#im paranoid now lmao

[snekdood]

so uh

for 1. most people are gonna take advantage of black friday and wont see your specific niche tumblr post, I hate to say it

2. the us isnt running out of money for war any time soon, so...

3. this is just antisemitism???????? all we need is some (((echoes))) around the us and israel and then I'd have no reason to suspect otherwise from op...............

#why in tf do you think they care that much about getting your money rn and not before in any other war? #does it. mayhaps. have something to do w jewish people being involved now? #our tax dollars go to the govt regardless and has been for years and we already have an obscene amount of funding for military shit #preeetty sure they're not concerned about getting a couple hundred tumblr users money... #and also pretty sure one could only believe that if they're paranoid about jewish ppl................. #hard not to put two and two together and figure out op is prolly antisemitic and hopefully they just dont realize it #i say hopefully they dont realize it bc thats better than someone who knows and is pretending to be a leftist still. #if anything this pause happened bc its thanksgiving and biden doesnt wanna think about it over the holidays. thats p much it. #thats the only amount of conspiracy theory im willing to believe in this situation lmao. #but that ^ still assumes that biden has some sort of control over this that he really doesnt #and i dont think netanyahu cares that much about thanksgiving tbr... #it sounds more like to me that op is seeing this from a very american centric pov and assumes everyone celebrates thanksgiving #or cares enough about it to remember the dates.... i dont think this is as planned as op is making it out to be and any insinuation #that it IS planned sounds like conspiracy theory talk to me personally. i dont think biden is hittin netanyahu up and going #'hey thursday is thanksgiving and would be the perfect time to pause so we can (((get peoples money))) out of them #asiftheUSdoesnthaveplentyalready' like i just really dont think that convo is happening lmao.

[bigmammallama5]

i turned in my paperwork to start selling pots in our art center's gallery shop, so now i gotta bust my ass again to get some more work churned out (which this is very cool, and i need to provide some mugs for a special instructor's "mug event" now). i went and looked around and there wasn't a terribly broad array of work? cups, bowls, mugs, some smaller serving dishes, mostly functional work. i'm thinking i'll do cups, mugs, some small bowls for ease, then i'm thinking some pumpkins (with or without a face or a lid idk), some little shroomies which are easy and cute, and then if i can get them right maybe some of those tumblers with the half lid for straws? maybe some wild clay slip...

but now bc i'm teaching more and i might have a little extra from this now, idk if i'll have the time to dedicate for illustration commissions like i had been hoping to do. im still gonna think about it, and at the very least might find a new online shop to offer prints that isn't redbubble. it's not a light decision to consider. :/

#pottery #stupid rant is stupid #teaching and the few pottery comms i have taken have helped me reach the savings goal i had for myself #and just living like i didnt get a life saving raise and putting so much of it away bc im paranoid #a lot quicker than i thought #which is great and im v thankful #but now i also feel bad about not being able to get the time to follow through on offering illus comms lmao #which i know is something i shouldnt feel bad about but i do and yes i need to go to therapy about that and a lot of other things #mmhhh #man almost losing your housing after years of living on the edge of losing a lot can really fuck you up cant it LOL #but anyways #life update #i guess #im also not expecting to be making a lot from the shop at all either #but its very cool #but the gallery DOES have an online shop #and they do have a shipping option #ill yell about it at some point lol #man if i wasnt in a tiny apartment and had room for a wheel #id have some of my logistics solved #one day lol

[everythingisround]

not vagueposting about anyone in particular (i like yall dont worry) but i get a teensy bit annoyed when newer raggedy fans interpret andy as this soft uwu baby boy who secretly loves everyone and will protect them at all costs. im sorry but if i dont see andy carrying a fistful of explosives ready to blow up a nearby orphanage at any moment and then immediately after go vent to some kid on roblox about his life problems then it’s not worth my time lolz

#raggedy andy #raggedy ann #raggedy ann and andy #this is completely unserious i promise #andy deserves to have a stick of dynamite every now and then! #he receives sustenance that way #he feeds off of chaos #i also think andy would be extremely paranoid tho #like a ladybug could make him tweak #sometimes i feel like i project way too much of my own personality onto this stupid rag doll lmao #charlie’s last remaining brain cells fighting for survival #you know what im tagging the musical too #rag dolly broadway #rag dolly #rag dolly musical

[proserpine-in-phases]

Just got a voicemail from a debt collector wtf. I dont owe any debts. Well I'm not calling them back. They want anything from me they can send it in writing

#crap #i never answer my phone lmao #if youre not on my contact list get fucked #even my hospital bill from october is paid like damn #got me all paranoid now i want to check my credit score #yeah nothing new on my credit report #so what the fuck #whatever im not calling them back i looked their name up and the one review of the closest match says theyre scammers and frauds lol

[hella1975]

for the first time EVER i have spent actual Big Bucks on jewellery and im so so excited about it. another bisexual win!

#like in the grand scheme of jewellery it is NOT big bucks at all #but for fucking agesssss now ive been moaning bc i like wearing rings AND i have several piercings #but i dont have ANY nice jewellery so im in perpetual green stains and just once i wanted to have actual nice jewellery #that i could wear again and again without feeling grubby #like does anyone else get hyperaware of the TEXTURE of cheap rings? i do it's like i can FEEL the metal getting into my skin #like i get super paranoid and start picturing it getting into my blood and poisoning me... haha... #it's v uncomfortable and i will avoid wearing jewellery altogether as a result despite how much i love wearing jewellery #BUT NO MORE!!! #i bought two rings that were £8 EACH one of which is from a really good brand that's known in the city for being affordable but good qualit #and that one is SUPER chunky and cool but also has the same rock in it that my grandad's ring had #and i have v complicated thoughts about my grandad but i ALWAYS loved his ring and it's weirdly comforting #but like i said. complicated. but in a nice way for once? #and i bought a single set of earrings for £10 which is. so silly to me #like tbf it's SIX earings for a tenner so it's still decent (again the good brand ones so no green ears for me!) #but i have thirds and will wear them as a single set so in my head it works out as £10 for one pair of earrings #if that makes ANY sense #but yeah! my hope is to just gradually build up my Good Quality rings until i have a collection of ones that i can wear daily #and still be comfortable AND hot #and im very much intending to keep this one earring set in for weeks like we're 4lifers now #okay so maybe this was a comfort thing but also a laziness thing lmao im just sick of constantly changing earrings #BUT YEAH!!! £26 ON JEWELLERY IN ONE DAY!!! EVERYONE CLAP THIS IS BIG FOR ME!!! #hella goes to uni

[all-thestories-aretrue]

Wynn to Neil: I think you're nuts but I don't think you're stupid. And I think that when you come across information like this, I do believe you.

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#pon podcast #pon liveblogging #pon s1ep9 #that first line kills me but its backed up so sweetly and seriously 🥺🥺🥺 #i also 100% did not understand the gravity of neils blood magic situation the first time i listened to this #shoutout to the vtm experts in my life lmao #but now im FEELING THINGS about this reveal #lowkey thought neil was kinda paranoid the first time but now i dont think that #the more you know meme

[merluvlee]

crazy how a combination of skill regression and losing all confidence in my social skills due to some bad apples and bad decisions has like. just completely ruined my ability to talk to my own friends man, people ive known for years and feel safe with

its such a hard thing to relearn and its slow going but i want to be better at this again. idk if only talking to one person a day is good

#like i feel it mid convos too #ill get that paranoid feeling and then my psychosis makes it worse so i retreat #i wouldnt even say im Lonely #but i dont want to lose my friends either #its one day at a time but i havent even Voiced these feelings until now #feel like i havent made my own tumblr post in years lmao #so may as well finally make these thoughts Tangible to me

[lovedlovingly]

it's interesting how distressed i can get by someone lying to me and still feel like IM in the wrong for reacting - as if I'm doing something wrong for voicing my distress to the person who lied to me about being lied to lmao. normal human moment eh

#hiii maybe don't lie 'for fun' to someone whos autistic and schizophrenic and will believe anything anyone says until proven otherwise #and now that youve proved otherwise - for a J O K E - i can never trust u again since im too gullible and easy to manipulate #so i literally have to try and decipher if youre lying about everything u say to me or nah now :-) #because u werent even gonna say u were joking???? unless??? I'd gotten upset??????? #so like ????????????? #today has been weird :-) some people should be kinder actually #not everyone's able to join in on 'oh your whole worldview of me was a joke lmao' funzies #and not be extremely paranoid afterwards:-) at least i cant :-)

[clownattack]

Whenever i am told thangs abt the leech i just go. What an embarrassing person gosh

#iykyk #god damn #The stupidest and most oblivious person ive ever came in relatively close contact with /gen. With several ppl who know them irl agreeing #i kind of feel bad they dont even realize this but not gonna bother myself with it its just me going damn #unfortunate #apparently they are under impression im a lurker. one of their MANY projections but possibly the funniest/most pathetic one #i literally did not see their blog/crs blog since waaay back when we were still getting along #i have 0 reason to go in their spaces #last ive heard they were obsessively going thru tags on my posts day in and out #at work out of work #that makes ONE lurker in all this haha even crink knew to stop at some point LMAO #literally all i know is from ppl telling me soz m8 #osmosis #just. the fact they believe ppl care enough to lurk on them is really funny in a sad way #ive been told they are paranoid abt one of their followers or something? #theyre nobody i know but stay paranoid ig #the assumption ppl would care enough #i was chortling while having old pellets read out for me #i would have to be insane to care abt what someone like that says #by which i mean an undiagnosed unmanaged shut in #quote /the universe hates them/ #definitely nothing to do with them being a mess #fitting that they have an alter ego/sona that is just their bad traits concentrated #like yeah. why are we even upset LMAO #projection town on their end allllllll the way it just screams /unwell and out of the loop/ #they dont know... ajajaj... #night was not happy abt that post no surprise there #YES they are enabling infidelity yes they are inserting themself. was supposed to stay in the house a few months and now. poor night jfc #nine months to go is too long #im so glad she told them

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

OH WHAT EXCELLENT TIMIJG. KILLS MYSELF

#reblogs two posts in a row that vaguely have to do with my current mental state . immediately gets a notif on insta #that ×××××× liked my post from 3 days ago about my new haircut and feeling good about myself lmao #“why dont you just block her” well you see last time i did that she wouldnt stop calling my phone until i unblocked her. #and what if i started eating fiberglass. what of it. she hasnt touched my ig in like 6 months WHY NOW #hey girl are u reading my tumblr posts still. i hate ur ass so mucj leave me alone leave me alone leave me alone leave me alone #<< im just being paranoid ive remade my blog like 3 times since she was kn here last #and also ive got all 3 of her urls that i know of blocked lollll #im going to fucking scream im going to bite my pinkie finger off at the knuckle #head jn hands #instant impulse is to delete that post and also my entire insta and also my entire online presence. #but i know that is not a good idea. im stronger than that #girl why are you so fucking obsessed with me still its weird. get a goddmn life godddddddd . jm going to kms #does a gay little dance. oh BOY i cant eait to have nightmares about this later

[jvzebel-x]

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#just met one of my neighbor's older kids for the first time (i think shes in her early teens?) #&she literally stopped out of nowhere while i was taking my trash out&was like 'you are so pretty'. #i am so incredibly happy :)♡ i love kids&every child in my apartment complex is always so sweet #but ive been more or less avoiding being around kids for a sec now due to. the world. lmao. #(i might have rewritten this post multiple times in fact bc im paranoid about sounding weird or being misconstrued) #so having such a nice passing interaction w one of the neighbor's kids was so nice&refreshing. 😭💗💗 #ive been having what can only be described as vague babyfever lately which only makes me sad bc. everything. lmao. #so i guess im just extra impacted by a child being so sweet right now. :')♡

[voidcrewcrossover]

I just realised there was a mistake in Chapter 4 oops. I didn't finish the paragraph in the version I copied so I've just fixed it.

#I need to keep track of where im writing better omg #im swapping from Docs to Notion and also using Milanote to plan things too #it sounds messy but its gonna clear up as i go #it wont happen again i swear #but im now also gonna check chapter 3 too because now im paranoid lmao #void crew crossover #gaster #herobrine #minecraft herobrine #deltarune spamton

[matchamabs]

i’ve sorta lost my best pieces for oddie through my blog somewhere but bc i’m gonna be scrapping the ENTIRE game that took me four years to make, and remaking it from the ground up starting in the new year, i thought now was good to repost some old bits from the original game plus the new poster

#ill b honest i rlly wanna keep all the pixel assets i made but #im actually considering hand drawing everything now #which sucks bc i REALLY like the face sprits #idk what to do #rpgmaker #horror #oddie's oddyssey #finally i remember what tag this was #i rlly miss my babies not gonna lie #i miss drawing them im still trying to rewrite some of the #bigger plot points #do u like character based rpg games #do u like trauma #do u like horror games that actually aren't that scary #bc i too am an enormous wimp (paranoid) #im forcing myself to having a proper work schedule next year so i can start working on this #and another extra game hehe #i might actually start planning this out more when im home for christmas #i started this in like 2017 #the entire game is like 5 hours playtime lmao #i should dust off the old server for it actually