Wow wow wow everything is so unbelievably bad I've almost been put in dormancy like 5 times this summer. I wanna kill myself so bad I'm so absolutely exhausted trying to find reasons to live. Idk, maybe I'll stick around for Em's wedding so at the very least she'll have some good memories of me and won't have to live knowing her dead friend was supposed to be at her wedding. I genuinely cannot see myself surviving this Christmas bc I am always so fucking alone and I always relapse and drink for 2 weeks straight and think abt pills the whole time
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