not thinking very hard about ''hot takes'' and having chronic incurable brain worms: the left 🤝 the right #i literally just. y'know. people in power..... make decisions occasionally. sometimes those decisions may affect you‚ personally. #sometimes change is slow and The Work™️(the great work)(the little work)(the things that regardless must be done) is. well #a slog. undramatic. ineffective. disappointing. and yet. #it matters if you can win one small insignificant bloody crumb of relief for someone. anyone. in any capacity. #there are lesser evils and at the same time there're greater goods. y'all're so fatalistic and negative #howre u gonna meet the revolution if u can't even suck it up and learn who's on ur city council #or god forbid participate in electing any of the members #the work is to do what good u can for literally anyone or anything u can manage. #it costs u NOTHING to vote or certainly nothing more than actually organizing would #literally do not understand sobbing into my hands y'all're so stupid.... #leftist infighting is truly just. fucking lmao. YOU CAN DO MORE THAN ONE(1) THING GOOD FUCKING GRAVY #im actually incapable of crying so u really do just have to laugh

[magniloquent-raven]

robin?

SHE

#about the ''everyone is wrong about them but me'' #i have seen some Takes™️ about her characterization in s4 alright #and while i do think that the duffers are just. kinda bad as follow thru and consistency #robin being more talkative & awkward in s4 really isnt that hard to justify in-universe #like when we first meet her she's just steve's coworker who is starting to realize she kinda likes hanging out with him #and in s4 she's not only closer friends with steve and therefore probably more comfortable around him #which would change the way she presents herself #but having someone she can totally be herself around could very well change her overall behaviour #idk ive just seen some posts going around saying that she was so smart and cool in s3 and now she's ramble-y and weird and im like #wow. okay. #i came out of s4 being like ''hm she was very autistic coded this season. neat'' #so idk man seeing people equate her being less guarded with her being...dumbed down? #sus #like. yeah this season hasnt brought up the fact that she speaks several languages and is very gifted in that sense but #its not like it wouldve been especially relevant to anything they've done so far #her being really smart about this one thing might've been like. at the forefront of her character in s3 but #yknow. that doesnt mean Smart About Stuff is all she's allowed to be

[harleybarbarahandler]

and if I said margot and cillian look hot together?

#im just saying. someone casting a movie has the opportunity to do the most headline-generating thing by casting them as romantic leads #hell i’ll write it for you. cillian as the crime boss and margot as the neighbourhood’s newest hellraiser #(I can’t help it if calm detached and in charge suit-wearer + unhinged chaos bisexual played by margot robbie is my favourite dynamic #the plot could be a mix between ‘tame the wild child to bring her onto my crew’ and ‘i can make him WORSE actually’ #which is a fun thing to think about a crime boss #I want Margot’s character to look at Cillian’s and be like. hm. he is not evil enough but we can work on that. #the inevitable scene where she bugs him to dance with her so much that he finally gives in and then they have a Moment™️ #but they’re both emotionally constipated so they have no idea how to deal with feelings #probably they go and commit a crime and things go badly and one of them ends up injured #probably her because I feel like then he’d be like. well we can’t be together because she’ll get hurt #and she takes that very badly because she’s a disaster (my favourite margot character portrayal) and does More dangerous shit #maybe she leaves the team for a while and goes out on her own #and he’s trying to find her because he loves her and can’t deal with his feelings #anyway I will write the movie for you for free all I ask is that i get to hang out on set

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

/vent in tags

but prof sycamore also looked very cute in this pic here and I wanted to share it

eepy french man

#having those feelings™️ again #it's just frustrating being queer in a very unsafe/hostile environment #not even just in person #but in another socmed platform that I'm active in #part of the reason why I made this acc in the first place is because I just. feel safer in a way #being my silly lil gay self making gay content #what frustrates me is how I Thought I'd never have to feel this way in that other online community I'm part of #because for a while I really was happy #I still am #-ish..... #I more so love the media itself we're a community for (not pkmn- another one I havent mentioned here) than the community itself #bc there's just that part of me that Knows how much I'd be #burnt at the stake for just loving who I do #for being Me #but what can I do really - if they knew then . well #Id lose everything. Id lose people I care about bc I know #I just know deep down that they cant accept that part of me #no matter how much theyve considered me a friend all this time. if they knew then. it . goes against what they believe in. #but then it becomes a question of whether it's even worth pretending to be something Im not just to be safe or to risk it all for freedom #that sounds cheesy as fuck but that's essentially what it boils down to #uoguhghghgngn #gonna doodle my silly beloveds just to cheer up #there are people out there who do accept me. who do make me feel safe . and that's what should matter. what I should focus on #fluff sad hours