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imaslothandsowhat · 2 months

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still unemployed. also, highly anxious and have creeping depression coming back. home situation so stressful with the whole home renovation. we dont have any help and im incapable of doing everything my parents want me to do. i keep having pestering health issues. i dont get enough sleep and i think i have very strong case of insomnia fuelled by horrible anxiety. home renovation is so stressful and shit doesnt work bcos both my parents are old and, well, im not a fucking builder so i dont do it either. they keep having constant bickering to full blown out fights. i cant even clean the house, im so exhausted all the time. i think tis the atmosphere in the house - depressing and hopeless, we all succumbed to it. i dont know how to escape. also, reading horror stories - that may have influenced my mental state in one way or another, who knows, at least it keeps me happy bcos im lost in another book.

i try to write. finished one shot. writing another one, a very long one. i have many ideas for fanfics but then i get discourages bcos 'those are just fanfics'. they are not going to get me employed or recognised in any way. its not a published book draft. i cant force myself write an analytical piece of essay on politics - it bores me, kills me. i want to be educated and i try to read some academic articles but i cant physically force myself to open one. also, i want to and, actually, just have to read and learn the laws (plural, yes, so fucking many) of my country so i can be an educated citizen that knows her rights. its intimidating, its a lot, i want to cry often bcos i feel like a failure.

im so old and i dont have a job even though i graduated bachelors already a year ago. i shouldve found smthgn by now. but i dont want any job, i want smthng nice and worthy of m and my time and my knowledge. but i suppose im also very lazy and passive. i thought about starting a youtube channel, but thats also a lot of effort. a lot of energy.

all my energy goes to surviving day by day in this depressed household whre my father is always angry, tired, unhappy and my mother is always angry, tired, unhappy. see, a pattern? i am, too, always angry, tired, unhappy. when things go well, we cherish and we dont do anything. then, things swiftly go to shit and i feel sm anxiety that i feel my heart bursting and bleeding and i dont have any meds (except simple calming one) to help me. i want to cry, often, more often.

i began my singing online classes. it felt like a lot of fun and i enjoyed it. i want to begin my piano classes too, slowly. but then, i feel like a failure bcos its not a job. i dont work. i dont get money. i dont develop myself career-wise. everythign i do and enjoy slightly - its all a mess, its all unworthy, its all pointless. i dont help around the house, i dont help with renovations, i dont work. im nothing, i worth nothing. i dont have a job and im nothing, i dont have a career and how dare i dream big, how dare i be ambitious.

very depressive state of mind. my mind is haunted, i suppose, its hunted even by these sharks of anxiety and self-hatred ingrained so deep within me that it takes me so many years to unlearn that no, in fact, killing oneself is not a logical decision and hating every inch of your being and your personality is, in fact, not a healthy and cool attitude.

well, doing it all little by little. might read some academic articles, might not. who knows? no one fucking hires me regardless of how many cvs i send. my country is rotting, decaying from blatant nepotism and corruption. how will i move through it? i do not know. but i put too much energy already in my beautiful hobbies, in helping around the house, in keeping myself and my parents sane and not going off the rockers. its a full time job, actually! i try to soothe myself before i sleep bcos i wish only to cry and scream bcos how dare my fate not be what i have imagined all these months ago.

the world is cruel, unhappy, damp place. and i think im falling through it. but im trying to remember that this all is just a temporary feeling and i will feel better soon, maybe even tomorrow. my hobbies make sense, they are worth the time, worth my energy. i must try to enjoy my life even though i feel like its running away and i am worthless and my mom's words about 'doing something, write something, DO SOMETHING' are not helping. i simply want to decompose, cease to move forever. why time flies so fast? its already the third month of the year and i havent accomplished anything. work-wise, i guess. mentally? im down again. why life is like this.

tmrw i believe things will be better even though i cant for the life of me force myself to fall asleep early bcos my thoughts are killing me, eating me from the inside. i cant for the life of me force myself to wake up early bcos the dread of the day filled with depressive state horrifies me. what a cycle i live in. i dont know how to get out. and my depressed and angry parents are not helping. and i do not want to leave my house, pls do not suggest, im so sick of this stupid suggestion.

#personal rant

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starrips420 · 8 months

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being me

being on meds after suffering in my own mind for years is kinda cool. i feel decently happy. i can function. blogging is cool because its my own personal diary that people can look in on and not know who i am but can say wow that bitch is off her rocker. (valid btw cuz i totally am) i wish i had the money to completely alter my appearance right now. i think id feel more me. im steps closer to appearing how i want to but im still not fully there. i need a new outfit for what so not. in ten days. fuck. i might take out a cash advance.

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konamines · 1 year

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Hayley Kiyoko vids are a whole diff type of therapy man

It makes me desire such closeness though. I can’t manage to like or be interested in anyone but I want closeness so bad but not from someone I don’t like that way. I don’t feel lonely despite not really interacting with anyone lately, not like I used to. However, I do want to be loved and love back.

I also am so dead mesmerized to when two girls are so attracted to each other they look so lovingly yet so carnivorously into their eyes, like you are so fucking in love but can’t get enough of them. Skin on skin isn’t close enough. Tongue isn’t close enough, your hands can’t bring each other closer, as if you want to be engulfed by their rib cage sharing the little space there is with their organs inside of them, close to their heart. Hearing it beat becomes your lullaby. Close is never close enough, you always want more, you pull each other closer as if you were pulling yourself up from a cliff. You can’t get enough.

God I wish I could have that but I won’t lie, on my new meds like this I’ve had a bloated ass mood and I’m not falling apart. I feel less like I need other people rn. I had an interaction today that kind of pissed me off where usually I would have completely had to take a break and go sob. I did feel like I was about to for a moment but usually Id feel angry all day and upset and sad. I literally came back from that fairly quickly and didn’t blow a fuse. HOW THE FUCK? I’m on my period as well and my meds just started working, I should be off my rocker. I can’t tell if I’m just having a really good few days or what but my god I hope I keep having it! I can’t wait for my next psych appointment and get my meds raised a bit more so I can be even more stable. IM SO FUCKING HAPPY IM NOT LOSING MY SHIT EVERY FIVE SECONDS!!! I’m finally catching up on little things and not feeling so sorry for myself.

Like god boo Hoo woe is me is not the mood lately (3 days, don’t get ahead of yourself, J)! I just feel really upbeat but not like crazy upbeat. I’m even making plans to work during the summer and get some extra money to get my debt paid off (summer break is paid, I could have chose not to) but yeah I’m just happy about that. I also didn’t run my mouth too much at work and was much more attentive and able to remember things, I had no clue my depression had affected my memory and attentiveness so much. It’s still not perfect and I have ways to go but it’ll be all good. Tbh I feel a bit more confident too.

All in all, It is a lot at once and it might just be a good week or spurr of days but I am going to take advantage of this to the best of my abilities!! <3333

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dikiyvter · 3 years

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Writing my drabble about Giacomo’s first real awakening and his interactions w/ Dottore like

#〈❆OUT OF JOKES;#caffeine from my migraine meds kicked in and im off my rocker

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jackals-ships · 2 years

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@killbaned HFKDLLD the fact i heard it in his voice perfectly tho

but yes ive been filled with the random desire to go off my rocker /jokes because YESTERDAY after momther was let loose from gay baby jail we went to get her meds mostly like aspirin is what they said to take? and the fucking. the fuckim car broke down on the way to kroger Reese im not saying the universe is out to get me but yes it is

so we took the keys with us bc we were both paranoid about the damn thing somehow getting stolen and FORGOT that to have it towed they gotta have the keys? to do? something in there

so i just biked my way up like a god damn maniac fjkdlsl

#jackals barks #reese tag #technically i could have just taken an Uber but MONEY and also i was like oh i did cross-country and i run for fun this will be fine?#narrator voice what the poor naive dumbass did not realize is biking requires slightly different muscles. and they have one (1) muscle only

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whatintheeverlovingfucketh · 2 years

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My season 2 predictions

I'm on my 3rd watch of young royals (I watched it for the first time on December 4th around 6pm then finished that night. Woke up on the 5th and watched it again. Now it's the 6th and I'm almost done it again) I'm about 10 minutes into episode 6 right now and I have thoughts. *update* I finished it about an hour ago now its 1:43am lol

1. That reporter that goes to Simon's House. I think we'll get an interview

2. I think we'll learn more about August's dad

3. This is honestly like so odd but I feel like there might be something between Vincent and nils??? There's been a couple passing scenes where they're all cute together and I think it may come up and inspire wille to be honest about himself.

4.well get to see wilhelm riding a horse. It was mentioned st the parents dinner and I think it might be part of a thing of him clearing his head or something

5. Simon will notice how wille rubs his chest when he gets all anxious and be there for him

6. There's going to be an issue with Sara moving onto the campus because August will think she told wille about the video

*update*

7. I think we'll get to see more felice being her full true self. Wearing what she wants to wear doing what she wants to do. Wearing her hair curly. I think she's going to go through a lot of self discovery and expression. She's a really brave and kind and honest character and we know that she's a good friend and I hope we get to see more of the real felice

*update 2*

8. August definitely actually has some issues going on (duh) in the first ep I think we see him come in from practice and put his watch in the perfect spot and then go to take the meds seemly like very routine. It doesn't seem like he's abusing the adhd meds to just be crazy high off his rocker it seems like he does need something. He is relying on it and it's actually helping him its not just recreation. I think they're trying to maybe make it about ocd for him from trauma to do with his dad but If they do I really hope its not just "omg my pencil isn't straight" I want it to be accurate if they do include that kind of stuff.

9. I dont necessarily think this will happen but I sure hope it does. August needs to face repercussions for his actions. He recorded unknowing unconsented sexual videos of minors, and posted it online and nobody has even made a crumb of a mention as to how he'll be punished. I want to see it happen NOW NOW NOW

*update 3*

10. There's gonna be some kind of scene where wilhelm visits Erik's grave. (Sidenote I know NOTHING about their religious practices or what the Swedish monarchy death practices are like I have no clue so if im wrong about the traditions aspect of it because I simply am uneducated then just adapt it to whatever actually happens) but there will be a scene of grieving and wishing Erik was there to help and potentially some kind of flashback or memory of them connecting. And also maybe something acknowledging that Erik knew wilhelm wasn't straight. Because he never used gendered terms when talking about the crush or anything so that makes me think that.

11. This is something I think will NOT happen. Wilhelm won't try to get into a hetero relationship. He said in the interview (even though he was lying) that he's not trying to have any emotional relationships st school so I don't think it will be encouraged by his parents or anything either. I think it would draw too much attention and really make it seem even more like a cover up

*update 4*

12. This is fully based on a post I just saw but I'm adding it anyways. They're gonna dance together. Simon and wille will just dance and sing together and be in love.

I will update if I have anything else

#young royals #season 2 #predictions

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sleepythug · 2 years

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would rather freeze to death out in the cold than be micromanaged at my shitty retail job. also I forgot to take my meds for two weeks again and im a little off my rocker 🤪🤪🤪

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trashpits · 3 years

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i wish yall could experience this game with me. im absolutely off my rocker bc of the meds situation and honestly its so funny. my reactions have never been so genuine to anything in my life

#dont @ me im gaming

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the-space-case · 5 years

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{Yeah I’ll just put the whole thing here for clarity :D}

OK SO I WAS IN THE MED BAY DOING MY THING YOU KNOW HOW IT IS THERES A BUSTED PAK I FIX IT NO BIG DEAL RIGHT BUT THE PATIENT WAS ACTING STRANGER THAN NORMAL RIGHT JUST REALLY OFF HIS ROCKER YOU KNOW SO I GET HIM HOOKED UP TO THE DONGLE YOU KNOW THAT BIG TABLE WITH THE HOLE IN IT YOUVE BEEN THERE FOR YOUR CHECK UPS BEFORE YEAH THAT THING SO I GET HIM ALL HOOKED UP GOOD AND PROPER AND ASK HIM WHAT HIS DEAL IS YOU KNOW GET THE RUN DOWN OF HIS RUN DOWN PAK CHECK HIS VITALS PULL UP HIS DATA FILE GIVE HIM THE RUNAROUND AND HE SAYS TO ME HE SAYS THAT THERES A BREACH IN THE ENGINE ROOM AND I SAY UH HUH SURE I DONT REALLY BELIEVE HIM CUZ HIS PAK IS JUST FULL OF VIRUSES HERE IM TALKING MAJOR MALFUNCTION HES GLITCHING ALL OVER THIS DONGLE IMMA NEED THE RESTRAINTS FOR THIS ONE ITS THAT BAD YOU KNOW LIKE WOW BUT HE KEEPS TELLING ME THERES SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE ENGINE ROOM ITS MALFUNCTIONING HE HOOKED INTO IT TO CHECK THE SYSTEM AND IT MADE HIM GLITCH SO IM LIKE SURE BECAUSE MAYBE HELL CHILL IF I KEEP NODDING ALONG BUT THEN HE GRABS ME REAL HARD AND SAYS THE SHIP IS FULL OF A DEFECTIVES DATA AND ITS INFECTING THE REST OF THE ENGINEERS SO I SAY HAAH YOURE SO FUNNY AND THEN HE GOT REAL MAD AT ME BUT HONESTLY I WAS BORED LIKE THE REST OF THE MEDICS GOT SHIPPED OFF PLANET SO NOW ITS JUST ME GETTING THE TEA YOU KNOW SO I TELL HIM THAT ILL GET HIM FIXED UP AND HE CAN GO BACK TO HIS BOYFRIEND YOU KNOW AND HE GETS REAL CONFUSED LIKE I DONT HAVE A BOYFRIEND? AND NOW IM LIKE UGH I CAN'T NOT FUCK WITH HIM SO I TELL HIM NOOOOOO KIR IS JUST SO INTO HIM HE JUST HASNT GOT THE GUTS TO SAY SO YOU KNOW AND HE SAYS KIR HAS A BOYFRIEND ALREADY AND IM LIKE WELL DUH BUT HE WANT TO BREAK UP WITH HIM TO GET WITH YOU DUDE EVERYBODY KNOWS IT AND HE ASKS DID HE SAY THAT LIKE IN CONFIDENCE AND I SAY ONE HUNDRED PERCENT DUDE HE SAID IT. AND THEN HE JUST SITS REAL QUIET THE REST OF THE TIME YOU KNOW I FIX HIS PAK ALL NEW AND SHINY MAKE IT REAL NICE AND AT THE END OF IT HE SAYS YOU KNOW WHAT? IM GONNA ASK HIM! AND NOW IM THINKING FUCK YES THE TEA AND SO HE JUMPS OFF THE DONGLE AND RUNS OFF SO YOU KNOW I JUST GOTTA FOLLOW AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT RIGHT SO WE RUN ALL THE WAY TO THE ENGINE ROOM AND HE JUST BUSTS IN AND YELLS FOR KIR AND THEN I NOTICE ALL THE OTHER ENGINEERS ARE KIND OF ACTING REALLY GLITCHY YOU KNOW LIKE THEIR PAKS ARE ALL DEFECTIVE THERE AND IM LIKE OH SHIT ITS ABOUT TO GO DOWN SO MY PATIENT GOES ON UP TO KIR AND SAYS HE ACCEPTS HIS FEELINGS AND KIRS IS LIKE WHAT AND THEN KIRS BOYFRIEND ROLLS UP AND HE'S GLITCHING UP A SOTRM AND JUST SHOOTS HIM AND THEN THE OTHER ENGINEERS ARE LIKE OH NO SO THEY START FIRING THEIR LASERS AND TOOLS LIKE IT WAS NUTS SHOTS WERE GOING EVERYWHERE MACHINERY WAS FYING EVERYONE WAS YELLING MY PATIENT WAS LIKE SO DEAD JUST BODIES ALL OVER THE PLACE MEANWHILE IM JUST HAVING A GIGGLE WATCHING FROM THE DOORWAY LIKE THIS IS THE BEST CASE SCENARIO BUT THEN SOMEONE SHOT ONE OF THE ACTUAL ENGINES AND THEN THAT BLEW UP AND THEN IT DESTROYED THE ONE NEXT TO IT AND SO ON AND SO FORTH SO I MEAN THAT TECHNICALLY TAKES CARE OF THE DEFECTIVE VIRUS PLAGUING THE ENGINE ROOM SO YOU SHOULD REALLY JUST BE THANKING ME RIGHT NOW I MEAN I TOTALLY SAVED THE WHOLE SHIP FROM A ROUGE DEFECTIVE VIRUS SO IF YOU FEEL LIKE REWARDING ME NOW THATD BE PRETTY GREAT THERE ARE THESE PAK UPGRADES MADE BY THE VORTIANS THAT ARE SICK AS HELL AND I REALLY THINK I CAN MAKE AN IMPROVEMENT ON THEM IN REGARDS TO DEFECTIVE REPAIRS AND DETECTION WHICH WOULD REALLY CUT DOWN ON THEIR NUMBERS.

#i hope you all like run on sentences cuz this bitch aint breathing LOl #medic drone ace #text #long text #irken oc

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tiredfemme · 2 years

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idk if it’s the combo /new meds or just me but im absolutely going off my rocker recently and i can’t stop crying

Make it stop

#not saying I’d rather have a seizure but please find me a middle ground

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hdawg1995 · 6 years

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My Stardew Valley started flipping out cause i was playing it for 14 hours strait and it legit did some creepy pasta stuff so heres a creepy pasta

reality: somewhere around hour 10 Kent’s sprite only loaded half way (his eyes and up) or not at all. Willy was just a shadow- even when interacting with him. at one point he phased though Haley (and it was the only time his sprite was fully visible) side note: me and my sister declared willy a ghost because the fishing in my game was such lack luster. Gunther was probably the same since i never saw him at the museum but was still able to donate. lastly Alex glitched though a already glitched haley- she was on the beach even though her schedule wouldn’t have put her there. i wasn’t able to interact with her but a part of me wonders if i went to her house (where she was suppose to be) if i would see her shadow and would be able to interact with her there, but i was too far in a “yup. totaly writing a creepy pasta about this now” mood.

The Creepy pasta:

i really don’t know what to say now other than everyone was right- a game about a fun little town in a sleepy valley being secretly evil? yeah, its true.

i was playing Stardew Valley one day with my sister- i had woken up in a sour mood and i wanted to cheer myself up. at one point she came by and hung out with me, watching me play on my farm and the normal day to day antics with the pelican town NPCs. we were laying on my bed since it was the only place comfortable enough to play on the laptop for hours on end.

i lost track of time. everything felt too real, like i was getting lost in the game. this is normal, but i knew there was something wrong when it took my sister kicking me in the head snap me out of it.

“oh my god i’m so sorry! i meant to nudge you!” she declared and it was fine, really, but when i glanced back at the screen Harvey was talking to me. i don’t even remember interacting with him- must have clicked him when i get hit in the head. it seemed normal enough; he was mentioning he was having trouble making ends meet so he’ll have to get patients from somewhere else.

i went back to playing as we chatted about nothing when something struck me.

“hey...” i asked my sister as i paused the game. “Doesn’t harvey normally say he’ll find patients from the nearby towns?” she blinked a few times at me then silently checked the wiki.

there wasn’t an answer there, so we shrugged it off. wouldn’t be the first time NPCs change their dialog. Sebastian mentions that me and sam are his only friends after so many hearts.

speaking of which, i wanted to give him a present today. i had forgotten the quarts at the farm so i rounded back, heading past Sam’s house. i got lost in the game again- it was like the only thing i could hear was the game, the only thing i could feel was the cobble stone under my feet but that wasn’t right- i was in bed.

when i walked by Sam’s house Kent walked out. i smiled and talked to him only... His sprite wasn’t there in the dialog box. his text was also jumbled and didn’t make sense. the prompt to continue the conversation came up and when i clicked it the text was less garbled but Kent’s image was just his eyes. he said “I’ll watch out for you”.

i snapped out of it at that. i looked over at my sister to ask her if that was normal (it wasn’t) but she seemed so transfixed on the screen it was my turn to snap her out of it. i smacked her on the head and she flinched but seemed alright.

“sorry, i meant to nudge you.” i joked, but she didn’t seem to hear me. “I thought Kent came back from war?” she questioned and i tilted my head. “Umm. yeah he does, in year two...” i turned back to the screen and Kent was gone.

“You were just talking to Sam- he said his dad died?”

we both stared at each other before taking out our phones to chick the wiki. sure enough it says Kent returns in year two- alive.

we decide my games glitched and i keep playing while my sister makes a bug report. it took me far too long to realize dialog nor included in the game showing up out of no where- and for only ONE person for that matter- was anything BUT a bug. by the time i got to the farm and had gotten the quarts for Sebastian the report had been sent and my thoughts died in my throat.

a few in game days later i realize Harvey has been acting weird; hes been following Haley around. i don’t pay much attention to the doctor (Sam, Sebastian, and Shane being my favorites i tended to look out for them, not so much HAley or Harvey) but i didn’t think they shared a pattern at all.

i brushed it off and decided to head down to the beach. Alex’s cut scene triggered so i say back and watched. it seemed normal until his sprite changed to the surprised looking one.

“Did you hear a scream just now?”

>no? what scream? >.... >yeah! it sounded like Haley!

my sister swore and looked up the wiki again. con confirm: not part of the cut scene. i thought for a moment and decided that no, i didn’t hear anything (but i really hadn’t). Alex seemed worried and went to investigate. the scene ended but Ale wasn’t on the beach anymore. i was really starting to freak out and debated turning off the game. before i could exit to the desktop i got lost in the game again- the fishing mini game is the devil but i mastered it none the less. i didn’t even remember casting my rod.

it was getting late so i headed home. Harvey was standing on the bridge to the beach. i didn’t talk to him since it was mid night. i needed to get home.

when i woke up it all seemed normal. i decided to take the fish i got last night and sell them to willy. i wasnt sure how to get the fishing scene in the valley more lively like he’ll some times says so i figured if i sold the fish directly to him it would help. when i went down to the beach i saw haley but she wouldn’t talk to me. she stared out at the ocean, her dialog box just dots. her expression sad.

when i went to see willy he wasn’t there. at first i thought i was at the dock at the wrong time, but something cold pressed against my arm and i snapped up out of the game and looked at my sister- she was holding the Gatorade she had gotten earlier to my arm.

“you were ignoring me again. Sib i think somethings seriously wrong with your game”.

i agreed but i couldn’t stop playing. i explained this and she got worried, fiddling with her phone again.

i can’t stop playing. i have to keep playing.

“hey” she got my attention. “theres this stardew turmblr account -joja apologist. they have a farmer whos a demon.”

“cool.” i kept playing. i should give Sam a present. “No listen they’re making posts about their stardew game acting weird.”

i tried to turn to face her but thats all i did- face her. my eyes were locked on the screen as Kent walked by. i went to talk to him again and the same thing happened- jumbled words and no sprite and then just his eyes and the declaration that he’ll watch out for me.

“They did Harvey started attacking people so they would HAVE to go to him for meds and stuff.” she sounded worried so i hummed in reply.

then i remembered Alex’s broken cut scene.

“Haley!” i scrambled over to her house and found a cut scene waiting for me. in it Harvey was telling Emily something. my farmer walks up to them and Harvey greets me, but his portrait is distorted some- he has wide eyes and a grin that seems to reach his ears. he asks me to try and comfort Emily- she just lost her sister.

I felt sick at the thought; this was wrong. very very wrong.

<But i saw her the other day. <no... no not Haley.... <*give Emily a hug*

My sister stared dumbfounded at the screen. i asked her if that tumblr blog saw anything like this and she begins scrolling. as im watching her i’m faintly aware of a sound... like dripping or maybe clicking? i glance at the screen and scream, shooting up and off my bed as Harvey’s portrait changed to have hyper realistic eyes and teeth. the eyes were blood shot and seemed to follow me and my sister as we shifted on the bed to get away from the laptop.

“w-what the FUCK” she yelled. i clung to her protectively, thoroughly convinced his digital doctor was off his possibly very real rocker and could possibly do something to us.

the mouse moved on its own now. it selected to give Emily a hug and the farmer did just that. the cut scene went on, Harvey’s portrait no longer the disturbing version (well it was still disturbing with the wide eyes and chestier grin but at least now it was pixels again). he said he did all he could for Haley and that he was sorry. he then left my farmer and Emily alone.

“Turn it off.” my sister stated as we continued to stare at the screen. “Turn it off.” I nodded numbly and didn’t even both with the proper exit and just held the power button down.

only it didn’t work.

i held it down for what felt like forever but the laptop was still alive- and it was midnight again.

“Oh fuck no...” She whispered and i scrambled to get my farmer home. when the day ended and the game saved and felt a lump form in my throat. what if Haley is forever dead in my save now? and what about willy? and...

“Wait wheres Alex?” i muttered as i went to town. i bumped into pam and in my frantic scrambling clicked her. to my horror she looked scared. “Did you hear? Alex nearly drowned at the beach! to think, wouldn’t a guy as athletic as him know how to swim?” she then went on her way. i paused for a moment directed my farmer to town again. Alex walked out of the clinic and when i talked to him he seemed fine. gave the normal dialog too.

“Why the hell are you still playing?” My sister shouted from behind me- i didn’t even notice I've scooted directly in front of the laptop, blocking her view. “I thought you were going to exit the game.”

thats right. yeah. turn it off. right.

then Harvey walked out. his sprite was normal but it felt like it was watching me. curious, i moved my farmer down towards Sam’s house. to my horror Harvey was following me.

“Holy shit. HOLY SHIT!” my sister grabbed me and shook me hard. “Holy Shit turn it off! turn it off!”

i stopped my farmer and opened the menu and screamed when i saw Harvy moving towards him even when the game was paused. i unpaused it in time for him to be stopped right next to my innocent little farmer. i kept moving towards Sam’s house.

“Holy shit...” my sister whispered. i told her to check the blog and she did. “What are you going to do?” she asked, her eyes transfixed on her phone.

“Kent is watching out for me.” i reminded her as i entered Sam’s house.

as i expected, there was a cut scene. in it Sam was playing his guitar and Vincent was in the kitchen. Kent walked out and when he saw my farmer he ran over.

“Hes after you now, isn’t he?” he two eyes of the veteran with PTSD looked though the screen at us. i nodded. “Talk to Sam. you have enough hearts with him.” and he was gone, cut scene over.

i looked over and my sister and she nodded, confirming that the blog said something simular- they were instructed to talk to Gus though. i ran strait to Sam’s room and the door opened then closed behind it. Sam stopped playing his guitar and walked over to my farmer.

“Don’t worry, you’ll be safe.” he said. Sebastian stopped playing the key boards and walked over to my farmer as well. i didn’t even notice Sebastian in the cut scene.

“Thats because i wasn’t there.” his dialog box popped up. “Harvey thinks i’m at home.”

both me and my sister just stared at the screen. Sebastian... heard me? we didn’t have much time to think about it as the sound of a crash and something hitting something very hard was heard. My farmer moved on his own with Sam and Seb following him.

outside of Sam’s house was Harvey- the creepy hyper real version- and Kent. Harvey was crawling away and Kent looked like he had just been to war again. when Harvey's sprite was off screen Seb and Sam gave my farmer a hug before they turned to face the screen. Kent joined them, his portrait going back to normal.

“You can close the game now.” he said. “S-Save it first!” Sam interrupted. “If you don’t he’ll chase you again!”

my sister had taken the mouse from me and was directing the farmer back to the farm. we saved and closed the game.

#stardew valley #creepy pasta #i made an attempt #rambles

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